#could be interesting . but im not really on board with the dad thing

[sualne]

Sorry if you're already working on this but with Luffy in Croc dad what's his hobby?? Like he's the biggest ball of energy and I think if wasn't fighting wild animals as a kid he would vibrate into another dimension from lack of stimulation. Does he draw and develop his art skills, has he taken up music or is he invested with the void century with Robin? Croc wants to keep him inside and safe so what did he think would be best to entertain him or does he buy a new thing every week that Luffy says he suddenly wants to do. Yes he looks at books but is that it. Also sorry if you answered this before and I've missed waht you said, I am pretty sure I've seen all your comics on this but I haven't seen all your ask answering questions.

i hadn't gotten these questions and im so glad you ask!! :D

so! luffy doesn't have one specific hobby and croc does end up giving him whatever he wants when he suddenly gets a new obsession, one of the reason he's so excited with finding the jewelry box and getting a dagger is because it's finally something new! after that he gets really into rings and knives until it gets bored of it and switch to something else again.

about him and learning about the void century with robin i actually got a comic later for that so i won't say anything here!

im going to make this a list and explain how it goes, under read more:

Fighting: this luffy doesn't know how to fight, but he still love the concept! he gets really excited hearing stories of fights, duels, martial arts and all the rest! In practice though, since he's been so sheltered and only ever saw one real fight that ended up with people being killed in front of him as a kid, if (haha) he were to witness another real fight he wouldn't be as giddy about it as when he hears stories. he does also learn the tiniest bit of kenpo from bonclay!

Dancing: luffy in canon loves dancing (and partying), here too! he doesn't know/master any specific styles but likes to drag people into dancing with him, if no one is around he'll grab some of the smaller bananawani instead.

Singing: he's still very bad at it.

Music: croc noticed how he'd taps on thing and tried to get him to learn some percussion, unfortunately for him, luffy doesn't care about music theory and just does whatever makes him happy. he also love loud noises and croc has to find a way to stop him from making a racket at any hours of the day, it gets worse when luffy loses some of his hearing and needs to make everything even louder. eventually he gets bored of it too.

Cooking: him and croc cooks together pretty often, if no one is there to supervise him luffy will ignore recipes and common sense, making all kind of abominations. it's a miracle he never set the kitchen on fire.

Bugs: he loves them! he collect them! alive. croc is horrified one day when he finds out baby luffy has been letting some food to rot so he could observes flies and larvae going through their little bug lives cycle. later croc gives him those pinned dead bugs collection boxes thinking luffy will like it, he doesnt.

Board&Cards Games: he mostly has to play them by himself, he doesn't like being alone so he'll often ends up playing it "with" the banawanis. after he loses a few too many times against the banawanis and can't get croc to join in for the millionth time he gives up on them. even when robin joins baroques works he still expect her to be too busy to play with him and doesn't ask (she would have accepted if he had asked).

Art&Craft: he tries a bit of everything, doing it his own way meaning most of it is kind of hideous or about to fall apart, canon luffy is completely fine with that, au luffy though, he's having ton of fun at first but when he gets old enough to see that his dad cant quite fake his enthusiasm or interest towards his disastrous creations he gets frustrated and stops for a while. later, robin finds an old drawing of his and thinks its cute so he start doodling a little again for her.

basically, he struggles keeping a hobby, some like fighting, dancing, bugs and staring at pictures in geography books he keeps through his life but mostly, he's very lonely and bored out of his mind, he's depressed, that's not something that can be helped for as long as he's isolated.

when robin becomes a part of his life everything gets better for him! she spends time with him, read stories for him, helps him get out more often, they even meet bonclay and for a few years he's genuinely happy.

#crocau ask #crocodad au #<- this one gets in the main tag cause this is important lore #i probably wont be able to show all of that in comic form so im glad i get to rant about it here!! it also turned out sadder than i expecte

[slightlyhopefulromantic]

Sorry, it's kind of a long ask...

hi hello!! I really enjoy your au, and the small tidbits I find here and there paint such a vivid picture in my mind. I was wondering if you could indulge me just a little. What where the moms' reactions to meeting the Omega daddies? Specifically Samantha?

Canonically, I don't think Ron ever talked about his father besides the fact that his dad died on a fishing trip and was never proud of him. I imagine he probably opened up a little to his wife, but that was it.

Followup on that tidbit, how would Ron's anchor work? Is it like traveling through Willy's mind and seeing things from his perspective, or is it an owl house "jump through these paintings of his memories and see for yourself" situation? And since we know about the doodler's influence on that course of events, do the moms see it? (Let's be honest, the dad's are not perceptive enough to see anything besides Ron struggling).

I really enjoy your au and artwork, keep up the good work :D

(sorry that only willy and barry get neat sketches here, i realized i had no real design for either of them and so took a second pass with references LMAO)

no need to apologize for a long ask! im really glad you like the au and my art, thank you so much!! sorry this reply took so long ":]

i actually think about this a LOT, because a massive staple of my specific take on this au is that the moms... arent supposed to be here! the dads were supposed to be taken instead, just like in canon, and so everyone is quite confused throughout their interactions XD like you point out - samantha doesnt know who willy is, and in fact, no one knows who anybody else is besides morgan and bill :]

their first interactions, pre-reveal, are mostly confusion on both ends. the moms have no fuckin clue whats going on. the omega daddies are scrambling to figure out what went wrong and come up with reasons why the moms suck (not hard to do). by the time the reveal comes around, the o-dads are on steadier footing, but the moms are still utterly flabbergasted. only morgan and carol ever met their fathers-in-law, and well. obviously frank is not a villain here, so only morgan recognizes anyone LMAO

as for what samantha knows of willy and how she reacted... she doesnt (didnt) know what he looks like, and she doesnt know the full of ron's experiences in childhood. she just knows, like you said, he was an abusive father who died on a fishing trip when ron was young. she definitely knows more than most, ron has opened up to her about it, but she doesnt know the details. upon meeting him, shes. well. less than impressed! samantha is notably a very forgiving and kind character, even to those they are enemies with, but willy (and the o-dads as a whole) is someone she never gives any benefit of the doubt. as soon as she learns who he is, shes over it and very on board with "well lets just kill the guy." she hates his ass!!

as for rons anchor, im still uh. not entirely sure! but it would be more an owl house jumping-into-memories thing, not traveling through willys mind instead. though that would definitely be an interesting take... not what im going for, but something to explore in the future :3c and i dont know if the moms are all that observant either LMAO so while theyd probably have a better chance of noticing the doodler, i think they would still be mostly focused on little ron :') i do really wanna do a bigger post talking about the anchors at some point, since i have them all more figured out now than i did initially. however, logically, i should just get over myself and write the fanfiction LMAO i just am not a long form writer so that seems daunting ":]

#dndads #monsters and mommies au #samantha stampler #willy stampler #carol wilson #mercedes oak garcia #morgan freeman dndads #bill close #barry oak

[orowyrm]

Your darvo and clem vision is so right and your Brain is so huge and may I perchance trouble you for some headcanons on one or the other or both of em

YOU SENT THIS AT THE BEST POSSIBLE TIME i was just typing up some long ass rambly summary of what i think theyve both got going on since i havent really elaborated in detail on here i dnt think but i drafted it cuz i wasnt sure anyone cared. hang on this is gonna be a long one buckle up

- darvo’s time in the corpus was tumultuous and nerve wracking. he had started off genuinely trying, he really had! but nothing he ever accomplished seemed to be good enough for his father and he started to get bitter and frustrated, so he started screwing things up on purpose.

- as a callback to the first appearance of the concept art that eventually became his design being that of a system boss, his actual “””real””” name was arn etina, and he was originally a proxy engineer before his dad decided to be a cunt and force him into politics because he needed someone to inherit the chairman position.

- another nod to his design being used for the old boss portrait, he actually did some work on the ambulas project wayyy back before glast’s animo system was even considered to have any combat applications, when the proxies were instead piloted remotely by actual engineers. he was one of em, and he worked his ass off - but he didn’t think weaponry was the best use of the technology. he thought ambulas had more potential in search-and-rescue, resource acquisition, and other stuff that involved environments too dangerous to send corpus crews into. while the remotely-piloted ambulas models were definitely impressive, they were outclassed by leaps and bounds by the tenno, who made very short work of any they encountered. thus, the project was technically considered a ‘failure’ and was scrapped against his wishes, despite him being adamant that he could prove it useful if he just had more time. he never got over this. to this day he’s just as furious about what’s become of ambulas as glast is, honestly, though he doesn't let on because his previous identity is a very close-kept secret for several reasons.

- shortly after alad’s first exile from the board, darv was scooted into the freshly-vacated ‘grineer-corpus relations’ position - partially in the hopes that a ‘proper board seat’ would help get him back into line, and partially as retaliation for his perceived “failures” on the ambulas project, and life in general. historically, grineer-corpus relations has been where you end up when you’re on the shit list, as it’s regarded to be an unpleasant job (mostly due to the fact that you’re often in close contact with grineer. yeah. corpus moment)

- despite hating anything and everything politics on principle, he actually doesn’t mind this all that much, and starts to really enjoy it when he realizes that he can use this position to screw with the board’s war profiteering bullshit. on paper, his job is to negotiate and de-escalate potential conflict — most who have held the position just use it to try and instigate in order to serve their own interests. he actually puts in the effort and does his job properly, part out of spite and part because he genuinely doesn’t see the point of wasting time money resources and lives fighting over nothing, and this pisses a LOT of people off.

- there's really no way to sugarcoat it - frohd is an abusive manipulative piece of shit. he takes out all of his frustrations on people who can't fight back - mostly his subordinates, but ESPECIALLY his son. im sparing the detail because i know it can be a trigger for a lot of people (myself included) but he really beats the hell out of the poor guy, and it only gets worse as time goes on and he starts pushing back and trying to stand up for himself. there are a few incidents that leave permanent injuries/scars that he tries his best to cover up to this day

- as if that's not enough, frohd is getting really fed up with this whole groneer-corpus relations position backfiring and making him look bad, so he puts his foot down and starts actively vetoing almost everything darv tries to accomplish in an attempt to intimidate him into backing down. there’s a lot of tension. his negotiations are sabotaged on more than one occasion, sometimes resulting in casualties. to add insult to injury, an attempt is made on his life during some sort of event or something i don’t really remember. he gets shot and the bullet barely grazes his skull. he’s mostly alright but shaken up BAD. he’s convinced that his father put out a hit on him.

