#have to make everything about themselves

[daydadahlias]

You know what I hate more than fans bringing up 2014/2016 Ashton/the boys? I hate that even during Ashtons livestreams BEFORE THE SHOW people are in the chat talking about them breaking up like Ashton not reading the comments. Ughh like why are people talking about that again

Ashton: yeah we're gonna start working on our next album soon! can't wait! and we'd love to tour in Mexico next year or maybe the year after :) super excited for all that's to come and keep playing for you guys :)

5sos fans: so you all secretly hate each other and are breaking up next month right???

#i hate the 2014/2016 thing more personally #bc with the break up rumors it's like... #they #are not breaking up sdfghjkllkjhgfd #like they are so adamant about the fact that they are not breaking up and idk why traumatized 1D bitches #have to make everything about themselves #like 5sos are fine guys #they're literally fine #and also like even if 5sos did take a hiatus or something??? they all love each other like brothers?? and they will never stop creating #like literally dont worry abt it #ur psyching urself out for no reason #the 2014/2016 shit is just like. people being cunts #and i dislike those people more because they're actively cruel #people that bring up 5sos breaking up are just idiots <3 #pigeon #anon

[gibbearish]

love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking

#yes i want things to be free like ??? that is not a weird desire #'but but it costs money to keep up' ok and? how is that my problem #the government has plenty of murder dollars they could reallocate a few to make internet services universal if they wanted #also these companies were perfectly capable of supporting themselves before the internet got drowned with ads so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #edit: muting notifs on this post bc new additions have kind of petered out #so no one feel bad about adding something someone else has said‚ it is not bothering me im just trying to keep my #notifs page cleanish lol #also since i saw some people are being redirected to read my tags: firstly hiiiiii this is a special secret message for you:3 #secondly i have learned since making this that the reason they were able to support themselves previously was because #of investors bankrolling everything #and theyre now finally realizing that theyre never going to actually make a profit and arent as willing to invest #however thats just a minor correction and doesnt change my overall point #once again. so many murder dollars #so thats why im just adding it here in the tags rather than making an actual correction #anyways . love yall 💕 #origibberish #bigger gibbers

[davidtennantgenderenvy]

if I told you that you should watch the super Mario brothers movie solely for the fact that it features one of the most sincere, emotional and unashamed portrayals of male affection in basically all of film would you believe me

#the super mario bros movie #super mario #mario and luigi #they love each other SO MUCH #they support and lift each other up in everything #They inspire each other to be the best versions of themselves #they hug and cry and freaking FOREHEAD TOUCH #And the movie never attempts to make fun of or diminish any of this #people will try to say this movie doesn’t have any substance or isn’t about anything #It’s about BROTHERS LOVING EACH OTHER #and that is more than enough for me

[nats-uvi]

Angst time :D👍

You can read my rambling about her in the tags

#listen LisTEN TO Me #hear me OuT #oh is hc time #I read a while ago howw empathetic people tend to feel bad when they feel any angry/“negative emoy #el archivo literalmrnte lo tengo giardafo como “problemas emocionales goes brrrr” xD #how they tend to bottle everything up cause it makes thrm feel shame about how their actions might be seen as “selfish” #despite having VERY good and VALID reasons to justify thrir anger #based on the pilot I think she's pretty meek and also a little bit of a pushover #also I was thinking she'll be pretty self consious and try to mask her emotions the best she can #which obviously is super unhealthy #I think that at some point she's just going to SNAP and is gonna be awful and soo sad and omg I cant wait to see it #give my girl some character development pls #cause as much as I like crybabies characters I also like for thrm to learn how to stand up for themselves #anyway sory if that didnt made sense xDd is just that I have never had so much fun with a fictional character #mi hija fr #el archivo literalmente lo tengo guardado vomo “problemas emocionales goes brrr” xD #ya ahora si los tags serios #tadc fanart #the amazing digital circus #tadc #tadc gangle #gangle

[bitchthefuck1]

Rewatching succession it really is wild to see Kendall and Shiv convince themselves over and over again that they can "fix ATN/Waystar from the inside" only to completely abandon their morals the minute it gives them a strategic advantage.

When they're on the outside it's an endless diatribe about how evil and rotten the company is to its core, but the second they get the slightest whiff of power they suddenly decide the problems are actually really manageable and that with the right leadership it could be a force for good, and like...the saddest part is that they genuinely seem to believe that.

