#exicted for big art thing

[borahaejenn]

💜😻Happy Birthday Min Yoongi!😻💜

Hello, Yoongi!!!! 🥳Happy 31st/ 32nd BIRTHDAY, OUR DARLING!🥳 I am excited!!!! I just saw about the movie in cinemas lol I can't stop talking about it and I am exicted to go and get that second chance lol I read that the Tannies will be in them too like ahhhh Joonie's performance and then Kook's with you like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhakfhdkhfsjfhdsjfdjfhd lol I was waiting for this announcement and finally it has come and I can't wait. This really is a Happy YOONGI DAY!!!! We get to start April hot with Hobi and Taehyung later down this month and then the D-DAY concert and then May is almost here and then JIN, OUR BELOVED JIN COMES HOME!!!!! Yoooooongi I love this for us. lol We are at the final stretch before y'all start coming back to us slowly one at a time. I love u and I love Bangtan and I love ARMY. ahhhhhhh

I am sorry I am so unhinged, but this is it and I am full of happiness. Also, I say this in the videos below lol but GOOOOOOD MORNINGGGGGGGGG YOONGI!!! GOOOO MORNING EVERYBODY!!! I am posting this at 12 am in the 7th lol so it is morning here but ahhh!! I have been watching movies lately late at night and I sleep well after and wake up well. I talk about some films I have been watching and I will share quotes I loved from the movie THE CROW (1994) but to continue with this letter for you, our love, how was your day today and how has it been doing your service? I just wanted to ask. Thank you for being born. Thank you for honoring us another year with you. I say this in the videos too, but thank you to all of your family, your friends, your parents, and your loved ones including Bangtan and BTS CREW that have been with you and have taken care of you all this time. I will thank them as many times as possible because they really brought you to us one way or another. 💜😽

You are our sweetest gift. And for all the bitterness life has piled up before 1993, the universe said, let's balance the world out with some sweetness and then you were created and given to us. ahhh I am so mushy lol but I will be corny all I want with y'all. haha Overtime we got your warmth. I still remember when Bangtan helped you make gifts for ARMY in the earlier days. You always cared for us and gave us a place in your heart to grow. I guess that is how I feel with you. But this is also how I feel all of us fit in your heart. Bangtan, ARMY, and even those close to you. You gave us a safe space to grow and develop and be who we can be because you helped us. That little space where you let us in slowly was never trivial and has not been a waste because look at us now. We are so giant and big and bright. We still got many days, years, hours, minutes, seconds ahead of us. A lot of us can say that the safe space you created for us is what saved us and kept us going. This can be figurative as even in your music it has felt like that space for us was always there. Your hands and pen created that big heart of yours that we see today. Thank you, Min Yoongi. I still remember the past Bangtan tracks you touched like NEVER MIND and I always felt your heart there. I still remember the first time I heard it, and it was just dark but beautiful to me. I felt safe to take space, to fit in between the flows as you gasped for air to keep spilling your truths out. I didn't know what you were saying at that time, but it screamed "I am trying to survive, and I will keep speaking my truths until my last breath" I just felt it and that is one thing I saw so ambitious about you. Beyond music being your life, it is your oxygen, and you prove that time and time again. What I love about the imagery of how music is your oxygen is that I can feel ARMY in your music because you see us, and it is like you paint us in your art figuratively. I see you as a painter leaving a piece of his beloved in his paintings that no one will ever know because you hide it so well in your art that it takes a good eye to see it. Someone who gets love will see your work and be like, "these art pieces are all so different, but they express love one way or another." And we are that love. I think that is beautiful.

I think your music is so diverse but at the end of the day they are proof of what love is and was at different times in your life and I am glad to have been able to be with you through those times just by listening to you. I read of how if there is love there is grief, well if there is love, there is sadness, pain, hurt, confusion, doubt, but nonetheless all those feelings that seem so negative are not really bad as they are proof that love existed at some point in that person's life and I see that with your music, Yoongi. 😊

I am happy to say all this for once to you. hehe I wanted to write something short and not do a lot so, I will go now. I know you have a lot of ARMYs greetings and love coming your way soon. I hope you eat well today and I wish you a HAPPY YOONGI, SUGA, AND LIL MEOW MEOW DAY! lol I wish you another good year until we can see you again, darling. Bye bye! I love u. FIGHTING, MIN SUGA!!!!!!! 💪(❤️ ω ❤️) You did well! 👍

WIth love,

Your Jennifer ✌️🐰

P.S. Here are the old school pics I found lol from Shooky to butterflies, please enjoy. haha they are from 2019, 2020, and 2022. Thank you for also inspiring these. hehe

KUMAMON JENN haha

lmaoo thissssss the shyness at the end lol

SHOOKYYYYY😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💜

THE BUTTERFLY PICS hehe I forgot how much fun I had making these. You looked so beautiful here and these are the photos that inspired these

hehe I love u Yoongi! Have a nice day!!!! hehe 🦋

[slymanner]

A secret santa bluetech fanficcy before they became a relationship for @bloop-arts!!

for a first fanfic this is probably the best it could've been fjfn but it was SOOOOO fun to write!!

hope y'all and bloop enjoy!! :D

The sun was setting, terri just got off of work and closed their car door in exhaustion, all the kids constantly asking for candy and the pure chaos of it all making her want a 2 weeks break.

but as they started their car ready to hit the pedal and zoom home as fast as they could, they got a call from one of the itzgirls.

suddenly terri's exhaustion slowy becoming excitement, as they picked up the phone fast without even a second thought.

"hel-"

"HEY TERRI!" ally interrupting terri accidentally with excitement

"h-hi ally, nice to hear your exicted to call me haha."

"oh sorry sorry, but i just wanted to ask if you wanted to come over for a bit? we wanted you to come over and hangout with us since it's been a bit!!

teri's eyes lit up a bit, hearing ally and jess wanting them over after such a long day is something they secretly needed, terri has been so busy they haven't been able to talk to them for a atleast a week, and a week for the bluetech gang is like 8 months since they try to hangout everyday.

They are possibly a BIT touch deprived.

so they are ecstatic to be able to hangout as they sorta space out imagining all the fun stuff they'll do together (in the gay way :D)

"we know how hectic it can be over at your work though and how tiring it might be, so it's a okay if you don't wanna come over and just go home and rela- "

"NO I'LL BE THERE."

terri said snapping out of their gay thoughts

terri coughed "yeah I'll be there for sure."

silly terri, you can't cough away your gay shouting.

"OH YES YES YES!!! OKAY I'LL TELL JESS YOUR COMING, SHES GONNA BE SO EXCITED SEE YOU WHEN YOU GET HERE TERRI, LOVE YA!!!"

"See ya when i get there ally! love y-"

"....."

"wait what was that last li-"

ally hanged up the call not even her not even realizing what she said at the end of the call as terri is left there speechless

terri may be a little flustered after that end line, thinking a BIT about it but now they have a fun exicting thing to do.

hanging out with their two best friends and have a fun time doing whatever they have planned, terri loves their company so this will definitely be a good breather after work.

they step on the pedal excited and gets to driving to ally and jess's place, do they still have the love ya line in their brain?

definitely.

terri having a small crush on ally and jess for years doesn't help as they try to let the gay thoughts not take them over as they arrive to their room at the college, terri stepping out of their car looking at ally and jess's door sorta nervous but also happy, after all it's been awhile since they have hanged out.

but with the love ya ally said still in their mind terri is still overthinking a bit as they walk towards the door

"Okay, okay, this is gonna be just a fun little hangout like all the times before nothing crazy is gonna happen, it's not like they'll propose to you when walking into their apartment terri."

