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theloveofanime2017 · 5 years

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Field Trip

Today’s Prompt: Field Trip

Pairing: Damian and Maps

Word Count: 2391

A/N Another chapter up for Ultimate Power Couple Collection!!! Enjoy (A/N at the end)

Damian stared outside the window biting back a growl as his classmates sing to Pretty Girl beside him. He was on the verge of just jumping out the window.

"I can swear, I can joke, I say what's on my mind.." started Maps dramatically swaying her hips.

"If I drink, if I smoke, I keep up with the guys. And you see me holding up my middle finger to the world..." Next was, Olive singing, actually holding up her middle finger.

"Fuck your ribbons and your pearls 'Cause I'm not just a pretty girl'..." Then there was Colton in their little trio and was terribly off key too, everyone dancing and laughing like a bunch of 3rd grade children at an amusement park.

At the next stop he was definitely getting off this ridiculous bus.

Heading home and demanding that he be transferred out of this prison they call a school. He dodged Maps elbow to the face scooting as far away from her as possible. He sighed he'll have to endure this for another 2 hours.

The sound of Maps laughter filled his ears as she was talking to Olive about something, she was smiling so brightly. Well of course she was as she put it, "Field trips are basically an open invitation to explore for mysteries during school hours, how much better can it get?"

Damian didn't have the same attitude, obviously. They all just came from the Museum of Art, to do some sight seeing downtown Gotham, just to end things at the camp site. Yes, a camping trip.

"What's with the pout there Mr. Grumpy Pants?" Maps poked his cheek teasing him a little, he swatted her hand aimlessly. "Don't call me that."

Maps shrugged and sat back down next to the said boy. "I would be a little concern with the way your acting but I tend to forget your not a normal boy." She giggled and patted his hair. He glared out the window. He made no such move to stop her due to finally seeing the camp site.

"Finally we're here." Shouted Maps almost jumping out of her seat. She pressed her face to the window squishing Damian in-between the two. "Maps I swear on everything I own if you don't stop acting like a child I'll skin you alive."

She scoffed at him, "You would have done it a long time ago if that was true." He growled shoving her off of him.

"Alright kids I want you to grab your partners sitting next to you and your belongings and stand in an orderly line." Damian toned the woman out grabbing his duffel bag from under their seat before checking his phone, no signal, figures. Shoving his phone back in his bag he followed everyone off the bus to the open wilderness.

"Wow it feels great out here." Said Olive standing next to Kyle. "Yeah, plants and animals so great." He cringing at the sight of a misquote flying by. "Hey at lest we're not doing school work I'd take this any day." Colton took in a gulp of air before releasing it.

"I'm shocked you were even eligible to join since you were suspended last week." Said Olive skeptical, "Hey! I've got my ways." He said.

"Hey guys look! there 's the cabins." Pointed Maps, as she began jogging towards the teacher to ask a few questions about the sleeping arrangements and the freedom to explore the woods. Colton shuffled over to Damian secretly.

"Hey! Wayne boy, now's your chance to make your move." Damian gave him a harsh look .

"What are you going on about, Rivera?" Colton sighed fixating his sunglasses.

"I mean making your move on Maps idiot, what else?" Damian's face burned with embarrassment. He started making his attempt to escape this conversation. Until Colton draped his arm around his shoulder preventing him from escaping.

"Come on man, we all know you guys have feeling for each other why else would you have came on this trip, huh?"

"Against my will."

"Or maybe, your trying to impress a certain mysteries loving girl we all know and love." He winked at him all Damian could do was roll his eyes.

"Far from it actually."

"Oh, really so if I had made a move on her you wouldn't care?"

"Not in the slightest." Colton shrugged with a smirk plastered on his face, "Suit yourself man." He gave him a hard pat on his back but Damian was unmoved by it. He knew what his game was and he will not participate in his absurd act. Those thoughts were immediately cast to the wind as he saw Colton wrap his arm around Maps' waist. Damian scowled hard, getting dangerously close to reaching for his favorite katana in his duffel bag.

Colton looked back proud at Damian's death glare and Maps' confused face. "This is gonna be great." Later that day everyone got situated in their cabins and gathered sticks and leaves for their camp fire.

"I cant wait! were going to roast marshmallows and tell ghost stories sadly I couldn't convince Mrs. Marshall to let us go exploring on our own but maybe if we get lucky, she'll change her mind." Maps happily said filling up her pile of twigs.

"Yeah right that old crow won't even let us stay up past 9, what makes you think she'll let us go off exploring." Said Olive.

"That hasn't stopped us before." Maps winked at her friends before she could collect more twigs she noticed a certain boy in the background leaning against a thick tree. He seemed uninterested as usual but he looked distressed. She was about to make her way over to him until someone grabbed her wrist.

"Colton?! what's up bud?"

"Hey Maps old chum I need your help I have this bad ache in my neck can you, help me out?" She smiled "Of course." She keeled down and began massaging Colton's neck and back.

"Oh that's the spot thanks man, I really owe you." Maps was about to replied back with a 'no problem that's what friends are for' until she felt a chill go down her spine it felt like someone was giving her a cold glare to the back of her head. A low growl made its self known to the group.

"Did you guys hear that?" Stated Kyle as he backed up protectively towards Olive.

"It sounded like an animal, we should head back to the camp with everyone else."

"Oh, Olive our voice of reason, I don't think we have anything to worry about." Said Colton as he stood up to help Maps up as well. "And whys that?" Asked Maps.

"Well..." He looked over to the murderous boy smirking. This is way too easy, its not even a challenge anymore.

"Children its time to head back now." Shouted Mrs. Marshall, Maps groaned in protest.

As they made their way back to the camping grounds. Damian followed behind sullenly he was in no mode to participate in their juvenile activities, he honestly wish wasn't even here to begin with.

But deep down he knew why he was here.

He sighed stopping in his tracks making no effort in following the group back any further. He needed to get his mind off of things and think about what Rivera had said about him having feelings for... Maps.

"Why am I even wasting my time, its not like its true...?"

At The Camp

"Hey guys I've got the smores ready." Shouted Maps as she plopped down on the log placing her melted marshmallow in her mouth enjoying the feel of it on her tongue. "Mmm so good."

"Right, I haven't had these in a while." Said Kyle

"Mrs.Marshall said we'll be exploring tomorrow morning, but as a class. It won't be as exciting, but it'll still be fun to get out there and explore." Said Maps as she started roasting her second marshmallow.

"Yeah, too bad the Wayne boy is missing out on all the fun." Said Colton stuffing his face, that had caught Maps attention. Where is Damian?

He was right behind them, Maps looked around hoping to spot him just skulking on the sideline but he was nowhere in sight. Did he go exploring off without her?

"Hey guys you won't mind if I got look for Dami right?" Kyle looked at her crazy before saying.

"Are you crazy absolutely no-" Colton covered Kyle's mouth and smiled.

"Sure no problem Maps if Mrs. Marshall suspects anything well just say you two went off to collect more twigs okay." Maps nodded and made her way back to the woods. Removing his hand Kyle glared at Colton, he just shrugged and went back to eating his smore.

"I don't know what you have plan but she better come back in one piece." He threatened, Colton looked offended. "As if I'd let Maps jump into something that was crazy, but you should know your sister by now my friend. " Said Colton smirking.

"Even if you told her no, she'd probable would have still gone." Kyle glared at him harder. "Don't worry so much she's a tough girl she can handle herself."

Kyle sighed "I suppose so." Kyle stared off to the direction Maps went in.

He had a bad feeling about this but he didn't know why?

To The Woods

"Damian where are you?" Maps shouted through her cuffed hands.

She has been walking for about 30 minutes and still no sign of him she was beginning to think he may have gotten lost or maybe called up his privet jet and flew away or something. Just then in the distance Maps saw someone stand behind a tree not far off from her. It must be Damian, as she was about to shout out his name again until she felt a soft tap on her shoulder.

"You have a knack for wondering off on your own don't you." Maps jumped three feet high covering her mouth from screaming her lungs off. She turned around to stare at the dark hair boy astonished by his calm nonchalant face she'd punch him if she wasn't just half scared to death.

Where did he even come from? wasn't he...?

"Damian? what the heck." She caught her breath as he made his way closer to her crushing a few twigs in his wake. He reached for her hand gripping it tightly, staring intently into her eyes. She was a little caught off guard from how much emotion was evident in his eyes.

"Damian why'd you go off on your own like that your kind of acting weird." His expression changed into something she was more familiar with, he was glaring at her. "Why do you think huh? I never wanted to come on this ridiculous trip to begin with and now I have to participate in this until Friday." His grip got tighter she was starting to feel her hand go numb.

"Damian I-" she was cut off by him shoving her against the tree she gave out a yelp as he did so she couldn't read his expression anymore it held something else something darker.

"But of course you wouldn't understand, nobody does." His eyes softened, avoiding eye contact.

"No... this isn't how I want to do this...I'm sorry Maps." Damian gently let go of her hand backing up to give her enough space to leave if she wanted. He looked so broken.

"What's wrong Damian? What do you mean by understand?" He didn't say anything just stood there staring at the ground. He hadn't really planned anything he just wanted to come clean about his feelings not only to her but also to himself too. This was so frustrating.

"Look I'm going to be straightforward with you, I have a confession to make." Maps nodded letting him continue to talk. He sighed again.

"I-" suddenly there was a heavy step making them both froze in their spot. Was someone there? Maps heart began to beat loud, the steps grew closer, the sound of heavy boots etched its self in her brain telling her to run, hide, before its too late.

"Dami maybe we should-" Without finishing her sentence Damian quickly grabbed her hand and ran. Catching Maps off guard as she stumbled trying to catch her balance, but failing miserably. She tripped and fell flat on her face letting go of Damian's hand.

"Maps!" Damian knelt down to help her up he stopped when he heard the footsteps pace quicken towards them. He could just easily confront the scum bag chasing them but he didn't want Maps to get involved. He picked her up with ease. He looked into her eyes and said.

