#every few months or so it happens again

[c-rowlesdraws]

fantasy scenario: I make a youtube video essay called “MADE IN ABYSS CAN KISS MY ASS AND GO TO HELL”, I am doxxed and my address exposed, a swarm of angry anime fans descends on my apartment and breaks my windows; but the energy and love of the many people Liking my video, inspired by my brilliant rhetoric and whimsical yet cutting sense of humor, flows into me and makes me strong enough to knock out any of the angry anime fans cold with a single punch

#anime #catie talks #this very public blog is also my safe space to hold specific grudges against media properties #this post is about learning more against my will about the new manga volumes and third season of made in abyss #every few months or so it happens again #this story is such a bracing cocktail of things I love and things I cannot stand #that whenever I’m reminded of it I go through a few stages of grief over again #also regrettably I have to say kevin penkin fuckin did it again for the latest soundtrack volume it slaps

[royalarchivist]

I love the QSMP. Not only has it introduced me to many amazing international creators, it's also introduced me to the French and Brazilian community, who are so sweet, funny, and chaotic in their own unique ways. I love seeing fans sharing their culture and learning from one another, and I myself have learned a lot this past year. I think it's incredible how QSMP brings so many different people together – all of us united in our love and passion for this project and its goals.

But passion can often evoke strong emotions, and these strong emotions aren't always positive.

The past few months, I have seen multiple waves of hate, bad-faith generalizations of communities, and racist remarks directed at fellow fans – especially those who are part of the French / Brazilian community. This kind of behavior is inexcusable, and is in direct conflict with the mission of QSMP, which is to break language barriers and unite communities.

We are a global community with a variety of people from different backgrounds. Miscommunications may occasionally occur because of cultural differences and/or language barriers, but we should use these moments as opportunities to learn and engage with other people rather than assuming the worst about them and starting fights.

Although certain issues can be resolved with communication, sometimes it’s better to block and move on. Avoid spreading negativity or hate, and save yourself the headache of interacting with people who are just looking for someone to argue with.

No matter what community we're a part of or what languages we speak, we're all here to have fun. Please remember to be kind to each other. We have more in common than we have in conflict.

#QSMP #mod talk #Additionally: we should avoid stereotyping entire communities for reasons I hope are obvious. #I think everything will work out in the end #I don't typically see this kind of stuff on here but I figured I'd post this anyways since I'm posting it to Twitter too #It's understandable that emotions are high because of everything that's happened to the QSMP community the past few months #but it's very sad to see fans attacking each other #everyone's a bit on edge it seems. I rarely use my personal Twitter but I opened it today and saw some close mutuals snapping at people #then after stepping away and calming down coming back to a conversation and apologizing #it's sad to see everyone in this state #So... comments from the peanut gallery I suppose. I do hope this helps someone though #I don't usually post things like this because frankly- #I don't think every single drama / controversy / whatever necessitates a public statement from every single member of the fandom #but I've been thinking a lot about this #Anyhoo. Hopefully I can start sharing clips again tomorrow. I've been moving the past week and life was hellish #hopefully things ease up a bit now

[puhlobobr]

hey hey isn't it your favourite ship when one is a blonde with anger issues and other is literal ray of sunshine

#bkdk #bakudeku #patrochilles #i dont tell you which one i was speaking about #i miss my hero babies so much but i just don't emotionally attached to mha anymore #says she every few months #and then some big event happens in manga and she crazy about them again

[koishua]

first started writing for nct when this place was infested with neozens and then started writing for enha during given-taken when there were barely any engene writers at all and now its the total opposite lmao i find that actually hilarious 😭😭

#tp #tragic is more the word my tumblrinas #actually prefer it this way despite the nostalgia because nctblr was freaking insane every few months i get flashbacks to #all of the downright depraved incidents that happened #and then im like of COURSE nctzens are behind every single horrific thing lmao #im telling you plagiarisms were still abundant then but things like that and impersonations etc were the LEAST 'wtf??' things that happened #i have to cackle out loud why was everyone like that it feels like a fever dream 😭😭 #so dramatic and for WHAT agagagaggah #i actually want to go through it again just for the quarantine insanity vibes everyone and i mean everyone had it ROUGH #everyday was a field day #i feel like a 'in OUR days...... ✍️✍️✍️'!grandpa rn lmaoooo #betrayal after betrayal 😭😭 scandal after scandal 😭😭 soap operas every single day i LOVE that for 2020-2022!us

[canadiancryptid]

One of my favorite things to think about when it comes to modern fantasy type stories is wonder how the supernatural elements may have influenced myths, legends or aspects of history. In a world that seems just like ours, there are so many little butterfly effects that things like magic or mysterious tech could have caused.

