#i feel kind of betrayed

[evilwriter37]

Weirdest phenomenon ever: went to block people liking an anti Vigcup shipper post and… found people on there who read my stuff? Like, if you think I’m disgusting and in the wrong, why are you reading it? I’m literally so baffled. You can’t have it both ways.

#I feel kind of betrayed

[woodlandthorns]

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#need to get my thoughts on the ofmd finale out bc i've been lying depressed about it in bed all day #the start of the season was fantastic #the last 2 episodes felt super rushed #i feel kind of betrayed #this isn't the rom-com where no one important dies and everything turns out okay in the end anymore #i guess i shoudn't have gotten attached to izzy at all #they really gave him all that character development and found family and #he was starting to open up to them and he protected them from bb and the crew cared about him and #i'm full on sobbing now again #all that for him to just get randomly shot and die?????? #and the crew just stood there and looked at him ??? and they had a wedding right after like nothing happened?????? #this was my comfort show and i guess i'm just struggling to process the loss of that #if there's a season 3 buttons better fucking resurrect him cause magic is real apparently #i can't imagine ofmd without con #he's so loved by the fandom and he loves the fandom back #but at this point i'm terrified of there even being a s3 bc i can't trust them with the lives of ed and stede anymore either #i want my silly little queer pirate show back #tldr. ep 6 is where the season ended the last 2 episodes didn't happen

[gunstellations]

gentle mornings

#alternatively titled - when your papas have the audacity to cuddle without you #kazurei #buddy daddies #i like to think they didnt really do cuddles much except when rei has a rough night and kazukis warmth and safety is the only thing that #can let him get rid of the anxiety and nightmares #he wouldnt ask for it #it would be kazuki dragging him to bed at first #rei reluctantly but in his weakened will the times hes slept together with miri and kazuki has been the times hes somehow always #managed to go out like a light as soon as his head hits the pillow #even he himself doesnt understand and he doesnt attempt to and he doesnt realise #that its safety and warmth and protection and peace #and thats the only reason he would let himself be dragged to bed #but #eventually when you have had the taste of something so good in the place of chilling nightmares and restless darkness that feels no less #safer than the light #your heart becomes indulgent #and rei will gently and wordlessly ask for an invite to the warmth again #its fulfilling and blissful when the three of them are together #but with just kazukis body enveloping him against the night its a different kind of comfort. even in his sleep he would clutch onto it #thats a tangent right there huh.....anyway. miri would be absolutely betrayed in the morning when she finds them snuggled up #she gets her cuddle time with her papas too then #one big pile of a warm and happy family #yes this is pre relationship yes they would do that yes it is possible #if you got this far thanks i guess jajdjfjs ill hopefully colour this soon but i dont know really so im putting it up here #my art

[awsok]

shin hati — season one character study

introduction in the odyssey, emily wilson / ahsoka, 'master and apprentice' / ahsoka, 'fallen jedi' / so we must meet apart, gabrielle bates & jennifer s. cheng / ahsoka, 'far far away' / between dog and wolf, rené-xavier prinet / ahsoka, 'far far away' / ahsoka, 'dreams and madness' / ahsoka, 'dreams and madness' / camp damascus, chuck tingle / ahsoka, 'the jedi the witch and the warlord' / the sun is also a star, nicola yoon

#shin hati #web weaving #this is kind of incoherent i'm sorry. and the colouring is all over the place. whatever! #anyway shin hati character study! #wolfwren shipping goggles are very much optional but i'll tag it anyway #ahsoka #wolfpack #wolfwren #baylan skoll #ahsoka tano #* #*gif #btw not sure if it's apparent but i do love shin and baylan's dynamic and i think there's real caring in it! #it's just that shin's journey is season one has them growing apart and shin ultimately feeling betrayed by him (at least i think so) #so this reflects that #100 #500 #*weave

[dishgranted]

you know what? i am 100% sure there will be plenty of people subscribing to watcher tv, but in my opinion the biggest impact will be the fandom’s respect. ofc i don’t see them giving up on this idea, but either way, i think lots of people see the boys in a different light now.

