#feel free to continue or add on lollll

[bitwynn]

weird kind-of-kind-of-not sagau fic idea that i might make myself LOL

isekaied reader/guide introduces them to Among Us. Specifically to the Mondstat Vision Holders. Everyone goes fUCKING FERAL for the duration of the game-- maybe even AFTER the game AHAHAHA

and like-- god im just imagining this specific scenario where you recreate the amongus maps in ur teapot so you guys could play irl and albedo or tubby develops a teapot leisure device specifically for it so you guys could ACTUALLY FOR REAL PLAY AMONG US IRL IN THE TEAPOT

everyones wearing the suits and they got the tablets with the report button and emergency meeting buttons and everything, and albedo figures out how to stream it to the rest of Teyvat-- with everyones different povs and things and everyones just rooting for everyone and ISERHLgFSLERHJkG

okay wow-- i got sO OFF WHAT I ORIGINALLY WANTED TO SAY AHAHAH but hey at least i set some ground rules first AHAHA

but yeah. so, imagine this--

this game of among us is composed of the knights and also Venti. So thats Diluc, Kaeya, Jean, Amber, Lisa, Albedo, Sucrose, Eula, Noelle, and of course Venti. The map here in this scenario is irrelevant but, I do have to say that the "additional roles" of Scientist, Engineer, Shapeshifter, and Guardian Angel have also been added and are all implemented into this game.

the first round? rotation? whatever you call it is actually pretty eventful with Albedo, Noelle and Venti already dead. Its actually really alarming since even if its just a game, Albedo actually takes this game REALLY SERIOUSLY and shows off his skill as the captain of the investigation team. hes the actually legit detective player-- one of his greatest plays actually being how he immediately figured out who the imps are bEFORE the game even started and bEFORE ANYONE DIED. The imps that game were very annoyed (playful) to say the least.

Noelle getting got is also like-- really serious since, as everyone knows, shes very helpful. a little too helpful. when she fully trusts someone, she will do everything she can to keep them alive and safe. and if that someone is sus abt someone, she is determined to help them figure out whether or not that person is an impostor or not. ultimate crewmate basically. one of her more "scary" plays is when she unwittingly became third impostor and LITERALLY BROUGHT EVERYONE TO THEIR DEATHS. THATS HOW HELPFUL SHE IS. god she felt SO BAD afterwards but it was a good name nonetheless.

The imps killing Venti off early meant that they werent playing around anymore, because that man has the GREATEST SOUL READ OUT OF EVERYONE. helps that hes also god but we dont talk abt that and also he cant use his archon powers to cheat LOLLL. One of his most memorable moments is how before they even started the game, he cORRECTLY PREDICTED WHO THE IMPS WOULD BE THAT ROUND. when the imps received their roles, they were definitely a bit more than shocked. in that same game, he just voted the two imps to break the tie for shit and giggles. and thats how they won the game. crack energy was strong in that one LOL.

The fear and distrust is rampant the whole discussion time, with Amber and Sucrose lowkey and highkey respectively panicking, Eula making hasty assumptions, Lisa challenging those assumptions, Diluc and Kaeya at each others throats, and Jean trying and failing to get things under control. They did nOT get anywhere during that and all begrudgingly voted to skip despite being at everyones throats. everyones suspecting everyone and the only people there who are FOR SURE innocents are Amber or Sucrose.

this is because, while they both may be lousy at being imps, they still act mostly the same both as imps and crews-- aka trying their best to be helpful and win. they're both usually kinda bad at lying. not that theyre bad, its just that theyre not good and you can usually tell if theyre truthing or not by the amount of information they provide and how eager and confident they are abt it. using that knowledge, they all simultaneously agree to shadow those two everywhere since they can tell that yes, they are crewmates, yes amber did watch sucrose fumble the id card 15 times because she keeps dropping it or doing it too fast or slow, yes sucrose did the vials first before walking around the map a bit to find her next task.

so thats what happens-- they split up into group amber and sucrose and go on opposite sides of the map. and then the sabotage happens. the lights die. the amber group, consisting of, of course, amber, jean and diluc, is closer and they rush to lights where team sucrose hadnt reached yet. they all pile up into a group and pull up the lights interface. and as they set it down, theyre immediately greeted by eula reporting a dead body and amber screaming.

after jean manages to get everyone down to a respectable volume, she asks for everyone to give their testimony since she had the interface up. amber nervously says that since there were so many people at lights already, she decided to not fix it but instead watch out for any impostors that might make a move. but when she saw the blood splatter, she couldnt see who did it clearly since they were at the edge of her visibility which is when she immediately rushed forward and spammed the report button.

eula backs her up and them immediately accuses lisa of killing sucrose, off the bar that the second the lights went off she had lagged behind. lisa is greatly offended, talking about how shes targeting her since the first round with no solid basis and eula strikes back with her saying something that lisa did in the first round that made her look sus. and then diluc and kaeya start rilling it up by backing the side that they were with the most, diluc backing lisa and kaeya backing eula even if they only saw the other in passing. it gets real petty REAL fast. literally the only reason diluc is backing lisa is because while jean is trying her best to be fair, she obviously favors lisa a bit more while kaeya siding with eula is more reasonable because they actually spent time together.

it ends with amber tying the votes since despite trusting jeans judgement, all eula had done was back her up and let her voice be heard in the two times theyve had discussions and proven herself to be innocent-- lisa got voted out by kaeya and eula and amber, and eula got voted out by jean and diluc and lisa. the second their screens fade back to the table they all realize that theres gonna be no rounds left since they havent figured out who one of the imps are and theres only six of them left. all it takes is for them to kill two and its over.

they all decide to separate and spread themselves as far as they can throughout the ship to get their tasks done as fast as they can. and as amber and jean start to walk out of medbay and are greeted by kaeya and diluc suddenly appearing in the back of the room, they know that the brothers have won.

everyone is screaming when the impostor win screen pops up, featuring diluc and kaeyas beans. literally NOONE expected them to win, considering the fact that they have been at each others throats the whole time both ingame and irl. fucking NOONE expected them to just-- quietly team up to MASSACRE the entire ship. because really-- who WOULD expect it??