"their just cool friends, it's gonna be a fun friend hangout session."

"Mhm, yep."

they think as they finally step in front of the door, softly and slowly knocking the door holding their hands together twiddling with their thumbs a bit

"Coming!"

jess says from inside as terri starts to smile hearing her voice again as the door slowly opens

"OH, TERRI YOU MADE IT!! haven't seen your lovely face in a bit how have you been?"

she said with a smile happy to see them again giving terri a big ol bear hug as they blush a bit but their nervousness melting away a bit feeling jess's comforting and caring hug again, terri hugging back.

"o-oh, I've been good! kids, working alot, y'know."

"ah, I get it bet it's exhausting come on in."

jess lets terri step in as she closes the door behind them

"Oh thank you, and you bet it is! closest you have to kids is your robot's and those are tamer then what i have to deal with at work."

"pft, we'll yeah our "kids" don't ask for candy every 5 seconds."

"they only ask for like, new parts or something but not as much as those little gremlins at your work asking for candy."

"HAHA, yeah they can be a handful but they are still fun to hangout with sometimes when they actually sit down for once."

terri says with a hand behind their neck, as jess softly smiles loving to hear terri's soft and sweet voice after what feels like forever.

it's been a week.

"heh, i bet so."

suddenly jess and ally's room was opened fast, If ally wasn't here they would've assumed it was a ghost

"TERRI???"

ally turned the corner fast running full speed at them, terri doing a quick gasp seeing ally face to face again as they open up their arms

"ALLY!!!"

ally jumped at them and mid air put her hands around terri's waist as they both fell to the ground

"TERRI!! IT'S BEEN FOREVER DONT LEAVE ME AGAINNNNN"

ally holding wrapping her arms around their whole upper body by this point squishing her face against terri's making terri's face all red, jess just looking down at them at the ground giggling a bit.

"I-I've missed you too ally it's wonderful to see you, it's been only a week but I've missed you too."

"YOU KNOW HOW A WEEK FEELS TO ME!!"

"I KNOW ALLY I KNOW, I WONT LET THE SQUAD BE SEPARATED AGAIN."

"YOU BETTER OR YOU WON'T LEAVE THIS SPOT!!"

ally hugging even tighter basically making terri breathless

"GOT IT-"

"Okay good :D"

ally let go and let terri stand up and ally followed suit terri trying to catch a breath

"WHOOF, okay good welcome from the both of you"

"we have our own welcome styles, she's the more aggressive one."

"i love tackle welcomes :D"

ally said with the biggest grin in existence, loving to commit love violence anytime she could.

"I can see AND feel that thank you haha, so what do y'all wanna do?"

"well we had a movie in mind, but ally first has a new robot she wants to share with you it's been a bit since you've seen a new invention of ours!"

"AND THIS ONE'S COOL TERRI YOU'LL LOVE IT!!"

ally says flapping her hands in excitement, terri instantly finding it adorable in their mind loving to see her all exicted for just a lil robot.

"c'mon! it's in our little experiment room oooooooOoooOoo"

ally waving her hands in a spooky motion as she walks backwards and somehow doesn't hit anything as she moon walks into the room

"well, you heard the dork c'mon terri."

jess says ruffling terri's hair and running into the room with a laugh as jess has never ruffled terri's hair before

"H-HEY HAHA"

terri runs after her with a dumb ol grin as they turn the corner and running into the room as they suddenly screech to a hault seeing their new robot in a surprisingly large room.

a interesting little robo with a oven for a body, simple but long arms with two wheels at the bottom and the robots head also being simple, with a black round half circle head with two little headlights for eyes.

"woah...it's been a week and you made THAT?"

terri forgetting how amazing these girls craftsmanship is, working with literally just a oven and some tools.

"yep, you'd be impressed with how easy it is to make robots sometimes."

jess said as ally came into terri's sight rolling across the room in her rolling chair.

"we got bored and took our oven and made it a robot! :D"

jess looks on with a proud look as she grabbed ally's chair mid roll.

"we sure did ally, we sure did..."

"and....we basically only had microwaveable food for a bit, but it was worth it!!! :D"

"so...I'm guessing this robot cooks n stuff right?"

"um, NO terri it actually shoots fucking lasers OF COURSE IT DOES YA DORK."

ally doing a little smirk up at her with jess's sass

"it can shoot lasers if we really worked on it though, I'd just take some little updates to it's arm's and connect th-"

jess pressed her finger on ally's lips.

"shhhh, don't tell them that let me be right."

ally pushes jess's finger away slowly.

"sure...but YEAH IT COOKS!! well..sorta..."

"yeah we're still not done yet, we haven't even turned it on yet we're still working the kinks."

"it's got some screws turns and bolt cranks to do, we we're actually trying to do the most we can before you got here so we can just focus on us chilling and hanging out without a robot getting in the way."

terri smiled a bit, hearing jess saying that was sweet.

"oh well, since we're here we can finish it up if y'all wanna?"

jess and ally both looked at her in surprise, not expecting terri to even be interested to help in something robotic.

"REALLY TERRI YOU WANNA HELP??? :D"

ally just absolutely jumping up and down in her chair.

"terri! never took you as a robotics nerd like us you switching sides?"

jess said with a smirk crossing her arms.

"haha yeah i know, but it seems like fun! maybe I'll learn something from this"

jess and ally both smiled harder happy to hear terri wanting to help even if they aren't experienced.

"hey I'm down as long as you don't break anything, we can't buy another oven."

"well that just gives me more pressure jess THANKS."

"love you too buddy."

jess hits the wink and finger snap to finger guns like the chad flirt she is, making terri kinda re-think the whole just friends thing.

jess and ally started getting their tools out, terri watching as they turn the robot around and open it's back up as it reveals multiple wires and bolt and screws, terri already interested but also terrified to start a fire but as their overthinking that ally walks over to give them a wrench.

"well...you wanna start the first bolt turn?"

she said with a big soft genuine smile, terri couldn't help to NOT want to give her face a squish with their hands but they resist the urge.

"i-i yeah thank you for the wrench"

terri taking the wrench from her small soft hands as she walks over to the robot ally following from behind.

"you need us to walk you through this terri? we'll be happy to help ya."

"oh nah nah I'm good jess! just a quick bolt screw and...uhhhhh"

terri went down on their knees to get a good angle, they saw something sorta simple from afar but getting closer now, jess and ally made this ALOT more in depth then a actual oven with all these microchips, multiple wires, bolts, screws, a whole mainframe??? terri would've expected this ACTUALLY shooting lasers.

"On....second thought, maybe some help from y'all would be great."

terri said looking back at the two, both looking at each other with a smile knowing they would probably ask.

"hmmmm, OH! how about i control your arms behind you terri??? I'll get you to a bolt so nothing gets broken and you can do your thing"

ally saying with a smile, only pure intentions.

while terri was having a small gay panic attack.

"w-wait like-"

"oh yeah! That's a good idea ally! i think I'd really help terri"

jess seeing terri's gay panic through her own eyes and just letting this play.

"y-yeah go for it ally"

"oh okay! :D"

terri is not fine as ally comes from behind them, her soft smol little hands holding onto terri's wrist's as ally rests her little chin on their shoulder getting comfortable so this can work and no fires start, terri not expecting ally to do that with their chin kinda jumps a bit but trys not to overreact a bit as they can see ally's face so close to them.