#watcher tv #i’m not including myself here btw #but i do understand that many will feel kind of betrayed #shut up ana

[immediatebreakfast]

This chapter hits harder when I realized what the assault attempt of the brides to Jonathan meant if we take his expressed love, safety, and comfort for the feminine.

Jonathan has been expressing how the mere idea of being in a room in which a lady was writing letters gives him a sense of calm. He looks up to the fictional heroines of his novels to give him strenght, and ideas in order to survive Dracula's façade. Jonathan comforts himself in the memory of Mina, and his love for her. He even goes out of his way to disobey the Count, and sleep in the unlocked room, why?

Because Jonathan feels safe in the ladies' chamber. He has the themes of a gothic heroine, so Jonathan is comforted when he is sure that he is surrounded by the soft, and protective femininity, instead of being within the grasp of Dracula's aggresive masculinity.

"I determined not to return to-night to the gloom-haunted rooms, but to sleep here, where, of old, ladies had sat and sung and lived sweet lives whilst their gentle breasts were sad for their menfolk away in the midst of remorseless wars."

"I want to get away from the Count, and this ladies' room is unlocked. It's old yet beautiful because women have lived and loved here. So, if I stay here, hidden, with the memories, and ghosts of these ladies as company I feel safe, and away from that man."

And then, the brides appear in front of him. Jonathan recalls the incident on his journal with fear, and rage, yet there is a point of his writing prose in which he stops his fear, and instead feels... Sad.

The brides appear, and the first thing that Jonathan calls them is ladies. The strong adjectives that he used with Dracula are gone to give room to a softer tone to describe their appearances. How Jonathan admits that he felt attracted to them, with shame since he feels he is betraying Mina. The way Jonathan immediately starts to use words like "repulsive" and "animal" when he realizes that the brides are going to do what Dracula has been implying for a long time.

How Jonathan passed out of horror when he realized that the brides were going to kill a child.

The femininity that Jonathan loved, and felt comfort in is now tainted by the monsterhood of the brides. He realized that not all women are going to be soft, and give protection to the unprotected, how these vampire ladies would have killed him if not for the Count arriving. If Jonathan can't go to the brides, and their femininity for safety, then the Count and his masculinity is the only thing that is keeping him safe.

"As I look round this room, although it has been to me so full of fear, it is now a sort of sanctuary, for nothing can be more dreadful than those awful women, who were—who are—waiting to suck my blood."

Jonathan is now alone, without anything to comfort him, and the Count has him exactly where he wanted him to be.

#Jonathan realizing that the brides are monsters just like Dracula must have hit him like a truck #He has the assumptions that women are protectors and kind and give warmth #But these women do not care #The want to treat him the same way the Count treats him #I wonder if he feels weirdly betrayed by the brides in the sense of ''I am in the same situation as you were why are you attacking me?'' #dracula daily #dracula #jonathan harker #brides of dracula

[mymarifae]

me: i finished the latest trailblaze mission in hsr so i can look at what other people are posting now! oh boy i hope it's discussions and theories about the story. i can't wait to see what everyone thought about firefly (what was going on with you sweetie...) and A Child's Dream - that segment in particular really left a profound impact on me. like who is mikhail? the voice we hear throughout is obviously misha's - did he have a twin? does mikhail have something to do with clockie? and from what we heard and saw, misha or... mikhail. encountered the embodiment of Death that lurks beneath the dreamscape. what's... the full story there...? i can't wait to see other people's perspectives it'll help me piece a more coherent theory together-

other hsr fans: *thirstposting about aventurine and/or dr. ratio, trying to cancel sparkle even though the entire point of her character is that yes she's a horrible person because it's high time we see how DANGEROUS and CRUEL the masked fools can be - no more reducing them to the silly wacky hijinks sampo pulled on jarilo; you should be scared of these guys; the game's story never wanted you to make sparkle your next skrunkly blorbo babygirl lol, heated discussions about whether dr. ratio displayed the same racism towards aventurine that sparkle did and if that makes aventurine/ratio a bad thing to ship (??????????), more thirstposts about aventurine, 500 billion generic yaois of aventurine and ratio that don't even maintain either of their characters*

me:

