#fake tumblr shutdown
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It isn't that the shutdown thing was faked, it was that the screenshot was leaked and posted out of context. Someone working for staff explained that they're taking people off of the department that was attempting to make tumblr turn a profit, and is shifting them to other departments for site maintenance
ahhh makes sense thanks for explaining
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Today on "Elon Musk's Steady Descent into Madness."
Huh, wonder why he's suddenly so pissy about nudes? Its Musk, if anything he'd probably like seeing tits more often...
Oh. Thats why.
Yep, Australia gave Musk a big fine right up his Muskhole for failing to police child sexual abuse content and in response Musk has done what every dumbass in charge of a Social Media site does (LOOKING AT YOU TUMBLR) and started cracking down hard on EVERYTHING even remotely sexual, legal or not.
Meanwhile all that horrible misinformation that is flying around regarding the situation in the Middle East right now? Oh he doesn't give a shit about that...
Though he probably should.
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Well-scrubbed activist group.....
Newly founded in February of this year.....around the same time the London Portrait Gallery (adjacent to the National Gallery where a recent Van Gogh tomato soup stunt occurred) severed all sponsorship with BP https://www.theartnewspaper.com/2022/02/22/national-portrait-gallery-in-london-ends-bp-sponsorship-after-30-years
The group is funded by the heiress to Getty Oil. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Just_Stop_Oil#Funding
False flags are nothing new. Activist groups have been ruined by agents provocateurs https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Agent_provocateur -do we have to be reminded of fake BLM activists with umbrellas torching AutoZones (only to be outed by their ex-GFs as being cops) or leaving palettes of bricks in hopes of getting folks to get violent and look bad for the press? I’ve seen techno parties shut down and Occupy encampments get shutdown when someone no one ever saw before shows up and starts a fight or plants drugs or walks in holding a 40 in plain sight and suddenly that justifies an inordinate amount of cops (like battalion sized) poised and barge in clamping down. Again, Thomas Pynchon wrote about this in Inherent Vice.
Most activists don’t come in with well-produced multi-angle, multi-camera shots to record their spree. This spree was meaningless, and it was odd how noone seemed ready to tackle them. They had their faces uncovered and open to be identified by all. Those people who helped shutdown techno parties and Occupy marches get arrested, sound loud, rude, and inarticulate (and nowhere aligned in their dialogue with the genuine cause) for the cameras....and dang, if you see them walking freely the next day and being evasive as all hell when you demand answers.
EDIT: to add, what’s with these “extreme pro-abortion” groups (groups nobody on the street I know has even encountered) targeting very low-level pro-abortion facilities and getting big inordinate press coverage over it? Very expendable locations, yes? Kind of like when a small time Republican campaign place got torched in 2016, and even the Democrats came forward to offer money for their loss, and they (Republicans) immediately stopped griping about the matter and stopped bringing it to everyone’s attention-notice the “Firebombed” in quotations https://www.bbc.com/news/election-us-2016-37673802....another pop-culture reference that comes to mind was Robin Williams trashing his own fellow teammates lockerroom in “Best of Times” and making it look like the opposing team to get folks riled up.....let’s not forget the nut working on the McCain campaign who was willing to deface herself just to blame an “Obama supporter” for the matter https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ashley_Todd_mugging_hoax
Folks here need to wise up or they are walking into something that goes beyond emotionally charged online hoaxes like “pig saves goat” or the ones designed to make Tumblr folk look bad (if you fell for it)-like Police running a sex-slave ring or girl fighting boy in Minnesota school for “trying to take her hijab off”.
If oil companies start huge wars and go out of their way to slander outspoken neurodivergent activists like Greta Thunberg online, then you better believe they can create what could genuinely be labeled a false flag like this.
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Hello.
I want to post here about something, since the system is somewhat public and I felt like I need to explain this.