- eventually snaps and decides to make a run for it, sneaking out of the medbay wing he was in and stealing the first ship he could get his hands on and just gunning it, not even in any particular direction, just trying to get as far away as possible. the ship is shot down in grineer airspace and he crashes. though no body is ever recovered, it's assumed he couldn't possibly have survived and thus arn etina is legally dead from this point onwards.

clem on the other hand starts off as just... kind of a nobody. runt of his batch, only barely managed to scrape by without being culled and really only made it at all because his superiors in the barracks he was stationed to happened to have a bit of a soft spot for the new guys and wanted to give him a chance. while he's more than capable, he's mostly nonverbal which makes it a bit hard to communicate with him , as well as a bit unpredictable - he's suspected to be defective because he keeps going off and doing his own thing because it 'makes more sense'. but rather than being put down they manage to have him redirected off to an unarmed base somewhere on uhh. god, it's been so long i forget where on the star chart i had him stationed. whatever. irrelevant. point is, this place pretty much existed solely to acclimate freshly de-tubed grineer and get them trained up with as many of the basics as possible before shipping them off to their actual stations. he likes it there! it's bittersweet, because almost everyone he meets isn't there for very long before leaving and they never come back, but because the structure is designated non-combat, they're not subject to as strict regulations and he and the rest of the "security detail" he's been assigned to can kinda just chill in between routine patrols and occasionally checking on things that fall out of orbit in the general facility.

at one point, there's some looming conflict with a corpus settlement on a nearby moon who insist theyre too close for comfort and risk retaliation if they dont relocate their base - but clem's superiors aren't too worried. they've dealt with the corpus before - this has been an ongoing problem ever since they set up a mining operation on that moon, but the corpus negotiator this time around is a decent guy and seems to think this is just as ridiculous as they do, so they're sure he'll take their side again and help get this resolved. except, they get to the meeting point and he's not there. they're informed that the previous head of grineer-corpus relations has "resigned, effective immediately" and that as a result, any offers he's made them are no longer valid and they're essentially at square one. there's a lot of bullshit back-and-forth, but everyone on the grineer side of things is PISSED that the corpus negotiator seemingly flaked out on them for no reason, while the corpus are now refusing to budge where they're at. they don't even have a proper interpreter, and they're getting nowhere.

TLDR negotiations fail and their base is now under threat of attack. despite being non-combat and having almost no weapons, they're ordered to fight back rather than retreat, despite insistence that the tube-fresh in the base won't stand a chance, half of them barely know how to handle a gun, and most of the armed security are there because they've got injuries or cloning defects that make them ineligible for combat deployment anyway - this, of course, includes clem. he's determined to stick around to fight anyway, but one of the higher-ups, one of the guys who managed to put in a good word for him and get him off the kill list, he pulls him aside and tells him to get the fuck out and take as many of the new guys as he can with him. he's a little confused, as that would be directly disobeying the queens' orders for him to stay put, but he trusts this guy and does as he's told.

clem and the handful of new recruits he manage to squirrel out of harm's way are the only survivors. not long after they get out, corpus craft swoop in and basically bomb the place out. he tries to go back in for his brothers, but by the time he makes it in, there's nothing left but rubble and bodies.

the grineer cut their losses. the handful of survivors are gathered up and shipped off to various other barracks in that corner of the system - an attack like this can't possibly go unpunished, and they need all the boots on the ground they can get. clem is shuffled around to another security detail elsewhere, though it's made fairly clear that this is his last chance to 'make himself useful', and if he goes against orders even once he's going right back into the vats with the other rejects. by this point, he honestly doesn't even care. he's disillusioned with the empire and to be frank, the only thing that motivates him to keep moving at all is thinking about the fact that the only reason that everything came crashing down around him was that one corpus bastard who backed out of negotiations at the last second. that's the only reason he's bothering to fight - he doesnt care about the queens anymore, he can't bring himself to become attached to anyone else at this new barracks, not after what just happened -- he just wants to give the corpus hell.

this is where we start to get into around the part that one little bit of writing starts off -- hes bitter and jaded and out for blood, and when they get word that a corpus ship's come down not too far out and they're sending a detail out to secure the wreck, he jumps on it-- but when he does finally find himself face-to-face with the pilot, for whatever reason, he can't fucking pull the trigger. there's something inside him that refuses to hate the poor bastard, stumbling around practically bleeding out and all but begging to be put out of his misery before he's recaptured. so, against his better judgement, he helps him. grabs him and runs, tries to wrap him up as best he can with whatever he can find. doesn't even know why he's doing this, but it just feels like the right thing to do. there's no going back now, anyway - no way in hell he's not getting executed if he shows his face again. they're in this together now, whether they like it or not.

it takes them a while to get their bearings and come up with a way to get off planet - they'd both heard that defectors would retreat to the tenno relays, the only real neutral zones out there, but they've both seen their fair share of tenno and aren't entirely thrilled to be at their mercy if they can help it. it's sort of a begrudging allyship at first - though its helped by the fact that theyve got a lot in common. at some point, theyre going over their sob stories, and neither of them really make the connection as to how closely connected they really are - clem never had a chance to meet that old negotiator, and thus would never recognize him as the man right in front of him. darv was barely conscious with a nasty head injury when their meeting was meant to happen, and someone else was assigned to the job to cover for him. he was pissed, of course, when he finally came to and found out what a mess they'd made of it while he was out of commission, but when the attempts on his life didn't stop he decided he had to choose his battles and eventually dropped it altogether, as it wasn't a hill he was ready to die on just yet.

when they do finally get the hell out of there, there's a moment where they're both sort of expected to part ways, yknow, go off to their respective factions' syndicates and settle in, but darv cannot fucking STAND the perrin sequence, he really cant. not only does he think theyre boring killjoys, but he's reached a point where being around that much corpus tech genuinely makes him anxious as fuck, it's too close to home and he doesn't like it one bit. clem fits right in with the steel meridian, they welcome him with open arms and he really does feel as close to home as he could get, but there's just something missing and he can't put a finger on it. he keeps wondering about that corpus weirdo, what he ended up doing and if he's still around or moved to a different relay. eventually, neither of them can take it much longer and both try to seek eachother out, and they're basically inseparable from that point on.

honestly, i personally feel like darv would be a lot more inclined to align with the meridian of any syndicate - i think it would be funny if he was just There. no corpus allowed, but we'll make an exception for this guy because clem really likes him and we just can't say no to clem. i guess he's alright. yeah okay he's technically an agent, but -- no yeah he covered up some of his old corpus tattoos with the insignia, pretty cool huh? yeah i dunno where clem found this guy but hes a weird one. hes funny though like obviously hes kind of stupid i mean hes corpus but we like him anyway. i guess he and glast have beef, i dunno why but he's not allowed on perrin property anymore so cressa just decided to let him chill here because it makes them really fucking mad and she loves it. i guess he's a decent shot too but like that's not too impressive, it's more relevant to us that he still can't fucking handle grineer alcohol after who knows how many years hanging around here and he always coughs and splutters like a little bitch every time and its fucking hilarious. oh hes a wanted criminal??? siiiiick. anyway were gonna go set shit on fire to see what explodes -- yeah of course hes gonna be there. what did he do before defecting? i dunno man he used to be an engineer or whatever i think, he doesnt talk about it much, but he can hotwire a dargyn in about thirty seconds and he helped us build a claymore roomba the other day for a prank so he's cool in my book bro

i havent eaten all day so i need to stop typing now but i hope you understand my vision. its so important to me and i care them so much thankyou change da world my final message goodbye

#warframe #darvo #clem #SORRY ABOUT ME. THIS IS A LOT.

[emilycollins00]

Act 2 re-read! A summer of overcomings!

Celebration time!! First otsu otsu from Itaru made me nostalgic sob

“Closing night was one of the happiest moments of my life” I know this is natsugumi time but this line from Saku hit me in the feels (also seeing Masumi’s sprite laughing like that was so sweet aw)

I like Yuki sm. I mean, I have always liked him but he’s so... frank? (mmm not the word but oh well) for his age and in the auditions you see the contrast between him and Kazu. Yuki IS somewhat interested after the show but I feel he understood it might take something more for him to be on board (after all there is a lot going on), on the other hand Kazu just went for it -which is fine- but it did feel as if he didn’t think that one too much (edit after the whole read: now im thinking that maybe it’s bc he saw the possibility of creating something similar to what spring troupe showed in like... a chance to find what he was looking for in a real friendship and i might cry)

Costume designer AND actor, tsuzuru pls don’t push the hand work to a middle schooler

“Mmm… You are pretty young” Tenma I’m tilting my head and raising my eyebrow that is not how I raised you (I forgot how he behaved at first help).

I loved how the audition went! Also props to Izumi for facing the big named actor and saying basically if you keep up this behaviour no matter how good you are you are out.

It's nice hearing the parents' voices as well! Yuki’s mom felt mmm idk didn’t expect it like that? Not that it was bad but it did feel how the house worked (also sakisaka papa crying bc of his son I swear this familyyyy/pos I love him)

“Where’s my gold star?” “Up your ass for all I care” Yuki really didn’t hold back oh my GOD once again kissing location

MISUMIIII (SDFGHJ Kazu really went “Rad it’s a ghost!” I wheezing) also the mechanic of the game to make it seem he was jumping all over the place by moving his sprite quickly from one side to the other hELP

There it is, the first catch em all from Izumi I love her kahsdkhkd

“Can I have another onigiri?” “Take it, my burglar friend” these combos I’m having so much fun?? (also the etudes where so nice to see!! tenma-misumi that was real cool)

OGtenma: I SHOULD be the leader bc blah, blah-

CurrentTenma whispering: You naive fool

Misumi being happy at kazu calling him bud I might cry

I like natsugumi ambition in all honestly regarding the play (also side note but kajshj strong muku unlocked I forgot he was like that since the beginning!)

First rehearsal was good for the exp they have. I’m happy Sakuya used his powers on Tenma to make him see you can be a good leader without needing to be complaining (whoever said that this might be bc Tenma was used to this harsh treatment during his jobs I second it)

The whole thing with kazu OH I wish I could hug him. That little flat laugh made me stop the story oof. Tenma really stepped over the line with everyone and I’m super glad Izumi had a talk with him

AW the firework scene!! (also known as, the beginning of tenma’s bullying/j) I think the natsugumi story is one of the most fun bc their dynamic as a full groupe are just so chaotic filled with nostalgia? I mean, they are the youngest troupe and I know it’s intentional but I still like it <3

THE BATH DMS I SWEAR THIS TROUPE I'M CACKLING (yuki’s was heads down the best I helpppp) glad the camp went well in the end!!

