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#enhypen jungwon angst
gyusrose · 4 months
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➵ i still get jealous -> y. jw
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⚠︎ smut ! (mdni)
✎ toxic!jungwon, unprotected sex, degrading, dirty talk, face-fucking, angry sex
summary: you’ve been friends with jake for as long as you can remember, jungwon shouldn’t feel insecure about him, right?
wc: 1.5k
{ jungwon x fem.reader}
( i got inspired by that one question they asked won in the fan meet hehehe)
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“wonie? wonie? is everything alright?” jungwon gripped the steering wheel locking his jaw. of course he wasn’t alright.
you’ve spent the entire night (according to him) on your phone texting that fucker. it’s always ‘jake this’ ‘jake that’ he’s starting to feel a certain way about this dude.
jungwon shook his head at your question, not trying to start arguing while he’s driving.
“you’re just awfully silent, is something bothering you? do you feel sick?”
jungwon rolled his eyes at your naiveness, you pretty much ignored him (again according to him) the whole night.
“i don’t know, maybe ask jake how he feels.” there. he said it, well.. spatted.
you instantly rolled your eyes, he’s back at it again.
“don’t start, you know exactly what’s between me and jake.”
“are you sure ? you were giggling on the phone the whole night!”
“i answered one 3-minute call! that’s it! do you not trust me ?”
“i sometimes feel like i don’t, you barely talked to me, it always jake jake jake jake.”
your eyebrows furrowed in confusion. where was he getting all of this from?
jungwon was in fact wrong. you didn’t ignore him nor talked with jake the whole night. you answers ONE call from him and then turned off your phone to give jungwon all your undivided attention. but jungwon like always, overthinks everything.
“at this point just date him.” at this point jungwon was furious.
“oh stop being ridiculous jungwon!”
“oh i’m ridiculous ? alright we’ll see.”
the rest of the ride was quiet, you didn’t have the guts to respond to jungwon after what he said. your breath quickened, for some reason you felt..nervous?
jungwon threw his keys on the counter as y’all entered the apartment.
he pulled you into the bedroom in a blink of an eye, gripping your neck, so you’re looking at him straight in the eye.
“i’m gonna fucking teach you, not to be such a little slut, i’m the only man you should talk to, am i right?”
you nodded quickly.
“use your words”
“yes, yes jungwon only you.”
he let go of your neck, now stripping from his clothes, you went along with his steps and took your own clothes off.
“on your knees baby.”
he said stroking his dick in front of you.
“you know what to do.” you grabbed his base and licked the tip slowly. feeling the urge to tease him.
jungwon groaned at your actions. grabbing your chin.
“nuh uh, open wide, i see what you’re trying to do.” you opened up your mouth while he grabbed hair into a ponytail. his hips thrusted up inside your mouth as he pushed your head down onto his cock. pretty much fucking the hell out of your face.
jungwon’s eyes closed in pleasure as he continued to furiously thrust into your mouth, the feeling of tagging drove him over the edge, the way your throat closes made his dick twitch.
“fuck yeah, that’s right, keep that mouth open for me whore. “
at some point you couldn’t take it anymore and started moaning into his dick sending vibrations through it.
he finally pulled out of your mouth, not wanting to cum so easily. you were just adjusting your breathing when you felt being thrown into the bed.
“are you tired already ? i haven’t even fucked you yet, how pathetic.” she said shaking his head in disappointment.
without any warning, he inserted two of his long fingers into your cunt, making your back arch at the sudden sensation. he purposely went really slow, loving to see how stressed you’d get. lifting your hips up a little to go faster.
jungwon held your hips still, smacking the inside of your thigh, making you squirm.
“you think i’m going to let you do what you want?” his fingers still thrusting into you curling them inside.
you moaned loudly, wanting to be filled up already.
“please jungwon, fuck me, just fuck me!”
jungwon chuckled, this is how he wanted to see you, begging for him only him.
“so desperate for my dick, you fucking love it don’t you?” he said looking straight at you.
you could barely form a sentence but you managed to.
“yes please wonie just fill me up, i need you.” jungwon didn’t want to give in so easily but fuck was that so hard to do when you’re looking at him with those eyes begging to be fucked.
he retracted his fingers from you and instead lined himself up with your entrance. the wetness from his dick and your pussy was more than enough lube.
he dragged his dick up and down your pussy making you whine.
finally, he slowly entered you. nothing could be compared to the feeling of being inside of you. the way your pussy engrossed his cock almost made him cum on the spot.
jungwon wasted almost no time and started slamming into you with no mercy, your cries could probably be heard from blocks away.
the bed squeaked with every thrust he stirred.
“oh fuck jungwon, just like that fuck yes!” he knew how to drive you crazy, knowing exactly where to hit in your insides.
“mhm yeah? you like that? can jake fuck you like this? can he?” he grabbed your chin straight at him. normally you would roll your eyes at his remarks over your best friend but how hot it looked right now.
wanting to tease him more, you nodded your head.
“i don’t know maybe, he could probably go faster..” jungwon was appalled.
his thrusts weee enraged. you could feel how infuriated he was with every one of them. it was amazing.
“oh you think? can he make you feel like this? huh?” his hand lowered to your pussy, rubbing your clit in circular motion making you hips snap at the impact it had on your body.
you whines, moaned and groaned at all once.
“answer me!”
“no-shit - not he can’t.” with the speed he was going at, jungwon was dying for this view, you tits bouncing up at every thrust, he couldn’t help but lean down to suck and fondle them.
your hands reached down to his hair, gripping it not wanting him to pull away from them.
jungwon pulled away from your nipple and leaned back to his original position. now putting your legs over his shoulder in order to go even deeper (if possible) .
“only i can see you like this, you get that slut? no one, specifically jake can.”
“yes only you baby, fuck i’m gonna cum!” tears could be seen streaming down your face from the immense amount of pleasure you were receiving. jungwon wiped your tears then leaned down engulfing you in a deep kiss. his tongue swirled around yours, it felt like everything all at once. lust, love, anger, compassion.
“who’s pussy is this huh? tell me.”
“i’m cumming holy shit.”
“do not cum! tell me answer my question! who’s pussy is this?”
the ecstasy from the pleasure but now the urge to cum made your mind numb. barely forming a sentence.
“yours jungwon.” you said quietly, sure he heard it but he wasn’t content with it.
“i can’t hear you!” jungwon leaned closer to you. smirking. he wanted to cum so bad, but he wanted to hear you say that before it.
“yours jungwon! all yours to fuck.” you said much louder this time, the stress visible in your voice.
that’s all it took jungwon to come undone inside of you.
“fuck cum with me baby, cum all over my dick.” your orgasm mixed with his meant a furor of moans echoing around the bedroom.
jungwon pulled out of you before plopping right next to you, hugging your waist.
“tell that fucker to not call you so much.” you chuckled and kissed his lips knowing damn well that you’ll probably do it again in order to have this side of jungwon again.
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won4ver · 2 months
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words left unsaid
“hey this is y/n, i’m sorry i missed your call. please try again later. thank you, have a good day!”
a series where enhypen leaves you a voicemail, knowing you’d never respond
pairing : idol!ot7!enhypen x reader
warnings + genre : written like a transcript. mcd. angst.
a/n : these have been in my drafts since the start of december
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Voicemail
Lee Heeseung
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“ Hey my love, you look beautiful today … “
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Jay Park
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“ I saw you on tv today … ”
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Jake Sim
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“ I didn’t see you in my dreams last night … ”
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Park Sunghoon
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“ A lot has changed since you left … ”
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Kim Sunoo
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“ i had a dream of you last night …”
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Yang Jungwon
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“ I finally went to your memorial today … ”
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Nishimura Riki
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“ Hi ynnie, today was the award … “
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ctrlemis · 10 months
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𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄
↳ ❝worst choreographer ever❞ (✷) — warnings. choreographer is extremely nitpicky to the girls, and is basically a bitch.
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The seven girls, along with the seven members of enhypen, huffed and puffed as they finished dancing to the choreography for the third time without a break. They weren’t dancing with partners yet, simply marking out the choreo as they practiced. As they all tried to catch their breath, the main choreographer stood there with a clipboard in hand, accompanied by both a pen and marker. Behind her was a white board with most of the blocking either written or poorly drawn, much to the amusement of Ni-ki, Mickey, and Annalesa.
“You know what? I think I want Y/N to be the dancer for the first part of the chorus for the whole song.” The choreographer announced after watching the video of them dancing. It seemed as though the majority of them had questions about that, but it was silent in the practice room. The older woman sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose. “Does anyone have questions?” Several hands went up at once. She pointed to Heeseung first, who had been majorly quiet for all current and previous practices, and had been almost a ghost.
“How are we going to block that when we haven’t even practiced or blocked the places for the dancer to be in the chorus in the first place?” He questioned, arms crossed. She signaled for her assistant, a younger girl who seemed to be struggling to keep up, to write his question down.
“Most likely, we’ll have the dancers in the same places for the pre-chorus, meaning that we’ll place Jungwon where Jake was for the first chorus for the second chorus, so that Mai and Y/N can get to the boys easier.” Even if she was strict, the choreographer went out of her way to actually use the girl’s names, and accommodate them in small ways. She pointed at Mai next.
“Would that not be asking a little much?” Mai asked, and added, “I mean, we already have to adjust to the dancing style of our dance partner to make sure we highlight and don’t outshine them, and all of the boys have different dance styles, so that would mean-” before Mai could actually finish her question, the choreographer shushed her, and the girl went silent, lips pressed into a thin line at the notion. She looked over, making eye contact with Y/N, and both girls knew they would be talking about that later.
“You all were scouted and hired because the company assumed you were the best candidates out of them all, and would be able to keep up. Miss Dinh, I would presume with your previous experience as a choreographer for many difficult choreographies, you would be able to keep up. Am I to be misled?” Mai grinded her teeth, shaking her head. The choreographer smiled, in that way that older women smile when they know they’ve won. “Then I advise you to do your best to do what you hired for, or else we will look for a replacement. Is that clear?” Mai nodded again, lips still pressed together. She looked over at Y/N again, eyes connecting as a message passed through them; We will most definitely be debriefing later. The choreographer looked over at Y/N’s raised hand, narrowed eyes as she tutted her chin.
