#gonna post her pics tomorrow i love her already

[newtkive]

shift shenanigans - s1 social media au

note: jus for fun ! may or may not do more parts.

warnings: crude humor, slightly offensive jokes from richie sry

part two

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chefboyardee: my friends! i love my friends! the two on the right more than the left (i’m joking i promise) 😁😁😁😁

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syd_adamu: brave of you to call him your friend y/n

↳ chefboyardee: boss man carmy save me

↳ syd_adamu: oh.. :///

marcus.brooks11: you did me so dirty, friend.

↳ chefboyardee: love you marcus you look spectacular

↳ marcus.brooks11: don’t start

richietheking: Where am I?

↳ chefboyardee: ya motha

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richietheking: Getting sh$!t done.

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marcus.brooks11: This is coolllddd.

↳ richietheking: You already know it man.

syd_adamu: this is actually crazy

carmyberzatto: can you show this on instagram? i think you should delete this.

↳ richietheking: Delete your life.

chefboyardee: come down to the beef for a number 6 the occy way 💯 the safest joint on the block 🤑💯we are 🔛🔝

↳ richietheking: Eyyy I know that’s right.

↳ carmyberzatto: please don’t advertise this.

WE HAVE THE BEEF 🥩

[ 8:25 am ]

y/n:

bruh im about to lose it. heads up when you guys get to work.

marcus: that catering order is about to be crazy

DO NOT REPLY: These white boards are stressing me out.

syd: we know, probably giving you ptsd from not finishing high school

DO NOT REPLY: Fuck you I did finish it.

y/n: oh i gotta change ur contact name richie

richie poo: ????? What

y/n: it was ‘DO NOT REPLY’ lols

marcus: valid

syd: real

richie poo: What? Why?! That’s so rude

y/n: cuz you piss me off

and you kept blowing up my phone yesterday

richie poo: You weren’t answering, and we needed help at the cook out.

syd: the one where you poisoned everyone?

richie poo: Fuck off.

y/n: when i’m off work, i’m off work.

marcus: don’t let carmy hear that, y/n

y/n: don’t remind me

syd: he’s trying at least, go easy on him. he really has great ideas

richie poo: You mean you have great ideas in that little notebook

tina: Never trust a broad with a notebook.

syd: hey! i’m just being helpful

y/n: do you guys think my ig post will hurt carmys feelings

marcus: it would make me a little sad if i were him, but i don’t think he cares

y/n: great i’m gonna cry now

syd: i doubt he even saw it y/n it’s fine

richie poo: Check the work chat. Cousin is in a mood.

y/n: oh great

tina: Help us all.

syd: be nice you guys

WORK

[ 9:15 am ]

carmy: Everyone, we have huge catering orders tomorrow to prep for today. Please get here as soon as you can, the earlier you clock in the better. Additionally, please be careful what you post on social media. I don’t want people to get the wrong impression

y/n: yes chef 👨‍🍳

syd: ok sounds good

richie poo: Cool it, Cousin. What’s the issue with the social media

tina: I use FaceBook. That not allowed now??

carmy: Tina, you’re fine. I’m talking about those who post work things on public accounts

marcus: facebook is crazy

richie poo: I can’t go private

y/n: he needs the likes

richie poo: No I’m disabled from doing so. Not sure why

y/n: liar

richie poo: 😑I don’t like you

carmy: Then please don’t post pics of yourself posting up with a gun and an air horn outside of my shop anymore.

marcus: that pic was fire can’t lie

carmy: Well, it’s bad for business.

richie poo: Fine, whatever

y/n: carmy

carmy: What, Y/n?

y/n: is this because of my caption on my post i’m sorry i promise i wasn’t being for real

carmy: I don’t care Y/n.

y/n: is that code for ‘i care a lot and i’m crying in the office right now and that’s why the door is closed’

oh

syd: ? why the oh

y/n: he opened the door and yelled no 🤨 but i think i saw red eyes

carmy: Please get back to work and I’ll comp a meal for you later

y/n: OMG yes chef 😍

richie poo: Inappropriate emojis and you shouldn’t have to incentivize her to work

y/n: shut up acting like HR i’m gonna beat your ass

jealousy is ugly which is why you have that mug on your face

carmy: Stop

y/n: yes chef 👨‍🍳

i heard your giggle tho

richie poo: Again with the schizo episode

syd: you can’t say that richie

richie poo: Oh sorry

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[folkloresthings]

OFF DUTY.

( carlos sainz x reporter!reader )

in which ferrari’s spanish driver is smitten for the grid’s newest broadcaster.

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yourusername surprise! very happy and proud to announce i’ll be working with @f1 this season to do report all of the juicy grid gossip and going—ons 🏎️❤️

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user omg you’re kidding

f1 can’t wait! you’re gonna smash it

danielricciardo welcome to the team!!!

user MOTHER HAS ARRIVED

carlossainz55 wearing the right colour already, you’ll fit in perfectly

⤷ landonorris brb sending her mclaren merch

user she’s so pretty what the hell

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carlossainz55 a tough quali race but we came out in a good position. looking forward to tomorrow and hopefully coming out in another top spot!

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scuderiaferrari let’s race!

user not the random pic with y/n thrown in there

⤷ user pls he’s not subtle 😭😭😭

yourusername such a fun interview! good luck tomorrow!! 🫶

user i ship it

user the holy trinity 🙏

landonorris cute

yourusername posted a story! two mins ago

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carlossainz celebrations, but i don’t know which prize was better

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landonorris adopt me please 🙏

user carlos has a gf??????????

user if he’s dating someone that’s not y/n i s2g

yourusername proud of u 🥰

maxverstappen you two make me nauseous

⤷ yourusername don’t know what ur talking about buddy

⤷ user GASP ⁉️

charles_leclerc bro you’re down bad

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yourusername officially a ferrari girl & i couldn’t be prouder. love you to p1 and back ❤️

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carlossainz55 mi amor ❤️

#formula 1 #carlos sainz #carlos sainz imagine #carlos sainz instagram edit #carlos sainz x reader #formula 1 imagine #formula 1 instagram au

[luvhughes43]

soft launch | quinns gf au

[quinns gf au 📖]

note: sydney & alicia are rosemarys friends the fics just haven't come out yet

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jackhughes HBD old man

_quinnhughes old ? boy...

lhughes_06 happy birthday

rosemary happy birthday!

user35 is that a girl ?

user41 he has friends literally be serious who cares

user50 the aesthetic and cohesion of this post.... ohh he 100% has a gf

user26 don't say this!! i'll cry if it happens😭😭

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rosemary lovers lane <3

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_quinnhughes you're gorgeous ❤️

sydney cutie girl

alicia lovee youu

user00 the prettiest! miss u ro

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rosemary you could say that renovations are going well

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_quinnhughes my foot is still bruised from the shelf you dropped

rosemary i am soo sorry about that but look how cute it turned out!

rosemary i bought bath bombs and cooked spaghetti as an apology

_quinnhughes im omw

sydney omfg it looks so good! i'm gonna come shopping tomorrow!

user00 Love the new renovations! Your grandparents would be so proud Rosemary!

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months later...

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rosemary sweetheart summers💐📝

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_quinnhughes 💐💐

sydney obsessed with you

alicia cuties !!

trevorzegras 🤐🛸

user57 QUINN?? THE NOTE?? OMFG??

user68 girl what's it like being quinns gf?

user41 this HAS to be his gf omfg likee his comment??

user02 she's so pretty ugh he won

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_quinnhughes best summer yet 💐

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rosemary my favourite ily 💘

_quinnhughes i love you❤️

jackhughes sap

lhughes_06 congrats man!

user71 never thought i'd see the day where quinn would post pics of his gf...

user42 im. hyperventilating.

user86 oh..

user53 SHOULDVE BEEN ME...

user90 you guys are so cute!! congrats

user23 HE .. LOVES.. HER..

user19 youre like 15 relax. he was never gonna date u!😭

user21 ohh rough day for the hughes girls (me) 😭😭

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rosemary my last few days in michigan have me in my feels

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_quinnhughes already counting down the days till i'm back in van with you

rosemary youre not the only one! my grandpa keeps asking when you can come visit😭🫶

_quinnhughes booking my flight back right now

jackhughes come back any time!

rosemary i don't think i want to leave😭

trevorzegras what are the plans for ur last night?

_quinnhughes you're not invited!

trevorzegras oh 🧍‍♂️

jacksgf pls don't leave me alone with the boys😭🙏

rosemary i'm sorry🫠💘

sydney on the bright side i can't wait for u to come home! imy!

rosemary i miss you too! night in when i get back ?

alicia ohh i'll bring the wine!

user09 THE cutest couple

user61 the last pic🫠 you guys are so damn cute

i'm so sorry this took me so long to post... i hope you guys like it!🫂

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#quinns gf au #quinn hughes x reader #quinn hughes imagine #quinn hughes blurb #quinn hughes x oc #nhl fanfiction #nhl fic #nhl blurb #nhl imagine

[k2ntoss]

okay, so, adding onto your, as of this moment, most recent post, just picture it: you catch onto the fact that jason gets all smug seeing his handiwork on your nails when you jerk him off, and decide to surprise him by going out and testing literally every possible red nail polish available until you find the exact perfect shade that matches his helmet, and giving it to him as part of his gift for some occasion or another (personally I'm thinking either his birthday or Christmas, anniversary could work also)

but like, just imagine how thrilled he would be and how eager he would be to get that colour on your nails, and how impatient he would be for them to dry so he could see them in action, yknow? 👀👀

-🦊 (also omg i have my own tag now?🥹)

allow me to tell you that since you're the first "formal" anon with an emoji you are indeed my favorite, plus i'm always happy to see you around here bc you feed my delusions so thanks 🦊 ily, so yes you have your own tag

jason had to get used to his birthday being a little different since he started dating you, he had a reason to celebrate now and it was lovely, since he woke up you would shower him in details and little gifts and he loved to feel like a spoiled child because he felt all the love you had for him.

this year it wasn't different and his day was filled with things he liked a lot until he had to leave on patrol for a while so it was the perfect opportunity for you to prepare his last gift. it had been a while since he found out he liked painting your nails just to see artwork when you wrapped your hands around his dick, it simply made him grin proudly because it was his girl pleasing him and showing off her pretty nails, done by him so you decided to feed that little monster in jason's head. a whole week going into every store you saw to get the perfect shade of red that could match his helmet, carrying a pic on your phone just of the color to compare it until you found the one.

as soon as he slid into your apartment through the window he noticed the lights of the living room on which meant that you were there waiting for him so he made his way there. as soon as he saw you he took off the helmet, holding it under his arm and giving you a wide grin "isn't it past your bed time, princess?" jason asks teasingly as he walks towards the couch to sit next to you.

"no, it isn't because i have two last things for the birthday boy" you reply with a mischievous smile, handing him a small white box tied with a pretty red bow that he didn't wait to undo just to open the little box.

the smile that crept to his face was enough to know he was thinking about the reason behind the red nail polish bottle he was holding between his fingers, his eyes fixed on yours before he leaned in to kiss you but he stopped as soon as you tilted your head "are you gonna give me your pretty hands or do i have to ask?" jason's voice drops low and it makes a shiver run down your spine and even lower between your legs because you know what he wants.

"isn't it past my bed time? maybe we should wait until tomorrow morning so we can sleep" you reply, pushing jason a little just to build a little more of that pretty glint of need and desperation on his eyes and you let out a chuckle when he shakes his head, hair going messy and his white strand mixing a little with his jet black hair.

"you don't expect me to wait, right? give me your hands and let me see how they look when you use them on my cock, baby" jason's words make you swallow hard before you lay your hands on his thigh so he can start painting your nails and he's quick without messing it not even a little bit and you can't help but smiling when he's blowing on them to dry the nail polish.

"someone is getting a little impatient" you tease him which only earns you a low growl from his lips, he's impatient and needy because you can already see the outline of his half hard dick under his tactical pants and how his chest heaves under the chest plate so you blow a little too on your nails. jason stares at you, he even counts into his head how many minutes he has to wait until his trained eye sees the paint is dry.

"down on your knees. now" he almost barks the order as he spreads his legs to let you sit between them on the floor just to be met by his helmet placed between his thighs "put your pretty hands on the helmet, baby" jason says and you do so, his blood is boiling at the sight because the shade is exactly the same and his hands go a little clumsy when he decides to undo his belt and the buttons of his pants, taking away the helmet just so your hands can start to stroke him over his boxers.

there's soft grunts escaping his lips even if you're not touching him completely yet but he's so turned on by the color on your nails he can't really help it. leaning in he grabs your hips to move your body until you're sitting over his heavy boot, the rough material making you tremble ever so slightly "be a good girl and sit pretty there for me, yeah, love?" his voice is low and he smirks when you are the one sliding your hand under his boxers to wrap your fingers around his hard dick, nodding at his words.

for jason there's nothing hotter than his girl but seeing you like this, getting him you know he likes to use with you makes him feel so good, the way you always seem to guess what he would enjoy a lot is like touching heaven and having you know, kneeling in front of him while you jerk him off sitting on his boot feels like the perfect birthday gift. your hand going up and down his length with the right amount of pressure before your thumb slides up to play with his tip drives him crazy, he thrust his hips a little just to urge you to keep going at the same time his hand holds your chin slowly guiding two digits into your mouth "don't you have anything to say to me, baby?" he asks with a smirk as his thumb presses your tongue to mess up with your words.

"happy birthday, jay..."

#⭒ 📬 ⭒ #🦊 anon #I NEED TO I NEED TO UHHHHHH #jason todd i need you so BAD #jason todd x fem!reader #jason todd x reader #jason todd x you #jason todd blurb #jason todd x y/n #jason todd imagine #jason todd smut #red hood imagine #red hood smut #red hood #jason todd #reader insert

[sunsetkerr]

HIGH TIDES | s.kerr

summary: a series of posts of sam being your biggest fan during the bells beach longboard comp.

pairing: surfer!reader x sam kerr

notes: surfer!reader I love youuuuu <3

yourinstagram has posted (3) stories !

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samanthakerr20 not my best angle ↳ yourinstagram every angle is a good angle ↳ mackenziearnold I will literally throw up

user1 y/n's dad straight brick walling it is so funny to me ↳ yourinstagram he fr has no emotion

user2 sam and billy &lt;3 ↳ user3 y/n's two children fr

user4 rare non-surf post from y/n?? ↳ yourinstagram it's all about the balance

alannablanchard such sweet pics!

user5 im coming to watch you at bells!! cant wait!

