#i entirely did it to myself

[ace-and-ranty]

No, but the thing is, when I was reading Harrow the Ninth, I thought it was gonna be an Orpheus situation. I thought Harrow had fucked herself up as a means to an end, that she had a plan to bring Gideon back, that the lobotomizing and everything else was her way of getting into hell to get Gideon out.

It really made me feel some type of way when it finally dawned me that she never thought that far. I mean, you'd think it makes sense that, if GOD tells you something can't be done, you accept it can't be done, BUT IT'S HARROW WE ARE TALKING ABOUT. It is INSANE to me that she just accepted she couldn't undo Gideon's death.

The trauma of living in a death cult really got to this girl. She was so awash in it she couldn't even conceive of living a life with Gideon; a more acceptable death is as far as she could go. Absolutely insane. Harrow is not Orpheus because Harrow never tried climbing back up, she couldn't look back because she never got that far, she went into hell to sit there with Gideon forever, and it just didn't occur to climb back up the stairs.

#Harrows accept God's word only when it aligns with her death wish. #'Tomb can't be opened? Okay but what if I did and that finally gets me dead :)' #'Gideon can't be revived? Yeah okay that tracks guess I'll just have to ruin myself and my entire life' #sometimes I still have feelings for this series. #TLT #The Locked Tomb

[lowpolyshadow]

forced to once again remember how shadow is laughing when he says "i think i figured out what the ultimate lifeform is! it might be you!"

#speaking #he says this while literally actively dying in space losing energy enough that he isn't too prideful to say straight up #that he can't last very long like this while sonic's almost every voice line has some variant of 'shadow you okay?!?!' #he just fucking. laughs. i can only imagine it's that tired exhausted manic state that makes him go 'haha ... sonic!!!' #insane to me. like . jesus christ dude. what the fuck. #i was gonna say this is an unhinged reaction to reframing your entire life and purpose but at the same time i guess he already did that #smth smth 'i have to keep my promise to maria ... and you' (dies) (im talking about myself but him too he dies too)

[old-desert]

Getting in touch

Made for an art trade with a friend <3

#isat #in stars and time #sifloop #isat siffrin #siffrin isat #loop isat #isat loop #human loop #my art #art tag #desert art #two virgins trying to touch each other: the comic #the incredible selfcest of mirroring panels #me when drafting the panels: suddenly. there's 4 pages. help #the drawing process went something like: “i hate this” “i love this” “i hate this” “i love this” #when page 3 rolled around i hated myself so much cuz why did i think it was a great idea to #compose a page almost entirely of hands #but i think i did well in the end #this is just some sweet sifloop comedy fluff #isat spoilers

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bonus 6: Dress-up

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#better drawn mdzs #mdzs #bonus comic #lan wangji #wei wuxian #Its the dawn of a new arc! Which means a new day! And new outfits for our duo as chosen by all of you! #Bte; mxtx never said lwj *wasn't* wearing lingerie under his hanfu the entire time so.... #It makes him feel confident! And he enjoys it! AND he looks good in it. #wwx has NOT yet noticed. He keeps looking away to give lwj privacy while he changes. This is slightly devastating to lwj #at the end of the day he's wearing it for himself but he would like to be acknowledged. #I had a blast drawing this one! Lots of reference searching but I find that part kind of fun too. #I originally was going to have references to all the outfit options but oh man it got cluttered. #I did NOT trust myself to colour in the floor. My markers are getting dry & i wasn't sure about colours. #Thank you all for support with the polls! And for all the very sweet fan art and outfit propaganda! #This one is for all the people who wanted to vote for bikini lwj. Blows you a kiss (platonic).

[mewtwo24]

Not to be That Guy but like.

Am I the only one that can't stop thinking about how Tianlang-Jun says about Luo Binghe that he pretends to be cold-hearted like his mother. The hint of fondness there, the heartache in that utterance.