“Actually i want to add on to what Mai originally asked. When i was contacted, as well as i’ll assume for the other girls, i was informed that i was told that i was specifically chosen to work with Yang Jungwon because of my skill and specific dance style, and excused me if it’s presumptuous of me to assume, but i would assume that it was the same for the other dancers. If so, what would be the case of having me work with both Jungwon and Jake if i was specifically scouted because my dance style was either similar to or able to accommodate Jungwon’s, and same for Mai with Jaeyun?” The choreographer’s mouth gaped open and closed like a fish, and when Y/N looked over to Mai, the girl had a small smile on her face, mouthing the words * ‘Thank You.’ She smiled warmly in return, and as she turned to look back at the choreographer, her eyes met Jungwon’s. The boy was in the process of lowering his hand; It seems that they apparently had the same question, or something along the lines of it. She looked away quickly, trying to ignore the heat rushing through her body. She added on, “I don’t mean to come off as disrespectful or ignorant, i understand that you as the choreographer are here to bring this song to life in a way that the boys are both comfortable with and that you see fit, and I don't mean to condescend you in any way. Nor do I have an issue with working with Jake, I simply wanted clarification on that.”
“I see.” The older woman said, looking Y/N up and down. “Again, I simply felt as though you would execute it well given your previous experience. I still want you to work with both of them on the first part of the chorus, so we will block that when we get there, as well as deal with any issues or tweak anything needed. No more questions right now, I want to block the pre-chorus with the boys and figure out where each dancer is gonna be, so I can place the boys correctly for the chorus.” She instructed. As they all moved, she called out once more. “And Miss L/N, while I recognize you have previous choreographing experience, I suggest any future concerns you and the other girls keep to yourselves.” She smiled as she said it. Y/N failed to respond, making eye contact with Mai once more. She walked over to where she originally was, waiting for the music to start.
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“She is, by far, the worst choreographer I've worked for!” Mai exclaimed as she collapsed onto the couch, grabbing the pillow on it and screaming into it. Y/N dropped down in front of her, laying in front of the couch on the floor.
“We were specifically assigned to a member for a specific reason! It’s in the email! It’s in the contract!” Y/N agreed with her.
“To be fair, it’s the choreographer’s choices and decision to move someone if they feel fit.” Sora stated, dropping her bag. “And she cannot be the worst.” Mickey was the last inside, and took it upon herself to herself comfy on top of Mai, who screeched and tried(failing in the process) to shove the younger girl off, who wouldn’t budge.
“She’s most definitely something. But it’s the first few days and we’re all still adjusting. It will be fine tomorrow.” Keina Saed added. Mai sighed, admitting defeat against Mickey, much to the younger girl’s joy.
“All i have to say is Jungwon definitely has a staring problem.” Annalesa chimed in from the kitchen table, scrolling on her phone. Y/N looked up from the floor, eyes trained on Annalesa. The youngest didn’t seem to notice, munching on Caelin’s shrimp chips, which the older girl snatched out of her grasp.
“Hm?” Y/N asked, trying to sound nonchalant. That’s when Annalesa looked up from her phone, eyebrows furrowed as she stared at Y/N.
“Well, he was staring at you for the majority of the practice.”
“I don’t think there was a moment his eyes ever left you.” Caelin chimed in, joining Mickey in using Mai as a chair. Mai seemed to give up her protests, now listening to the conversation with closed eyes. Keina Saed nodded from the other side of the coffee table, eyes focused on her ipad as she played Doors.
“That’s….” Y/N had started speaking, but her voice had faltered. She was only aware of the small glances he made at her, but staring? She shook it off, trying to ignore the sudden heat that found itself manifesting in her hands. It didn’t matter if he was staring at her. She was mildly embarrassed to admit that she had looked at him far longer than professionally needed. She cleared her throat. “...Surprising.”
“I think it’s cute.” Sora said. “I mean- does it make you uncomfortable?”
“Er, not really? I just don’t want his fans to find out, don’t wanna end up in one of those edits with the song ‘All because i liked a boy.’ Great song, just don’t want the things in said song to actually happen.” Y/N sighed, and there was a mumbled chorus of agreement.
“We already know we’re gonna get hate for this as is. Last thing I need is people in my comments saying shit like, ‘Sunghoon doesn’t want you!’ Yeah, he’s too busy drooling over Jay, it’s Jake who actually wants me, get with the program.” Keina Saed sighed mockingly, shaking her head and erupting a tired laugh from Mai, who seemed to be half-asleep underneath Caelin and Mickey.
“In all seriousness, I don't think the Jungwon thing will be an issue. He’s very mature for his age, and very career-oriented. I’m sure he has enough sense to focus on the comeback and not on how pretty Y/N is.”
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“Hold on, everyone stop.” The choreographer ordered, stopping the music in the background. All fourteen of them stopped moving. The choreographer walked past each of them, eyes narrowed and hand clasped around the clipboard tightly. She stopped in front of Keina Saed.
“Is there a delayed version of the song playing in your head that is causing you to be a beat behind everyone else?” She asked with that same sugary sweet smile. Keina Saed furrowed her brows at the older women. She opened her mouth to speak, but the woman continued. “Your moves look messy and incomplete.”
“That’s not true.” Annalesa interrupted with a frown. “ She’s going at the same pace as everyone else, and she’s synced up with her member, as are the rest of us. Her moves are probably the cleanest out of everyone here.” The choreographer turned to her with a sneer, but quickly replaced it with a smile.
“With all due respect, i am a highly trained professional-”
“As am i.” Annalesa interrupted again, frown deepening. The choreographer stayed smiling, but her first was clenched.
“-And i think that if i say someone is behind a step or offbeat or even a second behind their partner, it is because i deem it so.” She said, her voice unusually high pitched. None of the members said anything, looking between the two.
“Respectfully, you also seem to hyperfocus on our so called mistakes when, with all due respect, i’ve watched Heeseung and Jake bump into each other twice this time around, but this is the fifth time in this set that you’ve pointed out some sort of flaw or issue with us.” Sora piped in. The choreographer looked over to her, her smile wearing thin now.
“Excuse me.” She said walking to the front of everyone, turning to them. “Girls, the reason I am ‘hyperfocusing’ on mistakes that you all are making is because fans are not going to care if they are behind, they are going to care if you are, and if any of you are, they will rip all of you to shreds. Now, I was under the impression that none of you have worked together before, but this seemingly newfound sisterhood is refreshing for all of you, I'm sure, but I question your professionalism.” And as she said all of that, her thin tight grin never left her face.
“Excuse me.” Caelin cleared her throat. “I can’t help but think you’re being overcritical on us-” Whatever point the brunette was attempting to make was cut off.
“Then maybe it’s best if you don’t think at all.” The older woman said plainly.
“I think we should take our break now.” Jungwon spoke up. He seemed stoic, staring at the woman rather blankly. She gripped her clipboard tighter.
“I disagree, and because I am in charge here we will continue practicing until I say so.”
“And as the leader, I see it best that everyone takes a break.” He stated coldly. “If you have an issue with that, I seriously suggest you take it up with our manager.” They seemed to be having a staring contest, and Jungwon’s eyes never left her, boring into her soul until she cleared her throat.
“I think I will.” She said, her smile finally gone. “And while I am gone, you all are permitted a break.” She walked off, and it was only when she was surely out of sight that everyone physically deflected. Like always, the girls went to one side and the boys went to another. Keina Saed slid down the wall, leaning against Sora with her head on the older girl’s shoulder.
“She’s just picking on us now.” Mai grumbled, sitting in front of Keina Saed and Sora. Caelin sat next to her, shoulder brushing against each other as the girl sat down. The other girls sat on either side of them, forming a semi-circle around Keina Saed and Sora.
“Maybe it was unprofessional to say all of that, but I have truly never worked with an idol choreographer who has acted like that, and I feel that it was the right thing to do.” Sora added as she rubbed Keina Saed’s shoulder.
“You guys really didn’t have to do that for me.” Keina Saed murmured, followed by a chorus of disagreement.
“Doesn’t matter, we did and whatever happens, we did the right thing.” Mickey protested.
Jungwon stared from the other side of the practice room, eyes trained on Y/N’s back. It was only when Jake smacked him on the back of his head that he snapped out of it. He narrowed his eyes at the blonde, rubbing the back of his head.
“Staring problem.” Sunoo had answered before he had even asked, and he pouted.
“I don’t get why we’re all the way over here and they’re all the way over there.” He grumbled. Heeseung and Sunoo both stared at him like he was insane. Jake on the other hand laughed at him. Great.
“Probably because they don’t have to? They probably don’t want an issue with the company, and even if they didn’t, they are well within their rights to sit over there.” Jake teased, and Jungwon swatted at him.
“Come on guys, be nice to him.” Riki insisted, and Jungwon nodded. “We all know he wants to sit near them because he thinks Y/N is cute.” Jungwon narrowed his eyes at the younger boy, who bursted out laughing with Sunoo.
“Y/N, I’m not completely sure,” Sora started, looking behind her. “But Jungwon is staring again.” Mai covered her mouth to suppress her laugh.
“I guess he in fact does not have enough sense to focus on the comeback and not on how pretty Y/N is.” Caelin said. Y/N shook her head, using her hand to hide the smile on her face.
“Or there’s something on my back.” Mickey leaned behind, looking at her back before sitting up, shaking her head. Y/N sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose. “I don’t get why he’s staring.”
“And why is Jake not looking at Kei.” Sora added, for the aforementioned girl to sigh exasperatedly.
“That’s what i’m saying!” She exclaimed. “Bro, I even found a pink shirt with a golden retriever on it and he hasn’t asked to marry me yet! The nerve.” Her words caused the girls to fall out giggling.
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SYNOPSIS. L/N Y/N knows that beyond all else, she must stay professional. She knew that her job and dreams of being a main choreographer for a company was more important then any silly little feelings that seemed to be rather persistent in her brain. She was almost relieved to find out Dark Blood promotions were finished, until she was emailed a contract, along with the notice that she, as well as the other dancers, would be appearing alongside ENHYPEN during their second world tour. Fantastic.
NOTES. is the choreographer probably a bigger bitch then accurate? idek tbh this is for plot and is fictional, none of this is from experience or real guys 😣
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i69ki · 4 months
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short.
forever — 양정원.
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PAIRING jungwon x fem!reader.
PLOT where y.jw meets his past lover in his dream.
GENRE est. past lovers, little angst(?).
WARNING kissing.
W. COUNT - 458.
S.NOTE - i’m not used to using (y/n) when writing ffs so i’ll be using a name which in this case will be seoyeon.
yn = seoyeon. seoyeon = yn.
also, i haven't written in a while so uhm, yeah. enjoy.
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2:00 am was all that the blinking clock had lit up as the teenager across from it let out a heavy sigh, exasperated.
Jungwon rubbed his eyes, allowing his gaze to drift upwards into the white ceiling of his solitary room, engulfed by the mist of the darkness. The faint glow of distant buildings provided the only illumination in this otherwise dim space.
No matter how hard the brunette tried to shut his eyes and drift into sleep, his mind on the other hand wasn’t letting him. As he rose from his bed, he made his way to the kitchen, where his cherished companion awaited him, nestled comfortably on the countertop.
‘Sleeping pills, yang Jung won.’ was what was imprinted right across the center of the white off the counter plastic bottle. Inhaling sharply, the brunette popped two pills into his hand, then swallowed them down with a swig of cold water.
