#i can't hide my emotions at all

[lucabyte]

i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.

i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.

anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.

#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking. #nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference #anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose. #isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat loop #isat siffrin #isat bonnie #isat nille #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #doodlebyte #---------------------------------------------------------------------- #anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!) #which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around) #and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but #They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt) #and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good #(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit #distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally #stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine) #the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly. #but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief) #as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur #BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule #which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation #ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.

[soupnoodle]

my friend who went to see the new master and margarita movie, not familiar with the book: what the fuck is going on

me, watching the new master and margarita movie, familiar with the book: what the fuck is going on

#i'm the plot accuracy nerd 🤍 #i tried to be objective but turned out i can't #it's hard to be one when the director suddenly decides to bring his own ideas into the adaptation and makes it modern looking #people are mostly saying yeah august diehl was so cool so sexy it's bad margarita is the one naked at the end #i can tell you're missing the point and all that huge budget and these actors are not enough to hide all the fuck ups #and you're ready for this conversation #i can be bitchy for no end when it comes to movies that are supposed to be built on the primary source (the book) #but instead of it directors just borrow the characters and ideas and create it in something absurd #i'm not here to drool over august diehl. i am in fact here to re-experience the story i really love #also someone said that actors were good but i leave it to those who really appreciate it #ps. woland's retinue was dull and bland #master and margarita #for the first rime in a while i felt nothing after watching a movie #neither good nor bad emotions it just wasted my time #как похорошела москва при собянине

[lesbianuchiha]

wangxian baihe *the crowd goes fucking wild*

#myart #mdzs #wangxian #lan wangji #wei wuxian #mo dao zu shi #lesbian lan zhan is very near and dear to my heart. even like canon lwj pines like a stereotypical lesbian and i love it #wwx voice jiejieeee #lwj voice Oh I Can't Not Fuck Her #i have tons of thoughts on them at all points in time... #i think lwj is very androgynous... tall sharp jaw big hands #still easily mistaken for lxc #and wwx is Painfully Feminine at times as almost a mirror of jyl #bc her shijie always had fun with dressing up with her and how could she say no... #but after she comes back shes like ehhhh fuck it dresses however she wants. more “masculine cut” robes that hide her figure #but lwj finds her just as beautiful no matter wht she wears and its like. bdump. bdump. What The Fuck Are These Emotions Towards Lan Zhan #<- thought her feelings were girlbestie feelings but they were Please Look At Me I Love When You Look At Me You See Me emotions #wlwangxian

[catboyfurina]

focalette / neuvalors whatever the ship name is orz

#beeep #gi #query #i am a trans guy furina truther and i think a lot of fanon neuvalors is really focused on a sort of. somewhat misogynistic (imo) stereotype #idk a lot of fanon seems to really like Big Strong Protector Man and Hysterical Little Emotional Woman #and thaaats not up my alley BUT I SHALL ELABORATE ON WHAT IS ! #first of all. i think both of them have feelings and emotions and shit. when fanon is like here are fontaines crybabies that fanon is like #yea. you get it this time #i think furina is really invested in pretending to be who he thinks fontaine wants as an archon #and i think part of that is pretending to be a cis woman. and i think that is also why he's so dramatic and over the top in part #fontaine wants a spectacle so he gives them a spectacle but (as seen by the fountain) does hide the less entertaining side #(or the side that he can't bear to let become entertainment) #and i think he doesn't and or can't hide as much of that from neuvillette #i think when theyre both tired and alone furina can drop the exaggeration . and that. that specifically is soooooo #and tying into the trans headcanon i think nvl is the only one who knows #i still dont think furina has said everything but like. neuvillette being the only one past that first incredibly high wall. yeag #and neuvillette is imo one of those people that likes ppl that are annoying (cough cough just like me fr fr rn) #buuuuut ngl i havent thought as hard about neuvis end of it #...i dont think theyd be together currently in canon tho this is one of those slowburn bait things #also. i don't think furinas a kid pensive emoji. i know its popular on like half the fandom but nnnot my headcanon #i dont think hes acting childish in a child way i think hes acting childish in a clown way #.....hopefully this isnt my sinister!baizhu headcanon moment that ages soooo poorly ahdsjfjshsgh

[tennessoui]

au where there's some downtime in the war after a mission that involved both the 212th and the 501st, and they're all enjoying a night off from the stress, drinking around a campfire and somehow they get onto the topic of Obi-Wan's type of romantic partner.