Yuzo and Sakyo attacking once again wow/j

Not Izumi getting teary at the vision of his dad AND misumi giving her a triangle they both deserve so much I swear (I’m also super curious about Og-natsugumi)

EVERYONE SILENCE WILD OMI APPEARED/j he was so sweet from minute 0 aw (I’m ignoring his angst up until akigumi main story <3 nope, not today)

I can’t wait to know about Reni in future jp stories bc SIR why

Anyway mukuyuki friendship ftw I adore how they hold one another and get strong together

Kazunari’s having a hard time siding with an opinion oh that was so close to home. I wish there was a way to help when someone is not able to voice or choose bc of pressure about their surroundings mm

OK SO If Igawa has 100 fans I’m one of them. If Igawa has 1 fan I’m them. If Igawa has no fans then-

Sumeragi dad I hope you kjdfknfjk I had to stop reading again. The thought of hitting tenma whether it was a one-time thing or… yeah, I can’t. I don’t like how this was handled so no more comment!

Sob. Can Izumi give me a pep talk as well. Just one? Please?

I love this troupe dynamic I swear. Good boys all over the place doing their best!!

I also wonder about hakkaku mmmmmm (“gramps is the only one who didn’t give up on me” that was so heavy… the protractor….. I need a minute)

Off that first camera dressing rehearsal I forgot…. Aw that must have been so harsh! Tenma really froze, him practicing alone in the theatre was something.

No but I’m asking BEGGING at this point can Izumi give me a pep talk??? (what a woman I love her and admire her SO MUCH UGH)

Spring troupe encouraging aww I love tenma-saku dynamic.

Man this play was everything!! I loved the full tale and that Muku really saved Tenma there!! (I’m proud of everyone but Muku somehow seeing the first audition and this one?? The boy worked so much and it SHOWS )

Tenma calling each of them before the last play without honorifics and everyone being so sweet ofc I cried all the way until the curtain call aw… all the adlibs brought so much force to the play and seeing them hugging and so happy oof, the whole thing was so fun I’m so glad! <33

Igawa coming to see Tenma? Nice Tenma’s parents coming to see him? MMM

MUKU’S PARENTS ARE JUST LOVELY WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT THEM MORE

GASP the juza/banri fight was after the play oh wow I did NOT remember that happening!! Abstaining from commenting but ogbanri that was so rude of you, you cant just come up to someone and ask for a fight!

Not reni talking about taichi like an assassin kasdkh this man is such a drama queen

I loveeeed this ep. They didn’t focus much on each member but the interactions between them all as a groupe were adorable as time passed aw they are friends your honor 💕💕

#a3! reading club #em speaks

[weirdlizard26]

ok im going try to write my initial thoughts on mutant mayhem, MASSIVE TMNTMM SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT obviously!! another note is that a lot of these arent final ofc, just my first reaction! i will def be on the lookout for a closer investigation of these points by people smarter than me, i just need to write these down. ok lets go

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ill start with the exceptional positives :-) the animation was STUNNING and the fight scenes and chase sequences??????/ fuckin breathtaking!!! i think the dynamic btwn the turtles was rly fun too :-) and an interesting take on leo's whole leader situation! like that scene where the guys were surprised that hes on board with the hero plan,,, i also rly liked the little nods to other iterations, like when in the end raph said hes glad his brothers are the last thing hes gonna see before dying felt so similar to what 2014 raph said in a very similar situation and it was fun to notice hehe. also i know donnie having a purple hoodie is pretty generic but i like to think it was a callback to rise donnie :-) AND I CRIEDDDD WHEN THE HUMANS STARTED HELPING THEM OUT IN ANY WAY THEY COULD,,, THAT WAS SO SWEET AND I LOVE THIS SORT OF THING IN SUPERHERO MOVIES,,

now as for negatives. not a fan of the milking gag 😬 it just made me kinda uncomfortable tbh. so upset abt baxter dying right off the bat :-( idk if it wouldve been bad for the narrative or whatever but i just wish he survived. and its kinda. weird that the ONLY character to die in this movie was him idk. also not feelin great about all the mutants introduced in the movie being siblings/cousins???? especially since splinter ended up dating the cockroach lady?...... like. superfly's group all consider each other siblings and they consider the turtles their cousins and splinter is the turtles' dad so. like i know its a cartoon and its not that deep but i Do Not Like That. really fucking wish they used literally anything other than ao/t for donnie's anime of interest. come on man. also really wish the puking wasnt. like that. or wasnt there at all. man. maybe its just me idk. and finally! got some mixed feelings on the conclusion with superfly. LIKE. yes obviously the goal of murdering all humans on earth is Bad but ultimately his point was that humans cant accept the existence of mutants. and i mean. his point was kinda proven over and over again throughout the movie? and literally the only reason the mutants (minus superfly) were welcomed into society or whatever was because they helped defeat "a bad mutant". but that. sends a weird message? i think? bc like. so if youre just existing as someone different from others, people can just outcast you and thats totally cool and fine and if you want to be accepted you have to be useful to them in some way? i dont think thats a very good message gdkjfgd,,, idk maybe its not that deep either but it left me feeling kinda. wondering how long this would even last,, which sounds pretty pessimistic but i hope im getting my point across.

thats all i had to say on the matter for now! once again, im looking forward to reading more different opinions on this movie and im hoping someone mentions any of this so i know im not insane <3 ig let me know what u think if u think its important? im always always willing to learn

#wl26 #tmnt #mm #turtleposting #this is so nerve wracking to post kgdfjngd guy who is so anxious #(guy who is just stating his initial reaction to a movie) surely this makes me a bad person

[roughentumble]

A Comprehensive List of Henry Cavill's Movies And TV Shows, And Whether I Personally Think They're Worth Watching

**Updated and current**

as requested by the oh so lovely @fangirleaconmigo

obviously take this list with a grain of salt, as im just one man, and i certainly have my biases. and even if something is in the "not worth it" section, if something about it intrigues you, feel free to totally ignore my advice! sometimes the best evenings come from watching reportedly terrible films, and one of my favorite Henry Cavill movies was summarily panned by critics and audiences alike. that being said, let's start with the stuff i didnt like.

NOT WORTH IT:

Red Riding Hood

----> Available for free on youtube, and yet still not worth your time. Poorly made, often unsettling, with bad music (in a musical of all things) and children forced into racist caricatures. Very funny if you want to watch Henry Cavill suck on a lollipop and get punched by a farting werewolf, however.

Vendetta (A.K.A. Laguna, A.K.A. Hotel Laguna)

----> Technically semi-competent... I suppose it's a mob movie? Also his film debut! But it's largely boring, and the entire film hinges on a sexual relationship between teenage Cavill and an older woman. Genuinely and deeply uncomfortable when she fondles his bare chest, and it's inescapable how much he LOOKS like a child in this film. If I never see a teen that young kiss an adult again, it'll be far too soon. *shivers in disgust*

Sand Castle

----> A war movie, and not a very good one. While I commend it for its attempts at an anti-war message (a very "why are we even over there" vibe), that doesn't make the movie less boring or more watchable. Those who love war movies didn't like it, and it wasn't anti-war enough to seduce the likes of me.

The Tudors (TV)

----> I think my mom summed it up perfectly when she said, in reference to her attempts to sit through season 1 and questions of why she bothered, "there was less on TV back then." (She never made it into season 2, by the way.) It's like the other historical dramas of it's ilk, so if you go crazy for those feel free to give it a shot, but even among its peers it's kind of not great. From the era where showtime really was putting an eye-rolling amount of sex in their shows, so get ready to be accused of watching soft-core porno on the family television like I was.

That being said, a lot of the sex scenes are Cavill's, so if that's your poison, this show'll keep you well fed.

Night Hunter (A.K.A. Nomis)

----> Apocalyptically terrible writing and editing. The performances the cast gave weren't bad, and the camera work itself looked plenty nice, but anything good to be said about the film is dragged down by the foundation itself being utterly rotted. Maybe good to put on to mock... when you aren't confused or bored to tears.

Hellraiser: Hellworld

----> It breaks my heart to say it, because I did find joy in this odd little film, but it's so genuinely bad that I would be a liar to place it anywhere else on the list. Campy and fun in places, but largely just boring, slow, confusing, and BAD. Not a real Hellraiser movie, not enough gore to appease horror fans, not meta enough to be meaningful while still being so meta it drags you out of the story. Genuinely the ending doesn't make sense.

If you're wildly in love with Henry Cavill, you'll love Mike. I love when he gets hooked in the chest and dies, the "sweet cheeks?" line is iconic, his zombie look is adorable. I'm getting a tattoo of the meat hook from this movie.

Do not watch it.

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MAYBE? I GUESS? I'M NOT YOUR DAD, I CAN'T CONTROL YOU:

Immortals

----> Some technically interesting work here, some nice fight choreography, and a unique visual style to the film. And yet it has such a blandness of performance across the board for all its actors, and such a confused and thoroughly Christian approach to what was supposed to be a story about greek myth, I could never recommend it to anyone. (Since when does Zeus "not interfere" in the lives of humans???) Just enough style points to eek it's way out of the "no" pile.

Whatever Works

----> Whatever Works is a Woody Allen film. This is enough to make it a controversial choice on its own. Certainly one of his lower quality works as well. Henry Cavill as Randy was a delight, however, so give it a chance if you watch Woody Allen movies! Not as bad as I thought it would honestly be, and again Cavill was really good as Randy, but I can't really in good concious put it in the recommend section.

Tristan + Isolde (2006)

----> Billing itself as an alternative to Romeo and Juliet, I mostly found the film to be boring, and I thought James Franco was a bland, boring lead. Other performances in the film were good (especially Rufus Sewell as Marke and Sophia Myles as Isolde), the movie looked fine, it just... was boring. Watch if you're an absolute sucker for this kind of period drama, otherwise skip it.

I Capture the Castle

----> I was deeply unkind to this film when I watched it. I didn't exactly go into it expecting to have a good time or with much of an open mind, which potentially colored my experience. I... didn't have a good time watching it, to be frank. But perhaps if you go into it with a kinder outlook, you'd enjoy it more. A film about love's many forms, how it often hurts us, and it's utterly illogical nature. If you bother watching it, I hope it's kinder to you than it was to me. Perhaps you'll even agree to walk with it through the bluebells, who knows?