their entire among us game history is just them bickering with each other, it gets like-- really kind of emotional and concerning sometimes-- theyve gotten banned from playing multiple times since the whole "being an impostor" thing has very similar connotations with being a spy from another country and we aLL KNOW HOW THAT WENTTTT

the synergy between the two-- ugh--

eula is just mad she accidentally became the third impostor. AGAIN.

oh yeah, kaeya was the shapeshifter. the first kill in the first round was a double kill with venti and noelle. diluc vented out of the scene but popped up in a room where albedo was but his cooldown was still going so he just did his best to try and herd him away from the button and hope that he runs into kaeya. and fortunately kaeya does run into them, and a bit of hope blooms in albedos heart which was then promptly crushed by kaeya murdering his ass. he then watches as he turns into venti and they both leave the scene. from the second he knew they were working together, he knew they were screwed. but he does respect using the quiet expectation that they would never get along to their advantage.

the bickering did have some actual heat behind it though since diluc obviously almost fucked them in the ass when he vented infront of bedo AHAHA

#foejihurlksjdfnkjighjsfd just ragbros wORKING TOGETHER IAEOUHSDJFKEHJSDF #genshin #genshin impact #genshin impact au #genshin impact sagau #genshin sagau #genshin impact self aware #genshin self aware #sagau #diluc #diluc ragnvindr #kaeya #kaeya alberich #among us #feel free to continue or add on lollll #but if u do pls credit AHAH

[surrealsunday]

1/5 Oh my God, I finally got to sit down and read the first chapter and- wow, I’m absolutely in LOVE. I mean, I saw it coming, my favourite trope and my favourite author, it was kind of inevitable😌 I was like 3 minutes in when I realized “Oh fuck, shit’s gonna hurt.” What are you doing to me?? Making me wish Lucas actually goes and hooks up with somebody who’s not Eliott??? Making me not hate the idea of Lucas with Chris (bless you for choosing the most attractive OG character)???

2/5 But at the same time not wanting it at all because clearly there’s more to Eliott that Lucas doesn’t see? One second I’m mad at Eliott for how possessive he is but at the same time I absolutely get it because it’s Lucas. We all wanna protect Lucas. And who would want to share him, right? Ughhh. What am I supposed to do with all these mixed feelings??

3/5 Also not me hoping they would at least like cuddle from time to time... And then Eliott goes and attacks Lucas’ neck like that, right in the first chapter too??? My reaction was literally this: https://c.tenor.com/ex3E3z-r4WUAAAAC/take-a-look-say-what.gif I was SHOOK. Just bro things. Literally, according to Eliott. “Fuck off Eliott” was literally what I said after reading the brothers line, it’s like Lucas and I became one😂

4/5 I’m scared of the other chapters because if the first one was like this, the next ones are probably gonna hurt like a bitch. And yet here I am asking you to go ahead and wreck me because I can’t wait to read more. I’m very curious what the kiss they shared was about that Lucas believes Eliott barely remembers it. (I bet Eliott’s secretly cherishing said memory, ‘cause really, how could he forget kissing Lucas.) And I’m also curious about the time period in which it happened.

5/5 Gotta add that the childhood scenes are adorable, I loved the parallel of Eliott seeing Lucas first while Lucas wasn’t aware. And overall I couldn’t help but smile and laugh (the humour is brilliant) through the entire thing so yet again thank you😌 This feels way too long for a tumblr ask, I should probably comment on AO3 instead but I just wanted to let you know that I’m in love and that Punzel Elu already live in my head rent free😌

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Ahhhhh no apologies for long asks. I love!!! It's so great to hear your thoughts.

I am adfakjsdfkajs over everyone's first reaction being 'oh no, it's gonna hurt'. Lollll. I mean... you're not wrong. But I think there is a fair bit of fun, sweetness, and heat in there for all of you too.

And yes, I have some fun with Chris in this one hehe. I mean... he's an all-time babe and also an unapologetic hoe so... how can I not love him and give him his due? Plus... a hot babe like him appreciating Lucas? Much fun to be had there.

You'll get cuddly best friends too. These two don't have a whole lot of boundaries which leads to both sweet things (cuddles) and less appropriate things (hickies... ELIOTT).

I had sooooo much fun with the flashback scenes. They weren't supposed to become a parallel story but then they took on a life of their own and I had no control. I think you guys will enjoy though. I really love the ones you get in chapter 2.

Thank you again for this comment. I hope you continue to love the ride!

#Punzel chapter 1 #Punzel fic

[lululawrence]

Hello, I don't know if this will be a weird question but do you ever get paranoid wondering whether your kids will end up reading what you have written or the content that you post? Particularly nsfw sometimes? I always fear that my daughter will find content that I create and idk I get worked up over that. 😕

Oh I mean I don’t… yet. Lol but my daughter is 9 and so far we have her online experiences restricted to gaming and Facebook messenger kids. Haha my son is 6 and has no interest past occasionally gaming with my husband and daughter and playing his iPad games or watching YouTube compilations of silly cat videos lol that said when my daughter is older? Uh yeah maybe. Lollll I know there are some in the fandom who have older children with certain fears regarding this! Or no fears in the case of @laynefaire who has her kids sometimes read parts of her fics to give feedback. Layne in so many ways is one of my parenting heroes lol

I’ll pass this on to a few group chats and see if they have anything they’d like to add regarding how they handle that fear, because yeah you absolutely are NOT alone. I will also just add that this isn’t a weird question. This is a valid fear and wanting to know you aren’t alone is totally human and fair! So please don’t self conscious for worrying about this or sending the ask.

One last thing, because now that you’ve asked you’ve got me thinking about it a bit more lol I’m a very take things one day at a time and deal with the issues I’m presented when they come rather than worrying about them ahead of time kind of a parent, but this has a downfall in that while I think of some things to prepare for I defo don’t think of everything and with my daughter being 9 and going into 4th grade this specific issue you’ve raised is something to think about and prepare for now. I’ve always been someone who has a pretty firm handle on what internet and technology usage I’m good with my kids having and how I’d like to slowly open it up to them. I don’t want them to be completely dictated by me, of course, or they would never learn how to take care of themselves in those spaces, but I always have conversations with my daughter about why I’ll allow some things and not others. Why I’m okay with chatting on some games but refuse to activate the chat function on others. A lot of talk with my husband about when I would be okay with them having their own devices beyond a shared family laptop, a hand me down phone that doesn’t have a phone number attached to it or data capabilities, and their school iPads. When I would be okay with them having social media and what kinds. Along with that comes the idea of fandom.

