#i dont understand it

[theyhitthepentagon]

when will people realize that i dont care if they dont care about the thing im talking about. i bring up this thing to talk about it and some cunt says "i dont care about this thing tbh" OK!!! YOU ARE CONTRIBUTING NOTHING TO THE CONVERSATION I AM TRYING TO CONTRIBUTE TO!!! now all you have done is make me feel annoying for talking about something that even just mildly interests me. try being happy for someone else for a change my god

#my truth #some of you people dont think about how your words may affect people #i dont understand it

[smiggles]

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#i have never been a fandom person #it just never like #was something i thought about doing? joining “fandoms” #i dont even really know what exactly it means tbfh #i consume things by myself and thats about it #but hearing how people constantly have negative opinions about things they like BECAUSE of a fandom #why?? #whats the benefit #i dont understand it #all i hear is shit like #i liked this character before fandom ruined them!!! #or i liked this media before fandom harassed me!! #wtf is going on with that shit are you guys ok?? tf?

[elletromil]

I have a cookies recipe for basic chocolate cookies and everytime i make it, the smell from my oven smell exactly what biting into rhubarb taste like

Which is very weird considering its CHOCOLATE cookies and i haven't even touched rhubard in years

#first time i thought i might have spilled something in the oven #but ive made these thrice now #and i have cooked and baked a lot in between each #but without fail this one makes it smell like rhubard as they bake #once they come out tho they smell like chocolate #i dont understand it #me

[daisies-on-a-cup]

i really wish we could have seen what hannibal's trial looked like bc how tf did his defense defend him and how did he get the insanity plea deal

#everyone agrees hes not insane so i am wondering how the defense got that deal #and ik he got the swanky prison cell as part of the deal and said hed behave if he got it #but what else was he going to do if he was just chucked into isolation in a regular prison #or a mental hospital #like they could have taken the same precautions that alana did #i dont understand it #nbc hannibal #hannibal lecter

[castielsprostate]

goodnight friends. the world is cruel and filled with hate, but remember to keep your kindness shining bright. we need it now more than ever

#sobbing over the election results #i dont understand it #i dont want to understand it #i just want to cry

[jrueships]

' you ain't like that, slim ' = you ain't like that, twink

#why is it everytime russ is winning #the world must deliver him a loss so decimating #i dont understand it #Michael jordan has scared fate #he is too GIRLBOSS !! #now #no girlboss can ever girlboss too close to the sun #Ever #again #michael jordan is my joan of arc

[ashe-hallows]

every day i think about how while larry is the only confirmed straight character in ace attorney, they way it was presented also pretty much confirms him as NOT homophobic. go straight boy go

#side note why do people make larry homophobic sometimes #i dont understand it #larry butz #creamsicle cupcake #ashe's chatter

[openquotes]

everyone in the crowd who was silent or left during yesterday show is so fucking weak. if i had been there i wouldve been screaming and crying and throwing up. i wouldve been so fucking loud the band could hear me and me alone. i would have stayed until they had to remove me. i would cheered so much for every song and for all their outfits. i am so serious when i say that everyone who walked out should die a thousand deaths

#YOU GET TO GO SEE MCR. MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE #YOU GET TO SEE THEM LIVE. IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE. AND YOU LEAVE???? #I DONT UNDERSTAND IT #jet speaks #mcr

[scribbling-dragon]

jimmy stop saying youre not a builder challenge

#how does he keep saying it #while building stuff that looks GOOD #i dont understand it #he IS a builder #jimmy solidarity #empires smp

[felgueirosa]

i want to go on a month long research trip to asturias (and northern león!) where i can go to all the different archive offices (provincial, municipal, etc) and also maybe go to a few brañas and while i'm there commission a custom traxe vaqueira, particularly a dengue and saya

when i lived in spain i went up to asturias every weekend for my research paper (which got canned bc of covid) and went to some brañas but completely missed out on the archives bc it was the weekends and they were closed and sometimes it takes them a day to go in the deeper archive reserves to get a docuement you want which i didnt really have since i was there for a few days at a time

i would love to hit up some brañas that are really important for my current paper, though i couldnt do a ton, my body can't take the hiking as much anymore :(

but the archives were such an unexplored trove of knowledge about vaqueiros. there are completely unique documents with so much information in local archives. if you walk in theyll let you look at pretty much anything, but the online search sucks so bad its pretty much not functional. ive tried to email different archives so many times and they give me such shitty responses.

i realized last night i honestly dont have a ton of things stopping me from just going to asturias for a month. i live with my parents, i dont have to pay for housing or food, so ive saved all my money for years. ive worked my shit job for so long. its the only thing stopping me. but we have no paid time off and they need me so badly that i could just leave for a month since i pretty much have unlimited unpaid vacation and then come back and they wouldnt fire me and if they did i wouldnt give a shit. explaining to my parents would be harder, i rarely talk to them about the research and vaqueiro stuff i do and never talk to my dad about it. they wouldnt understand it at all. but also i'm a fucking adult and i can do what i want. so i can just go to asturias for a month.

