#eddie diaz meta

[chaosandwolves]

I really do think that Eddie's and Buck's storyline got swapped

Knowing this

Source

and that there was a whole storyline planned for Buck/Natalia but the actress was not available

It makes so much sense

Cause wtf did Eddie say? He always moves too fast?

Eddie?

The guy who didn't let his wife and mother of his child see their kid again to not make him hope too much

The guy who moved slower than slow with Ana

The guy who's first priority and concern has been Chris

HE moves too fast?

That's literally Buck's thing

And to dive into Eddie's queer arc first would've made a lot of sense

Ever since the shooting there had been the heart eyes and all and no woman

Then the whole "she sees me" thing

Ryan is a great actor

He knows what he's doing

And we've all been thinking that Eddie has been at least peripherally aware of his feelings

So I will take this whole Marisol thing as him absolutely overcompensating

Don't get me wrong

Bi Buck is EVERYTHING and gods I love it

Oliver is fucking INCREDIBLE with this arc

And Buck/Tommy are cute af

But oh my oh my

My heart is bleeding a little cause now we're stuck with that fucking queerphobe on the cast while this beautiful storyline is going on

Yes I think we'll get there

And Eddie's queer arc will be a bit more complicated

But yeah

It just gives me a lot of emotions to know this and to be stuck with that person on the cast

Idk idk

The episode really was something

And all the interviews and all

It's OVERWHELMING

and my emotions are all over the plane

#Buddie #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 abc #7x05 #911 meta #Eddie diaz meta #lou ferrigno jr

[monsterrae1]

Alright guys, I’ve been thinking about Eddie almost non stop for two days, and this is going to be a long post so I apologize for the rambling before hand, I’ve been trying to put it together in my brain in a way that makes more sense but my brains a little off so here’s a bit of word vomit and my take on What we learned about Eddie in 5x17 (that no one asked for):

(Im also sure I’m not saying anything new, still here it is)

I wanna start with the obvious, I think a lot of us had already figured that Eddie had a hand at helping heavily in his household, specially at raising his sisters, and it was interesting the way it got confirmed; it’s very clear that Eddie it’s a caretaker, we’ve known this for the longest time, from his career choices (going to the Army but choosing to be a Medic, being a firefighter, and even after he quit he stayed at the LAFD because he still wanted to help somehow) to how he is with Chris, to even how he is with Buck, it’s ingrained in him to take care of others, because from a young age he was told he had to.

Even before Adriana was born Eddie was there with his mom, we know that Ramon wasn’t around so it was probably up to Eddie to keep an eye on his mom (this is just speculation on my part obviously), and when the time came and Helena asked him to get help to get to the hospital Eddie was already expected to behave like and adult, why you ask? Well, for a grown up who already knows how things go and work, if you’re told to get help your first thought is 911 or a neighbor, just like Helena said she’d expected him to do, because she as a grown up is what would have done. But Eddie was a child, who didn’t know better, his logic was mom needs to be at the hospital, we’re alone, and there’s a car here, I’m gonna have to drive her there, which is fair logic for a child.

I don’t know exactly how many years are between Eddie and Adriana, we had the comment that at 10 year old he was told he had to step up, so I’m putting this accident either at age 10 or a little less (maybe between 7 or 8 up to 10) but with this family story we already know one thing for sure, Eddie is expected to support his mom and to make decisions like an Adult.

And this leads to Eddie confronting his dad, and his choice of words is really significant here “I didn’t have a childhood, I didn’t had a dad to take care of me”.

Eddie had to give up his childhood, to take care of his sisters, “step up, be the man of the family”, his dad was never around, he is the only boy, he had the pressure of his father to be the son he expected him to be and take care of everyone while Ramon was away. And the way he expressed about his sisters “the girls” I said this in the tags of a post, but that’s not usually how siblings refer to each other, they could’ve said my sisters if they wanted to pull them in the same group and not use a nickname or their names, they chose to have him said “the girls” which is more like a parent refers to their kids, Eddie feels responsible for them, like he had to take care of them more than a brother should’ve.

If you know anyone who has had a hand at raising their siblings they can tell you, you feel responsible for them way way after they’d stopped needing your help (I know I still am and my brother is in his 20s now), Eddie spend his formative years taking care of them, he was told to put himself in the back burner and focus on helping his family, Eddie never had the chance to figure out who or what he wanted. When he told May he had to idea how to go back to who you wanted to be, he wasn’t lying, but I think Eddie doesn’t even know who he wanted to be, what he wanted to be; because he was never giving the chance to explore.

