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nancydfan · 3 years

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I think that Mia gets too bad of a rap from a lot of people.

Like yes, was she an agent of a super shady organization responsible for making a bio weapon that destroyed a great deal of lives? Yes. However we don’t know her motivation for joining them yet.

They could have lied honestly. Like The Connections could have advertised themselves to be a great, loving work environment and maybe Mia was young and naive and joined them. Or maybe she was desperate for money, and it was the only job that would hire her. Or hell, maybe she fully knew what they were and joined anyway, either on account of her morals being twisted back then or thinking that even though the company was evil maybe she could do good. Who knows, honestly.

Either way, with The Connections being a shady organization there’s like a very high chance that you don’t get to walk away from them alive. I’m sure if you quit they’d see you as a liability and take you out with no mercy. And that’s why I think Mia didn’t leave, because she knew she would be killed if she did, and maybe that’s why she took the job with Eveline, because it was more of a “you will do this or else” than an option for her (whether it was implied by her boss or if they were upfront about what bad things would happen if she didn’t take the job).

And maybe if her morals were twisted before I fully think meeting and falling in love with Ethan changed her if that was the case, because the Mia we see in RE7 and RE8 is a good person. We see that in how when the Baker’s rescue her she thanks them but tries to leave immediately and tries to warn them about staying away from Eveline (as shown in the note she left in the dlc “Daughters”). She could have tried to get them to call the hospital or her company but she didn’t, because she knew that she was under Eveline’s control and the longer she stayed there the more danger the family was. If she was a shitty person she wouldn’t have done this, she would have done everything she could to save herself.

We also see that in how she leaves a final video note for Ethan, telling him to stay away no matter what, because she didn’t want him to get dragged down in her mess. She knows how much Ethan loves her and I’m sure she knows if she sent a video saying “Ethan pls help” he’d come running for her, but she didn’t because she loves him and wants him to live even if she can’t be there with him. We see it AGAIN when she saves Ethan from Eveline’s grasp, when she tears him from the mold thing he was in and pushes him out so Eveline couldn’t hurt him. Fully knowing she’d have to face Eveline’s wrath.

And for everyone saying “why didn’t she just tell him then” I mean think about it. I think if this super shady organization found out someone they didn’t hire knew what was going on they’d kill them because again they’d be a liability and a threat. And that’s why she doesn’t tell Ethan because she doesn’t want him to be targeted and killed by them. I think if she had the opportunity she would have left The Connections but knows that it would result in her death anyway, and telling Ethan the truth would just end in his death if they found out and it was too risky in her mind.

And I think it’s this same form of protection that prevents her from telling Ethan he’s infected. She says (or at least we can assume that this was her) in Donna’s section that she didn’t tell him because she was afraid she’d lose him. I don’t think he’d divorce her if he found out he was molded (that doesn’t really make sense for his character), I think she was genuinely afraid he’d die (again) or worse begin to transform into a monster the way the rest of the infected did. And that’s why she keeps it hidden because she was scared to death he’d die or suffer a worse fate. Am I saying she was right in hiding it? No, but I think that everyone saying she’s manipulative and gaslighting are wrong because she truly loves Ethan and Rose, and I know she’d give her life gladly if it meant they could live.

I saw other people get mad because Rose is essentially being used as a bio weapon and how could Mia let this happen and I’m like?? She probably doesn’t have a say?? I mean yes Blue Umbrella is supposed to be “the good guys” now but like they’re still a huge organization, I’m sure Mia did her best to prevent this from happening and keep Rose safe but like at the end of the day what can she really do against a huge company?? If anything get mad at Chris because I’m sure he’s got some clout or something in that company that could have allowed Rose to live a normal life without Umbrella or maybe not being used as a weapon but idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ a lot of people were like “Mia’s sO annoying at the beginning of the game” but fam that wasn’t even her?? That’s Miranda?? Besides even if it was Mia that blew up on Ethan in the hospital (as per Ethan’s diary) 1.) people deal with trauma differently, and I’m not saying it’s healthy but she’s scarred and doing her best and 2.) probably was afraid if they talked too much about Louisiana Ethan would realize he was infected and then BAM he’s either dead or a mutated monster. And in the cutscene of Mia saying “you matter!” Can you imagine the stress of knowing your husband is Mr Mold Man and not being able to do anything about it, out of fear of what could happen to him? Like of course she’s upset and going to blow when provoked (not that Ethan was aggressive or anything just that he was prying into a very high pressure soda that is Mia’s emotions lol) because she’s been bottling this up and has no one to talk to, and after a while anyone would explode. I think she would have told him if he hadn’t answered that call. Also marriage is not rainbows and butterflies, sometimes you get into messy fights with your partner and sometimes you or the other person say things you don’t mean but at the end of the day you love each other and try to be better. If anything Capcom was depicting a normal marriage tbh.

At the end of the day Mia is not the bad guy. She is only human who tried her best to keep her family safe against all the odds and idc what anyone says, Ethan and Mia love each other and have a healthy relationship and that’s that.