"you jumped a bit terri you good?"

terri is struggling :)

"YEP YEP, LETS DO THIS."

jess just enjoying the show by this point, having a little laugh hearing terri's gay struggle as ally guided terri's arms to the right direction, missing some wires and getting closer to a bolt as terri is just having a mental gay panic, feeling ally's soft hands on her for this long spacing out a bit as ally places the wrench on the bolt.

"okay made it! terri you can turn the wrench now."

terri snaps out of it, them not even able to function with this amount of physical touch.

"OH, alright let me just.."

terri turns the wrench as hard as they can the bolt not even moving.

"I...might need help for this."

"oh a double team bolt huh, alright!"

ally leans in a bit more her hands making contact with terri's as she grabs onto their hand softly, this is possibly the most gay moment these two have ever had and ally is just treating it as normal.

terri at this point is losing it, they are freaking out in their brain rn able to feel their friends soft hands holding theirs, their dreams of holding her hand coming true at this moment, but terri is trying to focus.

"alright TURN!"

both terri and ally turn as hard as they can it slightly moving but not enough to were it's finished.

"OH C'MON ITS SO CLOSE.."

"Phew, well it seems stuck i don't know if we ca-"

jess whistled making ally and terri instantly turn

"I'm right here guys."

"OH RIGHT, TRIPLE TEAM BOLT COME ON IN JESS!!! :D"

".....y-yeah!! come on in jess."

terri is gonna die here :)

as jess comes from behind putting her chin on terri's head, jess putting her grip on both their hands terri just now realizing how absolutely power jess could be and she could kick their ass terri just absolutely overloaded right now, their hands a little positively shaky from the amount of contact from both jess and ally but jess's hands are so powerful that the shaking doesn't change anything and their wrench is still well, still.

"alright on three we all crank the bolt, got it?"

"got it jess!"

"y-yep let's fucking do this."

terri with a confident look but of course still nervous as hell to break something with this turn.

"alright, one."

ally prepares for a big crank, looking at terri with a nod as terri looks at her and does the same.

"two."

terri is fucking terrified, but with the girls confidence with this turn, terri gets confident also with them as they get less shaky and hold more of a grip with the two girls grasp.

"THREE!"

all pull at the same time backward, the bolt QUICKLY turning all three of them not actually expecting it to turn that quickly lose grip of the wrench, jess's strength making them all fall back pretty far as they see the wrench spin FAST and get's fully bolted as they see the wrench SHOOT out of the robot when the bolt was fully screwed in and hit the wall, making it stuck there.

the three just look at the wrench, look at each other terri and ally just on jess's lap from the huge FORCE from the wrench and her power, and all of them just having a fucking laughing fit.

"HAHAHA OH MY GOD THAT WAS INSANE"

jess says with a tear in their eye looking down at the two dorks laying in her lap.

"JESS WHEN DID YOU GET THAT POWERFUL??"

"HAHA DONT ASK ME ALLY, I'VE BEEN JUST WORKING OUT I GUESS."

"THAT WAS, SO FUCKING COOL, I DIDN'T KNOW WRENCHS CAN LAUNCH LIKE THAT JUST WITH BRUTE STRENGTH??"

"HEHE TRIPLE TEAM BOLT ACTION WENT WELL!!!! :D"

ally lifting her arms with her fist's up in celebration looking at the two

"heh yeah guess it did, maybe it just needed my buff strength."

"Ay don't dis-credit me and terri's strength jess!!"

ally said with a smile jess's cheek being softy grabbed by her smol hands while terri just snorted at this sight.

"HAHA alright alright it was a team effort, you two did well"

jess ruffling both terri and ally's hair with no regret in her body.

"haha, thanks jess."

terri smiling hard, happy to hear both their friends laugh again.

"we needed this, I'm happy i asked to help with the robot."

terri says getting up and putting their arms around jess and ally's necks.

"heh yeah, we needed a good bluetech group laugh"

"YEAH GROUP LAUGH!! :D"

all laughing together, all smiling just enjoying each other's company like all the other times.

"hehe phew...okay so what now y'all?"

"well considering the wrench is in the fucking wall, think we'll take a break from the robo."

"OH HOW ABOUT WE WATCH A MOVIE??"

terri and jess's eyes both light up in excitement, loving that concept fucking immediately as jess and terri both say at the same time.

"FUCK YEAH??"

"JINX!!"

jess seeing the opportunity of course she fucking did this lol.

"fuck."

"you owe me a kiss on the lips."

"WHA-"

"no i mean giving me a kiss candy and giving it to me, c'mon terri get your head out of the gutter~"

jess ruffling their hair again knowing what evil she just committed as terri is all blushy and flustered

"i hate you."

"love you too dork."

ally just smiles at this interaction, her loving their werid dynamic.

"alright COME ON GUYS, NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS CANT WAIT!!!"

ally says running out of the door quick as FUCK leaving terri and jess in the dust.

"WAIT ALLY SAVE ME THE POPCORN"

jess says following behind her with a laugh

as terri just stands there, still all flustered and blushy but smiling hard as their heart is more full with love for the two of them then ever before as terri runs towards the door and turning the corner towards the living room.

"SAVE ME A SEAT YOU TWO!!"

after that they had a fun movie night, all having fun talking to each other jess chomping on popcorn in the middle as terri and ally takes popcorn from her bowl as their both in their own blanket jess loving to be their pillow watching the movie and the other movies after as the hours go by, all of them are sleeping on the couch terri and ally sleeping on jess's lap after all the movies jess also asleep all three of them comfortable and calmy asleep.

they may be just best friends now

but soon they'll be best lovers <3

#amphibia #terri amphibia #ally amphibia #jess amphibia #bluetech #you dont understand #this ship is so fun to write omg guys #secret santa

[starlightsaeran]

Wildflower

Author’s note: Hello hello! I’m even more exicted to post the second of two pieces created for the @mysme-rbb, alongside the wonderfully talented @pili-art !!! It has been beyond an honour to get to work on both of these pieces, and I’ve had more fun than I can even put into words <3

Summary:  Saeran spends his sweet summer days in the only way he knows how; surrounded by all the things that love him as much as he loves them.

Read on AO3: here!

Make sure to check out the beautiful artwork this was inspired by: here! 🌸🌸🌸

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Seconds ago, Saeran had been running through his garden, with bubbles and butterflies and the feeling of bliss chasing after him as he chased down MC and Saeyoung. The bugs that landed on him left little kisses on his glowing skin, and the sun’s rays hugged him close in the warmth of their embrace. The day prior, MC had told him that freckles had begun dotting his skin, and he found it impossible not to continuously recall the ghost of her lips as they had traced the path across his nose and cheeks that the tiny sun stars had created. This was summer. This was what it was to not just exist, but to really live beneath the sun. It had been almost a year since his reunion with his brother, and yet he still found it hard to believe that he was living his own life. It was hard not to feel like an imposter. Yet there he had been moments ago, running around like a kid as he tried to tag his brother, both of their laughs twinkling in the balmy air. 

Now, however, he lay on his back in the bright green grass. He blames the heat for his exhaustion, after all, it’s not like he hasn’t built up an above average level of stamina! He just isn’t quite used to being subjected to such high levels of vitamin D, that’s all. The sun relentlessly beats down on his face, as though it's playfully mocking him for giving up so easily. Saeran just smiles back. He knows it won’t be long until MC and Saeyoung realise he has admitted defeat, and he knows that instead of mocking him, they will forget the game altogether and join him in the bed of grass he is resting upon. He knows because they did the same yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that; most of their summer days play out the same way, and though to some it may seem repetitive, he wouldn’t want it any other way. The three of them would never grow tired of a life like this. After all, they had more than earned it.