My daughter is a lot like me in that she is incredibly invested in her interests and has been writing self insert fan fiction and making accompanying art from the time she was in kindergarten. Fandom is in this girl’s entire being and I love that for her. I’m going to be super excited to watch her journey into those spaces and find others just as passionate as she is. That’s also going to entail a lot of discussions with her though. Discussions about ways to keep herself safe. About the kind of content that is appropriate for her at her age and what isn’t. Ways she can recognize that certain content is not something she should be taking part in until she’s older.

Does this mean she’ll listen and follow all the guidance I give? No. But also I know my daughter and she does want to be good and make good choices. I trust her in this and by helping her learn how to set and hold to her own boundaries, I do think I can help her navigate those spaces as best I can. If it were my son? Lmaoooo I’d have to approach it very differently because he has a wild streak in him. He wants to push each and every boundary. I love him but ohhhhh he’s gonna be pushing my limits even further every day as he gets older, I just know it. I feel like he would be the one more likely to find my fic than my daughter. But also, at least as of now, he doesn’t want to read fiction. He is much more drawn to nonfiction, so if that continues I can breathe easier hahaha plus, my daughter knows I write one direction fan fiction. My husband proudly tells her this to help motivate her to keep writing when she’s complaining about how hard it is. She has never been interested in the boys enough to ask to read my fic though, which is good. Haha I do think that should she become interested enough in that, she’ll just ask if she can read them, at which point we will have yet another conversation hahaha

Sorry, this got long because I was literally thinking up scenarios as I answered you.

TLDR, I’m not THAT worried. Yet. If I get to a point where I am concerned, I’ll probably lock my fics to users only like I do with the ones that contain smut and then figure out what I’m most afraid of regarding them finding my writing and go from there.

I have NO idea if this answer is in any way helpful for you haha it’s pretty specific for my own situation, but I hope in some way it is. I also hope those who are already dealing with these kinds of fears will feel free to reblog with their own thoughts and tips or reply to the post! We are a community of writers and artists so let’s take advantage of that and see if we can learn from our similar shared experiences as well ☺️☺️

#mine #asks #anonymous #personal

[glassworkspiderlilies]

giyushino week wrap up!

aaaaand that’s a wrap!! thank you to the moderators of giyushinoweek, and to everyone who liked/reblogged/commented on/sent me asks about my fics!!

it was a wild ride to write 8 fics in basically a week or so; i keep saying the fics were hastily or frantically written but LMAO considering how little fic i put out nowadays and how long it usually takes me to write because i edit as i go (which means i take f o r e v e r ), i was seriously just screaming like I JUST GOTTA DO IT I JUST GOTTA GO WITH IT I DON’T HAVE TIME the entire time haha. it was really good to be able to just think of a thing and run as far as i could with it, though!! it’s been quite a long time since i was able to do that, and it was really nice to have a project to work on in the back of my head. <3

ideally, if i work myself up to it, i’d like to revisit all of these and spruce them up to post to ao3, but we’ll see. :’) 

under the cut is just some thoughts on my process during this and also writing each of the fics, if you’re interested! favorite prompt, the most difficult parts to write, what the fic was originally was, things like that. 

thank you again, everyone!! back to hibernation and occasional slow snail pace writing i go, haha.

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re: writing process -i tried writing a fic per day during the week before the actual event, which...kind of worked!! ideally, i was going to write a mostly complete fic each day, and then spend the week of the event editing each one before i posted it. what really ended up happening was that i partially wrote several, but not all of them, during the previous week, and then spent the week of finishing up, editing, or writing the whole thing more or less the day before the prompt was “due”, LMFAO. my weekday schedule is pretty structured because of work--I have maybe an hour or two of free time before i have to sleep--so i doubled down a bit more on the weekends. i know like it wasn’t imperative that i meet the “deadline”, but i really, really wanted to!! i figured i’ve written a fic per day for fandom weeks before so why can’t i do it again, but BOY i don’t know who i was back then. i mean, i still did it (yay!) but it seemed so much easier then?? either i was just writing more back then or less afraid or...something, or it’s just been so long that i don’t remember what i felt, LOL.

-i was really quite nervous in the beginning to post the fics, since again, they’re pretty hastily written and my usual writing process is much more “careful” and drawn out. but, it was also freeing as the week went on to just post and not worry, because the point of the week was to have fun, and not necessarily to write the best work i expected of myself within a limited time. (oh, how the perfectionist in me still hisses, though.) still, i’m glad people liked them, and even the extra notes that i just kinda spit out for some of them. :’) i do wish that some had gotten more attention than others, but those ones don’t show up in the tags and i’m not sure why, so. alas. 

re: the fics -confession: as of now, i feel pretty neutral about all of them, since i wrote them in a frenzy. at some point i’ll probably go back and read them and feel differently (and catch my mistakes! oh no!), haha. -a lot of them ended up being AU, which is...??? unexpected?? but i think it was just easier to put them in an entirely different setting, so i could play a bit more loose with their characters, haha. 

day 1 - glance (or hug) -this one...im pretty sure was one of the ones i waited until the last possible minute to finish up. it’s pretty basic event-wise, one of the few more regular slice-of-lifey ones for the week. it was surprisingly hard to get down the “movement” of it all; a glance is hard to describe in detail and in any other way, but i had really wanted to create kind of this...fleeting, almost nostalgic atmosphere in the back and forth of “he keeps looking, she keeps missing”, if that makes any sense. oof, it’s still hard to describe what i had wanted to achieve even outside of the fic!!

day 2 - soulmate (or family) -this one was SUPER HARD to write!!! originally i had wanted to go with a “A sees flashes of what B sees” soulmate prompt, because i figured that would be SO disorienting and would be fun to play with. but i ended up not being able to run with that one. i had also wanted to do the “soulmates write on themselves and the words show up on the other’s arm” idea, based off of what i had started in a 100 word drabble i did, but that deserved wayyyyyy more exploration and angst i was able to write in the time i’d allotted. i do like the “tattoo” soulmate aus the best, i think, and i did want to explore the one i did more, buuuut. alas. soulmates aus are something i prefer to read rather than write, i think, they can get so complicated!! 