Returning to his bed, the boy cocooned himself within the embrace of his blankets, relishing the snug warmth they provided atop his own.
With a final, deliberate closure of his eyes, he slipped into his own realm of boundless space.
"Seoyeon," the boy said softly, his voice carrying across the distance as he approached the girl seated amidst the swaying tall grass.
Seoyeon, lost in her own world, simply hummed in response, deftly weaving together fallen leaves and daisies into a delicate crown resting on her lap.
drifting out of her state of world, she flashes a smile before presenting the boy her handcrafted crown. "isn't it pretty?" the girl questioned, her gaze fixed on him as she stood tall, offering the crown to him.
With a subtle nod, the brunette responded in a soft hum. Rising onto her tiptoes, she delicately positioned the crown upon his head. She then met the boy's gaze, locking eyes with his feline-like stare.
Sighing softly, a subtle sadness clouded Seoyeon's gaze as she gently took hold of Jungwon's hand. "Jungwon," she began, her voice trailing off as she searched for the right words. "It's time for you to let go of me."
"I'm gone, Jungwon," Seoyeon spoke softly.
In that moment, Jungwon felt the truth settle heavily within him. His beloved, his guiding star, was truly gone. She existed now only in memories—a cherished past he could never relive. Her absence was a void that would forever haunt his arms and the warmth of his embrace.
But her memory would remain engraved in his heart, a love that time couldn't erase. He would carry her with him always and forever, loving her until his last breath.
Finally, letting go of his hand, Seoyeon planted one final lingering kiss upon the boy's lips.
Forever leaving his realm of dreams.
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en-whims · 1 year
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[ 9:00 AM ]nerd!jungwon always sticks his sweet and colorful anonymous notes on your locker only to be read and thrown away by your jock boyfriend, jay, before you could even see them.
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kpophubb · 2 years
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</3: 𝖡𝗎𝗍 𝘞𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝗠𝗶𝗻𝗲? // уαиg วυηցωση
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🄶🄴🄽🅁🄴: 𝗮𝗻𝗴𝘀𝘁, 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗯𝗶𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗻 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲, 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗹𝗲, 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲, 𝘂𝗻𝗿𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗶𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲, 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗸 <|𝟯 ☹︎
[ !! Please read part 1 first. ⇢ 𝖸𝗈𝗎 𝖼𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽 𝖻𝖾 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖾 ]
"𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘯 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦..𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘵...𝗽𝘂𝘁𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗺𝘆𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗼𝗻 𝗳𝗶𝗿𝗲."
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What if the things I say don’t break your heart jungwon? You repeated, weeping frantically and clutching his hands tighter, afraid that the boy you adored so much would disappear into thin air if you didn’t hold him down.
At your unexpected statement, his broken eyes turn to you and widen, staring at you with a look, agonising and hopeful again, begging for an explanation.
Please, let it be something not cruel like usual. Let it please be something that saves his drowning heart one last time.
“What….what do you mean noona?”
“Jungwon…”
“Listen to me. Please don’t leave me like this.” You cried out, almost tripping over where you’re seated, only for him to catch a tired and sobbing you into his comforting arms again.
The touch was so brief, and yet, every part of you was afraid to be deprived of that touch, exchanged for a lifetime of hollow aching.
“I..I never expected even in my dreams that you see me this way, won. Believe me, had I known, I’d try my best to never come across a day where I’d hurt you this much.”
“I feel awful for being the cause of tears of that one boy I always wanted to protect no matter what…and yet. Yet even when I know I want to hug you right now and tell you it’s okay.., I can’t.”
“It’s true I love Jake. But all this time…I loved him without knowing that you loved me. Jungwon..please. All I’m saying is give me some time to think this through. All this happening right now, this, that, everything, they’re too much for me. I need some time to figure out my own feelings so I can truly know what I want.” You finish abruptly, catching your breath and gulping the next sob that was about to rise up your throat.
As you laid there, desperately pleading for an answer, you noticed how the unmoving figure infront of you just stared at you with the same pair of unchanged hurtful eyes, unable to come up with a miracle answer that wouldn’t break his voice.
But, a sigh was all he gave you before turning his back to you and walking out of that cold and suffocating, lonely room, leaving you all alone in the dark like you deserved.
Damn. Seeing someone walk away from your life never hurt so bad. If you were to describe the feeling you felt right now, it was like being in a pitiful state with your hands and limbs being tied and someone sucking the breath out of you cruelly. You feel like you’d die every second, but truly, you just lay there helplessly, bearing the repeated torture of a painful cell called reality.
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Hours pass by with you, feeling your heart wring with excruciating pain and tears running down your cheeks in streams without stopping. Who could have thought evil fate would throw you in this two sided road where you can’t choose two, or choose neither?
It was ripping your innards apart to replay the scenes of the last few hours. Jungwon confessing to you, him crying for you, and most of all- him walking out of your life so coldly. From his sigh, you knew he was waiting for one final answer, although most parts of him were already gone without leaving behind traces. But…the truth is, what answer were you supposed to give him?
To think when and how jungwon’s smile would become so precious to you, that your whole world drowned in tints of gray when you imagined a world with it gone. His dimples that you always admired, would never pop out again when you say something or greet him hello. Those eyes of his will never sparkle, the sound of his homelike laughter that echoed in your ears, ringing inside you like a melody you were borne with. The warmth of his fingers when they were intertwined with yours, the feeling of comfort running through you when he hugged you or patted your head…could you really live without it all? You questioned yourself helplessly, knowing damn well what the answer would be.
Right in the moment when you decide to come to a conclusion, your head buzzes, slapping you back to your confused reality when your phone rings with an incoming text. It was a text from no one else but Jake, the seeming love of your life, asking you if you could meet him tomorrow. As you sat in painful silence, brushing your fingers over the screen that read “can you meet me at the dorm tomorrow? Got something I wanted to tell you for long!” with a blushing emoji, you knew where your heart was exactly leading you.
Between choosing the boy you loved the most since day 1 and the boy who loved you the most since day 1,
you found your obvious answer.
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Meanwhile, at the enha dorm, jungwon had already heard from jake how you agreed to come meet him, jake, and the rest of the boys for lunch the following day. Everyone was excited to have you, especially Jake, who had a new shade of happiness portrayed on his face.
“Woah buddy. Is something the matter today?” Sunghoon asks his best friend, raising his eyebrow in suspicion as he stares at the man who was excitingly fixing his hair infront of the mirror.
“Why don’t you guess?” Jake replies in an instant with a shy smile, immediately joining sunghoon in situating the plates on the table.
“Wait wait!!! DONT TELL ME-“
“YOU ARE GOING TO ASK Y/N OUT TODAY??” Sunghoon dramatically flings his palm to cover his mouth, staring at him in a mischievous disbelief, but dissolving into excitement at his friend’s bold behaviour.
“..yeah.😳”
“Congratulations man. We all already know what’s gonna be the answer so. Cheers on making her your girlfriend finally. ;)” sunghoon teases, rushing to the living room afterwards to crack the news to the rest of the boys.
However, their conversation was so loud that jungwon, who was putting the drinks in the tray, overheard everything. He didn’t mean to eavesdrop but the moment he heard your name, he couldn’t resist himself from listening.
His heart bled when he saw the happy and excited giggle on his hyung’s face. And part of him couldn’t help but despise himself strongly for being a horrible friend to such a kind hearted hyung who always just showered him with love.
Even Jungwon wasn’t aware of what answer you were gonna give him today. No one except you two knew what was going on between you, so they couldn’t possibly guess the consequences that were to take place. Someone’s heart was bound to break in today’s story, and between three people, only two would remain standing by the end.
Although he didn’t hope too much, he knew he had to cling onto that tiny glimmer of possibility to prevent his already broken heart from crumbling to dust. He wasn’t someone who believed in miracles, but there was no way he could blame himself for wishing to see you run upto him today, hug him and miraculously tell him that you chose to love him instead.
But around 20 minutes later, when you do walk in though, jungwon realizes how he’s born unfortunate and tragedy is his eternal fate, the moment he sees you rushing to Jake for an embrace without even glancing the other way.
“Hi y/n!!” Jake squeals, hugging you tightly inside his arms and resting his chin on the top of your head.
“Hey.” You reply dryly, covering your face on his chest so he doesn’t notice the way you were feeling.
Worried by your unusual tone, jake lifts your face immediately and urges you to look at him. He notices the eye bags under your eyes in a second, how your eyes were evidently red from crying too much and your hair was a also mess. You looked hurt, you looked damaged, you looked like you were dying with no one to save you from the dead.
“What’s the matter y/n?! Is everything alright?!” He anxiously asks, patting your shoulder in easing motions. But all you do is stare at him and lie you’re alright, even though your answer didn’t obviously convince him.
“I just feel a little sick jake. I’ll be okay.” You hold his hand to reassure him and seeing him smile at you in a caring way, your broken self finally dips in his familiar warmth again. Asking for a glass of water from him to get him to leave the room, you stand there, catching your breath and gathering your next move.
Suddenly, your eyes dart towards the figure standing a few feet away from you, the figure you didn’t notice all this time because you truly just needed a hug from your comfort person today before everything. You looked at him in a plunging guilt, jungwon, who stood there in shocking but expected silence.
How much more of his life would be spend aching for you?
As soon as you take a few steps towards him, you see him take ten steps backwards away from you. You feel his intense agony clouding the room, but no way in hell would you let him run away again, without hearing you out for the last time.
“So this is the answer you came up with noona? Breaking me all over again so heartlessly like I mean nothing? Like my feelings amount to nothing at all?” Jungwon accuses, voice sharpening and eyes blearing with painful tears.
“Jungwon. I thought about it a lot. And this is the only thing right for us I’m afraid. Do you think you’d be happy with me if I loved you just out of guilt?” You question.
“Do you think you wish to be loved by me only cause you love me and not cause I want to love you?”
He freeezes at your remark.
“If I came and told you I want you today, then that would be me only forcing my heart to beat for you just because I didn’t want to hurt you. In the long term, it would only destroy you even more than this.”
“Maybe losing eachother was our inevitable destiny.” You whisper painfully, biting your lower lip as hard as you could to keep your mouth from quivering.
It was true. Jungwon knew what you were saying was right. He didn’t want your sympathy or to be with him forcefully. But yet, nothing you said could erase the way he felt for you. Isn’t that how falling in love so often works? One person appears out of nowhere and becomes a fixed star in your universe. That, even when you know that person doesn’t love you and will never love you, you will foolishly perhaps always belong to them.
Yet, he needed to somehow rid himself of his pent up suffering and anger. Although he knew nothing happening to him was your fault, he couldn’t refrain himself from lashing out at you. After all, the person you love the most is also the person you hurt the most.