Like it drives me absolutely insane. Imagining her putting on a front of strength, cold and driven and unrelenting. Why does TLJ say that about her. Did she secretly look for solutions that meant reconciling with demons instead of hurting them when her sect wasn't looking? (I wonder this because I feel like his weird fondness for SQQ would lowkey track if it's connected to the woman he once loved.) Did he mean that she was tasked with basically assassinating him and she fell in love with him instead (re: failed step one)? Did he mean that she was fond and doting in her own way (e.g. conceding he was attractive, paying for his exploits and humoring him)? Did he mean that, like LBH, she thought that power would be the thing to protect her--and that it was disguising a person who was deeply and privately wounded? All four????? I don't need sleep I need a n s w e r s

Did she know about the Huanhua Palace Master's skeevy ass intentions before she met TLJ? Or did those only come to significant light after she fell in love with TLJ? Is that why she never anticipated that level of betrayal, because initially she had no intention of being with anyone romantically? And HHPM just assumed she would be under his thumb forever?? Was she furious at her own indiscretion or did she try to use the pregnancy as a bargaining chip, a way to try to stop the immortals of Cang Qiong Mountain from attacking TLJ (plus the bonus of marriage entrapment no takesies backsies this is where LBH gets it from)? Did she try to use that claim on her to dissuade HHPM from his covetous advances, framing herself as tainted so that she could finally escape? Did she dream of a life by TLJ's side, far away from Cang Qiong Mountain?

Like. Literally every single permutation of what this could mean guts me to hell. Do you ever just cry about tianxi because I--[loud bawling noises]

#svsss #tianxi #tianlang jun #su xiyan #like this shit keeps me awake at night #i'm trying to put fic ideas together and every time i go back to that line i just #find myself trying to parse and hone out su xiyan's mannerisms/personality #zzl's descriptions help a great deal but i also love that they're limited in the sense that #1. zzl was clearly scared shitless of/disconcerted with her LMFAO #2. he was suspicious of her (as a cultivator fundamentally) and its fascinating that TLJ did not seem to share this suspicion at all #or one could argue tlj just didn't care beyond his attraction and glee being around her jkahglfdskjhsfkhjg #there is also the hilarious implication that part of what turned tlj on so much about sx is the fact that she could prbly kill him #tlj really said 'i love a woman who can and WILL kick my ass' #'none of that soft power seduction shit manhandle me or nothing' #like he always believed deep down--or at the very least wanted to believe--that she loved both him and lbh dearly #i'm not usually the fix-it fic type but the Way I Need To See Su Xiyan Destroy Huanhua Palace Master's Entire Life. #i just want sx and her boytoy to live happily ever after is that so wrong? #i also think of that person (im so sorry tumblr user i dont rmr who u are at the minute) that said there had to be trust between tlj and sx #because YES. ABSOLUTELY. I AGREE. AND I WANT IT FOR ME #don't mind me just the usual descent into madness anytime i think too hard about svsss #i need to outline damn you airplane and your refusal to expand on LBH's juicy ass backstory #ill never forgive the chinese (joke)

[lord-of-the-ducks]

I don’t really give a shit about James Somerton, but apparently he claimed that he Did A Plagiarism because of a head injury he had as a kid + ADHD, so he would just copy and paste paragraphs and then forget to rewrite them.

And as someone who was ALSO hospitalized for a head injury as a child, and ALSO has ADHD (with one of my primary symptoms being memory loss), I feel uniquely qualified to fight him on this because I have never done a plagiarism.

#also how did he not notice the copy+pasted words when he was reading them out loud? #did he sincerely believe he wrote those himself? #I call bullshit #fight me James #james somerton #anyway fun fact before I got diagnosed with ADHD I had a meltdown because I thought the head trauma was why I was Like This #and my mom was like ‘oh sweetie you were Like This your entire life’ #but I still like to say that I’m a dumbass because I dropped myself on the head as a child

[magicicephoenix]

Can you do batim ink demon doing some terrors with #115 or #117? If you still doing these of course

Really love your art and fics by the way👉👈

oh he’s doing a terror alright

batim ink demon with #117 - power

and thank you so much!! :D not often my fics get acknowledged haha

#bendy and the ink machine #batim #bendy #the ink demon #the projectionist #doodle dump #dialogue dump #palette #played through ch 4 to see the fight myself to make sure i got things right. bc why not. and i love replaying batim <3 #did you realize that he snapped the projectionist’s head entirely the wrong way around? i didn’t. what a violent guy. (affectionate) #that’s why he holds the head at SUCH a weird angle #fun fact: the brush i used in this is called dry ink :)

[queerofthedagger]

—Salma Deera

For @merlinrarepairfest Day 7 - Free Choice: BBC Merlin x Tragedy

#bbc merlin #merlinedit #bbcm #mona's edits #*mine #did i make an entire set as a thesis statement to how this show was a tragedy from the start? #maybe so 🥰🥰🥰 #kind of outdid myself with this one ngl #anyway.