Infinity Train has a bunch of these. The Train picking people up would have definitely influenced history, but I like to think about how the existance of the Mirror World would have influenced things like the existance of vampire stories.

As seen with Tulip at the end if Book 1, if a Reflection ever left their post, their Prime would stop showing up in mirrors. If just a few reflections started to go rogue in the right time period, and people notice thier absence, coming to conclusions based on religious stuff and superstition, then all of a sudden you've got people being wrongfully accused of being a vampire. Over time, stories spread, and a case of a handfull of runaway reflections leaves the common story of vampires not appearing in mirrors.

A similar situation could apply to ghost stories. A Reflection runs off after their Prime dies, before the Flecs can take them to have their memories wiped and get assigned to a new Prime. Having grown attached to the family and friends their Prime left behind, they hang around for a while, watching from afar. Someone catches a glimpse of something that looks like someone who died... boom, ghost story.

Reflection Enforcement, of course, would use this sort of thing happening as an excuse to tighten their grip and use more force to keep any rebellious reflections in line. Eventually, nobody in the Mirror World still remembers a time when the Flecs didn't just jump to sanding at the first offense.

How often do mirrors seem to come up with in stories in relation to souls and spirits? How often do mirrors get used as a way to see into or travel to other worlds? How many stories in this alternate world were directly tied to reflections trying to do the same thing Lake did?

Really fun worldbuilding stuff to think about, and that's just a small part of the series. How did the Train itself change history? What events played out differently? Did it change things for the better? Or did it just make them a different kind of bad?

#infinity train #cryptid says stuff #if you really wanna think about it you could say the mirror world DOES exist in our universe and that's exactly how it happened for us too #infinity train mirror world #I have SO many thoughts about the implications of the mirror world that come back into my head every few months I cannot escape it #and just about how reflections work in general because MIRROR ONE SHOULD NOT BE ABLE TO DRINK HIS PRIME DOESN'T HAVE A MOUTH #I have so many theories about it and the train in general gonna be hyperfixating on that again for a bit apparently #I could probably do a whole rant on just the implications of reflections needing to have their memories wiped when their prime dies #might have done so already but I don't think I ever posted it

[kimmkitsuragi]

whew haha

#🗒 #my mom is like 'ok it's set let's tell everyone' and im like 😭😭😭😭 !!!!! #are u sure!!!! are u sure it's set like ???? 😭😭😭 #ughhhhhh after this much trust i will literally kill myself if i dont get ANY scholarship lmaooooo #but also like. is it set now!!!! really !!!!!!! is it !!!!! #(excited but horrified and anxious) #like. like like like........ like i mean #um........ for real now? like are we sure for sure ?? #i honestly will be like 100% on my way to [redacted] and still be like haha. is it for real #are we sure . will this actually happen #that's. crazy man #i cant help but feel like im asking for too much again. ughhhhhhh #yes hello hi. this blog has been my main outlet for emotional breakdowns about the same subject for um #(checks notes) a few months now. truly is anyone else bored of this ? because im so over it #but also like. things just dont get clear !!!!!! ever !!!!! #how can i be sure how can anyone be sure that i will actually be going lmfaooooo #i hate this waiting period i hate it why cant i know if i got anything or nah. but please don't say nah #ughhhhhh . alright. whatever it's not like i care that much honestly -_- #(threatens to kill self every day a few times over this btw) #anyway um let's. be positive #it will go great tomorrow 🤩 they will want to give me money sooooo bad 😍 #and i will receive an email this week 🤗 about the wait list thing for SURE 🥳 #i am doing amazing dont worry guys. im sooooo chill rn #Sorry for the constant embarrassing personal posts lol

[jirai-kei-freak]