There are several introjects in Venom whose sources are the villains in their stories. These alters range from morally gray/ambiguous characters (ex: Mikey and Hanma from Tokyo Revengers, and practically any Tokyo Ghoul fictive, mainly Ayato) to outright evil/extremely problematic (ex: Tetta Kisaki, Ryo Asuka, and myself).
None of these alters are persecutors. None of them are dangerous. They all have their reasons for forming, mostly as coping mechanisms for the body/system as a whole. I’m not about to air the traumas that caused such alters to form publicly, but the short version more or less comes down to this: the two previous hosts (original body holder included) had bad people in their life who constantly victim-blamed and guilt tripped, and it left both of them feeling like monsters.
The body is diagnosed as autistic, among other things, and without fully knowing if it’s caused by the autism or not, both previous hosts had the habit of going numb in painful situations. The psychiatric professional we’ve been mainly treated by refers to this as a “crisis mode,” and says it’s not a bad thing to have. On the contrary, it’s a self preservation tool that just helps the body to stay calm and handle things logically without having a panic attack right away. The meltdowns, shutdowns, and panic attacks that come from these moments usually happen later, after the dust has settled. In the moment, however, it’s much more common that tears not be shed. Instead, the physical reaction of the body, especially with our previous host, is to become practically robotic. For a reference to what the speech and behavior would look and sound like, look to Abed in the show Community or practically any other autistic-coded character.
The way this has caused a negative effect is mostly during arguments, as a child, or as a reaction to abuse. We as a whole have dealt with abuse from multiple angles and sources. I will not go into detail about it on a public Tumblr post, but the longest period of it came from a girl who was two years older than the physical body. The system was physically 10 when meeting her, and 20 the last time we saw her. She has abused, blackmailed, and stalked Venom during those ten years. One of the worst things, however, was reactive abuse. She constantly used fake tears, rumors, and dog whistles to make our previous hosts feel evil for the way they experienced emotion, mainly pain and suffering.
She had put this idea in Venom’s head that not crying means you’re heartless, or that you aren’t hurt, when in reality, autistic and heavily traumatized people (or really just nd people in general) show their emotions differently. It took a long time to stop feeling like a monster, and to be honest, it hasn’t fully gone away even now.
That’s why our last host would get so attached to villainous characters, enough so that their subconscious mind would spawn a copy of them. Every single one of them, as alters, are polite and kind, if not a bit shy. Many of their memories differ from their sources, and some don’t even identify with their source enough to be called “Fictives.”
They all have one of two things in common:
1) Their sources are coded as being autistic or neurodivergent (ex: Tetta Kisaki)
2) They can’t handle/don’t understand painful emotions and decided they must be monsters because of it (ex: Ryo Asuka)
Personally, I, Yuki (until recently I went by Vi on here) formed as an introject of Scaramouche/Kunikizushi/Wanderer from Genshin Impact. Being so incapable of processing emotions, not to mention being a literal robot, is what caused the attachment to my source to form. As an alter, I’ve been here for less than a year and have already become the main host (out of necessity), which hadn’t left much time for self discovery or figuring out anything about who I am or want to be.
I don’t perfectly identify with my source, but I will still acknowledge him being my source because there is a reason I formed the way I did. And that reason is the same as any other villain introject: If even I, who actually has committed atrocities, can be worthy of love, then surely an autistic child whose greatest crime is nothing more than a monotone voice and not crying as often as other people could never be a monster incapable of love.
Tldr: Don’t disrespect introjects based on their source alone. There is a reason every alter/headmate/other forms, and you don’t know what that might be. Introjects aren’t their sources.
Also, neurodivergent kids aren’t cold or cruel just because you don’t see them cry. Your emotions are valid whether you visibly display them or not. It’s okay to react differently to pain than the people around you.
You are not a monster.
Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.
- Yuki
Edit: If you don’t like any of our sources and my post flew over your head, just unfollow and block. Haters will be blocked on sight. Thanks!