"You need to run back to the came and inform the teacher of my whereabouts things might get ugly so, I need you to run." Maps looked at him crazy of course something she picked up from her brother no doubt. "No, I'm not leaving you behind." His face softened as he gripped her shoulders for support.

"Thank You but trust me I can handle this now go." He shoved her aside getting into fighting position ready to take on what comes at him, Maps was torn between staying to help him fight or-

"Mmm!" Maps made a struggling sound as someone grabbed her from behind covering her mouth with a rag, she began to feel sleepy. Closing her eyes she fell helplessly limp in the man's grip.

"Maps leave now before you-" He turned around to see a tall dark man holding Maps captive. His blood boiled and a low animalistic growl made its way out of Damian's mouth he griped his fist and was about to strike, as he gave off a war cry he felt a heavy object connect with his head falling to the ground. He was attacked from behind.

"What's wrong with you? don't let your guard down so easily we could have gotten in trouble." Damian heard the sound of a women talking, he tried to look at her but he could barley move, although he saw that she wore a pigs mask. There was only one man in Gotham who's whole persona reminisce that of a pig.

"PYG!" Damian whispered before succumbing into the darkness.

To be continued.

Bye.

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luna-paradoxz · 5 years

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Pride and Love

Summary - When Morgan was called to another world he received hope again but only to fall into the despair once again. Maybe he was not destined to have a happy ending.

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Lucina panted as she rested her training sword and put it in the training rack and pulled up her towel as she wiped her face from sweat, drank a bit of water and wiped her mouth. She looked around, the morning daylight and the fresh air felt good and the day was beautiful making her feel at peace. The silence of the usual bustling camp added to the peace, everyone except her had left to enjoy today since this was the only rest day they had before they departed for Ylisse tomorrow. Everyone had decided to spend it with their loved ones, and family since once they are back they are going to fight another war, a war far worse than the one they just fought. She was asked by her parents to spend a day out with family but she had declined to ask them to instead spend time together as since the war started they both had hardly got any chance to spent time alone in peace with no burdens on them, they were a bit reluctant but their children convinced them that they must not stay and go and enjoy themselves. Her sibling left with their friends, she, on the other hand, stayed back on the pretence of practising but really, she wanted to think alone for a bit, and she was avoiding a certain someone.

She frowned, things had cleared between her and Inigo but still she has been ignoring him, it's not that she hates him or is angry with him. She just can't stay too close to him or she won't be able to control herself. She, after realising what he meant by showing emotions affects others, she had realized that somewhere she cared more about his feelings more than others. It's not like she never noticed she had a bit of attraction to him but she always thought it was just a teenage crush or attraction but after that incident she had noticed how she cares so much about how he feels, how he is, how he thinks about her and how she has started desiring more from their relationship. She has also noticed the slight itch in her to punch him or push a woman away from him whenever he goes and flirts with someone in their camp or outside, that was also one of the reasons she didn't go, she was sure someone, especially one of the girls would notice if she started glaring at all the women around them, if they have already not noticed.

And it's not liked the feeling scared her, so she was avoiding him, they did, a bit no, quite but that was not the main reason. She just couldn't bring herself to think about him or them like that and it's not because she is a princess but because she cannot hope him to love her. Because one day she is going to make a decision he will hate her for, if he already doesn't, because he knows, he of all people knows what she plans to do when it becomes certain that their suspicions were true. So, she can't ask him to love her, she cants ask him to give her love when she is going to take his family away from him.

Her face scrunched up as she tried hard to not cry as she gripped her bottle harder and told herself, again, 'I am the princess this is my duty.' She knew she of all people can neither dream nor be selfish. She has too many lives riding on her to do that.

(But she wishes she could do that.)

"You don't have to do it alone. You have friends ready to aid you against whatever you face. And your father has an entire army ready to fight and die for him. ...And you also have me, for whatever that may be worth."

She still could hear Robin's words ring in her head. She had not expected him to grow to care for her so much in little time they had known each other and the fact she rarely talked to him. She always kept her distance from him telling herself to not get too attached to him or it will become only that hard for her when the time comes. And whenever they did speak, she always spoke to him formally, making it clear she didn't want to get familiar with him, he of all people must have picked it, he was not her father after all. But, still, he cares about her enough to promise he will support her, fight alongside her, swear his sword to her. She knew his true fealty lied with her father but still to hear him so seriously tell her he wants to support her made her realise that this man didn't care if she was staying away from him or treated him coldly, he cared for her all the same, just like how he must care for the little Lucina back in the castle. It hurt, more than she wanted to accept.

She didn't deserve this kind of loyalty, this kind of kindness from him, especially when considering what she might do. She bit her lip as she tried hard to steal her heart again and tell herself that she must do it, she was the crown princess she must do it. Sighing, she got up and left her tent and walked to wood, maybe some night air will soothe her heart. She hears voices and immediately hides and peeks from behind the tree and gasps silently. There were a family of four all smiling as the two sat down on a nearby log and the other two stood practising their dance. Robin clapped as he complimented Morgan who shyly, blushed and scratched her neck, grinning. Inigo said something, it was too far for her to hear, and the girl looked up positively beaming as her grin stretched wider, if possible. Olivia chuckled and then patted her head as she said something too and the girl flushes but nods looking determined now. Then they took positions again and Olivia puts her hand up, slowly twists, twirls and completed the step with a jump. Morgan, determined copies it, she puts her hand up, twists less slowly, and twirls a bit clumsily and then she jumped too but landed a bit off. She flushed and looked disappointed, but Inigo again said something, and she nodded, looking determined again. The routine counited for few minutes and then even Inigo joined them, probably unable to control himself anymore and danced freely, a bit slowly, to demonstrate the steps to Morgan. She felt her throat constrict and her previous guilt burns again.

The family looked so happy. Even though all they were doing was dancing around, still they seemed that they felt the happiest for doing such a simple thing.

She was going to break this family up.

(She hated herself.)

She got up ready to leave, but she stepped on a branch and all of them tensed as Robin got up and pointed his trusty tome at her direction, she promptly came out looking sheepish as she avoided their eyes and looked down. All three dancers flushed as Robin just blinked and then laughed.

"Lucina, what are you doing so late up?"

She flushed a bit, "I am sorry I didn't mean to spy, I just came out for some fresh air and came upon on all of you. I was going to leave."

He chuckled as he shakes his hand, "No worries Lucina, we don't mind right guys?"

Both dancers and dancer in training flushed but sheepishly nodded and that only made Robin grin brighter as he turned to her again, "And how did you find Morgan's dance do you think she is getting there?" He asked lightly.

She smiled as she looked at the girl and nodded, "Yes I quite liked it. It was good Morgan."

The girl smiled sheepishly as she rubbed her neck again, "Thanks Lucina I am trying, though I am still nowhere near Mother and Brother."

"It's ok Morgan you forget after all it can't be helped. You will learn all soon enough." Inigo cheered her up and she nodded back.

"Yes, I remember you were quite a good dancer yourself. I am sure you will re-learn it quite easily."

The girl flushed again as she looked down and twisted her hands together, "Thanks." She said, lowly and two of them smiled wide at her. At times like this, it was quite clear Morgan did get some things from her mother other than her hair colour.

Robin smiles, gently as he suggests, "Lucina now that you are here why don't you stay?"

Her heart pricks, as she looks down, and tries to smile as she slightly shakes her head, "Thank you Robin-san for the invitation but I must go and sleep." She hopes they don't catch on but still she doesn't wait for the persuasion to come and turns away to leave.

She doesn't catch on the pained look on Inigo and worried look on Robin.

They all were back in Ylisse and coming back home after so long filled her up with so much happiness that she had to pull herself aside so that she can stop herself from crying, it was not just her who was happy to be back home, finally, all her friends were. She could see it on their faces, some of them didn't cry but they were happy. The city which was ablaze the day before they left was now bright, happy and everyone alive in it. All her people alive in it. She was so, so happy. Her parents gave them permission to go around and see the city and everything as much as they like, they didn't need to do any work today. At first, she had refused saying she will join them for council but her father put a hand on her head, patted and smiled proudly as he repeated that it was her day off and she must rest. After that, even she couldn't reject him. So, rest she did. First, she went around the castle checking out all the rooms and the areas. It filled her heart up and then she finally headed to her room. There was her mother slowly cooing at her baby self, and after she announced her presence shyly, she laughed and then beckoned her to show her, herself. It was embarrassing and awkward but when she held herself, the same blue eyes stared right back at her, and then she laughed as her tears fell. She was truly a beautiful baby. After that, she went and joined her friends to explore the city. They went around a lot of places, places familiar to them and not so familiar to them. After the sun had fallen they all went back to the garrison, but she could none of them wanted to just sleep yet, but sadly they all were tired and needed to, so they all turned in for the night.

But she couldn't sleep, for whatever reason, she just couldn't. Her body was tired, but her mind was racing. So, she got up and decided to take a walk out to clear her head and hopefully go back to sleep, Déjà vu, was only hitting when she walked out and saw Robin sitting out on the garden stone ledge reading something with a lamp on. She felt a bit bad but cleared her throat to announce her presence. He looked up and then grinned as he closed his book and patted the seat beside him, she promptly took it.

"Can't sleep again?" He teased her and she flushed as she nodded.

"It is just coming back home after so long has filled me up with excitement I guess."

He smiled, a bit lightly, "I can understand it has been quite a log for us too. It might not be the same per se but even I felt quite good to be back home."

She smiled, slightly as she crossed her legs, wrapped her hands around them and looked up. "Yes, it is really good to be back home."

"Then, I am glad we could bring all of you back home."

She smiled at him, thankfully, "Thank you Robin-san."

He nodded and they both just stared at the night sky for a bit when she decided to breach another topic.

"Robin-san can I ask you something?"

"Yes surely,"

"How…how did you make those decisions?" She asked, a bit scared.

"Decisions? You mean at the war?" He asked confused.

She nodded, "Yes at the war, when you made those decisions to burn down our fleet or to climb the volcano. How did you make those?"

He was still confused, "Well, I won't say it was easy and was quite risky but that was our best move at that time."