Obi-Wan has spent quite a bit of time at this point trying to convince himself that his type is Anyone Who Is Not Anakin (he is lying to himself and we love him for it) so the first thing he blurts out is "I never kiss anyone younger than me"

and everyone starts making jokes about how he must be a real hit at the old folks' home if he only likes people older than him now that he's ancient etc etc and anakin joins in but is secretly gutted because he's been in love with his master for years now and he's just heard that he'll never be his master's type :<

he retires to bed soon after, moping and heartbroken and desperately wishing he could be older than obi-wan.

and the Force, of course, says, "you got it, kiddo."

the next morning anakin wakes up looking like how he will when he's 38* (in a timeline where he doesn't become vader btw) and obi-wan wakes up looking like how he did when he was 22.

and no one knows what's happened but at least their brains are the same? maybe it's temporary? ("damn jedi magic," cody is overheard complaining into his meal. "when can I ever get a damn break?")

this all leads up to a very climactic scene where anakin has to sheepishly rub the back of his neck and confess that he might know um...why this happened. maybe. um. maybe it was because he uh. well, he wanted to be older. than obi-wan. um. becauseyousaidyouonlykisspeopleolderthanyoumasterwhichisreallynotfairandsortofageistanywayifyouthinkaboutit.

#kit's silly lil aus #obikin #anyway it all works out obviously #the moment they kiss they go back to their actual ages #just a silly lil take on reverse master/padawan aus #(which are my favorite and i live for them btw) #also obi-wan is quite taken with how older!anakin looks #and he's young enough that he can't quite control all his emotions as easily #so he blushes a lot #it's the worst thing in the world: not having a beard to hide behind

[tenok]

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#I want complaine not only about bad takes in this fandom but also about theories that just!! so!! stupid!! but also I'm a good person that #doesn't shit on other people's fun #so I mostly suffer in silence #and block people in bunches #'you see! this theory absolutely doesn't take agency from character and doesn't minimize emotional impact!' #says person about theory that roughly summariasized as 'Crowley AGAIN knows more than Aziraphale and it's all so SAD because if only #Aziraphale knew he wouldn't make this desicion!' #I want to scream #somehow it also never about what kind of monster Crowley would be to willingly hide memories Aziraphale supposedly erised and never gave it #back in whole four years they had before season two #like. maybe not be a cowards and embrace 'I was a pussy and somehow didn't get a courage to RESTORE MY FRIEND'S MEMORY with some kind of #VITAL INFORMATION that could've IMPACT HIS LIFE OR DEAT DESICIONS #and now he's in place where he could be abused erased or killed and IT'S MY FAULT' angle hmmm? #at least it could've made it interesting #but noooo #also how the fuck them kissing in 1941 should've impact Aziraphale's desicion anyway I can't get logic behind this theories #(the angle with 'memories are not about some stupid kiss but about what Crowley saw in heavens' could've work but like first: Crowley didn' #saw anything Aziraphale won't hear from Metatron in next scene or can extrapolate using base logic #and anyway if Crowley wanted to use it as argument he like. should've start with it and not with 'blah blah you're an idiot we should run #from earth' #AT BEST I could've get behind him giving Aziraphale some kind of weapon or possibility of safe out or like. hell's fire to self destruct as #last resort. but memories? and especially Aziraphale's memories??) #anyway yes it's me being a hater. I just have no place to vent about it but I sure hope that no one that likes this theories will see it. #you do you!!! but I hate it so much!!!

[originalaccountname]

dazai harem agenda!!!! that's the mood tonight

Falling in love is a basic experience of being alive to him. This young man falls a little bit in love with anyone who catches his attention I will stand by that. Whether it sticks or changes is another topic entirely. He is full of love and is reticent to show it in any normal way. Somebody hold him PLEASE

#(chris fleming/gayle voice) hide the emotions! we can't let people know we FEEL #i'm a one-trick pony and skk are my beloveds but #dazai getting crushes left and right real is what i'm saying (look at fifteen. look at the day i picked up dazai. look at entrance exam.) #it's his signature move #apparently i talk sometimes #bsd #bsd dazai #actually i didn't really ship skk (or anything at all) until my second rewatch (also when i became obsessed with the series) #i just thought it was funny how popular dazai was

[st0p-the-dams]

Autistic meltdown at 8am in front of family? Don't mind if I do :')

Sufficiently embarrassed and upset and got laughed at for trying to explain how I was feeling.