I hope I do this ask justice cause this is the kinda ask I’ve been like hoping for cause you are absolutely gosh damn right.

I’m a chill person & I’m never gonna probably get up into someone’s face about anything cause it’s fandom. I’m not here to cater your experience. That being said, when I see some of these frankly bad takes on Mia I’m like

We know Jack shit about why Mia joined the Connections. Literally nothing so people who have a whole solidified nasty opinion of Mia should probably just sit down. You don’t have to like her. But you also could like, idk, be absolutely dead wrong cause lol Capcom went, yeah we’re not gonna explain any of that.

I got the impression that in between re7 and re8 that they are hiding from the connections too but I may have misunderstood that In re8. I think it makes sense it’s the type of organization you do not leave. No matter how badly you want to and once Ethan came along, do people really think she’d risk him? Spoiler alert: no, no she wouldn’t.

Also, re7 started w Alan. He’s the one that let eveline get out of control so...I feel like people forget that.

I’ve been talking to a friend about people using the Miranda Mia against the real Mia and I don’t know how to kindly tell people that the game kinda absolutely explained that’s not Mia? I do think Mias got a temper which makes sense because Ethan is so even tempered that he can balance her out better. But Miranda Mia was a fuckin bitch. She was needling Ethan’s pain and mocking him. Do people think Ethan sat around for three years taking that? Ethan’s a big boy. He can take care of himself. He was even fighting back w Miranda Mia so manipulative and abusive takes belong in the toilet w the rest of the shit.

Mia blowing up at Ethan means nothing. My parents have proven to me marriage is not easy. You will lose it on people when emotions run high. It happens. There’s a world of difference between a moment of anger versus abuse. But you still love and forgive people for moments of anger because we all have them. And I’m sure Ethan can be just as much as a pain in the ass. I love him more than most and I’d be the first person to admit I’m sure he didn’t make it easy all the time either.

Mia held the truth from Ethan because she was scared not just for her but for him too. It’s a selfless kind of lie. We all do them so I don’t know why Mia is getting burned at the stake for it. I’m just not movable on this. That was a heavy thing to carry and she was doing her best.

As for Rose, I don’t even know what Capcom is doing. How can anyone else know? She’s special and powerful. Maybe she wanted that life? I think we can reserve judgement until re9.

Like I said above, no one has to like Mia. Maybe you don’t vibe w her or maybe you still just don’t care for her. That’s cool. But my gosh don’t lie about the kind of person she is. If you can’t acknowledge her world and heart belongs to Ethan and Rose, I’m just not sure what to tell you.

Sorry for ranting on your ask nonnie 😆 I really appreciate that you sent this in! It needed said imo

#thanks for the ask nonnie!!#resident evil #ethan winters #mia winters #mithan #resident evil spoilers #resident evil 7 #resident evil 8 #mrs joe speaks #long post

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dolansmith · 5 years

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Thoughts on the “Trisha Drama”

I’m going to preface this with my previous thoughts of both sides. I didn’t know who Trisha was until after I found out about the vlog squad about a year ago. I didn’t mind her, i thought she brought out an interesting perspective to the group. Then I thought she was literally off her rocker.

I loved the vlog squad bc I found them in a really difficult time in my life and they kept me from getting too deep into a depression. While I saw some of their mistakes, I saw the best in them all and hoped for change or at least some kind of accountability.

This is gonna be really long and idk if anyone is even gonna read this/care lol but Im just so frustrated with a lot of the people that are into the vs. Like after really looking into everything that happened, I felt kind of ashamed to be backing the vs bc they’re doing some fucked up stuff tbh.

So lets do a basic rundown of mistakes made.

Mistakes in their public relationship: -Trisha: made sexual jokes about jason’s friends, started arguments about her insecurities instead of starting a conversation. -Jason: made sexual jokes about girl’s a decade younger than trisha (and 2 and a half decades younger than him), would complain about having to go do things trisha liked doing and would pout the whole time (i.e. disneyland and a couple of the hamilton viewings), would egg on trishas insecurities, literally dumped her on a daily basis and call her crazy when she voiced said insecurities and then would basically get back together within an hour and practically give everyone whiplash, also talked about her weight and eating habits CONSTANTLY (fucking dick) -David: inputted himself in their relationship, recorded their fights and encouraged their toxic behavior to both his friends and his audience

Mistakes in the “official” breakup: -Trisha: talking about jason’s ex and kids, comparing david to ted bundy (a lil wild but tbh not that big of a deal bc no one actually believed thats what she meant but anyway), the brandon thing (we’ll come back to this) -Jason: continuing to make jokes about fucking a 19/20 year old despite his gf saying she didn’t like it, not putting an end to David “pressuring him” to making said jokes, the brandon thing -David: ignoring his “friend” when she said not to put something in his vlog, putting his image and career first

Mistakes after: -Trisha: constantly going on rants about david and Jason. -Jason: staying in contact with trisha secretly. (ill get back to this too) -David: putting his image above all else.

