#i hate it here so bad i'm

[maraczeks]

bcs s6 thread pt 5

#likeeee. #i cant i literally cant stop thinking about rhea and bob oh my god i literlakdjrjsoxocodndh #sept 20 2023 #mannnnnn wtf is this #gasped when she walked into frame oh my god #like no what do you mean they're about to gag separate ways no like lidkjenfjsndjsjdjjshd this is literally the worst time of my life #shaking shaking shaking this is sickening #the way he keeps looking at her oh my god #no look at her she's so shaken please pleaseee my darling girl #i hate it here so bad i'm #this show is on another level tbf i never watch real drama crime shows but like bro #sept 21 2023 #guys i am Literally so scared #gonna live tweet the rest of s6 i think but just know IMMMmmsdiisosi #my babies sooohhhhh what the fricj give them a hug i need them to be okay they're so not okay #i feel sick like kim and jimmy thought they were gonna lose each otherrrrr like howard could've been either of them😭 #kimberly wexler the woman that you are #also how has it only been a year and a half i already forgot everything that happened #KIM IRS OOO #they need to soppppp stop kissing like that okayy we get it #I HATE TO IS SO MUCH knowing it's doomed the narrative oh my god i'm having the worst time and they don't even know it i think that's the wo #wosttt part is they don't but every person watching does #my fidgety princess #wait what #WHAT #WHAT!?? kim waht i'm sorry what #cant even face the television screen i think this sweater i've seen before it's gag i love you so what i'm so scared HOW DID WE END UP HERE #yeah he breakdown on twitter but like i still can't get over how there were years they didn't speak to each other didn't see each other didn #didn't know straight up if they were dead or alive i'm sick to my stomach over it #AR LEAST WE GET A B&W OF KIM i literlaly don't know i wouldn't have made it

[clouvu]

Save me french yuri... Save me

#genshin impact #arledrone #sandrone #arlecchino #haha remember when we all thought that sandrone and arlecchino would both show up in fontaine and be gay together? #good times.... good times #jk i'm ready to end it all actually #I KNOW WE HAVE LIKE ONE LAST MAJOR FRENCH PATCH BEFORE NATLAN BUT IVE JUST ABOUT LOST ALL HOPE #the way that literally every wlw arle pairing got fed so well following arle's drip marketing EXCEPT for arledrn... hate it here so bad #anyways shipping aside HOW is it possible that the frenchiest of french harbingers with heavy ties to machinery #and like two major world quests tied to specifically to her lore and is even MENTIONED of being present in fontaine #also being one of the first harbingers ever mentioned dating back all the way to the description of chode's teaser trailer #just???? doesnt show up?????? #Sandy enjoyers are stronger than any us marine because my GOD are we struggling out here #anyways ignore the fact that I completely forgot to draw sandy's wind up key it was hard drawing through the tears #(actually it was cause i half-assed this doodle but we dont talk about that)

[artfulacrostic]

memes for The Bad Batch 3x02, "Paths Unknown"

*SPOILERS*

edit: almost forgot the best one 😳

#the bad batch #the bad batch season 3 #tbb #tbb s3 #tbb season 3 #tbb spoilers #tbb hunter #tbb wrecker #tbb stak #tbb deke #tbb mox #tbb gonky #pyke syndicate #sarlacc #r makes memes #btw the first appearance of h and w this season and they look fucking DEAD #they look so gd tired and i'm so sad for them #and no echo at all #he's off w rex 😭😭😭😭 #i hate it here #r tags

[sunnymainecoonx]

Bad Sans Poly for my dearest @cakesmelons ;3

I had an art crisis the entire year so I'm like experimenting and testing with art and sh- so here you go, some bad sans snuggles(I'm still relearning how to draw, barely recovered)

#man I love polys #now I have to do tagging 😒 #bad sans poly #bad Sanses #killer sans #cross sans #dust sans #horror Sans #nightmare sans #sanscest #uh #polyamory #I'm not tagging individual ships here #I never liked tags #I I don't think there's anything else important to tag so I'm gonna die again #I swear if someone reads these tags #it is I. future sunny. I fcking hate this post pls leave it alone TnT #it's been over a week I think it's time to stop giving it attention...please? #UwU

[triaelf9]

hey folks who interact with creative works online! just a tiny PSA

If you don't like a character, that's totally fine! If you have a different reading of a situation in a show & have issues with stuff that's going on, that's also fine.

What is NOT fine is to ACTIVELY SEEK OUT fans of the characters you don't like and talk shit about them, the characters they have feelings about, or the content they've posted b/c you, Freddy McHatesalot really needs to tell everyone how much you dislike a...fictional character.

You are totally welcome to consume content in your own space in whatever way you see fit. It is disrespectful of the fandom space to try to drag other people into your space and interact with you if they don't want to. And dunking on a character in writings or art of them is fucking rude as hell to the person who put work into into the creation they made out of some feelings they were having.

Also. side note, it is possible to enjoy a character who is Wrong About Some Things or Isn't Doing The Right Stuff In The Right Situation. Sometimes it's possible to like a character and disagree with them, and shitting on people b/c you can't see what they see in a character is pretty trash garbage and is 90% of why I just make silly little art for me and my own silly feels and hope folks get a chuckle or some enjoyment out of it too.