i want information so i can understand my people. there is such a wealth of information on vaqueiros in those archives that no one has really looked at or seen the value of and its just sitting there. and i want to continue working on my undergrad thesis to make it something publishable and something with brand new research instead of reinterpretations of news articles, books, and other peoples research

#its crazy that theyll give anyone anything at these archives if they just walk in #but they wont online or over the mail #so its clearly not a problem of privacy or anything.. #i dont understand it

[crowley1990]

Five years of physics at university level and I still don’t understand electricity, electromagnetism and analog or digital sound recording or amplification

#I’m like okay so the human voice makes sound the usual way. Vibrations in the air. Get that. Get how it’s produced how it’s transmitted and #how it is heard by humans. Fine. Then you’re saying they speak into a microphone and those vibrations are converted into varying voltages #and that signal travels through a cable to a sound desk and then travels through another cable to the speakers #Where the voltage signal is converted back into a vibrating thing which is pushing the air and is making sound as we know it #And somehow after all that electricity we’ve now got a faithful reproduction of that human voice but louder now #And then you tell me. You do the first part. But then the signal is sent to a computer and is sampled at a very high rate and the voltages #are converted into 1s and 0s (which are actually also voltages but they’re just binary signals. Like a voltage of 0 or 5mv. That kind of th #And this highly sampled voltage signal which is now represented as 1s and 0s can be written onto a cd or played directly from a computer #And somehow we get that human voice back #I DONT UNDERSTAND IT #how is voltage a sound 😭 #And then there’s also magnetic tapes and vinyl records. Which again I get but also it’s coming back to recreating those voltage signals. #Either by a needle moving up and down over spinning grooves #Or something with magnetic tape I don’t know how tapes are actually read #But electricity. I don’t get it. #And with all this I have to worry about electromagnetic fields and impedance and interference because they’re real electrical signals and #come with all the electromag physics of that!

[musicallypan]

//Nsfw

How do people write smut like genuinely cuz i dont understand the process of writing smut cuz like as a reader i just see it happen but as a writer im like ???? Words.

Like how do you go about describing how these characters fuck in a way where its like hot and not a step by step of how they fucked like i cant wrap my head around it.

Im not writing smut im just very curious

#musicallypan #writing #i dont understand it #at all #props to anyone who write those stuff cuz i cant

[tendercoretroglodyke]

I have some kind of weird evil wizard curse on me where I feel deeply sad and uniquely horrible when my beloved bestie roommate is home but feel Normal and Emotionally Regulated when theyre out like literally what is wrong with me good GOD get that girl some therapy !!!!

#sorry trying this thing where i speak the thoughts that haunt me and build up in my head as 'unspeakable' anxieties to weaken their power #good thing no one can see this!!! #anyways i want to reinterate that i love my bestie so much and i love BEING with them #but when theyre home and we're not actively hanging out and sometimes even when we ARE i get. like this #i dont understand it #not to be all emo mcdarkness or whatever but i really feel so much more lonely when im around people than when im alone #whats up w that?? #like idk is it just a matter of me being jealous that my bestie spends more time with their partner than with me? #or am i jealous bc i dont HAVE a partner like that who is always there for me and considers me their number 1 #OR am i in love with my bestie and unable to admit it to myself??? #or am i just autistic and having a meltdown every time i socialize with people and realize i am not like them #and dont think i will ever have the emotional intelligence to have a healthy adult relationship like they do #and it drives me fucking crazy with grief?? #vs when im alone im like. not even a person anymore and dont need to be seen i can simply exist and do puzzles and listen to podcast #???? #no but fr this has been a major issue for a long time now and I'm only recently starting to uncover the patterns in my sadness #and im legitimately so scared im going to reach a point where i need to move out on my own and have more control over when i see my bestie #just to get a handle on this insane mood fluctuations that i truly dont understand #and i dont even know how i would begin to broach that topic with them #bc we have promised each other so many times we would always live together #please god let saying this all out loud make it easier to bear 🙏

[iliterallydecepticanteven]

same vibes

#tf #tfe #transformers earthspark #optimus #optimus prime #the show looks great #but why are their eyes so bright #everyone's eyes are so damn bright #i dont understand it #do they all have led headlights for eyes?? #my memes

[lyriakisser]

the truth of this url is that i actually dont know what the words i added mean

#can someone like tell me? #i dont understand it

[charonte-simi]

My supervisor lost so many fucking points today because he felt the need to point out how red my face gets when I'm overheated/embarrassed. I'm not even self conscious about it anymore I'm just fucking pissed that he felt the need to go "look at how red your face is!" like a right prick

#why the fuck do so many people feel the need to point out when someone is blushing? #i dont understand it #it makes me so goddamn uncomfortable and angry #you could literally just not fucking say anything about it and move on #like what the fuck do you expect me to do about my overactive facial blood vessels?? #its not like im doing it on purpose #fuck you #simi speaks