“You of all people have no right to tell me that!” He blurts out rudely.
“You meant everything to me. But in the end…I wasn’t even a speck of dust in your world. Tell me noona..was it so easy to discard me?”
“Jungwon…….try to understand. Think about it again. I’m not trying to disregard what you feel..but maybe just maybe..if you look inside your heart closely, you might find out your feelings for me were just infatuation. Maybe you can forget me with time and-“
he cuts you off abruptly.
“They are not. They never were. And will never be..
Because if you could love someone and keep loving them without being loved back then that love had to be real. It hurt too much to be anything else.”
Seeing the way you flinch from his confession, he snaps back to reality when he feels you shaking with apology and hurt. Seeing you hurt still hurt him more than being hurt himself, so giving you one final look to memorize your messed up yet so beautiful face as his souvenir, he sets off to his journey away from your life once and for all.
That was perhaps the end. The end of your relationship, the end of ever being able to stand infront of him and talk to him. The end of your chapter. Yes.
Perhaps.
Cause even though he left, he knew too well how no matter what, he could never stop loving you.
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That day came to an end in the blink of an eye. Lunch was over with soon, because you just sat at the table, without eating nothing. Everyone knew something was gravely wrong with you from the heavy atmosphere but no one asked. Jungwon was gone, away from the dorm with his excuse, to avoid making the situation known to anybody.
They didn’t know what was up with you, but they knew you needed time and space. Your horrible state saddened jake, and thus he postponed asking you out to some other date when you’re feeling better. Cause right now, his only priority was to be there for you and make you happy.
——-[ 2 weeks later ]
Its been 14 long days and whoever said time could heal all the broken was a brutal liar. Cause there are always some wounds that keep bleeding, some wounds that we only use a thin camouflage to cover that still keep hurting madly underneath. Yes, that was the kind of wound losing you had resulted in jungwon’s life. 2 empty weeks of no contact, the wait was long and yet the dream of you inside his mind couldn’t end.
If you don’t receive love from the ones who are meant to love you, you never stop looking for it. Worse- you never stop loving them either. He thought walking away from your life and ending things would drive away his ghosts, but how can he ever close his eyes without seeing you linger everywhere? The scent of you lingering on his jacket that he borrowed you, the couch you always sat in and watched movies with him, the matching keychain you got him at your amusement park trip with him, the smile on your face when you first won at your gaming arcade, the piggy back rides in empty streets at night filled with laughter when he carried you home. It was impossible to forget you when you weren’t a different person. You were an inseparable and irreplaceable part of him.
You were just another wish in his life that never came true. In the end, he pushed you away and you left like he asked you to.
And ofcourse, his suffering wasn’t unseen by the ones around him. He might have been really good at concealing his feelings for so long, but there’s only so much of himself he could desperately stick together when the trigger had been pulled. Jay, heeseung and even jake notices that jungwon was heavily depressed.
Worried by the way each day made his condition worsen, jay decided to confront jungwon and pull the truth out of him. He knew what kind of person his leader was, taking all the weight on his shoulders silently, only opening his mouth to make a painless sound when he’s been crushed by its overbearing weight.
On the other hand, you weren’t doing great either. You tried to divert your mind as much as you could by spending time with Jake that made you momentarily happy, but what happens to the time you accidentally run into jungwon when you open the door to him? The moment you walked past his room and your nose burned with the scent of his familiar perfume..the moment your eyes locked suddenly and unintentionally? It was a feeling of intense guilt and emptiness. He had been in your life for so long and had become such a significant part of it that now that he was gone, you were a bird with one wing missing, unable to fly away from this never ending cycle of hurt and atonement.
Jake had noticed the way you had grown quieter. How your conversations with him would end and you’d lock yourself away in loneliness. How your body was present infront of him but your mind was lost in a dark place he couldn’t reach even after trying so much. Yet, you were glad he was there for you to hold you. This bad feeling would fade after a month and then you’d be able to start off your happy relationship with Jake. Jungwon would move on. Jake and you would be together. Everything will work out at the end, right? Cause what’s meant to be will be. Atleast that’s what you consoled yourself with for now.
“Jungwonie, can I come in?” Jay asked, peering his head into jungwon’s dark room, catching the attention of the absent minded boy who was staring outside the window with an emotionless face, alone and late into the night.
“Sure hyung.” He gasps, gesturing jay to come inside dryly.
Sitting down on the floor beside him, jay continues, nudging him on the shoulder from concern.
“Is something the matter with you?”
“No. Why would you think so hyung?”
“You seem…different jungwon. Like you’ve lost yourself. You seem to be detached and so depressed. You know you can always tell me if something’s bothering you right?”
“Yeah. Thank you. I know. I’m just…a little stressed about our upcoming comeback and the records and all that.”
To this weak excuse, jay gets agitated.
“Whats the problem and why won’t you tell me?!”
“……..”
“I am sorry.” jungwon draws in a long huff of breath, crossing his knees, his face growing paler by the second.
“The truth is. I didn’t lose myself. I lost someone I loved the most and little did I know i was all about her.”
“..who…are you talking about?”
“Hyung…”
“I love noona.”
“You..WHAT?”
“I….love noona.”
And that was it. The last straw to holding himself together. Jungwon breaks down and spills everything to a surprised jay, crying at the end because the bottle of his emotions slips and breaks. From falling in love with you, to kissing you, to confessing to you, to hating himself for coming in between you and Jake, to having an argument with you and losing you for good.
“Should I have just kept my mouth shut hyung? Would she still be here with me had I never told her I was in love with her?” He asks frantically, sniffing.
“No..listen to me.” Jay holds his chin up to face him directly in the eye. “To burn with desire and keep quiet is the greatest punishment we can bring upon ourselves. So you didn’t make a mistake jungwon. Please don’t blame yourself for anything.”
“I feel like I’ll never recover. Like I can never draw out another breath without half of it being a wish for her.”
Jungwon finishes, crawling into jay’s arms and letting his agonising pain slip away into the moment.
Little did he know…..
Jake knew everything now. So that was the reason why both his y/n and his leadernim were falling apart.
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“Y/n. We need to talk. I’m coming over in 5” the text read.
You stared at the screen in confusion, not able to read the mood. It was from Jake and he had practice today, so why would he rush over at your place as soon as he finished it? You guys just met yesterday and went out for dinner so..what would be his special ocassion?
But soon, Your pondering ends abruptly as the doorbell rings one after another, alarming you of Jake’s presence.
“Hey!” You greet him with a wave, but he immediately pulls you into his chest and wraps his arms around you. For some reason, today he held you tighter. Today he held you for a long time.
“Everything good?” You ask, ruffling his hair while he still keeps you buried in his embrace.
“Let’s go inside. I’ll tell you everything.”
You could tell, he was nervous. He was circling his fingers on your bedsheet restlessly, trying again and again to bring up something hesitantly. He was out of his usual energetic and excited self, and today he seemed to be deeply troubled.
“This is gonna sound abrupt y/n but…”
“I know jungwon is in love with you.”
You almost choke on air by his serious and unexpected comment.
“I’ve been noticing his change in demeanour for so long now..but I could never figure out what was wrong until I heard everything yesterday. You were upset..jungwon was upset..it was obvious something happened between the two of you.”
“Is ..he okay?” You ask timidly, your concern vivid in your tone.
“No. He was crying like crazy yesterday. It sucked..to see how he was weeping like he had done something wrong..”
“Jake he’s afraid that you would start hating him if you knew..please..don’t be mad at-“
“What are you saying y/n? I could never be mad at someone for falling in love with you. You’re so loveable.” His voice softens and his eyes grow tender. “And I could never blame someone for catching feelings when feelings are the one thing in this world people have no control over.”
Hearing his words make your heart soften. He was so kind and thoughtful and had such a beautiful perspective of everything. This was the biggest reason you fell for him back in the day. Jake was the epitome of generosity.
“And that is exactly why I can’t be mad at you either y/n.”
“Huuh?”
Jake leans in closer to your face and caresses your cheek fondly with his warm fingers. Somehow, his eyes were full of a unique gentleness that you’d never seen before.
“You loved me.”
“What do you mean? I still love-“
He brings one finger over your lips to shush you.
“You loved me y/n. So so much that it filled my heart.”
“You loved me till the day you and jungwon fought and you came running to me. That day, you made the right choice cause back then, it was me you were in love with. But then, your heart changed.”
“And that’s nothing you have to run away from. Please don’t force your heart into thinking that the past is still reality. Y/n. Human hearts change all the time. That’s why we fall in love many times. We just have to find that one love we want to hang on to till the end of our lives.”
He places your hand over your heart tenderly before continuing.
“And right now that’s the love you’re aching for.”
“Jake…. That’s not..”
“Ssh. Look inside your heart y/n and you will find the answer. Had you loved me even now, you’d still be happy with me. But have you seen yourself over the past weeks? This is way more than guilt. You miss jungwon. You want to see him. Feel him. Go upto him. And hold him. And that separation is killing you. You’re so scared to hurt him that you disregard your new feelings as something insignificant. But I can tell..you’ve fallen in love with him during the time you were apart.”
“When you close your eyes and think about the one person you want to see the most right now, who do you see? Be honest with yourself, my love.”
“It’s..not you.” You break, consumed by the intoxicating truth before you.
“Exactly. Who is it?”
“Yang jungwon.”
“See?”
“But..does this mean you and I will never speak to eachother again?” You reach your hand out to him, afraid you will lose him too.
However, jake takes your hand inside his large ones and presses your forehead together before saying in his soothing voice.
“Ofcourse not dummy. Being loved by you. Has always been an honour. I will always cherish the times we spent together y/n.”
“And I will always be with you no matter what. We will talk, meet and be us. Just the only thing that will change is we will be friends. Maybe even best friends?” He laughs.
“And lastly, I’ll always be watching over you and jungwon and scold him if he hurts you..so don’t you worry!” He exclaims, trying to sound scary, that makes you laugh.
“Thank you.”
“Now go get your man before it’s too late.” Jake let’s go of your hand and gestures you in the direction of the door.
You were so grateful to him. For opening your eyes and cracking the hidden vault of feelings inside your heart. For making you realize how your heart didn’t stop, it just changed. For guiding you to the one you truly wanted to be with and saving you from a lifetime of regret and emptiness.
When you leave the room and rush to catch your train, jake walks back to his home, relived and sad at the same time. Opening the door to his room, he looks at the plushie he won for you at the arcade, that he decided to ask you out with once upon a time.
He takes it in his hands, hugging it and holding it close to his heart. It was true, he felt sad at letting you go. And perhaps, it will be a long time before he allows his heart to fall in love again. But he knew he’s happy with the choice he’s made. Cause in this way all of you will remain happy. Besides, you deserved to be with someone who loved you more than him, and the person who loved you the most was obviously jungwon.
