#girls cant do anything anymore

[chaos-lolz]

"they forgot to give William a motive"

CAN A GIRL NOT HAVE A HOBBY??

#girls cant do anything anymore #fnaf movie spoilers #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf movie #five nights at Freddy's movie #william afton #purple guy #springtrap #chaos talking

[nuppu-nuppu]

Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining #once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i can’t grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol #like idk how to be friends #i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely #and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but i’ve just been by myself for so long that i don’t remember how to have #actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality #i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and that’s why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again #because it’s the only place i kind of feel safe doing it #pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic #how do i start living again #how does one live anyway #im just in my head all the time #this was supposed to be hot girl summer but it’s once again summertime sadness #im so stupid!!! #im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself #im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself #but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go #idk how to be a person anymore #i’m just sad #thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol

[nerime]

my coworkers are being turbo transphobic and literally refuse to listen to answers to questions they fucking ask argh!!! I can just tell you!!! I can just answer you!!!!! I have answers!!! to the ridiculous questions you ask in a mocking way!!!! if you listen for one second I can just fucking explain!!!! 😡😭😡😭

#they ask why would trans men NEED tampons for men since they are WOMEN why cant they juat use WOMEN ones those stupid silly women ugh #they keep coming back to the topic #and im like hey they are not women ^_^ and try to explain the concept #in easy kindergarten terms like hey you know how you wouldnt want to buy pink girly items because you are a (cis) guy! well #and them im cut off with more transphobic shit before i can say anything else #my coworker literally said her son told her and her husband they were playing spin the bottle on a school trip #and she asked so did you kiss any girls? and he said #sure when it landed on a girl then i kissed a girl (implying he also kissed guys) #and she said her husband was so shocked because hes conservative #while she said she just ordered the son not to say anything else #and she tells us 'i think he was just testing us or something' #wtf. i said well okay maybe he was testing your reactions and now hes not gonna tell you shit anymore #and she went like hm 🤔 #also the irony of saying her HUSBAND is conservative while she fucking. misgenders trans men all day and jokes about gay men constantly #in a nasty way #all of them do #im so tired #she complained kids nowadays are so caaual about gay people #and i said okay well i love it personally they should keep it up #and NO ONE at the table supported/agreed with me #sorry i am on a work trip and suffering #transphobia tw #neri stfu

[fiomeras]

I understand now what they meant when they said you start being unable to enjoy things normally the more you notice techniques and rules in films and just about anything else

#i talk #I CANT ENJOY ANYTHING ANYMORE...... IM ALWAYS ON THE GRIND . BUT AT WHAT COST #too much to notice too much to nitpick about girl please just watch the movie and have a good time i beg #i always have my notes near me so i can do studies while watching and it works but now its rendered my brain to overanalyze everything oobh #HOUGH.... raking grains

[dayurno]

have u read oh my queen, we are here again & if u have what r ur thots!!!!!!!!!

yeah yeah my beautiful and kind and talented and beloved @onereallygoodlambonastick wrote it so of course i read it....!!! the patron saint of fighting for kevin day's rights :) made me incredibly and heartstrikingly sad! especially all of andrew's parts :) fanfics that gave me clinical depression

#soys aftg angst remains unbattled to be honest theyre not even in the fandom anymore and still eating the girls up #asks #SORRY i know you wanted a more in depth commentary but i will do ANYTHING to bring up my friends works #also i truly do mean it the fic made me so sad i cant sit here and ponder too heavily on it id kill myself #but i really liked the nuance in kevins and wymacks relationship #and i think andrew was really good on that one

[widevibratobitch]