day 3 - AU (or touch) -i’ve already made enough notes on this haha, but this ended up being a little too ambitious!! it wasn’t originally supposed to stop where it did, but i just...kinda got stuck and couldn’t bring myself to continue it, because i knew it would just keep going and needed more thinking out. so i just stopped it at the scene break, and hoped it would be decent enough. :’) surprisingly people seemed to enjoy this one most of all????? or maybe it was just the au itself that was a appealing, haha. regardless, i was surprised at the amount of notes this got!

day 4 - demon & wedding -soooooo this might’ve been my favorite prompt LMAO, like when i realized what i wanted to do for this day, i got excited because like, oooh yeah, pain. definitely wanted to go in on this to flesh out and explore various aspects more than i did, but i think of all the ones i wrote, i might be the most pleased with this one so far. 

day 5 - moon (or angst) -honestly, it’s a surprise i didn’t choose angst for day 5. writing about shinobu’s death would’ve been so easy, but i’ve seriously been putting it off since i started writing for kimetsu no yaiba. both “a blade of honey” and “if not cut at dusk”, which are my longer fics, were intended to be about shinobu’s death scene and turned into something completely different, and i ended up avoiding it for day 5 even though it could’ve been so easy. it’s denial, probably! anyway, shinobu’s MAD BOLD here. she would never. maybe. there’s two shinobus that i think about--the "usual” one, modeling herself after kanae, and one who’s more in line with her younger self/inner feelings. i think i went with the latter for a lot of these fics, because i didn’t have to be as careful with dialogue. giyu might’ve suffered character-wise, though, woops. but again, maybe shinobu would, in the vein that she wants to win and have the last laugh, haha. still, i feel more like she wouldn’t. :P oh, also, do you remember ages ago, when AMVs were still widespread, that scene that was everywhere in naruto where hinata’s bathing/training at the waterfall and it’s like really pretty and cool and stuff? yeah. that’s what i wanted this one to be, a little, LMFAO. genuinely surprised that people thought this one was pretty spicy!!

day 6 - kiss (or ocean) -confession: i wrote all of this while i was at work LOLLLL. it was a slow day, i promise. this might’ve been the easiest one to come up with, because the “quick, kiss me!” to escape situation is a classic. the characterization is preeeetttyyyyy loose here, but it was also kind of fun, honestly. my day 5 and day 6 run in pretty similar veins though, so i had kind of wished the endings were a bit more distinct from each other. 

day 7 - date (or crossover) -honestly i had wanted to do like, a soul eater crossover!! really i was planning out an au, but i think a crossover specifically has characters of two series interacting, and then i was Tired and was like, i can’t do that. crossovers aren’t something i usually read, either, so the planning got too complicated and i gave  up. the date idea was also one that came much later and one that i finished up last minute; i’d wanted to make it a little more cohesive and come up with better things for sabito’s list, but. eh. it got longer than i expected too! ideally there would’ve been more of the college life, and sabito and makomo. i thought about doing another additional notes for this, but there was wasn’t enough i had wanted to add on. really it was just the majors for them i’d been playing with--shinobu as a med student (possibly a minor in horticulture/botany, SOMEHOW), sabito & giyu as hydraulic engineering majors (sabito more on fieldwork, giyu more on research), and makomo as a marine veterinary student. shrug!! the lines of “you do realize we were set up, right” and “this was a date, tomioka-san” were the highlight for me, haha. and i’m inordinately fond of the title.

day 8 - halloween (or n*sfw) -sexy stuff isn’t my forte at all!!!! so halloween it was, but. i was thinking of skipping out on this one, and then was like, oh what the hell, you’ve come this far, of course you’re going to go the last leg, too. already wrote enough notes on this one too, but yeah, this one really was quick, and just barely meets the prompt, i think, lmao. ended up being more of a fantasy au, which was fun, though there was a lot left unexplored. ultimately just glad that i was able to come up with something for the last stretch. :)

please feel free to drop me an ask if you have any thoughts or comments! i’d love to hear your thoughts on the fics for the week, if you’d like to share. :) 

thanks for reading!!

#author's notes #giyushinoweek #thank you!! #spitting out more notes without proofreading ayyyy

[nekoriri]

This is the English translation of the Chinese Novel Title: 最爱你的那十年 / Zuì ài nǐ dì nà shí nián / The 10 Years Where I Loved you the Most Author: 无仪宁死

This is the English translation of the Chinese Novel Title: 最爱你的那十年 / Zuì ài nǐ dì nà shí nián / The 10 Years Where I Loved you the Most

Author: 无仪宁死

< TN/ >This is going to be the last chapter we will post cause we lack funds doing this and lack man power feel free to adopt the series if you are able to but please do not repost our works without our permission PS RE TRANSLATION IS OK GO JUST CREDIT US W ARE SO FINE WITH IT XD IM ALWAYS ON TWITTER SO IF YOU NEED TO CONTACT ME JUST GO THERE LOL @JulieNightray 

this chapter is brought to you by Keiko  <3 my goddess friend <3 thanks keikei this is a free translation by my awesome friend. We do not make money out of this translation the copyright for this novel belongs to the writer and we are just translating them for fellow fans if you do have the capability please do support the author and try to translate it if you are able to Thank you!.JUST SO YOU KNOW MY FRIENDS WHO HELPS WITH TRANSLATION ARE NONE BL FAN so in a way I am tainting their innocence /o/ --- The 10 years I loved you the most

Summary:Usually people that yell that they'll leave, they end up being the ones to pick up the broken pieces. When the time comes to truly leave, they only pick the nicest day with beautiful weather, wearing their most frequently worn clothes, open the door and leave, never coming back. To Jiang Wenxu (蒋文旭), He Zhishu (贺知书) is [his] air and water. When he can spend willfully, he doesn't think it's a pity. But if one day he loses it, it'll be too late to regret it. "Where you are, is a thought I can't stop thinking about til the end of earth" ------------------------------------------

Chapter 3 Just like a thorn in the bone, mercilessly drinking the blood and nibbling the flesh, when a heart really hurts, that kind of pain can really kill people. He Zhishu can endure a lot, but every time his heart hurts, he can’t help but hurt himself more.