[emblazons]

an epistolary labyrinth of absences.

Phoenixflare Week || Day 4: Touch-Starved (pt ii) (long distance) Phoenixflare + So We Must Meet Apart

"In this light, two violinists faced each other—a man and a woman. The woman had her back to me. Their bows were like warped mirror images, one stretching out and up as the other pushed down and in, the two lines moving in relation. And in this manner, they made not the same music but an overlapping. I began to wonder in that moment (and I still wonder now) why my lips twitch at each discordant twoness. Is it joy? A grimace? Recognition?"

#phoenixflareweek #phoenixflare #joshua rosfield #dion lesage #phoenix #bahamut #ffxvi gifs #my gifs #design forward #ffxvi #useramiz #userlockescoles #tuserashes #usergif #final fantasy xvi #ffgraphics #gamingedit #dailygaming #final fantasy #phoenixflareweek2024 #this is entirely about the touch-starved yearning. period full stop. #I have been trying to figure out how to use this set of poems for them for AGES. the weight of longing it it felt PERF for touch-starved #I just know joshua's eloquent self would demand letters from dion that turn into them just. longing wildly. I simply know it #also...i'm so proud of this design. like. REALLY proud #sanbreque and rosaria in the bg. the silhouettes. the COLORS ugh I truly did outdo myself...if I do say so myself lmaooo

[rainia]

anyway it’s ok if you didn’t achieve as much as you intended this year it’s ok if you just survived; you are not your achievements you are a whole universe and you’re worth so so much more than you could imagine

#this is addressed to myself in a way #I had big plans for all the creative projects I wanted to achieve #and I was just constantly sick and burnt out the entire year #I barely did any of that #but at the end of the day that doesn’t really matter #we’re here now and next year is full of more exciting opportunities #rain rambles

[ganondoodle]

pokémon evolution

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondorf #totk spoiler #totk spoilers #totkspoiler #totkspoilers #i should have taken more pictures so i can stuff the entire scene full of ganondorf #... that sounds more wrong than i wanted #i wonder if dumsda basically scans the model from the pic to make these #im sad you cant put the dragon there tho #also i did worse on my second fight with him than on my first #made a fool of myself bc i felt so confident #:C

[jorvikzelda]

i have played hollow knight for approximately 80 hours in the past 11 days

(alternate version with autism creature eyes/face as requested by my friend below cut)

#this was GENUINELY my best fucking attempt at little ghost i redrew their head Several fucking times and also the entire them once #i love them so much but i cannot give them what they deserve #decided to not even try drawing the hollow knight. they have Too Many Joints #but if i did their caption wouldve been something like ''third more fucked up sibling'' #would they be the eldest sibling? probably right? i could make an eldest sibling trauma joke too #the abysmal size difference here is Hysterical to me btw. it was Not on purpose i just cant proportion but its hilarious im keeping it #z talks #hollow knight #i did draw the autism creature face myself #no copy pasting here #also hornets legs are just lines bc i tried to make them more like in game but i coulnt make it work . so

[captainkirkk]

When I started writing 'lessons in tea making', I set out to make it a longfic that following ATLA Book 2 and 3 in its entirety but now its been almost 5 years and I'm realising that I'm probably never going to get around to finishing this monster of a wip

HOWEVER, I do have around 15k of chapter 2 collecting dust in my google drive so.... what's everyone's opinion on authors uploading (signposted) unfinished chapters....

#i can admit that the plot at the end of book 2 spiraled entirely out of control #it's the wall i will never be able to scale and i need to admit defeat #i have some of chapter 2 written but i also don't want to ruin chapter 1 for everyone #so.. thoughts?? #my posts #ficblogging #i'm usually strictly a one-shot writer #for a REASON #every time i get the urge to write longfic i have to remind myself that that's the devil talking #because the attempt will likely fail and kill me in the process #authors who effortlessly write 100k fics..... who did you sell your soul to and can you give me their number

[starwikia]

suicide cw

look i have been in this area before mentally. it sucks and i wouldn’t wish this on anyone. but, and this is going to sound callous, but i don’t feel any sympathy for james somerton. even if i hope he’s like. not dead. But thats all the amount of goodwill im willing to give him. The more i think about this really, the more angry i am. 

