#good god let me breathe

[laurenkmyers]

kinn theerapanyakul is a certifiable ass + tiddie™️ man

#kinnporsche #kinn x porsche #kinnporsche the series #kinnporscheedit #thai bl #mine #good god let me breathe

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn

#its nice to be this excited about something again! to the point of nausea! #and i Mean That #this is the good kinda stress. tis a welcome break from the usual brands #all week i've been having moments of 'ohhhh god New Information Incoming' and i have to sit down every time #and measure my breathing to chill tf out #is this unhealthy! maybe! i am trying to keep it Contained!! tightly leashed if you will #BUT OH FUCK ITS ALMOST HERE AGH AGH AGH #absolutely unprompted #welcome home #i will probably be unable to discover secrets bc i am bad with computers and the like #but hey! ill try! #if there's like... a spoiler tag yall want from me ill make sure to tag any Update Posts with it #then again wh is a unique scenario of like... Are there spoilers #bc it feels like a 'a couple people uncover stuff and then show/tell the rest' thing #but what would i know! this is kinda the first update! #LETS GO GAMERS I HOPE THE NEW STUFF IS TRAUMATIZING FOR BOTH US AND THE CHARACTERS #alright im getting to excited again im gonna go lay down #gonna be refreshing pages every ten seconds even when its completely illogical and meaningless to do so

[hazel-callahans]

“i decided early on that aziraphale just loves crowley.”   — michael sheen, no. 1 shipper, nycc 2018

bonus:

#‘my objective in this scene is to not show you how much i love you.’ 'just gazing longingly at you all the time.' #OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY WEEEEEEEEEEEEE GETTTTTTTTTTTT ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT #THEY are GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and then david is just adding to it fully supporting michael #THEY WONT LET ME CATCH A BREATH GOD #good omens #good omens s1 #aziraphale #crowley #barely but like he's still There technically #michael sheen #david tennant #shennant #ineffable husbands #goodomensedit #my coloring #gif #*mine #1k #2k #i never know if i should tag aziracrow bc ineffable seems to be enough #maybe someone has done this kinda set before #i weally dont nawt care #im not abt to tag all the eps these were part of #tag rant

[snivel1]

I'M IN TEARS I AM INCONSOLABLE TEARS AND MUCUS FLOWING DOWN MY FACE WHAT DO YOU MEAN THIS IS THE END FOR THEM I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THIS😭😭😭😭

#lovebrush chronicles #lovebrush cael #lovebrush mc #yes i know it's not REALLY an end and all but it could well potentially be a canon end for the main story #lovebrush chronicles spoilers #yeah cael did. a lot of shit. but can't i just wish a peace of mind and happiness for him😔😔 i mean he does deserve to suffer a lil bit <3 #and he did <3 i still think it's not enough and i still think he deserves a lil bit of peace in the end🙏 #it's complicated😔✊️✊️ my guardian that i want to bite and kill and pat his hair and let him experience true happiness <3 #snively ramblings #god this game holds me captive with its stories i NEED TO STUDY😭😭😭 #i'm sooomewhat dissapointed with clarence's rushed story and ending but i guess it was nice <3 #the other characters are good too!! but cael specifically makes me want to eat glass😭😭😭😭 my problematic malewife <3 #i also like how easy this game is for f2p players!! it's really really friendly and i managed to clear the main story in like two months #WHICH IS RARE NOWADAYS IN THESE KINDS OF GAMES #and the story has unique quality!!! the mc is vey charming smart and funny and the li's are pretty unique <33 #i like this game <33 waiting for more cael info and content with bated breath *I'm literally shaking foaming at my mouth*

[sweet-villain]

SIR.

