#fighting for my life typing this up

[cain-e-brookman]

WIP Highlight: THE NAME, WITCH

Current word count: 31,575

Place in series: 1 of 3

MC: Uthyr Kri’Asphodel

Supporting characters: Crucius, Sister Angelica, Bran Yot’Aster, Zuza of the Other

Overview: Uthyr lives a simple life in the forests of Uslaria where his largest headache is his enigmatic and taciturn neighbor, Crucius. As a witch, Uthyr walks the world in the graces of his godly ancestor, using his magic to heal minor ailments and tend the garden that is his pride and joy. When one day, a wind not of the sky shakes the forest with terror, Uthyr journeys to find support in the high witches of Uslaria only to be met with derision and mockery. With stubbornness and indignation, Uthyr sets out to get proof of the dangers looming on the horizon. But more rides on the wind than he could imagine, and as the realms unseen begin to leak into his, he must use the magic of his goddess to stop an ancient devouring force from sinking its teeth into the realms’ seams. That is, if he can put together pieces of a prophecy held hostage by the Trickster God before the same prophecy can come for him.

#in my own words #wip: the name. witch #writeblr #writers on tumblr #fantasy author #queer fantasy author #indie books #self published #wip highlight #03.04.2024 #fighting for my life typing this up #i want to have more of a presence on this blog #so im trying to post more consistently #by like. scheduling posts and interacting more etc etc #i have a planner. i might even hold to it #standby

[gooopy]

LOOK AT MY SELF INSERT BOY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cringe is dead i can do whatever i want FOREVER and that includes making a character to beat scout tf2 to death with my own two fists

#tf2 #tf2 oc #scout tf2 #sprinter #soldier tf2 #cw blood #goopys glop #i wont tag the other brief appearances here #also if anyone needs image descrptions let me know! i dont know that many people will look at this so im preserving energy rn #but if someone needs i can write them #anyways i lvoe autism i have gameplay mechanics mostly worked out and everything. i love tenth class ocs so beautiful #also i was fighting for my life trying to come up witha fucking name for this guy you dont even know #anyways hes a support type character. big hammer to help destroy buildings and a small sprint meter #can apply a slowness effect w the hammer and i feel that you play him by ambushing people and applying slowness and letting your teammates #pick them off and all #movement speed is actually pretty low and the sprint is very limited #but i straight up could not think of any other decent name. i wanted to avoid another s name but alas.... #anyways um um um i love autism if anybody has any questions about him please let me know flutters my beautiful eyelashes

[cyberdragoninfinity]

a bit disheartening every time i come across a yugioh character where im like "wtf this guy is great why have i literally never seen fanart of them before/only seen them in like maybe two pieces of fanworks total" and then i realize it's because they're fat/theyre visibly muscular/they have a slightly wide body type/theyre over the age of 30/theyre um. not pale/theyre some combination of the aforementioned categories. 😐 cool.

#like this is a fandom issue in general i imagine #but good god sometimes ygo fanspaces are fixated solely on Skinny Pale Characters like its their fucking job #a ygo character has visible arm muscles and i have to fight for my life to see art of them with their actual body type #(i see it more in the spinoffs?!?!? but then again sometimes people in DM spaces are racist and ageist in other new colorful ways :|) #anyway this post is about several guys but rn especially GONG MY FRIEND GONG!!!! WHY HAVE I NEVER SEEN ART OF HIM OUTSIDE OF DL #ygo posting #also hey if youre weird on this post i will block you! head's up!

[ontosgold]

I LOVE the way you drew ryomina they are soooo 🥺💖🥰🥺🥺🥰🥰🥺🥺💖💖

Curious, I would love to know if you have more personal headcanons for them! I love your art of Minato wearing glasses

Good luck in uni!!!! Hope you have an amazing day/night ^^

THANK YOU ANON :D !!!!!

and yes I have a few more hcs !! thanks for asking hehe now i get to ramble >:)

I have some hcs regarding fashion and such !! I've kinda been thinking about this a bunch ever since I made those casual outfits for ryoji

-ryoji loves expressing himself through fashion, he really enjoys experimenting with clothes and discovering his style

-he likes going on shopping outings with yukari (minato has been dragged along a lot as well) (yukamitsu ryomina double shopping dates !!)