ngl this entire situation is another example of how white people weaponize their mental illness to avoid consequences. Im seeing it in real time.

this man has a continuous habit of using self-harm as a get-out-of-jail-for-free card. in both of his apologies, he has worded his supposed attempts in ways that were clearly meant to guilt people who displayed his plagiarism and overall horrendous history of racism and misogyny. i say supposed because, while i’m not saying those are lies and this would he such a fucked up thing to lie about that i don’t want to think he has, unfortunately, it’s been proven again and again that his word can’t be trusted, as he’s known to lie to try get out of consequences. Hes a proven liar. him lying about this is actually the best case scenario, because no one should go through this entire situation, wouldnt wish this on anyone, but you can only do this so often before people stop sympathizing with you. is this callous? Yeah, but like. I’m actually fucking angry he cant straight up take no as an answer. that this is how he reacts realizing he cant be one of the Cool Kidz™️ on youtube anymore. he acts like he DESERVES a career, like its not a privilege hes lost due to his own actions.

He lied about apologizing and forgiving people, he lied about giving the money to hbomberguy to give to ppl he ripped off (yknow, instead of doing it himself), he lied about the jessie gender situation and rewrote the narrative to make it so he isnt the bad guy, and hes the victim all along actually!

you can’t tell me that supposed last message of his isn’t meant to be a 13 reasons why esq attempt to deflect the blame “look i’m going to kill myself and it’s all YOUR PEOPLES FAULT for not letting me achieve my DREAM of being filmmaker IN PEACE!!! I just wanted Nick’s (the guy who I have thrown under the bus again and again) portfolio up!! Im just being a good friend dont you all FEEL BAD” he refuses to take ANY ACCOUNTABILITY of any of his actions and he IS STILL trying to shove the blame over to other people again.

it’s also pretty ironic people are like “uhhh well hbomber’s fans harassed him!!!” like hbomber outright told people NOT to HARASS JAMES!!! ALSO acting as if james doesn’t have a very real documented history of STRAIGHT UP sending his fans to harass and threaten smaller creators, more notably women, trans, and bipoc creators. especially after he’s stolen typically very personal anecdotes so he could profit from them. so why can he do it but the second people are like “hey this guys an actual piece of shit.” and he can’t handle it suddenly people are trying to white knight his shit? like no he doesn’t get that. he doesn’t get that at all just because he couldn’t handle the consequences of his actions. 

what? were supposed to stay quiet about a man profiting off of other minorities because he wanted to be the spokesman for all gay people? people tried to solve this on a smaller, more private scales for YEARS and he kept doing it. it was clear that the giant public video was the ONLY way to get people to notice. HE WOULDVE GOTTEN AWAY WITH STEALING 87 FUCKING THOUSANDS WORTH OF DOLLARS. HE CANT HANDLE THE FACT HE CANT GET AWAY WITH IT. 

am i supposed to feel bad for the guy who basically threatened a trans woman with the police? i don’t care what anyone says, it’s so fucking obvious that he threatened jessie by implying he was getting the police involved in their conflict. what am i supposed to act like that didn’t happen? are we supposed to pretend like he didn’t glorify nazi’s and outright said that gay people made up a good chunk of the nazis? That he didnt say america joined ww2 bc they were jealous of the NAZIS. WHAT WOULD POSSESS YOU TO FUCKING SAY THAT. but then? He gives women (not even women most of the time, he misgenders nonbinary ppl constantly) shit for writing mlm. are we supposed to act like he doesn’t straight-up sees himself superior and better than people of color and steals their works to put himself on a pedestal? Are we supposed to act like he didnt spit on our elders by saying “only the boring gays survived aids” like man! Fuck you! He BLANTANTLY MAKES UP HISTORY TO PUT HIMSELF ON A PEDESTAL!! HE ACTIVELY TRIED TO REWRITE LGBT HISTORY TO SUIT HIS FUCKED UP NARRATIVES!

yes this sucks ! no one deserves this but no one should be making him a martyr. Thats what he fucking WANTS! He wants to be immortalized as a victim!! (again, supposedly, it was reported hes alive but its not confirmed).