Jake safely puts the plush inside his closet and shuts the door. An old chapter ended, but that doesn’t mark the end of his story. He looked forward to the new story life would write for him. And indeed, he realized, some people are just better off as happy memories.
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“Jungwon!!”
“Wait!!!” You yelled at the boy a few blocks infront of you, panting and almost kneeling, worn out from running so much. It was only now you realized, you were so desperate, you ran away from home barefoot.
Hearing your voice, a surprised jungwon looks backward to ensure he wasn’t hallucinating. It was really you. But you and him had ended things weeks ago and ever since, you never talked. Why were you here now and more than that- how did you know he was here?
“Noona?!”
He freezes in his position, standing like a statue till you finally stand inches away from his face.
“I..*catches breath* looked everywhere for youh!”
His eyes travel to your barefeet and dangling sweatpants.
“You mean you RAN around the whole neighbourhood looking for ME?” He holds back his surprised laughter, but his face becomes expressionless the moment he remembers how your casual relationship ended long ago.
“I had something I needed to tell you right now.”
“..what?”
“I
Love
You.”
Was all you say before wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him for a tight hug.
Initially, jungwon thinks he’s dreaming. Cause this was the scene he imagined a long time back, after the first night you gave him hope. He imagined miraculously, one day, you’d run upto him and tell him you chose to love him instead. But..now it was happening?
He doesn’t even hold you back because that’s how much he’s astonished. He just lets the moment sink in and feels your heart against his chest, like he longed for all this time.
“Noona. What are you saying?”
“I’m saying the truth.” You let go of him and face him directly, looking at him right in the eye.
“A while ago, it was your turn to confess. Now it’s mine. *smiles* “
“Jungwon. It was true that I rejected you because back then, I didn’t love you. Even if I tried, I couldn’t. Even if I did say yes, it would end up breaking both our hearts cause it would be out of sympathy.”
“But now it isn’t. I didn’t choose to love you now. I had said being apart was our inevitable destiny but LOVING YOU is my inevitable destiny.”
“All these moments we were away..I missed you. I tried to be with Jake, to spend time with Jake, and he did make me happy. But he didn’t make me happy in the way you did. The void created in my heart from losing you could only be filled by you. Because before I could detect, my heart had already started beating for you.”
“I searched for you in everything. I searched for you in everyone. I tried to search for your warmth. I tried to find the same peace and feeling of home with someone else that I found with you. But in the end..I just realized how nobody else could do all that you did for me. Nobody else could fill your place in my life, because nobody else was the one I wanted to be with. Nobody else was you. You were the one I never wanted to be away from.”
“It’s true. I loved jake. He was my first love. And that might have been crazy. But you know what’s crazier than someone’s first love? It’s their last. Cause it’s the person they love till death. You are my last love. And it’s the craziest cause I’ll love you even after death.”
You finish, looking at him, whose eyes were now gleaming with disbelief and happy tears. “I..can’t..believe this is happening. Tell me again.”
“Tell me again..you love me.”
“YANG JUNGWON!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!” You shout boldly admist the empty streets, your voice echoing so loud that he was pretty sure even the neighbours heard you.
He blushes immediately and asks you to stop. “You’re embarrassing me noona..”
“So this is a happy ending?” He shyly asks, cupping his hands around both sides of your waist.
“Naah. There’s one thing still left for our story to be a happy ending.”
“And what is that?”
“For me to finish what you started.”
Second turns to millisecond, and before he can process, your lips are already on his. The way he kissed you when he confessed, now, that was turned into something more romantic than painful. Maybe your first kiss had started off as sad, but from now on, you promised yourself all your kisses would be beautiful. He parts his lips and you pull the back of his neck, bringing him closer so your mouths could connect. His breaths fanning your cheek, and his soft lips intertwined within yours, his wild heart beat ringing against your chest, his warmth seeping inside you and melting away all the cold. He tasted exactly like his love for you. So sweet that it was dizzying.
You walk home holding hands that night. So tightly, promising eachother that you’d never let go. And finally, everything around you felt right. It felt right to be with him, and now that you were finally together, you knew you’d never let him go. The night melts into so many more confessions, so many more kisses and so many more honest promises.
——[ PROLOGUE ]
3 months turn to 6 months, 6 months turn to 9 months and finally a year of your fairytale passing by. You stand infront of the decorated Polaroids with dates infront of you, reminiscing over your golden time, when you feel someone grab you from behind and rest his chin on your shoulder.
You smile, your body automatically registering to that heart-melting presence.
“What are you looking at noona?” Jungwon presses a soft kiss to your cheek and smiles in turn.
“Our story.”
You point to the first polaroid in the frame. “This is the first time we ever went out for lunch as a couple. It was the day I got my camera so I wanted to take a picture. Do you remember, jungwonie?”
“Ofcourse “ he lovingly presses another kiss on your nose.
“And the next picture is the time we got ice cream together on our 7 month anniversary and you smudged cream all over my face! And beside that, is our hand holding picture from our 9 month anniversary. Right?” He proudly exclaims.
You look at him and giggle, suddenly hit by an emotional wave of nostalgia. But more than that, a beautiful realisation. That today, you wouldn’t be where you are today if it was not for him. He was your happiness, he was your promise, he was your forever.
“Jungwon..I’m glad I fell in love with you.”
“Hmm Me too.” He turns you around gently so you face him and tugs at your waist. “I’m so grateful to Jake hyung for that night noona.”
“Same here. And I’m so happy now that Jake found the love of his life now. A girl who loves him more than I ever did. I hope they last forever, just like us.” You chuckle, resting your forehead against his and taking in the moment.
You were truly happy when you heard the news of Jake dating his college classmate. She was so nice and he was so happy, you were so delighted to see how it worked out the best for all three of you.
“In the end, all the heart break was worth it.” Jungwon gratefully gasps before pulling you to the bed with him.
“I’d choose being hurt over you a thousand times than being happy with someone else noona.”
Crawling on top of him and resting your head on his chest, you abruptly pull the shutter of your camera to click another picture, catching him off guard. The bedsheets smelling like him, your heart in his hands, and your lives filled with happiness and memories of eachother- you now knew exactly what paradise on earth feels like.
Putting the picture away, you decide to hang it with the rest of the decor. Today marked the one year of the night you confessed your love to him in the middle of the street, and that was the reason why you are here with him today. Sometimes, the most unexpected people love us the most and become the permanent part of our happiness.
“Y/n: It’s not always easy being with the one you love. I realize it now. You need to work for it. But once you do, you spend everyday of your life feeling the way I’m feeling right now-
Infinite.” ♡
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Tagging: @nikililmj @3chae @heejakeysworld @nourhan-8 @miraculouspabu who I think would like to read pt.2! <3 don’t forget to lmk how you liked it!
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What if the things I say don’t break your heart?
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Missed Midnight - Yang Jungwon
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Pairing: Enhypen Jungwon x fem!reader
Genre: angst, sadness, a little bit of fluff near the end, not proof read
Warnings: mentions of being forgotten and mistreated, lots of crying, heartbreak
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Tonight, was the night. The night of Christmas Eve. About an hour was left on the clock of this night before the hour hand passed the number twelve and took you into Christmas morning. Everything was silent and peaceful, but you were alone. Normally you'd be sitting on your couch watching a movie with your favorite hot drink, right next to the Christmas tree, cuddled up against his body. Waiting for Christmas with him. Yang Jungwon, your soulmate. But this year was different.
You sighed deeply after looking at the clock once more. Things changed, and you had to be open to that. Despite all your traditions being out of order or some of them being forgotten, he was still with you, just not as often as you liked. 
Selfishly inside your heart, you wished he'd never taken the job he was working, his career. You selfishly wanted him all to yourself and not have to share him during this season. Maybe since it was the holiday, he would get to come home early and spend this moment with you. But you highly doubted it. After years of healing from being forgotten and left behind moments like these were the hardest to overcome. One thing you didn't doubt was his dedication to you and the love he held for you, but that didn't mean the moments alone didn't cast some doubt or loneliness. 
The time ticked on and just like you expected, the hour struck and passed into the next day without him by your side. The clock did that once more while you waited for him, and almost into the second hour before you decided to go to bed. He promised to be home for Christmas day, so you would look forward to seeing him in the morning. 
But he wasn't next to you when you got up early to make breakfast. He wasn't in the house either. With sadden tears streaming down your face as you made breakfast, you wondered if he was okay. You wondered why he hadn't contacted you to let you know where he was or if he was okay. Once the food was done, you plated it and when to grab some extra toppings for the pantry. 
By the time you'd finished eating, it was nearly eight o'clock.  
Meanwhile, Jungwon was coming down the hall to your shared apartment, knowing he had missed everything. HIs heart was heavy with worry and uncertainty, while his head filled with scenario after scenario of what might happen when he got inside. 
Once inside, Jungwon took off his things, his eyes scanning the house in a hurry to find you. He craned his neck to look in the other parts of the house he couldn't see from where he was standing. After he finished taking off all of his outside wear, he made his way to the kitchen. He smelled food cooking. His body relaxed in relief at the sight of you. He felt better knowing you were still here, but that feeling disappeared when he looked into your eyes. He could tell you'd been crying. 
Jungwon heaved a sigh at the sight feeling the guilt choke him strongly. He said nothing, coming over to you and wrapping his arms around your figure tightly. He kissed your neck deeply, holding you against him. Fresh tears slipped out over your lashes as soon as you felt him against you. No matter how hard you tried to stay strong and not cry again, him being here reminded you of your feelings last night and this morning. 
"Jungwon, it's okay," you told him, returning his embrace lightly. Jungwon had no words. Not even a sorry would be enough for him to say for you to forgive him. 
Jungwon pulled back and cradled your face in his hands as his eyes searched yours, trying to understand what you were feeling and how he could fix it. But you wouldn't look at him, making him desperately try to get you to look. If you did look at him, you would lose it right there. The cotton fur of his sweater was all you were focused on to try and calm your potential breakdown.
Jungwon's arms were wrapped all the way around your waist, pulling you flat against his chest, moving his face closer to his; nearly five inches. Now that you were ringing your hands lightly together as they rested against his chest, having nowhere else to be considering the hold he had on you, he knew you wouldn't break Jungwon knew this coping mechanism well. The grip on your waist loosened as he brought his thumb up to wipe your fallen tears.
"Please, look at me," he begged, index finger resting under your chin to try and lift your face up. Embarrassment made you turn slightly to the left to break his intention. Jungwon's heart dropped further, matching yours as more tears slipped down your cheeks making his pulse and heart ache with pain. "I'm so sorry baby."
Then, you looked up at him. Your soft beautiful eyes wet with tears, clumping your lashes together in the most beautiful way possible. Your nose was slightly red, and streams of tears glistened under the light. Even in your most vulnerable state, Jungwon thought you shined. His heart ached again. 