-ryoji's a big fan of yellow and also just any bright colours that go well with it. he's a bright and colourful boy :>

-minato never really cared much about fashion or style, a t-shirt is usually just good enough for him (his style is just. if its comfy and it looks nice then its good) and he's not a fan of bright colours or anything that makes him stand out too much. ryoji's been trying to get him to experiment a bit

and here's some of my more general hcs for them ^_^

-ryoji's a lot quieter when its just him and minato and minato smiles more around ryoji (minato is completely unaware of how much he smiles in ryojis presence and he'll get a lil embarrassed if someone points it out)

-minato's sleepy and tired all of the time. chronically sleepy (<- lol). god's sleepiest soldier. but he feels super comfortable having naps around ryoji. sleeping when he's nearby just feels safe.

-if ryoji and minato are hanging out at the dorm together, there is a fairly high chance that minato will end up asleep.

-also i like to imagine that if the two of them have a movie night at the dorm, they'll both end up asleep by the end with koromaru all cosied up with them too (<- i should draw this sometime)

-minato's super introverted. while he loves spending time around the ppl he cares about, he only has so much energy for socialising. ryoji is the one person minato can spend all his day around without draining the social battery

-also minato's a pretty quiet guy, he's a man of little words. he prefers to listen to people, rather than be the one leading the conversation. and bcs ryoji and mina know eachother like they know themselves, they don't always need to communicate verbally. I like to think they spend a lot of their time sitting in comfortable silence together

-ryoji's super fascinated and interested by all the simple joys in life. whenever he's out with minato he'll point out things like pretty flowers, birds, the way the clouds look. and they'll stop to admire the sunset if they're out late. and of course minato takes a lot of interest in the things ryoji points out to him :>

also i hc ryoji as bi and minato as greyromantic ace ^_^ !! ryoji and minato's relationship is something so much more than a typical romantic relationship to me

#also i saw this in my inbox this morning but i didn't have the time to answer until now #i just want u to know that i was up very late last night working on an essay and seeing this this morning brightened my day a bunch :D #so i appreciate the ask anon <3 !! #also i hope u enjoy my ramble about the boys :> i ended up typing out way more than i expected to lol #persona 3 #ryomina #ontos.text #i care these two so much they live in my brain constantly #btw i was fighting for my life trying to focus on that essay bcs i was constantly having images of ryomina being projected into my brain #like how's a man supposed to focus under those conditions #anyways !! now that I'm free from essay hell I'm gonna go relax by drawing them some more ehehe

[backpackingspace]

Okay obviously the characters in tgcf can mature and grow and whatnot however. It's way funnier to think about hualian being forever 17

#Tgcf #Heaven officials blessing #The dichotomy of xie lian and hua cheng being some of the oldest beings on earth and also 17 #He xuan constantly annoyed that he's in debt to this literal teenager #Super annoyed his revenge plot is literally taken over be a teenage drama #When he xuan wants to pick a fight he refers to yin yu as hua chengs baby sitter #Everybody is annoyed and offended by this #Yin yu please leave me out of your latest bitch fest I am a steward and 17 is too old for a babysitter anyway #Hua cheng I am literally 4 centuries old then you SHUT UP and bold of you to assume anyone looked out for me whatever the age #He xuan: That's depressing #Hua cheng: your life is depressing #He xuan: proving my teenager comment with that type of response #Also this adds just another layer of fucked up to jun wu's whole I will force xie lian to be my son thing #Xie lian: if I act as ancient as possible surely nobody will remember that I am 17

[bumblingbabooshka]

Icheb, Naomi, Miral and T'Meni

#st voyager #st voyager art #I redesigned Icheb to make him more alien-y....butterfly inspo v_v I hate butterflies they freak me out #Icheb #Naomi Wildman #T'Meni #Miral Torres #Miral Pairs #I personally don't think Miral or Icheb become Starfleet #or I think it'd be neat but Icheb DID make it into the academy but he had a rough time and once he learned they didn't accept Seven he quit #So now he works in a general lab and can focus exclusively on astrophysics while also being a consultant about borg tech #Miral seems like she'd have a complicated relationship with Starfleet what with her parents' history #& T'Meni has no dog in this fight she's gonna marry a spa owner and be a spa heiress her life's breezy v_v #Naomi seems like she'd do well in Starfleet and like she'd have a more complicated relationship with Earth...Earth took her from #the only family she ever knew and also made them all miserable - fuck Earth all my homies hate Earth #Naomi is exceedingly calm and clear headed during emergencies and I think younger ensigns would quickly rely on her...weird big sister type #friends with borg...won't shut up about how good something called 'leola root stew' is...keeps joking about how she died once #Icheb and Naomi Wildman - wildest birth mythos ever. Kids who should be dead but aren't. #Miral & T'Meni frenemies....only two kids at the family function type of tenuous friendship #bea art tag #Icheb's eye isn't a trait inherent to his species

