#i am gonna cry again tonight

[lilgoblinbitch]

THE ONES WHO LIVE EPISODE FOUR (spoilers)

my reactions while i watch this masterpiece of an episode:

HELP OMG MY HEART IS POUNDING

why is there a roomba

HOLY FUCK THEY LANDED IN THE OCEAN OKAY

WHAT IS THIS GIANT BUILDING THEYRE IN

“we needed a time out” YES YOU DID TELL HIM BAE

“the hell is this place” ITS WHERE U AND MICHONNE ARE GONNA-

why are they both so sexy omfg this is ...

OMG MICHONNE HAVE MERCY Y ON ME

rick that stare is making me feel things, STOP.

IM SCREAIMUNG INTO MY PILLOW SO MY ROOMMATES DONT HEAR ME FOLDING OVER TWO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS

MICHONNE I COULD SEE U AS A CREATIVE WRITER OMGGGG

the queen is so smart and witty and STRONG HOLY SHIT???

no because if i was her at that moment i would be on the ground sobbing and convulsing

“CHILDREN?” HELP PLEASE SOMEONE

rj…

oh god.

WHAT THE FUCK RICK

WHY DO U THINK SHE PULLED YOU OUT OF THE HELICOPTER YOU DUMB MALE

have sex already please

MY TV PARENTS ARE FIGHTING :(

michonne it’s not that simple you can’t just go home yet :(

“what did they do to you” bad things :(

“do you still love me? :(“ MY POOR BABY MICHONNE

“little brave man” i can’t.

please smack some fucking sense into him michonne.

poor rick he’s so fucking broken. and poor michonne i can’t imagine what it feels like to find your husband after 8 years and he’s just…gone. 😔

STOP IT I DONT WANNA CRY AGAIN

THE WAY HE SAVED HER FROM THE BUILDING COLLAPSING

OH FUCK THE KNIFE OH NO OH NO THEYRE GONNA FIND OUT

LMFAOOOOOO MICHONNE IS SO SASSY I LOVE HER SM “I DONT EVEN HAVE A WEAPON, COMMANDO”

okay he deserved that shove from her.

ANDY AND DANAI DESERVE AN AWARD

oh god mich again i’m so sorry. rick is gone he’s got stockholm syndrome or some shit

rick lost his manners fr he is not treating his wife well, the blood on her face the “DAMMIT HUG THE WALL” UM RICK DO YOU KNOW WHO YOURE TALKING TO HELLOOO?????

uhhhhhh what is happening….

oh! i like this part :) (they’re kissing)

oh! i like this even more (they’re fucking)

OH FUCK YES I NEEDED THIS

oh poor rick my baby he waited for this moment for way too long

omg the look in their eyes STOP THIS IS SO MAGICAL AAHHHH

i’m actually fucking sobbing.

i love them sm i don’t ever want them to leave that bed (unless they go back to their children ASAP)

DARYL MENTION!!!!

“sit, rick.” YES COMMAND YOUR HUSBAND

“we, our family, are real. our love doesn’t get denied.” 👏👏👏👏

CARL MENTION PLEASE HELP HELP HELP IM NOT OKAY :(

rick sobbing makes my heart drop. this tissue box is my new bff.

the CARL DRAWING….

i’m still fucking sobbing. like, hysterically.

THE ELEVATOR MAKE OUT YESSS

THE CAR MAKE OUT YESSS

“WE CAN MAKE THIS WHOLE DAMN WORLD OURS IF WE WANT TO” YES YOU FUCKING CAN RICKY DICKY DOO DAH GRIMES!!!!

MY TV PARENTS ARE BACK TOGETHER YIPPIIEEE

holy shit that was truly an emotional rollercoaster. honestly this was my favorite episode. danai, you are fucking amazing, thank you for feeding us this delicious richonne meal today!!!