Now we’re going to get into some uncomfortable hot takes. I’m gonna get a whole lotta hate from stans but tbh idc anymore

The Brandon Thing (I’ve done some digging since her video exploding at Jeff):

-Brandon began a relationship with a high schooler. She was underage the first time they had sex. There’s receipts and timelines set up. I’d recommend Petty Paige’s Youtube video on it for specifics. -Lot’s of vs fans say she only brought it up when her and Jason ended so that meant she didn’t really care, but I’d like to point out that she has stated (on more than one occasion) that she voiced her thoughts on this multiple times to the group in Private and no one cared. Y’all are always going on about how she should say whatever she has to say in private but when she does and is ignored, what then? Just a thought. -Let’s also bring the rest of the vs up in this. How come none of them ever said anything? They’re the ones still out here tolerating him. Pretty hypocritical. I’m not gonna aim anything at the girls bc none of them have Brandon in their videos but the guys? Jeff, Jason, David, Todd and I think Scott too, have all had Brandon in at least one video. They’re out here talking shit about Trisha amongst each other but are friends with a predator? Lmao Okay, cool.

Jason Keeping in Contact for months:

-This was dumb. -As someone who has suffered from mental health issues and has been in a mental hospital and suffered from attachment AND abandonment issues, Trisha would’ve been better off had Jason ended things and kept them that way. Instead, he ended their public relationship and friendship. He kept her a secret from even his “friends” and then dragged on their “friendship” for months. For what? He should’ve just given her her things and closure and kept it pushing. -On that, why did he keep her belongings for so long and refuse to give it back until she said something public about it? He ignored her calls and texts about her very expensive things for weeks. Then she made a video calling him out on it, and she got her stuff back. -I’m seeing a pattern here, aren’t you?

The Jeff Thing (did some digging on him too...by digging i mean google):

-This one makes my blood boil for several reasons. ESPECIALLY AFTER TODAYS VIDEO. It rlly put everything into perspective omg. -The starbucks story that Trisha told was the same everywhere: ‘I saw Jeff at Starbucks and said hey. He ignored me and was such a pussy he left his order at the counter after having paid.’ His masculinity is SO FRAGILE that he twisted it into ‘I’m not gonna be fake with someone who fucked over my friend. Can’t fuck them up either tho lol’ and ‘i’m not gonna make shit easy on you, i’m gonna make them feel weird’. What a baby lmfao -His assault joke rubbed me the wrong way. I know Jeff’s schtick is the whole “I was in jail for a few months and I was a drug dealer I’m big and scary” blah blah blah. Listen, I’ve met men that have been in jail longer (he was in for only 4 months he once said I think) and had worse upbringings than he did and HAD to do some of the shit Jeff was doing (which lemme remind yall, was on his own accord). The men that I know that have lived similar and worse lifestyles than Jeff, would never and I REPEAT NEVER, make a joke about assaulting a Woman over “fucking my friend over”, when the situation was what it was. Which was: an exposé, basically. That’s some petty shit, it’s for the birds. (Also, Todd and Jay’s jokes about the assault joke? Ain’t it. They were just as bad as Jeff’s original joke.) -Do y’all know what Jeff’s been to jail for? He tried to assault someone that worked at a 7-Eleven after he and his dumbass friends were fucking around in the store and got yelled at and ended up assaulting a woman walking by. -He also talked about her mental health issues. Maybe he wasn’t talking about her specifically, but it was REAL specific. He said that it was crazy that a “psychopath” that’s been in a mental hospital still had a platform on youtube. That they shouldn’t have one. Trisha made a really good point of, “some could say the same about your time in jail.” Because they could. And mental health can be managed. So can your outrageous anger issues, Jeff. This was really ignorant on his part. -I also want to remind everyone about the time he said he didn’t understand how men could be sexually harassed. That all you had to do was say no. -He says he likes to “make things awkward” and make everything a joke when really he’s just being ignorant and doesn’t want to get real hate when he gets inevitably called out

Trisha’s “Dirt”:

-Trisha doesn’t know anything that the rest of us don’t. We’re just all IGNORING it. Why? Bc David’s charming and Todd and Jeff are pretty? Ridiculous. This is the last vlog squad post i’m going to make because I’m done. So the following is going to be a rundown on the “dirt” on them that made me come to the decision that I wouldn’t be supporting them anymore. I’ll also put my own thoughts and comments underneath in case y’all are curious. Staying silent about these situations is the same as complacency. -Brandon Calvillo: Covered this but to reiterate, he dated a high schooler and slept with her/dated her knowing her age. He then lied about it in a video to cover his tracks. *I am well aware that she was months from being 18. This doesn’t make it okay. What does a 26 year old have in common with a 17 year old? And just because this is the first girl we know about, doesn’t mean she’s the first at all or even the last. -Durte Dom: He was accused of assault at vidcon. *This hasn’t been confirmed. But it also hasn’t even been discussed. This girl is getting hate from vs stans and the vs have stayed silent. I can understand not wanting to show attention to people who make accusations for clout, but assault is serious and should at the Very Least be acknowledged privately or legally bc it could be considered slander. Don’t let your fans (or your friend’s fans) do your dirty work. -Jeff Wittek: He has major anger issues. Makes jokes about assaulting women after actually having assaulted one in the past (accidentally but doesnt take away from what he did) and has made jokes about sexual harassment against men not being viable *tbh he has a “pretty white boy complex”. Meaning he knows that he can say and do what he wants and most people will let it slide bc he’s a pretty white boy. No education needed. -Jason Nash: Is friend’s with a predator, is quite possibly setting an awful example to his kids, namely his daughter. *Listen. I’m a feminist, a woman should be able to decide what to do with her body after she turns 18. But being groomed and hit on by grown ass men when you’re barely legal, ain’t it. If you want to and feel ready, there’s nothing anyone can do to stop it BUT 9.9 times out of 10, that fucks a woman up in the future. One day, she is going to see her dad hitting on a 19/20 year old Tana and see that her dad’s 26 year old best friend dated a 17/18 year old and lied about specifics and might think that’s normal and how men should treat her. I won’t support that shit.