Specially when everything he ever did chose for himself was over criticized by his parents, which brings me to the next part: Shannon and Chris.

We don't know how the Diaz were towards Shannon before they got married and had Chris, but from what we know post-Shannon having Chris and leaving Eddie and Chris, I can only assume they never really liked her; but Eddie did, he wanted to be with her, he wanted a family with her, and whatever mistakes happened on both parts I think we can agree Eddie loved her, and she wasn't accepted by his family, they throw her mistakes at his face, how he should've known better, how he's not doing enough, how when he's doing exactly what his father did (prioritize bringing in money to the family instead of being with them) now it's suddenly wrong and he should do better.

Eddie's such a gentle dad, even when he had no idea what he was doing he was trying his complete best for Chris, he has said a few times that he doesn't want Chris to be like him, because Eddie doesn't want to be like his dad, and Eddie is better than his dad, I think part of Eddie thought "I'm gonna be the father I never had and I'm going to make sure my kid has someone on his corner no matter what" but he still doesn't see himself as enough, because he's always been told he wasn't.

The first decision we see him take for himself was pack their bags and move to Los Angeles, and then he kept Chris close to his heart, not telling the team until a week after he started his job, and even then it was more like he had to tell them rather than he wanted to, because Chris is his, and his alone, and he's afraid to lose him. His parents tried to take him, and Eddie was right when he said they were trying to have a do-over with Chris, they've seen what they did with Eddie and now want to amend it with Chris, and it results in Eddie being a little protective over who comes into Chris' life, we saw it with the 118, we saw it with Shannon, and even Ana.

(This isn't a buddie post perse, but the only one who's gotten a free pass to Chris has been Buck, much like he's also been the only one allowed to help Eddie with Chris and himself, and while that also ties here very strongly, I'm not going into it much on this post)

We saw him struggle with his decision with letting Shannon back into Chris life, the words he uses when he's talking to Buck "Am I doing it for him? or for Me?" Like he isn't allowed to chose this if its for him, because Chris comes firsts, which is fair for a parent to think, but knowing what we know about Eddie now, 3 seasons later, we can also see the "I already chose her for myself once, and it didn't went well, I'm no longer allowed to chose her for myself" and that's how he continues to live his life.

His room is pretty bare, when Chris' room and the rest of the house if fairly warm and decorated, full of life and love, but his own space only has the essentials, he doesn't spend money on himself, to the point that him getting a new truck in S3 was a show of how unwell he was (and I know it's the extreme of it, the fact that it was a big showy truck, but we can also agree that a car is a necessity and while his old truck still worked, I think it's said that it was failing a lot? I don't remember exactly), so I do believe that after Shannon, Eddie refrained from doing things for himself.

Ana wasn't for himself.

I do believe that in the year-two years after Shannon's death and Eddie was single he was happy with that, he had a lot to work through, he had a lot of unprocessed grief and things kept pilling up inside of him, but the fact that he was single was never an issue for him (probably because he wasn't alone, but i'm trying very hard to not make this a buddie post, but I mean, we know how big and important Buck is in his life) and when Ana showed up again, he just saw it as an opportunity to give Chris the family he should have.

Do I believe he did it on purpose? No, I don't. There was attraction there at first, I'm not gonna deny it, but as the relationship moved forward we all saw how much they weren't clicking, and Eddie was trying I'm not denying that, but his heart wasn't on it; he tried to stick it out for Chris, until Buck interfered.

Eddie's healing so much this season, and now he has the time and help he needs to figure out who he is, what he wants, and how happiness (how ever that looks, even if it looks very queer) is something he can have, for himself; hearing him tell his dad he's gonna do better for himself was so powerful knowing how Eddie just didn't thought about himself at all, and how he's choosing healing and a better life, for himself.

I'm excited to see how his arch wraps this season, and also how he's going to continue to grow in S6.

#Eddie Diaz #911 #sorry for the long as post I just wanted to ramble on main #if you read the entire thing you've won one of Eddie's mwah kisses #Eddie diaz meta

[edmundodiazz]

am i the only one who isn't angry or discouraged about marisol?

like, maybe i'm wrong, and if so, i'll have to deal with some disappointment. i'm aware of that. but right now, i'm actually glad about how things are going.

so far her story mirrors eddie's relationship with ana.

except even with ana, i don't think we saw much of eddie's thoughts and/or feelings about their relationship - aside from outsider comments: make sure you're following your own heart; i know what it's like to be in love with someone who doesn't feel the same; etc.