#the ones who live #towl spoilers #twd towl #richonne #rick grimes #michonne grimes #the walking dead #twd #i am gonna cry again tonight #and then i'm gonna rewatch that scene iykyk #danai gurira #andrew lincoln #andy and danai #rick and michonne #carl grimes

[candlesoul]

i dont want to do anything but i want to do everything you know

#please understand me why cant i move why am i frozen #why i want to move but i cant why moving is emotionally hard am i ungrateful am i bad am i no good #i want to read but emotions are too heavy to carry i want to watch but my heart is aching i want to talk someone but in my room not interne #when will it be good will it ever be okay #is there gonna be peace feeling warmth joy friendships #will they exist at future for me? #i dont even lnow what im talking about #hope i see good dreams tonight but i know theres too much nightmare thar waits me there and im scared to tell you this but they are too muc #you have to process #you lived it but now you need feel it again #i want joy kindness warmth #i want to someone to cry #personal

[kinos-fortress-2]

does this even looks like a tf2 fanart anymore

#just experimenting! #i was gonna say im gonna delete this later bc i will ofc change the colouring here but just wanted to show bc i think is pretty #ONLY THIS ONE DRAWING bc is more... pretty me thinks but totally not from the way i wanted to go #but yeah little spoiler for something im doing bc i am so drunk and in love with them i cry a little bit but im fine now #i just love love #kino art #piss mauling #this looks very far away from my art style... but it reminded of my older style too... and like those 2016 shipp art if ykwim #this looks so personal im sorry i promise i will draw funny gore tf2 ugly art back again dont unfollow me bc im happy tonight is 1am buak #- i just wanna feel... happy and pretty and being in love space thats. how im feeling right now... dont drink wine guys my last words #watercolors dont go w my style i just realized that... but this looks pretty for me imo i feel kinda happy with this but is not the idea tb #ughhhh that sniperpauling playlist got me in the feels #really. this doesnt even looks like tf2 art anymore literally like. what tf2 game did yall play?? #this two are basically my ocs atp #im so annoying with them ugh

[cannibalizedyke]

…

*starts violently sobbing*

#so i went to this thing tonight. #it was like. a family night thing at this summer camp my brother’s at #and one of the counselors. #HRHRFGGGHHJ BITING MAIMING KILLING HE WAS SO. #HE HAD FLUFFY BLACK HAIR AND HE KEPT FLIPPING IT AND ISTG I ALMOST DIED. #and he was SO LAME #HE WAS WEARING MIS-MATCHED SOCKS #AND WHEN THEY DID DANCES HE DID EVERYTHING LIKE A MOMENT TOO LATE #AND HE FELL OVER AT LEAST TWICE #he was so fucking pathetic i desire him carnally. #AND I AM NEVER GONNA FUCKING SEE HIM AGAIN. #BECAUSE HE WAS JUST. SOME RANDOM FUCKING GUY AT MY BROTHER’S SUMMER CAMP #dude and i looked so good today 😭😭 #and i swear i caught him looking at me a few times (i’m delulu) #whatever #i’m fine #(i’m not fine) #crying sobbing going to sedate myself #meredith talks

[callixton]

oh i am on the Brink of a mental breakdown. and like a real one. i am going to feel so so fucking terrible and guilty if i don’t go to the first week of mac rehearsal bc i need to recover but i am also getting the sense that i Need to recover. i have never been this burnt out or genuinely terrified of starting a new semester in my life.

#we go back to campus a week early for mac. to be clear #and god they’ll be long days and they’ll be physically emotionally and mentally draining and i genuinely dont know if i can take that #but i am also going to be missing SO much time. and i won’t be there to support the people who i need to #i have also. been thinking a lot about how i’m scared that i think so much abt death bc i’m gonna be one of those people #who seem even more than everyone else like they have a finite time and then they die young #and then my mom compared me to jonathan larson tonight #so maybe that’s some sort of sign that i need to slow the fuck down #i am crying rn. for myself. which happens about three times a year #and yeah one is usually during winter break so we’re on schedule #i don’t know. idk!! i don’t know what to do here #and i still have to do my fucking scene prep for tomorrow #bc i was talking my mom about it and i really needed support which she was giving and then she has to leave for five seconds #and when she came back the entire conversation was just about her own problems again which we’ve already talked about every fucking night bc #- you can’t leave conversations with her and i hate when she fucking drunks i hate it i hate it #i am Not Well. i’ve sort of been avoiding admitting to myself just how badly #but man. i can push through anything until i drop but when i start wishing that i’ll drop so i have an excuse for a break….. not good #ted talks #the west wing

[boxwinebaddie]

an uncle nina update...i mean UPHATE!

okay there's a couple lines at the bottom i didn't fill in...i don't want to talk about it...that's a problem for future me idc idc! it's done, okay?