And as for all the other member’s of the vs, they either don’t care enough about what their friends or friends’ friends are doing, or they’re not bothering to even consider it’s happening and that isn’t cool either.

Be better.

As for Trisha, she’s had her own faults and fuckups, no doubt about it. I’m not a big fan of her content but i FELT for her. Her name has been dragged through the mud because of this more than anything else and it doesn’t sit right with me when her only real fuckup in THIS situation was bringing the ex and kids into it the way she did. Everything else either could have been avoided or she had a right to say to the public since they put everything about the relationship out in the open as much as she did. If Jason and David had reached out and admitted their own mistakes and asked her to stop talking about them online the way she was, she probably would’ve chilled out. What happened, what they and their fans (us) have done has been nothing short of traumatizing, no doubt. The way these 30 year old boys (Jeff, Todd, Scott and Jay) are reacting to her? They’re the real joke if we’re being honest.

Note: I’d also like to say that if you do still support them and have differing views than I do, I’ll respect you and your views no matter what. Everyones entitled to their opinion and thoughts. These are just mine.

#trisha paytas #vlog squad #jeff wittek #david dobrik #jason nash #durte dom #brandon calvillo #scott sire #most of these men are manipulative af #as much as i love zane matt and heath #they dont speak up either #neither do any of the women which is borderline heartbreaking #rant #I did my best to make everything clear but if theres any confusions or questions or if you just wanna have a discussion about it lmk #Discontinuing Speak Now.

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ivory-haired-queens-blog · 6 years

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What it's like to be in a real lockdown

So, I'm not making a joke, and by no means am I trying to one-up those who have been in an active shooter environment or had an actual bomb planted in their school. Now that that's clear, on to the story.

So, I may have posted about this in the past, but here's the full story.

My school had a bomb threat.

Of course, sitting in the classroom, we didn't know this.

So, when the lockdown alarm went off, we were all like "Oh, another drill? I mean, okay."

None of us took it seriously.

And they didn't inform the teachers either, as to not cause panic. Because some teachers may have tried to leave the school, and if someone called a bomb threat to lure kids out of the school, that would be very bad.

Anyways, I know exactly where I was. Even though this was five-six years ago.

I was walking back to class after lunch. I was in fifth grade, which in my school was counted as middle school. To get to the fifth grade classrooms, you had to walk past the sixth grade classrooms.

I was near the sixth grade classrooms when the alarm went off.

Nobody thought it was serious, as we have like 10 lockdown drills a year.

And the teachers thought they weren't told about the drill because in past drills they haven't taken it seriously.

Anyways, I end up in the Ela teachers room. She ushered me and about twelve other fifth graders into her class.

Our drills last 5-10 minutes tops.

So, we were all whispering amongst ourselves on the floor, and one of the kids who is overly prepared goes "guys, it's been ten minutes already."

And we were like "oh, maybe they just haven't checked to see if all the doors were locked yet."

At fifteen minutes, we were all kind of scared. Not terrified, but we knew something was up.

At a half hour, one kid was having a panic attack, and I was close there myself.

After doing breathing excersizes and managing to calm myself down, it had been 45 minutes since the alarm.

We sat in that classroom for another hour.

People I didn't even know who still had their lunch boxes from lunch were offering us snacks, to try to calm us down more than anything.

I'll never forget how in a time of crisis, people always show who they really are. I know it sounds cliche, but it's true.

Suddenly the loudspeaker came on, and I was convinced that it was gonna be a shooter or terrorist saying they were in control or something like that, but it was a police officer.

And he said "please remain calm, teachers, evacuate to (our evacuation spot)

And we were all freaking the fuck out. I wasn't crying, as my hyperventilating caused me to think about not suffocating.

So we evacuated, and i had heard a few theories of shooters, a gas leak, whatever.

So we're all there, and the buses came to pick us up. We have our stuff still in our lockers, and we can't go get it.

We were all scared to go to school the next day. In fact, less than half of our grade showed up.

Anyways, this isn't some fucking "story time" thing. This does have a message. Several, actually.