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DEFINITELY WORTH IT:

Stardust

----> Not really "a Henry Cavill movie", as he's only in it for a few minutes, but the film is an exceedingly fun fantasy romp that's well worth your time. It's something of a cult classic for a reason.

Count of Monte Cristo

----> Excellent adaptation of an old classic, delightful watch. Cavill as Albert was wonderful, Jim Caviezel as Edmond was fantastic, and the ending made me genuinely gasp and sit on the edge of my seat. I didn't expect to love it, and yet I absolutely do!

Argylle

----> You don't get a whole lot of henry cavill for your buck, but it's a fun goofy spy film that you could easily watch with the family! Sam Rockwell is also there, as well as Bryce Dallas Howard, and theyre both fun to watch. Ignore the fact the special effects look like they spent $12 on them, and allow it to just be a fun time, and it'll treat you right!

The Cold Light of Day

----> Nothing mindblowing, and Sigourney Weaver + Bruce Willis give shamefully bad performances. And yet, Cavill is a charismatic lead, the chase sequences appropriately thrilling, and it's overall a perfectly servicable action movie. Grab some popcorn and make a movie night of it, IMO.

Blood Creek

----> Another perfectly servicable film. Not blowing any minds, but fun while it's on. Unfortunately, the plot relies heavily on Nazi mysticism (a personal pet peeve of mine), and some of the CGI leaves something to be desired. But still, at its heart it manages to be a very fun horror flick, if you're into cheap horror like me.

The Man From U.N.C.L.E.

----> This is... a flawed movie. And it's extremely hard to recommend when Armie Hammer is so unintentionally frightening in his role as Illya. And yet, the intro sequence is so FUN, Cavill as a thief is so delightful, I'd be remiss not to recommend it. Fun little spy romp!

Mission Impossible: Fallout

----> It is a Mission Impossible movie. Not much more to say, you either love them or hate them, but they know EXACTLY what they're doing, and they have it down to a science.

Enola Holmes

----> A great time all around! Go into it expecting it to skew for younger audiences, and you'll have an absolute blast. 13 year old me would kill to watch this movie. Millie Bobby Brown was great as Enola, and her relationship with Cavill's Sherlock genuinely tugged at my heart, because I am deep down a huge sap.

Enola Holmes 2

----> Ditto! Same as the first, just as worth your time!

Lynley Mysteries & Midsomer Murders (TV)

----> Lumping these two together, as they're both one-off episodes of long-running, competently made, british police procedurals. The episodes are definitely worth a watch, though I can't speak to either series as a whole.

The Witcher (TV)

----> Obviously divisive among long standing fans of the series, and not without its flaws (S2E2, jfc), but ultimately for all my bitching, I'm a TWN stan, and Henry Cavill's Geralt owns my heart. Also probably the reason you're reading this list, so I don't feel the need to expand all that much.

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YES, THE DC MOVIES GET THEIR OWN HEADING:

-> *long, beleaguered sigh*

-> ok so, like. ok. how much do you like superhero movies? how much of your life are you willing to devote to a zack snyder production that spent half the time setting up plot threads for a large expanded universe that the execs very suddenly pulled the plug on? how little do you love yourself.

-> jokes aside there are redeeming qualities in these films, and if you really love the characters i'm certain you'll find value in some of them.

Man of Steel

----> Despite my very real and present complaints about odd tone, too much illogical lip service paid to the armed forces, a runtime that makes me want to start throwing punches (Just skip the first 20 minutes exactly. They do not matter. They do not add anything), a sterility to the script, and lack of care or acknowledgement given to civilian lives (something at the heart of superman and present in THE AVENGERS, so to do worse than the avengers is pretty egregious)... IT'S STILL a decently fun and entirely servicable (apologies to Mr. Cavill for how many times I use that word in reference to his films) superhero movie. I like Cavill's Clark Kent! I like his little bouncy curls, and I like how much he loves his momma. Superman is fun! He's my friend. MoS worth it, if you can find it in your heart to spare 2 and a half hours for it.

----> VERDICT: WORTH IT

Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice: Ultimate Edition

----> Don't bother watching anything other than the Ultimate Edition. It's the only one you'll find half the time you're looking for the film, anyway. This film, to me, is the sink or swim moment. Tooth-grindingly long, and more of what you got in Man of Steel. It's-- ok, I didn't like the Christ allegory, but that's also blatantly Zack Snyder's entire thing wrt Superman, so I can't blame the movie for being exactly what it said it was. If you can get through this movie and enjoy it, then the rest of the DCEU films will be a breeze, and you're now officially A Fan. If this movie is a slog that makes you wanna die, do not bother with any other DCEU films, this is the point where they're officially Not Your Thing (said with affection, not derision). Despite all my complaints, Superman is my best friend and I think about this movie constantly. Wonder Woman is the best. Clark STILL loves his mom(yay!!!). The fact they decided to tackle doomsday+the death of superman as their plotline for this movie is so fascinating to me that I'm giving them points for sheer audacity.

----> VERDICT: WORTH IT, KIND OF, BUT FEEL FREE TO TURN IT OFF AND NEVER WATCH A DCEU MOVIE AGAIN

Justice League (Joss Whedon's Cut)

----> *rubbing my temples* Everything within me screams to tell you not to watch this abomination of a film, because of Joss Whedon's obvious and blatant racism and sexism, but it is admittedly much shorter and a bit easier to follow if you're not a fan of Snyder's style or you're not a big comic book person. Whedon made reshoot decisions that removed the black character Victor Stone, A.K.A. Cyborg, from prominence in the plot. He was arguably the(or at least a) main character in Snyder's version, and Whedon cut his scenes extensively, and then added extra scenes to make Batman the protagonist instead. Not to mention adding in scenes of a slightly sexual nature that Gal Gadot(Wonder Woman's actress) refused to film, which he then got a body double for and digitally added her face in post. BUT!!! But. I must admit. 2 and a half hours versus 4 and a half hours is an appealing cut-back in length, and some people find it difficult to follow Snyder's exposition-heavy style. Plus there are a few added scenes of Superman which are genuinely adorable, if very short. If you're a fanatic, watch both. If you just want to watch one version... Well, I would recommend Snyder's, but weigh the pros and cons for yourself.

----> VERDICT: WATCH IT IF YOU 1) LIKE DC FILMS BUT 2) AREN'T THAT INVESTED, AND 3) ARE LOOKING FOR SOMETHING SHORTER OR PERHAPS EASIER TO FOLLOW. IF NONE OF THOSE CONDITIONS APPLY, DON'T WATCH.

Justice League (Zack Snyder's Cut. Also knows as "Zack Snyder's Justice League")

----> Genuinely unforgivably long. Zack Snyder, I don't forgive you for the length of this movie. AND YET I personally had a total blast with it. Coming hot off the heels of Whedon's cut, seeing Cyborg more fully fleshed out was like a dream come true, and some of Whedon's trademark 'humor'(which these days I find grating) is thankfully lacking. I personally find it to be a better movie, a better showcase of the characters, and all around more fun, but I had also innoculated myself against the strain of long Zack Snyder superhero movies by doing marathons of his other DC films before diving into this one. Also the film has a lot of references to future plotlines which will never fully make sense, because they were sequel set-ups for movies that never got made. Those parts are... hard to sit through, whether because of confusion/boredom or the heartbreak of knowing you'll never get to see that movie which doesn't exist(depending on your emotional investment). For some reason this film is split up into like 5 or more different "chapters", and I theorize that you could watch one chapter a day like it's an episode of television if you need to not watch it all in one sitting, and you might get a better experience out of it that way. Superman is here and he's still my friend! He still loves his ma soooo much! There's a super fun scene with his heat vision!! Wonder Woman and Cyborg and The Flash and Aquaman are here!

----> VERDICT: THIS IS THE VERSION I RECOMMEND IF YOU'RE SOLD ON WATCHING THE JUSTICE LEAGUE, BUT I WOULDN'T BEGRUDGE YOU IF THE RUNTIME SCARED YOU AWAY. WEIGH THE PROS AND CONS BETWEEN THIS AND WHEDON'S CUT, AND WATCH WHAT WORKS FOR YOU. AND IF YOU DON'T LIKE DC MOVIES PLEASE DON'T MAKE YOURSELF WATCH THIS.

Zack Snyder's Justice League: Justice Is Gray

----> Literally just Zack Snyder's cut of the Justice League, but in black and white.

----> VERDICT: PLEASE DEAR GOD DON'T WATCH THIS IF YOU'VE ALREADY WATCHED THE OTHER ONE. IT ISN'T WORTH IT. DON'T SPEND FOUR HOURS OF YOUR PRECIOUS LIFE ON "THE SAME MOVIE BUT IT'S BLACK AND WHITE NOW"

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CHEAT FILM:

I must admit that, despite saying I've watched "everything" Cavill's ever made, I've only seen clips of his performance for the following film.

In Goodbye, Mr. Chips, he only has a 5 minute apperance. It seems a good enough movie, I suppose, but I couldn't bring myself to sit through hours of TV movie for 5 minutes of Cavill, especially not when his scene has been politely uploaded to youtube. His scene was moving, despite the fact I experienced it completely disconnected from the rest of the film, so make of that what you will.

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...phew! ok, that's everything, i think.

feel free to disagree on any of my placements. also feel free to watch night hunter and then come yell in my inbox about how it sucked, because i am constantly shouting into the ether about it and no one understands my pain.

i hope this is helpful for anyone interested in watching some hcav movies but not sure where to start... i suppose i am now some sort of authority on the matter, though i didnt intend to become one lmao.

im very excited for his upcoming roles, both in the romance The Rosie Project, and in the rumored Highlander film. not to mention an Enola Holmes sequel (!!!) and..... Argylle, which i will make myself watch because i am now committed. hopefully i can find some way to distract myself from his truly terrible hair... though i never would've started my marathon if i hadn't been disgusted by his haircut in Argylle, and then immediately wanted to see him as a spy with GOOD hair. so i suppose i have to thank it, which i will do by sitting through the whole movie. thank you and you're welcome, mr. cavill (EDIT: it turned out great 10/10, yay!)

if anyone likes this enough or cares, i can update it to include more henry cavill movies as they come out! <3

#long post tag #writing tag #if yall would prefer this go under a read more instead of a long post tag hmu and i'll do that instead! :)

[wtfxeden]

☆ —— look who’s joining the infinite tour! only SONG EDEN, who is the RHYTHM GUITARIST of TIDAL. i’ve heard whispers that the 28 year old is pretty FREETHINKING but lowkey SELF-INDULGENT. also, doesn’t he remind you of JUNG JAEWON?