"Baby," Jungwon sighed once he saw more tears. "Let me make it up to you."
"Just hold me," you whispered, tucking your head into the curve of his neck. And hold you he did. HIs grip changed from around your waist to your upper back and shoulder blades. As he held you there in the kitchen so early in the morning, he repeatedly pressed long kisses to your forehead and crown to show his affection for you. You completely understood that he had no control over when he would be home or what his schedule would be like. You understood it all. But for some reason the tears just kept flowing.
"Not even a call, Jungwon," you sniffed, not understanding why he chose not to let you know he wouldn't be home. "You could've been injured or dead and I would never know."
"I'm so sorry," Jungwon begged, wiping the tears away for the millionth time. "Please stop crying. My heart hurts so much."
"Good," you said with a soft sob escaping your lips. "It should hurt, just like mine."
Jungwon smiled at your small jab at him. Now that you were throwing around slight humor, he could tell you were going to be okay. He would spend the rest of the day making up his absence even if it killed him. By the time he was done, you'd be begging for him to leave you alone. 
Needing to blow your nose, you pulled away from him and went to grab a tissue from the box on the counter. Once you were done you looked over at him. He offered you a small smile which you couldn't help but return tiredly. The next thing you felt was the softness of his lips lightly pecking yours. Then a kiss to your forehead before he was whisking you away down the hall and into your unmade bed. Without a word he settled under the covers pulling you along side him and turned on the tv.
"You are not allowed to get up," Jungwon commanded. "If you need anything, tell me."
All you could do was smile. You were in for a day of pampering. 
"I really needed this," Jungwon sighed, once you and him were under the covers, holding each other tightly. He leaned over and planted a kiss to the side of your head. You closed your eyes at the feeling and let him rub the side of your arm gently. "I needed you."
"I needed you too." 
"Do you need to sleep?" you asked him, remembering how long of a night he had. 
"No," he mumbled into your ear. "I slept for a little bit at the building."
"Thank you, Jungwon."
"For what?"
"For loving me, unendingly."
He felt you squeeze his arms underneath yours tightly. His heart leaped with joy and began to beat a little bit faster. Deep down he still felt guilty for not coming home to you last night, but this would help heal his guilt and heal your pain. Relationships were hard and wouldn't be rainbows and sunshine always. Miscommunication would happen, selfishness would occur, and misunderstandings were bound to come to play. What mattered was the trust, loyalty, and forgiveness. Those would keep your relationship going. The two of you would learn and grow as time dragged on.
"Always and forever. I love you so much," Jungwon said, making your heart melt. "Merry Christmas my love."
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wonyosparkle · 2 years
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Can u make a flower shop au jungwon fic ??????????????
cliché roses.
you hated roses. roses are cliché. so overused, that it became ordinary. now they look cheap, tasteless. nothing original or out of the ordinary. it was raining outside, everything was covered with water, people holding umbrellas, wearing raincoats, but you didn't have any. thankfully, you spotted a flower shop and knocked even though the sign on the door said closed. after waiting for a few minutes, there was no hope. you were getting ready to leave when a young man hurriedly opened the door, black hair, his eyes shone, mostly with worry, you read his name tag, jungwon, it kept on echoing inside your head. he welcomed you inside and got you a blanket and some hot chocolate.
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you blinked and all of it was gone.
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A/N ;; hello anon !! tysm for the request, sorry for the wait ,, i hope this was what you expected haha ,, enjoy reading !! <3
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genezpen · 2 years
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wishful thinking
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yang jungwon. how come you’re still single for almost three years?
i paced back and forth biting my newly manicured nails, thinking deeply about this controversial idol’s love life.
he’s seen with so many different girls but all rumors turned out to be false. i know because i was the one who wrote all of them! as in ALL. OF. IT. PIECE. BY. PIECE. i was tasked to do it by the company.
some of his company's staff almost threaten me last week to stop being obsessed with his lovelife but i was only doing my job! i don’t care about his lovelife—
really? how come you’re so eager to know the reason why he’s still single after you? for what? hopes? that he’s still not over you? i almost hear a voice inside my head laughing mockingly at me.
my eyelids tightly closed. even my own mind is contradicting me! wow, i’m going insane.
suddenly, the sound of the door creaking made all my thoughts pop like bubbles into thin air. i heard a voice entered.
“seoji? are you not going out yet? i saw your boss went out.” kyungmin entered the room.
“ah, kyungmin, why? i was about to...”
he raised a brow.
“i was just going to ask you to join me for lunch,” kyungmin’s cheeks flushed, “uh, what were you thinking about...”
i shake my head then smiled to assure him. after that we walked together to the coffee shop infront of the building.
hwang kyungmin is one of my co-workers, an acquaintance. he once confessed his feelings for me and i feel sorry for him 'cause i never see him anything more than friends. i’m glad he still choose to befriend me even after i turned him down, though his advances sometimes are too bold that our co-workers, even my boss thought there is something going on between us. i guess some feelings won’t fade away easily, huh?
“seoji, why are so distracted these days? are you having a hard time at work? did mr. park assigned you to a hard scope again?”
i blinked in confusion. “no? i just... need a little more sleep, i guess?” i chuckled.
he seems serious though. i assured him i’m fine before we ended our lunch break.
now, now. i can’t seem to get jungwon out of my head, i feel the need to see him? no, that’ll be soo awkward. and it’s not like i can just call him and ask us to meet like, we ain't friends nor anything. just ex-lovers.
yeah. maybe a little bit of connection, i can possibly meet him? and thank heaven for probably reading what’s on my mind, when manager park entered our office, a good news was immediately delivered to me.
“miss go, remember the scope i gave to you last night? switch it up with miss hyo. you need to visit the JBS today, make sure to get a statement from yeona lee of hyde company about their boygroup’s recent rumors.”
this is it. my only chance!
yang jungwon, watch your back and don’t let you guard down because i’ll be sneaking into your life before you even know it. mark my word.
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cas notes: hello, bffs<3 hehe this is the first episode of wishful thinking, how was it? it’s kinda boring for me but i hope you still want to look forward to episode two hihi if you are wondering where is the introduction/master list of this ff, here it is! likes and reblogs are very appreciated! if you want to ask me things or rant or chat w me pls don’t hesitate to do so ^^ love y’all~
(message me right away if i made something wrong !!! thx ><)
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chaconnenha · 13 days
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⌇ WANNA BE A WINNER 𓄹
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❪ ꕤ ❫───엔하이픈 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗉𝗅𝖺𝗒 𝗁𝖺𝗋𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗀𝖾𝗍
OR. he is used to you chasing after him . . . so what happens when the tables are turned ? && crush!en- x f!reader % hc format ( jealousy, pet names, mention of food, kissing )
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𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐆 doesn't think twice when he sees you on the bleachers at his basketball game, because he's gotten so used to seeing you there, cheering him on whenever he scores and waving enthusiastically when he looks your way... only to find himself doing a double take when he notices you talking to the members of the opposition's team. stands there for a while with a tilted head as he wonders why it is you're giggling and twirling your hair, batting your eyelashes at whatever it was the guy was saying. and he really shouldn't have been so annoyed, seeing as you're free to talk to whoever you like... but for some reason, he finds himself purposely missing a shot and causing the ball to roll over to where you and your friends are sitting, just so he has an excuse to walk over there after your pick up the ball, before kissing you on the cheek as he takes ball back. "thanks, baby," he says, before walking away again.... but of course, not without one last cocky smirk to the other guy when he sees your flustered expression, and a promise to ask you out properly after he wins this game.
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𝐉𝐀𝐘, who has gotten used to seeing snacks on his desk along with little notes whenever he wakes up from his nap, feels like he's been thrown into an alternate universe when he looks up one day to find that his desk his completely empty. looks around, and asks his deskmate if you came by today, only for them to shake their head and say that they haven't seen you all day. doesn't think too much about it at first, thinking that you may be busy... only to notice that it continues a few days straight. decides to walk to your class one day, completely forgoing his usual nap, just to see if you're okay, because as much as he wouldn't admit it, anyone could tell he was worried about you. so imagine his surprise when he walks up behind you while you're talking to your friends, just to learn you've been doing it on purpose to make him miss you. crosses his arms and leans down to your ear with a smirk, causing your heart to fly out of your chest when you realise he was there all along. "okay, you win." because he really did miss you... maybe even more than you had planned.
𝐉𝐀𝐊𝐄 probably takes a while to figure out that you're avoiding him, but only because he genuinely believes you when you say you're busy when he asks why you can't make it to his soccer game. he knows that you have a life outside of school, so he can't feel upset... but everyone (his teammates, his friends, his coach, his neighbour, his dog...) notices that he is walking around the field like a depressed puppy whose owner doesn't want to play with him, and it's all because you're not in your usual seat, cheering him on while wearing his number like you usually do. and it makes him realise just how much you were becoming his lucky charm, just as you had boldly proclaimed you would be. and so that's how he finds himself waiting for you after you're finished your classes for the day, before wrapping his arms around you in a hug, not caring about the wolf whistles and the cheers coming from all the students and teachers who stood watching around you, or the way you stuttered his name in protest because of how he was acting in public... all he could think about was how he was a fool for not making you his to begin with.
𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐍 can't remember when you haven't been next to him. from the first day of school, you were the one beside him, helping him in class whenever he had to catch up on work that he missed because of his figure skating career, saving him a seat on the bus because you knew he would always end up being five minutes late out of class. so when he comes back from a week off from school, he is visibly taken aback when you walk in and take a seat at the front of the classroom, next to some other guy who he didn't even know existed until now. doesn't buy it for a second when his new seatmate explains that you had to switch because you had trouble seeing, and burns holes into the back of your head for the entire lesson, intensifying his glare when you and your new seatmate are a tad too close for comfort, heads bumping against each other as you whisper about the answers to the questions, like you used to do with sunghoon. can't seem to catch you alone for the rest of the day, so he waits for the end of the day, when you guys catch the bus together, and makes sure that he gets there before you do... so that when you try and sit next to someone else, he pulls you down in the seat he saved next to him, before leaning his head on your shoulder, his hand wrapped around your smaller one. "stay here, please..." because you’re the only one he wants beside him, and he wants to be the only one next to you.
𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐎𝐎 knows immediately that something isn't right when you don't ask for his help with your club projects. being in the photography club, you love to remind him how he is your favourite model, and you make it painfully obvious whenever you beg him to let you take his pictures. imagine his surprise and offense when you no longer seek him out first, but some other guy in a different class, who you keep positing pictures of on the school newsletter, where you used to post his pictures instead. he instantly makes a plan to win you back and become your favourite once again, even going as far as to rock up to school the next day with blonde hair that makes everyone stop and stare... except you, the person who is usually the first to jump on the train of people to praise him. he realises at that moment that this goes beyond just his pride; he genuinely just wants to be able to make you smile like before. so imagine your surprise when you open the newsletter for the next week, to find a candid photo of you looking at your camera, hair blowing in the wind and a smile on your face, with the caption "prettiest girl in our grade" followed by, "taken by kim sunoo".