The shit he got isnt near the amount of fucking callous behavior hes done again and again. Again, to drill this point, EVEN IF HE DIDNT CALL THE POLICE HE THREATENED A TRANS WOMAN INTO THINKING HE DID!!! The fact he tried to use a head injury to justify years of the outright ghoulish shit fucking astounds me. Why the fuck did anyone in his life thought it was a good idea to let him TRY to come back. in the end, he had options. he didn’t need to try to make a comeback. HE DIDNT NEED TO FUCKING LIE OR IGNORE THE SHIT HE WAS CALLED OUT ON the reality is, he wanted to come back thinking he could shove it under the rug, was told that no dude, you’re not allowed to be a youtuber anymore. you’re done. you need to move on and went full nuclear. it’s not on anyone’s hands but his own. HES BEEN DOING THIS TO HIMSELF!! But nah man we cant call his shit out bc hell may or may not kill himself. Fuck the other minorities who have the same issues but worse and sometimes BECAUSE of him. This is going to SUCKKKK so bad when other ppl, specifically white gays, are going to weaponize this shit to get away with their stuff.

#warning: do not read this post if you want me to be nice to james somerton. i am extremely mean in this post. #before anyone accuses me of shit i legit never contacted him myself or anyone involved. i am someone who witnessed this behavior repeatedly #again. i hope hes alive and well. the fact is him lying about this WOULD BE THE IDEAL SITUATION. BC NO ONE SHOULD GO THROUGH THAT. but. #he HAS to forever be the victim in his eyes. attempting doesnt automatically mean youre free of sin. #its just terrible to see that regardless whether or not he did do it #its very clear his attempts to run away from his consequences are working on some people #we need to acknowledge that if your shitty ex friend can weaponize a threat to kill themselves #so can this internet person after being called out for horrendous shit #like what was the alterative? what were people supposed to fucking do? be nice about it? #yeah as if poc and trans women arent historically given shit for being 'too mean' about wanting justice. #this isnt just the plagiarism this is the fact a white dude has been parading himself as THE speaker for the gays(tm) but has been using hi #gayness to shield himself from his misogyny racism transphobia and antisemitism #its very clear regardless this means that ppl r going to side with him and then give him benefit of doubt #if you cant handle the heat stay out of the fucking kitchen dude. this is the consequences of your fucking actions. #hes a disgusting person who cant handle being told no so hes going to drag everyone down with him #like. idk this entire situation is frustrating to me. #its also frustrating ppl trying to be moral abt it like 'see! i knew this was bad all along!' no you didnt. shut it. #for the record im like mainly talking abt twit watching those spineless uwu cutesy ppl basically saying hes done noting wrong #oh and also alt righters who are clearly weaponinizing this where u know they wouldnt give a shit if a right ytber did this. #james somerton #idk might delete this later its just. ugh...

[eddiegirls]

come join the cult....

#i dont know why i did this but i laughed at myself the entire time #graphic design is my passion etc etc #911

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

*posts this and runs away. i trip and fall into an open manhole, dying instantly*

#incoherent noises etc etc gotta say the line: Theyre In My Brain #fuck dude they sure are!!! they sure are. #oh my god when did it become seven. i forgot to sleep again. gonna make a breakfast taco instead #but yeah uhhhhh come get some laughingstock crumbs #pspspsps cmon take the morsel #tumblr is pigeons to me <3 #scribble salad #welcome home #laughingstock #yassified howdy <3 #can yall tell i never practice drawing kissing. like never. ever. lmfao #its never been part of my skillset but by Fuck i might buckle down and add it #ive just never had to learn!!! #for my entire life ive drawn primarily dragons - i actively avoided people! #and dragons dont have the facial anatomy to kiss 'traditionally' #so i simply never practiced or even attempted #i only started seriously drawing people a couple years ago #and scribbling characters making out is very far from my top priorities in Learning #even though i taught myself how to draw. hm. other things. somewhat. #my priorities are a mystery even to myself #Anyway anyway im tired and rambling and that taco is calling to me like the sweetest siren #and babey im ready to Drown #agh no wait im not done yet #puppets are honestly really difficult in this aspect #like??? their faces are so flat??? their noses are Strange? how push together???? #dont get me started on the intricacies of perspective and im not sure how to tilt their heads properly yet #so for now Cringe!!! Cringe Alert!!!! Cringe on Main!!!! #sometimes i need to remind myself that it doesnt matter if i dislike pretty much everything i scribble. someone will dig it.