BUT AT LONG....LONG LAST....I AM FINALLY....FINISHED fuCkiNG WRITING RM6 AND AM EDITING AND FORMATING IT ON AO3!

when i tell you there are tears in my tears...oh my god...please, clap.

i am going to start deletion progress of probably 1k worth of spaces between lines ( whoever decided that when you paste a google doc it double spaces everything...please meet me in the pit, motherfucker! ) running a fine tooth comb through everything, figuring out where certain italics/blockquote goes, writing the sh*t i put off at the end & crying to taylor swift loudly over the sound of my cracking fingers.

but first...i am taking...a nap....or i'm gonna try. #freeunclenina

because i pulled a writer girl all-nighter.

...and brain hurty so, so bad.

-uncle nina, making miracles happen on the last day of nanowrimo

p.s. if you see me on here answering ask memes and being a circus clown, please close your eyes...i miss her ( my not-stressful inbox )

#call my hands and eyes shelley marsh the way they b burning #i cant believe judgement day is finally upon me #and by that i mean everyones gonna judge me for my mess #which its kind of a mess but u know what! *white mom vc* bless that mess! she is chaotic and very cute to me #i worked...hard on her #when i tell you i had to split...my original idea...into three parts...i need to go to jail #or to the insane asylum or sleep and jail again #but this is gonna be part 1 of either 2/3 i guess #buckle up #there would be less parts but i gave us a little ravenstan pov as a treat because you all waited patiently #but its mostly kyle...in rm its crazy kyle season sorry #but uh! you're all always nice to me but please be kind to me and i'm sorry if its not out by tonight #i am literally so tired like i'm typing so slow rn because my brain is so drained and my hands are strained #BUT ITS COMING GUYS! I HOPE ITS WORTH IT WHEN IT'S HERE BECAUSE WOW...I AM LAUGHING AND CRYING

[dbphantom]

LUFFY CHARM'S CHAIN SNAPPED 😭😭😭

#I got VERY lucky tonight. Oh my god. It broke in my pocket on the car ride home and not during the concert #A problem for tomorrow (while I'm watching the new episode) because I have not slept in 3 days. Gonna go do that now 👍 #Does Amazon sell replacement phone charm straps? I feel like they would #Ignore my bag o masks in the background lol I keep a handful of disposable/reusable ones in there so I can grab one when I'm going out #Cruddy rambles #I'm seriously about to start crying over how grateful I am I didn't lose him. He was a gift from Callie!! #He's been with me since high school! #That's at least 7 years! Probably more! #Okay. Granted. When we lost contact I put him on my model pirate ship for a few years. #But still now that we're in touch again he's been coming out with me again #HE MEANS A LOT TO ME THATS WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY

[thedragonemperess]

I need the & Juliet soundtrack injected directly into my veins and if that doesn't work I need it lazered into the forefront of my brain

#marankton speaks because why not #& juliet #specifically i want it that way when the guitar kicks in and every single song lance is in #THE WAY ANNE SAYS 'drink that koolaid' IN THE BROADWAY VERSION LIVES IN MY HEAD RENT FREE FOREVER #'tonight were taking names cuz we dont mess around' SLAY GIRLIEPOP #and juliet #&j #the amount of pure serotonin and giddiness that comes with listening to teenage dream/break free is unmatched #and the POWER that is both larger than life and its my life????? #immaculate #AND THAT'S ONLY THE FIRST ACT #DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE ABSOLUTE BLAST IT IS TO BE LIKE 'its gonna be MAY' AND THEN IT WAS M A Y #THE STRAIGHT CHILLS I GET LISTENING TO THE I CANT FEEL MY FACE/PROBLEM MASH UP???? #EVERY DAMN TIME BBG #THE I WANT IT THAT WAY REPRISE???? GIMME A MAN LIKE WILLIAM RIGHT NOW #AND DU BOI BAND'S BACK ALRIGHT 🗣️🗣️🗣️ #anyway #sorry im having a decently good time right now its weird that doesnt usually happen #edit: im not done #i always forget they threw a fucking adam lambert song in there and its always such a nice surprise #one more try????? BEAUTIFUL NO COMPLAINTS #and im not a girl not yet a woman is like so ???. i wanted to cry while watching it and almost cried when listening to it on the soundtrack #and youre right juliet i am feeling sexy and free youre so right lets get out of here #AND ONCE AGAIN THE FUCKING FULL BODY CONSISTENT CHILLS I GET LISTENING TO BLOW???? I WANT TO LIVE IN THAT FEELING