but when it comes to eddie and ana's actual relationship... in scenes together they were always (i think) presented as happy and content and always... in accord with each other. which is not how good, healthy relationships work. conflict and sporadic arguments are necessary, because they make you examine any potential issues that arise, which you can then go through together and fix. their relationship didn't feel like a real partnership.

because of this, eddie never had to look that deeply into any potential problems their relationship might have had. he only came to the conclusion of: christopher loves her and so he thinks and hopes that with time he's going to love her too. but did he ever wonder why he couldn't fall in love with her? what made their relationship fail? i think couples communicate, or should communicate at the very least, such things to each other, and try to work through them before ending it right away.

i think it's good for him to try and make this work with marisol. to actually try to be a couple, so he doesn't end up making the same mistakes again and again... to not fall into this cycle of unsatisfactory relationships that lack any actual form of communication.

(which, even though he actually loved her, was an issue he also had with shannon)

#eddie diaz #911 meta #911 #eddie diaz meta

[tommy-evan]

also let's be serious right now okay. the choice to have tommy call buck "evan" was so inspired, because as this journey begins for him, the healing has to start from the very core. and before buck was ever buck, he was evan. evan was the core of all his insecurities and his hurt. what buck is hurting from is what evan has been hurting from this whole time

and now, he's free and he can start healing. and evan has to heal first. evan gets to learn and figure things out with tommy as his guide and that's beautiful. tommy is there to guide evan so that buck can face the world. so that buck can get what the core of what he really wants, and who he's been looking for this whole time. tommy will allow evan to be seen and heal in this new light, but we know who's been seeing buck this whole time

#9-1-1 #911 abc #911 spoilers #evan buckley #eddie diaz #tommy kinard #911 meta

[tawaifeddiediaz]

wait eddie finding someone with similar interests actually goes beyond buck's jealousy or anything else because he's finding someone who embraces these parts of him that that previously were framed around his trauma (or rather, he's finding someone to embrace these parts with, even if tommy isn't necessarily aware):

the army

helicopters

mma/fighting

cars

like...this isn't just him getting a new friend. it's also him embracing all these things as hobbies rather than the depths of things he struggled with. (army, being shot out of the sky, street fighting, crashing his dad's truck/buying one with illegal money, etc)

anyway im gonna go cry about him

#zee rambles #911 meta #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #tommy kinard #911 abc #911 on abc #this isn't an exhaustive list but like.... #this just occurred to me

[katyobsesses]

Thinking about the fact that we really only see Eddie from Bucks POV in 7x04. Thinking about how silly and goofy and smiley and happy he is when we do. Thinking about the fact that this is how Buck sees Eddie.

Also thinking about the fact that in the firehouse scene we never see Eddie looking at buck, even though in other episodes Eddie is almost constantly gazing at Buck. Thinking about how Buck likely misses those glances, how Eddie likely looks away before Buck can notice.

Thinking a lot about Buddie

#911 #911 spoilers #buddie #evan buckley #evan buck buckely #eddie diaz #911 meta #my meta

[virahaus]

Another day, another time to debunk shitty takes I see online.

I've seen a multiple of people pointing out that "we don't know anything about Tommy" and how could people ship him with Buck (nevermind that the ship is canon and always will remain so) when we know so little about him?

First of all, I'd actually make a point to say that we as of now already know more about him then all the other LI that Buck or Eddie ever had in the show.

I shall make you a list, so that you may remember it more easily:

- He likes cars and he's a good mechanic (extrapolated by the fact that Eddie explicitly said that fixed/improved his engine)

- He likes playing basketball and he's also quite competitive ("we'll make short work of them" said in reference of Buck and Chim)

- He's sarcastic (the closet line)

- His favourite film is "Love, Actually"

- He loves Monster Truck and Craft Beer, and MMA

- He has a big scar on his chest and it came from a fire in a factory

- He's a very skilled pilot, able to manoeuvre in a hurrican, and doesn't waver in the face of danger

- He likes watching and practicing Muay Thai

- He was a pilot in the army

- He only came out when he started working in Harbor, but prefers not to publicise his sexuality

- He doesn't like Bella Swan (and it's implied he might like Jacob more) and he watched the Twilight movies

- He likes to drive his friends to events

- He has friends that can get him high up tickets for shows in Vegas

- He has permission to fly airplanes for personal reasons when he's not on the clock

- He likes to be helpful and he's thoughtful (driving Eddie to check out his sprain, going to Buck's to clear out the air without prompt, immediately agreeing in helping the 118 with the whole ship operation, trying to get Buck to be at ease on their date)

- He's loyal (he didn't rat the others out when the chief called on their way to Bobby)