For now, he admires this time alone, as brief as it will be. It’s not that he likes to be alone, he had spent far too much of his time that way, but he had to admit that this new life could be a little overwhelming at times. He knew without a doubt of course that if he mentioned this to his brother and MC, they would respect his every boundary with no questions asked and would allow him all the time he needed. They had done so the few times he had asked before, and they would always continue to do so. He just supposed he felt somewhat...silly, for asking. He’d spent so many years secretly wishing to be part of a family, and now that he was, he wanted time alone again? He couldn’t make sense of it. 

There were a lot of things he couldn’t make sense of.

Like the fact he was living in the house he had always visited in his dreams, both during the day and on the nights he managed to sleep peacefully. Surely dreams as big as these were supposed to stay as dreams? And the fact he was reunited with his brother, whom he had spent so long hating under the influence of manipulation. He hated that he had ever felt like that, but those feelings had indeed once been a part of him, and he couldn’t just forget that. Now, together, they were living the life his brother had always promised him. He hated that he had doubted Saeyoung, but he had. But maybe that didn’t matter anymore...not now that this is reality. 

And MC… He can hear her voice now, just a little way away, never too far from him. Her laugh is a song on the breeze as she giggles at whatever dumb thing his brother is no doubt doing. Saeran had been such a dark person, and now he was surrounded by a constant light that would never again allow him to forget who he really is. 

A cloud floats over the sun at that exact moment, as though it knows what he’s thinking and is playing a game with him. He takes advantage of this sudden shade and a moment of respite from the relentless rays, and opens his eyes just in time to see a bumble bee buzz right past his face. He wonders where it’s headed; is it off to find the perfect flower to drink sweet nectar from? Or has it already succeeded in its task, and is now on its way home to its queen to whom it happily devotes its entire life to? Was it happy? Did it feel a sense of completion if it lived this way, never thinking for itself, only living to serve? Or was the bee like him? A traitor. Who spends its days longing to pick its own flower, to drink the nectar for himself, and to detach itself from the hive which was much too crowded.

He tries not to linger, and by using the method he had gratefully learned from his therapist, he lets the thoughts pass him by like the bee had done. He instead brings his attention to the way the grass tickles the bare expanse of his arms, and he lets his fingers run through the tall blades. The cloud that had been blocking the sun passes by too as it carries on its way, and forces Saeran to involuntarily bring one arm up to shield his eyes. He can’t see it through the rolled up sleeve of his shirt, but he knows his tattoo is there, like a raincloud against a clear sky.  Perhaps the majority of people who would see it wouldn’t give it a second glance. Just another piece of swirling ink, that’s all it would be to them. They wouldn’t know what it stood for, or what it said he was. What it meant he had been. No, the majority of people wouldn’t know. But his family would. He can’t help but to wonder what they must think of it. He’d caught Saeyoung glancing at it a lot when he thought he wasn’t looking during those first few rocky weeks. Saeran knows deep down he was probably just bewildered by the concept of his brother with a tattoo at all, regardless of its origin. He knows Saeyoung would never link who Saeran is now to the place the tattoo symbolised...but the fear still lingered. He hated feeling like a monster.

MC made sure to kiss his tattoo whenever she saw it, and in the golden hours when all the world was silent as she laid in the same galaxy as he did, she would trace its curves and thorns with a tenderness he wasn’t sure he was worthy of. He knows she had never shied away from it, it didn’t scare her or torment her or serve as a constant reminder of the person he had once been to her, and the way he had treated her. As far away as that lifetime had been, it could never be forgotten. The tattoo made sure of that. But MC had once told him that although it was a reminder of his past, that wasn’t a bad thing. She had said that it was proof that he had grown, just like the flowers. To her, he was a flower. 

To him, she was a field of them. 

His thoughts wander to the flowers he loves so much now. He considers their roots, the way they battle and fight through the endless darkness and the dirt, the way they look so fragile, but to the flower, they are unbelievably strong. It must be so hard for them to grow, but eventually, all their hard work pays off. And that first glimmer of sunlight the sprout gets to see must feel incredible. That hope. That knowledge that they had done well. The roots remain below in the soil, but now they can breathe. Perhaps Saeran was like that. Perhaps his tattoo was similar to those flower roots. And perhaps roots could be pretty, too. The way they tangle and intertwine, that could be art too. 

“There you are, buttercup.”

Just like that, MC is all he can see as she stands above him, leaning over slightly so her head lines up perfectly with his. He can't stop himself from giggling a little at the pet name she had called him, and that drop of laughter alone was enough to carry away all his previous thoughts. She shines as brightly as the sun, and he sees all the things he loves reflected within her tender eyes. All he knows is this; her, this garden in which he lays surrounded by all the things which he knows returns his love, and his brother, who has also made his way over and is now leaning over him alongside MC. 

"Oh, so Saeran falls over and he gets called pretty names, but when I fall over, all you do is laugh?" 

"Saeran's just taking a well deserved break, YOU tripped over the bubble machine I warned you at least 10 times about, you deserved it."

Saeran watches in adoration as Saeyoung dramatically throws his hand over his chest to clutch at his heart, and MC nonchalantly sticks out her tongue in return, and he finds himself making a promise. A promise to himself, to always remain grateful for those tangled roots that remain tucked away in the dark soil, for making him the beautiful wildflower he is today.

#mysmerbb #mystic messenger #saeran choi #saeyoung choi

[desirevu]

Imagine BTS: having a wet dream about you (nsfw)

— first one! skcksk im kinda exicted about this!!  i think i’m going to slowly go into actual smut scene so i think this is a beautiful way to start ! some of them are different lengths but i think the concept makes up for it. ALL I WRITE IS CONSENSUAL. TALK TO YOUR PARTNER BEFORE TOUCHING THEM IN THEIR SLEEP THANK U! <3 enjoy it sinners

Kim Namjoon: ☆*:.｡.

when namjoon sleeps over because that’s what friends do, just friends. namjoon warmly smiled at you, trying to keep the desire to a minimum. the day was great and every time he spends the day with you, he knows exactly why he fell in love with you. he didn’t want you just for your body, that was just a side piece but he wouldn’t decline a quick fuck if you asked.

when night arose, namjoon was confident feeling the sweatpants against his skin. there was not one single thought about you in a desirable manner just yet. you two slept on the same bed and sharing a blanket.

the dream happened and namjoon was in on his fours his arms tied together. he looked behind him to see you, your hands on both of his ass. namjoon breath hitches desperate for you to rim him. feeling the silk against his wrists makes him way harder spilling a bit of precum on the bed.

“p-please y/n just touch me.” namjoon’s skin burns up, he was so hot and his stomach was filling with butterflies. you snickering pressing your tongue on his ring of muscle, namjoon whimpering.

“y/n please, please ruin me. do whatever you want with me.”

namjoon woke up, seeing you sitting up watching him almost like he was a piece of art, you observing his every move, every breath, and every whine. namjoon hoped it was a dream when he felt precum drip down his cock.

“i-i can explain. i don’t know.” namjoon desperately said covering his so obvious boner between his legs. namjoon was more afraid of your silence, all you did was wake him up but you didn’t run away or fuck him.

“namjoon, do you want me?” you lifted his chin seeing namjoon press his lips apart, the soft gap seeing that this wasn’t a dream. namjoon nodded didn’t matter if this was shameful or embarrassing to admit.

“want me to make your dream come true?” you pulled him close to you so you could whisper in his ear. namjoon held your biceps trying to keep himself stable.