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#im so tired of this lalalalalalalalaa #something is Wrong lol #i really need this therapy on wednesday but guess WHAT im not going. im going to a funeral instead 🤡 #and ill be singing in that stupid fucking church because have to but i dont fucking wanna i hate doing it and i hate churches #all i feel rn is the overwhelming urge to selfdestruct and like obv im not gonna kms now #but im so fucking angry that im not even *allowed* to do that anymore. like it was such a comfort all this time to know that i can just Quit #and now i cant because guess what someone has to take care of my mother 🫠 and im so fucking tired of being someone people depend on #to handle THEIR feelings and THEIR emotions and just take it all with humility and acceptance and kindness and never snap and bite back #like i dont WANNA hear about your dead husband i dont wanna hear about your stupid fucking boyfriend #i dont wanna hear about the new guy/girl who's hitting on you because you're so hot and perfect #i dont wanna be responsible for how people feel. i should just shut up and take it and be humble and never ask or expect anything back #but when is it MY turn to call at 1 am crying about how im tired and want to kms #or to start expecting shit of people and allow myself to get properly angry at them for not meeting those expectations #or to braggingly 'complain' about something the other person clearly lacks without any consideration for their feelings #or to just openly cry and say deeply personal shit without any filter not caring if that other person is clearly uncomfortable af #because *i* need it right now and i need someone to listen and let them worry about how to even respond to that stuff #im just so tired of people expecting shit of me im tired of being made responsible even tho i clearly cannot handle that responsibility #i wanna be mean i wanna snap and get angry and openly say that i dont give a shit and am tired and cant listen to this rn #but i cant because i have to be a motherfucking mother theresa and never dare to demand something for myself #and idk where that comes from. idk if it's coming from the fanatic catholicism of my childhood or my mother or just from myself and idc #i just feel so horrible and guilty and wrong for wanting anything for myself #and it once again feels like im making myself the victim and the tortured martyr here when i should just shut up and take it #i just wanna lie down and die and not care about who'll get angry or judge or blame me for it im tired and i dont know what to do #i want someone to take care of ME and reassure ME and make ME feel like i matter and that they really will help me if i ever need it #and that they'd be kinda sad if i were gone not because i had a role to fulfill that i failed at by killing myself but because i am a person #<- math calculations flying around my head as i come to the terrible realisation #of just why exactly im so deeply obsessed with my voice teacher (aside from her being literally the most beautiful woman alive lol) 🤡 #like babygirl stop being so utterly overwhelmingly kind to me my knees are weak i would do anything for you queen and I MEAN IT

[bastardsofravenkroft-blog]

thinking abt creating a new acc and moving there

#if i do this one wont be deleted and ill use this url over there and ill message moots #this acc wasnt ever mine originally it belonged to a girl i cant even find anymore #and ive pretty much died since i started using it #i dont want to wipe it or anything. but i feel like im dragged down by the girl (me) that used to post here in some ways #anyways just thoughts #crimson speaks #status update

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[cerealandchoccymilk]

AARHHGRHGHHJDG less than 2 days til classes start and we STILL havent made afinal name decision. prawns yourself

finally able to actually give up on Rui (jk we havent really. just decided not to think about it anymore bc we will start considering it again)

#would greatly appreciate any input on either/both names honestly. just what vibes come across from non-japanese pov. anything helps. sobs #also adachi rei isnt a well known character at all but listed in the -'s bc shes (technically)(lol) a girl and . idk #btw we dont actually care about fortune anymore lol. just writing it for consistency #its not based on our legal surname anyways (cant do it bc its based on kanji stroke numbers which doesnt work for katakana) #(also its not for names longer than ~3 characters in general. our surname is like 7 lmao) #- emil #namesearch

[charliecuntcicle]

hey man are you any amount of schoolwork because looking at you makes me unable to breathe (gifted kid burnout rizz)

#gifted kid burnout #it sucks so bad #cus like #i was literally fine and then i hit middle school and i started actually struggling because i wasnt ahead anymore #they didnt teach us anything actually important they just taught us harder ways to do simple things #and i started getting like c’s #and my mom was so pissed off #and one day i was like ‘yk c is the average right? im not failing anything’ #and she goes ‘you arent the average. youre a GATE student.’ #like ok girl thanks #and i cant even say she didnt get it #cus she was literally in GATE as a kid??? #but shes also said to my face #‘i can still get a’s not caring but you stop caring and you get c’s’ #like it was an outrageous thing that i struggled more in classes that i didnt enjoy #i feel like its pretty understandable that youll probably do better in something you enjoy #anyways yeah #i got told i was smart in like 3rd grade and now everybody thinks that i need to be a prodigy at everything i do #i also have an adhd and autism diagnosis now which seems to be a common theme with my GATE friends

[bluewinnerangel]

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#its one of those days where i dont have anything (finally) but wanna do too many things and then i end up with nothing #also i feel sick again or still at this point i dont know anymore #but thats a thing so ive been gearing up the courage to go to get groceries despite feeling im gonna pass out in order to get things that #will make me feel better. anyway woke up to loads of content and wanting to gif half of it update louisphoto draw this post that #post my own pics still. post this vid to tumblr search for that one there like girl pls just pipe ur shit go back to bed actually #at least its sunday and im not also supposed to be working on top of all that so i got that going for me which is nice #i cant remember the last time i had a day of nothing and also didnt feel sick tho so i dont have that going for me which is less #just gonna throw some music in my ears and hoping thatll heal me #maybe play minecraft klsdjflksdjsd