Edit 2: If you read/interpret the mentioned sources differently, cool, your views are valid. But this is not a post to debate the moral alignments of anime villains, just an explanation of why introjects form. I am not inviting anyone to argue headcanons over a system positivity post.
#for the record#my memories differ a lot from the game’s canon#I have no recollection of what’s happening in Sumeru#The 3.1 flashback cutscene rings some bells but my memories aren’t totally accurate to it#I like friends and the most villainous thing about me nowadays is being sassy#system stuff#system positivity#system posting#system problems#introjects#genshin fictive
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screw it, gonna upload this shit, hope tumblr isn't bother by it.
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and last time i do a thread in 4chan
i'm officially leaving 4chan for good,
it's was a good time when sun and moon didn't came out, i was fishing here and there for fanart and s**t like that, but that changes, after sun and moon came out for like 3 or 4 months, i tried to fish something out of /vp/ and i got nothing, nothing but old official art and art that is stolen from another website.
in this thread, i tried to get some ballio fanart before this creepy fake-a$$ clown fate out, these people downright disrespect me so bad, the last one was the nicest out of these a$$hole
goodbye 4chan, may see you shutdown, FOREVER.
edit: forgot that long post = lower quality, so here's a more clear veriosn: https://i.imgur.com/RpuCsHM.jpg
second edit: jesus, this shit ain't good, i took a look at it, and i don't like how i behave in 4chan, maybe that's the reason why they IP banned me, fucking bastards, full of racists and bigots anyway.
#4chan#thread#my works#i'm the worst#what have i done#why#i hate it#i'm not okay#pokemon#sun and moon#ballio#tw: 4chan#trigger warning#tw: cursing
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Creating An Innovating Environment My favorite study in leadership is and most assuredly will always be servant-leadership. Leaders who serve are are the most effective leaders. If you want good followers let others know you truly care for them. You cannot fake being a servant-leader; you must simply become one. Some have a difficult time understand this principle, because all they want others to do is to serve to meet their own leadership goals. These are the leaders that always like to take charge of others without input. I’ve heard it said, The best way to learn something new is to listen to your critics.When we are challenged, our first reaction is to shutdown, but servant-leaders listen to those around them. Listening is one of the most difficult tasks we can do. If we listen to others, we may find things about ourselves we never knew before. This helps us to learn more about our strengths and more importantly about our weaknesses. I have worked for people who only want to https://leadershipbulletin.com/creating-an-innovating-environment/?utm_source=tumblr&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=ReviveOldPost
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ohhhhh no why am i hearing about tumblr shutdown is this fake or real
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1155 31Aug23: Well, the inspection got moved another day due to the hurricane weather. This state always loses their mind when a hint of bad weather might come. I get being cautious... but this state is like wrapping your child in bubblewrap to go outside and play. Was there rain, yes, was there wind, yes, was their hurricane force wind and rain, no... no need to shutdown everything.
So inspection is now tomorrow morning 9am.
Something else is on my mind. I get there are alot of accounts on Tumblr and of course across all social media applications....but isn't it a bit annoying when some messages you randomly and it's usually a tell tale sign is a fake account which will lead you down some path away from.tumblr eventually? Not to sure about this account the messaged me but I figured I need a little change up. So I wrote short answers back. You can tell they don't read your post or anything because they ask questions which were actually answered in your post. They don't like your post and communication is up to a certain point. Just annoying to me, I'm sure for some of yall too!
But anyways, I was scrolling social media yesterday and someone posted an extreme macro shot of an ants head.... I think I have my beast starting to come alive now. Ok I need to get home and do last minute preps for the inspector tomorrow.
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2 more months until tumblr shuts down 😭
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Sorry to bother you, but...if you've heard the news, Yahoo is going to shut down Tumblr this year. Have any plans of where to go after?
I heard that wasn’t true. :/ All I could find on this topic is a fake news generator. Calm down, Tumblr isnt going anywhere. But I do wish their was a better site.