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liked by samanthakerr20, alannakennedy and 3,827 others yourinstagram I am so incredibly proud of all you have done 💚💛

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samanthakerr20 I love you

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samanthakerr20 not a chance ↳ yourinstagram you're a natural though ↳ samanthakerr20 no more saltwater in my lungs pls

user1 I would also date y/n if I saw her thighs, drooling

user2 sam's got her sausage roll ready to sit on the beach and watch y/n surf ↳ yourinstagram pretty much her role now that shes on break

alannakennedy those calfs!! ↳ yourinstagram where?!

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samkerrupdates sam's instagram stories from today, pictures of her girlfriend y/n who is prepping for the bells beach longboard competition! she placed 9th last year, hope she can get up this year- good luck y/n!

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liked by yourinstagram, matildas and 982,837 others samanthakerr20 bells tomorrow for this one. so proud to be able to support you like you do me, I am already so proud ❤️ shred babe

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yourinstagram im not crying

yourinstagram I love you so very much samantha

user1 SAM BEING SAPPY ON MAIN IS MY FAVOURITE THING

user2 I want y/n for myself I cannot lie

hayleyraso good luck tomorrow champion!!

user3 shes so pretty

maryfowlerrr my idol &lt;3 ↳ yourinstagram I love you maz

matildas our biggest supporter in the stands! we will be cheering you on y/n 💚💛

milliebright go shred some waves (or something like that)!!!!! ↳ yourinstagram THANK YOU MILLIE <3 I'LL SHRED A BIG ONE JUST FOR YOU

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liked by samanthakerr20, caitlinfoord and 3,847 others yourinstagram my first ever win. I have so many words that i want to say, but am not quite sure how to. these heats at bells were some of my best sets and I am so proud to have won this competition. I have the best support network ever, so thanks to my sammy, my mumma and my sister for coming out to watch me. I am so grateful 🏆

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samanthakerr20 shes queen of the wa-a-a-aves ↳ samanthakerr20 so fkn proud of you 🏆🏆🏆 ↳ user1 as if sam is quoting barbie right now 😭

caitlinfoord you're a champion!! congrats y/n

user2 she used the board sam got her, im SOBBING

user3 I WENT AND WATCHED IT WAS SO SICK!! ↳ user4 did you see sam? ↳ user3 when y/n came out of the water, she waited for the scores cause she was the last one to surf. hers was higher than anyone else in the heat and sam, her mum and sister all ran over to her. sam put y/n up on her shoulders!!! it was so sweet ↳ user5 omg please send pics if you have them!! ↳ user3 sam literally screamed so loud it was so funny

samanthakerr20 still reeling over this, im so proud y/n ↳ yourinstagram I love you forever sammy

#social media au . * • . #sam kerr x reader #sam kerr one shot #sam kerr imagine #woso imagine #woso one shot #woso x reader

[beatrixstonehill2]

"Thanks for coming to the party, uncle Sean," Brooke said with a funny smirk.

"Wow, you look gorgeous as ever! But not for long, I take it. This is so exciting to see. Your voice is already sounding like a boy. Needless to say, I definitely voted Republican with you in mind, sweetheart."

Brooke blushed. "Thank you! It's been so much fun being a girl but I'm not surprised you guys want to see me Detrans. Not gonna lie, I'm pretty excited myself....."

"I'll bet, I've seen those pictures you post of that cock! What are they pumping into you. Aren't you just being taken off estrogen?"

"Soooo, on paper the law says everyone under twenty-one is being detransed. I'm nineteen so of course I'm being taken off estrogen, but they're detransing us in steps."

"Like what? I can't believe those pictures.... the law's only been in effect like six months!"

"Well, a bit longer that. You aren't keeping up, uncle Sean! A previous version of the bill blocked my estrogen, then this one put me on extremely high doses of genital growth pills to, well, make me enthusiastic about being male. And of course, I was put on testosterone six months ago. How do I look so far?"

"You're definitely looking more masculine. I'd say you don't really pass anymore."

"Awww, that's so sweet! My cock definitely make that a challenge...."

"May I see it? I'm sure the pics on Instagram don't do it justice. Two inches to fifteen in a bit over six months? Your body must've been yearning for testosterone so badly, darling...."

"Oh, it definitely was! I can hardly hide my facial hair with makeup. And of course you can see my cock!" Brooke, lifted her skirt, showing off her oversized, swollen cock. The head of her cock was almost the size of her fist, surrounded by red, swollen foreskin, puffy and blubbery, jiggly as she jerked it for her uncle to see. "Isn't is just amazing?"

"Holy shit. It used to be two inches when you came to our place last summer! What a beauty! I bet you can't keep your hands off it. You keep posting so many masturbation vids."

"Awww, you watch them?"

"Of course, you look so innocent pumping away, your voice cracking, with your morning stubble. You're really starting to look nothing like a girl. You just need to get those big fat breasts removed."

"Definitely!" Brooke jerked her cock with two hands. "This party's celebrating me becoming legally male again. Don't spoil it, but later I'm announcing that a surgeon's removing my boobs tomorrow morning!"

"Your secret's safe with me! I can't wait to see everyone react to you finally getting rid of those big fat titties. Damn, they almost make you look like a girl."

Brooke smiled. "Maybe if you squint your eyes really hard. I'm just so clearly a boy." She jerked off her cock vigorously. "I need to make myself cum every two hours or so..... or else I cum on my own. I cum my bed at least twice a night. My parents are getting used to having me be a boy again. I masturbate all day long! It's soooo fun."

"Keep it up, dear! You're doing great. Just relax, shut off your brain, and keep pumping that huge cock. You'll forget you ever kind of looked like a girl."

"I can't wait until nobody can even tell I ever tried to pretend to be one! I'm such a perv.... it's so obvious I'm a boy!"

"Exactly.... and don't worry, darling. I think it was always pretty obvious you were never a girl."

Brooke rolled back her eyes, jerking off super hard, cumming all over herself. "Oops..... wow, I really am a boy. Thankfully I'm being forced to take all this delicious testosterone and dick growth pills! I love being a boy soooo much!❤️"

#detrans kink #mtf detrans kink #mtftm kink

[clemswinecorner-socials]

Sidetracked - [MM]

This is a continuation of "trackside", same disclaimers apply You can read side tracked here

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yourusername motorsports photographer takes on winter break

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jazbenham it was lovely to have you with us! poppy missed you already 💙💙

yourusername i had the best time!! tell poppy to give me or her uncle a call soon :)

masefan she spend xmas with his family 😭😭 pierregasly happy new year y/n! it's gonna be a good one oldschoolfriend look at you being all famous and shit, happy new year y/n! marcusarmstrong new years kiss?

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yourusername birthday boy 🫶🏼 do i make a longass sappy caption? maybe i will, because your love makes me a damn poet.

mason, you're truly someone i admire. the way you handle things and when you tell me that you sometimes can't. the way you help me when you need help too and the way you put aside whatever you think i don't want or need in order to feel good. even more i admire how it's not just me or your family you do this for, i also admire how you always try and keep up the team. you never lose faith in your friends and the people around you even when they don't feel deserving of it. i admire how you want what's best for people. i love the flowers you buy and how you read fanfiction, romance novels, vsco notes and pinterest to make sure you give me the love you believe i deserve. the love you make me believe i deserve, and that's something i never thought i would deserve. my love for you is beyond the world, mase, it will not dissapear even if the world dissapears. even if you dissapear. because you, mason, are my world. happy birthday. i love you more than you understand. tagged masonmount

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screamingmeals motorsports photographer goes on a podcast and talks life on track, good looking athletes and being a football wag we may have forgotten to take a picture, so as a bonus two pictures y/n took of us that she liked.

podcast out tomorrow. tagged yourusername, clementnovalak, marcusarmstrong, jamesharveyblair, goldenchild.tv

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yourfan y/n on screamingmeals this is not a drill y/n on screamingmeals juanmanuelcorrea_ i feel sorry for @/goldenchild.tv the editing mustve been terrible

yourusername can confirm a lot of beeps were needed

lissiemackintosh going purple next? racingfan im so curious what theyre dynamic will be like cuz y/n seems like the polar opposites of the boys clementnovalak this was an absolute steamer

yourusername dadoosh dadoosh dadoosh

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yourusername the champions!! 🏆🏆🏆💙🤍thanks for having me this chelsea, i truly felt at home all season. congrats team! tagged chelseafc, masonmount

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footiefan these pics!!!! clementnovalak LFG TEAAAAAAM🔥🔥 bestfriend what a moment. what a match! masonmount couldnt have done it without my goodluck charm💙🤍 masonmount thank you baby💙💙💙

yourusername mason i am so unbelievably proud of you. i love you so much!

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Oh I hope to read your theory soon , I think it’s Everest Base Camp the busy days on SM possibly during acclimatising and now quiet on the actual trek . He has mentioned the documentary briefly in recent interviews saying the planned movie was cancelled , if not that I’d guess another book about the experience . Doubt he met with Jake N as a fan bet he was planning something .

Well you name the things we all saw. The movie that isn't going to happen, he so looked forward to it. Yes, we saw him with Jake N. while holding a book about Everest. Yes he mentioned a number of times how he would like to do a documentary or something about it. But did we really think he'd do it, and like now... doubtful.

Yes, I mentioned last Monday briefly, when I posted all the speculation about his whereabouts and said I considered Nepal seriously for a bit, and how I saw Jake N is in Nepal as well.

Yesterday I was chatting to someone with whom I often brainstorm and share thoughts regarding where he might be when it's not clear, or what he might be doing. We were talking about how normally there is always something, a lead, that points us in the right direction. Either by himself or by a fan pic or something.

Now knowing that he's been off the grid since last Thursday and the days before showing activity in a timezone that mostly matched Asia. I revisited the idea of Nepal, or India, Himalaya, trekking. I looked up some things on sites, and discovered how

November is a best time for trekking in India in winter, as the weather is generally cold and the landscapes are adorned with autumnal hues. If you’re an adventure adventure lover and seeking for amazing experience then India offers a various trekking options that allow you to immerse yourself in the beauty of nature.

And saw a number of treks in the Everest Basecamp area, and started looking at locations on IG. Wow quite stunning, I must say. Of course would love to find him in a pic or a video but quite honestly, the footage people post from there, wow, just wow so beautiful. What a fantastic place, and the way they talk about their treks and trips...

Anyway, it was getting late (as usual) and I told my chat partner, I was gonna sleep and planned to look at it the next day. I was halfway up the stairs as it suddenly dawned on me. I almost banged my head against the wall, how could I forget... of course there is always a lead... I went back to my chat partner, cause I had to tell her...

Remember the shirt? No, not the one I posted in my previous post... this one

Nepal... and the text on the sleeve

“I am not afraid of tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday and love today”

Someone back then already said,

"So is it a subliminal marketing choice for an upcoming Everest production or is he doing some deep diving into his future"

And now we're here... asking why he's off the grid for days now and was posting at this weird times... yeah makes sense now. Oh and btw. there's the Patagonia hat as well!

And even more... quite a number of people were saying how he seemed distracted lately, during the book events especially. Well, if he's there doing a trek of multiple days, and it is not gonna be an easy one (I mean, he already almost quite the WHW), I can imagine he might have been a little nervous about the kind of trip he was going to make.

Anyway, I haven't found the evidence (yet) so it's still a theory, but have seen such fantastic posts and stories about it all day, so no time wasted here. Loved to look at it, and will keep looking. Who knows maybe soon he'll give us a teaser. He could be off the grid for a while, though some of these treks have resting days, but most people post after their trek.

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Just wanted to ask what your *favorite* like, Top 10 furniture/build cc is? also where we could get it? sry if you dont do asks i just like your stuff

Hey! Okay, this is SUCH a hard question asdfghjhgfd so i'm gonna be super annoying and do a broader version with some of my favourite buildbuy creators. because i am not joking when i say i could easily list like hundreds of my top cc asdfghjkjhgfdfghjjhgf i hope thats okay!!!

asdfghjjhgf this post uhm. got away from me and ended up being SO LONG lmao but i think its worth it!

@teekalu

If you like retro/mid century modern style cc, then teekalu's stuff is ESSENTIAL!!!!!!

literally obsessed with their colour palettes! everything matches SO nicely and you could easily decorate whole rooms/houses with just their stuff alone

THE WALLPAPERSSSSSSSSSSSSS argh my ultimate favourite!!!! like, i mean it when i say that if i could only have one set of CC in my mods folder and nothing else, it would be teekalu's wallpapers. i use them in every single build ever and would actually be bereft without them

not JUST build buy cc but also lots and cas cc!!!! and its all amazing and such a vibe!!!!

@pictureamoebae

did somebody say colour options? because there's COLOUR OPTIONS GALORE!!!!!!

MATCHING!!!!!!!!! leading on from the point about colour options, most of her cc comes in MULTIPLE colour palette options, so the options for matching different sets is ENDLESS. seriously, it's like, incredible and sooooooo appreciated

awesome mix of build AND buy!!! i must admit that i go ham mostly on her wallpaper cc (are we sensing a theme here? listen i hoard wallpaper cc like there's no tomorrow i cant help it) BUT the buy items are ALSO AMAZING???? and again, everything MATCHES!!!!!!!! oh, AND there's some incredible builds, too?!?!? the talent!!! and it would be remiss not to mention that pictureamoebae is like, the reshade master

@kiwisim4

as we all know by now, i LOVE quirky cc. if it's colourful and fun, i'm THERE, and kiwisim4's content totally fits that bill

the tui series is my FAVOURITE!!! the COLOUR! the STYLE! the PIZAZZ!

ANDDDDD for those who want something a lil' more mainstream and less super specific, there's also a bunch of other sets in different styles that can fit any type of aesthetic and decor choice!

FOR EVERY ROOM TOO! kitchens? bathrooms? studies? living rooms? kids bedrooms? check, check, check, check and CHECK!