#HONKAI STAR RAIL IS SO GOOD AND YET NO ONE SEEMS TO WANT TO TALK ABOUT WHAT MAKES IT GOOD #I FEEL ACTUALLY INSANE #I WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE STORY!!!!! AND THE CHARACTERS AS INDIVIDUALS #NOT ABOUT HOW HOT THEY ARE OR WHO THEY CAN BE SHIPPED WITH #aventurine isn't even that sexy his eyes are the most interesting part about his design (HIS DESIGN. HIS CHARACTER IS MORE INTRIGUING) #the rest of it is just kind of ... like. yeah he's a blonde man. ok. #and my thoughts on aventio are i think ratio would betray aventurine for a single corn chip. and aventurine would do the same #i do not see a romance ever blossoming there. not even an enemies to lovers kinda thing. they're both too busy playing 5d chess for that #i want to talk about FIREFLY. I LOVED FIREFLY :( #i want to talk about acheron. and MISHA. SWEET BOY WHAT'S GOING ON? #there's so many interesting things going on rn and aventurine is not one of them. #like ok he knows some things but he's such a sleazy businessman about sharing info that idgaf i don't want to learn anything from him #he's always going to leave something out. because he needs to always have an advantage. for this reason i ignore 80% of what he says #i've gotten more context and clues out of everyone else he is nothing to me. i'll eat him.

[cringecountry]

Remus and the lupin

#remus lupin #wolfstar #marauders #my art #this hair makes no sense which is fine its just a sketch but if I ever colour i should fix it. also ill shave his eyebrows bc what are thos #anyway... hallo tumblr. first post in this account #the reason this is tagged wolfstar is i think sirius would steal his books to read them and he would underline sentences and write #on the margins and he would press wildflowers for him to find #and i think years into sirius imprisonment remus would keep finding notes and flowers #and remus would feel awful bc how could someone with that kind of sensibility for poetry and love and literature betray them all and kill #a bunch of ppl. etc etc. but yeah yeah. anyway but this is a happy one bye

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

BBC Merlin is a tragedy in that Merlin's choices that were all to save Arthur's life led to Arthur's death, but that doesn't mean it was all for nothing!! The events across their 10 years together led to a new world order which eventually brought about everything they had worked towards!! PLUS THEIR RELATIONSHIP BROUGHT JOY AND MEANING TO BOTH OF THEIR LIVES!! That means something!! GUYS!! listen guys that MEANS SOMETHING!!

#it's not like game of thrones which left us with the feeling that everything is pointless #bbc merlin #merlin #it was their love for each other that brought about the new world order!! #also I feel like people haven't watched the show in a while i keep seeing people say that Merlin betrayed his own kind #HE TRIED TO HELP THEM WHENEVER HE COULD #he introduced morgana to the druids!! He protected Gilli and told him about his magic even tho he couldve betrayed him!! #it's just that he HAD to also protect himself!! it was self preservation ok! #and sure eventually protecting arthur became more important to him than anything else #but how can ya'll play/watch TLOU and be like OBV Joel would doom the world for Ellie and then turn around and be like #merlin is a traitor to his people!! he did all he could for the promise of their future!!! and he's YOUNG and he DID HIS BEST #and how many people would let their loved ones die for a vague idea of a better society #yeah I'm a merlin apologist what of it #it's just such a nuanced issue you know i'm not saying he was right but i'm not saying he was wrong either

[crocodilenjoyer]

crocodad is so so so so so so so fucking funny but most of the fan content around it SUCKS bc of this weird idea that crocodile would be nurturing as if he isn’t exactly the kind of guy that would be dodging at the speed of light any child support claims nami keeps sending cross guild… tsk tsk.