“dear god yes, yes yes.”

Kim Seokjin: ☆*:.｡.

seokjin has never had a wet dream, so when it happens to him. he thought it was real life, that you were horny and now you’re fucking him in front of a mirror that somehow appeared in your bedroom. you were like a súcubos knowing every crack or corner of seokjin where he just screams out of pleasure.

seokjin would wake up and be utterly confused about what had just happened, next minute he was about to cum and another he was back in the bedroom not hearing a peep or his shirtless boyfriend fucking him that’s for sure.

“hey baby.” seokjin shook you a little seeing you groan blinking to see seokjin sitting up.

“what is it?” you asked, seokjin lifted your blanket seeing you fully clothed. he was also, is he on crack? was he on drugs?

“did you fuck me?” seokjin asked feeling the hard-on between his legs.

“no?”

“are you sure?”

“yes i’m sure i would remember fucking you seokjin.” you chuckled insisting that he just went back to bed.

“maybe you just had a wet dream.” you said turning back to your bedside table away from seokjin.

“really? and you’re just gonna go back to bed!” seokjin playfully hitting you, grabbing you so you can roll back to him.

“i know you want me.” seokjin presses his hard cock against your crotch, seeing a small smirk surface on your face.

“don’t complain if you don’t get much sleep tonight.” you climbed on top of him, while seokjin wrapped his legs around your hip pressing you closer to him.

Min Yoongi: ☆*:.｡.

yoongi, he had a good sex life with you. most of it was you dominating him in bed, sometimes in other places that were certainly not in your bedroom. you always admired the way yoongi can go from clingy cute boyfriend to a whore wanting you to devour him. all the things you two did were consensual and yoongi being degraded was definitely the first thing he enjoys.

yoongi has his occasional wet dreams where he would wake up before he climaxes leading him to finish himself off while you were sleeping right next to him. i think the idea itself made yoongi finish quicker, of course he wanted to wake you up to help him with his oh so problem but he thought it was annoying since he had them so often.

that was till you were sleeping, feeling yoongi’s body pressed against you. you woke up thinking he was just cuddling with you, you smiled turning to cuddle him but you stopped when you soon felt grinding. yoongi drooling on himself rutting himself against you, you didn’t move and let yoongi grind on you. moaning out your name, you felt his cock twitch and harden with each grind.

“let me cum pl-please.” yoongi goes faster against you, you decided enough was enough so you twisted your body and held his hips causing a massive whine come from his mouth. yoongi finally woke up seeing the pre cum on your back from him. you pull his hair seeing his adam’s apple perfectly.

“clean me.” you announced seeing yoongi go lower in the sheets following your command almost automatically. he would put on a show for you licking his lips every drip of cum he licked from your back.

“do i get an award?” yoongi asks with his eye glossy, you couldn’t say no to him. not even satan himself could say no to him.

“of course baby, turn around.” you big spooned him, touching him all over his body till you press your cock between his cheeks.

“please just do it.” yoongi gripped your shoulder as you slowly went in, yoongi meowing seeing outside of the dark night and the beautiful moonlight showing just how dirty you two were.

Jung Hoseok: ☆*:.｡.

hoseok was known to be loud, his energy is just loud so when he has a wet dream you hear him clearly. you turn around seeing him as a black figure due to how dark the room was. you saw him rut against the bed, moaning out your name. you call his name out seeing that he had no response. you grabbed his arm trying to make him lean on your chest so you could help.

“y/n- you make me feel so fucking good.” hoseok whines out still sleeping you lowered his boxers playing with the band of it. slowly pulling it down you wrapped your hand around his cock pumping it for him. you didn’t want to wake him up, but that idea was quietly gone when he put his own fingers in his mouth drooling all over them.

you pumped him faster, hoseok muffled whimpers by his fingers you felt hoseok throw his head back when he came in your hand breathing heavily but still sleeping. jesus he was a heavy sleeper if cumming didn’t wake him up.

you continued to jack him off, your hand sticky with his own cum. you see hoseok’s face twist and turn from the over sensitivity. hoseok finally slowly gain consciousness widening his eyes from seeing the way he was.

“oh god y/n!” hoseok arches his back crying from you still jacking him off. he felt your cock on his back sending arrousal straight to his cock.

“i’m going to cum again!” hoseok announces trying to just cum. to get that sweet release again especially with your hands on him it made it way more intense.

hoseok cums once again, huffing seeing you get a rag from the dresser cleaning him up. hoseok winced from you cleaning his cock, sensitivity still there.

“thank you.” hoseok softly said pulling you back into bed. you could get used to wet dream hoseok.

Park Jimin: ☆*:.｡.

jimin had his wet dreams about you, mostly alone but that was due to him jacking off to you so often he would die if anyone found out. he wanted you, and when he saw you shirtless that didn’t help him at all. you knew somehow to click his buttons, touching his thigh, playing with his hands, and you wearing the most seductive outfits he’s ever seen.

you two live together that is what was embarrassing when he jacked off just a door away from yours. he could have you fix his problem that you caused, but shamefully jacking off was the solution 99% of the time. his dreams get vividly real when he drinks so on the weekends when he is on a break he usually drinks a couple drinks of wine.

when you arrived at home, from a late night of clubbing with no drinks involved (you were the designated driver) you got jimin some take out seeing that he was complaining that there was no food in the house and that can cover the night today and you’ll just go grocery shopping tomorrow. you opened the bedroom to jimin seeing him bare naked sleeping. you blushed immediately, you’ve seen him naked before but this was different. he was bucking his hips, blush spread throughout his body, and moaning out your name.

you saw him twitch and his knees buckle, you sort of froze in the doorway. you had already turned on the lamp, jimin slowly getting up from the bright light. jimin turned reaching out to the light touching your hand on the lamp. jimin thinking this was all just still in his dream.

“well are you going to fix it?” jimin grins opening his leg giving you an opening to his perfect body. you dropped the take out on the table going in between his legs.

the touch he felt, he knew he wasn’t dreaming. he was really going to get fucked by you. giving him love bites all over his thighs marking him yours even if you two never mentioned a relationship.

you licked his cock from the tip, paying attention and teasing him just to hear a soft groan holding onto your rich hair. jimin trying to push your head lower to his neglected parts of his cock.

“you’re going to make me snap. your moans drive me crazy.” you said in between sucking him off, jimin smirking knowing even if he was a sub in this situation he knew what ruined you already.

“do it big boy.”

Kim Taehyung: ☆*:.｡.

taehyung has his wet dreams sometimes but when he does he usually wakes himself up from them to wake you up by sitting on your lap so you can just feel his hard on, so this morning taehyung got just by foreplay in the dream before he woke himself up.

taehyung lifted his blanket to clearly see he was very hard ( he liked sleeping naked sometimes ) you sleeping soundly but he smirked knowing he’ll intrupt it pretty soon...

taehyung got on your lap grinding slowly, of course you two had talked about what you two can do to eachother when sleeping so all of it was consental. taehyung went a faster pace seeing your eyes flutter rubbing them.

“taehyung jesus this is your 4th one.” you gripped his hips making him move faster, taehyung threw his head back once he felt your hard cock so close to his aching hole.

“can’t stop dreaming of you fucking me into the mattress.” taehyung pulled your shirt up seeing your chest kissing it still rocking his hips back and forth.

“what time is it?” you said in between kisses with taehyung, you trying to look over at the cliche red clock. you mumbled under your breath a “fuck” seeing it was almost time for you to leave for work.

“i have to go baby.” you stopped his rocking, taehyung laying on top of you to stop you from leaving.