#actuallyautistic #personal #I'm hiding in a room crying wondering why I can't regulate my emotions like a normal person #this all started because someone took my seat just to bother me

[paranorahjones]

I KNEW IT AND NOW I'M CRYING

#yes this source does link to a tumblr blog and yes my emotions are just insane right now #but i just KNEW IT because i'm also an infp and to be fair i don't believe the Myers Briggs is the end-all be-all of personality tests #but it helped me understand myself so much when i was younger and identifying characters who share a lot of my personality types #helps me to stave off self-loathing #chuck is like #my idealized vision of myself #personality-wise #i want to BE that good #that selfless #and kind-hearted and genuine and so full of love that i literally can't hide it even if i want to #wow i feel like i'm 13 again or something #rambling about this fictional dude #but jeez this show genuinely makes me feel so seen #i don't know but i'm being sincere and i'm not gonna undercut my own sincerity #so what if i'm also being juvenile

[everysongineverykey]

genuinely how can you listen to mother love by queen and not come back a changed person.

#I'M A MAN OF THE WORLD AND THEY SAY I'M STRONG #BUT MY HEART IS HEAVY AND MY HOPE IS GONE #I DON'T WANT PITYYYY JUST A SAFE PLACE TO HIDE!!! #MAMA PLEASE #LET ME BACK INSIDE!!!!!!!!! #not okay. #the way it was the last song freddie mercury ever recorded. it's so #the last words the public ever heard him sing were #'i can't take it if you see me cry / i long for peace before i die / all i want is to know that you're there / you're gonna give me all your #sweet mother love' #and it wasn't even released until 1995. how is anyone normal about this #there's just such an atmosphere throughout the whole song!! it's haunting and heavy and emotional #and it knocks you off your feet!! and brian may filling in on the last verse. #the moment you know freddie's truly gone!! #it's perfect this way. it adds so much

[shirogane-oushirou]

thank you, tv room, for giving me a brain blast and helping me FINALLY decide between some different ren origin options after mulling over them for months :) he may have come fully formed in my brain personality-wise, but i'm still working on details.

still waiting on that voice claim brain blast tho KJANSFKJN

#literally been listening to two tv room tracks for MONTHS... and when i finally looked up the full albums last night #it was like a neon sign pointing me to something obvious that i hadn't thought to look up ;; #currently: mom's french canadian > immigrates to maine after meeting his dad there > ren's born > he moves south for college / to escape #and i'm gonna hide this in the tags bc despite it all i'm still nervous KJANSDFKJN but #after all this time i'm wondering if i'm building up the voice thing when it isn't like... i'm-gonna-be-crucified bad? #he is absolutely peak white liberal + everything but his most recent stuff is Genuinely Bad... maybe this will give it away #but i only knew about him from vine and from other white liberals talking up his most recent n/etflix special when it released... #so seeing the other stuff while looking for ren-isms Took Me Out. but he's clearly... grown? i guess?? still irony poisoned #and cynical and annoying as shit but... yknow... more harmful comedians are given bigger platforms etc etc. #if that's enough to give shit away and you know anyone who has a similar voice and isn't. yknow. him? i'm Begging and Pleading. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 #evil brain blast cursed me and i've been working to break the curse ever since... so any and all recs are VERY much appreciated ;;; #currently searching through queer comedians to see if i can find anyone w the same tone but not having as much luck as i thought i would. #SEND TWEET KJSANDFKJn been sitting on this for a couple of hours. Debating. it's gonna happen eventually tho so it might as well be now. #📌 [ my posts. ] #🍄 [ lying on the blade of an emotion. ] #🦦 [ can't escape it. ] #✨ [ oc lore. ] #✏️ [ my scenarios. ] #🐸 [ look ahead. ] #🧃 [ who is in control. ]

[catboydan]

I finally rewatched Good Omens s1 and watched Good Omens s2 and I'm now crying, they've been pining since the very beginning of everything and they deserve happiness not that ending they got

you know what though? we're gonna get there. THEY are gonna get there. they're gonna get that cottage in the south downs, and all we have to do is harass the studios to pay their workers so the strikes can end and we'll finally get to see our ineffable idiots have a happy ending ;-;

#i cried SO HARD #and it took me a few days to get thru the funk but you know what helped? #knowing we're at the halfway point #and that s3 exists in some form regardless of the strikes. neil gaiman has said he'd write a book even if the show doesn't get renewed #i was SO ANGRY at aziraphale and SO ANNOYED at crowley but now i'm just. #sitting here daydreaming about their reunion 🥰 #because really i've rbed a lot of analysis stuff but i truly think they are miscommunicating on every level #it feels a bit like the bandstand scene in s1 now. like it hurts but it hurts SO GOOD #val comes out of hiding #anon #ask #good omens #gos2 #gos2spoilers #but really i can't emphasize enough how much ep6 got to me nonnie #my heart was literally racing for several days. couldn't get over it #getting into the analysis stuff of it all really helped tbh #like the how and why of the fight & kiss. the emotions & rationale & misunderstanding #i was sooooo angry at aziraphale at first reaction because 'i forgive u' SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UPPPPP #but now after some time to think about it. it's a lot more complicated than that #and i do think aziraphale is making the only choice he could possibly be expected to make in that situation. #which is try to make things better PERMANENTLY by gaining influence over all of heaven #because crowley's right. earth will die whether it's heaven or hell who kills them all #but a&c can't defuse another armageddon by getting even less involved #anyway. ep6 damaged my psyche and i am currently always thinking about it