1. LET YOUR FUCKING STUDENTS CARRY CELL PHONES. look, I get it. "It can be a distraction." But I was absolutely certain I was going to die in that classroom, and I had people I wanted to tell that I loved them. I know, it would cause panic amongst the parents, potentially causing more problems. But if I'm going to die, I want the last thing that I ever say to my mother to be I love you. We weren't allowed to have phones, so if it was a real bomb, I don't know what the last thing I said to my mom would've been.

2. If you're pro-gun, gtfo my blog. Unfollow me. Block me, idc. We need fucking gun laws, and if I had it my way nobody would own a gun. There are other ways to kill people, and a gun is most efficient. Efficient isn't always good, especially if we're talking about plowing down middle schoolers. And I know, this was a bomb threat, not a shooting threat. But even if you arm teachers like people want to do, what the fuck will a gun do against a bomb? If you want a gun for self-defense, just take a fucking self defense class and protect the lives of your children.

3. Police officers a should be stationed at all schools at all times. 4 or 5. Idgaf about your reasoning for not agreeing, I'd like a trained professional who knows how to stop a dangerous person in the same school as children. Police officers in our town were away doing something else and that's why it took almost two hours to evacuate us. We need them at schools. We just do.

4. MENTAL HEALTH & SPEAKING UP. BOTH IMPORTANT. The girl- yes, a female- who called the bomb threat on the school was diagnosed with severe depression and I think bi-polar. By no means am I saying that people who are bi-polar or depressed will do this, it's just that she wasn't being properly cared for with her mental illness. Also, apparently, and I don't know if it's true or not but these are the rumors, the girl had made several "jokes" about bombing or shooting up the school, so strangely placed in conversation that it put her friends on edge. Her friends felt that something was wrong, but didn't report her. ALWAYS SPEAK UP. EVEN IF YOU'RE WRONG, IT'S BETTER TO BE WRONG AND REPORT IT THAN TO BE RIGHT AND NOT REPORT IT.

So, if nothing else, take from this that everyone has their own story for their opinions and why they think them. I know I have no tolerance for pro-gunners, but I can at least acknowledge that they have opinions (hopefully) based off of fact and expirence.

#Pro-gun #Anti-gun #semi #Polotics #school shooting #bomb #bomb threat #important #important topics #lockdown drills #lockdowns #school shooter #important issues #please take the time to read #its very important #police #police officers

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spacelionspchew · 6 years

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I don't know if your still doing an emergency ask, and its fine if your not, but can you do a Keith one shot with a reader who feels ignored all the time, and sad, but she (if can be a she) just hides it, and even when confronted just smiles and tells people not to worry about it, but when alone she just screams an cries, and Keith is there for her? I'm going though some stuff right now, it can be platonic, it can be romantic, IDC, I just want some love right now. From Keith. My sad boi.

This is set before Keith joins the Blade, sorry for spoilers!!!

You were wandering through the castle, you had just finished cleaning the kitchen after a pretty bad space goo mishap, and now you were wanting to just relax with the others in the lounge (you know that room with like 3 or 4 couches? I’m referring to that). Once you got to the room, you could hear laughter and the voices of the other residents. You weren’t sure if you could consider them your friends you wanted to, you really wanted to. You wanted to be able to tell yourself that you were friends with everyone here, but you weren’t sure. You plopped down next to Keith. You felt the closest connection to him since he too was a loner and pretty awkward with people.

You were hoping someone would acknowledge you, but Lance was telling a very thrilling story, and everyone was too enraptured to care about you. You noticed a lull in the conversation and decided to test your luck.

“Hey guys, wha-“ you were immediately cut off by Hunk starting a story about some mischief he, Lance, and Pidge had gotten into at the garrison.

You wilted and pressed yourself into the back of the couch, hoping you could somehow disappear. As quickly as you sat down, you got up and left, heading towards your room. You shut and locked the door and flung yourself onto your bed, sobbing loudly into your pillow. You weren’t even able to get a word in and you were considering calling these people your friends. They didn’t care about you. The paladins were all friends, but you weren’t in that social circle. You rolled over and wrapped the blanket around you, staring at the ground. You wiped some tears off your face but the tears kept falling along with your motivation to hide them. Maybe I should just leave… you thought to yourself and you unceremoniously rolled yourself out of bed. You looked in your mirror, trying to disguise you make sure it wasn’t too obvious that you were crying. You managed to get the puffiness in your eyes down to a minimum. You opened up your door and tried to rush to the shuttle bay as nonchalantly as possible.

Once you entered the room with the ships, you took a moment to compose yourself. You looked around at the vehicles, trying to decide which one would be missed least. You finally decided on one and hopped in. You weren’t 100% sure how to fly it, but you thought you could probably figure it out. You heard the door opening up and decided it was time to skedaddle. You turned on the ship and started to hit the buttons that you thought looked right. This was nothing like the ships you were used to. The ship came to life and you flew away from the castle, not daring to look back. You heard someone calling after you but you only quickened your speed.