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i finally finished the show last night and i feel like i have more questions than ever, but chief among them is - so why was tommy having seizures then?! did you glean the answer to this? lmao dude i feel like they initially wrote a season that was much longer but then realized they had to edit out like 40% of it for time and cut out almost all the wrong parts. it’s wild.
I don't know how closely you've followed what's happened with the series, but in case you don't know anything, the circumstances changed a lot after the end of s5. They were about to start filming s6 with an expected s7 when COVID shut everything down in 2020. During shutdown Helen McCrory became too ill to work, so they had cut down plans for Aunt Polly's role in the new season. Eventually it was clear she was not going to be able to be in the season at all and was dying, so that was another adjustment. She ended up passing away while they were filming s6. At some point before filming began in 2021 it was announced that there would no longer be a s7, and s6 would be the last season with a film to follow. I don't think we've heard why that happened. So! That sense you have that the story didn't quite fit into s6 has a context, in that it definitely wasn't originally intended to end with s6.
After watching the season I am under the impression that the main plot was not significantly altered after all of this, just adjusted both for Aunt Polly's death and to attempt to tie it up a bit at the end. This is pure speculation of course, but I can definitely see how storylines were meant to continue into a s7 and I can even see where the original s6 may have ended, probably on a cliffhanger. I agree with you that a lot seemed to have been cut for time. Idk if I'd agree it was the wrong parts, but I'd have to hear more about what you think! I dearly wish the BBC had given them more than 6 episodes. I think both s5 and s6 would have benefitted from being 8 episode seasons.
As for the seizures, my guess is that they are meant to be psychogenic nonepileptic seizures. [I was going to link you to something here but tumblr's link function does not seem to be working for me at the moment! but google is always there lol]. I had suspected this was what was going on before the reveal of the 'tuberculoma' because I've read about the phenomenon in WW1 vets with shellshock, and the seizures on the show always seemed triggered by stress and accompanied by flashbacks to the war/hallucinations.
Other theories I've seen include that the doctor had been giving him some kind of medication that caused these, but I think the previous theory is more likely because of the context. In s5 they weren't shy about showing him taking laudanum fairly often but didn't show him taking any tablets in the first part of s6, and the fact that the way he spoke of the tablets he was taking to Lizzie seemed to indicate they hadn't been prescribed until after that tuberculoma diagnosis. Even so it is definitely a possibility. Given Tommy discovered the tumor was faked right at the end of the season, we weren't given an answer.
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Naka shutdown po lahat ng socmed ko except dito sa tumblr. Mas gusto ko dito mag pa ka sad girl kasi wala naman nakakakilala sakin dito. hayy putangina grabe na tong lungkot na to araw-araw nalang. Actually, I might consider closing all my account for good sobrang less toxic in life. Imagine, kada open ko ng IG puro magaganda lang nakikita ako bumababa lang self esteem ko dahil inggitera ako e (smirk) tas sa fb, panay fake news parang wala ng totoo, sa twitter naman di ko mapigilan hindi mag rant don e and I feel na ang daming judgmental dahil madrama akong tao. Kay dito ko nalang ibubuhos lahat. Isa pa, gusto ko talaga ng bagong tao sa buhay ko, kaya hello, let’s be friends!
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I posted 39 times in 2021
27 posts created (69%)
12 posts reblogged (31%)
For every post I created, I reblogged 0.4 posts.
I added 99 tags in 2021
#alex claremont diaz - 18 posts
#red white and royal blue - 18 posts
#rwrb - 15 posts
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#prince wilhelm - 5 posts
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#alex and henry - 3 posts
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#and i want to realize the someone has been in love with me for the whole time
My Top Posts in 2021
#5
Can we talk about clothing the choice in ep 6? Especially where they are in the changing room? Not only are they clouded in blue (sadness)
But blue and orange/yellow are complimentary colors (they look good together, work together well) it plays on the hope everything will be okay, that they will be able to be together
But
also everything is blue, the walls, the background, AND Wilhelm. It really makes Simon stand out. =Like how Wilhelm has the option to blend in, to deny, but Simon doesn’t. He stands out because he can’t deny anything.