She slowly shook her head, that was right but that was not what she was asking. "Yes, and I am thankful for your good thinking but what I want to know is how were you able to get yourself to make such a hard decision?"

He still doesn't understand what exactly she was asking, "Lucina is there something specific you want to know about the plans or are you asking something else?"

She lightly bit her lip, how does she word it, "Yes what I am trying to ask is, well, do you remember that day when Lady Emmeryn was to be executed?"

He flinched but nodded, nonetheless. That would be the day, no matter how much time has passed, still make his heart clench and be stabbed.

She grimaced a bit, "That day just after Aversa had foiled your plan, you had said something to father. I remember you asked father to sacrifice Lady Emmeryn and to run away with the shepherds. I want to ask how you were able to do that?"

He looked, down as his face darkened, now he knew what exactly she was talking about. "That day, we were surrounded. There were 14 of us shepherds and 15 of Feroxian including Basilio and Flavia. We were all surrounded by more than 20 men and my best strategy was foiled just like that. I had no other strategies left other than choosing one side. Giving up the national treasure would be the same as giving up our nation to Gangrel, and there was no guarantee he will keep his word and not attack any of us. It was choosing between which one had the most necessary. Chrom, Lissa, Basilio, Flavia and fire emblem were the ones we had on one side, on the other was Emmeryn. As a tactician, I am supposed to choose the side with most probability, so I made my choice."

She looked down, as pain struck her, "I can't imagine how much strength it must have taken to make that choice."

He smiles painfully as he looks up again, "Yes it was a hard choice and the consequences were many, but I knew I need to save them even if they hate me, even if they kill me, I needed to make sure Chrom and Lissa also won't become victims of the war," He sighed, "But in the end, even that was not needed. Lady Emmeryn saved us all from that heartache and made the choice herself. More than me I think it was her how held enough strength. I don't think so anyone else could be so benevolent or strong as her."

She could hear the pride and guilt in his voice and she only felt the respect for this man to grow, for her aunt to grow, she really wished she had met her once more. That she could talk properly to her once.

(She knew it was a fool wish, but she wanted to have the aunt that was called the holy queen by all.)

"I am sorry if only I had been there then things wouldn't have ended up like that."

He shakes his head, as he put a hand on her head, "Its not your fault Lucina. No one could have predicted it would end up like that. And there is no guarantee you could have changed it." He pats her.

She doesn't say anything, but she whispers in her heart, that it was not acceptable her relaxing like this, it had cost them Emmeryn and so many other lives. She could have prevented it all, no she was supposed to prevent it and yet she had failed. But this time she won't fail, no matter what, she won't.

He looks at her as her eyes harden in determination and he wishes he could ask her what exactly she was strengthening herself to do but he knew he can't. And yet he worries for her because for him she is still the little baby Chrom had cried when he first saw and then with tears streaming down his face, he proudly showed her to him. A little light of happiness born in the country that was ridden with the pain of loss. He can't let anything happen to her, that's what he had promised to Chrom, to always protect and guide her. Even if she is from the future the oath still held, he was sure his future self-had made the same oath.

"Lucina, I know you have your secrets but I do not want to see you hurt yourself. You have me and all of us and we will support you the best way we can." He smiles, reassuringly, give her strength and she was reminded of her past when he would promise her the same thing when he would leave with her father, only to never come back. She bites her lip and nods.

"Thank you, Robin-san." She says nonetheless as she smiles back at him.

She prays to Naga as they leave for Pelgia, to give her strength, to make a decision that will be the hardest in her life.

(She wonders if he will hate her if that day comes, she hopes he will.)

Robin with a pained look looks down as Chrom informs all the shepherds about what happened. She puts a hand on her falchion and with a blank look stares at everyone's reaction not understanding the full consequences this event has brought. But Inigo understands as he turns, with a pained look, their eyes meet and she turns not able to stare at it any longer. She then walks away, and she knows he is still going to come as his long legs catch up to her faster and he holds her arm to stop her. She does not turn knowing her resolve won't hold up if she looks at his face.

"Lucina, please." He pleads, his voice pained and broken, and she feels her heartbreak and grows more dead.

"I am sorry." And with that she shakes her hand away and takes a step, halting, as she waits for him to call out again.

His heart pains, as she doesn't turn, and when she shakes her hand away, his chest stabs as he goes to plead again but then he remembers and let his hands fall as he stands there and when she starts to walk away, he just stares at her back and hates himself. She understands, a bit glad, and then walks away.

And then he hears her voice as Morgan suddenly comes to him and asks in a worried voice if he is ok, because without him noticing he had started crying because even he right now can't smile. Morgan frowns but he digs his nails in his palm as he puts his head down and he apologises to her, to his only sister,

"I am sorry Morgan. I can't stop her, I can't stop Lucina. As the ones who came to the past to save the world, I don't have the right to be selfish. I am sorry Morgan."

She just frowns, "Brother what's wrong? What happened?"

But he couldn't answer because what was he going to say his sister to who her father was her whole world.

Chrom walks there wanting to talk to Robin more for tomorrow when he sees Inigo and Morgan, one crying and the other totally confused and worried. He then turns to see his daughter with a grave face calling out Robin and asking him to come somewhere aside. He is not the best at reading the situations but he knows right there that something is wrong and his daughter is up to no good. He decides to follow the two. They go to a clearing far away from camp, he hides behind a tree and then Lucina starts telling him about him, about her memories with him before he died. Robin smiles a bit, a bit sad,

"I can see that you love him very much."

She pains as she looks down looking bleak as she steels herself, "Yes I do. And that's why I must save him, I must save the world that will be thrust to a bleak future on his death. As the crown princess, I must."

She pulls out her Falchion and points at it. She can feel her own father's soul screaming at her, but she ignores it.

"I am sorry Robin…. please forgive me."

He gasps as he takes a step back and exclaims, "Lucina!?"

She frowns, but she was determined, she will carry out her duty no matter who hates her, "Stay where you are, I have no choice. I must kill you."

"What!? What madness is this!?" He demands.

She made this decision, "In my future you, you murdered my father."

He stares, eyes wide, disbelief, " No! That's insane, I won't kill Chrom." Chrom's eyes widen but he makes no noise, he can't come out now. But he doesn't believe, even if it's true he won't believe.

Her heart stabs, but she is the princess, "Up until now there was no proof. I was told that father was betrayed by his most trusted companion. Having witnessed your bond with him in this world, I doubted it could be you. But after seeing today's events I know. You can't resist Validar's control. And he must have made you kill father, in my world. And soon enough you will kill him in this world also."

He stares disbelief, his heart cant believes what the girl is saying, it's just not possible but today he had…

"I.." is all he can say, because really what could he say?

Chrom feels his heartbreak as he looks down at falchion but he knows if its Robin then, he can believe and forgive him.

She can't let her heart waver. "To change the destiny, to make sure this world doesn't fall in the same despair that mine has fallen into, I must do this. Sacrifices must be made and only I can, only I can do it. That's why as the crown princess, no as the Exalt I must do this."

"Lucina, you don't have to - "

No, she must bear this weight, only she, "Don't make it harder! I will give you a swift and painless death. If you hold any love for father, then please let this be done…."

He frowns, he wants to live, he knows it's selfish but he wants to but he knows if this will lead to everyone happiness. If he can save Chrom this way then. Compared to the lives of thousands, one person, any one person is weightless.

He smiles sadly, "Understood Lucina. I shall forfeit my life."

She feels her heartbreak more, "Why are you looking at me with such a kind smile? I am doing this for father, for the world but still, I am killing you, Robin." 'I am killing Olivia's husband, Inigo's and Morgan's father.'

He chuckles slightly, "If I die here it will save Chrom right? It will save everyone and you all can live happily right? Then I will give my life willingly."

She can't cry, she doesn't have the right to cry. (But she wants to, desperately)

"But before you kill me, Lucina, can I give you my last message?"

She just silently nods, she kills herself too. (She just wishes she could be selfish.)

"Then could you please tell Chrom to not get too angry with you. I know he doesn't want to sacrifice anyone but sometimes one must make the right decision. Tell him that, tell him that I said you made the right decision. And tell him - thank you for giving me this life, with so many precious people and so many precious memories."

Chrom feels his eyes burn and wants to go hit him, for saying such things but he practices patience. He knows he needs to stop his daughter, not beat sense in Robin. He will do that later.

Her face goes more blank, as her heart dies. (She wishes she could hope for a perfect future.)

"Tell Morgan that she will become the very first taction and dancer. Tell her she is an as wonderful dancer like her mother and brother and she is as genius taction as her father. Tell her I won't tolerate any head-bashings and to always be careful and live a happy life. Tell her I will always be looking at her. Tell her I love her."

She records every single word because she must deliver them word to word. (But she wishes she never made him say all this.)

"Tell Inigo that he must be proud of himself, of his dancing and his tactical skills. Tell him he will definitely become the first male dancer, I guarantee it. Tell him he must moderately go behind a woman and he can show weakness. Tell him I will always be proud of him and love him. And tell him he can forgive you."

She silently apologises to both of them, she can't say the last part, she doesn't have the right to say that. (But maybe in another life she can hope that.)

"And tell Olivia I love her and my last wish is for her to find someone better for her, I don't want her to be alone. I want her to be happy."

She silently promises she won't ever leave their side until they start smiling again even if it means she must spend rest of her days to make sure of that. (But she wishes she never had to take that smile from them.)

He takes a deep breathe, open his arms and nods, "I am ready Lucina do what you must."

She nods, but her handshakes and she repeats again 'I am the exalt this is my duty.' She puts her another hand on it and wills herself to stay stronger. This sword will be all she has now.

She takes a step forward. He smiles sadly, he doesn't say it but he has many regrets but his biggest regret is that he is forcing Lucina to bear this weight but he knows as the exalt she must do this, he can at least lessen it by being willing. He hopes, as her godfather, she will also find happiness after this war ends.

"Thank you, Lucina." He whispers.

And she looks up as she hearts breaking, crying, looks at him in his eyes, so desperate and yet so resolute. She was indeed a strong child, just like the heroes of the past.