A few moments later you heard a loud roar and then another and another. You couldn’t believe they actually were bringing the lions after you. They probably just want the ship back, you thought to yourself, but couldn’t help feeling a bit hopeful that they actually cared about you. You were debating going back but then realized that they were probably pissed at you for being so dramatic. You accelerated until you were at max speed. However, now that you were going faster it was harder to steer and you were starting to discover that. You were also discovering that you were very lost. You had left without a plan of where to go. You were quickly approaching an asteroid belt and trying your best to pull away from it. The ship was a bit too responsive and you ended up flipping away from the debris, but losing control of your ship in the process. Then you saw it. The red lion gaining on you.

You decided to stop your ship and let yourself float freely, you were caught, no use spinning in hopeless circles. The lion engulfed your ship and you were met with a very angry, yet concerned, Keith.

“What were you thinking?!” he yelled as he pulled you out of your ship. “You could’ve gotten hurt out here or even killed!” You could tell he had more to say but Shiro’s voice came through the radio.

“Any signs of Y/N yet?” this surprised you. Shiro always seemed far too busy to notice you.

“Yeah, I’ve got her,” Keith replied, his gaze not leaving you for one second. “Y/N,” he began, voice low.

“I just… I don’t know. I’m no paladin, as you could see out there, I’m no pilot. You guys don’t need me. Most of the time no one even seems to notice me!” you could feel tears forming in your eyes and you went to wipe them away before they could fall.

“What are you talking about? Listen, I’m not the best at words, but,” he lets out a big sigh. “Why didn’t you tell me? I… I was so worried when I saw you entering that ship. I thought I’d never see you again.” His started blinking quickly and it didn’t take you long to figure out that he was blinking away tears.

“I’m sorry. I just I didn’t know anyone would care if I left,” your shoulders slumped and you couldn’t keep Keith’s eye contact anymore. You looked towards your feet and let the tears just fall, not worrying about them anymore. “I just feel so alone around the group. No one ever seems to want to talk to me or hang out or anything. And it just hurts. It really hurts. I thought if I left it would be the same, no one would notice,” you were choked up and your voice was cracking. You wanted to say more but you were being packed against Keith’s armored chest, his arms wrapped around you in a tight, desperate hug.

“Y/N, of course we would notice. Earlier today, as soon as you left the lounge, I wanted to go after you but I thought you wanted space. We were all so worried. Of course we’d notice Y/N. Of course we would,” he rested his head on your shoulder (or your head if you are much shorter than him) and you could feel the back of your shirt getting wet. Keith was crying because of you.

“I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to make anyone worry. I just… I just don’t know. I didn’t think anyone cared about me…” you moved your arms to wrap around Keith.

Keith pulled back to look you in the eye, “Of course we care about you. Y/N, I care about you so much. I thought I was going to lose you. You don’t have any idea how terrified I was. Please tell me next time you feel like this, I know I’m the last person who should be giving this advice, but you shouldn’t run from your problems. I can help you if you let me,” his tear-filled violet eyes practically bored into your soul.

“I’ll try,” you smiled. “Thank you, Keith. Thank you for caring,” you nuzzled your face into his shoulder and gave him a squeeze.

#keith x reader #voltron x reader #Keith #sorry this is so long D:#and so late #also #I'm here for you if you want to talk #feeling ignored suuuucks #Anonymous

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rawringryu · 7 years

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tEn cHaRaCtErS

I was tagged in this meme by the awesomely rad @francisthegreat whom I’m lucky to have as my friend :) Also I’m sorry this is so late! I didn’t see you tag me until like yesterday, I had exams this week haha. This was very hard to make because I have a LOT of feelings.

Ten characters from ten fandoms:

This list is going in ascending order, meaning my very favorite faves will be last on the list.

10. Bill Cipher (Gravity Falls) First of all on this list is this asshole, gosh I have no idea why but there was a period of time where I absolutely loved Gravity Falls and I shipped with a human form with Dipper mostly because of the amazing art and some pretty complex fics written for the ship. It was a wild ride and honestly thinking about this phase of my life always makes me feel weird, like I liked him purely because I liked reading shippy fics starring him.

9. Pearl (Steven Universe) This one is kinda weird too? Idk man I absolutely love Pearl’s design and the way her character is written. I’m not in loop with the SU fandom because ugh it’s not a happy place to be but I absolutely love browsing art of her. I love how she’s such a broken character for a kids show! I used to read SU meta and they’d go on and on about how she’s a shit character, an asshole towards Amethyst and toxic. But tbh, I feel like she’s just a complex character that made bad choices at times, she’s trying to get better, she’s trying to cope with the loss of Rose someone she probably loved in more ways than one and how she felt Rose chose Greg over her, and now she’s gone. I mean, she just can’t let go and I think that’s very human.