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#4
Felice was a fucking queen. She deserves so much better than what she got.
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#3
Sometime during the election:
Ellen: *in the middle of a breakdown* have you ever been so stressed that you’re calm?
June: that is my constant mental state.
Nora: my chill is fake.
Alex: “how are you so calm?!” I’ve passed beyond stressed, beyond hysteria, into the gray misty indifference of complete shutdown of all but emergency services in my brain.
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Ellen: the game is 2 truths and one lie
Alex: okay my turn. Okay. Um, my eyes are blue, I am named after Alexander Hamilton, and I am sleeping with the prince of England.
Ellen: right idea honey, but you know it has to be a little more challenging for everybody-
Zahra: his eyes are brown.
Ellen, realizing: You’re doing what?!
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#1
Aaa yes. My new favorite niche trope:
Queer Blonde second born royal falls for queer bi-racial, Spanish-speaking, curly brunette boy who doesn’t treat him differently cause of his title.
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Creating An Innovating Environment My favorite study in leadership is and most assuredly will always be servant-leadership. Leaders who serve are are the most effective leaders. If you want good followers let others know you truly care for them. You cannot fake being a servant-leader; you must simply become one. Some have a difficult time understand this principle, because all they want others to do is to serve to meet their own leadership goals. These are the leaders that always like to take charge of others without input. I’ve heard it said, The best way to learn something new is to listen to your critics.When we are challenged, our first reaction is to shutdown, but servant-leaders listen to those around them. Listening is one of the most difficult tasks we can do. If we listen to others, we may find things about ourselves we never knew before. This helps us to learn more about our strengths and more importantly about our weaknesses. I have worked for people who only want to https://leadershipbulletin.com/creating-an-innovating-environment/?utm_source=tumblr&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=ReviveOldPost
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Why Wouldn’t I Be Okay?
This was inspired by a post I saw here on Tumblr that I would link if I could find it again but I can't. Anyway the post said something along the lines of 'imagine Bender recording Fry's voice to replay it to himself later. Now imagine him replaying it long after Fry had passed away'. It was supposed to have been a drabble but it ended up being 2k words long (my own fault for the choice of one of memories I decided to include) instead.
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“Wait, you’re the only friend I have.”
Bender paused, turning to look back at Fry. “You really want a robot for a friend?” There was no way that could be true because what human in their right mind wanted to be friends with a robot?
“Yeah, ever since I was six.” He looked and sounded completely honest. Bender would’ve suspected it was an attempt at a cruel trick if it wasn’t for the fact Fry had just got done mistaking a suicide booth for a place to make phone calls and not realized the mistake until it had almost killed him; no way someone that stupid could fake being genuine so well. Meaning not only did he want a robot as a friend, he’d already decided that the two of them were friends. … Bender had never had a friend before so…
“Well okay, But I don’t want people thinking we’re robo-sexuals so if anyone asks, you’re my debugger.” Why not give this whole friendship thing a go? If it didn’t work out or he got bored of it, the suicide booth would still be there.
Bender sighed as he stopped the recording. It was crazy how much his life had changed that day all thanks to his chance encounter with Fry and then on a whim deciding to agree with Fry’s decision that they were friends. It wasn’t often he cared to take time to appreciate that but today was certainly a good day for it. … It was a good day for a lot of things.
The heater elements made him run uncomfortably hot and slowed down his other systems a bit but it was nowhere near bad enough to risk damage or automatic shutdown. A little bit of discomfort was worth it because his plan had worked; Fry had cuddled up to him without argument, complaint, or even much hesitation.