why does it have to be this way

#Why #I was doing so good this past year #There were times I was literally crying tears of joy because I haven’t felt as happy as I was in years #Now shit’s coming back and I don’t like it #Every fucking time man #“Well life is supposed to have its ups and downs” HAVE YOUVE WENT THROUGH WHAT I WENT THROUGH #summer through all the way to the end of 2023 was one of two of the most miserable times I ever went through #I was almost never happy #Had cheap laughs for like 20 minutes then back to misery #There wasn’t a single day were I didn’t wish i was dead #Literally I would wake up and i immediately wanted to start crying #Thats how bad things were #You could see it in my face how lonely and miserable i was #I hadnt felt that empty for like a good few years since then #It was to the point where I thought there was never going to be light in my life ever again #I went through some fucked up shit and now im traumatized 10x more then i was before #The first day of school was a weak after some extremely traumatic stuff happened man #Then the new year started and everything was starting to get better #I started taking medication #I was much more happier #My self esteem boosted up #I started working on myself and became a better person #I dont think i ever had a period of my life where i felt THAT BETTER #Like I said i was crying because I had felt a massive weight lifted off my shoulders #It literally felt like i saw the light #I legitimately thought things were getting truly getting better #It’s just gonna be the same damn cycle over and over again huh? #For several months I feel depressed as shit #Then for a few months things start to clear up #Then suddenly and abruptly things go back to the shit

[girlwiththegreenhat]

so anyway the helicopters can see you Through the windows

#liz blogs #project zomboid #AND THEN I THOUGHT HE WAS GONE AND TRIED TO PUT A SHEET ROPE OUT TO LEAVE AND HE CAME *RIGHT* TF BACK #''wow he sure is hanging around for a while. wonder what google says about i- oh. oh fuck'' #im on uhhhh maple ridge in that fenced off neighborhood. my fav. i have to build minimal fences for max protection #cuz all the homes are already walled in and zeds dont Attack those big fences unlike player structures #and then i have two walls at either end of the street! so its all closed off #and um. he showed up right when i was looting the house like two down from mine. and i sat in a bedroom upstairs waiting for him to leave #i had to kill like 300 fucking zombies with one fireaxe #it took a couple days and i had to steal a car to drive outside town to SLEEP #it was chaos i thought i lost my base for a second there #it took me like 4 days to clear everything back out OTL #and i am now working on a second base to fall back on should that happen again #back in my day setting the helicopter to come sometimes meant every few months not every TWO WEEKS. HAVE MERCY #i havent played pz in 5 years OTL OTL OTL OTL

[elvenking42]

No one else talks about it but the guy who copyrighted the term "yooperlite" is the shittiest guy ever and hes at EVERY SINGLE gem and mineral show in the great lakes area. And not to fucking mention he ended up JACKING UP the prices on Lake Superior sodalite and he ripped off the patent on another guys UV light! He's selling worse blacklights for WAY more than most of the other people on the market. Like absolute shit guy. If you want to sell LAKE SUPERIOR SODALITE you can't sell it as YOOPERLITE because the name is copywritten. ALSO LIKE FUCK HIM FOR REAL!!!

#not to mention becuase its SOOOO easy to find ppl dont even agate hunt anymore. #if you go to any public shorelines for Lake Superior you'll see like twenty other groups looking for sodalite #the beaches are totally picked clean #i used to be able to find a few decent peices of sodalite a night when i visited but the last time i looked i had to get like #knee deep in the water to even find ANY #god i fucking hate that guy so much #i need something bad to happen to him so people can call it Yooperlite again #like fuck you for real for copywriting the name of a rock #like actually kill yourself im so serious. hes the bane of every single gem and mineral show i go to #anyways #sorry ive had thag on my.chest for months i needed to get it out there #fuck that guy fr #personal #sorry to geology post on you guys at 11pm

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

[khlur]

every time i talk w my parents i have to remind myself not to get swayed by their doting affectionate act.

#i mean see #becoming older has made me recognize and appreciate them for a lot of what they did #but to say that i am doing anything except lip service to them rn would be an exaggeration #our relationship has improved but i have made it clear that i never intend to live with them ever again #that the honeymoon period will last 2 days max #they'll cry their crocodile tears #and the emotional abuse will restart like it never stopped #that the physical abuse would have continued if i didn't threaten them by throwing chairs and a knife #like....these past few months have given me such fucking WHIPLASH #it almost makes me forget just how dysfunctional our dynamic has been #how i got away relatively well adjusted because i psychologied myself through clinical and counselling psych classes #how they refuse to take the blame absolutely for my brother's issues surfacing now in his adulthood #ever so often something so viscerally twisted will happen on a call or on the group chat which makes me want to hurt myself #and that serves as a wake up call abt how bad shit used to be #and how glad i am to be away from it all #but every few weeks i will be lulled back into thinking that maybe things weren't so bad #i'm also swayed so much by the people around me rn who hesitate so much to talk about anything that isn't small talk #either that or they're people who really love their parents and enjoy spending time with them #and i'm like....respectfully i cannot relate and neither can the bamboo rod that once broke in two bcs of how hard my parents wielded it <3 #and ofc when families come up in conversation everyone acts like it's a normal thing for there to be ups and downs #w so much unsaid and implied about how i'm actually an ungrateful POS who can't appreciate their parents sacrificing so much for me #hehe. no thanks. keep ur judgement to urself