@zx-ta

aight buckle up y'all because i am constantly perplexed that zx-ta doesn't receive more love because LET ME TELL YOU, her cc is SO! FREAKING! GOOD! STOP READING MY POST RN AND GO CHECK OUT HER CREATIONS!!!!!

truly consider this to be the swiss army knife of cc creation - you want ts3 and ts2 to ts4 conversions? what about medieval and historical cc? genius additions to existing game content like separated sinks? wall art? planters? WELL HERE IT IS! literally every style/aesthetic/era/furniture type you could ever wish for

ik i mentioned it already but the SEPERATED SINKS!!!!! GENIUS! GALAXY BRAINED! also the movie hangout kitchen set IS SOOOOOOOOO GOOOD

@sforzcc

aaaaaaaand no build/buy cc list of mine would be complete without mentioning the incredible sforzinda. listen, if you see cool clutter in any of my pics, there's a 90% chance its by them

aight they do truly chefs kiss CAS cc, BUT, i am OBSESSED with their separated clutter sets in particular. how many times have you looked at game asset and thought, hey, there's some rlly cute bits in this but then its like, part of a MASSIVE object that you never really use. well, sforzinda basically solves that time and time again and me and my mods folder are SO thankful. AND THE WALL ART ITEMS!!!!! THE MESH EDITS!!!!!!!!!

my most favourite one is undoubtedly the separated little campers clutter set, but also THE HIGH SCHOOL YEARS BED PACK!!!! ARGH!!!! SO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!

im sorry i didnt like answer your question really asdfghjhgfds i just, i have SO many favourites id never be able to narrow it down asdfghjhgfds. if you (or anyone else!) ever wants like a specific idk top beds, top coffee tables, top floors etc tho pls let me know because i'd definitely be able to make myself be SLIGHTLY more specific then asdfghjhgfdsdfghj. this was rlly fun tho!!! thank you so much for your ask, I hope this was at least a wee bit useful asdfghjkjhgfdfghjkjhg

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Proud Reject (Part 1)

I’m literally blind my eyesight has deteriorated further everything’s blurry the day starts in bed & ends like that too no sunlight no connection with the outside world no one to talk to just my phone and my thoughts & loads of tears… that’s how everyday begins and ends. Its not self imposed, this happens when you are isolated by people. I can’t type but I wanted to write this… I love this mini story or script more than my next book even though the book’s more interesting but out of personal choice I like the story which I’ll be sharing tomorrow more than that, it’s not on any professional level it’s just something I would’ve discussed with a friend and laughed ie. if I had friends, something started that particular “topic” and I couldn’t help wondering… what if?

My heart was in my mouth again cuz I received a reel on FB which had his friend Aditya (he was either pretending to be him in 2016 or he himself inspite of being engaged was interested idk) they were dancing like most tv ppl and I got another panic attack… my mother was already torturing me, I woke up with high fever I still have fever headache it’s been there since a week I’m getting wheezing due to continuous crying and I realised that he wants someone famous to make such videos too. Someone rich and famous like that. Even in abroad there’s no pressure, over there all those celebs (who are are much more popular) even the ones in their early 20s when they make videos that too just one or two out of fad, they film it on their cheap phones they don’t care about the blurry quality they are not trying to sell it, they just don’t care about all that and those who are of my age (still nowhere close to Aditya, he was older than Harsh also) some of them, even if they have all those pics that I personally like (with their boyfriends - trekking or at the lake, casual everyday candid shots) they still find it hard to cope with social media and they eventually take a break from it, had they been in my position they too would’ve ended up like this out of all that pressure. I can’t keep up with your life. Few things that I’ll like to share before starting with my story, A - the sketches I’m sorry if he was hurt. I had not made them, my book wasn’t like Rupi Kaur’s either it never had those intimate doodles. I think my mother stalks me (I don’t want to write about her publicly but I have to share all this please don’t judge me by her) and she has taken advantage of a lot of things and also challengingly said “Did anyone come to help you? Everyone hates you and no one pays attention no one cares, everyone wants you to die and you will die alone like this” she has also told me a lot of hurtful things related to that guy, taking advantage of that as well and and the problem is (my hands are cold n numb lifeless rn) I can’t convey my feelings directly through some app or something so I have to rely on these public posts NO MAILS he ain’t some God or Celebrity (being a celebrity means being celebrated not deprecated) I’m not some groupie or teenager to mail my fav celebrity crush and he doesn’t belong to any boy band. What’s in it for me? Will I be rescued from my mother or helped with my health issues which started DUE TO HIM? Or is he just gonna sit there reading my mail, getting happy with all the validation after which he’ll ignore it. Am I that? Hahaha I’m not into human worship. We are more focused on our lives… especially those like me in my position. She has told me several times that I’m a “sl-u-tt” for being in LOVE or for falling in love. She also came up with the forcer tag even thought it was torturous for me and I kept crying and saying STOP stop stop cuz for us as girls rape or force is worse than murder, I never wanted him to marry me just to take responsibility for his actions I never wanted to punish him with myself and I always respected him and I’ll continue to do so I’m not his fans to write cheap comments like I saw in that dancing video (they were writing about his shirt). That tacky shirt made the whole video even more disturbing, and I didn’t see the entire thing I was in the middle of a panic attack, I just saw one shot then I died. After that I vomited, my pressure was falling rapidly and I kept crying for days cuz you know what right… (25th Oct) anyway I never shared this (one more reason/aspect) like that Chote Pandit tells Ruhaan or Ruh Baba “Aap par aise chichore kapde jajte nahi hai” I was like aah that is what they call it… anyway haha but I don’t want anyone who is being an “eye candy” for other females on television, they come and hit on him in comments that too cheap comments. Yes everyone’s doing it but that’s why we are so depressed and you are anyway not with me I don’t even get a fraction of your day or time.

My mother used that word force several times (she has said other unimaginable offending things too) cuz I was crying and it was triggering me, she said it because I wanted him to say something (but we weren’t even discussing that) for talking or communication cuz I just wanted his OCD to break. It started within 24 hours and not how you might think we met on 2nd Oct then 2 years later 2nd April and I know that we all feel jaded to text sometimes or keep the conversation going, we might not feel enthusiastic anymore after that initial excitement or whatever but it wasn’t like that, if it would’ve been that I wouldn’t have even taken so much stress. We’ve all done that at some point in our lives, internet makes us lethargic, we also get addicted to more exploration or finding new people to talk to… we feel like we can do better or take our time to choose whoever’s the most ideal for us, but his case was totally different.

At some point we would all respond or say something maybe after a week or even after getting let’s say - reconnected after losing contact or reaching a temporary impasse. We wouldn’t hold on to any grudge or some kind of a “promise” he swore never to talk to me, there was nothing to be mad about, he just decided that we will never have any direct contact his parents also said “We don’t want to keep any talukaat (contact) particularly with your daughter” he kept liking my pics BUT not replying to any of the texts (when he started liking my photos religiously I texted him on FB messenger because I thought maybe my texts weren’t getting through and I wasn’t receiving his due to some glitch but he READ those FB texts and still didn’t respond) and even after that he was liking the pics then when I told him “Are u feeling sorry for me, why do you keep liking the photos, is it the BB pin what you wanted, I even gave you a reason that too it was all funny and I gave it the very same night as soon as I woke up in the middle of it I gave it” he removed me from the list after that. I am getting wheezing I can’t get overwhelmed I had shared the exact thing which I told him when he was asking for my pin (long ago) I can’t keep reiterating everything everywhere. He then kept blocking and ignoring my real account but speaking to the fake ID

The coincidences and those premonitions in my dreams had already started which made me more curious about his behaviour so I tried talking to him but that fake ID like I said was for my school friend who was also stalking me with her fake ID. And I would not see his stories or anything, I was playing her Snapchat story but his was queued so it started playing by default where I saw that training session. When I tried speaking to him using my real acc… he not only blocked me AS SOON AS HE HEARD MY NAME (like I said he wanted no “direct” contact between me and him) he also made his account private. He made me feel like a stalker, I had already started getting panic attacks and I had stopped watching TV it has been off since then (2015 Sept) I tried moving on in Aug itself but I told you what happened over and over again, same old story repeated heartbreaks… cuz they only wanted girls like me as a call girl and according to them only pageant winners or models, fair and rich or extremely famous girls even those with notoriety (nothing worth all that attention) who were out of their league were all meant for dating. I never fell in that category. Eventually they ended up with actual call girls. I have seen their pics and I’ve seen some in real life too. All those other girls whom they were chasing would treat them like “fans” karma. Not only actors everyone these days does that and then girls of my level (caliber) get married to roadside romeos and illiterate creeps/pervs cuz all those men also want someone out of their league and they prey on us… this is a common problem in India. Anyway like I said I just wanted to see if he still remembered me by the end of that year and if he still hated me (for no reason) I had not added him to view his stories but he blocked me and made everything private. I’m twitching it affects me subconsciously now… my mother also makes me feel like this after years of (weird) coincidences which were linked to him and all that insensitivity (the story escalated he never made peace his behaviour only got worse along with all that humiliating ignorance) since she called me a “sl-tt” for falling in love with him I eventually ended up telling her that her marriage was literally arranged it wasn’t a love marriage but yet she got prégnant so many times so was that out of love or lust? I never wanted to get on such terms with her but she would keep torturing me (she had thrashed me ruthlessly even after getting fibromyalgia several times cuz I have no one in this world to support me or tell her anything) she has in fact told me a lot of harmful and offending things (out of gloating) “Dekho kuch aur kabhi koi nahi mila iss aurat ko yeh akeli hi reh gayi” and laughed (I was 25) I’ve been getting addressed as aurat or woman ever since I was 12. I was told I should’ve drowned during 26th July floods and never returned from school I would sit on the stairs with my heavy bag famished and parched everyday after coming home for 2-3 hours cuz my mother would not leave keys for me, and then get tortured at home for another one hour, I would keep telling myself one day someone will come and all this would end but I ended up being bed ridden because of whoever came and it continued for many more years to come, all my youth and adulthood.

I was never a likeable girl whom you could fall in love with, I never had those superficial attributes (white complexion, money, fame etc. they would only try to treat us like call girls that’s why I’m a lip virgin) . When I said about love and arranged marriages she said she had every right cuz she was legally married and I’m a forcer rapist (for wanting to know the reason behind his sudden silence and that absurd behaviour) she keeps saying or blurting these things out because of unrequited love cuz no one likes or wants me, it’s perceived as a social stigma in India. Cuz there’s nothing from the opposite side not even care or basic concern as a Co-human literally how can someone be so insensitive? She says all that derisively, again out of gloating and competition just to pull me down as another female. Today things were worse even though I had wheezing and I’m still getting it + fever and headache. I’m gonna cut it short now I’ve written a lot…

So coming back to the OCD or whatever part where he had made a rule that there would be no direct contact - he would either speak to my fake ID or use his own friend’s ID but one of us had to be someone else. Go through this link: https://www.lilacnights.com/post/surprise The other day I murmuring in my sleep I was so disoriented I kept saying “Aditya came with his gf Aditi… God knows for what, Harsh was also 10 kms away Aditya had said he would go to some bakery in Kandivali for evening snacks Kandivali is where they would reside he was at his house even though he would always be 6 kms away which is Malad” then I said to myself “No wake up it’s Tanvi not Aditi obviously”

I had told you, the Devil or angels all these entities in fact can probably read our minds and you know when I was browsing certain quotes it’s as if they were talking to me… one of them reflected exactly what I was thinking a few days back - Since I had seen his house in 2015-16 I knew he wasn’t rich and like I said he wasn’t even that big on Instagram or FB no blue tick and 2500-3000 followers with 250 likes, from his (natural) pics I thought he wasn’t that good looking or fair (it’s just that he wasn’t very photogenic) and so I fell in love with him but then some tarot reader told me (I had to rely on all that cuz he was not saying anything) that he was reluctant cuz he thought I was like a gold digger so I started cutting down all my expenses worked on several articles for my blogs back then, I was 20 but I was trying to be as understanding as possible… I started buying things on Sale literally if you’ve noticed for 100s-1000 all these years because of my panic attacks I never saw him after 2016 Feb and I thought maybe that is what he wanted there was anyway no hope from the others, and I had coincidences or signs here so I thought I’ll do this and then I realised it was all futile, all the selflessness and altruism it just wasn’t worth it. I even wrote a letter and clarified/acknowledged that it could be one sided while also sharing my feelings for him cuz I thought he would also cut down on his expenses because his brother was jobless like mine. That’s why I hate today’s generation they ruin everyone’s life along with their’s but I’m from Gen Z I’m actually younger than his younger brother it’s just that they are always like that, they have no pressure or expectations. I poured lots of love in that letter for this part but he hated me and then he had that stage show with her which broke my heart and I never gave it and my mother also was about to hit me again cuz she secretly read that (it had nothing which could’ve made her that livid or furious not even like a proper I love you or anything) she just said “Stop trying to look great or good” I saw the Devil’s numbers so I’m guessing it was him you had read my mind when I was telling myself that it was all wrong, I shouldn’t have ever tried being ideal for someone like that when he was already well off or rich or good looking he never needed love like me that’s why he never even understood anything, I don’t know why his house looked like that or if like ppl say Gujjus actually hide money but it was all deceptive, he was already too good he never needed love he was in a way better position. I kept saying I should’ve enjoyed and loved my life instead of getting bed ridden and cutting down everything, living on that bare minimum stuff c’mon… he showed a quote which had the exact same emotions and it was talking about all this too.

Then there were more quotes again with my thoughts but with answers this time - As a piece of advice *clears throat* the Devil’s like “Times change, we change, our choices change too… maybe you should just live out your dreams now” the background images everything all the signs suggested/reminded me of the rest of the stuff, let’s say he wants some tv actress to make those stupid immature dance reels (remember what had happened last time right? Two of them in their 40s made a misogynistic video where he was liye talk throwing her around and getting abusive and for some reason that was supposed to be funny and then that guy that “actor” he actually slammed her head against the wall in real life cuz he was having an affair) the fortune telling app said he wants someone “talented” to make those reels and earn money ummm seriously? You are going to hold auditions and another Swayamvar for this? You actually need talent for such stupid ass videos? Really? 😂🤣🤣🤣 He reminded me of my dreams (ironically the Devil not him) and he’s right here so if he is “rejecting” me for these reels like overage teenagers then even I will say - I want some NRI who stays abroad and who will take me away from all this (I gave examples of so many famous celebrities from MY age group all these ppl making videos are older, those celebs they don’t do all this and even if they do it cuz it’s a fad now it’s shot on blurry pixelated quality for fun not money and some of them they take all those cute casual pics and use Instagram like a digital album like some of our Indian Bollywood celebs and that’s it, they don’t turn this into a career that too most of it is just for attention) so yeah he’s right if he’s rejecting me for that especially after I’ve become conscious I don’t even look good so yeah I’m not suitable for the camera I have become agoraphobic I haven’t left my room since 2017 I’ve become bed ridden and he is still thinking selfishly about his own life then I also want a rescuer an actual hero who will take me abroad because why is he even staying India? Just got fame right? You hardly get anything here, we needed something for our living room and bathroom some important fixtures and even there there’s literally no choice or even proper functionality. If you see the state of our roads or the air quality outside you’ll literally feel like shifting there… it’s getting worse day by day, we hardly get any quality product here, prices are getting hiked and unlike abroad there are no alternatives, I keep getting cheap ads from “homegrown businesses” in India who are busy making Sx toys, the land of superficial Kama sutra and Chappis or pervs what else do you expect? Indians don’t need beautiful cosy homes or designer spaces (that too in a budget) or other things such as good quality food or air or any kind of consumption like that cuz they are only good at fcking and having kids. Our population shows that there are literally no brains here… my head is paining.