8. Pitch Black (Rise of the Guardians) Alright but this fandom was the first one I’d ever been in once I started out in tumblr. It was very cool and leaves bittersweet memories tbh, I absolutely adored the art and fics this fandom churned out, I used to ship Pitch and Jack Frost. The thing about Pitch is the fact that the fandom practically merged the movie with the lore from the original Guardians of Childhood the movie is based on. In the book, Pitch has such a tragic backstory, his name was Kozmotis Pitchinier and he was the best general of the Golden Army. After capturing all fearlings, he was designated to guard the prison of their imprisonment , he was haunted by their whispers and pleading and his only solace was his daughter, of whom he kept a photograph of in a locket. But one day, sensing his weakness, the prisoners imitated her voice and hypnotized Kozmotis to believe she was being held inside with them. Frantic, he opened the doors to release her, but was instead possessed by ten thousand Fearlings.

Sorry for the long summary but I just want people to know more abt his backstory haha.

7. Loki (MCU) I didn’t really know about Loki until I watched Thor: The Dark World in the cinema and I was instantly in love despite this movie being the absolutely worst of all the MCU movies, which looking back I’d have to agree. Loki is yet another tragic character whom I’m sure everyone already knows about. I think Loki is a vulnerable character who tries to be good, wants to be good but he just can’t, or he tries and other people just won’t accept him. He’s a frost giant and those people are considered monsters, how can he not be bitter that he’s the very thing ha’s been indoctrinated to hate and fear. He is a very complex character that the MCU practically does not do enough justice mostly because he’s portrayed as a villain in the movies. But I wouldn’t consider him a villain, more like an antihero, nobody trusts him and he doesn’t think anybody can love him either. I’ve only read a bit of his comics and I gotta say Loki deserves so much more than what he gets.

6. Dr Strange (MCU) (I’m breaking the one character per fandom rule idc) I know a shit ton of people absolutely HATE Dr Strange, and for a variety of reasons too. They hate him because Benedict Cumberbatch plays him and hating on BC is practically the new edgy on tumblr. People think Dr Strange should have been played by an american asian and all that yada plus the ancient one being whitewashed. While I agree some aspects of Dr Strange is problematic, I think people need to give it more credit, at least watch it for the cool effects that the stupidly huge amount of people worked on. Also as an asian, I can guarantee you most people outside of America doesn’t give two shits about these controversies and movies should be a source of pleasure instead of thinking about all the negative shit only. Dr Strange deserves so much more, he’s an interesting and while he does share some qualities with Tony Stark, he’s his own character with his own issues. Plus his comics are very fun to read, come on, magic in the Marvel is such an awesome concept. Fuck you haters, I just wanna have a good time with the magic man.

5. Sherlcok Holmes (BBC Sherlock) This is also one of my earliest fandoms on tumblr. Sherlock season 4 absolutely ruined it with all the queer baiting and the shitty plot. But Sherlock had always left bittersweet memories for me too. Mostly because of the absolutely amazing and complex fics written for it, I will never understand how fic authors do it but Sherlock fics were amazing and I would gladly choose these fics over canon any time.

4. Asuka Langley Soryuu (Neon Genesis Evangelion) I have so many feelings about this bitch right here, honestly one of the most relate-able characters for me. Asuka is a very human character, she’s very proud and has emotional issues. She was considered the best of the best and was trained to be an Eva pilot since she was four because she’s a child genius. However she has a tragic backstory, her mother underwent some tests and became insane, believing that Asuka's doll was her daughter and refusing to acknowledge the real Asuka, referring to her as "that girl over there." She eventually commits suicide by hanging herself; Asuka found her body when she went to tell her the good news that she had been chosen to become an Eva pilot. She couldn’t let go that Shinji the main character was starting to become a better pilot than her despite training for months only. She suppresses a lot of her emotions and had unhealthy ways of coping. I just want her to be happy.

3. Edward Elric (Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood) Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood is what I would consider the holy grail of anime tbh. Edward is just about the most selfless person out there in the fictional world of anime. I love the fact that Ed and Al started their journey off with mildly selfish reasons that is to return their body parts whom they lost to in a deal with Truth to bring back their mom which ultimately failed. In the end, Edward is willing to lose his alchemy, the very things that defines him, that started this whole mess, that is the source of his joy and misery for the sake of gaining his brother’s body back instead of selfishly using the Philosopher’s stone that’s made using human souls. I just want this shorty to be happy and I’m glad he is with that satisfying end.

2. Hitsugaya Toshiro (Bleach) The reason this guy is ranked so high in my list is mostly because, he’s been there for me since I was a smol kid, I’ve had a crush on him ever since I was 10 and I could never let go. He’s the one fictional character whom I still fallback to every time things stagnant, I love reading fics about him, he’s just so cool! He’s a child genius with a sword that can shoot ice dragons. Plus he’s always written in such a complex way in fics, Kubo missed his fucking chance by not expanding more about his character in the manga, but clearly Kubo is incompetent when it comes to plot so whatever I guess.