[aflockofravens]

I want... to care for her

#rei suwa #you beautiful tragic motherfucker #the end of episode 11 is kiiiiilllllliiiing me #he just wants so badly to be her daddy #ever since ep 1 he's just been searching for some sort of emotional bond to give his life meaning #it's why he picked up the stray #it's why he didn't fight Kazuki when he brought Miri home #he is so desperate for a family #he let a complete stranger move in and take over his life #we're gonna be Miri's fathers #definition of 'if he wanted to he would' #get you a man who will give up being an assassin to raise an orphan with you #this goes for Rei Suwa as well as Kazuki Kurusu and Loid Forger #new type unlocked apparently #i don't even want kids but i love accidental father figures i guess #kazuki kurusu #buddy daddies #my last remaining brain cell

[burgeredagent]

:O uuummmmmm karkat!! for the drawing reqs (also maybe my oc page?? like them together? only if u want to lol)

shhh....*finger to your lips* you need never ask

#homestuck #karkat vantas #oc x canon #pagekat #agtburgerart #only pulled up her ref for this and saw only after a pic of them together... see accidental height agenda #always saw her as the type of girl to get on the track mid horse race and start doing hurdles herself...um. height wise if that makes sense #which karkat living in my head fighting for his life to break 3 ft every drawing def didnt help #nope okay just got hit with the idea of them growing into charlie depicted sizes like theyre littler here oooohhhh boy gooey center moment #THESE ARENT MY CHARACTERS. AHEM. #hugs and kisses hope you like it charlie🤞

[pawnguild]

new pc and mobile theme 🐸🐍🌱

#fighting for my life in photoshop (gave up but looks OK) #anyways i think this is the first time i've been fully themed in years #phone desktop and tumblr set-ups are all green/black now... you could say i have a type 🥴 #mars.txt

[grahamcarmen]

#graham calloway #gifs #many thoughts #first i was thinking how i hate the way s3 ends #the reveal deflated my enthusiasm SO much but i always begrudgingly accept it because #at the end of the day its thematically cohesive and helps move the story fine and thematic cohesion matters more to me #the crackle rod reveal however! is thank ! he's not dead + does not negate the choices and consequences of dark! carmen getting it #and reveals that he has changed in ways that impact people other than carmen and of his own volition since NO ONE KNEW HE DID IT #and this choice ends up saving his life and allowing him to have a true fresh start #plus add another to the headcanon that carmen won a little too easily on the train because gray knows how to throw a dude his size #and who is actively resisting him #Attempt is still an attempt and she should absolutely take it personally but for runtimes sake aside its laughable how short the fight is #no offense to miss carmens own fighting skills but almost every other agent she goes against can hold their own a bit longer #and i don't think gray is technically any worse than them #also gray and his absolute conviction in what type of person he is and slowly changing for the better anyways #little dude #digs a hole to rock bottom and then goes hahaha what if i became less terrible without anyone noticing #carmen sandiego 2019

[orchideae]

1) Opens up drafts with my head empty, ready to be flooded, not knowing where I'll go. 2) 30 seconds later: Okay but I will go feral any day of my life over Perilous Trail, and the fierce dichotomy of Xiao and Yelan. While they're far from being 'the same', they both view themselves as soldiers in one way or another (it's a very difficult word to use for Yelan, so I'm using it very liberally and very loosely), they have both suffered losses on the 'battlefield' and carry the burden thereof in their own ways. And yet they stand so firmly in opposition throughout the entirety of that questline up until the very end of the 'the end of the line' conclusion of the quest. Yes, I know that she offers him her gratitude in its aftermath and it is genuine, but she still never agrees with him and the decision that he made moments earlier. It simply 'worked out' because of Zhongli's interference, he's the only reason it worked out. And it's because of that, that she doesn't give him a hell of a hard time (obviously she can't go down there, but imagine the inner frustration of severe extents; when you condemn someone who you can't even see anymore). In the same way that she would do to anyone who would sacrifice themselves for others, but in this case, I think it's 'beautiful' that it's to Xiao; the one who seems most adamant to do so (which honestly, fits into the contract that the Yakshas chose to sign with Morax; 'the ultimate sacrifice' to protect for Liyue; 'for Liyue', and Liyue has always centered itself around its people), the one who everyone reveres (and so does she, as she notes in her voiceline, 'if I ever have the honor to fight alongside') and respects for good reason, she stands against him, because in that moment, regardless of his status, he makes a call that she considers wrong. And he doesn't even... fight her on it very fiercely, and that's what actually hurts me the most, it's as if the following line hit the nail directly on the head?