#where's that crime and punishment quote about how the worst thing is that you've betrayed yourself for nothing... #and they really seem to think its true! they genuinely believe that they can turn it around and make it good! it's not an act! #kendall really thinks he's a feminist and 'one of the good ones' and shiv really does think she stands with/for women and liberal #ideals and the truth is that no matter how much they might care about those things they will always love power more and they #are infinitely more invested in the power structures that keep injustice alive than they are in actually trying to stop injustice #roman is the only one who's actually aware and honest about how fucked it all is but he thinks that means everything's bullshit and #therefore nothing matters. which can be just as dangerous as convincing yourself you're the good guy (see: america decides) #that's one of the things i like so much about the ending for shiv and kendall bc they're finally forced to confront the lies they've been #telling themselves. and like. maybe that'll go nowhere. maybe they won't change. but they might. and the only hope they have #of actually growing as people and maybe doing something good is if that illusion gets shattered #idk man i just have so many thoughts about succession #succession #shiv roy #kendall roy

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before #and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.” #and that made sense to me i think. #but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing. #and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much. #and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed #and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology. #i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now. #and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be?? #i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe. #will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore?? #maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know. #i don't know what it'll mean for me. #but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way #i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think #i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed. #because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people. #peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing. #there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing. #it's a product of all of his things. #just like me! just like everyone. #so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways. #a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be. #i don't think it's something that can be simplified. #sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags. #i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual. #sci speaks

[shima-draws]

Anyway speaking of poly trios. Have any of you considered Lawlusan because MANNNN.

#Shima speaks #Not even going to get into the absolute fucking shitshow (affectionate) that Lawsan is #(Okay maybe a little bit listen Sanji is SO MUCH like Cora I'm sure it would give Law some kind of complex) #(And Law's fanboying over the Sora comics would make Sanji uncomfortable probably. Lol) #Anyway anyway anyway #Luffy having to be the babysitter which is NOT RIGHT bc it's LUFFY. #But Law and Sanji don't take care of themselves sometimes!! And Law is the fucking DOCTOR in the relationship!!! #Sanji making Law eat tho and keeping track of his diet as well as Luffy's #Law keeping an eye on Sanji's body and his mutations... #Law and Luffy finding Sanji UTTERLY CHARMING even tho Sanji's SUCH a fucking loser #Luffy & Sanji @ Law: Man he's so fucking cool. What #Meanwhile Law is ALSO a loser #Law and Sanji about Luffy are like. I'm dating the sun. The sun incarnate. Literal sunshine personified #Law being the one to keep a level head when everything's gone to shit. Bc even Sanji can lose his cool sometimes #Luffy loving his grumpy boyfriends so so so SO much it's unreal #Law and Sanji having a Limit on how much they can be cuddled in one day - #But it's perfect bc they can trade Luffy off with each other bc we all know he's clingy af #Law: Need space. Can you go cuddle Sanji-ya #Luffy: Okay Torao <333333 #Sanji: Law get sick of you? #.Luffy: He needed space!!! Anyway I'm going to cuddle you now #Sanji: C'mere then <3 #I'm ill. Tee hee. #Lawlusan #Lawlu #Sanlu #Lawsan #One Piece

[gobstoppr]

hey guys am i allowed to say on main that i dont like metadad . am i gonna get beaten up for saying this.

guys i think we all took the term found family too literally and now everythings flattened into a boring nuclear family. guys can we stop. hello . is anybody there

#text #it was kinda charming at first but it feels like everytime i try to look at the mk tag its always the same shit . guys. guys. #we can do so much more w/ their dynamics than just dad and son ugh its so . ughhh. #every since i realized i was like . really really aroace. ive started to grow a bit of a distaste for shipping culture #this is relavant i swear. iwanna talk about metadede #like ok in fandoms right. theres often #the enforcement of specific roles onto characters for a simplified understanding of them for memes and drawing ideas #we want gay rep but we dont quite have it canonically so we make our queer headcanons seem more legit #by giving a char a same sex partner. ok easy we did it. gay people are real now #and we get awesome art and its wonderful bc people are wonderful #but its like . the relationships themselves feel flat a lot of the times. #metadede never seems to be about dedede. its about mk having a boyfriend. bc we need him to date someone. #and im not like . mad at anyone about this. i participated in it back in the day. but like. #ok so. gay hcs are the most popular in most fandom things bc its easy; hot; and sweet #but things like aro or ace hcs? its just. they. how can you depict that in a single framed drawing of a char?so theres none at all. #its not even that i actively hc chars aroace its jsut this is my world view; how i default to reading chars #maybe this rant in the tags is unrelated after all. #but idk. ive got lots of thoughts about things. #anyways as ceo of meta knigth im right about everything #i can talk more about metadad stuff specifically if people want

[dawnssummers]