#dacre montgomery #let me breathe for a second sir #he looks so good #I just wanna bite him #god he’s beautiful

[petorahs]

me, gearing up to explain why the dragon prince's latest seasons have continued to disappoint me, that while i love the lore and worldbuilding and characters there are clear pacing issues that are so jarring it takes me out of the experience, and that i say all of this with great love for the series but there's only so much good concepts can do before animation has to catch up in order to retain the average viewer's attention. that although season 4 and 5 have been branded as "the mystery of aaravos" the titular character barely appears and that is a crime to me, that even if it's for the suspense and intentionally leaving the viewer/main characters in the dark it's not doing a good job at building up his character and i fear for the exposition dump that will inevitably happen later on. that i will be harsh in critiquing this series because i love it so much and want it to be the best it can be: *inhales*

also me the moment i actually finished the goddamn season:

#no fair viren i want a canon lovechild with aaravos too are u kidding. i'd do anything to let him manipulate me #AARAVOS<3333 #as mlm there is just something so lovely to me about aaravos like they put something in him that activates my neurons #aaravos #the dragon prince #the dragon prince season 5 #love them. love this hot elf bastard. i feel ill #my critiques still stand btw. but god its so hard to hate it when hehe elf man <3 #think im just grumpy they dont show aaravos more when hes literally the only thing keeping me watching at this point. #at first it was rayllum #but hmm.... #some of the emotional side plots are... cheesy at best.... i wanted to roll my eyes at a lot of points... its just so overdone? #is it just me being used to these kinds of storytelling?? like its good but its not anything im not used to so i just put it on bg noise as #as i wait for the season to finish.. #i hate to do this but not only is it avatar tla but also somewhat reminds me of RWBY. king i'm sorry to do this to you i really am.. #to be fair theres nothing wrong. with being any of this. i think tdp is still nice standalone #it just drags out sometimes it's silly #also those clumsy sequences where it wanted to replicate that 3D + 2D animation hybrid #that spiderverse pioneered???? i mean. there was an attempt and i respect that #overall though!! i really do love this series i think it's still charming and im def tuning in to the next season with bated breath #i have more good to say than bad tbh if i tried theres just so much about it :]]]]] i love <3

[adhdstudybitch]

At least 10 different medical "professionals" when I tell them the entire story of me developing POTS, which started with "I got the covid booster": Well, the vaccine doesn't cause *insert whatever the suspected diagnosis of the week was* so that's irrelevant

One cardiologist under the age of 40: Actually, we are starting to see a connection between COVID, the booster, and dysautonomia, particularly in younger people, and especially if they have an autoimmune disorder.

#fuck you fuck you fuck ALL of you and your dismissive bullshit #I HAD TO SUGGEST POTS #None of them were even thinking along those lines #One provider even told me 'dizziness isn't a common symptom of POTS' #dizziness? you think dizziness isn't a common side effect of the too-much-blood-rushing-to-the-lower-half-of-the-body disorder? #I fucking can't with these people #my cardiologist walked into the room and said 'I think I understand your symptoms but tell me everything from the beginning' #then proceeded to say 'yeah this absolutely sounds like POTS and I'm glad you recognized it let's talk about a treatment plan' #I did have to wear a little dude on my chest for two days #heart rate monitor I think #and the adhesive have me a rash #but it's off now and I've been doing all the things he suggested and oh my god I can sing again #Like I have actual good breath support and can sing. and I can talk in long phrases without frequent pauses to catch my breath #I ran a few days ago I actually fucking ran and it didn't kill me #the dizziness is getting better #thank fuck for good doctors #lex rambles

[outismm]

OUTIS send help, Doctor Who is the gift that keeps on giving 😭😭😭 i thought the Toymaker would be the end of it but folks in my Toymaker server made a few jokes about Six. and i had -no idea- about what kind of character Six is. holy FUCK i am in LOVE with this pompous, arrogant asshole 😖💖💖💖💖 he's so cute!!!!! so abrasive!!!! so......PASSIONATE!!!!!! i didn't know he was such a freak!!!! yes yes yes please do rewatch his era because i'm doing it for the first time and having a blast 😂💖

yes,,,, YYYYEEESSSSS. This is perhaps the best development that could have happened. I need you to know how quickly I scrambled downstairs like some sort of Ghoul to try and find the old boxsets and AUGHE!!!!

I FORGOT WHAT AN ABSOLUTE CHARACTER HE IS!!!