He Zhishu carried the plant upstairs, his forehead covered in cold sweats. He leaned on the wall to catch his breath, feeling dizzy with a headache. He Zhishu’s medicine was poured into different styles of glass-made bottle charms. At a simple glance, no one would imagine such a terrible illness. He liked such exquisite bottles since his school days, collecting a lot of them over the years. Now, all these bottles were used to contain his medicine. He was too lazy to boil water, so he just drank the medicine with cold water. Once he laid in bed, he could hear his stomach churning like waves in a storm. He Zhushu rolled to the side and curled up into a circle, his chin almost touching his knees.

This has been the longest time since Jiang Wenxu didn’t care to come home. 19 days. It’s only been 19 days, and He Zhishu has no idea how he has managed to survive this long. He thought back to the day he had his bone marrow aspiration, waiting by himself for the lab report, listening to other patients’ uncontrollable sobbing sounds. He sat there calmly in silence and thought to himself, “After all this, can I still stand? I still want to go home, but I’m afraid I can’t do so.” He Zhishu’s headache really can’t be helped. His hand curled up, like how a drowning person desperately grabbing at an out of reach driftwood would. He got out of bed frowning, opened the desk drawer in the small bedroom with a key, and carefully took out a book from inside.

The book was Jian Zhen’s Prose, which looked a few years old. He Zhishu hugged the book and tucked himself into the sofa, lightly flipping open the first page, the tiredness in his eyes slowly fading away, replaced with a gentle smiling expression.

The white pages from back then have now turned yellow, but the cool and arrogant penmanship can withstand time. Jiang Wenxu’s penmanship was beautiful, and meticulously transcripted Jian Zhen’s words— "Where you are, is a thought I can't stop thinking about til the end of earth" 14 years ago, a boy with an air of arrogance stopped He Zhishu. The boy’s face reddened, stuffed a book in his hands and coolly said, “Heard from others that you liked Jian Zhen, so I bought you her book. Hope you like the book and conveniently… Like me too!”

Biting his lips tightly, He Zhishu hugged the book. He weakly sat on the sofa, his eyes misted up, holding a sense of heaviness. There were no tears, the heart is already broken. Jiang Wenxu came home in the evening, the sound of the key turning at the door was clear.

That moment, He Zhishu was immediately awake, and slowly sat up. No lights were turned on in the house. Jiang Wenxu thought that He Zhishu was asleep in his bedroom at first, so he didn’t think that once he turned on the light, He Zhushu would be staring at him, with a face white as ghost at that. Jiang Wenxu jumped in shock, “Not turning on the light so late in the evening and scaring people here?!” he offhandedly reprimanded.

Jiang Wenxu looked at He Zhishu and couldn’t help but feel agitated on the inside, along with a strange and complicated feeling which he couldn’t make sense of. These days, he’s been getting along with a boy from the Fine Arts Academy. It wasn’t until he got a call from He Zhishu last night that he somehow felt guilty, always remembering the sad times. Thinking about it, he realized he hasn’t come home in a long while.

“I fell asleep and just woke up, so I couldn’t turn on the lights in time. You’re not busy at work?” He Zhishu asked without a hint of annoyance, and set the book on the coffee table. Jiang Wenxu, without looking at the book, threw his coat on the sofa, and loosened his tie. Lying with a straight face, he said, “Even if I’m busy I still need time to come home.” “Did you get thinner?” Jiang Wenxu stared at He Zhishu, his brows furrowed. “How old are you already, yet still unable to take care of yourself. Do you not mind looking into the mirror and losing your appetite?”

He Zhishu’s heart felt like it was stabbed hard, delicate and in pain. In fact, to Jiang Wenxu, his wan and emaciated look was not worth mentioning, right? However, losing appetite is true. How can this appearance compete with the prosperous wildflowers outside?

He Zhishu laughed, how could he not want to take care of himself. But life never gave him a choice. Now, Jiang Wenxu only had that one thing to say. What, did He Zhishu have to apologise for his paleness? A stall owner sees him and already heartbreakingly asks, “Child, did you get thin from working too hard?” A doctor that has seen life and death also encouraged him not to give up life. Yet, this man that has been with him for over a decade did not give a care.

He Zhishu knew what kind of person Jiang Wenxu was. He would not spend his attentiveness and tenderness on things that do not interest him. That’s why, the thoughtfulness that once came from him, through time, has now eroded into disdain. And He Zhishu can do nothing about it. ---------------------------------------------------------------- <TN/>Keiko : just wanted to say (don't need to add this in), the author whoever it is, he's not really a good writer, his descriptive writing really bothers me, there were so many instances where he didn't need to add in a description but did (such as how the hands curled up like a guy drowning and not able to get the log???)it's like he was trying to make it to a word count in a school assignment 😑 lollll

Me: hahahahahaha i know the feels XD

 Anyways this is the end for our journey with this series if you want to continue this feel free just don't re post our translations I am more than willing to help with funding new translators for this I am just one DM away.

#最爱你的那十年 #the10yearswhereilovedyouthemost #zuì ài nǐ dì nà shí nián #chinesetoenglishtranslation #chinesenovel #无仪宁

[cowplant-pizza]

how i edit my photos!!

ok so, i know this is maybe not the exact tutorial people were looking for, as i literally just changed my editing style and it might not be up to peoples tastes as much as my old editing styles. to add to that, i do plan on making lil tutorials for how i edited in the past. that is, if i remember what i used lmao.

so erm yea. this is gonna be tagged as #tutorial and #how i edit. it’ll also be linked on my blog in my resources/faq so im really gonna throw my shit @ the screen if i get anymore asks about it lollll but ye, here goes! 

note: everything that needs downloading is highlighted in bold + italic 

a) u wanna start off with a nice pose or camera position!! a lot of editing is through where your focus is in the picture, and how it’s positioned. messing with different angles in your editing can make for more interesting posts!! 