[love-has-a-way-ofgrowingbackward]

so my mom decided to give away MY cake to HER colleague's family that had come over. like we get it, you value pleasing others and looking like a good person above everything else, but give away YOUR slice of cake for that???? i didn't even know and i had a bad day and was REALLY looking forward to the treat, but i found the fridge empty and it was like a slap to the face. she didn't even apologise and would probably argue that im being so selfish instead and im. so fucking mad.

#i KNOW its just a cake and if anyone ELSE had done it i wouldve been more reasonable #but this is my fucking MOM and she has a history of ripping things i enjoy away from me till i have nothing left and making me #feel completely out of control in everything. #so. it hits different. im already on edge as it is and this was a tipping point. #im so FUCKING mad. her pathological and fucking pathetic need to look like a morally superior person is the reason my life and brain is #so fucked up and then this happens again. she's had a habit of hiding food so we can't eat it and criticizing how much we eat. #so if i look for a snack i have to fbi search the whole house for the key to the locker where she keeps it or go hungry. i mean now i can #eat out obviously but its expensive and as a kid i couldn't so the emotions are all still there #watch me using tumblr tags as a personal therapy session. #gonna figure out what i really want to eat and go get myself something nice alone to feel in control of my happiness again wish me luck

[wortverlust]

thank you all wholeheartedly!!!

first of all… PLEASE I'M SO SORRY FOR BEING AWAY FOR SO LONG (and unannounced too) feoiwhfowhfohwf SHAME ON ME!!! I REALLY, REALLY APPRECIATE EVERYONE WHO DROPPED IN MY INBOX SO FAR!!! AND EVERYONE… I really mean everyone who supported me with such kind words so far. I hope you all know how much every single comment, ask or interaction with my drawings means to me. Seriously… I still can't find the proper words for it… Just thank you all so very MUCH!!!

#Hi...that's me being emotional ^^;; #So I try to get back on track #enough with being sad and hiding ^^ #and opening commissions soon #today probably #And I'm sorry that it took me so long...but well...rl sometimes >_< #I still can't believe I'm doing this... #and that you all are even interested in my sh*tty art #MIND BLOWING... #Seriously #jo.babbles

[queerstudiesnatural]

btw i did have a nightmare last night that like, fucked me up a little bit

#(cw for bad vibes) #basically i was abducted by a guy who threatened to sa me #so i flopped him around like a dead fish hulk style (you know the one hulk and loki scene) and then ran away #and that's when my two siblings showed up who had apparently also been abducted by the same guy #and we all ran away together but i can't run for shit because i have asthma #and if i run for more than 30 seconds my lungs literally stop working #so i was was watching my sibling run ahead of me and i kept slowing down and that's when i turned around and saw the dude run out after us #so i was calling out for my brother to?? idk what i was expecting him to do like fly us away?? i don't fucking know #but anyway he found us a dark alley to hide in and we waited for the dude to run past us and then we started discussing where we should go #because the guy knew where i lived #and that's when i woke up #and there was like some fucked up shit that i don't even wanna talk about #not me getting real ass emotional trauma from a fucking dream #rain.stuff #sa mention #that's a real tag

[buck-yyyy]

sigh. don't you just love being emotionally closed off </3

#i spend all my time hiding from everyone and only letting people in through shitty jokes that aren't even funny #using humour as a defense mechanism >>>> #i'm okay with people knowing that i'm not all there as long as they don't KNOW know yk? #like i can make a joke about my mental state #but i refuse to be serious about it #because that means that they'll KNOW and they'll look at me differently and feel sorry for me and it feels like they're trying to get into #my head which makes me all weird and panicky #so i keep everything to myself and i hide and i burrow into myself to keep people out #and i know it's bad i know it's unhealthy because it's gotten to the point where i keep even good emotions to myself but i can't fucking #STOP because i hate being vulnerable with people #blegh #i'm. not doing so hot #i mean like my mental state is fine-ish but i kinda feel like shit a lot and shitty stuff is happening in my life and everything feels like #a big question mark and i'm afraid everyone hates me and i- #sigh #tw vent in tags