Hey whats up hello pals! It’s Emma, once again bringing you my son, Eden. HERE’S a little pinterest board if you’re interested. Please show him some love and if you’d like to plot then like this post and I will come to you! :D

Little run down:

Eden grew up in New York with a single mother. He never met his dad and his mother didn’t like to talk about him much. Around his mother he liked to pretend it never bothered him since his life never felt like it was missing anything. but theres a part of him still hurt he’d walked out on them. 

His mother worked at a public library and when he wasn’t at school he was losing himself in the stacks of books while his mother worked or getting into a little trouble with friends. Life was easy. It was simple and he had no complaints.

Everything changed when his mother passed away due to illness when he was 9. Eden was forced to move to Seoul with his grandmother which he only really knew from speaking to her over the phone. Although he didn’t know her much, he took comfort in the stories she would tell him about his mother from when she was little.

When he was old enough, Eden would help his grandmother at her cafe after school. That’s where he was first found. Scouts had come in for a drink and took an interest in his good looks.

The idol life wasn’t something he’d dreamed of, but after watching his grandmother work endlessly day in and out he decided to try it out. He wanted to relieve some of the burden.

She got to see him debut but sadly passed away a few years after. That’s when he became a bit unhinged.

He no longer had any family or really any reason to work towards something. He became reckless. The once good boy that did everything he could for his family was gone. Drinking and drug use became a regular thing for him despite the consequences.

Tidbits:

group problem child. probably has had the most scandals. some true. some not.

undercover soft boy with a lot of feelings and doesnt know what to do with them

POOR COPING MECHANISMS !!

has a tendency to speak before thinking so dont be surprised if he accidentally offends you

also plays the piano. self taught

bi king

has a sweet tooth. always carrying around candy

lost track of how many tattoos he has. some piercings. 

can make the best coffee you’ve ever had

likes keeping active on the bands social media. often posting small tiktoks of him playing kinda like THIS 

loves writing. probably has a bunch of ideas written down on his arm when he cant find paper and is too dumb to remember he can put it in his phone notes

has a love for photography and capturing a fleeting moment before its gone. his favorites are polaroids 

dog person but not the kind that hates cats. cats are cool in his book

possible connections:

sneaky link, someone hes fake dating for pr, exes on good terms/bad terms, confidant, besties, drinking/smoking buddy, good influence. acting costar, fellow mcs, anything rly im open to all ideas!

#infinite:intro #i missed my son

[riseninsaturn]

oh??? pokemon au???? please take this ask as an opportunity to share more (if you'd like!) >_>

using this as an opportunity to actually flesh out some plot as opposed to me just kind of mindlessly thinking about it earlier-- i have a tendency to always make pokemon AUs regardless of the fandom i'm in because despite not playing many pokemon games im so obsessed with spending hours just looking at different pokemon types and moves and creatures, so.

i think plot wise we would have the classic Phoenix protagonist Edgeworth rival situation, Gregory can be the scientist father who dies at some point idk. Maya is one of the Water (? I feel like) trainers who starts accompanying Phoenix around, etc. you find out later that Edgeworth's adoptive sister, Franziska's, dad is one of the elite 4 who also doubles as Bad Guy Group-- Phoenix ends up defeating him, it ends platonic but over time they both grow up, Edgeworth goes to a different region to become a gym leader and/or scientist and Phoenix becomes a local gym leader (who eventually falls from grace somehow, idk something happens and he stops caring so much about putting up a good fight? idk)

I think w/ the Apollo and co cast we have more liberty to get funky with it since a lot of that earlier stuff is kind of following the generic plots of most PKMN games. TBH I cannot conceive of any real plot here and this is where I start to get more focused on just thinking about the types everyone has.

if i WERE to write a PKMN AU it'd be a few assorted ficlets in that universe or just one one-shot exploring it. I think that Ema is definitely a scientist interested in studying the PKMN who happens to kind of roam around the regions and keeps meeting up with Apollo, first coincidentally but at some point tries purposefully to hang out with him b/c friendship. Klavier is def a rival but I do think it'd be kind of interesting if he was a former Elite 4 or something alongside Kristoph? dunno but I do think that'd be cool.

it's late so I'm just going to kind of skim through a few websites but I want to put some genuine thought into this with different stats and strengths and locations etc, but just basic perspective on types & pokemon

Athena NEEDS an Audino. Then, either a Gallade or Medicham, because I think her having a Psychic + Fighting is very in character. I only think she keeps a few around-- I don't totally know her role yet in terms of this but her and Apollo are besties, naturally, and her and Simon are familial. (Note: Athena with a Mimikyu would be kind of iconic).

For characterization purposes SOMEONE needs an Absol. I think it would be cool if Klavier had one personally but I also could be on board with Edgeworth having one, I think you could take that in a few different directions for both.

I don't totally have reasoning for this but I think Apollo with a Wooper/Quagsire is REALLY funny. As a whole I'd want to give him a fairly diverse range of Pokemon, but leaning towards some of the more common ones, if that makes sense? Think he has a Pidgey evolved along the way, probably a fire/fighting, ground, etc.

The Paynes are known for fighting as a duo and both of them always have a Weezing.

This is a little out there but hear me out: Phoenix with an Abra (evolved along), because it's well established that he's lucky as fuck.

Klavier has a Malamar because I like to think i'm funny. He might also have a Sneasel though. fuck, I didn't want to make him a Dark type that was exactly the opposite of my point but i keep finding really great dark types for him LOL

Simon with a Honchcrow, obviously. Also at least one Dragon type for symbolism, or something.

this is the most fun thing i've done all day but unfortunately i have to sleep early for school tmrw :/ if you have more thoughts sully pls share always such a delight to see u in my inbox and notifs makes me smile lots. sorry for rambling i just have a lot of feelings about pokemon

#saturn.au #saturn.ask #i'll figure out a tagging system for friends and mutuals at some other point #long post #ok to rb etc

[raethethey]

hey its me. rae. im fine. im just having a breakdown rn and uhh idk how to deal with that really. like in a healthier way. whenever i was little and had an overwhelming experience or a day filled with anxiety i would shut down and escape to my room and turn on music and hug my blankie. but like thats not really dealing with the issue yk, its ignoring it until i forget abt it and then it happens again sometime later. i get stressed over the little things and they pile up. but idk when the mountain ever topples bc i pile it up behind me if that makes sense. just throwing it over my shoulder yk.

read at your own risk. i delve deep into traumas.

i grew up in a sheltered house, lower middle class, religion available to me. i didnt show up to school and have teachers pull me aside and ask me questions abt my parents and home life. but i did have issues. i apparently had a mother who occasionally abused alcohol (i guess i blocked this out and thought she was just smiley a lot) i had a father who decided a belt was more efficient than his hand when disciplining us, soap mouth washing was normal, holding his hand over my sisters mouth so the neighbors wouldnt hear her absolute monster of a meltdown screams (she could scream/ i was sitting on my bed watching this and covering my ears as best i could) yes he let her breathe but she was 7(?) she would just take a breath to scream again. i witnessed holes in the wall but never a bruise on my mother or father. (thats when cps was called) (thats when i realised i would become a statistic kid someday). i witnessed so many tears and yelling and walking out the front door (or even getting out of the car on a highway exit in the middle of a state we didnt live in to get away from him) i witnessed my mother connect with the ladies at church who didnt wear big hoop earrings or high heels or gaudy make up bc they grew up with 'bigger' struggles. (divorced parents, trailer homes, smoking, a sister who got pregnant at 14). i witnessed my dad struggle with someone who wasnt a good match for him but he was religious, death should happen before divorce. he would plead and beg and that sound when his voice cracked haunts me to this day. on the 28th of december when they gathered us to tell us they were divorcing i stood up, said, "i knew it." and went to my room until i had to pee or eat or go to school i dont remember. i lived between 2 separate houses until i turned 18 always lugging my sister around after she came back from boarding school for 2 years. i chose to live with my dad bc he was more financially and mentally stable. do i regret that? almost everyday. would i go back and change my choice? no.

im attending college rn with almost nothing in my bank account and no more help from dad. im scared bc im not smart, i believe i have learning issues bc not every teacher teaches the same and its been a constant guessing game as to whether ill pass or not based on them. i can apply myself when i get interested but if you lecture us like youre talking like a middle schooler abt the weather in an awkward convo with your crush, what the hell am i supposed to get excited abt?

how am i supposed to live in a home that expects more than i think i can give just because im an adult? with a man who doesnt understand social anxiety or burn out or depression bc he has the lord and faith and hope and he doesnt need to worry abt whats next. how am i supposed to recover from a night of not sleeping and watching youtube videos to drown out the thoughts (sometimes suicidal) and then be expected to get up at 8am and go apply to 7 jobs and grocery shop for your ass and clean the house and not take a nap that turns into 15hours of dead sleep at noon bc im adult and thats just what adults do.

no thats society. thats society fucking everything up for ill minds and those with disabilities and disorders and chronic sickness. society tells me i need to move out at 18 (when your brain only finishes developing at 27 ish). society tells me i need to figure out my life when im not even a 1/10th thru it. to get a degree at 22 a job at 23 bc youve interned somewhere for 2 years already and have that job for 50ish years, a spouse a house and kids at some point during that time and still be financially okay and be able to pay off student loans and hospital bills and mortgage and whatever else. society says fuck you all the fucking time and i cant fucking stand it.

im not ready to be 23. im not knowledgeable on how life works bc i was sheltered. we were poor we couldnt look stuff up willy nilly, if i did i was terrified i wasnt allowed to bc god is always watching, youll go to hell. i know nothing abt sex ed bc our teacher wasnt even fully certified. i know nothing abt taxes or bills bc we didnt have a finance class available. i know nothing abt dating bc no boys until youre 30. i know nothing.

when my parents split and i lived with my mom every other week, i searched everything under the sky in my room at night bc i was scared. i was scared my dad might find out that i thought [sally] was cuter than [sam]. that i was jealous of [jasons] body and the way it was shaped. that i liked the way [marys] voice sound bc she was cool on tv (she smoked) the way [johns] voice sounded bc it was lower. i read fanfiction as soon as i knew what it was. when i gravitated toward more mlm fics i was scared of those new apps coming out that let a parent see what their kid was doing.