She grips her hilt and runs, ready to strike at his heart –

"Enough!" her father screams, startling her, making her stop. He runs up to them glaring at her as he jumps in front of him and pushes her sword back with his.

"Lucina, lower your sword."

She can't, not even for him, "Father I can't- "

He glares, as he growls out, "Lucina lower your sword." He orders her and she feels shivers run down and reluctantly lowers it. He doesn't.

"I can explain, father." She says.

He sighs and shakes his head, his throat clenched but he carries, he was her father. "There is no need. You are not the only one who can eavesdrop. I heard every word."

They flinch and Robin steps to pacify him but Chrom lowers his sword on his own.

"Lucina I know your heart is in the right place but I trust Robin. You can't shake my faith in him."

She flinches, her heartbreaking, asking silently, how can he. Robin stares in disbelief, torn between scolding him again, and asking him how he does it.

"This is not about trust! He will be made to kill you!" She angrily screams, frustrated like a child who is not being understood.

He sheathes his sword and shakes his head. "That might be the case but Robin and I have held fast through good times and ill times. We swore to be two halves of a greater whole. That bond can't be severed, I believe in those bonds more than some 'destiny'."

She frowns, why, "Father…" 'Can't you see, even I want to believe in those. But,'

"It's easy for you to say father you haven't seen the future, the despair, the pain, the loss."

They both feel pained, but he held fast, if he doesn't hold on to his beliefs then what kind of man is, he? "Lucina aren't our ties stronger here than in the future?"

She looks up and so does he, where was he going with that.

"You and I share a bond here Lucina. In future, you and the other children were just kids. But in this world, you fight alongside us. That by itself means you have changed the destiny."

She feels like she was slapped, something so obvious, it can't be true, yet it was true. They went blindly in all their fights, they didn't have thirteen kids fighting beside them. It's so painfully obvious, so unbelievable but the future did change. How blind was she?

Robin gasps, of all people to think Chrom, would say something so sensible and meaningful, something so obvious that none of them had realised. He didn't realise. He was a fool, he was supposed to take action and yet this time Chrom was the voice of reason.

"I understand father…I still can't fully give up but now I want to believe that what you say is true. That you will prove me wrong and our bonds won't fall to pieces."

Her heart hurts and yet she feels like she has lost something and yet he knows she has given up. But she really hasn't, and Robin realises that.

"Yes, Lucina we will change the future." He promises, ever confident.

She then turns to Robin as she sheathes her sword too, "I can't ask you for forgiveness, but I will believe in you this time."

He smiles, "I do forgive you, Lucina. You need not speak of it again."

A silence falls and knowing it's over both men turn to leave but she stays still, and Chrom looks at her, "Lucina?"

"I would like to be here for some time more, I will return to camp in a bit."

They want to say something but decide to give the girl her time and decided to leave. At the exit of the forest both of his children stood, Inigo, looking broken and crying while Morgan was asking him his reason and trying to console while looking utterly confused. He feels his heartbreak, 'Inigo knew about it. Well, I am not surprised, they all are quite close.' He thinks, and then turns to Chrom and nods who sighs and then leaves with one last message of coming to the war tent afterwards, he sweats drops knowing well he was going to get scolded. He walks to them and they both look up, noticing him there, Inigo gasps and Morgan runs to him,

"Father, brother is acting very weird. He won't tell me anything and keeps crying. Please do something." She complains, pouting and he chuckles as he pats her head and she immediately loses her frown.

"I got it, Morgan, I will do something why don't you return to your work?" He tells her, she looks a bit worried, but she is confident in her father, so she leaves. He then steps to his son who turns down looking guilty and he sighs as he pats his head too. He looks up, eyes tearing up as he breaks down,

"I am so sorry father. I wanted to stop her, but I- I alone couldn't be selfish."

He smiles, understandingly, as he pates him more, "It's ok Inigo I am not angry at you." He tears up more and hugs him as he buries his face in his neck and repeats his apologies. He rubs his back to show he doesn't mind and comforts him. After a minute or two, he lets go and takes a step back as he now looks confused, obviously not expecting Lucina to let it go so easily.

"Lucina?" He asks.

"Chrom stopped her and right now she is still in the clearing. I am sure she needs time after everything."

"Oh," He says, torn between going to comfort her or staying here with his father, who he had almost lost.

His father grins, "Why don't you go and talk to her. At times like these is when she needs someone who will support her. I have to go and talk to Chrom and all about tomorrow."

He lifts as he nods as he hugs him last time, "Thank you, father." And with that, he walks away. Robin sees him go then braces himself as he himself heads to war tent knowing a very angry Chrom is waiting for him there.

Inigo walks up to the clearing and sees her staring at the sunset, as she still clutches tightly onto the falchion and he knows she is still regretting it and thinking she should have done her duty, even though she chooses not to. He clears his throat to catch her attention, as she turns and meets his eyes. Her blue eyes swirling with guilt and pain as she looks back at him with a question, he knew she doesn't want to hear the answer to. He still draws goes closer as she loses her grip on the sword and looks down, so small so defeated he hasn't since her like this since she had lost her parents. He sighs and then stands in front of her,

"Lucina," he whispers gently, carefully, and she bites her lip as they quiver as she refuses to look up and he sighs again.

"Lucina." He tries again, a bit more sternly but his voice is still gentle and this time she slightly tilts her head, not meeting his eyes but at least now she was ready to listen to him rather than wallow in her own thoughts.

"None of us hate you. We all knew what you did was right, it was something we knew had to happen," She still doesn't move but he continues, "You were the exalt, you needed to keep all of us safe. Sacrifices needed to be made."

She glares at the ground, she always told herself that and yet she had given in her selfishness in the end anyway. His eyes drop as he understands, "But you are also you, the girl Lucina, who enjoyed studying magic from her godfather. Who loved and cared about her most favourite uncle? A girl who is so strong and yet gentle and kind. You are an exalt but you are also Lucina." He gently says, the words she didn't want to hear.

She feels the pain crashing in her heart as she looks up and starts hitting him on his chest as she glares at him. Why did he have to say it? Why did he have to say she was weak? Even though all her life she has tried to be strong, and yet it all failed and at the most important point her heart came rushing, rearing it's ugly head and taking away all the strength she had built for so many years.

"Inigo, I failed them, I failed everyone in our world. I was not supposed to, and yet I-" She almost screams, and he stares back hard unrelenting as he lets her punch him thrice and then stops her, because she was not holding back, and then takes her hand pulls it down, squeezing it as he tries to relax her.

"You didn't fail them. No one would hate you for the decision you made." He is staring, with stern faith as he says those words, and she almost flatters but stands again.

"No no, I did! What if the father dies after all, what is Grima rises again and then they all will-everyone will die again and this time no one will be left to save them. I was supposed to -" He tightens his hold on her hand as he cuts her off, no longer able to be patient as she keeps repeating the punishment on herself. He glares at her as he pulls her hand up and uses it to cover her mouth,

"They won't. We are here, we won't let them die again. That's what we came for in the past, to protect them and I know for sure we will do it. If it is us, we will do it." He whispers, lowly, as he tries hard to not get angry at her, she stares wide eyes, in shock and worry as he continues, "Lucina stop shouldering everything by yourself. You are not alone, you never were, and you never will be. I won't let it happen, we won't let it happen so for once trust us. No matter how scary, hard and crazy it will become, trust in your shepherds, trust in our parents." He says, almost pleading and her eyes burn slightly as she feels the guilt burn in her.

She was not trying to make them feel like that, she always did everything alone because she believed she was the crown princess, so it was her duty to do it. And yet, here was Inigo, his voice pleading, his eyes soft as they ask her something, she now realizes he has been asking for years, and here he is promising her something no one ever has, she never thought anyone would. She slowly reaches up with her other hand and removes their intertwined hands, and he lets her as he waits, hoping it will finally go through her thick skull. She closes her eyes and then opens, looking up to his light brown ones and tries to smile,

"I always thought as the crown princess it was my duty to shoulder it all alone but I guess I have been too stubborn, I….I still don't know if I can let it go but I," she flatters a bit but looking at him she knows it will be fine, "This time I wish to believe thigs will be different, that we will make things different."

He smiles, happy as he squeezes her hand and beams, "It will be different I know for sure."

She smiles a bit wider and hopes she will have the same faith as him. The silence falls on them as they both let their thoughts catch up and then she notices their hands a bit more consciously and flushes a bit as she takes a step back and wonders how she should get him to leave. He notices her blush and grins a bit as he let her hand go, albeit a bit slow to see her blush brighten and then takes a step back too as he looks at her and she knows he is waiting to see her take her first step again. And this time, she decided she won't take it without him.

She smiles at him and then turns, and glances back, and he gets it as his eyes widen and then lit up as he falls beside her and they both walk back to the camp.

She is standing in the temple, where her father had once died, where her father could die again. She clutches Falchion tightly and asks her own father to give her strength, for them to overcome this day. A few feet away both her father and Robin stands, talking as his father frowns but then nods, with a displeased and yet resolute face. She doesn't need to eavesdrop to know what Robin has asked of her father. Inigo is few feet away, is paired up with Severa as he practices his swings a bit and then says something to her as she blushes and then bites back something, it doesn't tether him though, he is used to Severa's prickliness. She looks beside her to mother, who smiles at her and then asks her if she is ready. She nods and she pats her head as she gives a confident smile and then takes her position.

The fight starts with them separated and by the time she cuts through the grimleal and comes in the front, her father has already fallen and she can hear the scream ringing in her as she falls to her legs, as he father lays in front of her. She feels herself breaking, her strength and hope breaking and just as she was to lose all of them away, Basilio comes in with loud booming voice and flying axes as he grins and wakes her up. The plan is revealed fast, way faster than she can catch up and before she knows her father and Robin are pushing past her as they rush for Validar once again and her legs follow them automatically. Before she realizes she is standing in front of the vile man and with no hesitation she pushes forward and stabs him in the heart, twists it, and pull it out roughly as she lets him fall and choke on his own blood as he losses his life. She feels a relief flood in her as she finally took the revenge she has wished for since the day she had lost her father. Everyone starts cheering as they think the end is here, she turns to a smile blooming but then her blood runs cold as bloody red eyes stare back at her and she remembers, because she has never forgotten, he was here.