My mother would never believe or support me when I would say I’m always about to face molestation in the school bus cuz I’m my stop was last and I would be the only girl left everyday I would force myself to somehow keep away my head wud keep banging against the window cuz I would get drowsy, they (driver and cleaner) didn’t even spare a KG toddler, I eventually took things into my own hand and the cleaner’s frustration was evident that day and when I grew up I saw smother school bus’s driver ogling me (when I was a teenager) in my car, I immediately looked behind to see if they were being accompanied by a teacher cuz that was a new rule but the teacher was sitting obliviously completely ignorant to that in her own sweet world… (Jamnabai Bus) another toddler’s case came on tv that year where they parents had paid 10k for her picnic where she was raped and the teacher kept threatening and manipulating and raping her repeatedly he was a sad case my hands are again I’ve cold I had to mention all that this is one more reason why I don’t want kids anymore and this country it’s unlivable. I can’t stay here. All my school friends are married to NRIs, and I don’t want to stay here either… in fact considering my thoughts and everything I should’ve been the first to move. All my school friends would think I was from there… Someone had even told me that I was too sophisticated to be here when it saw my old website (I don’t have it now) he was surprised it was made in India. We asked about the bathroom hardware btw, I just received a response and as guessed they’ve shifted everything to exports inspite being an Indian brand, all the good stuff is reserved for Dubai and other places… people who don’t deserve to be there (cheap bimbos) have already shifted, for me I just fell short of the mark because of my looks ur complexion I don’t know what to blame. Look at these beautiful velvety chenille cushions with all those intricate designs (traditional + Aztec) I have studied all this on my own… you don’t get this stuff in India btw, we get nothing here.

I somehow got those items, it’s me Zara after all I can’t keep something ugly or bad in that bathroom, there has to be congruity like everything else I’m always in sync with the universe. We felt like thieves though to buy things made in Rajasthan as if it was all smuggled. In India girls develop a defence mechanism from an early age, it might sound like really dreary and lascivious if I’ll keep bringing up this topic but in this particular article I feel like I’ll have to discuss it not explicitly but I’ll have to make you understand why as girls or more precisely as ineligible (darker toned females who don’t have a rich father to buy a bridegroom for her, who won’t be able to afford any dowry you might think times have changed BUT I literally heard someone in my own family shouting and saying “My best friend’s girl has several hotels at her name her father is a business tycoon and look at me I can’t woo anyone like that, where am I? Uske gf ke baap ki itni saari hotelein hai dekho and wht about me?” He doesn’t even want to get married. That same gf was so weird she had a deviant personality she locked him from outside while they were on a trip God knows for what reason and kept him under lock and key. He woke up locked in that room.

We deal with lecherous men from the age of 10-11 and all these educated men who are supposed to take care of us are feeding us to the wolves I wanted someone of my caliber to talk to who would understand my thoughts, who would’ve able to keep up with me and my conversations someone who himself is fathomable and not some illiterate incoherent cheap vulgar man like that creep from Bhopal YET I WAS FORCED to talk to him, they left me with no choice until I blocked him and he kept coming and harassing me, he was a perv and you know his story. Is that not FORCE? In fact it’s all UNFAIR it’s the other way round… I have dealt with married creepy ugly men touching me by taking advantage of the crowd on school trips - we feel molested and exploited we feel like killing ourselves, and when a girl gets rejected for no reason she didn’t even like got chance to probably get liked for her personality or other things (we put make more efforts than all those good looking fair rich girls hoping we’ll get chosen by someone or the other) but at the end we get rejected not only for love or CARE, (every girl’s fav word) but also for emotional, financial and physical security, we are deprived of that too. We can’t depend on our old parents when we are surrounded by so many pervs who are getting further encouraged by INTERNET. Now all the pseudo feminists will be like - “You can’t learn Judo Karate (some of us have certain illnesses and unfortunately the ones triggered by stress are skyrocketing amongst girls that too chronic destabilising ones like Lupus (systematic disorder) Fibromyalgia, Hashimoto’s syndrome, Neurasthénia which I got after fibro due to cov & 5th Mar stress ) They will say “You can’t learn kick boxing? Karate? Pork chop? Use pepper spray…?” At the risk of what? Incurring their wrath & getting acid thrown at our face? “You can’t ask for a raise?” They sometimes pay more to men cuz they are the sole bread winners in some families and at times single girls and boys BOTH are given a smaller paycheck. There are places where they do add more zeroes for men but even after bringing up that topic things haven’t changed for us… next “Why can’t you work during your pregnancy why take a maternity leave? You are a woman we are strong invincible we don’t need that, how old fashioned? Why take an epidural? Why Caesarean? Why can’t you juggle work life and kids both? Why have children? Too primitive? Why can’t you have kids? Too ambitious? (Well there are several other reasons) Why be a homemaker? Why become a working girl? Be modern we don’t work 9 to 5… Why can’t you just party, booze and smoke and then grow your own weed, sell it & become an entrepreneur… like a female Pablo Picasso… why can’t you? Is it only for men?” All these pseudo feminists will immediately ask these things, the moment you talk about being deprived of emotional, physical or financial security which is like the need of the hour right now for females they’ll start asking such nonsensical questions that you’ll feel like pulling a trigger in your mouth instead of answering them. But what I meant to say is that is what rejection is for us. We have no hope left and our future becomes uncertain and scary. Speaking of wanting to move somewhere abroad… I would’ve probably stayed back if I had someone here, you stay for people you love… I have no one to keep me here, they actually all want me to die they are waiting for that. No one cares about my life or me…

Considering everything that I had to hear… (my head is paining so please ignore all the errors/typos) and how people have behaved with me especially him and my mother, I don’t want that forcer chaser tag anymore so if you are ready to accept me only then you can approach or if you want be friends then I’m also cool with that but don’t be fickle like him, if you are not sure then either stay away or be honest… if you don’t want me but still want to be around and if you are okay with risking your integrity although I’m very good at keeping secrets then we can have a half open marriage like I had suggested earlier. I had written all this long ago…

Girls like me who are considered “untalkable” can only dream of a platonic relationship… in my dreams sometimes I have someone by my side holding my hand when I feel like I’m dying during those convulsions or tremors and violent jerking/twitching throughout my body, I get wheezing too and even my heart muscles go through that; having said that in real life it involves romantic feelings minus intimacy and it’s unimaginable to think that someone would like us, we can use the other house mates alternative which again considering how he has made me… ugly and all and how much my mother hates having me around, I feel it would be difficult for someone to put up with me in the same environment, she keeps praying for my death cuz she “cannot stand me” (just like the guy I loved the most) and ego would want to hang around? I always wanted to be with him, watch TV, shop together, put my arm around his neck, talk, do fun things like sharing those interesting or unbelievable bizarre stories (well I have a lot now) build our home, decorate it and spend our life together, now that life is gone along with 8-10 years of my youth, I could never be with him. When they create characters like us on screen they show us like psychos, one sided forcers, they do cover these things like watching tv or preparing breakfast but we are still shown as some creep who is forcing someone to be around & craving for their presence, fighting for their time and attention. They depict us like those psychos and we end up feeling more scared 😱 hence we never talk about this. Speaking of mutualism, well maximum of these stories start off as not only mutual but also with loads of attention from the opposite side, they lure you and then humiliate. Also, who would want to watch TV with me? I can crack jokes and make you laugh if you want to be House Mates, you won’t get bored and if you aren’t like my mother then you’ll even get used to my appearance and it won’t bother you after some time. Platonic is where you can watch movies or tv together, as house mates we can use the living area as a common room apart from that we will have our own space where we can stay separately, My head is paining a lot and I have a lot of fever so I’m gonna continue the funny story tomorrow…

Gn Zara Sauleh

Coincidences - www.lilacnights.com/post/stupid-cupid

My Dream Life 👇🏻

Just so you know… this is My Dream Life. This is what I want, a warm cosy home, sunsets by the lake, Amsterdam canals & rivers, round windows, quaint little shops, egrets & ducks, some puppies, warm amber lights, 90s vibes, freshly baked viennoiseries 🥐 and love + a little bit of tranquility. Credit for videos - | utrechtalive | & | elbgestoeber | (couldn’t tag cuz I’ve seen some bloggers asking ppl to take down their videos so didn’t want to tag them I have added their usernames)

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I'm LOVING just breathe, love your writing the little note of her scrolling through pics of a dead body while eating yoghurt of all things was so funny and such a small detail but made me genuinely laugh out loud

there's literally so many things, I'm absolutely gonna have a reread and take notes lol but I'm so excited for more! can I be added to the taglist?:))

Thank you so much for getting in touch and I’ve added you to the taglist! I’m glad you’re enjoying the fic so much - and that the yoghurt bit made you laugh! 

I’ve been writing like a maniac all week and I’m on chapter 15 already. I’m dying for you guys to read everything - I’ve been resisting the urge to post a chapter a day so you can catch up with me! - but chapter 9 at least will be posted some time tomorrow...

#just breathe #battinson fic #batman 2022 fic #batman/original character #the batman #batman 2022 #bruce wayne/original character

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Bibi & Janbi & JJ Pt.1

Libi: [okay so I’m thinking this is like late on her bday catch him before he goes to bed vibes, because 1. She doesn’t really wanna talk to him and is lowkey gonna be leaving this message like a secretary and 2. She’s been busy with all her bday shenanigans, especially Peach and only been going on to post pics of her excitedly without checking anyone’s socials but she finally does when they’ve finished the paint party of her new room cos clearly her plan was to post content of that too but then she sees what Bobby/China/both have posted and is genuinely so upset about it that she has a really bad full blown asthma attack in said newly painted empty room, like I’m vibing she would have had to go to hospital if not for JJ doing some iconic levels of teamwork and managing to calm her down, so sending this boy a message when she’s recovered enough to do it]

Libi: I’ll be off [whenever the nearest school day is, whether her bday is on a school day so literally tomorrow or it’s the weekend and she means monday], you’ll have to manage on your own

Bobby: 👍 no problem

Bobby: You get wasted and throw another party again, is it?

Libi: Closest to a happy birthday as I’ll get from you, is it?

Bobby: you’ve been spoilt plenty

Libi: Alright, night then

Bobby: Don’t let the paint fumes kill you

Libi: Don’t wake me when you come in, more like, I’m having the sofa

Bobby: By all means, make yourself at home, he’ll have already said it’s fine without consulting me at all

Libi: Yeah, he did

Libi: hurts to be blindsided by something important you should know about, huh?

Bobby: He’s an idiot but a generous one, his inability to say no has stopped surprising us at this point

Bobby: what’s he meant to do, leave you with nowhere to go

Libi: I have loads of somewheres to go, it’s not lack of options keeping me here

Bobby: do you though

Libi: Of course I do

Bobby: There’s no room above the pub, taken away another option by gifting you a slobbery massive dog, I don’t know about that, like

Libi: Tah for your fake concern, but I’m okay, really

Bobby: just pointing out the obligation, even if he’s the only one of ‘em who believes in it still

Libi: You know what, I’d love to point something out if that’s what we’re doing

Libi: for all your big talk after my party, everything you were up to today is exactly like a move Casey would pull

Libi: she’s even blonde, congrats

Bobby: Of course you’re mad 🙄

Bobby: you hate her anyway, it wouldn’t matter to you if she was really helping me right now

Libi: With her kind words? She can’t speak to you in person, how can she possibly help you with anything other than the proper reason you picked her to spend your day with?

Bobby: As I’m nothing like Case, I can read, tah

Bobby: just like I’ll have to at school when you can’t be arsed to show up

Libi: You couldn’t be more like him right now unless you’re posting with her sister soon

Bobby: You’ve never wanted me to have any friends of my own

Libi: That’s such bullshit

Libi: you’ve never shown no interest in China before wanting to hurt me

Bobby: I wouldn’t have told you if I had

Bobby: because you’d react like this, making an absolute show of yourself for no reason

Libi: No reason, you used to be scared of her, for fuck’s sake

Bobby: When I was five, and I’d just been dragged here away from home, maybe, I was scared of every fucking thing, thanks for bringing it up 

Libi: She was a massive bitch to you, it needs bringing up

Bobby: Isn’t any of this teaching you that we don’t live in the past now?

Libi: Says you, but why her? 

Libi: it’s a rhetorical question btw, cos the answer’s obvious

Bobby: I’m glad you’ve filled in those blanks, I’m not about to tell you what’s none of your business 

Libi: I would’ve never treated you this way, whatever’s happened

Bobby: it’s not about you, Libi

Libi: How can you just lie and lie and lie?

Bobby: Don’t call us a liar

Libi: Why, does it hurt your feelings?