Fry was soft and squishy pressed up against Bender’s side. With an arm wrapped so firmly around him, Bender could feel his breathing. It was slowing and evening out as the last of the tension melted from his body. A quick furtive glance revealed that his eyes were closed now too; he was sleeping or in the process of falling asleep. Which wasn’t surprising the cold that had settled in their apartment after Bender had gutted the space heater had woken him several hours earlier than normal, especially for their day off. But it was still nice to see he was comfortable enough with Bender to fall asleep so quickly while they were cuddling like this. If only this could be a regular thing. …
Oh fuck, Bender was hopelessly in love, wasn’t he? Though he probably should’ve realized that upon coming up with this plan and deciding to do it, huh? Not that it mattered how or why he realized because…
Bender pulled himself out the memory. Looking back on it now, he almost couldn’t believe how he’d been so thoroughly convinced that there was no hope of that love being reciprocated. Him and Fry were basically the perfect match.
“I like you for you,” Fry said looking directly at Bender. “You’re great and you’re my best friend. And I love spending time with you whether we’re off on a space adventure or just lazing around the apartment watching TV together. So, I’d like to be more than just friends if that’s what you want too. If not, that’s… okay too, I’d understand.”
Bender did want that even if he’d never dared to actually hope for it. Before he said ‘yes’ though… “Oh, hmmm… what else do you like about me?” There was no way he could ever pass up an opportunity to make Fry say more nice things about him.
“You’re always fun to talk to and you’ve got great ideas for ways to pass the time when we’re bored. And even though you steal my wallet all the time, you always give it back eventually. And you’re a robot and that’s still super cool even if I’m used to robots by now because you were the first one I met and I wasn’t lying when I said I’d always wanted a robot for a best friend. So really by being my pal, you’re fulfilling a lifelong dream of mine. I’ve never thought about dating one before now though, it just never occurred to me until after that uh… kiss experiment we did.”
“Go on.”
Fry gave him a slightly annoyed look that only increased Bender’s enjoyment of the moment. “You’re also very confident, especially in yourself. And you’re also super strong, you can bend metal like it’s made of paper which is super cool. And sometimes you use that strength to open jars for me and sometimes you don’t even make fun of me for not being able to open it myself. Also, even despite our occasional disagreements, we always make up eventually and then we’re friends again like nothing ever happened and… that’s really nice. So… will you go out with me?” He held a hand out towards Bender, offering it.
Ah shit, Bender couldn’t drag this out any longer, could he? He wasn’t programmed to be able to handle emotional situations, heck he wasn’t programmed to have emotions at all. How did he say ‘yes’ without coming off as awkward and desperate? Or without fucking up his chances some other way? ... He had to say or do something! …
“Well, if you’re going to butter me up that much, I suppose we can go on one date and see what happens.” He couldn’t help but look away as he put his hand in Fry’s. That hadn’t exactly come out how he would’ve…
Fry’s grip on Bender’s hand tighter as he yanked him closer. “Can I kiss you again? For real this time, not just as an experiment?” Their bodies were very close now, enough that he could’ve just done it without asking. He didn’t even need to as far was Bender was concerned.
“I just agreed to go on a date with you meatbag, what do you think?”
Fry didn’t do it though, nor did he say anything. He was far too cute and sweet for his own good. It was endearing though.
Bender sighed. “Yes moron, you can kiss me again.”
Finally Fry kissed him again. His lips were warm and soft, an odd sensation but a pleasant one. And just like last time it was over before Bender was really ready for it to be.
“Better than last time?” Fry asked, his face flushing a little.
“A little.” And the first one had already been pretty good, even if Bender would never admit to it.
If only Bender could actually relive any of these moments. The visuals and audio were crystal clear and his recall of his emotions and internal thoughts were also recorded perfectly but it was still just a memory that he was choosing to play the full recording of in his head. No matter how much he wished he could sink into them as if they were happening in real time, he couldn’t. With another useless sigh, he started playing the next one.
As casually as he physically could, Bender strode over to stand by Fry as he hosed down the ship.