Everything that happens after that makes them all numb their mind, but survival and adrenaline pump in them as they all escape and see the dragon resurrect and she feels her heart growing heavy as she stares at its massive, familiar figure,

And whispers, "Is my future never going to change?" No one answers her, instead, her father takes her hand and pulls her as they run, away from the dragon, away from their despair and away from their fate. They all run and before they realize they all have decided and headed to mount prims. She never puts down falchion and she sees none of the kids letting go of their weapons as their smiles get strained, and their eyes darken.

Robin was able to save the fire emblem, even under that destruction and now they have another chance as her father goes to call on Naga and they all stay back. She silently prays with her family that her father passes the trail, though she knows in her heart, if anyone will pass it, it will be him. He does but with new power comes another hard truth and she knows Robin's decision even before her father says anything, and when he lies, she doesn't hate him for it, because she understands, if someone does it is her. That night she finds Inigo dancing in the clearing near the camp and she just stares knowing, he needs this, right now and then a noise comes and she turns to see Morgan with her eyes bloodshot red as she walks up to her brother, hugging him, and asking him something no one can give her. He does hug her and promises her he will stay beside her, always. And then he looks at her, broken and yet strong and she knows he won't cry, yet. And when he does, she silently promises him, she will be there for him and with that, she walks away.

Olivia glares at him, for the very first time, as he walks in their tent and he knows, she doesn't believe him, and he smiles bitterly. She gets up, her eyes slightly tearing as she walks up to him but doesn't say anything, a minute passes as they stare in each other, and then she lets her tears fall and he feels his heartbreak.

"Do you have to?" She only asks and he knows she is not letting herself say anything because she is kind and loving like that and he only hates himself to make her go through all this. She should not have married a man like him.

"I am sorry." Is all he can say and she falls on him as she clutches to him, desperately, almost pleading but she doesn't say anything as she only hugs him tighter as if she is trying to burn everything in her memory. But he can't bring himself to hug her back. She, but looks up and then kisses him, fervently, desperately as she wraps her hands around his neck and he can't stop himself as he kisses her back too, with same fever and with same desperation as he wraps his hands around her figure and when she guides him to their cot, he doesn't stop her or himself, because really he still loves her.

Robin pushes Chrom away, he falls and stares at him in betrayal as he smiles sadly and then runs to his other self. He is down, groaning and glaring as he stares at him in confusion.

"For once I am glad you and I are the same." He says almost biting and sarcastic as he chants his spell, the familiar flame of Ignis lighting up in him, and he chuckles silently, it took him so long to realize where Ignis' flames came from.

"Now I can give my life to protect my loved ones," he says, glad and regretful and recognition lights in the red eyes and he glares as he tries to stand up but the cuts from falchion don't heal and burn.

"You won't dare!" he shouts but he scoffs, where does he even get that idea, what a fool, even though he is supposed to be a god.

"I would and I will. The evils you would visit on this world are unthinkable... In some way, I—we share the blame. It's only right we meet our end together!" He screams as he runs, thoron sparking in his hand and he laughs sarcastically as the dragon finally feels fear.

"No!" He screams but he will never stop, even when he heard Chrom scream, he strikes him in his heart and he grunts as he falls back and then, his chest burns too, and he feels his step falter. Grima curses and screams and he can hear everyone screaming and running toward them. And then his children shout, crying, and he feels his heartbreak but then he notices Grima's face softening, as he looks behind him,

"I am sorry Inigo, Morgan." He whispers, almost regretfully, almost lovingly and then turns to dust as he vanishes. He falls now, slowly his body is going to cold, but he wills himself to tun and they tackle him as all of his family hug him tightly, not wanting to let go as they cry and beg him to stay and he smiles, his heart bursting in happiness and pain as he smiles. He knows it's wrong to think this, but he thinks he is a very lucky man to have such a loving family, who loves a man like him so much even till the bitter end. He looks down at them and tries to hug them, but his hands are fading,

"Thank you, Olivia, for everything, for giving me such a loving family and I am sorry I was so selfish, please just promise me you will find happiness." His wife shakes her head and he smiles bitterly, she was so stubborn.

"Inigo, I love you and will always look after you. Become the best dancer ever and look after your mom and Morgan ok?" His son nods fervently as he cries and he smiles sadly, he finally saw his son cry so openly.

"Morgan, look at me," she does, "I love you and will always love you and I know for sure you will become a taction, greater than me and a dancer beautiful like your mother. Be happy, love." He says, and she breaks down as she cries harder, he can't wipe her tears away anymore.

He turns to his best friend, his saviour as he looks at him with desperation and pain and he smiles back apologetic, he coughs and then whispers, "Thank you, Chrom. For...everything... Tell the others...my last thoughts were of them."

He is tuning dust and he knows it's goodbye, but he doesn't want to say goodbye, he wants them to hope but accept the inevitable too,

"May we meet again, in a better life." He says, smiles and turns to dust.

Lucina feels her own tears falling as she closes her eyes and stares at the sun coming up. The rise of Dawn was painted with red of sacrifice.

(But with pain, happiness comes too.)

"Hey Chrom, do you think it will okay?" A maiden asks worriedly.

"It might not be," A king says playfully.

"No," the maiden pouts.

A man wakes up. They notice.

"You woke up?" The king asks, kindly and happy,

"You ok?" The maiden asks, chuckling and eyes softening.

"If you take naps at such a place you will catch a cold." The king chides grinning, and then puts his hand out, "Can you stand?"

The man takes his hand, his own pale and plain. And he stands up and smiles and they both tear up.

"Welcome back, it is over now." The king says and the man feels his heart loosen and finally lets last of his fears go.

Robin, High Deliverer & Olivia, Shrinking Violet.

Many wrote of Robin's legendary exploits, but accounts of his origins and character varied. Scholars, poets, and bards agreed on one thing alone — he loved his wife, and his family, above all else.

A/N - Godz this was another one shot, unplanned but came out so good I can't believe myself. I wrote this while I was procrastinating on my assignments. I always thought the whole last judgement scene was lacklustre when Robin was not Lucina's mother or husband. It didn't sit right with me. I mean if Robin doesn't marry Chrom or Lucina, he/she marries someone else and they have children/ or a child and a family, in the scene they don't at all address this issue I mean I know it is for the case if by any chance they are still single but still it just feels too bland that way. So, I wrote this. I choose male Robin because other than Morgan he can be the father or the other kids and I headcanon they are aware that Lucina is going to kill the person who kills Chrom and that person is most likely Robin. Morgan I don't believe knows this because they lost their memories so that is why I chose male Robin rather than female. I believe though this scene can be applied to both of them.

And you might have noticed I changed the lines quite a bit and added some in. The whole last message was my addition but certain bits like 'why are u smiling kindly at...' was taken from the jap version of this scene. I read the translations for this scene, for mother/daughter version on youtube. And let me tell you it is 10x better than eng version it doesn't make Lucina's whole decision sound some over the protective daughter who is choosing her father over her mother. I love this scene in eng also but I love it more in Japanese. Though not the same version I am sure the more generic bits will remain same so I am sure you can apply it to this version too. Well, that's all for me.

I also have a ko-fi account by the same username and I would be really thankful if you want to support me.

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Xoxoxo, Luna.

#My writing #fire emblem awakening #chrom #m!robin #Lucina #inigo #f!morgan #olivia #m!robin x olivia #lucina x inigo #angst with a happy ending

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megatraven · 5 years

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netflix binge watch with

oh hell yea i lvoe binging netflix and love it even more when i do it w/ friends! sadly i cant rabbit netflix stuff anymore bc it always gives my dad an email abt logging in from like california >(

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crybabybyee · 2 years

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so, yesterday i wanted to play my game again. i checked his steam (which i dont do anymore because, who gives a fuck about his activity now?) because i wanted to make sure i was safe to log on without him stalking me in game, so i have the chance to delete him and remove myself from linkshells

sadly i cant rememebr my details and now i have to wait forever for them to email me back and reset it. i kept trying anyway, and kept checking on his steam to see if he was playing. but he wasnt even online and i thought thats weird.. usually he would be online on steam at least, so he’s either gone out with his parents or.. maybe met his ex? yes, my paranoid brain WILL jump to the biggest conclusions, thanks to him. i checked his steam before i turned my pc off at 7pm, and he still wasn’t online.. so what im thinkin is, hes on a date with his ex, or whomever, hes been gone for ages. maybe staying in a hotel with her? it made me angry but i also decided i didnt really care.

because lets be real ~ whoever hes with, he’s going to be thinking of ME the whole time. the one hes been begging to talk to, and isnt going to just get over. ive been there, you cant just date someone after a bad breakup when you still love that person, you just wish it was them.

I did start feeling angry though like.. what if hes NOT really thinking about me, because hes having such a ~great time~ with her.. idk how his brain works, hes a cheater afterall, self serving.

but part of me thought; if hes with his ex/? hes probly going to text you later tonight because he cant stop thinking about you. unless hes in a hotel, maybe

so what happens at about 1:30am? my phone buzzes; “please can we talk” FUCKING CALLED IT

i hope he was with someone so it proves he cant just choose someone over me lol

it says right now hes online on steam as well, so maybe didnt stay in a hotel cuz its kinda early still. but its really sus how he wasnt online yesterday afternoon/evening unless he was trying to play mind games with me. and the one time i check his shit, it worked, good job. i dont care tho. i just care that youll never get over me cuz you dont deserve to move on and be happy in life, like ever.

oh and.. i tried to find his character name on the lodestone, to see if hes moved servers where most of his friends/girls he cheated on me with are, see if im still safe in my server, and.. he’s fucking changed his character name

now i have NO idea who he is in game, and he could be stalking me everywhere

oh well. as long as he never speaks to me, let him long from afar

i really hope he deleted me off his lists

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happily-lost-in-oc-writing · 6 years

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Broken constellations, Chapter 3- desperate mistakes

Jessica's POV

"Why." She says, looking at me, with something like desperation,

"Why..?" I glance at her, before realizing what she's asking. .