He's got such an incredible amount of drama and charisma and wild-eyed charm inside of him, I can't believe how this man has slipped to the back of my mind for so long. Even outside of his borderline regeneration-induced-mania during his first storyline, he's just. such a delight. Colin Baker is having the time of his life delivering every line, and you can TELL

Look at him - what's not to love?

Also, this isn't directly related to our dear multicoloured man, but - thank you for giving me an excuse to Stare Affectionately at Classic Who! There are so many of those delightful quirks and silly set-pieces you can only really find in early 70s-80s sci-fi, sprinkled all throughout, I just,,, ah <3333 it has been so long

OKIE IM RAMBLING BUT >:) EHEHE I cannot wait to see you slip further and further into Doctor Who Fevers. Come yell with/at me anytime, I love seeing ppl experience Classic Who and all the wonderfully wild things it has to offer

#I FORGOT HOW SNIPPY AND SARCASTIC HE WAS POST-REGEN #I MEAN HE ALWAYS IS TO SOME DEGREE BUT ESPECIALLY SO RIGHT AFTER.... #“that's three 'I's in one breath - makes you sound a rather /egotistical/ young lady” SIXXXXXX <3333 #I do also love Peri being like '>:( god-DAMN you're ugly and old and mean' RIGHT OFF THE /BAT/ AMSDNASMND #AND HIM BEING LIKE 'clearly im having some sort of breakdown. I need to become. a hermit' #STAR I AM SPINNING AROUND W/ U IN A FIELD. HAPPY DAYS ALL AROUND. #I know 6's run is controversial bc he's a lot more arrogant but tbh. so far I'm having a lot of fun. Batting my lashes at him. #call him a showpony because I'm going to ride h- <- outis is forcefully dragged away #I think I only really watched 6 w/ my nan so the memories are more sparse than some of the other docs #a bit more familiar w/ 4th bc he was around for 17234823 billion years (affectionate) #but AUGH <3!!! SIX!!! HE IS SUCH A GOOD TIME!! I'M ENJOYING RE-DISCOVERING HIM SO VERY MUCH!! #also the background music is so good??? like the music in The Twin Dilemma is amazing?? that little musical sting?? #I can't remember if it's like that all throughout this season but AUGH <33 Classic Who you never let me down #I also love his little gestural quirks. whenever he fiddles behind his ear I feel my heart go <333333 MANSDMSAN #ANYWAYS ANYWAYS. outis rambles in the tags. an extremely expected development MNASDMAN #OKIES GOOBIE. STAR HAVE SO MUCH FUN. #doctor who #sixth doctor

[cyancherub]

i really truly believe that if you are a kind person there will be a lot of goodness in your life and  that if you are an actively shitty person u will get what is coming to you

#i dont rly believe in god but i believe in the universe thats my mommy #i do my best and i feel like she takes care of me in return #and i think that if you are a bad person and u put out bad energy you are going to get that back #sometimes i feel like people are fucking me over and im like my GOD i want to do something evil to this person but then i am like. no... #take a deep breath and let the universe handle it #this sounds insane i know that DFKLSL but i believe it #talky cherub #not to say that good ppl dont experience hardships bc they do but i just feel that #what u put out will be returned to u

[hella1975]

what do you plan to do with your degree after uni?

FUCK NASTY!!!

#if i ever touch economics again it's a cry for help like i cannot stress enough how fucking pointless this degree is gonna be #okay deep breath im only being so negative bc im balls deep in exam season. it's a GOOD degree i DONT REGRET MY DEGREE #this will be EXCEPTIONALLY helpful when i go into the working world i am EMPLOYABLE bc of my DEGREE #like economics is a VERY versatile subject there arent many areas of work that econ doesnt apply to in some way #so i KNOW it's a really good degree to have and i can kinda do what i want afterwards #but oh my fucking god. jesus christ. bloody fucking hell #i do however know that in the immediate year after my degree im gonna move back home and waitress full time #bc i just need to like. take some time off education and recover LMAO and i want a space to just tick some boxes i never got round to #like learning how to drive and stuff. and living without having rent to pay in a place im very familiar with will be good #even if i do think it's gonna have it's own struggles. oh hometown blues we're really in it now #but yeah after that year im thinking about maybe doing a masters? but ill have to proper blag it bc you typically have to do #masters in subjects relevant to your degree and i dont want to go within a radiation exclusion zone of economics #so. there's that. do u think if i say please somewhere will let me do a classics masters be honest. if i say pretty please #ask #hella goes to uni

