#give me the death that i crave

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

sometimes i feel bad about killing ants in my home, but then i remember that the death i gift them is far swifter and more merciful than the one they would receive at the hands of their brethren

#war is a language they understand and crave so yknow what? ill give them a warriors death #immediately crushed into sweet oblivion via swiffer #every time i face down an ant invasion i feel this grim sense of mutual understanding #if not me then it would be their neighboring colony #and the colony would be brutal and vicious #absolutely unprompted

[moeblob]

Third crime child is Shidou, thank you for the interest and reading my tags. He's the third.

@ladylolalilly thank you for being curious

#milgram #kirisaki shidou #listen i love him so much and hes so miserable and wants to die #honestly the entire group is just so good and unique im just v picky and have my prefs #also shidous voice is just super soothing ?? #i really enjoy this guy being part of a smoking group like...... idk man just give the guy friends #he needs the friendship and craves the guilty verdict of death and that makes him viable for adoption bc i said so #me pointing at the second oldest prisoner and saying THATS MY SON? v likely

[noahstayed]

The Tarsus Nine being a group of people that seem like mostly kids that survived the unsurvivable will always get me. Even when I’m not on my Star Trek Bullshit.

#Star Trek TOS #It's the only movie I crave #GIVE ME the 9 children who saw the face of death and screamed 'no' and lived to be the only ones to tell the tale #The Tarsus Nine #Tarsus IV

[daz4i]

do y'all also have those thoughts like "i don't think i will ever get better, but on the off chance i will, i don't know who i'd be, i don't know who i am without my [insert mental illness], and i'm scared of that" or am i the weird one

#nah ik it's common and why a lot of ppl put recovery off #still. it feels stupid to think this way. but. i don't know myself without depression #in my 'lines to use in future songs' file i have one that fits here. you learned what death is and immediately started craving it #in a way it almost feels like i'm defined by that. i associate myself with a lot of topics related to death bc of that #it's like smth that gives me a sense of identity. as silly as it sounds #so if you take that away there's nothing left there. yknow? #ANYWAY how's it going. sorry for being a bummer it will happen again #vent #kinda?? #ask to tag

[animentality]

Do you answer all the durgetash anons that pop through your inbox?

Pretty much, yeah.

Sometimes people send poorly worded ones, or ones that I actually don't agree with...but I'll still reply.

You can definitely tell which ones I like more than others, though, based on how complex my answer is. Or if I say something super gay, vs. more evasive or going completely off on a tangent.

But I don't want anyone to feel bad, which is why I'll answer them anyway. Don't want to shut anyone down.

#i tend to reply to most anons actually not just durgetash #its only anon hate that includes slurs that i delete #or if someone says something so stupid i cant even explain to them how stupid what they said was #the durgetash discourse scuffle of last month was basically a mess of me deleting anons though #like i was getting a lot of slurs and unfunny death threats #the usual kill yourselves #but those arent fun to reply to #i really only reply to anon hate thats funny to me #ill delete the other stuff cuz it isnt worth giving them the attention they crave

[caernua]

girl help i started pillars of eternity and i feel another hyperfixation coming

#listenlistenlisten i wanna play bg3 but i can't for some time but like. the videos made me really miss a story heavy rpg #and i was getting nostalgic for dao but i did not want to deal with origin again fuck that #so i was like. let's give poe a try again. and now bc i'm really in the mood to pay attention and enjoy the story #BC I'M JUST. CRAVING FANTASY RN GIVE ME ALL THE LORE #and i really love it so far and i love that we are ALL obsessed with the godlikes #esp death and moon. yes. yes #idk what happened i always loved fantasy but rn i feel the need to have it shoved down my THROAT #give me taverns. give me armors. give me invented religions and languages and culture #INJECT ITTTT 💉💉💉💉💉💉 #.txt #but do i understand what's happening and how to play? absolutely not. i am stupid but i am free

[beepbeepdespair]

i think they should rename powerwash simulator play hide and seek with dirt simulator. the last 4% of this job has taken me about ten years i think

#this ferris wheel is making me crave death i spent ten minutes trying to work out why one section wasnt done #and ive had to do whole ass logic puzzles working out how many pods to spin the wheel by to get some beams in range #AND the game lost my progress at 88% so i had to start again. youre only giving me 900 dollars for this? suck my dick bri #ok to reblog #beep beep gets personal #personal #textpost #text post #gaming #gamer problems #powerwash simulator #power washing #power wash simulator #simulator

[thicc-mothman]

grieving a pet will make a motherfucker believe in the afterlife

#not to be grieving on main but #like. is she waiting for me #are there people there who can give her what she needs? #is it warm? #is she getting pets while she waits? #does she miss me like i miss her? #does she crave to be held by me like i crave to hold her again? #when i see her in dreams is that her coming to visit? #tw pet death

[nananarc]

just realized that i have lived past the age that i thought would live

#hmmm #i mean not dying isnt a thing that i can celebrate #if only i can give my life force away to people who truly crave life #im not being suicidal at the moment #its just that i wanna talk openly and carefree without judgement about the fact that i do not wish to be here and not even in a sad way #i just am #kinda sick of the toxic positivity ngl #i am just indifferent about being alive as much as i enjoy the beauty of life and the world and nature #cryptic na posting #if another person tell me to “oh but life is beautiful and you should treasure it” and “be happy that you are alive” and and and #fuck off #i am taking advantage of life as much as a person life me can and im not throwing it away #but at the same time #let me be at peace with death and the end #allow me to think of an eternal rest