"Why do you all torment me? What did I do to you to piss you off so bad? This place is hell enough without you- and your- bullshit...." She trails off, looking away.

My hands tighten on the steering wheel and I take a breath in as I park, and I want to tell her that I have a good reason. I want to tell her I'm sorry and I would've never gone along if I knew her but I don't know her and I don't know what to tell her.

"I see." She says, Angry and hurt. I move my hands to say something but nothing comes, and she storms off. I turn off my car and slam my head into the dash, fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. DAMMIT!

I get out of the car and go after her, hoping I can compose the words to explain I am a horrible human being who deserves to burn in Hell?!?

I rush in and Amber smiles, pulling me to our group. Rex frowns at me, and Erika smiles falsely.

"You ran off last night-"

"Why don't you shove Erika in it. You didn't mind doing that when I was upset last night." I snap, and Amber frowns.

"Happy V-Day!!!!" Amber smiles, tossing little Valentine's out. I see Quincey Addams passing- she's a cute girl. Nice. She's got bright blue short hair in a curly pixie cut, a pink beanie and a pink hoodie with a jean jacket and skinny jeans with boots. She's carrying a basket of baked goods and smiles at me, I take the chance to ignore Erika and Rex and smile back.

"Happy valentines, Quinn!"

She blinks and smiles really wide,

"You too Jessica!!! And uh," she leans in and whispers, "congrats on Cassie-" she giggles and runs off- I feel myself turn pink before looking at Amber.

"Happy V-day Am." I smile at Amber and notice Cassiopeia arguing with teddy at the vending machine. I pull back until she goes inside and walk in with the group, ignoring Erika and Rex, Amber stands between us to ease the tension. All I can focus on is the situation, and how Cassiopeia was the only person who asked about it. And she had some solid advice. And how I've been nothing but absolutely horrid to her just because I could. I sit down and give her a smile, at some point in that blur of a morning.

Amber and I go to math, and I see Cassiopeia curl over in her seat, conflicted. I want to walk over and tell her it's okay and I'm sorry and that I want to know her, but I find myself lacking the confidence and the words. She hands Amber three sheets of pictures, and I take two, writing down a note.

I need to talk to her.

I might go crazy if I don't.

•T•i•m•e•s•k•i•p•

After school I hurry to my car, Amber following me. Erika starts Getting in and I turn around and glare.

"Don't." I bark, feeling my breath get quicker and angry.

She rolls her eyes and puts her hands up like she's surrendering and strolling away. Amber gets in, biting her lip.

"I'm sorry- you found out like that."

What.

"Excuse me?!? You- you knew?!?!?" I whip around to Amber and feel my heart break a little more.

"I- I've known since last summer... I was gonna tell you- but- you both seemed so happy and I didn't wanna mess anything up." She smiles sadly, and I drive silently.

"Are you- Okay.... Jessie...?" She looks at me, and I keep looking ahead, no Cassie. Dammit. I drive to her house in silence. Teddy lives over here, so does Erika. I pull up to her driveway, and she hugs me.

"I know you're not okay. I should've told you. I just didn't want to lose you guys. You're all I have anymore. You've seen my home. It's a war zone. I don't want you guys to be one too. I love you too much." She leaves that to linger in the air as she leaves the car, and I sit there, feeling my lip tremble and my eyes sting and I sob, my throat burns as I fail to compose myself. Why does it hurt so much?? I knew he didn't care about me but I also thought he loved me. Or maybe I wanted to think that... I wanted him to be true. I wanted to have it with him. I wanted him. And now I've just got this- this empty pit in my gut that's burning and hurting and I want it to stop and I want the pain to go away, I want it all to stop. I haphazardly drive home, calming my shaking hands just enough to get back, and check the note on the fridge.

I cant breathe, every breath burns going down and rips it's way through my lungs and my stomach is on a tower of terror- it goes up and down and drops over and over again and I can't help but think of how much everything hurts right now. Everything is causing so much pain and I can't even see the damn wound. It makes me feel sick to my stomach. It makes me want to forget the day for at least a minute.

"Went out for the week, Doodlebug. Love you. Be back Friday."

I tear open the liquor cabinet and down the vodka, some tequila, and enough brandy to forget the next twenty four hours. I stuff my face with cold pizza and I sit on the kitchen floor, sick of emotions

"Cassieeeee" I remember I need to talk to Cassie. Yes. I need to do that. I want to talk to her right now. She makes the blurry shit clear. Yes. Rex is a dick and Cassie is warm.

With Rex being a dick, and Erika being a backstabbing bitch, and Amber being an emotional mess, Cassie is clean. Cassie is neat and comforting.

I get up and check the time: woah. It's 12:39 am. I stumble over and knock on the door . I keep knocking until she opens the door tiredly, in shorts and a hoodie that falls over her thighs.

"Jessica... what the fu-"

"Cassie we need to talk!" I hug her and pet her hair, hoping she'll listen. It's soft like it looks and fluffy, and she's warm. She's super warm. I wonder what her hugs feel like. "We need to talk like. I said in the note you read I saw you read it and. I wanna talk to you."

"Dear god you smell like a bar." She takes me up some stairs to her room: it's baby blue and there are fairy lights, a pastel day bed with a princess canopy around it, a white dresser and stuffed animals.

That's when it all got fuzzy.

And I woke up to Cassie's back, her in a bra, and curled up under the covers.

Fuck.

Cassie's POV- 12:39 am last night.

I had just finished watching a movie to get the day off my mind, a long walk home and getting chewed out, all I wanted to do was relax and recharge.

But my life has gone to hell, so you know that didn't happen.

There's banging downstairs on the back door, and i go to tell whoever it is to fuck off, when I see a very intoxicated, very exhausting Jessica "Jessie" Smith.

Joy.

I open the door, very much done with this grade-A, amateur fan fiction type bullshit.

"Jessica.. what the fu-"

She cut me off with incoherent slurs, saying my name and then trailing off. She stumbles into me and starts running her hands in my hair, mumbling "note-talk-we-yes"

"Dear god. You smell like a bar, you need to go home."

"Nn-Nnh!" She Shakes her head no- she probably won't remember half of this when she wakes up. She keeps insisting herself closer to me and I give in, bringing her inside and locking the door again (for safety), I push her up the stairs and to my room. I go to pull the mattress out of the closet when she just flops herself on my bed, I sigh. I'm so done with this, I swear to god. She's the last person I want in my house, nevertheless my life. I sit down on the side of the bed and put my head in my hands, a headache forming. This- whatever this was, was something I would have to clean up in the morning. I groan and try to lay down, its better than having her drunkly crying or whining or something. I turn on the fan and lay down, taking my hoodie off. I think about the last two days, and part of me is happy I'm not alone.

But most of me wants to kill myself.

Jessica's POV- 5 am.

Cassie starts sitting up, sliding her hoodie on, and she shakes me. I sit there in shock, with a major headache. I can't remember last night. Cassie nudges me again, a little less gently.

"Get up. My dads gonna come here to wake me up soon. You need to be gone."

Shit. That's right, we have school. I sit up and get up, stumbling. She hands me my shoes and ushers me out.

I turn pink, and the thought crosses my mind and I have to know-

"Did we- you know...." I look at her,

"What-?!? No! Jesus, Jessica. Of course not. You came here drunk and crying and refused to leave." She whispers, rolling her eyes and pushing me out the back door.

"Ill.... see you at school...?" I ask, smiling awkwardly.

"Maybe." She says, shutting the door. I stand there for a second before making my way back to my place, shutting the door. I slide down it, and text Amber.

Jessie 🖤: hey Bichhhhhh. Feeling sick. Won't be in today. I love you, Amb. XOXO.

Amber 🤪: Okay, stay safe. I really hope we can work this out, Jessie. I don't want you guys at each other's throats.

I log onto my dads computer and shoot the school and email, before going back to bed.

Cassie's POV: 6 am.

My dad opens the door, and I groan, curling up. He looks at me, and I frown.

"Dad, I feel sick. Can I stay home today?"

He frowns, and walks over to feel my head. He looks at me for a long time, before nodding yes.

"Cass, I love you. I don't know what's going on in your life- but you know you can talk to me. I'm your dad. I love you kiddo." He Walks out, and I lay back down, curling up and falling asleep. I wake up to a series of texts from teddy.

Teddy: where r you

We need to talk.

R you avoiding me?

Cassie this isn't funny.

We need to talk, Cass.

Are you at home?

I'm gonna drop by.

Answer me, Cassiopeia.

We need to talk about yesterday.

Why r you not answering me?!

Hey.

Ugh. I'm not entertaining him. After what he did yesterday the thought of seeing him makes me sick. Maybe he thought I was making an excuse or trying to get out- which I was, but I'm bisexual with a preference for women, and he needs to respect that.

No means no no matter what.

I go downstairs and see no one else is home, my mom probably went to the store and everyone else is at school, so. I have some much needed alone time.

I scrounge for the cold pizza and blueberry Soda, turn the TV on to the channel playing friends, and sit down with my junk food. After a few episodes, I clean up my plate and I hear a knock at the door. It's probably teddy, and I decide I better answer it than ignore him.

I walk and open it up, seeing the tall blonde with an uncharacteristic solemn look.

"Theodore." I say, closing the door and crossing my arms.

"Cassie. Don't do that. You know I care about you-" I roll my eyes as he talks. "What?"

"You care so much." I look up at him, a bit upset. "That's why you basically told me it was a phase. Really good friend, someone comes out to you and you insist that you can cure their gayness."

"That's not what I meant and you know it. You've been leading me on, if anything!"

" leading you on? I'm sorry. I'm sorry you're forcing your emotions on me and you're upset that they're not mutual. I don't want to see you right now Teddy." I turn around and he grabs my wrist. I ball my fist.

"Let go of me right now."

He moves his hands to my waist and pulls me to him, rough. Moving down my hips to-

"No!! Not until you see that-"

I turn around and punch him in the face, ripping my body away from him , I walk inside and lock the doors, I wait until his footsteps retreat and slump down it, feeling... wrong.