Libi: I fucking hope so

Bobby: Who’s being a bitch now…

Libi: You started it

Bobby: 👌 acting all 14 of your years

Libi: There you go calling me childish again when this is the most little kid on the playground behaviour ever from you

Bobby: I like her, if you can’t handle that, it’s not my problem

Libi: Very convenient date to choose to act on liking her though

Bobby: Hardly

Bobby: I’m sick of the lot of you, stressed out

Libi: You deffo have some problems, Bobby

Libi: 🤞 she can help you

Bobby: and your family causes all of them

Libi: Don’t look inward, god forbid

Bobby: I haven’t done anything, didn’t ask for any of this

Libi: Might’ve been true before now, but today you did loads, I thought the stories would go on and on ‘til my next birthday

Bobby: Says you, always having to film everything

Libi: What was it you said? Clearly I’m filling a void, sorry

Bobby: You’re showing off, what a class time you’re having with them trying to make it up to you like you’re a spoilt little brat, yeah

Bobby: rather die than have anything off ‘em as a bullshit apology, but you do you

Libi: I will, I’ll do what I want, since you aren’t after it being none of your business no more

Bobby: Suits us down to the ground, that

Bobby: stay out of my way, I’ll be well out of yours, can assure you

Libi: I’m made up for you

Bobby: You would be, if you were any sort of real mate

Libi: Yeah well, maybe we never were

Bobby: Wow

Libi: It’ll be better like this, according to you

Libi: it hardly matters what or who we were to each other, how keen you are to chuck it to one side

Bobby: There’s just no need to be so bloody dramatic, like

Bobby: Of course we were friends, don’t be an idiot

Libi: Don’t call me an idiot

Libi: I’m sorry I’m not a chill cool girl like her and can’t shrug off losing my best friend as if it’s nothing to me

Bobby: I’ve not gone anywhere, Jimmy wouldn’t

Libi: Jesus, yeah you have, you couldn’t be further away

Bobby: You’re making no sense right now

Libi: Forget it, I’ve tried and tried to get through to you, but I don’t, I can’t

Bobby: All I know is we’re still about because he thinks he has to be for your sake

Libi: Blame me, go on, but he’d still have to be about for Janis and the baby if I wasn’t here

Bobby: He hasn’t mentioned it, not once, he don’t want it, care about it

Libi: To you, he don’t fancy putting up with how you’d react, they’ll be talking

Bobby: Optimistic 

Bobby: Isn’t that why they split, you know, beyond the affair she had

Libi: For the baby’s sake they’ll have to both try

Bobby: Babies fix everything, how could I forget

Libi: Wasn’t what I said

Bobby: It’s what you believe

Libi: No it isn’t, they’ll be parents, they have to grow up and raise this kid together putting everything but doing that aside, or he should leave town with you and start over in a new place

Bobby: He clearly thinks she wants him back, what else would he with all the time she’s suddenly spending with him when she couldn’t be bothered before, he’s not going to leave now

Libi: Option 1 then, like Ali and Junior’s dad before my mum died

Bobby: That isn’t fair to him

Bobby: but of course, neither of you cares because you get what you want, never mind he’ll be trying not to die every second

Libi: The kid didn’t ask to be brought into this mess, he had a part in it, I can have all the sympathy in the world for him about how hard it’ll be but it’s still a situation he got himself into

Bobby: He was really in a fit state to consent, weren’t he

Libi: He must’ve been, Janis wouldn’t force him to have a baby with her

Bobby: And why did she do it, eh

Bobby: the marriage was that bad for her, so bad she had to go and fuck Case

Bobby: well good parenting already

Libi: I wasn’t in their bedroom with them, I don’t know

Libi: all I know is, she’s not a monster

Bobby: It’s obvious, come on

Bobby: she did it for attention, and not off Jim, clearly

Libi: How weird you can only see when she’s doing it

Libi: people make mistakes, you’re making one going out with China, so

Bobby: Hardly the same, they’re meant to be adults, aren’t they

Libi: Adults fuck up too

Bobby: Who do you think you’re talking to, I bloody know, that’s all they do

Bobby: you being stupid acting like any of this will ever be alright or work

Libi: Stop calling me stupid

Bobby: Quit your acting and sounding it, easiest way to put a stop to that

Libi: We’re off on our separate ways, remember, it won’t make the slightest difference to you if I want to believe things might be alright

Bobby: I’m off nowhere, so if I want to get myself a missus to make that slightly less shit, I can and I will

Libi: You’re calling her your missus after a day and I’M stupid

Bobby: You think it started today ‘cos you think everything is about you, you’ve got no clue though

Libi: Alright, when did it start? Clue me in

Bobby: Why would I tell you now?

Bobby: obviously she didn’t just agree to go out with me today out of nowhere, we’d have to have been talking, use your common sense, like

Libi: Why wouldn’t she? Obviously you’ve no clue who your missus is

Bobby: real nice, that

Libi: It’s nicer than you using a girl you don’t even like to piss me off and try and ruin my birthday

Bobby: You are so up yourself, I don’t know how I didn’t realise before this

Bobby: for God’s sake, Libi

Libi: And you’re such a liar

Libi: I’d realise if you had a crush on anyone, whether you told or not

Bobby: You rate your detective skills, still, when you didn’t see any of this bollocks coming

Libi: That’s an unfair comparison

Bobby: It were right there, under all our noses, don’t pay yourself the compliment, you’re as clueless as everybody else is

Libi: You’re being a prick to be a prick

Bobby: nah, I’m not

Bobby: this is exactly why I stopped talking to you

Bobby: because you just want to talk about yourself, like the most important thing isn’t currently happening 

Libi: Yeah, and you don’t wanna talk about that, you’d rather act out by getting a missus and rubbing my nose in it

Bobby: You talk like you have a clue, when all you’re saying is noise, you’ve had nothing useful to say since day one

Bobby: I’m better off alone at this point

Libi: Fine, be alone with her

Libi: at this point, I’m done

Bobby: Thanks so much for your blessing

Libi: You’re welcome for everything I’ve ever done for you

Bobby: Holding that all over my head now, are we?

Libi: Sure, fuck it

Libi: you’re determined to let the bridge burn, and to run me down every second that’s left before I walk off

Bobby: I never asked for you to translate for me, I didn’t ask to be like this

Libi: And I didn’t ask to come from a family of fuck ups but you keep on punishing me like hers are mine

Bobby: The best thing for Jim would be to leave, to never look back

Bobby: and you won’t support that

Libi: I would if it was what he wanted

Bobby: Why will no one listen, he can’t be trusted to make that decision right now

Libi: You can’t make it for him, even in his best interests

Bobby: maybe if I had your support

Libi: It isn’t my support you’re looking for, it’s for me to agree with every word you say

Libi: lucky for you, your new girlfriend probably will

Bobby: You’ve really made that sound terrible, well done 👏

Bobby: anyone in their right mind would agree with me

Libi: I’m not in my right mind, I don’t know how any of us would be

Bobby: I won’t be dragged down to their level

Libi: Good for you

Bobby: You’re going to end up just like the rest of ‘em, you know

Libi: I can’t believe I built my entire life around someone who could say that to me

Libi: you win, I’m really fucking stupid

Bobby: I never thought you’d let me down this hard either

Libi: At least this is the last time

Bobby: Suppose we’ll take that

Libi: 🤝

Janis: How’s your lungs?

Janis: Back on track yet?

Libi: The drs will sort them out tomorrow, long as I can drag myself to my appointment 

Janis: I’ll take you

Janis: though, I’m not quite out of touch with my emotions enough to think you mean the physical is the thing holding you back there

Libi: You did loads already, I’ve sorted a lift with [what are you calling Ali cos Tess is nan? Grandma? idk lol] she’s worried

Janis: It was a bad one, I’m not surprised

Libi: Yeah

Janis: have you told her, about any of that?

Janis: She’d be able to help, breathing exercises, all that, right up her alley

Libi: I don’t want to talk about it

Janis: Of course you don’t

Libi: With you either

Janis: Yeah, I got it

Janis: I can’t tell you to, I wouldn’t have told anyone

Janis: but you can’t be making yourself ill, you have to figure out something there, alright?

Libi: I didn’t make myself ill, he did

Janis: Alright but I can no less make him behave like any less of a dickhead so you have to take the responsibility for your health here

Janis: He don’t appreciate what he’s doing is having that kind of effect, and you wouldn’t appreciate if we had to tell him

Libi: He wouldn’t care, he’d tell you I faked it for the drama and sympathy

Janis: I’ve witnessed enough fake panic attacks when Gracie has lost her favourite shoes and her date is in 10 minutes, like

Janis: We both know you weren’t, me and Jim, who were actually there

Libi: What’s important is he still wouldn’t care

Libi: if I was dead he’d invite China to my grave like Mary Shelley

Janis: The one in your year?

Libi: Asia’s sister who bullied him when we were younger, I��m a twat for pointing that out though since he expects me to believe they’ve been in love, or lust, from afar forever, but cos I’m a massive cockblock there’s the reason he didn’t have a childhood wedding to her instead

Janis: I see

Janis: well, YOU know that that’s clearly not true, there’s been no mention of her since those days

Libi: Yeah, and obviously it’s just a coincidence they made it official on my birthday, not at all about me

Janis: He’s never going to cop to that, however obvious

Libi: Why bother when you can keep on lying and being a prick

Janis: If it were purely about pissing you off or ruining your birthday, then he has to see that out

Janis: he won’t be able to hack it long though, if she’s still a bitch like that

Libi: They’re welcome to each other for the next [however long she went out with Jake because we’re being a bitch]

Janis: I don’t think Jimmy knows anything yet

Janis: and I think he’d still tell him, if it was serious?

Libi: It’s all over socials, that’s how Bobby lets people who care about him find out something like this now

Janis: I’m not sure he uses his now but I’ll forward that as a warning, if nothing else

Janis: He knew this would hurt you, or he’d have approached it differently, that’s not bullshit, whatever he’s said, you know that

Libi: If you hadn’t gifted me Peach, it never would’ve happened

Janis: What could she have to do with anything?

Libi: She lives here in his house, he has a right to be upset

Janis: He loves dogs, he just doesn’t appreciate the gesture

Janis: he’d take whatever cue he was given to do what he wanted, he’d still be angry

Libi: You should’ve picked a less permanent gesture, maybe, a gift that don’t have a literal life span to consider

Janis: If you don’t want her, Jim will keep her

Libi: 1. Of course I want her 2. Jim keeping her wouldn’t solve anything about not consulting his brother beforehand about her or me staying and Bobby focusing all his anger on him about it instead of me is the last thing I’d agree to

Janis: As you pointed out, she’s a living creature, not something to be pushed pillar to post on Bobby’s whim

Janis: and he has been ‘consulted’, I know that for a fact, Jimmy’s spoken to him numerous times about still wanting a relationship with you, what Bobby means is his objection wasn’t listened to and he didn’t get his own way about it

Libi: Alright, but he has a point about not being listened to when it comes to your weird and reckless dog giving decision, the timing’s well bad

Janis: You said you want her, how is it bad timing

Libi: All of our heads are fucked, why’d you bring another living creature into it?

Janis: because you can off-load to her as much as you like, it’s never fucking her head up, that’s why people have pets, it’s legit, not made that up myself

Libi: Seeing her every day means avoiding him as much, and probably his missus, as he calls her

Libi: what good she’ll do for my mental health, that’ll cancel out

Janis: He’s just parroting, I’m sure it’s not that real

Libi: She’s blonde too, btw

Janis: I’ve had a look, from a bottle 🐭

Libi: He had the fucking audacity to tell me she’s been helping him

Libi: What with? His Casey impression? Losing his virginity?

Janis: Nice, if true

Janis: I’m not wholly convinced either

Libi: There’s no chance he’s having deep and meaningfuls with her, before today or after, I wish he would, even if it has to be with China, I hate this

Janis: I know, I wish he would talk to someone, he needs to

Libi: 🤞 doctor’ll refer me at least, feel like I’ve lost the plot whenever I talk to him

Janis: he’s purposefully keeping you on that different page, for his sake, he doesn’t want you to get it

Libi: I know, but knowing doesn’t make it any less shit while it’s happening

Janis: nah, of course it don’t

Libi: I’m tired, I’m gonna go to bed

Janis: Are you on the sofa? Grab the nice blankets from [wherever they are, hidden from general slobby use and dogs]

Libi: Not a good idea, as she’s here, might as well grab my dog from out of her crate to sleep with me

Janis: As good an idea

Janis: and we’re talking to your school soon, you won’t have to be around him, should that still be something you’re not about, alright

Libi: Can you talk to them about getting China moved to a different school, preferably miles away in the far far north of the country?

Janis: Well, I’ll have to be thinking on a good enough reason to get them on side

Libi: I’ll sleep on it, slut shaming her sadly isn’t a good enough reason

Janis: He’s nearly half a year younger than you, remember

Janis: I’m sure she isn’t being a slut anywhere near him, really

Libi: I’m sure she is, he’s tall, nobody remembers that

Janis: No one has ever gone as far as they claim, at your age, trust me

Janis: Take my word for that one thing

Libi: I used my birthday wish before realising the slags of my year needed to factor in, I don’t have a choice really

Janis: I’ll see if he’ll talk to Jim, subtly

Janis: it happens, I should think he remembers how to handle himself around girls but a refresher can’t hurt

Libi: He should talk to Case but we all know that’ll never happen

Janis: Didn’t suggest it for that reason

Janis: I’ve said to Jimmy countless times that either of us will be a verbal punching bag but there it is

Libi: Jim’d always rather be it

Janis: yeah

Janis: but they should talk anyway, let him say some of the things he needs to, maybe things will get better with the rest of yous

Libi: Is he back under your thumb how Bobby reckons? Be honest

Janis: No, of course not, not that that’s how I’d ever have described it, personally

Janis: we’re trying to work together, that’s all

Libi: Okay, that’s what I hoped

Janis: We want more time like today again, including Bobby, ideally but not until he’s calmed down some

Libi: He doesn’t think it’ll ever work, he thinks I’m stupid

Janis: He doesn’t want it to at the minute, I didn’t expect any different

Janis: Jimmy and him have a special kind of bond, like, and I betrayed Jim

Janis: he’s protecting him now the only way he knows how, letting it be known how he feels, it’s okay

Libi: So do me and you, I expected him to get why I can’t just cut you out and hate you, he don’t have to like it, but 

Janis: He’s definitely being a little unfair to you, don’t get me wrong

Janis: we’re all fucked in the head by it, like you said, none of us are gonna ace every part of it

Libi: I failed every part earlier, Christ, it was a mess

Janis: You were pretty much in shock

Libi: We’re done, I said, and I’m standing by it

Libi: I can’t keep doing this with him how it is, especially not with her there watching him make me look a twat too from here on

Janis: I’d say that’s a good shout for now, definitely

Janis: focus on yourself, your other friends, we’ll be making sure he’s good, at school and in the important ways, so try not to worry about him at all for a while

Libi: 🤝 I’ll do my best

Janis: All you gotta do 🤞🤝

Libi: Tah again for the parts of my birthday you had some control over

Janis: I know it ain’t gonna make the shortlist of best evers but, hope it was alright

Libi: It ain’t your fault it won’t, you properly did your best

Janis: don’t mention it, part of my job, like

Libi: Needs mentioning when I’ve been such a bitch

Libi: I’m sorry it’s a hard job

Janis: You’re owed some bad behaviour, if we can set the limit at getting us evicted though, yeah, I would appreciate that

Janis: I’m not, whatever I may have said when I was not quite reaching my best

Libi: I love you and whatever Bobby says if I turned out like you I’d only be 🤏 gutted

Janis: the 🤏 is so warranted

Janis: I love you an’ all and you know who that is, however lost you’re feeling right this second

Libi: I thought I was about to die, seriously, not in a Grace way

Libi: and I can’t hack him having that much power over me when I can’t trust him anymore

Janis: I know what you mean, it’s terrifying 

Libi: I need another birthday wish

Janis: I’d offer mine but I’m not sure you can borrow that far in advance

Libi: If I’m still feeling the same by then, there’d not be enough hope in more candles than all our birthdays combined, be none

Janis: feels like a very current Bobby move to point out that there’ll be another birthday added to the list by then

Janis: but technically there are no candles so guess the number of wishes stays the same

Libi: It’s okay, I’m not him, you don’t have to keep it off limits as a taboo subject

Janis: It still seems long enough away not to need to push it

Libi: I guess it is, but I’m used to thinking so far ahead when everyone else is asleep

Janis: right now that’s my fault, keeping you when you said you were tired

Libi: I just don’t know what to say to anybody… I feel ridiculous and embarrassed and gross and sad and too thick to be allowed to open my mouth

Janis: oh Libs

Janis: I’ve seen you at your most embarrassing, you can’t top the baby years, nothing you say or do is going to shock us

Libi: Rude, those were my best years…

Libi: she knew who she was, who the fuck am I now?