1. Kylo Ren (Star Wars) The Star Wars fandom or specifically the Kylux subfandom is probably the happiest plave I’ve ever been in since forever. It’s the first time I’ve ever talked to anyone at all online, I only lurked around in other fandoms but Star Wars made me able to brave the fandom and talk to people in it, I’ve met so many amazing people and read amazing fics in it, it’s mostly due to the KRB discord chat that I’m still going strong with this fandom. I absolutely love Kylo Ren and can he please crush me between his thighs. The thing that attracted me to him besides his unconventionally attractive appearance is his emotional vulnerability. Kylo has been neglected by Leia and Han as a kid and sent away to jedi school with Luke, he’s been manipulated by Snoke as a kid and Leia and Han just don’t think they can take care of him properly, they’re afraid of him and always too busy with their work, Kylo wasn’t planned, the way their relationship worked just wasn’t ideal for child rearing, Kylo was left alone with Luke, unable to understand why his parents don’t want him anymore, how he was too emotional for the jedi way. While what Kylo did was not justifiable with all that murdering, it’s not a stretch to say that he was very mush a victim of circumstances too. I related to Kylo a lot as I’d been sort of neglected as a child too, both my parents were always busy with work and I only saw them during mealtimes and before bed.

Sorry for the long post ya’ll! I have so many emotions about fictional characters haha.

I’ll be tagging @magicandmalice , @omega-hux, @tezzypants, @darktenshi17, @comraderevelin, @kylocatastrophe, @dargason-under-the-fantasia, @oblioknowlton, @evilblubber, @plasticpill and @glass-oceans that is if ya’ll want to, I had fun and went super overboard.

#personal #ten characters #meme

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sanzoumon · 7 years

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Sometimes it gets really annoying when all a fandom seems to care about is OCs and OC x Canon ships. Like fine, enjoy them, idc. It just gets a bit grating to see OC after OC after OC (and not a stones throw worth of difference between so many of them) when you got so much stuff in canon with so much potential to explore. Plot, relationships, ships, angst, etc.

And then sometimes OC content for a fandom gets more popular than stuff having to do with canon characters. Barring shitposts, of course.

Naturally of course my main fandom is best described as "all your super colorful edgy OCs get locked up in prison, hilarity ensues" so of course it attracts people who like making OCs like that. Tho honestly what really grates on the nerves is how many of the OCs are female. It's set in an all-male prison.

Then of course the fandom itself isn't all that big so I'm just kinda over here, doing my own thing. And hoping one day the damn tag will update with some quality content. Also it seems like a lot of the fandom is made up of teenagers- which isn't a bad thing by itself, but this is Tumblr and I don't exactly like most of the teens I come across on here. But at least in this fandom, so far, they're not being whiny bitches. But given that I'm a raging pervert it's kinda hard to talk about things when I know no one else is gonna see it the same way I do. Or most, at least. It also makes for a really depressing lack of smut fic, unless I pay for it. Which I have done.

This is what I get for getting attached to a series written off as fujo-bait. I mean it IS fujo-bait, and I am a fujoshi, but that isn't why I decided to watch it. That's just a bonus.

Although it's not just tumblr. No it's other places too. I just don't feel like naming them. I gotta fucking rely on the Japanese and Chinese fandom for the shit I'm into. Although that seems to be the case for most things these days, dammit. And even then, they're not chalking up to be near as depraved as I thought they'd be. I'm actually pretty disappointed. Also it's hard to search for shit when you don't know the language.

But I'm basically stuck unless it gets a surge in popularity with people more my age who also happen to be perverts, because Goddamn Enki is too beautiful and perfect for me to let go of and I have too many ideas for him. But he's so under appreciated in the Western and Japanese fandoms. Chinese fandom seems to like him pretty well tho, from what I can tell. What gets my goat is how everyone loves Samon so much (which, fair enough) but want to ignore the big chunk of his life that is Enki.

Like at this point I'd take an Everything Is Good And Nothing Hurts AU if it meant seeing Samon with Enki in his life. Or if it meant Enki being acknowledged as someone extremely important to Samon.

Or shit I'd even take some damn AU where Enki and Noriko start dating and Samon gets jealous of Noriko, even tho he loves her as a sister, because Enki starts spending what little free time he has with her now so Samon never gets to see Enki much or hang out with him. And finally Enki notices Samon gets grumpy every time Noriko gets mentioned (which makes Samon feel bad), and he figures out MAYBE he's been neglecting Samon and Samon wishes Enki would want to spend more time with him. So Enki mentions this to Noriko and the sweet girl is 100% understanding because Samon is like a little brother to her and she doesn't want him to be upset with either of them, so she encourages Enki to spend more time with Samon.

And I hate bullshit like that. I'm all about the drama, angst, scandal, taboo, and most of all - smut. But I'll take what I can get my hands on at this point.

Or damn, how about some stuff with Qi and Upa? I'm not NECESSARILY saying it needs to be shippy, not that I wouldn't be into that - because I would, but I'd also kill for content about oh idk Upa swallowing his pride and showing affection to Qi and realizing Qi just cares about him and that's all there is to it? Or, for drama, Upa taking advantage of Qi caring about him in an attempt to deliberately push Qi away?

Ugh idk I'm just in a mood. I guess I'm just used to fandoms thinking up a wider variety of shit to cause me emotional pain and not having to come up with it on my own.

Either way, I'm just in a mood. Pay me no mind.

#plz do not rb #posts by me #sfw #rantish

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