𝐉𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐖𝐎𝐍 does not beat around the bush. so the first time you walk by him in the hallway without so much as uttering a "hi," he immediately knows he needs to confront you about it, because not a single day has passed in the time that you've known each other where you haven't jumped on him (figuratively, of course) whenever the chance arises so you can chat his ear off about something or other. and he doesn't like the feeling he gets seeing you give him the cold shoulder for reasons he has no idea about. so the next time you pass him by without saying anything, he's grabbing your wrist and tugging you down the hallway, ignoring the squeals from your friends as he pulls you into the janitor's closet. "why are you avoiding me?" he demands, frowning. but then the two of you are rendered blushing incoherent messes when you try to escape the room... only to trip on your own two feet and fall into his arms, your lips bumping against each other in the process. (but even though it's an accident, jungwon thinks that he really likes this feeling alot.)
𝐍𝐈-𝐊𝐈 is an absolute menace, and you are probably one of the only people in the world other than his mother that can put up with him. it really surprises people to see you follow him around, cooking him bentos and fixing his tie for him because he always fails at doing it himself, only to find out that you're not his girlfriend. ni-ki himself probably doesn't even realise how much you've been taking care of him until you stop showing your face around his classroom at lunch, and no longer nag him about his uniform or his hair being messy. instead, he's left to watch as you turn around whenever you see him, purposely changing paths so you don't bump into each other. no one is surprised when he jumps over a fence just so he can catch up to you after you try to run away after making eye contact with him for the hundredth time. you end up blurting your feelings for him before he can ask, and while you brace yourself for rejection, he's already kissing you like he hasn't seen you for months... and wondering why he never did it sooner.
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tempted-byhyuka · 18 days
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| enhypen when… |
they snap at you
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inc: request, angst, hurt/comfort, yelling, flinching (jay, jake, jungwon, ni-ki), physical contact (heeseung, sunghoon), small fall (jay), jealousy (jake, sunoo), food (sunoo)
ೃ⁀➷ lee heeseung
ੈ♡˳ heeseung was typically a levelheaded guy, and he always treated you like a glass doll that would break at the slightest tremor. never before had he raised his voice at you, even when he was visibly agitated. it stayed that way for a long time, even through his toughest schedules and most irritating setbacks.
ੈ♡˳ one night when he came home, you could tell he was deep in thought, but also exhausted and agitated. in an attempt to get him to feel better, you hugged him from behind and kissed the back of his neck over and over. when that didn’t exactly work, you repeated his name, again and again. “hey, heeseungie.. heeseung!”
ੈ♡˳ “what?! what do you want?!” he roared and spun around in his chair so fast it pushed you back and made you stumble in suprise. you were so startled you didn’t know what to say.. he had never done this before! “i-i was just..” you tried but backed away when he stood up. “what?! helping?! what kind of help is that?!”
ੈ♡˳ heeseung stared at you with an irate expression, his chest shaking as he breathed deeply, like he was about to unload his struggles on you. the silence was sickening but eventually, he lets out a sigh.. an exhausted one as he closes his eyes and lowers his head. “i’m sorry…. i’m sorry.” he repeated.
ੈ♡˳ he takes your hands in his and lifts them up, “are you hurt…? did i hurt you?” heeseung’s voice trembled. sensing his regret, you place your hands on his cheeks and begin rubbing circles onto the skin. you can feel the half smile he mustered, and lean in your press a kiss to his nose, “i’m okay, i promise..”
ೃ⁀➷ park jongseong
ੈ♡˳ as much as it seemed like jay was quick to anger, he never reflected that behavior on you, he was always patient and respectful towards you, a proper gentleman. even when you almost damaged an expensive pan in the dishwasher, he gave you a smile, patted your head and promised it was all okay.
ੈ♡˳ it was always easy for you to tell when he was at him limit though, and when he came home and dropped his backpack aggressively onto a chair, you knew that he must have had a rough day. “jay? is everything alright?” you inquired and stepped into the kitchen. “i don’t want to talk about it..” he mumbled.
ੈ♡˳ “are you sure? you’ll feel better if you do.” you said and reached out to try and rub his shoulders, only for jay to shrug them off. “i said no.” he grumbled, sounding more upset than before. you feel a deep tension in your chest and, “do you want me too..” “i want you to stop talking!” he shouted.
ੈ♡˳ your heart dropped, and you step away from jay to give him space, only to stumble and fall to the floor. hearing the thud, jay turns around and finds you on the floor, furrowing his brow. he reaches down to offer you a hand, but it feels like his heart shatters when he sees you flinch, and it hits him that he’s the reason you did.
ੈ♡˳ he kneels down in front of you, his hands held up in a gesture of peace as his gaze becomes softer, and more despaired as he places his hands on your knees. you caught a glimpse of the tears forming on his waterline before he bows his head, his shoulders starting to shake. he felt like a failure… a complete failure.
ೃ⁀➷ sim jaeyun
ੈ♡˳ it wasn’t easy to set jake off, not at all. he is a textbook boyfriend, kind, sweet, handsome, well communicated, and he has a cute puppy to boot. he’s everyone’s dream man… everyone’s dream, even the strangers on the street, the strangers on the screen and even his own staff.
ੈ♡˳ that’s why it really rubbed you the wrong way when jake responded to one stylist’s comment on his nice face with his handsome smile and a laugh that you thought was flirting. to make it worse, he didn’t even notice you were upset until you were both already home. “baby? hey talk to me… are you mad?”
ੈ♡˳ that’s when you unload, you snapped and told jake what you were feeling. maybe you should have waited until you were calmer however, because to your shock, jake began arguing with you. “oh come on! am i not allowed to accept compliments anymore because of your jealousy?!”
ੈ♡˳ the argument went on and on until Jake was so frustrated he went to pinch the bridge of his nose, making you step back at the sight of his hand flying up so quickly. jake stopped in his tracks, his expression switching up completely into concern, “baby..? oh no, did you think i would…?” his face breaks your heart.
ੈ♡˳ you break down into tears and shake your head, stepping forward until your chest to chest with him and hiding your face in his neck. jake wraps his arms around you lovingly, shushing you and running a hand over your hair, “i would never, baby… i’m so sorry i made you feel that way…”
ೃ⁀➷ park sunghoon
ੈ♡˳ you knew that dating park sunghoon wasn’t exactly going to be a walk in the park (haha), whether it was due to his busy schedule or the fact that when you did get time to spend with him, he was often sleeping or burnt out. regardless, you cherished every moment you got to hold his head on your lap and listen to him.
ੈ♡˳ occasionally though, sunghoon would return home in complete silence, giving you a small peck on the cheek, showering and falling right to sleep without saying more than a simple ‘hey babe’. one of those nights, all you wanted was his attention, he had been gone for about 2 weeks filming after all.
ੈ♡˳ when you crawled into bed behind him, you start pressing your lips to his jaw, his cheek and the corner of his eye. this made him groan and turn his head, “babe, i’m trying to sleep…” he mutters. unsatisfied, you try again to drape an arm over his body, but sunghoon’s reaction takes you by surprise.
ੈ♡˳ he forcibly pushed your arm away and turned around, “stop it…!” he yelled, and you sit up so quickly you get lightheaded. you watch his face change in an instant as he realized what he did, sitting up with you and grabbing your shoulders, “wait.. baby i’m sorry, i didn’t mean it.. i’m just so tired.” he shakes his head.
ੈ♡˳ “no, i should have stopped first, im sorry!” you take his hands and move them so you can give him a proper embrace. “i shouldn’t have put my hands on you though… come on baby, i’m sorry.” he pulled you to lay down with him, hugging you against his firm chest and pulling the blanket over your body.
ೃ⁀➷ kim seonwoo
ੈ♡˳ every couple had the occasional argument, you and sunoo were no exception. though your fights would typically end in playful jabs and making amends over mint chocolate ice cream, it never got too serious. that is until sunoo seemed to get genuinely upset over you talking to your ex after crossing paths in public.
ੈ♡˳ you didn’t think it was such a big deal, but sunoo gave you the silent treatment until you both got home where he finally let loose, “i can’t believe you just let him flirt with you like that! you’re still hooked up on him, aren’t you?” he scoffed, tossing his jacket onto the coat rack carelessly.
ੈ♡˳ “sunoo that’s ridiculous, i was being friendly!” you argued back, not exactly appreciating the sentiment that you were still attracted to your ex. “oh yeah, sure! i totally believe you. if you’re so friendly, go hang out with him then.” he replied before storming off, slamming the bedroom door behind him.
ੈ♡˳ after some time apart cooled you both off, you caved first, realizing that maybe chatting with your ex and barely acknowledging your current lover wasn’t the best idea. you knew just the thing to cheer him up as you opened the delivery app, picking out every snack you knew he enjoyed and adding it to the cart.
ੈ♡˳ 30 minutes later, you knock softly on the bedroom door, only to hear rapid shuffling and a thump before sunoo opened the door, “you’re still here! oh sweetheart i’m so sorry i-!” you cut him off by holding the back in front of him, “me too… let’s eat.” you smiled, following him to your bed and opening the bag.
ೃ⁀➷ yang jungwon
ੈ♡˳ being the leader of a group is stressful enough, but leading a globally popular group at the age of 16 added more weight on jungwon’s shoulders. jungwon thought he had developed a healthy way to cope with the stress but even he had his moments where he couldn’t contain his emotions.
ੈ♡˳ when he arrived home from a long, frustrating and stressful recording session, the last thing he wanted was to be bombarded with questions by you. unfortunately for you, jungwon wasn’t in a state of mind to communicate that to you without being aggressive as he yanked his arm out of your grasp.
ੈ♡˳ “why are you so clingy, huh?! don’t you have anything else to do other than nag my ear off?!” he yelled in an unrecognizable manner, his eyes filled with anger. you couldn’t get a word out, backing into a wall as it looked like he wouldn’t calm down any time soon. you’ve never seen him so frustrated.
ੈ♡˳ he cursed and reached his hands up to his face to rub his eyes, but you were so nervous you backed into the wall fully, a dull thud resonating through the hallway. jungwon opened his eyes at the sound, now looking confused, “y/n..? did you…?” the dots seem to connect in his head as his eyes soften.
ੈ♡˳ slowly, he extended his hand to you, waiting for you to take it before pulling you close. jungwon placed his hand on the center of your back, lowering his head so that he could speak into your ear. “i’m sorry, i shouldn’t have said those things… please forgive me.” he says, smiling when he felt you return the affection.