- He's a smooth flirt

- He can do a mean mouth static (at least in his opinion)

- He pays the bill on first dates

- He is very much the definition of carpe diem (kissing buck was very much shooting his shot)

- He checks for consent

- He kept contact with Chim ever after he left the 118

- Chim called him for help in the episode Broken

- He went to the 217 and opened the spot for Buck at the 118

- He participated in the betting pool Hen made on how long Bobby would last at the 118 captain

- He apologises when he's in the wrong and is shown to be able to correct his behaviour

- He doesn't like chickens (lol)

- He likes the film fight club and can quote it

- Implies to have dated people he met on a call

See? We know quite a lot actually. So you may get off your high horse how about that.

I don't think I missed anything but do let me know.

#tommy kinard #911 abc #911 #911 show #911 season 7 #911 s7 #bucktommy #911 fandom #911 meta #kinley #tevan #evan buckley #eddie diaz #chimney han #hen wilson #bobby nash #my post

[elvensorceress]

In all the excitement about bi!Buck, (which— yay! Amazing! Very exciting! No notes!) I think there’s a part of this story we’re missing. I haven’t seen anyone talk about it, so have some rambling.

 It wasn’t just Buck who looked at this experienced, older, queer man and wanted to know him. It was also Eddie. 

We have never seen Eddie go so hard, so immediately for anyone. To the point his best friend of years felt like he was being ignored by him. Yes, Buck wanted Tommy’s attention for obvious reasons. But he was also slighted by the perceived lack of attention from Eddie. 

Suddenly, Eddie is spending multiple times a week going out with this man. Going to Vegas with this man. Working out with him, working on his car with him, doing karaoke and trivia night with him? Asking his alleged girlfriend to babysit more than once so that he can go out with Tommy? Obviously, it was from jealous!Buck’s point of view, but seriously. If Buck felt ignored, what is Marisol even thinking? Did Eddie bother to make time for his new girlfriend? What spare time would he even have if they work several 24 hour shifts and he’s also gone out with Tommy at least three times in one week? And is probably planning more?

Not that I think Eddie’s feelings for Tommy are necessarily in the same vein as Buck’s feelings for Tommy. But my gosh, Eddie giggly and kicking his feet and twirling his hair while on the phone with Tommy was so very loud. And actually a pretty neat contrast to being distracted and trying to text Marisol “hey mari it me eddie” to ask her out. Eddie’s sudden infatuation with Tommy was a thousand times more than anything we’ve seen from him for anyone. Considering that what he stated he wanted was the magical chemistry he’d found when he and Shannon got together, like… is that not what he just found with Tommy? 

Again, it doesn’t necessarily mean Eddie has any explicit romantic or sexual attraction toward Tommy. I suppose he could? But the point is more that wow, there is some kind of intense draw pulling Eddie to him even if we interpret it as platonic. 

Buck says at the end of the ep that they met this guy and he was so cool and Buck wanted to get to know him. Which makes sense given that Buck is canonically crushing on him and going to be dating him. But Eddie was actually the one who got there first. Eddie also had a reaction somewhere along those lines of “he’s really cool, I need to know him” to the point where he’s all of a sudden spending most if not all of his free time with him. 

And I don’t think it’s a coincidence that this person Eddie wants to spend time with is an experienced, out queer man who is comfortable in his own sexuality and his own masculinity. (He has so much in common with Eddie! They have so many similar interests! They have a magical click together that makes Eddie want to be around him all the time! There’s so much they can do together!) 

Eddie might not have even known it, maybe in the same way Buck also didn’t know it, but Eddie definitely latched onto that, too. Which is very interesting, no? Very— queers finding each other and bonding over shared experiences even before they know that’s what they’re doing. 

It can easily be someone who is likely confused about their own feelings but knows they are having certain feelings just not the names to put to those feelings, and consequently seeking guidance and reassurance that there are other people who are just like them who have these feelings as well. It’s realizing how they can be themselves, that they can be queer in a way that fits who they are instead of what they might conceptualize as queer because of stereotypes and preconceived notions. It’s learning you can be you and also be queer. That there are people like you out there. 

Eddie found something with Tommy that he hasn’t been shown to have found anywhere else. It’s a new and different thing for him, too. And if it were just about excitement over a new friend, why is it so much so quickly all at once? Eddie’s a social person. He’s a friendly, charming, charismatic person. He has friends. But it feels like this is a very different sort of friendship for him. 

And the fact that this is the same man who just gave Buck his bisexual awakening is verrrry inch resting. 