b) so here we are, all gross and without reshade. lets fix that:

yay! he’s already looking better right?? i use this reshade for my pictures right now! thanks to @fuchsiateasims for this beautiful preset honestly u r a god

c) so, from here, we use @ratboysims smart sharpen preset! you can create this preset by going to Filter > Sharpen > Smart Sharpen. here’s what it should look like

d) after this, you can, if u want to ofc, edit the curves by going to Adjustments > Curves. this is the easiest way to help brighten your image without whitewashing ur simmies!! imo, this pic didn’t need that soooo i didn’t bother

e) next i use this vintage-y preset by @wooldawn!! in this massive set of actions u’ll also find loads of sexy af presets that add mood to ur pics. tbh its a must have, no excuses 

(sorry 4 the bad previews, burn me at the stake ;w;) ta daaaa. now it’s looking a lot more colourful!! yay!!

f) next i use the au’natural preset that tbh i live by??? its just the best thing out there. it’s by the amazing @complicite

adds a lil bit of colour and brightness while also making the shadows POP (wig)

g) now, if ur feeling like u wanna add a lil extra something to ur pics, i add another layer and choose a colour like this:

h) and then continue to paint over areas of the picture that would naturally have extra light. we’re basically making our own light leak rn, wow!! (if you want ur picture to look earlier in the morning, try a lighter orange. if u want it to look like its during the day, try a whiter colour!)

i) after i think i’m done (also, heads up, my brush normally doesnt lay on this  thick?? so idk, just roll with it. urs might, urs might not. who knows), i double click the layer ive painted onto and choose these options!

j) so as u can see, i change the Blend Mode from Normal to either Overlay or Screen. its totally up to you for which one looks better! in this one, i choose screen because the colour was painted on thicker, but in my previous posts, i used overlay to conserve the colour more... confusing ;o; if i use Screen, i set the Opacity to between 10 - 50%. whatever looks good tbh!!

k) and here is what we’re left with!! the only extra editing i did was to use the “A Bit More Brightness??” bit from my own action that u can find here!

i errr hope this helped u guys that are curious about how i edit!! its just mostly staying within my comfort zone using the same skills but also just going with what looks good yano??? feel free to message me if you have any trouble!!

#tutorial #how i edit #faq #edit #my sims #my edits

[diarrheaworldstarhiphop]

i found a bunch of old news tabs i had saved on my browser lollll

* Rebels feel U.S. Mideast policy let Syrians down

* Concerned about Trump open-mindedness towards Russia

* Damascus eyes possible U.S. policy shift towards Assad (Adds HNC comment)

By Tom Perry and Lisa Barrington

BEIRUT, Nov 9 (Reuters) - Donald Trump's election as U.S. president on Wednesday aroused concern among Syrian rebels and a degree of optimism in Damascus, where his victory was seen as a better outcome than a Hillary Clinton win.

Syrian rebels have long been fiercely critical of what they perceive as the Barack Obama administration's inadequate backing for their fight against President Bashar al-Assad, though Washington has been an important sponsor of the uprising.

While some in the Syrian opposition said Trump had yet to articulate a clear Syria policy, his statements, and his more open-minded stance towards Assad's ally Russia, have fuelled rebel concern about the stance he may adopt on the war, in which Russia's air force has been bombing insurgents.

"I think things will become difficult because of Trump's statements and his relationship with Putin and Russia. I imagine this is not good for the Syrian issue," Zakaria Malahifji, head of the political office of an Aleppo-based rebel group, told Reuters.

Trump said in an Oct. 25 interview with Reuters that defeating Islamic State was a higher priority than persuading Assad to step down, and warned that Clinton could drag the United States into a new world war over the Syria conflict.

In one of his debates with Clinton, Trump said he did "not like Assad at all, but Assad is killing ISIS" with Russia and Iran.

RISE OF ISLAMIC STATE

The Syrian civil war, now in its sixth year, has killed hundreds of thousands of people, allowed the rise of Islamic State and created the world's worst refugee crisis.

Russia and Iran have provided direct military support to Assad while countries that want to see him gone from power, including the United States, Saudi Arabia, Qatar, and Turkey, have provided rebels with backing including military support.

Russia's intervention in support of Assad last year helped Damascus turn the tide against insurgents who had been making steady territorial advances, and gave Moscow decisive influence over diplomacy.

The Syrian opposition says Obama failed to back them adequately after calling for Assad to leave power, failing to enforce his own "red line" against the use of chemical weapons and blocking the delivery of anti-aircraft weapons to rebels.

In Damascus, a member of the Syrian parliament said he was cautiously optimistic that U.S. policy would shift Assad's way under Trump. "We must be optimistic, but cautiously optimistic," Sherif Shehada, the MP, told Reuters in a telephone interview.

He said Gulf Arab states - which have backed the Syrian rebellion - had been depending on a Clinton victory and were now in "a predicament". "The American administration must carry out what it said in the election campaign."

Georges Janbour, the Damascus-based head of the Syrian Association of Political Science, noted Trump's previous suggestion that Russia could be a valuable ally in the fight against Islamic Sate. "I hope that he continues in this line of thinking," he told Reuters.

Clinton was the U.S. secretary of state when the uprising against Assad began in 2011, during a wave of protests against Arab autocrats known as the Arab Spring.

Prominent Syrian opposition politician George Sabra said: "We do not expect much from the new American administration, but we hope that the face of President Donald Trump is totally different to the face of Mr. Donald Trump the candidate."

While some in the opposition expressed concern about Trump's statements, others said a more isolationist approach from Trump could be a good thing for the rebellion by allowing regional powers such as Saudi Arabia to act free of U.S. constraints.

Hadi al-Bahra, former head and current member of the Syrian National Coalition, an opposition political body, told Reuters that potential positive aspects to Trump's presidency included his opposition to Iranian influence and Iran's nuclear deal.

Bassma Kodmani, member and spokeswoman for the Syrian opposition High Negotiations Committee (HNC), said Trump's intentions remained largely unclear.

"All we can say is he has called for good relations with Russia," she told Reuters. "On Syria he will have to make difficult decisions. Cooperation with Russia over the last year and a half has not worked ... considerations should be towards a different policy," she said.

