#i bawled my fuckin eyes out

[abessive-art]

shoutsout to the band Sea Power & DIsco Elysium and very specifically Cleaning Out the Rooms for making me bawl my eyes out like 6 times in the last 2 days

#the disco elysium thing is happening 2 me again #lord spare me (by which i mean dont spare me i love this fucking videeoigame smomuch) #AGHHH SEA POWER WHEN I GET YOU. WHEN I GET YOU SEA POWER. #dark clouuuuud..... drifting out of view........ #they werent lying when they said ill wake up with a new life............ out by the seaside.... out by the s #-fuckin bawls my eyes out again #taelks #disco elysium

[cattoru]

momo was so real for this

#not gna lie though i bawled my fuckin eyes out during this chapter #oh miwa :( #cattoru.meows #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jujutsu kaisen spoilers #jujutsu kaisen manga spoilers #jjk #miwa #momo

[chokkohasthehellsite]

doctor who au but the doctor can and has been able to break the forth wall since the start and either 1) they ask the audience member for help like some strange sci-fi version of dora the explorer or 2) they have a love-hate passive-aggressive relationship with the viewer

eg. the doctor turns around and is like "can you tell me where the tardis is? 😃" and u end up screaming at them that its riGHT THERE and they just look at u like a goldfish, no thoughts, head empty or

eg. the doctor gets hurt or does something stupid (affectionate) and the viewer laughs so the doc calls them out on it or the doc gets hurt or does smth stupid (derogatory) and the viewer is fucking yelling at their screen for the millionth time, threatening to crawl in there and rip both the doctor's hearts out or smth and the doctor, all sad and bloodied bc idk they just lost another companion or some shit, just like- looks at the viewer. all sad and silent. really makes u shut up and think.

#or like in doomsday #the doctor could lose rose and ur just there fuckin bawling ur eyes out #and the doctor just- #lip wobbling #breath trembling #voice cracking #says something like: #“what do i do?” #idk just an idea #i woke up in a cold sweat #and this was just- there #doctor who #my hcs #doctor who headcanon

[miutonium]

Office dramas has gotten the best of them unfortunately 😔😔😔

Anyway I have 1 slot left for my commission ;w;

#i am very serious about my ship i really do #like i would bawl my fuckin eyes out and not see the sunlight for 3 years if my big tiddy bf ever make such surgery #i lost my source of stress release thats so tragic 😔😔😔 #anyway hi i am back in school for 2 weeks and i hate everything ✌️ #praying to survive this semester 🙏 #asukart #selfship #selfshipping #selfshipping community #selfship community #selfship talk #selfship art #self insert oc #self insert community #self insert art #si x canon #oc x canon #samurai jack #office boyfriend for hire

[hrina]

FINALLY starting crying in h mart

#ive been wanting to read it forever but it was always so expensive #but i just bought it on my kindle bc the ebook was on sale!!!! im so excited im ready to bawl my fuckin eyes out

[woundedheartwithin]

That video fucking destroyed me

#she speaks #yakuza #yakuza gaiden #yakuza gaiden spoilers #spoilers #I was actually crying like boo hoo hiccup crying #tears and snot rolling down my face call me kiryu I was bawling my fucking eyes out #ain’t cried that hard over a video game in a long ass fuckin time

[fire-emoji-silkie-fire-emoji]

I DONT GO TO JERMA. IVE BARELY INTERACTED WITH HIS CONTENT OUTSIDE OF HEARING STUFF FROM WARBLER

SO TELL ME WHY HES SHOWN UP IN MY DREAMS TWO NIGHTS IN A ROW. HOW IS HE DOING THIS

#THE FIRST ONE HE WAS IN HE WAS DRESSED AS JOKER PERSONA 5 #AND THEN GOT FUCKIN SHOT WITH A REAL GUN #AND I WAS BAWLING MY EYES OUT OVER HIS CORPSE #THE SECOND ONE A SERIAL KILLER BROKE INTO MY APARTMENT #AND HE WAS ABOUT TO FUCKIN GET ME WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEB #JERMA BREAKS IN AND KICKS THE GUY IN THE FACE AND SAVES ME #I WOKE UP BEFORE I COULD THANK HIM

[aquatics-room]

Rip Mr Fluffy Fins my Dumbo guppy

You were the mvp from the start, even though none of my female guppies were good enough for you.

Imma miss your lil fluffy fins dude 🥺💖

#i legit bawled my eyes out when i found him #he was at the bottom belly up #flailing and gasping #i used clove oil to put him down #he was my fuckin MAN #produced not a single fry in the 2 months ive had him #but #i loved him regardless #fishblr #fish #freshwater #guppy

[the-gay-cryptid]

My roommate and I are packing up the dorm and they're going home tonight, but coming back Monday for an exam. I move out tomorrow afternoon and I fly home Saturday. So right now is the last time I'm gonna see them for a while since I'm taking off next semester.