Also regardless of what kind of feelings Eddie and Tommy might have been having for each other, they were so going on dates. Flying someone to Vegas because you have tickets that have been sold out for weeks to something they enjoy? Like damn Eddie. You pulled a sugar daddy. 

Anyway. Eddie is queer, too. Double sexuality awakenings, ready go!

That is all! 💕

#911 #Eddie Diaz #911 on abc #911 abc #911 meta #yes I'm an Eddie girlie(gn) through and through

[aida-sparks]

Eddie pining in secret over Buck seems like a legitimate thing.

There's subtext in many scenes that make me think Eddie has secretly pined over Buck to some extent. I also see more than one reason why Eddie might never act on all those warm feels he doesn't know what to do with. Just one of those reasons is that even if he has finally accepted that he himself has feelings for Buck, he simply doesn't see how Buck could ever reciprocate.

Why would Eddie think that? Eddie's understanding of Buck's sexual life is shaped by what he's heard. (And what he hasn't!)

Eddie was never around to hear Maddie's comments that imply her brother might like men the same way he likes women.

Maddie to Buck in 2x4: "So does this boy crush on Eddie mean that you're finally ready to move on from Abby?"

Maddie to Josh in 3x12: "Oh no, I like you too much to set you up with my brother." Unrelated to Maddie but still key: Eddie also missed TK's comment to Buck in the Lonestar crossover episode, where TK assumed Buck was either gay or bi and that Buck was hitting on him.....

2. Instead, Eddie was around to hear all about Buck's firehose exploits back in the days when he was a self-described "sex addict". Yes, Eddie knows about Buck 1.0.

In 3x12, When Chimney suggests Eddie try talking to a therapist name Rosie, Buck asks, "Is that the one I slept with?" Eddie responds, "You slept with your therapist?"

Most recently in 6x13 Eddie listens to Buck try to calculate all the women he's slept with.

No one can convince me that the look on Eddie's face here is simply exasperation. He truly looks a little crestfallen, like Buck's words stung him.

It's just another reminder in Eddie's head that Buck is different from him when it comes to sex. Pair that with the head canon that Eddie is demisexual (everything in canon points to it, in my opinion!), and it's easy to see why Eddie would think he has zero chance with Buck. Buck once described himself as a sex addict. Eddie, on the other hand, got with Shannon in high school and hasn't ever been shown to go looking for any casual flings or want even a one-night stand. I don't think Eddie judges either lifestyle; he just recognizes they are very different. So, no matter what Eddie may have come to realize about his own feelings toward Buck, it's easy for him to think he could never be enough for Buck. And so Eddie pushes down those warm feelings, and he settles for whatever he can get with Buck. As long as Buck's in his and Christopher's life, that can be enough for Eddie. And that's still so sad to me, because it means that Eddie still isn't following his own heart.

It would be interesting for Eddie to be in earshot the next time Maddie makes a comment about a male date for Buck, though!

#buddie #buddie thoughts #911 buddie #911 abc #buddie canon #eddie diaz #demisexual Eddie Diaz #evan buckley #buck x eddie #buddie meta #buddie 911 #buddie theory

[harrowharkwife]

the way that it's hen standing beside eddie in this moment of clear physical pain and pure, unbridled anguish and terror.

hen, who watched karen flatline a handful of episodes ago. who desperately worked to save her life in the back of that ambulance. hen, who thought she lost her wife, the love of her life, the mother of her child-

(only to end the episode with the wilson family at home together, safe and sound, hen fussing over her wife and getting her all set up on the couch to recover.)

hen, whose wife and child were simultaneously endangered in the lab explosion. hen, who was unable to rescue them herself, even though every instinct was screaming at her to run headfirst into the burning building.

(she may not have been injured the way eddie is here, but she was benched by bobby and barred from the scene on account of no longer being a paramedic.)

hen, who spent an entire episode subconsciously reflecting on her and karen's journey so far, everything they've been through together, how they built their family, and how they found their way.

(an episode written by nicole barazza keim, mind you, who happens to be- oh, yknow. one half of the writer duo behind pay it forward. no big deal. nothing to see here, keep it moving!)

so, like. of course it had to be hen, in this moment, who's here for eddie, because-

hen was the only witness to his widow's grief for buck.

christopher's back was turned, and eddie hurriedly wiped away his tears before chris could see.

but hen? she saw all of it. and we still haven't circled back to that fact.

in an episode called pay it forward, i'm starting to think this may be hen's chance to pass on the lesson that she and karen learned in tomorrow (courtesy of chimney). how did that go again, exactly?

oh, right:

chimney: hen is not actually dead, but-but she had a pretty bad near-miss accident last night.

karen: what the hell, howie? you can't just say stuff like that.

chim: i know. i just, i... we had a really tough call. and it was rough and there was a minute when i thought hen was dead, and it scared the crap out of me.

karen: and you decided to pay that experience forward?

chimney: yes. look... look, i know you two broke up. and i just thought you needed to know what it would feel like if you woke up tomorrow and you found out hen wasn't in this world anymore.