#they're everything #btvs #also this is a silyl joke post but i do have thoughts on spike generally dropping his front around dawn #like dawn barely remembers him as evil vampire she only knows him as guy who was there right before buffy left and then giles bath creature #and one thing about spike is that he does not treat dawn like a child And drops his armour hence stuff like dawn picking up on buffycrush #n more broadly dawn confiding in / trusting him . like the 'i must be evil' scene where dawn Knows spike isnt just trying to make her feel #better he really means what he is saying and that matters so much to dawn in that moment yk #like they both constantly have to prove themselves in some capacity (or feel like they do) and the fact they can interact levelly is so imp #they're besties #important* #spike #dawn summers

[gncrezan]

some old @chrysanthemumgames hermes-seph sketches!!! some of it is established-relationship daydreaming but also a peek at my dark and twisted mind (sprawling intricate spidey au)

#colored that top left one for my sidebar. lol. #a/tsv release made me so sick about spider-man you had to be there. im still on my bullshit but its a little more maintained #mostly bc a/tsv actually came out and i was attacked by every terrible take ever. some of u should not consume media #i know its rich coming from the IF player who enjoys romance but not everything is about romance or self insertion or ocs #miguel tag was UNUSABLE. IM TRYING TO BLOG ABOUT HIS HYPOCRISY AND SEE FANART. NOT SEE FANFICTION!!!!!! #also coming out as the biggest raimispidey2 mj speech enjoyer. im sorry. raimi trilogy is a bit messy to me BUT #if u take the mj speech at the end of 2 then it is. SO SO SO CUTE TO ME. (ignore the context its in pls) #also how her first comic appearance was IN HIS DOORWAY TOO!!!! #of course it was quite easy to project that onto sephmes from my brain so. here we are #talking mostly about raimipetermj rn. but hermes is simply not a Nerd like maguire's pete. so some insp from 616 #but comics p/etermj is its own can of worms. i am taking bits and pieces of spideymedia i like and making my own sandcastle ok #sorry for spidey meta in the foa post i will shut up nyeow #fields of asphodel #foa #hermes #seph #and also i think hermes would make a crazy mj (the association with red and how intensely similar they are with how they present themselves #but the fact is . i really really love drop dead gorgeous seph who is wanted by everyone. its true. im one of them #<- i say this like the s in seph doesn't stand for s/pider-man. i have plenty of spideyseph doodles in the archive

[ayrennaranaaldmeri]

man the dev notes w/ the stormshore tabernacle convo. whatever they're there for it's kind of remarkable how so much of the notes there for her are just textbook abuser stuff.

#tbd #after all the advantages I gave you -- i have the visceral skin crawl reaction its the abusive parent anthem #things that make my skin crawl bruh #it's everything I did for you #child who i groomed #I'm being so magnanimous towards you giving you time == child who i groomed #look at how merciful i am even though my first instinct is that i don't like how you didn't obey me #the dev notes of that convo genuinely make it worse boooy #which well done but also i will throw hands #dming helm pls kill her again #anyway i think it's kind of fascinating that most gods in this game show themselves as these larger than life figures but mystra? #you are seeing the person who did that to gale you are seeing that person #that person came to him as a child #like that divine separation has just not been there #esp with the build up #where she first dispatches elminster and then again when he tells you about the grant but at the end it's just her in this human figure #i genuinely feel like it deliberately strips that divine separation away & its another layer of insidiousness on her part #it's grounded in the sense of the damage she'd done to gale idk i am waffling but its just something about it is worse when it's so..wow. #idk i think in this game? i think she's not written like the other gods in this game and i think it makes her worse not more sympathetic #bg3 spoilers #abuse tw

[becauseplot]

i feel i should preface this with saying that this relationship analysis "takes place" before qcellbit's emotional exhaustion and motivation crash---

---but i have been having SUCH crazy thoughts abt the archivists (qcellbit n qphilza). guy who needs evidence of Everything 🤝 guy who takes pictures of and hoards Everything. two-cars-passing-each-other meme whenever cellbit (practically nocturnal at this point) makes a late-night run to the Ordo to grab some notes he left there and bumps into phil (trouble sleeping ever since the birdhouse incident) who's sitting in one of the evidence rooms organizing a new backpack of photos to hand over to cellbit.