It's hitting me harder than expected, and I cpuld use any pick me ups y'all have

#im keeping it together for them #because they're stressed enough with moving out without adding my shit to their pile #but i am going to bawl my fuckin eyes out once they leave #my post

[sacredpit]

↳               @nyo-ho-hoe​​​​​  wrote   :     “Hey- we’re friends right?” The question is rhetorical in only one possible direction. Gyro wasn’t more certain of anything than his irresistible nature, second only to his ill conceived security in his sexuality.

“I dunno, it just didn't seem fair t’ leave you out when you're-” he pauses because he’s about to say something far too vulnerable for comfort. A stumble over words he minces and feigns incompetence, despite his English being near perfect for years.

“Well you’re my friend, and a good one at that, so there’s no point you not gettin’ one’a these yourself.”

It takes him that long just to hold out his arm and unfold his fingers, displaying the little bracelet weaved in green.

“They don’t really come in packs ‘a three an’ this one had a tree on it so I had ta like... rip it apart and switch the charms around but look!!” He jiggles it, twin cherries swinging from the vine. “Not bad eh?”

                        unprompted          /          eni making me cry

          notwithstanding the   obviousness   of its answer rendering a reply to gyro’s question unnecessary ,   the string of words causes kakyoin to look up from his laptop ,   the bubble of his focus effectively lanced ,   leaving a polished set of hands hovering over the keyboard   mid - sentence .   a crimson brow arches with a concoction of curiosity   &   concern ;   typically when his roommate employs that line as his opener ,   it is due to the fact that the oncoming revelation of his behaviour will exasperate or   infuriate   the redhead to some degree ,   &   he is attempting to perform an act of preemptive   damage control   ———   yet ,   from the moment the other man had approached him   &   began speaking ,   kakyoin’s intuition dared to declare the present moment as no such an occasion . 

thus ,   he continues to eye the blonde from where he kneels before the coffee table ,   an art history essay near to completion displayed on the sleek plane of his computer screen .   the mention of   fairness   puzzles the scarlet - tressed of the two men further ,   to the extent that he removes his hands from his keyboard entirely   &   places them somewhat awkwardly atop his thighs as he straightens up upon the pillow bearing his weight .   it could be that the wide - eyed   scrutiny   is posing greater difficulty to gyro in expressing his thoughts ,   but kakyoin cannot help himself ;   his intrigue regarding whatever his roommate is currently on about swells with each awkwardly passing second .   when i’m   what ??   he wonders ,   but the inquiry fails to make it past his lips before gyro is talking again ,   &   extending an arm to show the younger man what he bears in hand .

cognitively ,   everything aligns unambiguously   &   makes perfect sense .   yet ,   as far an emotional response is concerned ,   there’s a roadblock ;   kakyoin struggles to process it ,   to understand what he is looking at   &   what the implication of it is .   there’s no question in his mind about his place in gyro’s life   &   the inverse of that ,   &   there hadn’t been for a long time   ———   even so ,   a younger version of himself ,   the cripplingly isolated child that watched his peers exchange gifts like the one gyro bears for him now   &   privately battled tears of frustration at the realization that he may   never   be the recipient of such a meaningful gesture ,   claws his way out of the   sunken quarters   where his memory had been suppressed .   violet eyes ,   distended impossibly wider now ,   fill with tears ,   but kakyoin manages to latch onto the windswept veil of his composure before any droplets overflow .

“   this is for me ??   ”   he asks ,   voice so laden with breath that the refined   &   confident manner in which he usually speaks becomes delicate   &   airy .   much like the query his friend had earlier posed ,   it requires no answer ;   ’tis only an avenue for the younger student to absorb the exchange ,   to allow his heart a chance to take in the outpouring of amity like a parched sponge .   “   . . .   i   . . .   ”   attempts kakyoin ,   suddenly abashedly aware of how   foolish   he must look ,   rendered speechless over a woven bracelet .   but it’s not the fucking bracelet .   it was never about the   fucking bracelet .    

after clearing his throat   &   seizing a few moments to chuckle at himself ,   he shakes his head ,   the action an expression of accordance with gyro’s sentiments .   “   not bad at all ,   ”   he finally answers ,   thankful that his cadence leaves him smoothly .   “   it’s rather cute ,   actually ,   ”   adds kakyoin ,   noting where the original charm had clearly been torn out ,   leaving some stray threads behind where the other had attempted to weave it back together .   with the addition of his signature drupe ,   it gives the little trinket   character ,   makes it   one of a kind ,   suitable for the bond they share .   