Some rebels believe that Trump will make no difference to long-established American policy.

"The Americans were never honest with us. They left us in a quagmire that drowned the Syrians ... Everyone is trading with our blood and suffering," said Abu Hamed, head of the military council of rebel group Liwa al Haq Brigade, speaking from Hama.

(Reporting by Tom Perry and Lisa Barrington in Beirut, Kinda Makieh in Damascus and Suleiman al-Khalidi in Amman; editing by Ralph Boulton)

#ahh #those were the days #syria #syrian civil war

[datingadviceonreddit]

If anyone feels as though this is bad advice/has any questions/would like to add something PLEASE feel free to comment! I am not an expert, I just date a lot lol. From the perspective of a straight CIS gal. please be nice I am v fragile.I can admit I sometimes read too much into situations or conversations with people in my life. It’s hard to decipher between what my depression is telling me and what my gut is warning me. I used to blame any feelings I had about guys I was dating seeming “off” during a conversation (they weren’t texting/calling me as frequently as they used to, they stopped asking to see me and became less available when I asked to see them, etc.) on myself being paranoid. I didn’t want to address any issues I was having with the person because i didn’t want to come across as ~crazy~ or needy, causing me to then spiral further into negative thoughts and eventual crushing disappointment if/when my instincts ended up being correct further down the line.Honestly, I didn’t want to straight up ask the person if something was up because I didn’t want to hear bad news; denial made me feel better in the moment but worse over time if the behavior continued or worsened. Once I finally got over that fear of blatant rejection, I finally found a way to address the issue that worked for me, without feeling like i was scaring the person away. Maybe this could help some of you too who deal with similar shitty situations or feelings?This is, word for word, a message I sent to someone after I started sensing something was “off” for about a week or so:“Hey! I’m sensing a little distance between us since I saw you last. Am I reading too much into this, or am I picking up on something here? I’m hoping it’s the former, but would rather know for sure if you plan on seeing me again.”I could probably word it better or change the overall messaging a little, but it got me an answer!What was his answer? He told me I was right, and he “wasn’t ready for a relationship right now” (I never told him I wanted to be in a relationship with him). He then asked if we could be FWB (LOLLLL) which I shot down. I’m at a point where I would rather know that my relationship with someone could progress into something more and have them be on the same page, than continue something i knew wouldn’t fulfill me indefinitely while hoping they change their mind down the road.I sent a similar message to another guy I was REALLY into and received a similar answer (without asking me to become their boink-buddy, lol), which really bummed me out. Our conversation was honest and cordial, he seemed more relieved than anything. He was a nice guy and didn’t want to hurt me, if I didn’t ask him what was up I don’t even KNOW how long I would have continued trying until he straight up ghosted. Cowardly on his end, but i understand where he was coming from as I’ve absolutely done the same thing to people I wasn’t interested in anymore (it’s a shitty thing to do to someone, trust me I know. I’m trying to do better!)I’ve found that asking in this way takes the pressure off of them and allows them to tell you their honest mindset without initiating the conversation. It’s hard to hear, but for me it was worth my own sanity to know for sure than to spend almost every day wondering and worrying. Do I know the EXACT reasons they stopped being into it? No. And that’s okay, if I did something SO heinous that drove them away, they would have (hopefully) told me. Otherwise, it was best for me to just leave it.I did give them the benefit of the doubt for a period of time because hey, life happens! I would ask to see them if they weren’t asking me, text them first, flirt a little, etc. to see how they would respond, until I finally felt it was necessary to confront them. I think it’s important to be understanding towards them, honest about your feelings/needs and BE NICE. If the conversation turns sour it’s because they’re being a dick, not because you asked an insane question.Also if they ask to become FWB, but you’re looking for a potential relationship, don’t. Do not. Cease and desist. Abort mission. No más. Turn on “So What” by P!nk and don’t boink him. pls. via /r/dating_advice

#dating #dating advice #reddit

[lululawrence]

lululawrence’s February 2019 Fic List

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It has officially been a year of my making monthly fic lists and I’m so happy I decided to start doing this. I have so much fun sharing what I’ve been reading and how much I’ve enjoyed it. I’m so glad to keep going with it and hope you like it too! This month I continued my catch up on the Tomlinshaw exchange but also started reading a lot of fics I’d been holding out on for awhile. So, without further ado, here are the awesome fics that rocked my world this month!

play the game by @candybarrnerd / icarusinflight This one was sexy and filthy and I just...don’t have much more to say hahahahaha It’s Tomlinshaw and reading it had me pretty much dropped right into Nick’s emotions and I loved it.

Leave Your Mark On Me by @fullonlarrie / FullOnLarrie OMG okay so like. Omega Harry who doesn’t even think he’s interested in alphas quick bonds with Alpha Louis because otherwise he can’t get the job he wants. But there’s a massive twist! And then feelings! And realizations! And pining! And flirting! And it just grows so perfectly and I loved it very much a lot. I can’t even find the right words and I think I finished it a week ago as of writing this little thing but yeah. It’s amazing.

Owner of a Lonely Heart by @shiftylinguini / shiftylinguini It’s a kind of Tomlinshaw rash marriage in vegas kind of fic but also not? There’s so many more feelings to it than something as simple as that. But it’s defo strangers to lovers and honestly the non-cameo Liam makes might very well be my favorite part of it as well as the Neil/Niall fiasco just because it plays out SO PERFECTLY with Nick and Louis. hahahahaha Gosh this fic is hysterical and soft and painful and just so many things. It is a perfect little fic. I love love loved it.

oh, i just want you to come with me by @hiatusniall / weddingbells I’ll be honest hahahaha the bit with the sprinklers had me wanting to cry a little because I was just imagining everything being ruined BUT the bookends were beautiful and the pain and the miscommunication cause, let’s be real, Tomlinshaw would never just have easy and straightforward and good communication. They’d have to fight it out and be stupid boys first, and this really captures that. It was a super fun read, I really enjoyed it!