[torahtot]

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#oh my god i cant #one of my friends keeps having her maybe im a lesbian crisis in my dms #like repeatedly every few weeks or month #and usually! im very happy to talk abt this and help people figure that out like ive been there i used to think im bi too #but w her it's just #we've talked it over so many times ive given her all the advice i could ive listened time and time agan #and every time it's the same thing #haha men are so scary.. maybe im lesbian 🤭 #like maybe if i was a lesbian i wouldnt be so scared of them 🫤 #ugh but i crave male validationnnn help me 😫😫😫 #harry styles is the only man i like i would let him do anything to me 🤩 #she's not even trying to figure out and she's so not self aware of what she sounds like #at this point she's practically saying 'hi my 1 lesbian friend did u know i think lesbian is a yucky scary identity' #yeah girl i knew #i hope shes able to figure it out n be happy but i cant be the one to help her anymore not w that attitude #it's genuinely painful like i want to cry #sigh

[bibleofficial]

im too tired & tipsy to touch myself, though i really want to, so i’m just the imagine.jpg

#stream #like u know the meme #it’s the multi pussy fish my little mermaid comic or whatever guy w the pipe #fuck u #it’s literally 3am & ive 0 reason to be awake #i had a coffee at like 5.30p so i’m blaming it on that #like wow .. imagine smacking ur roast beef until a satisfying completion #actually what would be equally good is chewing up this granola bar that owns my colon yall know the 1s go back i. the tag #like just chew it up & the flavour the. spit it out like i’m too full to eat anything #but they’re sooooo tasty #i truththfy cant do anymore sugar today i had a slice of #cookie cake girl … no1 icing hater there is no reason thsi much sugar needs to be in this shit #id rather a loaf of bread w a candle #anyway #ALSKALSKALSKLASKLAKS the only & last slice of that cake j will be having so my #mother can’t be upset that i didn’t eat it like anyway.

[gothcarmelasoprano]

maw why are these troll accounts linked through my ex best friends STILL following me

#im highly convinced at this stage she was the one that made the fake accounts #the gas thing is is that she was mainly an online friend and had she kept in touch with me at the time she wouldve known i was in the #studio in college preparing for my assignment for the semester so i dont fail like there were specific requirements we had to get done for #that week... and you think i would have that time to make fake accounts if anything itd be you and your online friends #emphasis on online because you could hardly make friends or even get a job here so you got one back home #the saddest thing is that the memes can be funny but its just what they represent in this whole situation that sours it completely #dont get me started on her friend she is honestly so polarising even from an outsider's perspective #ugh it doesnt annoy me anymore as it did because at the end of the day it has nothing to do with me but the fact that theyre STILL going on #about it makes me think that her and her online buddies have nothing else to do apart from being with themselves constantly #i had that life but no way did i want to live that way in my 20s 💀 #i fucked up before that incident but isnt it convenient when we hardly spoke for a month just for the ~fake account~ to appear to stop #being friends like as awful as it sounds but itd actually be a lot easier just to say you dont want to be friends #instead of dragging outsiders into it like you do best #the saddest thing is that she was actually quite fake even before she went down a permanent online rabbit hole #and i was aware of it but because i was emotionally vulnerable at the time i never cut her off since i really wanted friends to talk to #play that cool girl alty idgaf attitude all you like but it doesn't change the fact that you're superficial no matter how much you mask it #ugh im hormonal and i cant sleep but at the same time its nice to be able to freely bc not as many people use tumblr anymore #i block those accounts not because im offended or im precious about my image but they do spam and its annoying af so i dont want that tbh #having pictures with a school friend whilst under the same breath making jokes of their dead brother is not a good look 😬 #i did fucked up things as a result of coping with trauma and alienation as a teenager but this is actually low? #im sorry but it does it screams fake and im pretty sure that the fake treatment was given to me when we first became friends #fake people rarely ever change #i have to get ready for work in an hour this was unexpected #might vent later because i feel like i can do anything on this godforsaken website #the shocking thing to them is that they nothing on me if anything the 'proof' she showed me almost exposed her and her crowd #i have deleted my fb account but i still have the screenshots somewhere