bearing this in mind ,   kakyoin raises an arm ,   offering a relaxed wrist to his roommate   &   wearing a bright - eyed expression ,   complete with a smile that fully reveals both of his dimples .   “   put it on me ,   ”   he requests ,   beckoning the other nearer with a sway of his head in the proper direction .   “   thank you ,   gyro .   no one’s ever really done something like this for me before ,   ”   explains the redhead .   “   i’ll make one for you ,   too   ———   you can wear it on the opposite wrist of the one you got with johnny .   it’ll be like both of us are with you ,   all the time .   ”

#nyohohoe #【 * 🍒 教皇 › ❛ 𝗱𝗼𝗰𝘂𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘀 / unprompted answers . 】 #【 * 🍒 教皇 › ❛ 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗲 𝘃 / modern & university . 】 #【 * 🍒 教皇 › ❛ 𝗴𝘆𝗿𝗼 / you annoy me daily but you still fucking amaze me . ⁽ nyo-ho-hoe . ⁾ 】 #crying in the club actually bawling my eyes out rn #i believe in gykak supremacy #they care about each other so fuckign much i'm gonna fucking jump off a bridge #i'm gonna get u back for this eni just u fuckin wait sleep with one eye open binch #also kak will probably never be this nice to gyro again he will resume bullying him the next day #JHDVJNHFVJNHDF

[lovelywingsart]

Plans for after 'Dear Mother' (kinda long plan update shite!)

So y'all have probably noticed that I'm going ham on 'Dear Mother' - Thats because I gave myself the goal of finishing it before years end. And, good news, its almost done!!! So really, im just here to say my plans afterwards since I really haven't been updating much at all;

> Immediately after Dear Mother is finished, I'll be going on a partial hiatus to finish Baldurs Gate 3 and give myself time to relax and just... give myself a fucking break. The only times I'll be on the computer are the 2 days a week my fiance uses the PS5 to play with friends, so those are the only time I'll be doing any kind of art, be it personal or commission work. So if you happen to get a commission, please do not expect it right away. The general TAT for small things is 2 weeks, and with this hiatus and minimal energy, it might be longer. But I'll be giving myself a very... VERY much needed break to finish BG3 and have more shenanigans afterwards.

> When hiatus is over, be it immediately after the game or giving some time to work on other things, I'll be starting a new comic, and will try to pace myself a little bit because its going to be... huge. There will also be one more Survival AU written story before it starts- because this comic will be the fight against Miranda, involving the Lords, Emelia and Ethan. It is going to be huge, and its going to be difficult. There will be no other primary written stories until after its done unless there's a drabble or something someone asks me to make. I'll be finishing up and perfecting a few stories for after that's done, though I will primarily be working on the Survival AU with art, as well.

> Now, when the Survival AU comic is done, I may take another break, because there's yet another comic I'm going to start, which will be Emelias arrival to the factory. The start of this comic will also kickstart primary work focusing on the first few years of Emelias arrival. I am going to say now that while yes, they may have their moments, there will be quite a bit of mildly uncomfortable subjects, as the first few years involved some heavy mutual abuse from both. You'll get to see how she got there and how they managed the first few years as well as quite a bit with her having... well, two eyes 😂 I'll give another warning when I get there but yknow. I've said before how genuinely dysfunctional they are with a few written examples, but I feel like it'll be a different story with proper visual...

And while I'm working on that fun little bit, I'll also be introducing a new written series that I've been secretly chipping away at- While I work on Emelias background and arrival, I'll also be working on Karls.

I will be working on/posting a small(?) mini(???) series of Karls own backstory. It will include his own 'arrival' to the village, interactions with Miranda and occasionally the Lords, and even smaller things such as the loss of his leg and how he got the scars across his nose and throat, all up until Emelia is dropped off. I don't plan on there being VERY many stories, though I will absolutely be more than open to writing for him if anyone has other ideas! 💙

And... thats it for now! Noting that the next two comics are going to take quite a while, ESPECIALLY the Survival AU one... I've no idea how long everything will take exactly, and all this is going off of if life decides to give me a fucking break. There's still alot going on, and I'm struggling alot... but I still have plans. Dear Mother will be finished before the new year (if not nearly exactly ON new years depending on our plans for the next two weeks and me not getting burnt out) and I'll have January to attempt to recuperate. Will I take the entire month? I'm not sure. But given shit doesn't go wrong like it did this year, we might be ok.