when i graduated high school and didnt know what to do with myself for two years, i drowned myself in fanfiction and fantasies. when i was given an ultimatum of moving out or going to school and/or working i chose school bc by then i had found kpop. i fell in love with something for the first time in a while since fanfiction. i like the new language i hadnt really ever heard before other than psy's song that rocked the world. i realised ive always loved languages why not teach mine? thats popular. so i chose school, i dragged myself through months of mental torture and physical stress torture and im still doing it bc one day ill live a dream that was forced upon me bc i know im not ready for the world. and bc i chose school i met some of the greatest ppl. ppl who accept me for who i truly am bc that summer wasnt just abt kpop it was abt realising i was not a girl. i wasnt a boy either but goddamn idk what i am. so not only did i read abt gay men but i read abt gay anything. researching wtf was going on in my head. what exactly do i feel like, who am i attracted to, what do i want in life in a partner if i ever get one

and through all this in the back of my head im still thinking im not good enough for my dad bc he believes that even just who i am is a sin, im not good enough for mom bc i chose dad, im not good enough for myself bc im lazy and incapable of doing normal things and a wimp and a loser. im not good enough. i dont deserve this. i shouldve been kicked out years ago. thats how you know if youll make it (i wouldntve). theres smth wrong with me and my brain. the doctor said i had depression and gave me pills i didnt want bc pills make it real. there really is smth wrong with me. thats why they dont love me, they dont think im good enough. i havent been to a doctor in 6 years (1 covid hit so i just couldnt 2 i cant make the fucking phone call on my own) i know i have anxiety and worse depression. i think i have other stuff bc like i mentioned when i think theres smth wrong with me i research the fuck out of it.

cant even keep a best friend. the one in elementary moved, elementary-middle i moved schools, middle-high school stopped talking to me out of the blue, my church friend from elementary is still my best friend and has many the same views abt religion aa i do now and accepts me and loves me for who i am, but shes getting married this year. still have my college bestie but its only been 2 years. i hate myself for thinking 'wait until its been 7, he'll hate you then, but hes too nice to drop you to your face he'll just ghost you like the last one did'

cant commit to a partner either. first one was a mess, he had anger issues. second didnt respect the law. third one was 3yrs older and ready for marriage. 4th was going to the navy in a month. 5th (first girl) was in israel. i was the one who ended them all. my current partner is literally amazing and im scared the day they realise i literally cannot commit. we will dance around commitment forever until you get bored and realise i was just there bc i want to try but deep down know i cant and wont succeed. im scared the day they leave bc they think im playing with them and i unintentionally break their heart. im scared bc i know that will never happen, ill leave them before they can bc i dont want to string them along bc i cant commit.

well ive "journaled" for like and hour now and i need to pee. so thanks for reading if you did. im sorry if you were triggered. i dont want responses. i just needed to get this out.

#rae rambles #tldr: im sad #tw: depression #tw: mental health #tw: long post #tw: sucidal thoughts #tw: religious trauma #tw: alcholism #tw: anxiety #tw: depressive thoughts #tw: gender dysphoria #tw: medication #tw: negative thoughts #tw: vent #delete

[humansun]

M O R N I

Written Thursday, July 27th at 9:05AM

Good mornee! Today has been great. I’m learning more and more everyday that your day is usually determined by your own mental and physical output. That means your feelings are valid, but you’re also doing everything you can to be proactive about your emotions and the interactions with the people around you. Ultimately, I feel like I’m in 80-90% control of my days instead of letting the external factors and negative POV determine my day like “I can’t get up” or “I’m too tired” or “it’s x person’s fault that I’m in x situation”. 

By the way, I really hope I don’t sound like a self-help guru. These are simply things that I’m realizing everyday but I’m not certain it would apply to other people.

As for the rest of today, it’s going to be jam-packed. Back to back meetings, another meeting, another meeting, and then another meeting. It’ll be fun though! I’ll do my best to stay mentally engaged and take breaks where I need to, but I’m happy that I started my day focused on me.

While prepping breakfast with my mom this morning, I realized two things:

This was an average, ordinary morning I spent with my mom in the kitchen, but it’s interesting being aware of the fact that that ordinary morning might not be forever. That tomorrow all of this may change. And this mental check-in helps me stay grateful and happy that I even get these mornings with my mom and grandma.

I forgot the second thing. I was calculating my calories most of the morning, hopefully the second thought comes back to me.

Anyways, it was a nice morning and I’m excited to start my day and I hope that things go well. I’m in control, I love being 25, I’m grateful for my wisdom, and I’m excited to get the ball rolling forward in my own creative journey.

Oh! I remember the second thing now. It’s kind of related to the first one a bit, but it has to do with being present and being cautious. I learned that any morning could turn into a scary morning really quick. For example, accidentally cutting myself while chopping fruit or vegetables or someone falling. Even if a morning seems perfectly normal and all will go as planned, it’s important to remember that at any point, anything could happen and to be aware of safety and being careful as much as possible.

Proactiveness is really the key to so many things whether being a good producer or handling preparations for events/sets/family parties/vacations/workflow. I strive to be as much of a proactive person as I can be and to keep my life diverse in terms of my activities and interactions. Woo! Happy Thursday.

Written 9:16PM

Love the high braided ponytail its just a different betty when she has that up

Need to look for old projects on old macbook

Miley cyrus rose colored lenses

Following the good part of me instead of following the bad part is a movement

Hillary duff is also a movement

I miss my fuzzy fish we need to make our couple vision board

I also need to edit my shorts

Today i met with 3+ women who inspire me and changed me even with our small interactions

Intentionally taking pictures helps you stay present

Remembering that everything in life no matter how simple or small can inspire you

That full circle moments ought to be recognized and celebrated

That everyday im in the industry i believe in myself 1% more

That everyday im in the industry the more real it gets and the more real i get about everything i want to do

But above all

I love people and i love earth and im grateful to be alive with those i know

Especially my mom, dad, sister, & grandma

Im tired. I used my brain a lot

[teddyduchampsglasses]

Interesting headcanon request because I think it could be entertaining:

Embarrassing headcanons for each of the poets.

Something That Embarrasses Each Of The Dead Poets

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~Neil~

Once he thought a muffin was a hamster. Cameron burst through the door of Mr. Keating’s class one day, totally late, and as he sat down, Neil spotted something brown laying in his grasp. As Mr. Keating went back to teaching, Neil discreetly leaned over and whispered to Richard “You can bring a hamster in here?” To which Cameron, looked down at the muffin laying in his hands, then back at Neil, and said “Neil...this is a muffin.” Knox, who heard this from down the row, burst out into laughter. And after Cameron quickly explained the whole situation, because Knox drew attention to himself, the whole class also burst out into laughter. Even Mr. Keating. Neil’s face turned red as he looked over at the wall, avoiding all eye contact at any possible measure. So, for the next week, people would jokingly pet muffins as Neil walked past.

~Todd~

Todd almost cried when he accidentally called Mr. Keating dad. He was asking a question about the homework that had been assigned when the word “father” accidentally slipped. Mr. Keating, along with the rest of the class, noticed his little mistake and had to point it out. Mr. Keating of course made a joke, making Todd want to lay down and die more than he already did before. The joke was probably something about banging Todd’s mom. IM JOKING IM JOKING. Anyway, after that, he started to get called “Todd Keating” or “Little John” around school for the next week or so. And if that didn’t make things worse, Mr. Keating even jokingly called him son from time to time. Poor Todd was really living the tough life.

~Charlie~

Charlie, Charlie has no shame, Charlie doesn’t get embarrassed. Well that’s what he’ll tell you at least. And it’s mostly true, but there is one thing that gets to Mr. Dalton, only one thing that will make his face go red and his palms sweaty. And that is the fact that he can’t ride a bike. As soon as the poets figured this out, they would not let him live it down because, who would miss an opportunity to embarrass the Charlie Dalton as he has embarrassed others, many of times.

This sad fact came to light when Knox asked if he wanted to go on a bike ride with him, and Charlie had to sheepishly explain that, at the age of 17, he was still unable to ride a bike. He begged of Knox not to let this conversation get spread around school, to which he agreed. Until the next day, when Charlie woke up, it quickly came to his notice that his secret inability to ride a bike had, in fact, been spread around the whole school.

~Meeks~

He accidentally kissed Todd. This was an embarrassing experience for the both of them, but most unfortunate for Meeks, sense his parents were right there to witness it.

He had been dared, by Knox, to kiss Todd. The blonde was a bit skeptical and hesitant, he didn’t like the idea of kissing Meeks, but he also didn’t want Meeks to seem like a wimp. So he just went with it, giving consent, like the good friend that he is. So, as the magic happened, as their lips touched and sparks flew, they weren’t paying attention to the door way, where both Meeks mom and dad sat, just watching in complete shock. Needless to say, Todd burst out into tears and Meeks almost threw up when they noticed they had silent spectators.

~Pitts~

There was many times that Pitts was called to the board and used the wrong “there”. He literally has no clue what’s the difference between their, they’re and there. As a senior in highschool, at 17 years old, he has absolutely no clue how they are supposed to be used in a sentence. Which makes being called up in front of the class a whole new level of stressful. Just praying that he doesn’t have to use any of those words in a paragraph. “Pitts, thats the wrong there.” “No it’s not, Charlie, stop doing this to me.” “YOU LITERALLY WROTE ‘THE DOG IS OVER THEIR’.”

~Cameron~

Onetime he down right said that Charlie had “cute feet” and it literally made the entire room go quiet, not a single word was spoken for about a minute. Charlie took off both his socks and shoes in the showers one day and Cameron pointed it out that he had “adorable feet”. Immediately, he knew he had messed up. He began to stress as he embarrassingly said “WHAT!? THEY’RE CUTE, LOOK AT HIS LITTLE BABY TOE.” He said while pointing, his face turning as red as his hair. He thought he could recover from that horrible mistake but at that point, he was just making it worse. It would be hard to come to terms with the fact that there was no recovery for him. Only people accusing him of having a foot fetish for the rest of his time spent at Welton.

~Knox~

Pees the bed. Regularly. He’s an avid bed pisser. And when Neil spotted him in the halls one night, dragging his piss drenched bed sheets to the wash, he couldn’t help but tell Todd. Todd quickly told Pitts, who told Meeks, who then told Charlie, who then told Cameron, along with the entire school. And poor Knox, he had never been more embarrassed when he walked into his first period class and Neil just said “Did you forget your diaper?” Those boys tortured him.