...

karen: because i thought you were dead. when howie called, there was a moment when i thought you died in that accident. when i felt like i'd lost you forever. and it scared me. to think of you being gone. never having a chance to fix things or try again.

hen: karen, it's too late.

karen: it's not. as long as we are both here on this earth... as long as we have tomorrow, it's not too late.

#911 #buddie #911 fox #6x18 #911 spec #hen wilson #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 meta #911 abc

[msblueberrybi]

SO. PROUD. of. Eddie. in this episode.

He did exactly what I hoped he would and should have done for his piece of mind.

That 'planes fly in both directions' comment was oh so familiar. This type of parents always say 'why don't you call/visit more often?' And I've always wanted to say 'why don't you? calls are free these days.'

And notice how free, open, sassy, smiley, teasing Eddie is with Buck, Pepa and Abuela, and how he immediately shuts down with his parents even BEFORE anything has been said. It's an automatic response at this point.

When you've been judged for as long as you've been alive, with tons of expectations placed on you, your automatic response to certain people is to be on the defence, you've got to be ready to field the attack, even if nobody is attacking you this time. And even little comments can make your hackles rise.

And mentioning his Silver Star... which he isn't proud of... which he is supposed to be proud of because it's such a macho thing - to be a warrior... and mentioning it in the context of his father's 40 years of work and retirement gift and card... which Ramon is clearly proud of... because it's such a macho thing - to 'provide' for his family.

And then of course the stories of Eddie's childhood, which both make me want to say awww, because even though he was unsuccessful in his attempts to help, Eddie clearly wanted and actively tried to help his mom and sisters ('be the man of the house' ffs) (and Abuela clearly shares my 'aww' sentiment), and also make me want to kick or smash something, because many people are familiar with these types of 'funny family stories' where parents tend to tell embarassing stories about they now grown up children in front of a massive group of people, and children are supposed to laugh with them. (not that Eddie's childhood stories are something to embarassed about. But his parents clearly see them as such)

So proud of Eddie for not letting this happen, for pointing out how things REALLY happened, how money is not the only thing you 'provide' when you have a family. Time, love, care! And he's doing it in HIS FAMILY!

So proud of Eddie for 'for myself' comment. It's such a HUGE PROGRESS! Just recently Frank discussed with him how everything he does is for others, never for himself. And Eddie didn't want to hear it THEN. 'Is it supposed to be a bad thing?' And NOW, a few episodes later, he can say 'no. for myself' and not only say it, but say it to THE person who's taught him to be this level of self-sacrificing. NOW he can discuss his panic attack and why it happened, how he never wanted to be seen as 'weak', and discuss it with the person who's taught him that men are supposed to be strong, never cry, never show emotions. And CRY doing so!

And in regards to how Eddie is willing to reconcile with his father... 1) so proud of him. It takes real strength to do so and real generosity. He didn't have to. He could refuse. But he chose to try. So brave of him. 2) parents are parents, you would always cave and try to reconcile, especially if they are willing to try as well. Time will tell how genuine this is.

To summarize: wonderful writing for Eddie in this episode. He's done everything I hoped he would. He's let it all out, said all the things he needed to say to the people he needed to say them to. He stated that being a father means providing time, love and care. That being a man doesn’t mean you cannot cry or be seen as weak. That a family should communicate. What more can you want?!

#911 meta #911 5x17 #911 spoilers #eddie diaz meta #eddie diaz my beloved #so proud of him #eddie diaz

[usereddie]

k but rewatching 2x01 and it's gotta be Buck's pov of ugh, this new guy who's all handsome and perfect or whatever

Be curious about Eddie's pov bc I feel like it would be 70% Panic like omg pls don't mess this up and also 30% Gay Panic like why doesn't the pretty guy like me :(

(fair warning, this may have spiraled past 2x01......a lot. bear with me.)

i don't think we've ever gotten eddie's pov the way we've gotten buck's (2x01 and 7x04 for example) HOWEVER i do think we more or less know who buck is from eddie's pov through his actions.

which, considering their characters, tracks so hard.