“you can’t leave me hard!” taehyung whined into your ear hoping that could convince you to not leave. you chuckled softly lifting him off your body.

“yes I can darling, i’ll see you when i get home. if you’re good don’t touch yourself.” you got your work clothes on brushing your teeth while taehyung sat on the bed cris cross watching you get ready.

“i hate you.”

“i love you too.”

Jeon Jungkook: ☆*:.｡.

jungkook loves to work in his studio, calls it his safe space and he usually passes out on his chair more than his actual bed. his soft music playing in the background trying to keep his eyes open. who knew love songs about his crush would end him having a wet dream? it wasn’t like rough, it was you kissing him all over so slowly that he wanted more but at the same time he didn’t want it to end. jungkook wasn’t in a normal setting he was in like a beautiful forest that the ground didn’t feel rough it was soft even then he didn’t care because he couldn’t stop thinking about you.

you walked in wanting to give him a snack for all of his hard work and you haven’t seen him outside of that office all day. you walked in seeing his normal large black hoodie and sweatpants, you told him you were walking in. you opened the door seeing him sleeping, small groans, and words you couldn’t figure out what were being said.

“y/n... i love you so-” his words were intrupted by a moan, you saw the tent in his pants, seeing the slightly twitch trying to get out of the sweatpants that restricted him.

“jungkook. hey.” you shook him a little bit hearing him mumble some words being a bit angry he was being taken out of his dream world till he meet the familiar eyes of you.

“oh shit. uh y/n i was just sleeping.” jungkook awkwardly chuckled till he saw his obvious boner through his pants.

“this is not how i wanted you to find out.” jungkook quickly grabbed a pillow to try to make this confession any cuter than it could be? you rolled his chair so you could between his legs, jungkook widening his mouth seeing maybe having a wet dream saved his life.

“you don’t have to do this y/n if you don’t want to.” jungkook says gripping his armchairs in anticipation. you smirked jungkook seeing your eyes that were so soft turn dark instantly.

“i’ll show you just how long i’ve been waiting for this.”

#bts x male reader #bts #bts imagine #bts namjoon #bts seokjin #bts yoongi #bts hoseok #bts jimin #bts taehyung #bts jungkook

[suuung]

Boogerts and confessions.

( requested by: @thephenomenalkingofthebrogues394 )

Snape x reader (student)

warnings; none, (snape being a mean but it’s okay) age gap.

notes; this was SO fun to write, but took me a little longer than my usual fan fictions! i hope you enjoy, please note and share! thank you ♥️

and remember, requests are always open.

Summary; (requested); readers boggert is snape rejecting her like saying how could I ever love a ugly fat stupid little girl like you or something and he hears and says it’s wrong and confesses his love if that makes sense?

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Standing in professior lupins defense against the dark arts classroom, you were meerisly trying over and over to cast your boggart, lupin had just instructed the class the proper way, repeating it over, and over, and over, you still couldn’t get it, the class roaring in chatter behind you made it your thoughts go crazy, being unable to focus on your boggart, soon enough Ron weasley was in front of you, and you were next to try out your boggart.

Steping forward, lupin gave you a reassuring smile, “(y/n) think hard, you can do it, come on now.” Quickly the mysterious boggart twist and turned, forming a black cloud, then soon forming the shape of a human, and then you couldn’t believe who was in front of you, the class went silent as you heard the door in the back of the classroom open creakily. You quickly ignored it as you saw Professor Snape. Professor snape was standing in front of you with a mean glare, then soon walking closer to you,

“You’re worthless you know, just a stupid little girl, you really think i’d ever come to love such a waste of space? i should just expell you from hogwarts for your lack of intelligence in my classes!”

You felt tears forming, completely forgetting that this was only a boggert, stuttering and unable to cast the “ridiculous” spell, professor lupin stepped in front of you and casted a different spell, sending the boggert back in the cage.

Then it all hit you, the whole class saw and heard it, your deepest secret on your fondness of professor snape, not only did that hurt you but the words he spoke too.

Lupin noticing this right away, he took immediate action.

“Alright everyone class has ended, dismissed.”

You stood and ran out of the class before anyone else, grabbing your bag on the way out, and turning the corner with your eyes fixed on the ground, you ran into a tall figure, looking up quickly you met eyes with dark, black onyx eyes looking back down at you with a eyebrow raised, then softening. Not saying anything, and remaining silent he gently lead you to a empty hall a few strides down from the classroom. Taking a deep breath he stood in front of you.

“It’s not true.”

He spoke out, slowly and deep, making sure you heard every word he said.

“I saw your boggert, Miss (y/l/n).”

You gasped out, your eyes widening with fresh tears beginning to dry up, now in shock and embarrassment.

“Mhm...” was the only thing you could mutter out to him.

“I have to say, i was quite .. surprised.. i’ve never seen a student at hogwarts have such a unique boggert...but i assure you, to the bottom of my heart i do not ever and would never say those or believe those things, you are a excellent student, that try’s her hardest and is.. very beautiful and capable of being er...loved...”

He spoke slowly then slowly speeding up the part about love, which he muttered, before you could say anything he spoke again.

“Is your worst fear really me saying those things (y/n)?”

Being a bit surprised he used your full name, you looked up at him again, scanning his face then nodding timidily.

“..Yes sir..”

He softened even more, looking down at you for a moment.

“Well.. er.. i have to admit (y/n) not that i would.. uh.. I have quite the fondness for you too...”

You were even more surprised, from hearing the scary, strict professor stutter and unable to speak, to him admitting he had a fondness for you, your mind almost exploded.

“Professor..you’re fond of me? I’m very fond of you too professor..”

“Well of course, you don’t think i noticed by the only eyes watching me while i sit at my desk and the rest of the class does their textbook work? or perhaps you sneaking extra glances into my class while walking by it?”

His lips curved into a small smirk, gazing down at you adoringly.

“You noticed?! oh gosh-“

You were cut off when you felt snape’s surprisingly soft hand on your cheek, rubbing his thumb a bit, and leaning down, his face hovering against yours, noses touched and foreheads together.

“May I kiss you, Miss (y/n)?” He whispered, barley even audible, so the only person who could hear him was you.

“Of course professor snape..” You whispered back, eyes almost closing already.

Your lips turned into a small smile, your heart beating out of your chest, and you felt so nervous but so exicted. Soon it all happened so fast, you felt very soft and slender lips apon yours, the chill of the hall making them even more tender against yours, keeping his hand on your cheek he moved his lips against yours more, moving closer to you, then soon pulling away, being aware the both of you were not in private and just lucky to find a empty hallway, he smiled down at you, it was a small smile, but a big one full of love in his adoring eyes as he stepped back a bit.

“Call me severus in private..(y/n)..” He said slowly, smiling a bit.

“Severus..I like it..” You giggled up at him, the both of you still close to eachother.

“You’re very pretty..” He muttered.

You couldn’t help but giggle, you were just as nervous but the tall and scary professor was flustered.

“You’re very handsome..Severus..”

You smiled, your eyes curling as happiness fluttered through you, clenching onto the side of your skirt out of habit of nervousness you stepped back a bit too.

Then hearing footsteps from down the hall coming closer, severus stepped away more, turning his head sharply as no other than draco malfoy strutted down the hall, swiftly walking and eyeing the both of you, snorting at you assuming you were getting in awful trouble by the dark professor, then severus gave the troublesome glare, if looks could kill, draco would have been dead meat by the dealthy glare snape gave him, his eyes widened and he quickly walked away, vanishing down the long hallway.