Fry turned his head to look at him with a smile. “I didn’t think you’d show up again until after the ship was done being cleaned.”
Bender hadn’t known that that was happening otherwise he would’ve stayed hidden for a while longer. “Eh, it’s whatever, Leela’s not around to order me to help so I don’t have to. But uh… I have a gift for you.”
Fry gave him a skeptical look. “It’s not another thing you stole that you’re giving to me so I get in trouble instead of you, is it?”
“Nope and for once I actually mean that. I did steal it though. But it was a while ago, I doubt anyone cares anymore so you probably won’t get in trouble for having it.”
He didn’t look completely convinced but after a couple seconds hesitation, Fry shrugged as he placed the hose on the ground and turned to face Bender fully. “All right then, what is it?”
Already in his hand and hidden behind his back, Bender pulled out the ring box. With a practiced flick of his wrist, he flipped open the lid so that Fry could see the big fancy ring inside. “Will you marry me?”
His eyes widening, Fry gasped. “I uh… yes, yes of course!”
Bender had expected a ‘yes’ – why wouldn’t Fry want to marry him? – but the enthusiasm was appreciated. Being excited about it was maybe a bit silly but -
“You okay Bender?”
With a jolt, Bender stopped the recording and opened his eyes. Cubert and Dwight hovered in front of him with worried expressions. Which just wasn’t right because they looked like their fathers now – especially Cubert because he was clone – neither of whom had ever been concerned about Bender, or at least not enough to look at him like that. How their sons had grown up to be such softies was a mystery, an annoying one.
“Yeah. Why wouldn’t I be okay?” Bender didn’t bother getting up from the couch in hopes that they’d leave soon.
“Well,” Cubert said, “You stayed overnight at work again. That’s not something people who are okay typically do.”
“Or maybe I just arrived before you did.” Bender had meant to leave the breakroom and head to probably the basement instead before they’d arrived but they’d just had to come in an hour early.
Dwight sighed and shook his head. “Also, according to my records it’s the one-year anniversary of… well… uh… you know. So it makes sense that you’re not okay, especially today.”
The one-year anniversary of Fry’s death. By some miracle he’d been the last to go, outliving even Leela by almost two whole years. It had been inevitable though, even modern science could only keep him alive for so long. And thus Bender had known it was coming from the very start and had seen all their friends die one by one… he’d never been ready to face it though, still wasn’t.
Despite that, he scoffed and rolled his eyes. “It’s been a year, I’m over it. Meatbags die, it’s one of the things they’re most known for. So I’m over all their deaths, including and especially his.”
Neither of them believed him. In fact, they looked at him with even more sadness and worry than before as if he were some poor lonely sap to be pitied. “It’s okay to grieve,” Cubert said. “You don’t have to be ashamed of it, we miss him and everyone else too. And we know how much you two loved each other.”
Dwight looked like he was going to say something in agreement but before he could get a single annoying word out, Bender stood up. “I have work to do.” He went past them and left the room, heading for the ship hanger.
Only one of the two company ships were in. The other was due to return sometime today and when it did, the team crewing it would probably have something for him to do. If not and probably if so as well, he’d be sure to be part of the crew going on the next mission because he needed the distraction. Hopefully it’d be a long one too so he’d have an excuse to continue to not return to his empty apartment.
Ugh, he was actually looking to do work for once and hoping it’d take a long time. That’s how far he’d fallen this past year. … He could delete his memories of Fry and all his friends – he even missed Zoidberg and Scruffy, something he never would’ve predicted. It’d hurt so much less if he did. With help he could even delete them so thoroughly that he wouldn’t even know anything had been deleted.
But… meeting and befriending Fry had irrevocably changed his life. Those memories not only included his happiest, they were also the majority of his life at this point. What would he be like if he did delete them? … Impossible to say and… he wasn’t sure he wanted to know. So… for now, he’d continue to live with them and continue to hope that maybe one day they’d hurt less.
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