Libi: maybe he’s right that I’m suffocating, cos I don’t remember how to have a life, make friends, do things

Janis: You do, you know people who aren’t Bobby, just none of them figure as important, you can do it

Libi: It’s really unfair I can’t go back and need to go forward

Janis: tell me about it, girl

Janis: It’ll get easier and feel less strange, the longer you’re there, swear

Libi: Why won’t he just 

Janis: I don’t know, I wish I could tell you

Libi: I don’t want it to get easier for him or for me, not in that sense

Libi: to leave each other behind and tell ourselves it’s good, that we belong in the past

Janis: You’ll have a future, it’ll be different but they aren’t going anywhere, he will have to accept that

Libi: But he’s going places I’ll never reach him

Janis: you have to trust he will come back

Libi: I’m not sure he will

Janis: you can’t be, if you could, you’d have no problem

Libi: I used to have a feeling always, intuition or whatever about almost everything 🔮

Janis: boys fuck that up

Libi: Yeah

Janis: Not that I can say boys at my big age, sound like I’m trying to be too relatable and cringe about it

Libi: To be fair, saying men to me at my age’d be weird and sound like you want me to give up and get in Mr Lucas’ boot

Janis: Sincerely hope he’s about when we go down for our meeting 🙏👊

Janis: just like old times

Libi: A light in a dark time, we’d all be cheered up slightly

Janis: bit gutting to include him in that but 😬 once a weirdo always a weirdo, him

Libi: If I get another detention I’ll not go, like you said

Janis: don’t, however tempting the peace and quiet of a boot might seem at the time, been there, not worth it

Libi: I was angry at you, but something’s gotta give with him and her added high on the list, it’s too much rage otherwise, I don’t think I have it in me

Janis: Prioritize, yeah, sensible

Libi: Besides, you did bribe me with a very cute puppy to stop

Janis: I mean, yeah

Janis: pretty top if entirely unreasonable gift

Libi: She’s top, even though the day itself ended up much lower down cos of the near death experience and everything

Janis: you and your shit lungs

Libi: And it wasn’t even what I’d class as a top near death experience, I didn’t hear mum and dad calling to me or nothing

Janis: you was probably still miles away from the bright light, drama queen

Janis: would shit you up if they started screaming

Libi: I’d have a job to hear anything over Jim trying to talk me down off the ledge as if I was trying to kill myself, but he should honestly work for the Samaritans, it was comforting 

Janis: Can’t decide if that would give him a sense of purpose or give him ideas, as a hobby goes

Janis: he can be comforting though, always has been

Libi: So was you though, and from what I remember after the party as well

Janis: Can’t pretend there’s a 1 before my age, kicking off would’ve felt great but you know

Libi: You’re always there, like mum, I didn’t ever need to reach for her, she was just so close to me all the time knowing what I wanted

Libi: you have to reach too far for some people and it doesn’t mean they’ll end up with a clue what you want

Janis: She was a good mum, even though she was that young

Janis: maybe because, it’s all she wanted at the time

Libi: You were good too, even though you were that young and you didn’t ask to be my mum

Janis: Telling you to shut up goes against telling you you’re not embarrassing or gross and whatever but

Janis: dunno what my new hormones are capable of yet

Libi: It’s okay, my hormones are taking the piss lately too

Janis: Being a girl does, big time

Janis: can’t be crying in the tescos like a mental person here, Christ

Libi: Why are you in Tescos when I’m spilling my guts here? Bit rude

Janis: We ran out of [basic household necessities], soz, I haven’t broadcast it over the tannoy, like

Libi: Oh no, I’m deprived of their advice in aisle 5, could’ve been perfect insight into my messy life

Janis: All the 👩‍🦳👩‍🦳s that reckon they know it all, like they weren’t tucked away in a laundry or whatever the fuck 

Libi: China’d deffo get put in one for being a temptress, they were still about

Janis: Church can’t even do you that favour, honestly 🙄

Libi: Finding faith as a hobby goes, to fill the void, unlikely, sure Jesus would be my new best friend, but at what cost?

Janis: Personality? Body weight? Ask Ro

Libi: He’d fancy that I washed Bobby’s missus’ feet or something, at least sat down and had dinner with her, I’m alright for all of it

Janis: 🤣 fuck’s sake

Janis: fairness, kid stood no chance, they’re all like that

Libi: I’d pray she cheats on him same as her last boyfriend

Janis: Bob knows about that, yeah?

Libi: The whole year does, he weren’t bothered by the smaller dramas but I’d not leave him out of the loop on anything that big

Janis: Just checking

Janis: definitely not serious, if that’s her rep

Libi: Their mum has cheated on every man she’s ever been with America said, with a margin for how often she lies, the truth must still be loads of times

Janis: Wouldn’t surprise me, Asia was the worst of that little bunch by a mile, which was saying something

Libi: Like, I’m aware of the irony of us talking about this right now, but 

Janis: Alright, maybe not the best two but only two, nevertheless

Janis: I could run a pissing laundry, those numbers

Libi: I’m temporarily missing you off my hit list, lucky for you

Janis: Aisle 5’ll have worse to say, don’t you worry

Libi: The whole year might have shit to say to me when I go back, they all think he’s my boyfriend, meaning they’ll reckon I was dumped for her

Janis: What’s your plan for it?

Libi: I don’t have one yet

Janis: You’ve got the time your appointment gives you

Libi: Thankfully, I’ve no ideas at the minute

Janis: Let them clarify, I bet they will

Libi: Gross, I could win money putting a bet on how I know they will

Janis: Not the first or the last to utilize it, even I can’t take credit

Libi: Cliche for a reason, exactly

Janis: Effective for him, if people are finally paying attention

Libi: I’m genuinely off to bed now, we’re at my limit

Janis: Alright, give Peach some love from us

Libi: [a pic illustrating that she is]

Libi: Goodnight

Janis: Nanight

Janis: Have you checked Insta?

Jimmy: [potentially after a pause because he might be asleep/getting ready for bed but obvs before Bobby has loudly bowled back in either with or without this gal lol cos never knows how loud he is]

Jimmy: Fuck’s sake, what’s gone on now?

Janis: Not necessarily fuck’s sake level but Bobby has some news he’s shared with his feed but not us

Janis: well, I don’t think you know?

Jimmy: Be why Libs went poorly

Jimmy: hang on, I’ll have a look

Janis: I’ve spoken to her about all that, think it made her feel 🤏 better but

Janis: told her she can’t be pulling stunts like that over him, to sort herself out, like

Jimmy: Do we know that lass from somewhere?

Janis: Asia’s kid sister, the one in their year

Jimmy: She were Mary, ‘course

Janis: 🐑 upgrade, well done, kid

Jimmy: Little dickhead back then, her, but 🤞

Janis: Apparently not now, according to him

Janis: Libi is obviously not on the same team about that but she has reason

Jimmy: Long as her and her 🦷🦷 are behaving nowadays, no need for us both to have same reaction as the birthday girl about it

Janis: nah, just didn’t want them randomly showing up and making you wonder what year it is

Janis: clearly shock was the reaction he was going for so I’ll get ahead of him just to be a dick

Jimmy: He’s not in yet, be waiting up for him now I’ve heard to find out how far he’s reckoning he’ll push it with her sleeping on the settee tonight

Janis: I know what we’d have done but

Janis: he isn’t us, who can say

Jimmy: Can say what I’d still put my money on

Janis: yeah, sorry if this woke you but I remember how he enters a room so

Jimmy: You’re alright, and a mate for the heads up he weren’t fancying chucking us

Janis: hitting the teen years with a vengeance now 😈👿

Jimmy: Be about right, far as pisstaking timing and bollocks I could do without goes

Janis: 😈👿 advocate, he reckons this a top distraction for you?

Janis: see the logic, teenage boy logic but nevertheless

Jimmy: Top fuck you for not packing up the car on his say so, more like, and the rest

Janis: none of us best speak to this girl, get such a complex

Janis: Libs is convinced it’s all about her too

Jimmy: See her logic, teenage lass based or nah, today of all days he’s posting he’s got himself a new missus

Jimmy: convenient coincidence if it were, that

Janis: alright, marple 😏

Janis: ‘course he’s buzzing that none of us will be hugely

Janis: but maybe he does just fancy her as his own distraction as well

Jimmy: I get it, whenever he don’t fancy a chat he can tell her his phone’s dead

Janis: exactly, you wish you could’ve got me to fuck off that easily

Jimmy: Never did commit to the fake deafness hard enough, too much to juggle without the rumour about us being famous off [whatever hollyoaks style teen soap people reckoned he was in back in the day when he first arrived] being for real

Janis: if only they knew how so-so your acting was, yeah

Jimmy: Save it for when they’re back and I have to play the role of disappointed dad over our kid treating the place like an hotel

Janis: cue sighing as you wipe up an imaginary spill on the counter with your tea towel, see it now

Janis: but you’re more likely to need to hold Libs back, she’s being a right cow about her, like

Jimmy: Soz to her I can’t help being a bit chuffed he’s getting himself out there, pissing about and lasses off how a normal lad his age would do, weren’t reckoning there’d come a day at one point

Janis: I know, me too, not that you heard that from us

Janis: after she’s had her time to be devvo about it, hopefully she’ll do the same

Jimmy: She were you, she’d do the same tomorrow ready or not, ‘cause she’s gutted

Janis: 🙄 Christ, what an embarrassing age

Jimmy: Watching this space for some dickhead lad at the door an’ all before the happy couple have had a minute

Janis: looking like a long lost relative, undoubtedly

Jimmy: ✔️

Janis: Unless you’re hoping she’s not quite that much like me, as we all should be

Jimmy: You might be, but I’ll live if she turns out to be owt like you, her an’ all

Janis: Yeah, you’re definitely half-asleep still, being this nice

Jimmy: There’s something to hope for, be knackered for work tomorrow this rate

Janis: Have we ever had to discuss a curfew with them? 🤔 What’s standard?

Jimmy: What kind of question’s that?

Jimmy: pair of ‘em didn’t used to be off nowhere but [a cinema they like and some food places they like, that kinda thing]

Janis: I’m not going on mumsnet, more your crowd, go on and get your flirt on for advice

Jimmy: Tah for that heads up an’ all then, it’s a good shout and I will do

Janis: Any time, mate

Jimmy: 👍

Jimmy: be needing to sit him down and discuss all sorts else, won’t I?

Janis: Potentially, but like, he probably knows, right

Janis: I knew at that age

Jimmy: Probably ain’t he 100% does do, though, is it?

Janis: Yeah, you’re right, got to be responsible

Jimmy: And I’ll have to leg it down the school to have a go about nobody giving us a ring back and put a rush on them lot sorting something, she can’t sign for him this new lass, bloody hell

Janis: Just tell me what day/lunch break/whatever you can and I’ll be there

Janis: they’ll have to give him their presentation printouts and handwritten instructions in the meantime, let them struggle with that before they can’t deal any longer

Jimmy: No choice but to fit it in soon as, sound of how fuming Libi is, what she’d be signing to him in lessons won’t help him pass no exams

Janis: It’s always been a bullshit ‘solution’, they can finally do their jobs, we’ll get it sorted

Jimmy: I let it go on as there were no stopping her but

Janis: We did

Janis: and when he was a little kid, Ian would’ve had to hire someone, you couldn’t

Janis: he’s done alright, but now he needs someone proper, can’t rely on her

Jimmy: She were you she wouldn’t be about to rely on, I should probably check the settee ain’t just a pile of blankets, like

Janis: I stayed for ages, you were snoring like a pig with Peach doing the same, tah very much

Jimmy: Can’t be doing a full blown runner with her lungs any road, end up in the hospital not the train station

Janis: She won’t, it’s not her style

Jimmy: Dunno how much comfort that is, lying here waiting to find out what her style might be

Janis: You know, if anything she don’t know when to leave him alone, stop trying

Jimmy: Make you feel better? It don’t me

Janis: Not really

Janis: but I know we can’t get in the middle of it

Janis: if it’s a lover’s tiff, which is how it feels to her, we can’t treat it like a family affair, fuck up their heads

Jimmy: Right you are, mate

Janis: Do you not agree?

Janis: don’t have to, I’m hardly an expert

Jimmy: What about how I said it makes you reckon I don’t?

Janis: I dunno, the ambiguity of a 👍 energy, genuine or sarky?

Jimmy: Come on, you can trust yourself this far with knowing what you’re on about

Janis: Can I?

Janis: still just feels like I’m making it up as we go along

Jimmy: Might be how it always feels, as we’re so used to it, don’t mean you’ve no common sense

Janis: think you’re doing alright too, as it goes

Jimmy: I’m trying, don’t seem it to our kid, but there we go

Janis: His way or the highway, like you said, nothing but is what he wants to hear

Janis: he’ll grow out of it

Jimmy: 50/50 chance

Jimmy: less Ian’s included

Janis: don’t reckon it’s as simple as all that anyway

Jimmy: Nor me, nowt’s ever as simple as all that

Janis: If only, eh

Jimmy: If only, girl

Janis: Now we really sound about 100

Jimmy: First time for everything

Janis: S’a new you, for sure

Jimmy: Wouldn’t put it past her to use her candles, state of the old me, be why

Janis: I don’t need 3 guesses to know at best you were cheekily tacked on the end

Jimmy: Went well for her, poor cow

Janis: know it’s our fault but

Janis: it’s not healthy, how they were

Jimmy: 🤏 our fault for being such bad role models, but nah, you’re bang on again, something had to give for them as well as us

Janis: guess so

Jimmy: They’ll both end up having some space, however heavy handed he went about it don’t change the fact needed doing

Janis: There were no way else to go about it, drifting apart weren’t on the horizon, she’ll get it, once she’s there too

Jimmy: I don’t doubt she’ll never be on about saying tah to him or this lass for it but still it’ll do them both a favour, long run

Janis: She don’t need to, if that were what he were after, be the worrying thing

Janis: but it’s not

Jimmy: Obvious what he’s after, like you said before

Janis: feel like everything just makes me sad these days, even good things

Jimmy: Know the feeling, my dear

Janis: Fuck sake, how do we stop

Jimmy: Knew that I’d cancel my doctor’s appointment and crack on telling him to sod his happy pills

Janis: Why?