Come and Get Your Love by @rsadelle / rsadelle A five times Tomlinshaw Fic! Featuring awesome dads Nick and Louis! This was so sweet and soft and cute and there was a twist I wasn’t expecting! And little interludes that just added even more to what was already incredible. It was such a fun read, I adored it.

dead set on a getaway by EmmyLouWho EmmyLouWho strikes again! Seriously, their fics are ALWAYS gold. I don’t know how they do it. This time features Tomlinshaw in a BOOK STORE. OOOOOMMMMGGGGGG!!! And the way it all finally comes together is adorable and perfect. And Gemma is hysterical hehehe Gosh such a fun and fluffy fic.

happiness hits like a train on a track by leighbot New dad Louis meets his neighbors Harry and Liam and Lirry are fucking adorable, okay? And they try to play matchmaker and it all goes horribly wrong and is so funny and yet bad BUT THEN! Nick to the rescue! For real, in the same ways the previous set ups had been all wrong, Nick is so right and I LOVED IT. Also, Louis’ relationship with Penny’s mother is so fucking cute too. I just can’t handle it. I loved this one too.

Say It With Flowers by @reminiscingintherain / reminiscingintherain Back to Larry! For a bit, anyway hahaha Roni took the most hilarious prompt and made Louis so awkward and angry and forthright it was incredible. Meanwhile Harry’s just confused and yet it somehow all comes together and I so so so enjoyed reading this! It was the perfect read after a long day. hehe

The Sleepover by @homosociallyyours / homosociallyyours THIS GIRL DIRECTION FICLET IS THE MOST ADORABLE PERFECTION EVER?! It’s so pure! So soft! So sweet! Gosh I loved it very much a lot.

Charity Ficlets and Tumblr Drabbles by @becomeawendybird / QuickedWeen This collection of ficlets has such gems! Merm Louis, a magical curse au, AND a prompt I gave her that essentially takes Rachmaninoff and Stravinsky in Old Hollywood and makes them Harry and Louis. It’s all AMAZING and I LOVE IT.

One Touch Is Never Enough by @fullonlarrie / FullOnLarrie Werewolf Louis goes to get a massage and things do not go as planned. Gosh I was cackling at this so much, it’s so great. A super funny, super ridiculous read haha

London Rain by @writsgrimmyblog / Writcraft Basically canon compliant Tomlinshaw where Louis wants to finally explore possibilities with boys and takes to online dating to try it. Gosh this fic is such a great read. There was a lot of emotion and parts that made me laugh out loud, it was absolutely fab.

Brave Love by @angelichl / angelichl And they were roommates!!! For real, though. They were. And there’s SO MUCH PINING and omgosh it’s so beautiful and soft and sweet and Harry and Louis are just so precious in this, okay? It’s so so so amazing. A great valentine’s day read.

hold on for one more day by @disgruntledkittenface / disgruntledkittenface This fic had me rolling but also so worried and I might have cried just a little bit, but seriously the Tomlinshaw banter was so great and so were the soft feels! The careful watching after each other and there’s a part where Grimmy is just so worried and scared and Louis is so so so soft and sweet and I’ll leave it at that. so good.

time stopped then sped so fast by sarcasticfluentry I went through the Grouis tag on AO3 and found very few fics. I loved them all, and they’re coming now, hahaha This is...basically Greg James/Louis Tomlinson porn lollll most of them are, tbh. It’s got panties though hehehe and if size difference is a kink for you, then this definitely has that for ya. An oldie but a goodie!

Let me be your good night by @conscious--ramblings / Conscious_ramblings I apparently read this ages ago when it first was published and I don’t remember it which seems impossible I don’t know how that happened?!?! This is Harry/Louis, but they go to a swinger party and Greg and Nick get added into the mix. It’s such a great read, though, because Harry and Louis are exclusive and never really considered adding more into their relationship, but this night changes some things and the way Sheena goes through the emotions of it all is so beautiful. And hot. Like damn hot. So. If that’s your jam, I would defo recommend this one.

sugar, butter, flour by EmmyLouWho After two incredibly smutty fics, have an entirely pure and smut free goodie from emmylouwho! hehe It’s a Nailed It AU and is SO GOOD. It’s so funny the way Harry, Zayn, and Niall are all depicted and the way it all plays out had me giggling the entire way through. A super cute, super fun read.

Like An Anthem In My Heart by @goodmorningtoyouuniverse / GMTYUniverse This fic, y’all. I love footie fics, but I’m also super picky about them because I love footie myself. This one was written so so so well in all aspects, but the football aspects had me screaming in excitement in a football chat. It was sooooo good and it involves a forced outing and how it was all handled and it was so believable and beautiful and the emotions and the relationships and the cameos of real players and people had me flipping out in a good way and I just. It was so great. One of my favs of the month, easily.

Taste Too Good by sarcasticfluentry Okay this one is more PWP basically, but it’s kinda...well, it’s Grouis, but it’s also...Tomlinshames. Is that the ship name for Nick/Greg/Louis? It is now. lol Anyway, this fic was a lovely little read and the switching in POV gave you a little insight on everyone’s feelings and thoughts throughout so yeah. haha

'cause i like it dark and low by sarcasticfluentry What can I say? More filthy, filthy Grouis PWP. lollll But it was good! haha

The Post-War BP by @jaerie / jaerie As per usual, Jenna comes in and just takes A/B/O and makes it an entirely different beast. I have no idea how her brain works, but I’d love to see inside it hahaha This is a fic where it kind of holds to the more traditional omegas stay home, have children, etc but in this world an alpha is required to be a part of the relationship in order for an alpha to have a chance at being produced. Add in a war where alphas were shipped off to fight and not many returned, and suddenly a Breeding Plan is introduced. This fic is somewhat dark, quite twisted in parts, and does involve some unsavory content, so please beware of tags. I ADORED it though.

Tell Me Your Secrets by @dimpled-halo / dimpled_halo This was for the Popularry fest, which I’m doing horribly at keeping up with. It was based on the film For a Good Time Call and I’d never heard of that until I read this, but now I wanna watch it! haha Harry and Louis are pseudo enemies to friends to lovers as they move into an apartment together and start a sex line and It’s...amazing. hahaha Such a great fic!

And that’s it for this month! Happy reading, and don’t forget to leave the authors kudos and nice comments!!

#mine #february 2019 fic list #fic list #my fic rec #fic rec #28th appreciation #fic writer appreciation