"oh. hey phil." "hi mate."

their conversations and interactions center mostly around cellbit's investigations---the ones cellbit lets the public know about, anyway---and whatever new info phil managed to scoop up since the last time they saw each other. theories are exchanged, and photos are passed between them as easily as pleasantries. "how're you doing?" "oh, doin' alright, doin' alright. you?" "eh. busy, you know?"

they don't talk about much else.

see, they both understand secrets. intimately. things you did you would much rather leave behind you, if you can, or thoughts, worries, doubts you would much rather keep to yourself for fear of speaking them into existence. sealed lips; a tight lid. they look at each other and know they're only seeing what the other wants them to see, but that's okay. they get it. sometimes, it's just easier to focus on what is directly in front of you. what you can see, what you can touch; what you know is true, what you know is real.

what you can do.

so cellbit generates and bounces his theories off of phil, and phil is more than happy to be a sounding board. phil fills up a backpack with photographs, and cellbit is more than happy to take it off his hands. they focus on The Work, on the spiderweb of red string and loose ends and grainy pictures and scrawled notes pinned to the wall, madness-incarnate sprawled out before them. they trust each other's judgement, and they trust each other's skills, and they trust each other, and neither asks too many questions. they both appreciate it.

#like seriously most of their conversations thus far have been about everything and everyone BESIDES themselves. #and that!! makes for such an interesting relationship!! bc they trust each other despite it!! #btw i rly tried to format this so that the concepts/ideas touched on this relationship study usually came in pairs- #-the first of each pair being mostly and cellbit and the second being mostly about phil- #-with the exception of the bolded sentence which is supposed to have different meanings depending on whose perspective- #-you read it from. idk i had a lot of fun formatting this. me when parallels me when mirror images <33 #dont mind me im just rambling #qsmp philza #qsmp cellbit #q!philza #q!cellbit #also phil acting as cellbit's rubber duck is so important to me actually. #shout out to every friend of mine who has put up with my wall of texts abt an au or writing idea or incoherent mess of disjointed thoughts. #shout out to every friend of mine who's been there hanging out or on call with me as i lose my mind on a problem im whiteboarding. #u keep me sane and u help me more than u know. ily. #archivists #archivist duo

[inkskinned]

you didn't say sorry, not really. you said sorry only when i pushed about it, you said it like an afterthought, like - oh fine, if this is what you want. the apology was already tearing itself apart in the air. you said sorry, but you caused this. you said sorry you feel that way, i guess. you said: what else do you want me to say? you've already made up your mind to be angry about this.

you've moved on since then. i hope you found a therapist. i am stuck with all of the hurt you caused but - you've been working on yourself, on your multiple projects, on that beautiful life you live. happy - you look happier, lighter, free of all of it. you take artsy videos of yourself dancing; caption it - a friend recently abandoned me.

nobody else knows how hard you pushed. nobody else knows what you did. i am sure you tell everyone a version of the truth that makes out the best of you; turns me into a cold unfeeling bitch who just "doesn't understand" you. i am sure you leave out all the ways i gave you myself, over and over, for years. how many times before this you hurt me, crossed my boundaries, laid me bare - what you say to them about when i finally drew the line is - she is just being unfair.

sometimes i feel insane about it. i have to text my best friend, make sure that what-i-think-happened actually-happened. to double-check that i wasn't being a bad person. maybe i'm misremembering it. she often has to guide me back to the same two facts: beyond what any one person could reasonably expect, i gave you everything, and you still wanted more of it.

it makes me angry, when it doesn't make me sick. i force myself to journal about it. how fucked up it makes me, knowing your narrative will be the one that sticks - knowing you are out there, right now, making sure everyone listens. telling them how you are being targeted. how you, hurting me on purpose, making me feel small, ignoring my needs - how that was really my fault, in the end.

yesterday you made a post on instagram talking about how you used to feel guilty about something that had gone wrong in a relationship, but that you've freed yourself from those toxic idealisms. you said: i am not giving her the power to make me feel bad about my mistakes. i am just a human person - it's up to her if she wants to be the bigger person and actually forgive.

and i just sat there and thought: you haven't even actually apologized for it.

#narcissist #toxic #this is about like #when u have done literally everything for someone #who takes and takes and takes from u #and when ur finally like #hey dude this thing u did hurt me #they're like #OFFENDED that u finally stood ur ground #and they turn on u SO quick #you: um dude it really hurt my feelings that u said that #them: god you're so fucking sensitive #them on instagram: LET PEOPLE BE THEMSELVES. JESUS CHRIST #them to their friends: yeah idk she just FREAKED OUT about like a miscommunication #you: .... i uhhhh asked u not to say that about me and to apologize for saying that #them to their friends: she just wants me to fucking live in misery she's toxic #you: ??????????????????????????????????? i asked ... u to treat me ... like a human person #anyway don't let those people bait u #they're good at what they do and they'll make sure to act on ur weaknesses and #get u back #so they can keep taking from u endlessly #like.... stealing ur whole energy