SKFNDNFC LITERALLYYYYY

i don’t care what oda said in that one sbs i really don’t think crocodile has a parental bone in his body. protective, maybe, of people and things he considers his own, but i think if you put him in a room with a child he’d only be capable of interacting with them like a small adult, if absolutely forced to interact with them at all. otherwise he is Leaving he is Gone.

(note that most of the people crocodile interacts with are wanted criminals. he is talking with this hypothetical kid like they’re both in The Biz.)

also this is definitely me projecting a little but i read a fic like this once and as a transmasc person who experiences visceral horror at even the idea of pregnancy, i think this goes double for like. a kid that he birthed. yeah parent-child connection etc etc but my favorite take on it is that crocodile didn’t realize he was pregnant until he was literally in labor, and he had the genuinely extremely reasonable and relatively measured reaction of flipping the fuck out, running to ivankov the second the kid was out of him, and then pulling a complete disappearing act.

children are also a major fiscal responsibility and he is Not About That.

#crocodile vs nami in court…..fantastic mental image. #crocodile #but i also think there’s a LOT of horror in this concept as well bc like. gestures #here is the living breathing evidence of your body betraying you and it could be a tool it could be a liability and it is Yours #what the fuck do you do. you are in your twenties maybe and deeply traumatized already and also potentially closeted(?) #and you already are deeply paranoid as a person and you tend to categorize people by their usefulness #and here is proof you fucked up and be it positive or negative you already have an emotional connection of some kind #and that is Bad. that is a Danger and also you still feel nauseous about all of this in general. Good Bye #riko.txt #asks

[vegaseatsass]

Hi Tumblr, I'm only here for a sec and then going right to sleep (please note this tendency of mine before you take seriously the criticism to follow), but I would like to lodge a complaint. Apparently, there is a miniseries airing, RIGHT NOW, in the GAP cinematic universe, where, if I'm understanding the MDL comments correctly, Nueng, aka Sam's incredibly hot older sister who yelled at Grandma, is in the In-from-180-Degree-Longitude role of out-of-the-picture-mom's bff who out-of-the-picture-mom's daughter wants to hook up with ????? and nobody ????? on my dash ?????????? told me* ???????????????

HOW COULD YOU, HONESTLY *posted about it when I was online and osmosed it to me

#WHAT #I HAD TO FIND THIS OUT BY IDLY CHECKING THE MDL AIRING CALENDAR #AND NOT FROM MY OWN SCROLLING #TUMBLR!!! WE NEED TO SYNC UP OUR POSTING AND SCROLLING SCHEDULES BETTER TUMBLR #I FEEL SO BETRAYED OVER SOMETHING THAT IS NOT YOUR FAULT AT ALL #BUT IM TRULY YELLING #i'm not even a big age gap person on the WHOLE but twisty psychological mommy issues age gap????? #and the older lady is NUENG?!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME #blank the series #gap the series #there were like fifteen women in gap it felt cruel to leave without onscreen girlfriends of some kind #nueng was the TIPPY TOP of that VERY TALL AND HOT PILE for me #and now she's in a MOMMY ISSUES SITUATION #AS THE OLDER WOMAN. #i really hope this series leans into the fuckiness as much as 180d did but if not i will still be #on cloud nine #because. NUENG!!!!!!!!!!!! #dear diary

[dictee]

The way people in the west talk about gay asian media is so awful and demeaning like yeah the norm is unrealistic porn and there is a lot of abuse apologism . This is also true of western media 👍

#Also betrays a really weird attitude towards gay sex in general in real life. like People in real life have preferences about topping or #bottoming. it’s actually quite common. #It’s not some kind of political betrayal… #i feel like this is #actually very similar to the dynamic between bourgeois second wave feminists and working class butch femme culture #like not that GL manhwa or 60s lesbian bar culture is immune to criticism for perpetuating abuse racism and misogyny #but the condescension and revulsion and equivocating it fundamentally to a straight gaze