[landoffreaksandfrogs]

i remember back in the old fandom days ppl would put whos in their "quadrants" on their blogs and everytime i saw someone actually having a kismesis i would shrivel up bc Humans Should Not Have Those. dont get into a toxic relationship built around hate bc funny webcomic.

#i REALLY LIKE BLACKROM IN *THEORY* I LOVE DISCUSSING IT AND DISSECTING IT AS A FORM OF *DISTINCTLY ALIEN ROMANCE* #BUT NO ONE SHOULD BASE THEIR RELATIONSHIPS AROUND TROLL QUADRANTS..... #i want to examine what a good blackrom would be like but as it stands #most of the blackroms in homestuck are done by the most mentally ill teenagers ever #their REDROMS are fucking suffering #god. let me think. i remember at the end of act 6 i genuinely enjoyed john and terezis flirting #john in general. AS A FICTIONAL CHARACTER. seemed like hed be able to grasp the concept of a blackrom pretty well #which probably also ties into partially into his role as a breath player an aspect that focuses on adaptability and freedom #what was i talking abt oh yeah #um. if anyone suggests you and them should have a kismesisitude. run

[quietwingsinthesky]

thinks about child-but-growing-fast amara and lucifer in the same room and gets ill.

#im gonna get called a homestuck again im SORRY its a good trope #she’s not his mom but she is. older than him and older than god and a being he helped imprison. #and the effects of that. here and now. are that she is so weak she has to relearn how to exist. #that she has to eat souls. tear them out one by one. you have to imagine that lucifer once saw her devour whole galaxies on a whim. #back when everything was moving in constant flux between destruction and creation. you have to imagine. #what is it to see her like this. is it pitiable. awful. comforting because she can’t hurt him right now and if he struck first maybe she #never could? #would he think about this moment this experience later when he’s made human. when he experiences a similar powerlessness. #anyway. lucifer gets out of the cage and trashes crowley’s place to kidnap his aunt-who-is-baby-right-now #u know me i love when characters go on the run together. what a weird little bond they’d form. #how do you overcome the anger at someone who helped cage you for eternity? does it help to know he didn’t escape your fate just because he #helped seal it when it was you? do you think they trade cage stories. #do you think lucifer tells her about how michael is still trapped in there and when he goes quiet. it’s not him who says he’s glad michael #knows what it’s like. it’s amara who says it. with an anger older than time. bitter enough to sting. #arms curled around herself because she’s hungry now. always hungry. tries not to think about what lucifer would taste like. (powerful) #sitting on a bench together watching people (souls. meals.) walk by. talking about prisons. talking about justice. maybe. or revenge. same #thing. and amara is leaning against him coiled tight through every muscle in her body and so so hungry. and when she says she’s glad michael #is suffering she isn’t really talking about him. but when she says it. lucifer lets out a breath. and says. me too. #and then he goes to find her something(one) to eat. #u see my vision. u do.

[thebleedingeffect]

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#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks. #ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-

[quesadillayuri]

me in the middle of writing a fic knowing full well that every day that passes where i dont post it it gets less and less canon

#qsmp lore moves so fast #like. y is something happening every week every day every hour let me bREATHE #authors that try to write in canon universe where r u... #i love aus im just not creative in that way #except for crybeauty & be god! were act pretty good but ctommy was an anomoly that made me CRAZY #.hellwurld

[todayisafridaynight]

GOD. Epilogue of "A Dream a Kirin Dreamed" pisses me off. This is not to say it's bad by any stretch. It just pisses me off because WHY DIDN'T KIRYU BOTHER TO TELL DAIGO ANYTHING. Why did he just say "He didn't betray you" without backing up his point at all and then fuck off entirely without checking back in.