[daz4i]

how many times do we gotta go over it man. thought crime isn't real. it's okay to feel whatever you're feeling. don't let anyone make you feel guilty for having some reflex reaction to stimuli in a way that is out of your control. the question isn't what you think or how you feel, but what you do. do you act upon those thoughts? do you harm others bc of your feelings? that's where you draw the line. keep it in your brain. vent it out in some personal way like a journal or a password locked blog. it's okay i promise

#saw a post abt sex repulsion that i mostly agreed with #until op said being disgusted by like. other people having sex is wrong #and like. i agree that if this is your knee jerk reaction you might need to look into it #but sometimes. it really is just disgust of the idea. like it's none of my business but i still find it unpleasant to see or think about #and as someone who feels guilty constantly abt everything. this is actually smth i don't feel guilty over #bc it's just an emotion and like i can't really help it. but also. I'm not hurting anyone by cringing on the inside #i don't think guilting people for feeling a negative emotion is gonna make them unlearn it i think you're just gonna make them feel awful - #- over a very normal human experience (aka. emotions). all this would lead to is ppl hating themselves for smth they can't help #it's not that deep i just got very mad at that phrasing lol esp bc it was aimed at teenagers #a group that is way more vulnerable to this sort of shit in part due to already experiencing emotions more intensely #tldr: don't do that shit man. encourage positive behavior not thought policing

[sysig]

How much of me is me? (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Papyrus #Another one that I cried to while drawing hehe ♪ Hhhhh I love their dynamic so much <3 <3 ;; #Sans' apparent disinterest in hurting Gaster is deeply interesting to me - we see him punch Gaster in Mercyplates even! :0 #I can't help but feel that a good portion of it is Papyrus being there with him when Gaster gives them his arm haha #Would he have been as well-behaved if he'd been by himself? I wonder :) #But generally I read it as him having grown up <3 They've both matured so beautifully by that point it's just ah- such a treat to read #Their transition from their childhood to their teens and young adulthood into themselves is just jdlksafhdsfd it's incredibly well written! #I say ''I wonder'' quite a lot lol but that's just speculation - watching them grow into themselves is So Incredibly satisfying <3 #It feels so natural to watch them become themselves ♥ It's beautiful ♪♫ #And their sibling dynamic is truly unrivaled <3 They support each other! Lift each other up! Where one stumbles the other catches him! #I love them so much ahh #Papyrus' emotional intelligence gets me so bad <3 The sweetest lad #I feel like it would bother Sans that he/they have Gaster's memories and not their own #It makes me especially sad to think about everything he missed of them - if only you hadn't fallen behind on the footage Gaster! >:0 #They already have some pretty incredible identity issues just throw being pieces of him in every sense into the mix #They're grown from him and even when they got away and built themselves that still got subplanted with memories that aren't even theirs! #It's a rough spot #Papyrus though ♥ Always knows what to say hehe #Reaffirming that Sans is the most important person to him - that they are to each other - that no matter what they're brothers #And that no matter what - even having Gaster's memories or being without memories at all - that Sans is a good person #That it's not out of self-preservation or trying to do it for Papyrus' sake (even if that is a lot of it haha) #That /Sans/ is the one making that decision of his own volition and his own morals and beliefs #And that he loves and supports him no matter what <3 #''I know you can be a good person. You can choose to do the right thing'' and ''I see you being a good person. You're doing the right thing' #Hhhh <3 I love them <3

[arsenicflame]

do you guys ever think about how ed wouldn't intuitively recognise izzys steps anymore because ive been thinking about that a lot this week

#TAG RB AVAILABLE #an alternate (and worse) thought; that he still does recognise izzy from his walk but only because the cane is so distinctive #(every time izzy walks up to him he is reminded of what he did; of how he CHANGED izzy; he did that; why did he do that????) #he will never stop being reminded about what he did #anyway been thinking about this a ton this week. they have sailed together so long they know each other in ways they dont even know #themselves they are the only person the other trusts with everything they know their likes and dislikes and their strengths and weaknesses #they know their aches and pains (and how they got them) they know the sounds the other makes in their sleep they know the sound #of the others footsteps. until they don't any more #izzy cant walk up behind ed and be greeted as he once was. either his steps are not recognised and eds on guard for whatever comes next #or he does still recognise him. but is reminded every time of his worst moment how he broke the trust of his friend how everything #went to SHIT. #izzy never gets that relaxed greeting again #every time ed wants to apologise. he tries to. but it doesn't stop the guilt. it doesn't make it better. it doesn't make it go away. #everything they had. gone #nyxtalks #ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #israel hands #edward teach #the toe thing #whoops went off in the tags again. feel free to do a tag rb (or ask me to do one ':) djndb)