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

#i JUST want to experience high school #without like. my whole shitty life thing having gone on #i want to go to high school and have stupid drama and sexuality crises and worries about grades #not... That #i never had that im never going to have that #can i get (one) permission to go a little crazy if i survive into a university #fuck everyone befriend and be-enemy everyone get all up in peoples stupid mind numbingly low stakes drama #i want that sweet golden experience where the worst thing ill ever fear is annoying my classmates #or accidentally spilling something on someone at a dance #i deserve it i deserve to have had a childhood and a young adulthood and a life #i deserve to have dealt with unserious issues to prepare me for bigger ones #rather than serious danger that leaves me permanently severed from normal people and life #and makes me incapable of reacting proportionally or finding it in me to care about less serious problems #like yes it sucks your mom is going to miss college graduation #but i thank my lucky stars that you are not dying or being abused or starved or beaten or exploited #i literally dont know how to take things seriously a lot of the time like im not able to even if i try #because to me the mildest real problem is someone purposefully isolating you and ruining your health #the MILDEST #i try to care ab simple stuff i really do i just CANT #and it sucks so much trying to be a good friend and kind feeling like i cant do enough #the loud thought 'i wish that hapoened to me/i wish i worried about that/i wish the people i love only had that as a problem' #i get so envious. like thank fucking god your parents divorced like normal adults when it should be over #thank fucking god that 'friend' cut you off when they were actively insulting you and betraying your trust #thank the fucking universe that shitty partner dumped you before you fkn hurt yourself over them #yk? #and its a 'mean/cold' way to think about it but i just dont have the capacity to think or feel the little picture #i can imagine my friends subjected to such horror even tho i dont want to

[nikikikiko]

Angsty set of Morgana-opinion Headcanons for the GaGene family bc yk what they need a bad day. just a bit of a bad day.

• Conrad is an easy subject. Morgana is… a much more complicated topic of discussion for the family. She’s influenced a large part of Gavus’s life, and raised Liberta, and they both have varying opinions on her.

• Gavus is a lot more solid in his feelings, they’re complicated, yes, but he’s solid in that his disapproves of her actions. He’s had time to come to terms that what she is doing is not okay and that he cannot support her any longer. Gavus knows that Morgana is not as good a person he thought she was, but even then. He cannot truly bring himself to hate her. She hurt him, his kids, his husband, and yet he cannot find it in him to hate her. He still wants to plead with her and make her see reason, even after knowing she won’t listen. He does find it painful, even now, to think about the good times with her. It’s jolting to know someone you loved and respected turned out to be so horrible, and it taints everything, Morgana is no exception.

• On Liberta’s side, it’s quite a bit more complicated. Liberta doesn’t know how to respond to Morgana’s actions and horribleness. He doesn’t want to believe it at all actually. He finds himself, often, unable to process what he had actually went through and what is good and bad in his childhood with Morgana because he genuinely cannot tell. Not to mention she treated him nicely, like a son! She can’t be all that bad then, right? She’s still a good person deep down, because she has to be.

• He’s got a good ol’ case of Mafuyu Asahina basically

• Eugene, on his own opinions, hates Morgana. He despises her, and every single fake ass person on the Celestial’s faction. He hates that she messed up badly, that she betrayed Gavus and raised Liberta to believe that his feelings don’t matter. He hates that she did that to his family, and he hates how the situation is complicated. It’s not like everyone can agree she sucks as easily as they do with Conrad. Hell, it hurts him that Liberta even saw her as a parental figure at all! That fucking sucks, and he can’t do anything about it because she DID raise his kid, like it or not. He’s mindful about what he says about her around the kids, but next to Gavus he’s mouthing her off left and right as many chances as he can get whenever she comes up in conversation.