"Besides, if you were really so determined to end it all, you wouldn't have given us the opportunity to share our opinions."

#[ mini study. ] that which hides inside her… that constant calling; it is the blood of heroes which has been howling for 500 years. #[ and then shortly after 'the point is: it's not time for drastic measures yet.' ] #[ /shakes ven into another dimension. ] #[ i thought the ost at the end of perilous ruined me enough. but tale of the yakshas may actually ruin me more. ] #[ also i love how i typed up the bit of the contract and 'for liyue' and zhongli in my head isn't rattling at bars but-- ] #[ he's sipping his tea (the equivalent). one day ven. i /promise/ you. one day you'll get him from me. ] #[ he'll likely be the 2nd genshin blog to run alongside yelan if/when i get to being able to run two again. ] #[ but until then. can we talk about the dynamic of xiao and yelan until we're blue in the face? i'd like to do that too. ] #[ i type this as if i'm perfectly chill but i'm not. i'm really not. the concept of self sacrifice and sacrifice as a whole. ] #[ BETWEEN THESE TWO. drives me /insane/. and part of me sits here and goes-- ] #[ god. what happened with yelan and her team down there? we know that despite every plan she ever made and prepared-- ] #[ their enemies (WHAT WERE YOU FIGHTING??) were too powerful and more specifically-- too smart. too calculating. ] #[ ... and too strong (okay literally what on earth were you fighting? are we talking the khaenri'ah soldiers? like what? or abyss mages?) ] #[ (but abyss mages don't exactly entirely fit the description in her story. ugh. UGH). ] #[ any way-- it was her and her team. /they/ all died and she didn't. yanfei describes it as... ] #[ 'knowing that your life was saved when others weren't'. surely the millilith didn't intervene or happen to arrive. yelan must've... ] #[ gotten away? or something? but that doesn't feel quite right. but i'm just sitting here left with the idea of... when you lead a team. ] #[ you bear the responsibility of even their lives. and yet despite bearing that responsibility; she's exactly the one who lived. ] #[ the only one who did. that has to be a /stupid/ burden. it's like the captain who has to go down with the ship but is the only one... ] #[ who gets to live. only one who gets to survive. i just. ] #[ i didn't think i'd love a character as much as this one. where did she come from; jesus christ. ]

[nabaath-areng]

Fuck Sweden as a nation for turning the woobification of our history and culture into one of our greatest exports, pretending to be wholesome and peaceful while profiting from conflicts elsewhere. For never having the fucking spine to take any stance ever and acting high and mighty for being "neutral", all while frothing at the mouth to get a piece of that colonial cake from the cool kids table where the superpowers are seated. For recognizing Palestine's sovereignty only to then consider a withdrawal of said recognition in response to the current genocide. For allowing islamophobia to get to the point it is now and then pointing fingers at jews as a whole. For giving less of a flying fuck about swedish jews during WW2 and until now, yet patting ourselves on the back and taking credit for heroic deeds done primarily by individuals.

I wish nothing but absolute hell and misery for Ulf Kristersson, who is even more spineless about his inaction than I thought possible. Who had nothing to say about the burnings of the torah and quran, only to claim that he stands for fighting antisemitism. Who puffed up his chest and was acting so tough about the things he would do once he became prime minister, only to hold up on none of his lofty promises in true conservative fashion. Both he and his lackeys (as well as their fanclubs of raging screaming bigots) deserve nothing but hurt and hell for continuing to destroy the lives of all marginalized groups in Sweden, all while shamelessly increasing their own salaries blatantly in the open, to then have the sheer and utter gut to declare that actively supporting genocide is within our best interests.

This country's audacity is one that only became possible because we sacrificed our neighbours safety for the sake of maintaining our own, because when your most recent war was in 1809 it's apparently not possible to even try and comprehend the horrors of modern warfare. That is, besides producing the tools for it to happen elsewhere.