Breaking the silence you spoke up,

“Pro- I mean, Severus, I should be heading to my dorm, it’s gotten quite late since dinner and i must finish my homework for my next classes.”

He nodded, staring into your eyes for a moment, and giving your forehead a soft kiss, then smiling lightly.

“Meet me at the old slytherin tower tomorrow after dinner?” He said quietly and slowly.

“Sounds like a plan..” You giggled again, leaning up and giving him a kiss on the cheek, you scurried off, looking back and giving him a sweet smile as you turned the hallway and squealed heading back to your dorm.

Arriving to the slytherin common room and running up the stairs to the dorms, you were quiet but after changing into your night clothes and laying in bed, you felt like the happiest girl in the world, your cheeks almost hurting from smiling so much, all because of severus snape.

this was really, the best day ever.

#snape x reader #severus snape #snape #snape fanfiction #snape imagine #pro snape #snape fandom #severus snape x reader #harry potter imagine #harry potter #slytherin #hufflepuff #fanfic #alan rickman fandom #alan rickman

[hypnos-the-narcoleptic]

You post a lot about your wife and BFF? Is this art for them only? Not to be rude! Love your art btw ; u ;

Oh well this is a side account I made for them Tbh. My bff is who I jokingly call my wife. We're very close and they're practically my whole world. Funny thing is that I have a habit of joining fandoms and drawing art for their faves. See the big thing is that I rarely see them exicted for things and it makes me happy to hear them talk about them. Sometimes their choices tend to have dead fandoms or the sort and i try to draw cute things or doodles on the side to help give content . i like the characters too dont get me wrong! XD but seeing them happy and excited about concepts or just cute art or fics is what I really love. More than anything I just want to support their interest and see them smile.

And if i have to sneak into fandoms under pen names to draw for them then so be it :P

#hypnotalks #asks

[billietomoxx-blog]

Clowning

CLOWNING- So what’s the purpose of clowning? the idea of clowning was to bring out the inner child, release any thought of doubt and authentically get things wrong and be ok with that, its being vulnerable within your self. strange because most acting we do, everything needs to be filtered and right, but no clowning is less serious and more playful. Thats why we relate it to being a young child again, we were less bothered about who's watching and imagination took us away, we would play the silliest games with our friends and create our own, no rule world. Then i guess as we grow up, all those natural abilities, were taking from us, as we had responsibility and a life of our own which indeed we had to take serious, so i guess clowning is learning to take all those layers away and express it authentically to the audience, i mean its the opposite of a perfectionist, like myself so i knew id struggle however learn a great deal about myself as a individual actress, which is needed for my growth. 

SKILLS AND TECHNIQUES WHICH WE LEARNT- The lessons on clowning, were very fun and exciting and also interesting. We play games which helped us bring out our child like side and encountered fun and being playful the correct word for this is LE JEU, for example the games which we played were, grannies foot steps, funny nun, Crocodile, and my favorite one was this very interesting game were we would have to listen to the banging drum and react, with real emotion and clock that we had been caught, then we’d play ball with another person and show our inner clown, by TAKING RISKS, which was another key factor of clowning and then being able to CLOCK and take a look at the audience with the correct timing. To help us comprehend this more, tutor Josh made us play a simple game of walking down and to CLOCK the audience at the correct time, i found this easy and fun to do. Yet i found i struggled at the Funny nun game, as it helps show the humor you have which each person playing the game, the whole point of the game is to catch someone laughing who you look at and say ‘Its a very sad and sorrow day isn't it’ yet you have to reply and not smile nor laugh, its serious game, the other person gets to be goofy and fun to catch the other person out. I struggled as i laughed at times i shouldn't of due o everyones humor being different of course, and comprehending the unique relationship which everyone in the class, who ever has the best humor together, is more likely going to performing clowning better. The next game was intense, you and your partner standing very close face to face, saying nothing just staring in each others eyes and if one of you even smiles of laugh, then a slap is acceptable for any slip ups, i found myself to be very good at this as i had a lot of intense focus and concentration, et this game depends on the relationship with the other person as this also effect whether you are more likely to laugh or not. I found that when i was with Morgan, i was concentrated fully due to our connection, however when i was with Billy boy it all changed, we were a lot more likely to slip as we have a great fun bond together so it all comes down to the humor connection.

After games where played, this is were practice started and we had a series of noses which in this case were our masks, the first game was pick up a nose and walk into the room and stay still and silent and literally do nothing, i struggled with this one as am very hype and extroverted naturally, so bringing it back was hard as talking and moving about is my usual and how i openly express myself, yet i forgot when wearing mask where now in character, so i should of focused on that more, i learnt that i’m not so confident with doing the opposite of myself with is nothing as am mostly doing everything. The next game we did was telling jokes with one of the noses on, which i found funny to myself, this helps with finding out your true inner clown, which the audience are connected and entertained too. I then found my inner clown was serious and very sensitive, as this is complete opposite of who i am in general. which is why its usually funnier. The next game was to go out the room while students and teacher pick how many items and guide you by saying responding to hot as clapping and not hot by silence, the items they choose you have to figure out what to do with them and the further along the harder it gets. I found this very hard as the audience barely gives you clues or hints and it literally could mean anything, i took the game too seriously which made it way less funny then it could of been, instead i should of enjoyed the journey but as my tutor said i made it into more of a drama. The aim of the game was to play with the audience and do things wrong but enjoy that and take your time to figure it out in your own way.

TEACHERS OF CLOWNING-

Marcel Marceau was a French actor and mime artist most famous for his stage persona as "Bip the Clown". He referred to mime as the "art of silence", and he performed professionally worldwide for over 60 years. This is one of the teachers we looked at for clowning, then there was Decroux the inventor of corporeal mime, he is the first to formalize his art for his teaching, he teach his students to keep their face covered and learn to convey every emotion through their body. As for Marcel he invents a character who combines chaplin movements with the look of harelquin. 

So in lesson, we learnt about Marcel and his mime techniques as these can be very useful for clowning, we practiced games such as being stuck in the box and it’s to do with timing and body structure, this helped us gain an idea of how realistic a certain movement can make you look, i found it pretty easy to do, i think it was just the timing. The next game was pretending someone was on the other end of the rope and trying to pull it up, i found this pretty easy too as i managed to make it look real as i had the correct facial expressions,timing and energy.

CLOWNING FEEDBACK

So my first idea of clowning that i came up with was ‘Being a baby’, i had partnered up with Kenzo at first the idea was exicting and then throughout Kenzo lost motivation and wasnt exicted to work on it with me, which slightly put me off. I decided to dress up as a baby with Kenzo and be in a Play centre, so i bought some dummies and bottles to make it look effective and dress up in kids clothing. The first time we performed, it wasnt really practised we pretty much just improved the whole thing, we just has to found out what type of clown we both were. I found i was and angry and sensitive clown, whereas Kenzo was a sarcastic and bully clown, this worked well as it needs to be like cat and mouse or boss and auguste, shown in a unique way in order to capture the audience eyes. We wrote down a small draft plan to work off and showed the class, it was very funny at first and ideas where floating out,the joshs feedback was saying it  could really work as we was getting laughs out of it , then he said for me to loose the accent so its better and the water as it makes a mess, Kenzo feedback was to play with it more and have fun also doing so. Yet overall the performance was good fun and laughable, then i noticed the more i did it the less funny it got, so i had to switch up with more ideas yet keeping it simple, i tried adding music and it worked for a while, then it kind of lost focus. Personally i found clowning quite difficult either because of how complex my ideas where or the person i was working with, as there was only some Le jeu now and then. I think i needed to focus more on enjoying it too, keeping up the excitement of the piece as this plays a big part when performing it. The final performance actually went better than expected as we added a few more extra parts towards the end which made it a success, however it could of been better if it had a strong idea of the beginning to the end and was kept more fun and risk taking, as i felt it was a little bit safe.