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By the way, if you do or have done any of the things listed above, I am not trying to shame you I just thought it would be funny lmao.

#the 80s #dead poets society #dps #80s movies #1989 #1959 #neil perry #robert sean leonard #Todd Anderson #ethan hawke #Charlie Dalton #gale hansen #steven meeks #allelon ruggiero #gerard pitts #james waterston #Richard Cameron #dylan kussman #knox overstreet #josh charles #dps fandom #dps headcanons #dead poets society headcanons

[hamwarts]

Kris and the Player are working together, against something else.

So i’ve had this is in my head for a while and i havent seen anyone else mention this intro thing so i decided to put my thoughts out there, this is just a theory, a game theory, so don’t it as gospel and if you have anything to add feel free:

Okay so first things first, the intro to Deltarune is really important but let me tell you something that if im right, changes everything, now first before we analyze it, there’s one line of text that might seem throwaway but its not.

When you talk to Catti (who is interested in the Occult) in Chapter 2, she says this:

Now keep this in mind as i take you through the intro, now first things first, what is the first line you as the player, the soul , the spirit, hears when you open DR: “ARE WE CONNECTED?”

Now, what is the first thing you do when you use a Ouija board to connect with a ghost or demon. You have to ask if they’re there, if you’re connected.

Now, every single thing that you answer in that section of the game, has predisposed options, OR you have to type it, but lets look at the typing sections.

Now Deltarune released as a PC game, so its weird that they didn’t let us use our keyboards, you can try, it won’t let you, in this whole section you have to manually move your soul from option to option, it DOESNT teleport to each option, it moves, fastly but it moves. THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT. LOOK AT WHAT WE USE TO PICK STUFF. It’s easy to think well that’s the soul, what we always use. Look at that shape.

Notice something here?

Heart shaped, and not only that, i want you to look at the application logo for Deltarune, the logo that you use for “communicating with the world of deltarune”

It’s a heart shaped object... with a circle on the middle.... sure its the delta rune too but that doesn’t change this. When my partner pointed this out to me it blew my mind. So then why would Kris want our help, my theory is this:

We are not the first entity to control Kris, whatever makes them lash out at night is not Kris, there is a METRIC TON of evidence that Kris has a background of being a prankish YET LIKEABLE and nice kid, they’re friends with everyone at school, they’re not ostricized like Susie is, Noelle regards them as TRUSTWORTHY and worth being honest too, as honest as she is with her dad . “Sometimes i feel like the only two people i can be honest to are you and my dad” is what she says more or less when you go into the alleyway next to the addisons first appearance and check the sign.

More importantly than all of this, think about this for a second, we are not taking all control from Kris, Kris still has all their faculties, they talk to people, as implied whenever we converse with toriel

And not only that they have full control over their own body, in so many many cutscenes does Kris move in their own voalition, wether its backing away at Susie at the start of chapter 1, or similarly and the biggest example of autonomy, in chapter 1 when Kris *defends susie* , their own choice, their own way to do it. Not evil, not malicious, and entirely autonomous.

Kris cares about Susie, this is clear, they get upset at them being insulted, they care about their own hobbies, like with the piano and the annoyance at our incompetence, but its never malicious, they never seem to fight for control. Why, why is that? Well what  would make someone so desperate for wanting something to control them if not the fact that they want to stop themselves from doing something, and what could drive someone to something they don’t want... like ANOTHER, ENTITY, TAKING CONTROL.

In all of the cutscenes where Kris removes the soul, there’s something weird about them and not in just how eerie it is, but how strained the movements are? Why though, it’s not like the SOUL is biological in nature, it’s a magical and spiritual thing, the body should function theoretically with it separated, yet, in this case, the movements are strained, very strained, there’s this sense that their body is fighting back, now people say its Kris fighting against the soul, but WE are the soul and even if you keep your hands out of your keyboard, theyre stil lstrained, no, i think this is KRIS fighting against the other entity, the true mastermind behind the fountains, the true evil of Kris’s life. We are a symbiotic entity with Kris, we work together. Whatever this is, this Knight, it’s a parasitic entity , using Kris as a vessel.

Now, this is a bit more flimsy, and if people want i could make a post with all the evidence i have of it, but i think Ralsei might be behind this or at least helping , this entity, you wanna know why i think that, at least relating to this? Because Ralsei is the only entity in DR to actively distract the soul away from Kris, we are the last line of defense against the Knight, so much so that Kris always wants us inside them (I don’t believe it’s the Knight putting us back in Kris’s body, since there would be no logical advantage to that)

But wait when does Ralsei take the soul away?

Now it’s easy to think this is just a narrative tool, we’re going to see another characters perspective, but no this is a physical transmission of our soul over to Susie, how do we know this, there is literal proof.

And it’s this fight

You’re looking over Susie, and you’re helping her dodge, you’re the one controlling her dodging or at least helping her do it, but you’re still not meant to be here, where’s the proof? Look at the sections where you dodge, specifically when they end.

Look at this, this is the battle ending, the soul , leaves , through the corner of the screen, it doesnt go back to Susie, it doesnt stay there, it leaves going towards the direction where KRIS is, because it’s not meant ot be here.

In any fight where the SOUL and Kris are present together, it comes out and comes back from KRIS.

Ralsei is doing something, saying things to Kris, in both chapters, during these “Susie Intermissions” and its not a good thing, its suspicious enough to drive mistrust into Kris based on the fact that Kris only heals 60 hp from Ralsei Tea, even though they met Susie and Ralsei on the same day, and trusts Susie with 120 hp wich is seemingly the max value of friendship, same adventures, same time met, yet there’s hesistance, mistrust. I wonder why?

And this leads me to the most tragic revelation of this theory, if true, because, Weird Route isn’t just a genocide or a mean spirited evil route, you’re the last Hope of Kris, you’re the only thing they had, that they resorted to, for help against this evil thing threatening them, their family, their friends,  their town, maybe their world, and what did you do? You put them through another hell, you might not be the same kind of evil, but maybe you’re worse, and regardless you took Kris’s last hope and turned it into more despair.

#deltarune #deltarune theory #kris #deltarune kris #deltarune chapter 2 #deltarune spoilers #spoilers

[tangledstarlight]

...i said i was going to make it and well, here we are i guess. im so sorry for this.

Carlos Molina’s to Guide to Ghost Hood (title subject to change) 

welcome to the 1st edition, maybe i’ll make a 2nd if i get inspired enough but also, this is such a mess already i don’t think the world needs a part 2 dfghg

Link to the power point is in the first reblog. (i’d highly recommend watching it for the full experience dfgh)

Link to ao3 also in the first reblog. 

below the cut is the accompanying fic and description of the rules/guide.

The tape recorder lets out a low buzzing sound as Carlos presses a button on the side and stands it up between them on the dining room table. Julie shoots an amused glance at Reggie who’s taken up residence in the chair next to him, the two of them flipping open notebooks and clutching pencils. 

“Where did you even find a tape recorder?” She wonders, stretching out a finger to touch the silver rectangle only for her hand to be swatted away by Reggie.

“Found it in a box of moms stuff and dad said we could order some tapes from amazon,” Carlos replies matter of factly, straightening up in his chair once he seems to have found the page he was looking for. “Right. Let's start off easy, shall we?” 

He looks at her expectantly and Julie rolls her eyes, waving a hand at the two of them, “Lets.” 

“Question one,” Carlos taps his pencil at the top of his page before squinting at her, “Did you conduct any séance related activities before the ghosts showed up?” 

Julie blinks at him, wondering if he’s joking but the pair of them just look back at her, heads both slightly tilted and it’s at that moment that she realises how serious they’re going to be about this. It was going to be a long afternoon of questioning apparently. 

“No, I didn’t conduct any séance related activities. I just put on their CD and they y’know, fell out of the sky.” 

“Interesting, interesting,” Carlos mutters as he looks at Reggie’s notebook as the older boy writes her answer down, underlines something and taps it with his pencil that makes Carlos let out a small hm. “So you don’t know anything about the dark room? Didn’t make any wishes?” 

“No,” Julie shakes her head, watches Reggie write something else down and tilt his notebook to Carlos. It’s weird, watching them communicate like that, like they’ve created a shorthand between them and don’t even require her presence to have a conversation. Which is obviously true because they’ve clearly discussed all this beforehand. 

“You walked through Luke right? What did that feel like to you?” Reggie’s question catches her off guard and she looks between them, but Carlos is already looking at her, waiting for her answer. 

“It was um cold? But also not. I--” she frowns, trying to think back to that first night in the kitchen when she’d turned around and walked through him. Back when she’s barely known any of them and was more annoyed by their presence then comforted. “It was weird. The first few seconds after I walked through him I just felt cold but then it was like a rush of warmth? You know when you get one of those random shivers that runs through your whole body? It feels all weird and tingly but also kinda nice? Like that.” 

“Did it feel like you got a feel of Luke?” Carlos asks and Julie shrugs, a slight blush on her cheeks and somehow, despite the fact they can’t see each other, the two of them share a look. 

“What’s the next question,” anything to move off the topic of walking through Luke and how it felt. 

//

“Oh Julie is gonna be so pissed at you guys,” Alex mutters but makes no move to step in and stop the ‘experiment’ currently going on. He watches as Reggie tries to put a hand on Carlos’ shoulder, fingers phasing through the younger boy's jacket with a frown. 

“She won't be pissed if it works,” is all Reggie says, face morphing into one of concentration as he slowly lowers his hand on to Carlos’ shoulder again. 

For his part, Carlos bounces slightly on his toes, eyes fixed on the notebook in Alex’s hand in case they need to tell him something. And okay, Alex might not fully agree with the way the two of them are going about this whole thing, but he can’t say he’s not on board with it. Their whole stint as ghosts has been nothing but confusion after confusion that not even Willie has answers for. Does he think Reggie and Carlos are going to uncover some fundamental thing that makes them the way they are? Probably not. Will they maybe get him some kind of answer? God he hopes so. 

Especially since there’s been small moments in the last few weeks where Ray and Carlos have been able to hear them even without them playing music or Julie nearby. Which had scared all of them. Thought it was nothing compared to Ray’s reaction when he’d apparently walked into the kitchen to find Julie and Luke hugging, only for him to vanish when they suddenly let go. It was a hell of a way to find out they could be seen if they were touching her. 