buck didn't realize he was queer until a man quite literally kissed him on the mouth. seeing eddie from buck's pov is safe because buck has no idea what his feelings are. we watched buck's complicated feelings of jealousy towards eddie unfold TWICE and neither time did he realize what the feelings actually were (physical attraction and y'know. being in love with the guy). buck's pov is one we're allowed to see through as the audience, because it's not actually gonna tell us much, seeing as buck hasn't realized anything.

eddie, though?

reservoir of catholic guilt eddie? the guy who had panic attacks about the idea of being married to his girlfriend? the same man who was diagnosed repressed by a cardiologist?

he knows. he knows and he's been pushing it down since he and buck met, and if we were to ever see buck through eddie's eyes it'd give away everything. the eddie we've seen through buck's pov is just. pure golden sunshine, laughter, love, and buck's best friend in the whole fucking world. buck's best friend that he's in love with, sure, but buck hasn't put those dots together yet, so we, as the audience, won't see that.

buck, to eddie, is home. is family and warmth and comfort. and, obviously, eddie is the same to buck, but eddie knows this. eddie is fully and completely aware of who buck is to him, he's just shoving it all the way down. eddie gave buck a place to land ("it's eddie's house, i'm not really a guest"), eddie trusts buck wish christopher more than he trusts his parents with christopher (ramon and helena saying to eddie 'don't drag him down with you' and him leaving for LA -> eddie saying to buck 'there's nobody in this world i trust with my son more than you' after the tsunami), eddie let buck in when he was at his absolute lowest.

and, you know.

the will.

we've talked about it a half dozen million times in this fandom but we're gonna talk about it again because it's brain melting. we've never seen buck through eddie's eyes but we've seen exactly who he is to eddie through his actions. eddie trusts buck. eddie needs buck to know he has a reason to stay, that eddie and chris are his reasons to stay. eddie told buck flat out that his life means something. that buck thinks he's not worth anything but he's wrong because he means everything to eddie. eddie loves him.

eddie loved him when he held his hand when buck got pinned under a firetruck and eddie loved him when he dropped chris off before the tsunami and he still loved him when the water went back to the sea and eddie loved him when buck sued the city because the worst part of the whole lawsuit was how much he fucking missed him and eddie loved him when he was trapped under a well and all he could think about was his son and how, if he goes too soon, christopher deserves to be with someone who will love him the way eddie does and eddie loved him when he thought buck was the last thing he was ever gonna see, bleeding out on the streets of los angeles and eddie loved him when he told buck in the only way he knew how to (because, evan) and eddie loved him through panic attacks and mental breakdowns and lightning strikes and new girlfriends and a broken ankle and a new boyfriend because there is no version of eddie diaz that isn't in love with evan buckley.

and eddie knows that.

which is why we don't see it.

#sorry this got so long but this makes me crazayyyy #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #bia gets mail #anon #buddie meta

[monsterrae1]

I'm writing about Eddie discovering he likes boys, and in this AU his relationship with Shannon has always been sort of rocky (on-again off-again type of thing) and it got me thinking, we've never seen them at an actual "normal" point of their relationship.

We've seen Eddie beind happy when Christopher was born, because of the euphoria from the birth of his son.

We've seen them fight at every turn while Eddie was in the army and when he came home, neither were happy with the relationship at that point, and you could tell, both trying to fit into something they didn't want.

And then, when they reconnect in LA it was all about hiding and sneaking around, and probably not the most healthy way to reconnect, Eddie still didn't trust her, and he felt confused the entire time, while Shannon had so much guilt and confusion as well.

The only time we've gotten them to be a little bit more on the "regular/domestic" side of their relationship was in the episode that Shannon dies, but even before her death, she drops the bomb that she might be pregnant, then rejects Eddie proposal (which again, prompted by the possible birth of another kid), asks for a divorce and for time away to figure out how to be a mother (despite having been already back on Chris' life for months, and away for over two years where she could've figured that out, or even while she was just sleeping with Eddie) to her dying.

Their entire relationship seems like it's a constant up and down.

I always assumed Eddie must've loved her at some point, but now I'm more convienced that it has always been rocky, and they really got married because she was pregnant with Chris.

Did I had a point with this? Maybe that Eddie hasn't had a healthy romantic relationship in his life and now that he's on a better place he can trutly look at what he wants and how that looks for him, how love and happiness are something that he can have, without it feeling like he has to put on a performance or a constant battlefield.