But... yeah! Thats about it. Right now I'm focusing on Dear Mother and trying my best. Comms ARE still open but will just take a lil bit more time than usual, so if you're fine waiting, hit me up 👍

#update #i got big plans for Metalworks #im very excited and i hope you guys are too!!! #ive already nearly made a few people cry with the first bit of Karls backstory that i shared so im VERY excited 😎 #get ready to bawl your fuckin eyes out my dudes youre in for a bumpy horrible ride with a whole ass load of ANGST

[ninthpresident]

stop making sense!!!!!!!! stop making fucking sense baby!!!!!!!!!

#had TWO drinks in the theater bar beforehand #then bawled my fuckin EYES out to this must be the place because i was so overwhelmed and happy #bouncing and swaying to every song and watching other people in the theater doing the same thing..good god

[angel-jada]

Whoever spoke up at Hulu Headquarters and got Skypeia, Water 7, Enies Lobby, and Thriller Bark released on One Piece is DOING GODS WORK 😭

#currently crying rn bc I have waited so long to rewatch Thriller Bark and now I finally get to 😭😭 #this has been such a long time coming 😭 #bawling my eyes out rn #there’s like barely any one piece dub ANYWHERE #crunchyroll is doing me so fuckin dirty 😭 #one piece #one piece Hulu #one piece dub

[rosesmanroses]

Yooooo, why the fuck is reading about black history, woman history, and especially black woman history so fucking hard? Like why dude, we're just tryin to live and that's apparently too much to ask for. Like ffs every time I go to broaden my views on this (and gy history I'm crying and hurt. And what sucks is yes we've made progress but wtf some shit has barely changed. I'ma go back to reading in pain 🙃

#black history #womens history #black womanhood #lgbtqia2s+ #my eyes are just sweating geez #i could 100 percent rant more but im tired of being angry but what else can i do #then no one fuckin understands and its just dog shit imo #this shit fucks with me alot due to a mix of trauma and sympathy but damn still some good reads #one book was about the strength and beauty of black women and it was just some of the sweetest and kindest shit i ever read #it had me bawling to say the least because there are people out there that care and are allies and i just couldn't emotionally it

[the-coping-dragon]

Health stuff

I went to research “how long can a period be, before it’s dangerous?” And all the websites were like “well 2-9 days is normal, sometimes longer if you recently started your cycles.”

Okay so…. Nine weeks is probably too long…?

#originalpostbycopingdragon #my poor fucking body. Jesus Christ #first was the symptoms that they decided might be PCOS #and then the progesterone shot #which NO ONE WARNED ME would make my adhd the worst it’s ever been and make my adderall almost useless #and then the Testosterone shots #and my body is having so much happen to it #I’m on such a low dose of T but my body is having the fastest changes I’ve ever heard of (thanks PCOS for the naturally high t levels and #hilariously massive ratio of total T/available T) #I am growing a dick and I’ve been on a period for fucking. like #9 weeks so like #63 fuckin days lol #my body is so worn out. my fibro has been acting up again and making my joints and fibro spots HURT #and I’ve started developing an allergy to my workplace (I suspect it’s the years of dust + mouse shit + insulation from 1960) #AND MY WEED ALLERGY HAS GONE WILD. even the tiniest exposure makes my lungs hurt for fucking days augh #I’m tired!!!! I am going to think about my priorities and think about ways to reduce stress #I absolutely need to stop missing work so I can afford medical care and helping my friends and my i #my wife gets an allowance now for luxuries which is fine even though I am the only one who works and I pay for all our food and housing and #bills and for her meds and for her to buy gifts for her girlfriend because we are polyamorous now which I’m FINE with my wife wanting to #have sex with another person!!!! it just took me like five months of bawling my eyes out and mourning a future she doesn’t want anymore #so it’s fíne everything is fine I’ll just bleed for the 64th day in a row while we celebrate our 4 year anniversary and then tomorrow I’ll #go back to work and my hands will get blistered from some allergen and my little t dick will get a bit bigger and my wife will wish she was #in another state being held by someone besides me and I’ll come home and we’ll play video games together and it’ll just never stop!!!! #IM FINE I PROMSIE

[luckyashes]

woah !! sudden motivation to work on my fic

with that said would yall believe me if I said the only reason i was making my fic was to write about a vampire and is lover in a beach episode(tm)

#IM NOT KIDDING THIS IS MAINLY WHAT I WANTED #BUT MY SORRY LIL ASS WENT 'oh what if i made a silly lil collection of stories with the vampy lad instead' #i fuckin did this to myself!! and now im paying the price #no wonder im so goddamn unhappy over it! i just wanna get this shit over with as im impatient! #this fic is gonna kill me but that'll be the last thing it can do because i wear i WILL finish this collection #it's probably going to take me a long ass time since i can get demotivated real easy but like !!! shit man #crying sobbing bawling my eyes out asifoshsgdsf #ash chats