“Oh!” Carlos suddenly exclaims, head whipping to look at his shoulder where Reggie’s hand is resting solidly on the fabric of the jacket. Alex feels his eyes widen a fraction and watches Reggie’s smile widen as he squeezes slightly on Carlos’ shoulder. “Oh my god! I can feel that!” 

“Holy shit,” Alex whispers, grip on the pencil in his fingers growing. 

“Hey! I heard that too! Quick! Write it down! 30 minutes and- and however many attempts it took!” Carlos grins, face turning towards him and Alex doesn’t even have time to feel guilty about swearing before he’s scribbling in Reggie’s notebook.

//

“Thanks again for taking me,” Carlos says as he pulls his seat belt across his chest and clicks it in, eyes drifting from his tia in the front seat to the little notebook resting on the back seat and the pencil that’s hovering just a few inches off the paper. Subtly he sees it tap on the page, once, twice, and he bites down on his grin, tucking his hands under his thighs to stop from bouncing in his seat. They’re ready. 

“Of course mijo,” Victoria smiles over at him as she turns on the engine, fingers already messing with the buttons on the radio to find her favourite station. “I have to say I’m impressed. Planning ahead for your dad's birthday.” 

“Mhm,” he agrees, his eyes on the notebook that he can just see in the rearview mirror. The pencils resting between the creases in the pages and he holds his breath as the radio jumps to a different station. 

Victoria frowns slightly, her eyes darting from the road to the radio and back, hand reaching out to change it back. When it jumps to another station. And another. Carlos feels his eyes widen a little, legs bouncing on top of his hands as he watches the radio cycle through station after station, only lingers for a few seconds on each before moving on. 

Finally it stops, the words of Despacito ringing through the car and it’s lucky they’re at a red light he thinks, because when Victoria tries to change it it jumps right back. 

“What the f-” she starts, the furrow between her brows growing deeper and the knuckles on her hand that’s still gripping the wheel turning white. 

“Can we leave it? I like this song,” he looks over at her with a smile, blinking in what he hopes is a completely innocent way. He’s pretty sure she’s too distracted by the radio to question it. 

“Sure, sure,” she mutters, not even looking at him, eyes going from the road to the radio. 

The song ends and from the corner of his eye he can see the pencil in the back moving, Reggie or Willie writing something down and he has to stop himself from turning around to see what it is. Instead he watches as tia starts changing the radio station again, her fingers never leaving the touch screen as if that was the problem. But the second she lands on her favourite 80’s classics station and is moving her fingers away it changes. Skipping through stations again until Despacito is once again filling the car. 

It’s probably lucky that they’re at another red light and that there’s no one behind them because her eyes widen and she’s suddenly saying words in Spanish that he knows he shouldn’t know and is pulling over to the side of the road. 

“We have to get out! The car is being possessed! Out, out Carlos! Come on!” Her seat belt is off and her door is open before Carlos even has a chance to process what’s happening. The notebook from the back is pushed in front of his face and he tilts his head a little to side to read Reggie’s familiar handwriting, 

Too far? 

“Maybe,” he whispers back, taking the notebook out of the ghost's hand as he starts to get out of the car, plucking the pencil out of the metal spirals and making a note about not pushing tia in a moving vehicle and to wait until after they’ve gone shopping first. 

She’s got her phone pressed to ear when he joins her on the sidewalk, pacing up and down. Carlos is pretty sure there’s going to be a family dinner story time in their near future. 

//

Luke watches as Carlos sets his tape recorder up, idly plucking out a half finished tune on his guitar in order to be seen and heard. He doesn’t really get the other boys interest in figuring out their ghostly state of being. The same way he doesn’t really care about finding answers to all of Alex’s questions. 

They ate some bad street dogs. They died. Julie brought them back and then she saved them a second time. They can play music and sometimes be seen. He already has all the answers he needs and it’s two words: Julie Molina. 

Would it be nice to know what the black room was? Sure. Did he sometimes wonder why they could be seen but other ghosts couldn't? Sometimes. Did he want answers? Only if someone was going to give them to him without having to do the work. Was he going to sit here and answer all of Carlos’ questions because it was important to him and to the others? Fuck yeah he was. 

“Does that think pick up our voices even if we’re not playing and not near Julie?” He nods at the recorder on the table after Carlos hits a button. 

“Yeah! It’s so cool too. You sound like, all static-y and I have to listen really hard sometimes because your voices fade in and out but they’re there!” 

Okay, Luke can admit that is pretty cool, “That’s wicked. Maybe we should start using that to communicate instead of writing.” He was really sick of people commenting on his handwriting. 

“Dude that’s genius! It would be like leaving each other voice notes!” He gestures in the air with his pencil the same way Julie does when she’s realised the issue with a verse and Luke smiles softly. He doesn’t know what voice notes are, but he’s glad he could contribute to the communication issue. 

“What questions have you got for me then little dude?” He raises an eyebrow at Carlos as he flips through his notebook. 

//

When he’d first knocked Alex down Willie never thought it would lead to him sitting in the Molina’s family living room, a whiteboard resting on his knees as a twelve year old shows him bar graphs and pie charts of information on ghosts. 

There was probably some kind of domino-butterfly effect going on that had led him here. But he’s too busy trying to fit all his know ghost knowledge onto a whiteboard so Carlos can fill in the gaps in his knowledge. 

Over the years Willie has met a lot of lifers, has interacted with a handful at the HGC but he’s never met a family like the Molina’s. Who found out ghosts were real and instead of running, or trying to profit off of them, had just...welcomed them into the family. Arms wide and hearts open. 

And more than that, here was Carlos trying to get answers to questions that none of them really had an answer too. 

“Black room, yes or no?” Carlos asks, holding up a flash card and a clothes peg, ready to add it to the line of string stretching across the room. It was already littered with other cards in an order that Willie really didn’t understand but seemed to make perfect sense to the younger boy and Reggie. 

Not for me, or anyone I asked at the club, he scribbles down, turning to the board around. 

“Just like we thought,” he nods to himself, taking two steps to the left and reaching up to attach the card, “An anomaly.” he whispers it to himself and Willie has to bite his lip to stop from smiling before remembering that Carlos can’t actually see him. 

“Hey,” Alex’s voice from the doorway drags his gaze away from the lifer and the smile he’d been trying to stop spreads across his face, “How’s it going?”

“I don’t think we’re even half way through,” he chuckles, gesturing with one hand at the stack of flashcards and the charts he hasn’t even seen yet. “Do you understand this system?” 

The exasperated laugh that leaves Alex’s lips is answer enough before he’s even shaking his head, strands of blonde hair dipping into his eyes and Willie wants to reach to move away, “Not a clue. They’ve tried to explain it to us but it makes zero sense to anyone but them.”  

“Hey, Alex, stop distracting him, we’re working here!” Carlos’ voice makes him jump, head turning back to where he’s standing with his arms crossed and shaking his head in disappointment in the vague direction of where Alex is standing. 

“Wait, can he see you?” Willie frowns, mind trying to remember if he knew this or not. 

“No, he’s just really good at sensing us these days,” Alex sighs, but there’s a fond look in his eyes as he looks at Carlos, “He says it’s his ghost powers kicking in from how often he hangs out with Reggie and from all the failed teleportation experiments.” 

“The failed what now?” 

“Oh, you’ll find out. I think it’s section 7?” Alex grins, pushing off from where he’d been leaning against the doorway and waving.

Willie turns back to Carlos feeling a little more confused than he had minutes ago but also much more intrigued about teleportation experiments. And if he could help get some answers for any of the many questions Alex had, that was cool too.

//

Carlos Molina’s Guide to Ghosting. So you became a ghost, huh?

 (working title, subject to change)

By Carlos Molina, with special thanks to Reggie Peters and Willie Skateboard. 

1st Edition. 

Dedicated to Alex Mercer, so he can stop asking so many questions. We’re working on it buddy.

1. Tangibility 

They can walk through anything (except my sister now, reasons still unclear). 

Works especially well with walls, doors and locked vaults (see exhibit a) 

When they walk through people it “allows them to get a feel for the person” – Reggie Peters. “It’s weird” – Alex Mercer. No comment from Luke Patterson as he was too busy staring at Julie. 

2. Souls

Objects can be attached to their souls. 

Still unclear if it has to be an object that they were close to in life, or if they can attach their souls to any object once a ghost. 

Experiments with Reggie Peters are still ongoing. Updates will follow.

3. Being Seen

Can be seen by “lifers*” when they play music with Julie. 

This is the first rule which only applies to our ghosts. 

They can be heard when they play music without Julie. This is also unclear as to why, working theory is “Our music is just so awesome it transcends deaths!” – Luke Patterson.

Mr Willie Skateboard was quick to point out it’s “weird” and “ghosts aren’t supposed to be seen by lifers.”

4. Touching

Our ghosts can now touch Julie. The biggest change in their afterlife. 

Still no explanation for it. Experiments are ongoing (see exhibit b) 

Have witnessed Julie hugging the air many times only for Alex or Willie to appear. Same with hand holding. (see exhibit c for dads reaction) 

5. Magic

Some ghosts have powers and abilities. 

Willie* can control different types of technology. Appears to work best with cars. This we believe correlates with who a ghost dies. 

In our expedition to test his skills he skipped through 15 different radio stations of Tia’s car until he found one playing despacito. Test was a success. Tia does think her car is haunted now however.

6. ???

There was a dark room. 

All other ghosts interviewed had never heard of it before. 

All our ghosts agreed it was weird and creepy. 

We are choosing to pretend it didn’t happen. 

Working theory: a hole in time that they fell through. Must find a way to test.

7. Teleporting

part 1)

Ghosts can teleport wherever they want in the world. 

Only the most powerful can teleport a lifer with them (will keep attempting)

part b) 

Our ghosts can pinpoint Julie’s exact location wherever she may be in the world. 

Will be helpful if she is ever kidnapped, Julie however wishes they would stop using said power to find her in gym class.

“I already have find my friend activated” – Flynn had to say on the matter. 

part c) 

Julie can summon the boys to her if she concentrates hard enough. Came in handy when an evil magician tried to kidnap them.

Also possibly how they escaped the dark room, no way to prove or deny this as dad won’t let me eat a bad hotdog to become a ghost.

Working theory: magic of music and family 

See Exhibit d 

See Exhibit e  

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