[stepfordgoth]

Had another stupid semi-nightmare about my piece of shit brother...... Can he just kill himself already please, so that way at least in my dreams I can be like "wait you're dead this doesn't even bother me" lol

#its like once a month or so that he shows up in my dreams amd its been this way for years and i hate it. i hate him. #a few years ago they changed from 100% being nightmares any time he showed up to slowly being able to stand up for myself to him to openly #telling him to fuck off and not letting him interfere with whatever i have going on in the dream. and now its pretty rare that they turn #into full blown nightmares but it does happen. more often than not when he shows up in my dreams now he acts as sort of a roadblock or an #uneasy presence that emotionally keeps me from doing things or something like that. just a fucking nuisance. #i havent spoken to this guy inover a decade and as of about 6 months ago he lives on the other side of the country now. im so beyond ready #to never think of him again and never dream of him again and i genuinely hope he kills himself for what he did to me and the way he treated #every woman in my family. hes already dead to me i guess but i do wonder how my dreams will change once he actually dies #while im on the topic - i do have him to thank in a way for my outgrowing my suicidal thoughts when i was younger...... when i was like 19 #or so he lived with our grandparents and me for a brief time and he pissed me off so much that i vowed to myself that i was going to live #at least long enough to see his grave. i wanna live in a world without him in it someday. that spite has kept me going lol

[icewindandboringhorror]

I’m always paranoid of my tumblr being deleted or malfunctioning or something like that someday, so here’s other places to find me/follow me, just in case lol

~ instagram - https://www.instagram.com/lucalicatte/

~ main youtube - https://www.youtube.com/c/LucaLiCatte

~ games/sims youtube - https://www.youtube.com/@cloudycatte

~ facebook page (I rarely use this because I hate facebook but.. it at least allows text posts better than instagram does, so idk maybe I’d use it more if tumblr went away? lol) - https://www.facebook.com/cloudycatteart/

~ Other Links (stuff I don’t use often/isn’t Main enough to list here, like twitter, neopets, other tumblr sideblogs, youtube channels, etc.) are here - http://icewindandboringhorror.tumblr.com/otherlinks )

#An updated version of this since some of the links on the old one are no longer the same lol #I might make a website website one day (not with a custom domain since I'm not paying for that/dont have the money lol #but like a 'my name.weebly.com type thing lol) but I haven't had the time recently. If I ever get around to it I'll update the post and #reblog that version. ANYWAY.. I just like to have one of these written out to reblog every once in a while. During the once ever few months #when poeple are like 'tumblr is failing again! it wont survive!' which has happened like 80 times but I'm still always like :0c what if! #also love the ms paint art done with a mouse ghhj #ANYWAY.. also if you want to see the stinky game I made that's not actually related to my own worldbuilding really (why I have never #posted anything about it publilcy because it's like.. how do I talk about it lol) I have my itch.io linked in the 'other links' page #as well as my General Projects blog. which talks about all the ongoing and upcoming projects I want to do that are #actually set in my world and can give you previews of some of the things I'm working on. Currently resuming my Game after abandoning it #basically for the entire pandemic and a little before that - as mentioned before - so that's OUgh.. in terms of A Lot Of Work #Especially since while kind of 'revamping and updating' I want to add a few features which are mostly easy but every once in a while #I don't understand something and it's like....... hGGhh...... Ironically despite Blogging I just hate talking to people in public open foru #.. I love privacy and security lol.. and I always feel that ONE day I am going to have a question that has not already been asked on a foru #somewhere and I am going to have to post myself and.. no.. I shan't even imagine it.. It's not even really social anxiety it's just like.. #efficiency.. instead of wating like days to get an accurate response and resolve the problem with the general public I would rather just ha #e a one time 30min conversation with an expert and resolve it quickly. PLUS then I also only interact with One stranger instead of Many Of #Them lol.. any 6+ yrs of experience Ren'py experts hmu so I can pay you like $50 to have a single 45min conversation #with me over an insanely simple question and then never talk to you again until a year later when I have a second question. hhjb #ANYWAY.. I still really don't like instagram or it's layout and I never understood how it works like.. if I should be tagging photos or wha #or how you really use it and I just... euGH... stimky.. but it is one of the most popular so I feel obligated to link it. I wish facebook w #sn't such a nasty poo poo because I do actually like the variety of posts you can make and how Pages on facebook operate. In the scense of #it being similar to tumblr that you can make a VARIETy of styles of post. not just Only Post Photos or Only Short Text or Only Video which #is still like.. how the funk does sutff like that even get popular lol.. the Limited nature.. hewwo.. but alas.. and NO way I'm touching #fucking Threads please do not make an account on there and don't let your friends do it and don't let that shit catch on lol. #BUT YEahg... links...... just in case.. i hope tumblr stays aroundin it's current format forever though lol.. #I'm pretty sure even facebook doesn't have audio posts. or tags the way this does. or CHRONOLOGICAL FEED. custom html for pages.. aaaaa