Jimmy: What?

Janis: I don’t even fucking know

Janis: just that we should all be heavily medicated so I won’t be long after you, I reckon

Jimmy: His and hers

Jimmy: don’t sound so bad to me put like that

Janis: you said it was BFF matching only from now on

Jimmy: Did I? Mates rates then, bound to have a group discount

Janis: Wow, you’ve already forgot about being matching heads in jars, some mate 🎻

Jimmy: Something about how you look covered in paint makes it hard to remember owt else, takes us right back to my 🎨 homework

Janis: Traumatic memories of bowl cuts and thick-rimmed glasses, yeah, what a time it was

Jimmy: Tah for reminding us an’ all to hide the scissors before Libi cuts herself a DIY 💔 fringe

Janis: 😱😱😱

Janis: remember when she cut their hair, looked like they had mange 

Jimmy: Be dead awkward if she reckoned there were a career in it for her

Janis: I SHOULD make her do her work experience at the salon, you’re right 😏

Jimmy: Nowt else she can be mates with the blue rinse brigade, always with your nan, be well in off the practice

Janis: I’ll float the idea, as she reckons she has no idea how to make any mates

Jimmy: I dunno if it’ll cheer her but it will me, chuffed to bits at the idea of them lot gatecrashing of a night

Janis: should’ve never stopped being a barista boy, you

Janis: not enough old ladies in [whatever it is exactly Jimothy does]

Jimmy: Advertisers missing a trick, what could be fitter than a blue rinse? And you watch it catch on when Libs has one to keep up with her new mates

Janis: So a fringe’s a no go but you’re alright with that? 😂

Jimmy: DIY’s the no go, be rough at school for a bit as is without the target on her forehead showing through her uneven fringe for every dickhead

Janis: She can handle herself, she’ll surprise herself with it

Janis: the shit people have to say is never as 🎯 as they wanna believe/you worry about when you’re first the target, like

Jimmy: Dagenham or whatever her bloody name is might take after her big sister far as 🧠’s go, no worries there then

Janis: Fucking names and 🦷🦷 alone are all the ammunition she needs for a clap back so

Jimmy: What is her name before she shows up here? Tokyo? 

Janis: You’re killing me

Janis: China, think Asia but smaller, should get you to remember

Jimmy: Fucking hell Suze, you outdid yourself with that one, love

Janis: galaxy 🧠 behaviour

Janis: she should’ve kept to her continent theme and kept going but 

Jimmy: I’d be beyond keen to see the dad she picked out for Africa

Janis: I’d not ‘cos it’d be mine and I want less than this much to do with them again, nevermind DNA shared, tah

Jimmy: Dunno about that, keeps us on our toes does Suze, more than likely be someone from Tokyo

Janis: Could be you if you’re that keen

Jimmy: Have her ‘round for a little chat about Romeo and Juliet the next generation, see where we end up

Janis: Well she combined North and South America into one kid so that’s less hassle for you

Jimmy: The kid I’m having with her ain’t called Antarctica, I don’t want it, send it there out my sight

Janis: 🐧❄️☃️

Jimmy: Suits how frosty the reception’ll be morning after

Janis: Poor Suze

Jimmy: Oi, from her, always charming, me

Janis: Oh, I thought you were gonna crack on trying a new bad boy thing like Bob

Jimmy: She don’t let ‘em hang about what I’ve heard, gotta prepare myself 🩹

Janis: You’ll be grand, boy

Janis: stand around too long, she’ll cover you over in crushed velvet

Jimmy: *leopard print

Jimmy: which I’d look well fit in

Janis: try your luck then

Jimmy: 👌 

Janis: 🐆 camo or nah, still be able to find you

Jimmy: Good, be gutted to lose you

Janis: Swear?

Janis: ‘cos the freezer aisle is feeling a little too 🥶 now

Jimmy: Only on my life which ain’t worth loads at the minute, but

Janis: it is to me

Janis: priceless like a 🏺 yeah

Jimmy: There you go then, I swear

Janis: Good 😁

Jimmy: 😁☀️

Jimmy: ‘til I hear the door go at least and it’s either him or them pair both

Janis: Bit full on, which he deserves the embarrassment but you don’t the Lucas rep of it all

Janis: save your 😁☀️ for decorating really bad cakes

Jimmy: *for you

Janis: yeah but made me sound a bit full on myself, or full of, nothing new there

Jimmy: Saved you from it, you’re alright

Janis: Tah 🦸‍♂️

Jimmy: Fancy seeing me in tights again, I get it, been too long for all of us

Janis: Only fair, you got a paint-covered throwback

Jimmy: Weren’t fair, I’m still thinking about it

Janis: did kill the mood a 🤏 with her asthma attack, were having a good time

Jimmy: Yeah, but I’ll leave it out chucking loads of guilt over him sec he walks in, however much I want to right now 

Janis: I know, gotta resist the urge, couldn’t have known she’d stop breathing about it, however much he fancied pissing her off with his own stunt

Jimmy: Best behaviour or I can’t have a go at him for being a dickhead and we can’t have that

Janis: Someone does need to have a word, yeah

Jimmy: That’ll be me, nobody else’s job, they’d not hack it now he’s 😈👿

Janis: I could

Jimmy: It’d go nowhere good if you did do

Janis: I still think he might act like less of a 😈👿 to the rest of you if he could have it out with us but

Janis: it is ultimately up to you

Jimmy: I can’t stop him if that’s what he really wants, knows where your inbox is, up to him, that

Janis: True, he hasn’t tried so maybe he isn’t interested in taking it out on me

Jimmy: Don’t reckon he’ll be interested in sod all else now he’s got a continent for a missus, dodged that bullet, you

Janis: I’d say phew but

Jimmy: You’d rather be hit by it, I know

Janis: I still deserve it

Jimmy: I ain’t gonna give you the answer you’re after hearing and tell you yeah you do

Janis: I know you won’t, I know you

Jimmy: But you can have it for that, yeah you do

Janis: when it felt like I didn’t anymore, that we were strangers

Janis: that was the hardest, harder than now, for me

Jimmy: I’d know you anywhere

Janis: I see you now, just lost, for a while

Jimmy: Piss easy for me, always has been

Janis: shouldn’t let you wander, like

Jimmy: Don’t, keep us close

Jimmy: who knows where I’ll be else

Janis: I have to, I can’t imagine you anywhere else

Jimmy: Nor me

Janis: I’d have had to get on the tracks if you’d run away when he wanted

Janis: not to be dramatic or anything but

Jimmy: It weren’t ever even a might do

Janis: I can’t lose you

Jimmy: You

Jimmy: I need you

Janis: I need you, always will

[strawbrry-bat]

nobody:

me: *decides in the middle of the night to make a necklace to wear for Hestia*

#its not EXACTLY what i want #i plan to restring it with new material bc i used string from an old necklace so its kinda tied weird bc it was already short #and also i want to get a little house charm for it instead of the bead it has now #BUT for now i really like it and super proud of it consider i decided i was gonna do this like an hour ago #ill post pics tomorrow lol #btw idk if anyone has noticed but i worship Hestia now #i just feel like community and family and caring for my home and my loved ones is.. literally the reason i exist so it just makes sense #i love her so much 🧡🍞🔥

[nashibirne]

Gimme Shelter - 7

Here it is, the last chapter of Gimme Shelter. It took me a while to write it, I kinda had a hard time to let Kat and Henry go... I'm going to miss them. I hope you like the ending I chose for these two. If so, please let me know by leaving a comment, reblog or like. Feedback is much appreciated. 💜

Pairing: Henry Cavill x OFC (Kat Spencer)

Words: ~ 4.5 k

Summary: Henry has to deal with a personal crisis and he finds shelter with his old rugby mate Sam and his sister Kat. She used to be Henry’s best friend a very long time ago. Will they be able to become friends again or maybe even more? Chapter 7: An important conversation, a celebration and lots of love.

You can find the previous chapters and my other fics on my masterlist!

Warnings: RPF, mention of mental health issues, smut, sex (p in v), vanilla, unprotected sex, nsfw, 18+, fluff

UNBETA'ED! English is not my mother tongue, so expect bad grammar, wrong spelling, chaotic punctuation and clumsy language. All mistakes are mine…

I got a little help with a certain paragraph, thank you so much @sillyrabbit81 for your advice and your support. Love ya 💕

Credits: Pics for the moodboard from Pinterest. Face claims: Kat = Jennifer Connelly

Disclaimer: I don’t know the real Henry Cavill or anyone who's related to him in any way, this is pure fiction and a lot of wishful thinking.

Tag list (let me know if you want to be added or removed)

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Let the grand finale begin....

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"There's no need to be nervous, Kat."

Henry gave her a smile before taking a sip of his coffee.

They were sitting at their gate, waiting to board the plane that was going to fly them to Jersey.

"I know", Kat sighed, shaking her head slowly, "but I still am. I haven't seen your family in years, there will be so many people I don't know…"

"And they will love you. Look, Kitty, today is gonna be relaxed. You'll meet my parents, my brothers and their families and that's it. Just a casual dinner. Tomorrow there will be the celebration and I promise you it's gonna be great. My folks know how to party," he winked at her with a grin, "and on Sunday everyone except for my parents will be gone and we have a whole week to relax and just enjoy the island and our time together. Okay?"

"Okay," she smiled at him and took a bite of the muffin she had bought at one of the airport cafes, "I'll try to relax. Just distract me, tell me something... anything."

"That's the text for Instagram. The open letter to my fans and followers."

"Well, actually there's really something I want to talk to you about", Henry said reluctantly. He grabbed his phone and opened his google docs. "I need your opinion on this." He gave her his mobile.

Kat saw that the display showed a long text. "What's that?"

"I see," Kat chewed on her lip, looking him in the eyes, "and you want me to proofread it?"

"I want to know what you think about it."

"Alright. Let's see."

She stared at the words on the screen with a beating heart. Henry had been working on this statement quite a while now and she knew it would include his plans for the future. They had talked about different scenarios but she didn't know what he'd finally decided to do with his life and his work. She was curious but at the same time she was scared because many of these scenarios meant that he was going to leave St. Ives and her life. She took a deep breath and started to read.

The statement was deep and of unabashed openness. The way Henry described what he had gone through in the past year was very touching and she had to fight back tears several times. Relief flooded her when she read that he was asking his fans to give him a little more time to reorientate and that he intended to remain in the background for a little longer, stating that he was very happy at the sanctuary he had found and that good friends had given him shelter. What left her completely amazed was the last paragraph.

"Kal is going to take over your Instagram?"

Henry grinned sheepishly.

"Yeah. For a while. I think it's a good solution. I'm going to post pictures of him with captions that let people know what I'm doing without giving up my privacy until I'm ready to return and face the public again. It's my way of letting my fans be a part of my life although I'm not really present. I want to share what I'm up to but not the way I used to do it. I want to do more than promotion and I want to be more than a thirst trap, Kitty."

"You're much more than that, Hen", she took his hands in hers, looking at him with a frown, "so much more."

He gave her a grateful smile.

"I know that but many people don't and that's my own fault. The way I've presented myself on social media was very one-sided in the last year and it will be interesting to find out how many of my 17 Mio followers still like me when all they'll get to see in the next weeks is my dog. The ones that remain are the ones that count and in the future I want them to see who I am and what's important to me. I have picked three topics I want to concentrate on. First: conversation and protection of species in cooperation with Durrell. Second: mental health, focusing on problems men often face. I want to found a charitable trust that helps and supports men with mental health issues and that raises awareness of that topic. Thirdly: Fitness, because it's such an important part of my life. I want to show how good moving can make you feel but I also want to show the risks of overdoing it and that even very fit people can still have body issues and how I deal with these issues myself."

"First of all I think the statement you want to post is great. It's so sincere and you open up so much... It's a risk because you expose yourself but I think people will appreciate your honesty and I'm sure many can identify with what you've been through. And your plans sound fantastic, Henry. I know how important these topics are to you and you're going to be a great ambassador for all of this because it's authentic. This is you, people will notice and appreciate that." She couldn't help but give him a spontaneous hug. "God, Henry, I'm so happy for you."

Henry let out a sigh and shrugged, looking at Kat with an expression full of doubt and insecurity.

"What do you think?"

He hugged her back, pulling her into a tight embrace. "That's such a relief, Kat. I was worried it might sound stupid."

"Not a bit! It sounds perfect. But what about work? Do you already know where to go with your job?"

He took a deep breath.

"Yes. I want to return to filming but I want to leave my comfort zone a bit and try to get different kinds of roles. I'll have to talk to my agent and hope that he can find some interesting projects for me. I also thought about going on the stage again. Back to the roots, maybe I will find a theater that is willing to give me a chance. But that's just an idea, I'm open to anything. I just know for sure that I love my job. I want to be an actor and I'm ready to work again."

"And you will work again. I'm sure. Are you going to tell your family about your plans?"

"Sure. It will be a great relief for them to see that I'm back on track."

"Of course. It's a relief for me too."

"I know…"

They were interrupted by the announcement that boarding was about to start and so they got on the plane, heading to Jersey with a pretty good feeling.

****

36 hours later Kat was still feeling pretty good. The garden party was in full swing and she really enjoyed the jolly atmosphere, the food, the drinks and most of all Henry's company. His family had given her a very warm welcome and so she had a very good time. The garden was beautifully decorated and lit by countless torches, candles and chinese lanterns. A local band was playing cover songs on a little stage and a clown was entertaining the children.

It was almost midnight when Henry turned to her with a smile.

"Time for the big surprise."

"Can't wait. You've been such a mystery-monger lately."

"I know, but you'll soon know why."

"Well, you want to surprise your mum. Isn't that the reason?" Kat was visibly confused and Henry gave her one of his perfectly imperfect winks.

"My mum and...you. Maybe?"

He went away with a grin and left Kat with a beating heart. What kind of surprise could he possibly have for her? On his mother's birthday? She smoothened out her plain black dress with a nervous gesture before she followed Henry with her eyes, her arms resting on the cocktail table right in front of the stage. When he grabbed the microphone, Kat assumed he wanted to hold a speech, maybe telling his family and friends about his future plans but when he turned to the band leader for a whispered exchange she knew there was more to it. Henry nodded at each of the band members and Kat could tell he was nervous by his body language.