CONCLUSION-

If you're aware of your clowning or your comedy, then the audience starts to become aware that you're aware, and it starts to become a bit smart. This is what stand-up comedians are very good at doing, laughing at their own jokes, and presenting the idea that we live in a comic world, whereas actors have to play characters from the character's point of view, and those characters don't view themselves as being caught in a comic situation. It's actually often the opposite: the characters are in desperate situations and take desperate measures that become funny in themselves. One of the things that clowning requires, as opposed to perhaps drama, is a very strong connection with the audience; you really have to be in tune with the people who are watching you and you have to listen to them very carefully to know how to gauge how far to take things, and then play off this reaction. One of the things I've always found most interesting about 'edgy' clowning is the word edge, meaning the edge of the stage where you have one foot in the audience and one foot in the story and you ride dangerously close to living out of the story and giving the audience what they want, but also being reigned in by the discipline of what you have to do within the story. It is an edge because if you give the audience too much, then you don't have respect for the story, but if you give them too little then you're not playing with them enough. There's a fine edge where a character can be in the middle of something, but the audience's response can draw him out to them. There are two very distinct sorts of clowning: white clowning and black clowning. The white clown is very good at clowning, very good at mime and at generating laughter with an audience and playing with them. The black clown is the anti-clown, and he mocks mime and the idea of needing an audience, and questions how perverse he can be but still get the audience's laughter. He might mime grabbing a female from the audience, putting her on stage and undressing her and then doing the job on her and smacking her on the bum, which sounds ridiculous but the audience is in a state of laughter, so he looks for how he can take it further, to find what they won't laugh at. From this point he puts it back to the audience and basically says that if you are going to laugh at me and find some value in me, then don't try to change me. 

CONSENT with andy-

Taz what is taz?

They deliver one to one sessions, group work, open access, outdoor education, Youth Council and detached youth work sessions. To help keep the youth safe, well educated and able to trust the council at all times, especially emergency.  

We needed to make a drama piece which involves consent which means giving permission, for a certain thing. So the clients from TAZ introduced us with this, and told us we need to make a performance that involves CONSENT and we can perform this is any way as long as it adds every important detail in there and we deliver it in a way that our target audience eg; high school students 13-14 can comprehend, normally small amounts of humor will keep the audience interested, and they will definitely remember it which is good. We figured out a strategy to help us work up with this, which was to do a dance scene at the start about the boy with his girlfriend at his party, shows them dancing together and him getting pressured by his friends to sleep with her and she was getting pressured to drink, this would help us tap into the common social areas were people mostly crack and are more likely to give in as most young people now a days are influenced to drink, so using a common scenario will have more of a impact as it’s really realistic. Further on through the scene she’d get more drunk and be way more vulnerable and he would had given into his friends pressuring him and done the deed without CONSENT and this is where consent is then introduced within a social situation, then the dance would be repeated to the end, so the audience are introduced to it at the start and then it makes sense at the end. My role was to be one of the friends who pressured the boy to have the party and helped him talk to his girlfriend with the right thing to say, helps to show how much pressure the guy was under and it can be really relatable to young people shows the situation had led out of control all over one thing and it seems to be building up and getting worse. After the dance scene he gets mocked on the bus by his friends once again for being a virgin, so this part really highlight he feels worried of being judged and is upset of it happening so somehow feels like the only way to fit in to be socially accepted by his so called friends is by having sex, so then he takes his girlfriend for a meal and meets up with his friend, who were still of course questioning him about his girlfriend and wondering if he had still slept with her, this scene was important as it was the most triggered scene to the point where they almost fight as he was insulted when his friend called him a queer because he didn’t have sex, this the leads him to doing something he really didn’t feel like he wanted to do, yet left with no choice as he felt that odd as although he didn’t fit in, so he decides to prove himself as his friend offers to throw a party for him to loose his virginity too and he agrees but does his girlfriend? This was the sad part yet it involves the matter of consent and how serious of a matter it is, the girlfriend didn’t give consent especially considering she was under the influence of alcohol which makes conditions a lot worse, so the boy continued to peruse her through the night as his friends helped her get more and more drunk to the point where she’s not aware of her surroundings, making it a lot easy for the bad deed to be done, showing us no consent was confirmed leaving her in a very vunerable state, which helps shows awareness in the area of young people drinking alcohol and what it can lead to, I think we brought up more than one issue within consent which would also have a serious impact on people when they watched it. I think the consent piece was really good and effective as the little things such as the text sound effect catched the audience eyes and made them laugh, and the way the dance with the boy and his girlfriend was repetitive it stood out a lot more, stuck with the students. Then toward the end it helped unravel what consent was when the people spoke up on it, as it mentioned the cup of tea which was a great metaphor for people to comprehend it better. I noticed the music was suited for every scene and made it more interesting to watch, as it played a part.

When performing in schools, we noticed the first school was very echoey and it was overlapping sounds from one another, i found personally it was too small to perform in and was quite cramped, so the schools conditions wasn't suitable for such a active physical piece. However it was performed well, other than for going way too fast then it should of been, it was performed well, the only issue was the environment. To make it better we should of had a bigger stage, and found a way to deliver the bed scene so the audience at the back could also see the performance as it was done on the floor and usually they don’t sit on chairs in assembly, you’d just sit on the floor, that helps us adapt for next time if we arrive at a similar situation. The Q&A at the end could of been directed better so that people could ask questions about the characters and their situations that they were in, to get a better understanding.

AUDITIONS-

I had to find a monologue that fitted to me as a person and showed off my best potential, so i asked Andy to help me find a emotional piece, as that’s my strongest point when doing monologues so i found a Scouse play called Unpleasant and i was reading ALI, this was my contemporary piece, for my place in London drama school i would need 1 contemporary and 1 classical piece, so next was my search for a classical piece, this is where i found Ophelia by shakesphere, i found this difficult as i don’t know much about his work, and not done my research on him, so to really comprehend i need to read the text again an again to see the true meaning of the monologue. I performed the contemporary one first, my given feedback was to loose the legs on the table as it’s not needed for the character and it gives odd confusion for character, i got told i need to in tune with the character more and do less pauses, yet my problem was not learning the lines as that’s where the pauses came from. The pauses interrupted my character energy and flow, just when its getting exciting, i pause, however what i did good on was my anger on certain parts which involved in to make it look effective, my character which i played also suited me a lot as i was able to execute the right emotions at times, and the contrast of emotion were shown correctly. So i needed to learn the whole of my monologue to avoid that mistake, next was my classical monologue piece which i found difficult as for most of it, i didn’t over-stand the correct meaning of the piece and the words nor timing, the audience and Andy picked up on this, so may be i need to be spending more time on translating it in English so it makes sense and then am able to deliver it in a more authentic way.  I think i needed to take more time to get the character right too, these little adjustments will make a big improvement.

The feedback we got given off Andy and the students, where effective as it lets us see from and outer perspective, and then when we realise where we go wrong, we can improve from that and get even better, so i think this really helps. We can see the good things and the bad things that needs to be worked on more, and then we get to perform it again for sure to show how much we’ve improved. We also get told whether our work is put down as a Pass,Merit, or Distinction, and its interesting to know why? from the teacher and students.