#the complete disdain for compassion and humanity is abhorrent #not to mention incomprehensable #im sorry im all over the place bedridden cause bad pain day which makes me even more angry #because i want to strangle everyone in riksdagen with my bare hands #and like im sorry not to be a state hater or anything (sike) but how #and i mean HOW. can one claim that we know democracy #when the people who supposedly represent the rest of us #can just go ahead and do these types of things willy nilly as they please #how can we claim to have free will when the burdens of having to earn the right to life #by working to death and being left to die if we cant adapt to the system #and being actively drained too dry to dare take risks standing up #how can that ever be freedom? #seeing everything coming out of gaza in video audio images all of it #and feeling hopeless? powerless to do anything? #how is that NOT suppression? to break people down to the point they cant find the spirit to fight? #to cast other regular people as villains so that all energy is spent falling into bigotry? #social media is hell but its also one of our greatest tools now #its like being able to zoom out and see the greater overview of the stranglehold capitalism and colonialism has on the world #im not coherent at all and my thumbs are dying now i just #but sooner or later somethings gotta give re: the way our society is built as a whole globally

[runawaycarouselhorse]

Who even is this...

(He's tossing and catching Evie like a baby.)

#FarawayPlace #PokeAni #Team Rocket Attila #Team Rocket Hun #Eevee #Evie #yes this is the Eevee who set free a bunch of Electric types Buson tried to poach on arrival and then rallied them up to fight him... #after he start turning his life around (given TR doesn't exist in Ultern's setting) she slooowly grew to trust him and even defended him #now they're buddies!! (... he sees her like a daughter) Bashou's just ?????? at Domestic Doting Dad Buson #Pokemon #dwrp #my doodle #I don't often draw him from this side hi

[barkingangelbaby]

I feel like such a broken fucking person lol

I talked way too much in the tags don't read them

#fighting off the ideation like my life depends on it!! bc it does!!! #been good about not thinking certain phrases but F U C K am i feeling it. i want to turn into a pile of dust #i am so desperately trying to work on myself and change my patterns and bad habits and perspective but it feels like i always fall short #i try not to talk about it online but I'm just. having a very hard day with N because we experience our feelings in different ways #i isolate myself bc i struggle with regulating my reactions and tones when im having an episode but she needs me to talk through things and #i sometimes just. can't. bc I'm not done experiencing the negativity and am not in a place to have a productive convo bc shame spirals etc #we just spent a long time talking and being patient and i thought i was understanding and explaining myself well but i just. idk. #i don't know how to explain that of course i love her even if I'm isolating myself. of course i love her although I'm nonverbal today. i jus #t can't *make* myself talk when I'm like this i don't want to be nonverbal i don't want to isolate i don't want to be a distant partner i do #n't want to fall back into these patterns related to my grief i want to be better i am trying to be better i am working so fucking hard on #being better. i just feel so defeated bc this all spiraled from me not wanting to decide what to get for lunch n using a poor tone about it #I'm about to talk with her some more but I just. kinda don't want to exist right now. fuck dude. it feels so fucking awful when i upset her #like i love her so much she is so important to me and it breaks my heart that our entire day is shot bc i was tired and cranky #i just don't understand how that equates to me not loving her bc she is my whole world dude. I'm going to throw up #i also don't know how to explain to her that scrolling on tumblr is comfortable to me I'm not ignoring her it's just the SM that i scroll on #like we're hanging out watching tv together I'm gonna scroll a little bit. it's just not insta or anything #idk my mind is scrambled I'm crying I just want to be a better person who can calmly communicate my thoughts and emotions #today has just beat my fucking ass dude. i isolate so those feelings don't get translated into my interactions with others #i don't even know what i typed in these tags I just don't want to off myself or think about it I'm fighting myself so much 2day #rAMbles

[grilledkatniss]

So I realized a while back I had this internalized nagging resentment towards Beyoncé and the beehive and I think it's coming down to a few factors that piled up over time. And none of those have anything to do with Beyonce herself but everything to do with her fanbase.

#God honestly #it's not her fault #i have to self check my attitude every time something related to beyonce is said or her content is streamed in my presence. #it's like im gearing up for a fight like some Kanye like piece of shit is gonna pop up outta nowhere #like remember when they screamed beyonce should have won while harry was on the stage accepting the grammy like what the fuck #i have nothing against Beyonce but everything against those fuckers #what's wrong with you #that's so disrespectful #and jz her husband calling out the academy for not giving her the aoty?? while he was being honoured by them for some special award like #bro i would hate it if any respectful institutionalized entity gave me anything as a result of being publicly shamed #like beyonce im so sorry about your husband #that was so embarrassing #beyonce #she IS a queen #her fanbase need to fuckin calm down #you're more detrimental to her success than you know #awkwardifying life #lemme reiterate this. she is pure class. but those type of fans are like hogs splattering mud all over Beyonce's hard work

[milo-is-rambling]

I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like. #what? am I missing something here? #my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know. #honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down