[cheeriochat]

Vergil drawings plus random drawings!!!!!!

I drew vergil in one of his concept outfits and then I drew him in one of my outfits I wear a lot lol. Idk I just sketched some stuff

#im so tired still #im gonna go to bed earlier #schools happening again soon #kept saying id practice for mock law and then here I am #drawing vergil sexily #sighh #i'll post some twst stuff soon #maybe later tonight #devil may cry #dmc #vergil

[wontbyers]

I’m not saying Byler parallels Jack and Rose from Titanic in terms of high romance, but I’m not...NOT saying that

“Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me...It brought me to you.”

“You jump, I jump, right?”

#op #byler #i am NOT gonna watch titanic again bc i do not need to cry tonight #i just randomly thought about jack saying that whenever i listened to mike's speech in the shed #the emphasis on BEST THING #and then i was like what is you jump i jump if not a promise of crazy together? #+ he saved me in every way that a person can be saved

[aceofspades-sml]

Alright good luck everyone at least we are in this together

#the way i was crying for the entire matinee #tonight is gonna have me balling #also not me missing josh b at stage door because i was talking to someone else i am so okay about it #(am not) #(may never be okay again) #newsies #newsies uk #uksies

[scattered-winter]

horrifying self recognition through the other aside this has been an actually not terrible start to The Family Gathering tbh

#my cousin who i havent really seen in a while came up to me and asked abt my pronouns because i came out to the fam a while ago #and he didnt really remember what id said (which. fair. its a big family w lots of things to remember) #and so he asked what my pronouns were and i told him and he promised that if he ever messed up i needed to make him #do like 5 or 10 pushups lmao #and ngl. its the sweetest thing anyone in this family has ever said to me abt that #everyone else has kinda just. moved on. and either forgotten that im not a girl or purposefully ignoring it. #and idk maybe i should stand up for myself a little more but ive been practically a doormat all my life #and idk. its hard using my voice and establishing boundaries when ive let ppl bulldoze over me for almost 20 years. #sigh. anyway. #im gonna be thinking about that all day tbh it was genuinely so sweet #and i am also being consumed by The Loneliness again <3 #just. i want someone to just talk to about all this??? someone who isnt in my family because they all have stakes in it too????? #we're all grieving. i aint special. #i just want to talk to someone about it in person so they can hold my hand while i cry myself to sleep because ngl #thats what it looks like we're doing tonight #im just. tired of feeling alone in this enormous family where it seems like im the only odd man out #and also ykw the Not Having Any Irl Friends loneliness too. thats also pretty significant. #not saying my internet friends arent great i love yall so so so much but it has just been . #a really really long time since ive had a good cry n hug session w someone. #sigh. im tired i need to go to bed #winter speaks #personal

[mars-ipan]

ohh i have good friends

#marzi speaks #was gonna go get dinner with my brother and a friend tonight #they weren’t able to respond for a few hours so i assumed plans fell through and went forward with that mindset #then they and my brother were able to decide on smth last minute #i am. low spoons socially rn #and i was struggling to decide whether i should go or not #friend gets here. they talk with me about it #i’m getting frustrated bc i can’t form the words i wanna form #i want to spend time with them but i have all this shit to do and god i’m tired but i want to hang out with my friends #i cry a bit. they hug me and encourage me #eventually i (through a tight throat) go ‘i think i need to sit this one out’ bc i’m at a point of distress where it just won’t be fun #and they hug me again go ‘no worries there’s always next time’ and head out with my brother #that’s a good fucking friend. they wanted to spend time with me and when i recognized a limit i had reached they respected it #anyways. i need to cry a bit. give myself a distraction. maybe a meal of some kind #and then i can get back to work. but they were really sweet and i wanna make sure i internalize that i’m cared about

[emypony]

.