The man just woke up and he's awake for a week before he's discharged from the hospital??? Maybe catch him up to speed on something that's clearly weighing on him??? Or on anything else that's happened in the time he was unconscious ??? Hello???????

Like. Dude. Is it not enough that you're just dead weight for the entire fucking ending. Knowing this is your son's best friend. And no way he doesn't know because even aside from Mine's monologue which (obviously) focused on his perspective, Kiryu says himself when he encounters a journalist who can't find any friends or family to interview about Mine that Daigo would know him best.

KNOWING this is your son's best friend. You LET him kill himself in front of you both because for you, sitting on your ass and going "Mine!" was good enough. You didn't think to reason with him. You didn't think to grab onto his leg or something when he was three feet away. You weren't injured. You weren't THAT exhausted. You just didn't think to do it. Even though A SUBSTORY IN Y3 ENDS THE WAY THE MAIN STORY SHOULD HAVE AND IT'S ONE OF THE LAST THINGS YOU CAN DO BEFORE HEADING TO THE HOSPITAL.

Y3 ending is literally my Y7 ending in terms of how much anger rises up within me whenever I think about it because it just Somehow, To This Day, piles more and more on top that makes it worse than it already was. Like its ONLY saving grace is that Mine didn't actually die. Allegedly. At least you can argue Ichiban and Aoki didn't have time to react, but Kiryu had all the time in the world and did nothing.

Ok I need to stop I need to stop I know I should be mad at Yokoyama and Takeuchi and not Kiryu and I literally had to run this post through an all-caps -> sentence caps converter But Anyway Point Is If Ichi Had Been The Protagonist Of Y3 Mine Would Be Alive

i cant even really blame something like kiryu's emotional ineptitude to explain why he couldnt just be open about What Mine's Business Was because the guy can CLEARLY speak from the heart and say good and honest things. like he knows how to communicate For The Most Part so its truly just. The Fuck Happened Here you dont think it wouldve been a good idea to get daigo up to speed on the past week or 👁️👁️ just saying Mine Didn't Betray You is like. a FAIR start i GUESS but ELABORATE a bit ??

not at all a 'rare' L moment just a typical kiryu L honestly （；´д｀）

#long post #snap chats #mizuki goated fr fr. highkey those two's substories are my fave theyre so fuckin bizarre..... #BUT REAL LIKE KIRYU. ILY I DO IM SORRY but i KNOW your ass can get up #mine DID just beat your ass but youre not THAT banged up and its not like you have any reason to relax after knowin richardsons alive #like there was PLENTY of time to react this some yakuza 'let him finish speaking its honorable' bullshit i PROMISE (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) #dont look down here im ranting about y7 related stuff #OK BUT NO THIS JUST REMINDED ME OF ONE OF THE MOST INFURIATING TAKES I READ ONCE #AND IT WAS BASICALLY PEOPLE BLAMING ICHI FOR AOKI DYING LIKE EXCUSE ME #how on gods green earth was ichi supposed to react in time- when its KUME of all people #what the fuck was he supposed to assume was going to happen its KUME he's a wet rag of a bitch boy #especially when all he did was praise aoki like how the fuck was he supposed to think he would stab him oh my godddd #like its not just kume showing up either ichi and aoki JUST had an intense emotional moment and they finally got a chance to breathe #like they thought they were good and in the clear and they were in a steadily-getting-better mood why would they be on guard (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) #FORGIVE ME thats been bothering me for months. i needed it off my chest #anyway im going for a walk. we got ice cream today and idk why i eat ice cream when it always makes me sad/lethargic #so heres to hoping a lil nature walk and heavy metal improves my mood a bit

[babybearnini]

Coughing up blood wasn't on my 2024 bingo card and yet

#ironic after i was just talking about how the sight of too much blood makes me lightheaded #i get my nebulizer Saturday and i see the specialist on the 9th let's hoppppeeeee this is all over soon #god i can't wait fire my nebulizer the breathing I'm gonna do after is gonna fill my lungs so deliciously #idk how to explain it other then it feels really good