• This both amuses and irritates Gavus. It’s essentially like, “Raven, I know you hate Morgana but can we focus for a second??”. The amusement moreso comes from the fact at least one of them holds enough hatred in their heart for both of them for that woman, thank you Eugene.

• Lastly, Lucilla. Lucilla’s feelings are extremely simplified: Morgana = Conrad. Conrad = Bad, Hate that guy. Morgana = Bad, Hate that girl. She understands there’s more nuance to it for Liberta and Gavus, she’s not dumb, and she can, to an extent, recognize where Liberta is coming from. However, it frustrates her a lot whenever she hears words in Morgana’s defense, from Celestials or otherwise. It’s awful, terrible. Just what about Morgana needs defending? What could possibly be so good about her? She doesn’t get it. She doesn’t get any of it.

• Pretty much, the overall opinion as a family is, well, it’s complicated. Her actions run a bit deeper because of her emotional hold on two of their family members, and Conrad at least made it easy by acting like he doesn’t care (because, well, he doesn’t! Mans is as straight forward as he sounds: he just wanted power and destruction.), but Morgana? Morgana acted like she cared, and maybe she did at one point. For Gavus. Maybe she cared a lot about Gavus, and maybe she got attached to Liberta as well. But it doesn’t erase what she did, just simply complicates it further for the ones she hurt, because they loved her.

#afk arena #afk gavus #afk eugene #afk liberta #afk lucilla #morgana too #i have a LOT of feelings with morgana and a lot of it is like a #its a whole analysis kind of thing ??? #i dont feel shes as cut and dry as conrad is with this family #i think shes a much more complicated subject bc like #plain as day shes lied to and betrayed gavus and manipulated him #she emotionally abused liberta #and yet she also goes personally out of her way to try and get gavus redeemed for celestials and herself #when he stands firm to his grounds she doesnt kill him she simply leaves him in a prison #so like #she does care a tiny bit about them #her evilness however overshadows her care bc shes not willing to change her ways at all even when its hurting the people she claims to care #about #DO YOU SEE WHY THIS WOULD BE A COMPLICATED SUBJECT #THERES SO MUCH THAT HAS TO GO INTO THIS GOR LIBERTA AND GAVUS ESP BRO #anyways i hope she dies #make it uncomplicated and just die evil wench #bah

[tubbytarchia]

I suppose this is just another appreciation post but I guess, for anyone willing to read! I let the absolute smallest things put me in turmoil but I'm trying my best to do better. Just want to say that I'm so grateful for all this otherwise immense support to fall back on for, frankly, self validation and improved self esteem. To let these (now rogue) moments of dismay pile in my mind and drag me back down into a dark place would be betraying all this love and support, and I absolutely don't intend to let that happen again. Thank you tumblr for treating me with kindness in my wrongdoing. In my fragile being, you treat me with great gentleness and I will never stop reminding you how much it means to me, even if to you it might not feel like much

What's happened today is so meaningless!! Completely brainless!! Shouldn't even take up a minute of thought, and I want to grow stronger to not be so strongly affected by such things, and it's you who makes me feel like I'm capable of doing that

#not that I think you guys would necessarily feel betrayed if I were to get hung up on hate that equates to 0.1% of your support but #it would be me who would feel betrayed. And I want to be able to show myself the kindness that you do #blabber #shak's appreciation posts

[waystarresourceco]

Sarah Snook on Shiv's being in some ways less conscious of her parent's separation and being more conscious of nannies. (x)

#I think it's super interesting to think of Shiv as having less of an understanding of the underpinnings of the divorce #and more of a consciousness of being raised by nannies #I kind of think this may be connected to her feeling in some ways betrayed by both parents #because her relationship with Caroline is laden with mutual hurt #and her relationship with Logan often is secondary to Kendall's (due to his status as heir even though she's the favorite) #all very interesting to think about #shiv roy #sarah snook #hbo succession #cast interviews #succession