I curl up in a ball and cry.

I want my life back.

#wlw #jessie and cassie #lgbt story #broken constellations

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edmartinsta · 4 years

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Nice To Think I’m Still On Here

Woah has life changed since this. Tumblr is my first place I ever published anything and posted anything before Facebook and Twitter were even a thing for me. I cant tell you how excited I am to know that from here on out I can log in and continue something special to my heart. My posts are a little here and there so I hope I dont scare you away or weird you out or make it boring. From this moment I’ll try to continue my content through here where I know only one person will actually know to find me and no one else haha. To those that may not know me so well I used to be a music blog where I would talk about so much stuff until I realized I wanted to make a website. This was more of a private thing and actually more public than it is now with Tumblr’s popularity back in 2010ish when everyone I thought was cool owned a Tumblr. I guess I can’t blame them I left for a long time this and fell off hard even though I probably could have done something pretty cool with it by now or used it to help me on my other things.

Little update: I left high school in 2013 so not much after the music posts I remember stopping this and maybe continuing it here and there, After there I went to community college where I ended up making lost of memories which im sure I’ll have plenty of time reminiscing with you guys, I then moved to Chicago to follow my dreams as a designer and stayed out there for about four years. Was amazing and could have been better if I planned better and actually could get a job out there that was laidback as I was a pretty tardy asshole to my employers. I wasnt late by hours but I was late often and if that didnt get me fired I would simply quit and never show my face there again. It was a mess, I was a mess, everything was fucked up but everything was also new and fascinating. I dont regret any of it. Now its been years since college and sadly I never finished with a semester remaining. That was a terrible day for my mother I could see she wanted to yell and cry because I told her I got expelled basically from art school for flunking. Man that was a terrible situation I tried to tell people I really tried my best was just a reckless kid who could never get any sleep and was always thinking of what to do and not doing the stuff. Ugh I get upset just thinking about it. So much time wasted. But I suppose I at least realize it now....also that I still dont regret it, it shapes us these failures. im 25 now and soon to be 26 and honestly I’m scared shitless. I feel like i never saved anything, never built credit, havent gone on a date in years, havent gone to eat with friends more than five times in six years, have broken almost everything I own in some sort of way. i dont eat correctly all the time, i dont exercise to keep the figure i used to have less than two years ago. I started college senior year of high school and somehow still screwed up the process and fell behind over and over again and even got screwed by the education system and now have tons of debt which im barely getting out of because of my amazing mom who is also the most toxic person in my life. Man........i know I look bad i know i suck.....im not perfect in any way.....I lost my way..........I know my way back and what I gotta do but........that time ill never get back. Ive never had a stable job in my life for god sake. Ugh I hope I dont come off as a failure I feel it completely but I dont want to be one. I have done so much in my life and met amazing people that honestly makes it all worth something but damn my heart........I don’t want to blame anyone but myself. My parents werent the best educated and still scares me to think I was so alone when I was younger that even my parents only talked to me to put me down and still kinda do but now we can carry a conversation and bond a smidge...im 25......

This quickly turned into something more than just a update I got caught up. But I want to take this extra step in my life to document on here most of my thoughts and things as I used to back before high school culture was no more for me. To Christina.....if you read this at all...just know the only thing over the past couple years on my mind has been you if not my purpose in this life..my life....has been nothing short of terrible since we last talked and yeah I had a ton of good luck too and am blessed to say the least but the man I said I wanted to become just hasnt happened yet. I let myself go for a bit...but now I want to show the world and you...that the past couple years didnt just happen for nothing....there is so much, so fucking much I got planned and been planning for that I just hope you see why it took so long. My time will come..and maybe one day we can talk and laugh about all this because you were one of the most memorable people ever to cross paths with and even though we barely text each other anymore I hope one day we can be good friends again. Im sure we all been so busy surviving.

To those who got this far I really didnt expect anyone to finish this. It was a huge ramble. But I hope you can see I came a bit moody into the post but also with hope and excitement that Tumblr will be my home again for getting away from social media. Its been almost two years since I posted on Facebook and I dont use instagram as much anymore so ill be on here :D message me if anyone wants to be friends or anyone who may relate heck anyone who thinks they wanna be friends haha penpals that maybe have art side to them too??? hahah okay thats all bye everyone <3

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jinyoungs-hipsdontlie · 6 years

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171218.

- hey guys im on mobile now so i cant really put this under the cut. But i will do so later when i log on to the laptop. idk but i feel like i need to let this one out before i sleep. because it's really eating me up inside and i hope to feel better after this.

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12 hours since i heard the news. So many emotions flooded through me within those hours.

The initial shock. Fingers going cold, heartbeat pounding. I remember going on tumblr and seeing all those posts about you filling my dash. The grammar before your name changed, 'is' became 'was' and before i realized, tears filled my eyes. Shock became heartbreak as i cried. I kept refreshing, trying to see if it was just a hoax.

But no.

You were really gone.

Then, numbness came. I didnt know what to feel. Or more like, i just couldnt. I couldnt even bring myself to press like on the memorial posts on my dash. It was just emotionless scrolling.

Then after seeing the confirmation post by SM, for a while, i felt acceptance. It hit me that ok, you chose the decision to end your suffering...in that way. Not the way i would like anyone to go, but since i respect you, i accept.

But now, when it's dark and lonely in the middle of the night. I find for my light, but it's missing. Where is it?

Oh wait, that's you. You're gone now. And heartbreak and sadness fills me again.

KIM JONGHYUN.

You were my first ever idol. Becoming a fan of SHINEE and most importantly a fan of you, is still one of my best decisions ever made.

You were talented in so many ways, composing and writing beautiful music which comforted us in our hardest times. Making us laugh and smile and cry happy tears with your adoration for your family, friends, members, fans and even poor ol' Roo.

Your hosting of Blue Night Radio Show for 2 years, filled with your insprirational quotes and advice. And then your recent Insta-live sessions on random topics a few months back. I was so happy hearing your voice and talking about things you enjoyed.

Everything was so precious to me. I still treasure eveything.

In August and November of this year, there came the opportunity to see you live on stage here in Singapore! You have no idea how happy i was! 8 years of supporting you from behind my laptop/smartphone screen and i could finally see you perform live infront of my eyes??? No hesitations on ticket sales no matter how expensive they were!

Those werent full on SHINEE concerts, only about 4 songs and also 4 members instead of five each time, but the happiness and joy i felt to just listen your voice live? An undescribable experience. I was beyond ecstatic, so blessed to have seen you and heard you in person. 170804 and 171124 will still be important dates in my heart.

And then i figured, since 2017 gave me the opportunity to see SHINEE live twice, will 2018 give me the chance to see you guys live in concert as OT5?

But sadly, today gave me an answer. I won't ever be able to see you or hear your voice in person again.

And that hurts.

So fucking bad.

To speak of the devastation i felt when i read that you took your own life is still very difficult for me. I'm still learning how to let go, it'll take time i guess.

But even still, I pray you're in a better place now. Where your hurt and suffering no longer exist.

You've been very open about your depression, your insomnia, your struggles and we shawols know, that you know how very much loved you are. And also how much you must have pondered before taking this decision.… it must have been so much harder on your end.

I'm sorry you had to go through so much.

Thank you for smiling through everything.

Thank you for giving me comfort with your beautiful music and voice.

Thank you for being an amazing person.

You've worked hard my dear. I'm very proud of you, not only for how much you've achieved, but for your strength to keep on smiling to us shawols.

Just like you prayed for us, I pray you're not hurting anymore. And that you'll watch and protect us all from above.

The earth has lost a beautiful soul today, but the heavens and the skies have gained their brightest angel and shining star.

And i hope you know, you'll always be my first love, my favourite and my best musician ever.

Rest In Peace, Kim Jonghyun.

-And to Onew, Key, Minho and Taemin, I pray for your health too and that you're able to rely and stay strong for each other in this difficult time. We all love you. SHINEE has been, are, and always will be FIVE. We won't let that go.

#jonghyun #171218 #i will always love you my puppysaurus #i will try my best to smile.... for you and for myself #goodbye my angel

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As the second week of 2020 is coming to an end, its become very apparent that Illinois has no idea what it's doing when it comes to marijuana legalization, most likely because Illinois dispensaries don't care much about green they care more about just the money. Is patients over profits truly done better in the CBD industry than that of total legalization or is it just Illinois, as usual, dropping the ball on its civilians? Let's find out five major blunders having us asking, what the **** are they doing with all the money we've been giving them in medical taxes for the past 10 years gone to?

If you're at all familiar with Natural Healthy CBD you'll be familiar with the many helpful things they do for their local, national, and even international communities. From secret shopper missions, dispensary tours, data audits, disability advocacy and education, we don't shy away from a challenge. It's often hard to walk the line during this time of legalization because half of people will always think you're a rat, the other half won't quite know what the catch, if there is a catch. We feel our moral compass to guide us to the sick and the people who need a fair fight but aren't given even playing fields but still stand up to with a scream and try.

No one is on your side, my side, anyone's side because there are no sides. There are sick people and not sick people. We try to understand every side and have learned a lot over the years. We've always been patients, but we're not victims. We're a business but we're not greedy. We're in medicine, kinda, but not diagnosing and we're not paid a kickback every time we prescribe this over that. We're disabled with jobs. We love animals but not like that. We have service dogs that are still learning during laws and medical change, hell, world change. So when people decide they can't play nicely with one another it makes it hard for us to know who's in the right and who has more than enough playing field. That's why it's hard to step between business and patient when the government just give us these toys, and you broke them. You broke them Illinois. This is why we cant' have nice things, er laws, in illinois.

1. No One's checking These People

Illinois, specifically Chicago, is the criminal capital, illegal gun capital, drug capital, crime capital of the world.

I'm sure from out of state it sounds like the law is easy here to get away from, that's not it either. We have, or had in marijuana for as long as I'm willing to tell you I've been in the industry, self regulated crime. I know that's not a good start but just listen for a moment and understand the we're nearing the end of prohibition. The end. Have you met someone that hasn't tried marijuana? Not very many. Self regulation. We all did our own little thing in our own little areas and we share what we can and mellow out, man.