ೃ⁀➷ nishimura riki
ੈ♡˳ ni-ki wasn’t at all an angry person, especially not with you. he was always so quiet and calm, his silence was comfortable rather than intimidating; and that’s why its so easy to tell whenever he was stressed or upset. his jaw clenches and he has a dead eyed look, a telltale sign that he’s overthinking.
ੈ♡˳ and you didn’t expect him to start yelling at you when you pried him for answers, which was, admittedly, probably not the best choice. “i said i don’t want to talk about it! what part of that is so hard for you to understand?!” you were not at all used to riki raising his voice and it was enough to silence you.
ੈ♡˳ he raised his hand up after a beat of silence, intending on pushing his bangs out of his face, only for you to back away with a fearful sound. both of you froze, staring at eachother with bewildered looks on both of your faces. the tension in the air was so thick you could cut it with a knife.
ੈ♡˳ “y/n…” riki finally spoke after what felt like an eternity of silence, his expression softening into a worried one. you could see tears begin to well up in his eyes, and riki never cried in front of you before… all tension left your body as you moved towards him, embracing him and burying your face into his chest.
ੈ♡˳ he didn’t waste a second returning the gesture, squeezing you tight enough that it made your ribs hurt. no more words were spoken as you sat down on the couch, and with your ear pressed to his chest, you could hear his rapid heart beat along with the whispered apologies he uttered into your ear.
thank you for reading! i haven’t proofread this yet, i will soon but thank you to the requester for giving me a prompt i could work with, i hope you enjoy it 🫶
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bywons · 1 month
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DREAM GIRL — LHS
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SYPNOSIS ► being single for too long doesn't suit the playboy lee heeseung of decelis university, especially when he's about to attend his best friend's brother's wedding. but he promised his friends of his promiscuous nature, that he'd stop this when he'll find his dream girl. but what if she's too hard to get and ignorant? lee heeseung is not used to that.
or where, lee heeseung tries to let go of his playboy tendencies to get a hold of his dream girl.
GENRE ► smau (+ written), fake dating, stangers to lovers, non-idol au, college au, crack, fluff, romance, angst, hurt/comfort
WARNINGS ► SLOW UPDATES age gap (heeseung is 1-2 years older than reader), all the characters are in college, cursing, de3th jokes, kys jokes, cheating allegations, alcohol consumptions + more tba
PAIRING + CAST ► playboy! lee heesung x f! reader ++ all of enha, ningning (aespa), haerin and minji (new jeans), kazuha (le sserafim) and other cameos
STATUS ► ON GOING! ( started : 30/04/24 ended : ??/??/?? )
SRU'S NOTE ► all my moots influenced me (fomo) to write a smau tbh 💀 plus these days im not being able to find time to write a fic :(( but i really hope ya'll enjoy this my pooks pls don't let this flop yall TT PLS REBLOG!!
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READ MORE ON — CATALOGUE?!
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PROFILES ! the ultimate rizzlers | it girlz | sssh,, privates!
CHAPTERS !
OO1 : duration of bitchelessness
OO2 : it was a cannon event
OO3 : ???
OO4 : ???
more tba
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won4ver · 1 month
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✈︎ forelsket
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forelsket : noun. the euphoria felt at the beginning of falling in love. (to be in love).
pairing : best friend!jungwon x gn!reader
warnings + genre : 1/2 angst. 1/2 fluff. expected one sided love.
wc : 379
a/n : inspired by unlovable my beach weather. also, my requests are now open :)
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“how’d I get so unloveable?” Jungwon could feel his heart breaking as he felt your tears sink into his shirt. Your body trembling against his own as he gently drew hearts into your back.
He wanted nothing more than to scream at you about how much he loved you, how much he needed you. He wanted to write poem after poem about the way you made him feel, about the love you crafted in his heart.
In your head, Yang Jungwon was your best friend, the man who’d never break your heart. But in his head, you’re LN YN, the woman who he’s so helplessly in love with, the woman who never notices him.
“I just want to be loved” Jungwon could feel his heart breaking, tears welling behind his eyes as he held you tighter.
“You are loved, so loved” He whispered into your hair, the truth behind his words heavy in his throat.
You looked up from your best friend's chest, eyes damp with tears and plump blushed cheeks. “Do you promise?” Jungwon could make that promise a million times, his love for you weighing the same as the thousands of people the two of you meet each year.
“I love you, don’t I?” At that moment Jungwon wishes he could admit the genuine meaning behind his words. He dreams of a day where he could selfishly profess himself to you.
“I love you more” Jungwon didn’t say a word as you giggled against him. Your delicate, but irritated, cheeks rubbing against his chest as you pushed yourself closer to him.
Perhaps in another life, Jungwon could’ve noticed the double meaning behind your words too. He would’ve realized that the reason you filled your life with all these other men was to get over the one man who you knew you could never have.
Jungwon brought you the feeling of forelsket, the feeling that you couldn’t escape no matter how many others you filled yourself with. He would always be your first love, even if he didn’t return it in full.
“I’m so in love with you, I always have been” And in this life, you heard his confession.
Your next life was still decades away, but your current life with Jungwon was just beginning to bloom.
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cjayius · 30 days
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INTO IT — LEE HEESEUNG
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SYNOPSIS. you have always hated heeseung. unfortunately, he's a world famous racer, and you're his team manager. but when he crashes during a race, you're met with feelings for him that you don't quite recognize.
pairing. racer!heeseung x f!reader wc. 0.52k tw. mentions of hee crashing , hugging genre. fluff , e2l (?) ( CATALOGUE )
as you both step out into the bustling racing area, you can feel the tension in the air. the pitwall is abuzz with activity as you and heeseung stand among the important figures of the racing team.
arguments aren't uncommon between the two of you, and today is no exception.
heeseung's frustration is palpable, his jaw set firmly as he glares at you, hands clenched into fists at his sides. " you can't be serious about this, " you retort, your voice edged with exasperation, arms defiantly crossed over your chest.
" you're taking unnecessary risks out there, heeseung. " his response is sharp, a scoff escaping his lips as he steps closer, his face mere inches from yours.
" i know what i'm doing, okay ? stop treating me like i'm some rookie driver who needs babysitting. "
your eyes narrow at him, anger flashing through them. " you're being reckless, heeseung. i won't stand by and watch you put yourself in danger. you're not doing it. "
with a dismissive wave of his hand, heeseung turns away, stomping toward his car, jaw clenched. you watch him go, a knot of anger only tightening in your chest as he climbs into the vehicle, movements tense and aggressive.
as heeseung's car speeds around the track, you can't help but feel a sense of anxiety. despite your frustration with him, you can't shake the worry that gnaws at you as you watch him twist around the course.
suddenly, a collective gasp ripples through the crowd as his car swerves abruptly, crashing into the barriers with a sickening thud.
your heart leaps into your throat as panic courses through you, hands gripping the edge of the pitwall with a force so strong you could have broken it. frantically, you reach for the radio, voice trembling as you call out, " heeseung, are you okay ? answer me, please ! "
no response.
" heeseung, please ! " but there's no response, and dread settles heavily in the pit of your stomach and you watch, helpless, as the race officials rush to the scene. time seems to stand still as you wait for any sign of movement from his car.
your mind was already racing with the worst-case scenarios.
finally, relief floods through you as you see him emerge from the wreckage, seemingly unscathed. but any relief is quickly replaced by anger as you realize he's smirking, reveling in the worry he's caused you.
storming towards him, your frustration boils over as you slap his chest. " what the hell were you thinking ? do you have any idea how worried i was ? you could've gotten seriously hurt ! "
his smirk falters, but before he can respond, your anger melts away, and without thinking, you wrap your arms tightly around him, pulling him into a hug.
for a moment, there's a stunned silence between you, the weight of the moment hanging in the air. heeseung's surprise quickly gives way to a soft chuckle as he returns the embrace, his arms enveloping you.
" i'm okay, stop worrying so much. " he hums into the crook of your neck as he wraps his arms tighter around your figure.
for a moment, the world falls away, but then reality comes crashing back, and you hastily pull away, cheeks burning with embarrassment as you remember that you're supposed to hate each other.
clearing your throat awkwardly, you take a step back, avoiding heeseung's gaze as you try to compose yourself. " well, um, i'm glad you're okay, " you mutter, voice betraying you as you let out a shaky breath.
he watches with amusement, as you rush away from him, cheeks flushed. he was going to get you to say it.
taglist : @so-lychee @mellowdyverse @bambisnc
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lovzwoni · 2 months
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enhypen smau reccos!
lee heeseung :
poison by @onlyjaeyun
(college! AU, brother's best friend! AU, angst & smut)
verboten by @heesbaby
(older! heeseung x reader, smut & angst)
you, me & the moon by @heeracha
(college! AU, fratboy! AU, slowburn, angst & fluff)
10 days to fall in love by @luvyeni
(bad boy hee! x good girl! reader, uni, fluff, angst & smut)
infrunami by @jaetyun
(heeseung x fmr, best friends brother)
park jongseong :
strictly business by @onlyjaeyun
(strangers to lovers! AU, CEO! jay, secretary! reader & age gap!)
21st century girl by @hoonvrs
(jay x fmr, fluff & crack)
end of line by @heeracha
(college! AU, slowburn, angst & crack)
love letters by @tqmies
(jay x fmr, cursing & sexual jokes)
understand by @fakeuwus
(idol! jay x idol! yn, crack, fluff & angst)
park sunghoon :
cold hearts by @onlyjaeyun
(childhood friends to enemies to lovers! AU)
look at me now by @facechasers
(college! AU, fluff & crack)
falling, fallen by @run2min
(basketball player! hoon x artist fem! reader & strangers to lovers)
fuck christmas! by @jayflrt
(sunghoon x fmr, fluff, crack & angst)
yang jungwon :
language of flowers by @soobnny
(strangers to lovers & fluff)
all clear! by @amakumos
(fluff, crack & tiny bit of angst)
sim jaeyun :
doctors orders by @heesbaby
(fluff, comedy, smut & angst)
hyung line :
confident by @bambisgirl
(college! AU, smut, angst, fluff & humor)
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en-whims · 1 year
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[ 5:40 PM ] you and ex!jungwon had an unexpected encounter on a train. it was your first time seeing each other after five months. the last time didn’t went well.
half-empty closet, messy bed sheets, luggage gone; dullness, void, and deafening silence took over his apartment the night you left.
jungwon could only blame himself for burning down the one thing he built and flourished for three years. and it’s not just the romantic relationship you had with each other, your five years of friendship crumbled down with it as well.
you could only hope for a closure; something he never gave you.
and he couldn’t decide which.
should he give you closure just because you want him to? or accept the heavy fact that when he gives it to you, there would be no turning back?
unfortunately, jungwon wasn’t ready for either of them.
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a/n: this is the shortened version of a story that's part of an anthology to be released soon.
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