#my nonsense #does any of this makes sense or am I just thinking too much into things? #eddie diaz meta #i guess? #have i been drinking? maybe #eddie diaz #anyway back to work on my wip I've written one paragraph all day send help

[andavs]

It seems like there's some common misconceptions about Eddie's time in the army, which is understandable because the show is very vague about it. And I think there’s still a bit of this outdated idea of the pregnant wife waving her handkerchief from the porch as her husband goes off to the front lines, and then he comes back years later to their six year old child he’s never met.

Which is very much not the case.

So some quick definitions: Enlistment is not the same as deployment.

Enlistment: The eight year contract during which a person is employed as a servicemember of the armed forces. The clock starts after basic training. The minimum is two years active duty, followed by six as a reservist. Four years active would be followed by four years as a reservist, six active would mean two in the reserves.

Deployment (tour): a time period where personnel are sent from the base where they’re stationed to a theater of operations (not always warzones). Most deployments in the US Army are about a year or less, with time at home between to decompress and reintegrate into everyday life.

Not everyone who enlists gets deployed or even leaves the US. Even fewer see combat. This depends entirely on what’s needed and also on units; individual soldiers don’t get deployed, their units do.

Now, Eddie.

The show tends to make it sound like Eddie was in Afghanistan for like five years straight, but he was not. There's a minimum period of time between deployments during which he would’ve been working regular hours at the base where he was stationed, presumably in El Paso. It’s possible he was stationed outside of Texas while Shannon stayed behind with his parents, but he’s never mentioned living anywhere else.

Eddie was enlisted active duty from at least 2011 (possibly 2010) until sometime in 2015 when he was injured and discharged. During that time period, he did "multiple" tours—the exact number is never said, but presumably more than two.

Eddie enlisted when they found out Shannon was pregnant. He went off to basic training (10 weeks) and then additional medic training (16 weeks) after that, and then he was deployed to Afghanistan for his first tour very shortly after. He was home on leave when Chris was born; Shannon said he was going back the following week.

After his first tour ended, he would’ve returned to his home base. If he was stationed at Fort Bliss in El Paso (again, he’s never mentioned living elsewhere), he would’ve been working fairly regular hours on base and going home to Shannon and Chris every night. 

The reenlistment argument is hard to pin down, timeline-wise. Eddie said he reenlisted at the end of a tour, and the argument we see says it was in 2015. That would mean Eddie signed up for four years of active duty and probably did two or three shorter tours in that time, but Chris doesn’t look like a three or four year old, and they have a different and much older kid playing him later that same year..

If it was supposed to be around 2013 and he only signed up for two years active duty, that would mean he probably did a couple shorter tours.

Reenlisting wouldn’t guarantee he’d be deployed again, but the uncertainty and not knowing how long he’d be home would put a ton of strain and stress on his family, especially with Chris having recently been diagnosed with CP. Long term planning is especially difficult.

He got deployed again in 2015, which is when the helicopter went down. I tend to think this was his third deployment, but it could’ve been his fourth. His welcome home party is three months after the crash, and Shannon seems to leave very shortly after.

#911 #911 abc #911 meta #eddie diaz

[tommy-evan]

i know we didn't see a lot of eddie's perspective in this whole tommy/buck development, but i just have to say, it's pretty telling that tommy already knows flat out that buck is irreplaceable in both eddie and christopher's lives. which means that in all the times he's hung out with eddie, eddie, either with his actions or his words, have unequivocally stated that buck is part of their lives and he is non-negotiable. tommy gets that while him and buck are here, at this moment, buck and eddie? with christopher? together? are on a different level. and that recognition means so much more coming from tommy, as established by eddie, especially since he's interested in buck in that fashion

#9-1-1 #911 abc #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #evan buckley #tommy kinard #911 meta

[tawaifeddiediaz]

do you ever think about how much it hurts eddie when chris expresses how much of his mother he's beginning to lose. because we know that he does his best to keep her memory alive, that they go to her grave and they talk openly about her. but there are things that eddie will never be able to replicate for him - her voice, the way she smelled, the way she'd walk towards him, how she felt when she held him close, etc - and chris will continue to lose those details even if eddie talked about shannon 24/7 for the rest of his life.

that is a sort of helplessness that i don't think anyone talks about enough, and that makes eddie's expression when he overhears chris talking to buck all the more wounded

#zee rambles #i dunno i just see this a lot in widowed parents #and anyone thats mourning or grieving and its a loss that never really leaves you #but its literally salt to an open wound to hear your child like this #knowing that theres grief that changes you unmeasurably #911 abc #911 meta #911 spoilers #shannon diaz #eddie diaz #christopher diaz #tw grief