That's why I can tell you other than collecting the money and stamping the licenses there's no one checking these places. They heard we're pretty gangster over there in California and Colorado, so who's going to tell on the weed man? We will. Most of us with medical licenses were treated like druggies with a fix and still are in many instances. Just to give all that away would be against the point, no?

The first day marijuana was legalized, there were lines around the block, venders with felonies, and the weed magically grew, was cut, dried, packaged, and delivered overnight because there was a lot of it. A lot of it is now gone again, even with those legal limits.Unless you're a patient, then what weed? Ha ha, there was never any weed!

2. Laws for thee! I have money!

These dispensaries aren't used to patients fighting back, not in Illinois it seems. That or they must think all of us are fat, lazy, stupid people that can't work because even though I hold a position of CEO even the lowest level bud tenders have shown me disrespect, as a paying customer AND patient. They make sure that you know about the lines they have to cross to provide... for you. Aww!

Thing is, every time we've seen cresco or revolution buy a place the service AND product goes INSTANTLY downhill. Every time and I've witnessed them buy out 3 now. Maybe they should spend more money on their seeds or something. We know they can because they don't spend it on background checks. We'd say this was a law thing, but it's not. You still can't work in a dispensary having just walked out of prison but wouldn't you know it.

Now, all of you know that I come off a little harsh, especially when pushed into a corner by people who do it to intimidate me. Maybe it's because I work and industry from a city littered with criminals that have learned intimidation or maybe my relationship with my dad I don't know. What I do know is when online want to be celebs attempt to gaslight and stalk me, I gaslight and stalk back. Call it a defense mechanism, or maybe horrible trait but need when it comes to getting into the mind of real scumbags like the kind that buy no-tested product to sell as product from another place or those selling stuff illegally made because they didn't know there was more than one kind of oil or when they join a dispensary to set it up for a robbery, or when people start dying from bad vape carts and mold maybe the powers that control that kinda thing will take care of it.

Now, I'm not a journalist and I don't share identities, I just think they should invest in background checks in 2020 if they don't want to invest in lawsuits. Looking at you Mindful. Earthmed... you're next.

3. Lawsuits

Lawsuits! There's already three of them! Ones even a class action!

Now, I've been in the industry a while and while I really, honestly tried to knock some sense into these people having worked with their parent companies for years now, or the industry, or patient advocacy and medical, or service dog law or literally any of the many hats I fill my time with (...thanks to CBD) or I've warned dispensaries I have to go to of what I do, they'll still do whatever they want because you don't have money. You're sick and you're a cripple, okay? You don't have real people money. At least it might as well sound that way with the way they've stacked up on the lawsuits. In fact, people started reporting to me thinking I knew to go about obtaining one.

Now, it wouldn't be fair transparency if we didn't mention one of them to be ours. Sadly, that's all I really can say because a lot of people have been coming forward and I think I'm going to stay quiet for a little bit. However, our friend Service Dog Paws doesn't have to stay quiet about the screencaps that were posted by Service Dog Headquarters posted from Mindful Dispensary to our Service Dog Training Log for Gotham and that is just the start of the bullshit I've gone through since people found out I was successful in CBD distribution and in fact, we've been informed they've been threatening our friends, but again... I'd like to stay quiet for a moment while I collect more information.

Gee thanks, Dom!

Say, did I also mention how I work in media and know about the websites being used by these kinds of people? I didn't?! We'll you see, the owner of these sites has been having people harass me for months but because we're unsure if he still works for or owns one of the dispensaries under investigation we'll say that pretending to be people isn't nice and threatening that people better never come to Chicago, when they aren't afraid of you and live here, also not a good idea.

4. Harboring Medicine from Patients

I know the look of a dispensary about to sell out. Everything goes away and becomes one brand for a little bit. That's how it happened with 3C and now Aurora with Mindful, IL in Addison and even our current site of investigation, EarthMED. We knew about the limit they've placed on their customers claiming it to be the cultivators who I've spoken to, all of them, there's no shortage. In fact, the only place with that two concentrate cap... is EarthMED.

That's why I find it so weird that they have products from October since our shortage started in Novemeber. Could it be to sell to recreational people at a higher price or maybe its because they're selling it illegally? I'll get back to you. I'm literally STILL taking in complaints.

Check out the public post about it. This is me, because I don't want you to threaten and intimidate sick people anymore courtesy of your family owned dispensary.

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"We're out of weed for medical patients," they said. "Only two medical products, *they said. "We're almost out, totally low on product," they said. How are #recreational #customers that pay 33% more getting this Today if you've been out of stock or low in stock for #illinoismedicalcannabis #patients since December? @earthmed (this is not my picture but I don't want to tag who's it is because I don't want to dox them or get them penalized for reporting to @vigilantecannabis)

A post shared by Kimber Kush CBD (@thekimberkush) on Jan 7, 2020 at 9:32pm PST

It's not the cultivators, but we feel like it's odd how long the owners of EarthMED have been harboring medicine, most likely to sell to recreational patients, who spend on average $33 more than medical patients.

We'll be sure to keep you up to date on legal dispensaries, behaving well for the right reasons and doing the right thing with real labs and honest people and you concentrate on getting better. We can't fix all these problems ourselves. For now if you've been intimidated by remember how their intimidation of people not only is just words, and it's done happening.

5. Shane Gentry and Vincent Nicotra

Vincent Nicotra is a problem.

Grab your tinfoil hats for a moment with me because this one's a doozy. Over the past six months I've been on an audit to a case I detailed for the FTC regarding Google's wrongful ban of legal hemp ads. Much like the Hemp Industry Association did with their Timesquares ad to catch the attention of Facebook admins, it's much hard to grab their attention if their email and social media is guarded by their new hire, untrained pet dog owner, Vincent Nicotra.

It's bad enough he threatened and harassed me, but he used my own family. He got into my friends list, made fake

profiles, fake companies, fake profiles, all to set others up with friend, Angel "Janis." It wouldn't be a problem if I wasn't forced to listen to twitch, discord voice chats, youtube videos and livestreams. Furthermore, because he'd studied me and my friends list, I was forced to listen to them mock me with personalized insults about my weight, my seizures, being raped, having my children taken, past abuse, a trusted flagger admit to gaslighting and stalking, a dispensary worker admitting to finding and running someone's debit card without their permission, doxxing paypal users, harassing porn stars and how they were going to frame people for it.

I've seen people other than me suffer far worse. I've overheard it as a hunt for mental illness which, check. Others claim a legion, a group of people set to out people for making false allegations... unless the allegation of the allegation is false. I actually went to someone in this legion, someone I once held a lot of respect for. I sent him pictures of being threatened of being doxed and projecting... a lot. See Vincent likes to use the same couple insults like Lazy and if you show people he'll claim libel or slander. While Shane Gentry aka Spaceboy was playing character Norm, someone who suffers from a seizure disorder, Vincent was also playing in my information. Vincent got a job at a dispensary, my dispensary, Mindful dispensary where he continued to dig through my personal friends and attempt to sell them PLANTBASED or oneplant cbd, CBD products that never passed inspection and we do not sell due to failed labs in some weird MLM type of deal that I'm getting accused of but should ask Shane about.

So, Vincent was feeding all my information back to a bunch of strangers on the internet to use against me for god knows what but I wasn't alone. If you've applied for a business license in hemp or cannabis, or you've ever purchased it, he's got you too.

This man attempted to ruin careers like Petty Paige and Nick Schneider, in fact pitting us all against each other. He mass flags, scams, and lies then accuses others for it. I've been told that they'll use CBD Piggy to get in, whatever that means and not only told I've cost someone money and will never work in the industry again by Tommy C, but they threatened others as well in an effort to control the creative space. They're even threatening me using the name of my own father because they're to pathetic to use their own, but that is something for another time. I'm not sure what that has to do with medical or moral benefit. I've witnessed people become suicidal, relapse, I've lost friends, was mocked for my federal service dog rights, I was banned from my dispensary for having a service animal, threatened by to shut the fuck up, kept up countless nights, had my ex abuser contacted and then stalked by a legion I didn't know existed of people I respected. When I went to protect them and tell them what was happening, I was asked for proof of where some other dude asked to touch me 2 years ago because they don't associate with false allegations, of which there are none, because people who don't expect to accuse people of thing don't have every time they've rejected sex on video. This is worth two years of stalking from someone you sponsored. This sort of feels like you're going after sexual assault victims or women who speak up to force them to change their story. Classy.

That said, it concerns me that this lunatic has total access to the biotrak system with everyone's private information of which they're using to find, neigh set up pedophiles, for Chris Hansen.

I know, that's the crazy part. This man who mocked everything from my seizures to getting "throat fucked" is in charge of children that are victim of sexual predators. This man, has all your personal information and has been threatening and doxing celebrities and youtubers for god knows how long, the guy mocking and harassing sexual assault is in charge of the child victims on Hansen vs Predator.

Don't take my word for it, I'm just going to let trusted creators of the Youtube space and the city of Chicago explain it to you.

Not to mention he dug through my friends, their friends, your friends, we're friends at this point. We all said and did some stupid stuff in the name of protecting ourselves and for that, I take responsibility and am truly sorry for my part. I'm very protective of my business and the partnerships, I've made and this guy has come between that, I have half a mind to wonder if there's anything else illegal being done at Mindful since Vincent works there and they hire felons. I'll keep you updated on that, and the current investigation and dispensary secret shop mission, now that I know Vincent won't manipulate it. I leave you with this video by Baked Salmon once again about this criminal working for Mindful and Chris Hansen because it was his channel that first was wrongfully flagged and taken down during the audit. I'm sorry it took me so long to see what was going on.

Please support each other and if you stream, don't be an asshole. Maybe you're not getting sponsors because you think it's funny to talk about their rape and throatfucking them and how abusive that must be for them mentally because you don't know who really is listening on that audit.

If I can say one last thing out of court, I hope Nick and Paige wipe the fucking floor with you, because I'm going to.

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