[kingsofgaytham]

i have finished my ofmd rewatch and yes i'm happy i did it cause my love for this show and its cast grew even more since i noticed so many tiny details or background subplots i missed the first time, the whole cravat exchange between Stede and Ed...but now my heart breaks even more for them, especially poor Edward, manipulated by Izzy and pushed to his limits where he once again puts on the persona he detests but this time he's also mourning the life he already envisioned in his head with Stede :((((

their reunion is gonna be so emotional and i hope by the end of season 2 we get to see Ed embrace his true desires (like soft, silk clothes and eating marmalade at the sunrise with his dumb boyfriend) and i'm excited for Stede to finally experience mutual love, not an empty spectacle put on for the society even tho he really needs to work on his thinking and communication skills cause this whole drama could've been avoided if he told Ed he wants to fix things with his family first ANYWAY i'm sure s2 will make me cry and laugh and scream and i can't wait 💜

#also the spoilers/bts from season 2 i've seen have me excited #the dancing shot with roach and fang???? #i need to see end and stede dance in matching outfists okay #they better meet and make up/make out in the first half of the season #my bet personally is ep 3/4 #they're gonna be so gentle and soft with each other please #let ed have fine things aka his boyfriend #also i imagine stede will find the red silk drifting in the sea and bring it back to edward #lucius and black pete reunion is also gonna be one of the top moments i can tell #also the flag with two skeletons seen on the clapperboards is giving co-captains #also also i feel like ed pushed lucius because he's the one that first made him notice stede's affection #it was lucius who consoled ed and saw him at his most vulnerable (crying over stede) #lucius is also the one in a happy gay relationship and he doesn't hide his love for pete #which is something ed craves for himself with stede #lucius was kind of a catalyst for gentlebeard because he made ed realise his feeling for stede are not only valid but might be reciprocated #anyways i have many thoughts about ehat happens in season 2 #and even more pirate brainrot #also my spanish got better over the last year because i could actually understand everything lmao #ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #edward teach #the gentleman pirate #blackbeard #gentlebeard #lucius spriggs #black pete #black pete x lucius spriggs #one last thing izzy is a dick and i hope he sees ed and stede's happiness and eats his other toe

[yourmanicpixidreangirl]

#love sick #irl yandere #crush #i love you #i need it #i want it #i crave validation #please love me #give me love #love me to death #stalk me #daddy issues

[sansebastinae]

#I don’t usually like to personal life post but these last 3 weeks or so have Not Been Great for me #and while the feeling is not ‘wanting to off myself’ I severely feel like walking into a closet and never getting out until a nuke strikes #i cannot in good faith say congrats to my friend because they keep complaining to me about a job and they get it first before me #when I’ve busted ass trying to find and getting rejections all the time #I want to say ‘I feel angry at you’ or ‘awesome for you’ or literally any feeling but all I feel is indifference #I just want to become atomic dust at this point. not even craving death just sudden disappearance #I’m going to go eat an egg sandwich #but yes welcome to my life. I don’t ask for a lot I just want to work the thing I like #I don’t feel a lot. but using a chainsaw to saw a cabinet in half might give me more feeling than the stone-done heart I do have now #no relation to cars here. sorry for you opening the tags #idle thoughts

[astral-catastrophe]

you always wonder why I’m in such a bad mood

well, bitch, it’s because you’re acting like an entitled princess

#Sister is being the worst again #If this shit doesn’t stop. I am actually going to snap #And to think. I was in a good mood just fifteen minutes ago #Rip my good mood. Idk when it’ll return #Like. Holy shit. I have a good reason to constantly be pissed and on the verge of tears #You exist. And you literally never give me a break from your attitude #And then you have the audacity to wonder why I am upset and crave death? Damn I wonder why 🙄

[anxiously-going]

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#i am in paaaiiin #my tail bone hurts #why has my body and ibuprofen betrayed me so #i crave iced coffee and death #i will give you gas money to hit me with your car #why are periods monthly #who decided this #i want gummy worms and to be cuddle #but also if someone tried to touch me right now i may rip their hand off with my bare teeth #not to be dramatic or anything though #screaming into the void #dont mind me #im juat awaiting the swet release of death

[yellowsubiesdance]

oh god dammit WHY

#i guess this’ll give me time to catch up on my work #but why would i want to do that when i can sleep and watch my shows #speaking of which my tv still isn’t set up 🙃 #i crave death #this is my punishment ig

[dinosaurcharcuterie]

There's the classic warning about living abroad that, yes, you'll come out of it richer and with broader horizons, but no matter where you are after, you'll always be homesick for a place you're not currently at.

And that's true.

What they don't tell you is, even if you're pretty okay on homesickness most days, you'll still get cravings for food which simply doesn't exist once you cross the border.

#not me looking up how unrealistic it is to make your own lomper in a tiny German kitchen #belgian pastry dough #coburger kloße #comfort food #“the typical food for this area is--” #i want a bacon wrapped pork hotdog in a potato based tortilla and the driest squarest chocolate covered croissant filled with pudding after #i am still in Germany and somehow can't find the key ingredient to make a German dish #perversely I can find several recipes for potato based flatbread #but it's the WRONG FLATBREAD #yes fried and stuffed with raisins sounds yummy but it's not the vibe I'm craving right now #GIVE ME LOMPER OR GIVE ME DEATH #homesick #cravings #exchange student #living abroad #expatlife #I do not want to be in a Norwegian gas station rn #the weather is miserable and my pain is flaring up #i just want their food #if I had a bottle of red julebrus right now I would cry #i also looked up if I can make flatbrød at home #honestly tempted #just need barley bread flour #should warm up the house nicely too