#damn babygirl i wish people checked up on me more #this self conscious catgirl is so tired #sometimes i WISH people just came into my dms to ask me if im ok #i do it constantly to others because i hope theyre not as sad as i am feeling in that moment #genuinely afraid to have made someone feel bad and drive them away from me #and omg i feel nyself running thin again just bc im afraid to lose the interactions we have altogether because i cant process certain media #in a healthy way whatsoever and i get super hung up on thinfs that really dont matter that much in the end #YEAH IM RAMBLING IT'S 5:30 AM AND I COULD BE SLEEPING RIGHT NOW BUT INSTEAD IM JUST CRYING FOR A STUPID REASON!! #i think ive only had one person check up on me based off the vibes in chat i gave off alone in the past couple of months #which was baffling and surreal btw and i think it broke something within me #it came from someone i wouldve never expected to even notice because sometimes it feels like its such a vast difference between us #i sometimes even wonder how are we friends in the first place #like do i even deserve to call this person my friend do they feel like that? or are we just discord acquaintances? #anyway all this just made me sad and my dumb ass is crying and yearning to be loved by my online peers thats all lol. meows pathetically #idk i guess i just.want to hear / see it more rather than just teying to tell myself that over and over hoping im not deluding myself abt i #personal #sorry for the emotions dump idk whats wrong with me tonight actually #me having to come to terms with the reality that i actually have a following and this might get boticed by more than 2 ppl #bc not everyone follows 3k blogs like i am :skull emoji: yknow #im probably gonna delete later because im actually a super self conscious person to the point i get nauseatingly anxious about it holy shit #i dont vent often and im 120% keeping it in but when i do oh boy #the dam bursts and im left like a sopping wet dog on the floor looking like a sad blob #which i am feeling like right now! #vent #emy rambles #ALSO LIKE THIS ISNT TO SAY IM NOT GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIENDS OMG I AM #k really am #sometimes its still like. idk. unbelievable to me that people are genuinely interacting with me and the things i write or headcanon #and i shouldn't expect them to know whats wrong with me or if i feel bad if i dont say it or communicate that to them #but yknow one can yearn

[imwritesometimes]

I am good at stuff. I'm good at cooking. It may not be michelin star restaurant level food but it's good. I'm good at baking. I'm good at taking care of my family. I'm good at some computer stuff. I'm good at taking care of my cats. I'm good at making ppl laugh. I'm good at helping ppl. I've written stuff ppl have enjoyed.

#I'm having a very rough go of things rn. these last 2 weeks have just. absolutely nearly killed me. #I am trying. I am trying SO HARD. to come back to the surface and walk among the living again. so hard. #I'm gonna have enchiladas for dinner! I handled the shit storm dropped in my lap today! didn't cry abt it! #which honestly given my very thin mental line rn was surprising! but I kept it together! and handled it! and didn't freak out! #had some cherry cheesecake whipped yogurt I put in the feezer and it was SO YUMMY! and felix & santino liked it! #doing laundry! clean clothes! making food! we have food! it's gonna be ok! #gonna just. sedate myself tonight so I don't have a repeat of last night. and take it. one hour at a time now. #erin explains it all

[inrainbowscd]

my 'i have the afternoon off and then the next day off work' main activity has become taking too much anxiety medication, maybe drink a glass of wine and cry till i fall asleep, sleep for 12-14 hrs, wake up miserable, spend my free day crying and sleeping, and then have a sudden burst of energy so at like 5pm i want i NEED to do smth but i have nothing to do so i start bouncing off the walls. and then it's night time again so i start whining again abt how i am wasting my time and i have nothing and no one and the panic attack is on its way so i take my regular dose of anxiety med and maybe a glass of wine or sip of rum and go to sleep ready for the next day of mind numbing activities (work)

#it's my free day i have just woken up from a nap. i am going out tonight though. but im crying abt it #bc it's with the person im in love with ( #(unrequited) #so i don't really feel like going but i kinda Have To for my own sake and air some things out #im not strong enough though. and it's gonna rain so i just wsnt to sleep again #ele.txt