"Hello everyone," his deep voice echoed through the speakers, "I'm sorry to interrupt, I know everyone is having a great time and don't worry, I'm not going to bore you with a speech, but I still have prepared a little something. A surprise."

He flashed a bright smile at his mother, ignoring the teasing cheers and whistles coming from his brothers.

"Mum, I racked my brain over a special present for weeks. What would make you happy? What would surprise you? Eventually I had this idea I knew you'd love but that really got me out of my comfort zone. I worked hard on it and I hope you and everybody else will like the result." Henry cleared his throat with a sheepish smile.

"Come on man, spill it." That was Henry's younger brother Charlie and Kat couldn't help but chuckle when his older brother Simon joined in.

"Yeah, Hen, the suspense is killing us."

Henry shook his head, laughing and Marianne Cavill shushed her sons with an amused smile.

"Okay, well... I'm going to sing for you."

"Oh please, spare us. You can't sing." Charlie again, he'd always been a cheeky guy and obviously he hadn't changed a bit. Henry laughed out loud, pointing his finger at Charles.

"Right, brother, that's why I took lessons. I spent many, many hours at our neighbour's who is a vocal coach. Kat is my witness."

All eyes turned on her now and she couldn't give them much more than a shrug, a nod and a smile to confirm his words. She wasn't able to say anything, but her mind was racing. He had been taking singing lessons with Mel, who had been a music teacher and vocal coach before her marriage. The revelation hit her hard and unexpected, flooding her with relief and a hint of shame. She had been so suspicious all this time without a reason. Nothing had been going on between Hen and Mel, nothing inappropriate, nothing intimate. He had been telling the truth.

Henry's voice interrupted her thoughts and she took a deep breath, turning her attention to what was happening on stage.

The band started to play and Kat immediately recognized the song, Green, Green Grass of Home, and when Henry began to sing she was completely captivated by his full, warm and dark voice. He did great up there and it didn't take people long to pull out lighters and smartphones to wave them in the air to the slow rhythm of the song, creating a sea of lights that illuminated the garden.

"Well...I better get started before I chicken out and change my mind." He nodded at the band with a grateful smile.

"We only had the chance to rehearse two times so please be lenient with me. Thanks guys for playing along and allowing me to take over... Anyway, I've prepared three songs. Enjoy."

Kat looked at Mrs Cavill, no, at Marianne -it still felt strange to call her by her first name- and she was beaming, tears of pride and joy sparkling in her eyes. Kat was incredibly happy and proud too, it just felt so good to see Henry perform, completely at ease with himself, confident and charming as ever.

The next song seemed to be some kind of family hymn. After only a few lines of Neil Diamond's Sweet Caroline everybody was singing along, even the kids, and Kat joined in, soaking up the jolly atmosphere and the good mood that was so infectious. Henry obviously had a great time too. He was smiling all over his face and it made Kat glad to see him so relaxed and happy. Before he began singing the last song, he spoke softly into the microphone.

"The next one is for everyone who's in love. Grab your loved ones and get on the dancefloor, it's time for slow-dancing", and after a little pause he added, "this one's for you, Kat."

I know that you've been hurt before

He looked her straight in the eyes and his words sent shivers down her spine. She noticed the curious glances people gave her and she knew she was blushing but she did her best to pretend to be cool, calm and collected, taking a sip of her red wine. When the music set in, Kat easily recognized the song. It was a slow version -Henry's version- of a Curtis Stigers song and she already loved it after the first few words. She knew the lyrics by heart and thinking about them awoke the butterflies in her belly.

Happy couples filled the dancefloor looking lovingly at each other, dancing slowly to the music. Henry's full voice was perfect for the song and he kept looking at Kat. Their eyes were locked and to her it felt like no one else was around, like Henry was singing just for her.

But that won't happen anymore, no no

Just give your heart to me

And I'll guard it with my life

I don't know what I'd do

Baby, without you

His words found their way right into her heart and for the first time in 22 years she felt ready to finally let go of the past, to completely trust him again, to believe him and to forgive him.

You're all that matters to me

The ground that you walk

The air that you breathe

Someday you'll discover

I don't want no other, believe me

You're all that matters, baby

All that matters to me

She realized that a teardrop was rolling down her cheek and she wiped it away hastily. Concern was showing in Henry's eyes when he saw that she was crying but the smile she gave him showed him it was a tear of joy and relief flooded him. He couldn't wait to finish the song now, couldn't wait to dance with Kat, to hold her in his arms.

Loud applause followed his performance, accompanied by calls for an encore that he declined politely with a shy smile. Henry made sure to tell the band to continue with some ballads and after receiving some very tight hugs and kisses from his extremely happy and proud mother he finally joined Kat at their table.

"Fancy a dance?" He offered her his hand with a charming smirk.

She nodded and took his hand, following him to the dance floor where he pulled her close. They swayed slowly to "You Are The Sunshine of my life" for a while without saying anything, content with just looking at each other, before Kat broke the silence.

"You were great up there."

"You liked it?"

"I loved it, Hen. You have a wonderful voice. Mel seems to be a good coach." Kat gave him a sheepish smile.

"Yeah, she is. Once she'd realized that I wasn't interested in more than singing lessons she was very professional and pretty strict."

Henry grinned at her, gently tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"It was supposed to be a surprise and I wanted you to trust me." He shrugged, giving her a tender smile.

"And I didn't. I let you down. I was such an idiot, Henry. I should have believed you, I am so sor…"

"No, Kitty, please... don't apologize, okay?" He looked at her with a frown, seriousness showing in his eyes. "You had every right to be mistrustful, I understand that. Just tell me that you think you will be able to trust me again some day."

"I already do. I…"

They bumped into another couple and it wasn't the first time. The dance floor was crowded and everyone was keen on congratulating Henry on his performance. It felt like every single party guest was watching them.

"Wanna leave?"

"Yes," Kat nodded with a smile.

****

"It's so peaceful, isn't it?"

"It is. It's beautiful." Kat squeezed Henry's hand before resting her head against his shoulder. They were walking down the beach along the dark shore, that was romantically enlightened by a bright full moon hand, in hand. The sea was calm, just giving off its soothing sounds and a cool breeze that made Kat shiver. Henry took off his jacket and wrapped it around her shoulders.

"Thanks", Kat said with a smile, "not only for the jacket but for bringing me here and for this wonderful night."

"Did you enjoy the party?"

"Of course, it was so much fun and I loved your performance. Especially the third song."

Henry stopped walking and turned to her, taking both of her hands in his, looking her deep in the eyes.

"Every single word was true, Kat. I meant it. I'd never hurt you again. You're really all that matters to me. I know you find it hard to believe me, but…"

"I believe you," Kat cut in, "I felt it. I feel it now."

Henry stared at her. "You do?"

"Fuck, yes, I do!" Kat threw her head back, laughing out loud, feeling incredibly happy and light-hearted all of the sudden. "And I feel the same, Hen. Exactly the same."

She cupped his face with her hands and did what she had been longing to do for so long. She kissed him. It was a gentle kiss, almost shy and when Henry felt her mouth on his, her soft lips united with his, skin on skin, no tongue, just tenderness and love, he was beyond happy and savoured every single second.

When Kat pulled away reluctantly he rested his forehead against hers taking a deep breath.

"I feel like 17 again", he whispered.

Kat laughed softly at his words. "So do I. It feels great."

The next kiss started off just like the previous one, innocent and sweet, but when Henry pulled Kat close to deepen the kiss all the bottled-up sexual tension and energy, all the suppressed passion and desire of more than 20 years erupted and they started to make out hungrily, starving for love and intimacy. After a while things really heated up and Henry was the one to put the brakes on when Kat started to fumble with his fly.

"If you don't want me to take you right here we better take it to the bedroom, Kitty", Henry sighed, his voice thick with arousal and desire.

"Well, I've never done it on the beach…", Kat smirked, biting her lower lip.

"Seriously? Here?" Henry took a look around checking if the coast was clear.

"I was joking, Hen. I hate having sand in every pore." Kat nudged him with a grin. "Just take me home."

They made it to the cottage in record time and started to undress each other right in the little hallway, kissing and fumbling like teenagers. While Kat was unzipping Henry's trousers, he was unsuccessfully trying to open her bra.

"Front clasp, Hen", Kat explained to him breathlessly.

"Fuck", Henry chuckled, "I swear I'm not gonna be that clueless once I'll have you naked."

"Good," she answered with a lewd smile, stripping off her bra when he'd finally managed to open it, standing in front of him in just her panties.

"God, you're beautiful, Kitty." Henry let his eyes wander all over her body while stepping out of his pants. He took off his socks and now he was facing her naked too, except for his briefs.

"You don't look so bad yourself, pop."

She grabbed him by the hem of his underwear, pulling him close for another kiss. Kat gasped when he lifted her up effortlessly, wrapping her legs around his waist, feeling his hard-on pressing against her wet panties. She moaned into his mouth when he moved his hips, dry humping her teasingly. Henry carried Kat to his bedroom and laid her down on the bed. He stripped off her pants before he did the same with his and when they finally were both naked he climbed on top of her, looking her deep in the eyes, before kissing her again. It was a long, slow kiss and Kat let her fingers run over his back till they reached his butt. She squeezed his ass and pulled him close, sighing with lust when Henry started to kiss her tits and to suck her nipples. She reached between her legs and grabbed his dick that was pretty impressive, giving it a few strokes that made him moan loudly.

"Fuck, Kat...I need you…I need to feel you...now."

She brought the tip of his cock to her entrance, bucking her hips, inviting him in.

"Take me. I'm yours, Henry."

"Are you on birth control?"

"I am, don't worry. Just go for it. Please."

Her words weren't more than a hoarse whisper but Henry heard them crystal clear. He moaned again when he realized that it was finally going to happen. He was about to make love to Kat and it was like a dream come true. A hot, sexy, wet dream and he couldn't help but feel a little nervous. He penetrated Kat slowly, gently, enjoying the moment that marked the beginning of their first time.

"God, Hen…", Kat moaned softly as he stretched her pussy, kneading his ass and lifting her hips to meet him halfway, "you feel great."

"I love you, Henry," she whispered before she came with a loud moan. She arched her back and Henry felt the shiver that ran through her body and the contraction of her pussy that tightened around his cock. The feelings that flooded him were more than Henry could take and he cried her name out loud when he got off, releasing an enormous amount of cum and the thought of filling her up like this made him thrust into her cunt hard and deep one last time. "Fuck...Kitty." He collapsed on top of her, gasping and panting, holding her tight, pressing a kiss on her lips. Henry looked her in the eyes with a loving smile.

He started to move slowly once he filled her completely, looking her in the eyes. It was impossible to turn back time. He wasn't her first, she wasn't his first but he still intended to make their first time together feel special, he didn't want to fuck her mindless, he wanted to make tender love to her. He thrusted a little faster and deeper now and Kat followed his rhythm, her gaze resting on his face. They shared another sensual kiss, moving in sync for a wonderful long time, prolonging the intimate moment as much as possible, enjoying the sensation of closeness, their bodies and souls connected.

Henry's moans got louder, turning into raspy grunts which was a great turn on for Kat, who was a panting mess. Breathing heavily she was getting closer to cumming with every thrust that hit her cervix, with every stroke, brushing against her g-spot, with his lower body pressing and rubbing against her clit. She watched Henry, who had his head bent back now, eyes half closed, his upper body propped up on his elbows that were placed left and right of her torso. She wrapped her legs around him, making him go even deeper before she grabbed his head and pulled him in for a sweet kiss. They locked eyes and his gaze was full of tenderness, his pupils tinted black and filled with lust.

"I love you too, Kat."

A few minutes later they were lying side by side, holding hands, their faces turned to each other.

"We should have done that 22 years ago."

Henry grinned at Kat, stroking her cheek with his thumb.

"I doubt it would have been so good. Teenage Kat was very self-conscious and a little prude and I guess teenage Henry wasn't a pro at handling this weapon right from the start." Kat touched his dick and gave him a teasing wink that made Henry chuckle.

"Right. We've come a long way. It just feels like we've wasted so much time...all these years."

"We can't change that, Hen", Kat said, "but we can make the most of the time that's still to come. Let's just be happy together from now on. Let's spend as much time together as possible, let's have lots and lots of fucking great sex, let's have fun, let's share our joys and sorrows, let's share our lives."

****

Epilogue

Two years later.

Kat sat at her desk in her office with a happy smile on her face. Mr. Darcy was sleeping on her lap and she held a letter in her hands. Bringing it close to her nose she took a deep breath, smelling Henry's scent, his tangy, musky cologne. It was a habit they had established in the last years. Whenever Henry and Kat were separated for more than a few days they sent each other love letters. Handwritten in ink, the exclusive, handmade writing paper perfumed with their odours, the lines filled with their love. The letters usually weren't long, most of the time they shared just short poems or simply a few sentences about how their days had been without each other. It was their old fashioned way of showing their affection and of staying in touch in addition to their conversations via phone or facetime.

"A letter from daddy", Kat whispered, stroking her round belly tenderly. Eight weeks to go until they would welcome their first child and a little more than half a year until their wedding. "Let's see what it's saying."

Kat opened the letter carefully and pulled out the thick paper to unfold it.

"My darling Kitty,

Only three days to go until I finally can take you in my arms again. I can't wait to kiss your lips and your belly to greet you and our little bean. I don't have much time, you know how tight my schedule is, but I needed to write down this poem for you. It would make a great wedding vow, don't you think? Just read it and let me know how you feel about it when I'm back.

"Mouthful Of Forevers

I am not the first person you loved. You are not the first person I looked at with a mouthful of forevers. We have both known loss like the sharp edges of a knife. We have both lived with lips more scar tissue than skin.

Our love came unannounced in the middle of the night. Our love came when we’d given up on asking love to come. I think that has to be part of its miracle. This is how we heal.

I will kiss you like forgiveness. You will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms will bandage and we will press promises between us like flowers in a book.

I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat on your skin. I will write novels to the scar of your nose. I will write a dictionary of all the words I have used trying to describe the way it feels to have finally, finally found you.

And I will not be afraid of your scars. I know sometimes it’s still hard to let me see you in all your cracked perfection, but please know: whether it’s the days you burn more brilliant than the sun or the nights you collapse into my lap your body broken into a thousand questions, you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.

I will love you when you are a still day. I will love you when you are a hurricane."

Isn't it perfect for us?

by Clementine von Radics

I love you!

Forever yours,

Henry"

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The End

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