[eggmeralda]

okay but I am genuinely so unwell about numbers and dates and ages and time and years etc. so I'm blaming all my bad luck on the number 23

#got so paranoid about it that i didn't talk to anyone for the last few weeks and i haven't applied for a job and i'm honestly not doing #anything until i'm safely 24 #idk what 24's gonna be like but it's got a 4 in it so that's a good sign #but then again 14 had a 4 in it and that was a terrible age #but tbf it was a 4 + a 10 which is like. my fav number and my least fav number. so the year just malfunctioned #first 6 months good second 6 months bad #so 24 can fit two 10s but they're not as obvious. but it's a multiple of 4 so i trust it a bit more #4 x 6. idk my feelings on 6 but it's never really done anything too bad to me so yeah. 24 is the safe zone #i blame everything on the number 23 and also my friend's awful ex girlfriend #OKAY SO LIKE i was reading coronation street youtube comments the other day #and people were talking about how characters like terry duckworth and mike baldwin were kind of prats before but then they #had some significantly bad experience and after that they became Absolute prats #like basically what caused their villain origin stories #and i was like oh my god am i gonna turn out like them?? is my friend's ex girlfriend responsible for my villain arc?? #and i have felt myself becoming more negative and unhappy and cynical and bitter over the past few months #and i was like fuckkkkkk no i can't enter my mike baldwin terry duckworth era #bc before whenever a remotely bad thing happened i would just disappear and go back to telling myself there is nothing good with the world #so like for every job i never got and for every time i put something in the group chat and no one replied and every time i made something #and no one cared about it i would just sink deeper into some hole of hatred at the world #i mean. the rsd. like I'd still react to stuff in that way when i was younger and happier but at least back then I'd also #wave at cool clouds and smile at people in public and be like ''fuck i woke up too early and now i Have to take a photo of the sunrise'' #but now i don't do any of that I'm just some bitter cynical bitch who hates everything #so yeah. my 2024 resolution was to reclaim the whimsy i lost at the end of 2022. and so far it's not really going well but at least I'm not #23 anymore #ramble

[wherela]

they should invent a friend for me who doesn't randomly stop talking to me for no reason

#my best friend. MY. BEST. FRIEND. #has been ignoring me since yesterday #and i just.... honestly i feel like giving up at this point #this is about the 5th time this has happened to me in my life AND I AM SO SICK OF IT #am i doing sth wrong???? #are all the people around me just assholes???? #i know that this won't go on forever and that she will get back to me at some point and explain (hopefully) #but oh gosh i am not okay #like maybe i wouldn't be reacting this way if this wasn't the X time I'm re-living this whole situation #in primary school i had an entire friend group just decide to hate me IN ONE DAY #and then in high school one of my closest friends also just started treating me like she hates me #so then all my friends just followed her lead #then last year a friend (whom i only saw every couple of months) avoided me at our mutual friends wedding #and then didn't invite me to her own wedding a few months later (she too was one of my closest and longest friends) #and then there's S #but then again at least he explained so I know this situation was not really my fault #and now this?????? #i swear i have been fighting tooth and nail to continue to be caring and wear my heart on my sleeve #and BY THE GRACE OF GOD i am still able to be so #but oh gosh oh goodness this is hard #mine #personal

[quaranmine]

of all the sad things i have written so far in firewatch au one of the things that actually made me shudder was writing a line of Corporate Speak™

#HELP it's somehow so much worse than any of the angst that proceeds it #we have a flashback of how grian was Doing Badly at work in the last few months #and his boss is like talking to him #and as im writing it im like oh god this sounds like the negative version of every manager i have at work rn #im drawing like some of the same bs lines i hear all the time but in a worse context #'is there anything i can do as your manager to support you through this to ensure it doesn't happen again?' #NO. THERE ISN'T. #it's the 'we're in this together 😊 (we're actually not cause i hold all the power over you)' vibes that it gives off #hc_firewatch_au