#Behave better #and if you can't behave yourself I'm not going to play into your little hate roleplay #you can do that elsewhere while I enjoy the nuance in my media thankss #don't pull me or my work into your weird vendetta against fictional characters #I draw art for me and for anyone who is feeling like I am #to jump in and be like “this person is the shittiest & I hate them” on that creation is ummmmm #why I don't interact with fandom like I used to #b/c if people can't control themselves it spoils the whole pot #I don't like some characters and stories and ships #does anyone here who isn't a close friend of me irl even know what they are? #no b/c I don't find that worthwhile to spend my time doing #I don't fill my page with hate for fictional characters. I post what I enjoy and share it to put more joy out there in the world #sorry this is so long #I'm just fucking pissed b/c I thought we were past this bad behavior #and I'm too old too tired too busy and too stressed to have to put up with this shit. Grow up.

[vaguely-concerned]

I have seen people question whether dios apate minor really needed to happen the way it did. it's the 'this could have been an email' of htn. 'augustine this did not have to be a threesome', I hear people saying. and boy do I have an obnoxious amount of things to say to protest this perfectly sensible assertion so here we go haha

1) yes it absolutely had to be like that. It says so on this piece of paper *hands you a piece of paper that says "because I said so and also it's narratively and thematically Sexy"* in my half-legible handwriting. seeing tamsyn muir describe harrow the ninth as a book about being a kid and realizing your parents probably had sex has given me such validation, I am unstoppable now. (to be serious for a moment, harrow the ninth is essentially a bildungsroman, and the threesome scene does a whole lot of thematic heavy lifting around harrow glimpsing elements of adulthood, relationships, and sexuality she clearly finds at the same time repulsive, bewildering and fascinating, and around opening her and especially our eyes to how much john is just a man with human longings still, under the god stuff. dios apate is crucial plot- and character-wise too -- it's a loadbearing threesome in terms of delivering the clues you need to piece together the mystery plot of the book, which is simply delightful -- but even more so thematically. and then the scene at the end where they confront john gives gideon some of that same opportunity to peek into adulthood and go '...well shit I guess', as a sort of mirror, just without the french kissing that time and more murder. the things magnus and abigail model for the girls about love and adulthood? mercy and augustine are providing the opposite-day batshit insane version of that fhdskjfa, you know, for contrast and spice)

2) listen... it gets lonely out there in deep space with your 'legendary unamorous' brother, two infant pathetic baby kitten sisters who you'll probably have to kill one day when you take another stab at god if they don't manage to get themselves killed along the way on their own, and the two people you've spent the last ten thousand years having separate yet connected married & divorced arcs with and also btw one of them is god... honestly a threesome over the dinner table is probably The most well-adjusted reaction one might hope for under those circumstances

3) on a characterization level I think Augustine is actually doing something incredibly deliberate with it: he's presenting John with yet another chance to admit what he did. which is notable especially since the deal he and mercy agree on as a condition for the threesome to happen at all seems to be that they're going to give the ol' godslaying another game try sooner rather than later. (I get the sense that it's not so much that he disagrees with her ultimate goal so much as that he thinks she's being dangerously indiscreet and hasty going about it, before. “though I think it will be the death of us,” huh.)

notice how he's structuring the whole thing: he's invoking the intimacy and love in their strange little threeway relationship and how long it's been by truly playing along with john's 'we're a happy family really when we're at home! :)' delusion (helped along by lowered inhibitions via enormous amounts of alcohol and what I've previously described as a joint mercy/augustine leyendecker themed thirst trap. ah, a classic). he brings up alecto and what happened to her -- or rather, he is clever enough to make john bring up alecto and how she is totally dead, right?? by seeming to make a careless statement that leads there and then acting contrite about it after. he (helped along by mercy, who I think realizes exactly what he's doing -- this is very much a two-man con) brings up how much they all loved their cavaliers, and wow funny how that's been haunting us for ten thousand years now huh :) wow, a lot of our other lyctor friends slash family sure are super dead in the name of some unknowable greater reason neither of us quite grasp and that you won't fucking tell us, aren't they. these are all the main grievances he and mercy confront john about at the end of the book, but put forth much more subtly and not phrased as an accusation -- he's baring his and mercy's vulnerabilities as bait, essentially. if john had, say, a conscience where his conscience should be instead of a black hole, it probably should have stirred something in him.

(also let me just say... the way augustine just takes a pneumatic drill to the TWO tender spots g1deon seems to have and then has the audacity to be like 'oh dear. did that upset him. ooof my bad *loooong dead-eyed slurp of his wine*' is just sooo... he's such a bitch!!! he's the only person who could ever have held their own in a ten-thousand-year bitch-off with mercy and I love him so much. well even if it wasn't all to get g1deon into murder range for harrow I think he wouldn't enjoy sticking around for the 'getting our tongues on god' part of the evening so maybe it's a kindness, really, and totally not pent-up aggression from the last twenty years or so breaking through)

he is all but shaking john by the lapels begging him to just... come clean about it already, to stop thinking he's still kidding everyone else along with himself. it's clear throughout the book that augustine knows exactly what john is at this point -- and all of the most cynical things he does say about it turn out to be distressingly right. john is always less sentimental than you'd think. john wouldn't forgive mercy, he will abandon in a heartbeat anything that isn’t necessary to him anymore, whether emotionally or in some other way. and still he seems to hold out some desperate absurd hope that the man he wants, the man he thought was there, is in there, somewhere deep deep down, if he just gives him the chance to show himself.

(mercy definitely has her own side of this whole thing, I'm just focusing more on augustine because this evening was like. his idea in the first place and I feel like we can Read Some Things into that fact lol. now that we have both ntn and htn to go from I sort of have this sense that the things augustine wants from john are more... personal? more interpersonal? they both love him equally, but mercy's love seems tinged slightly more towards the religious (augustine accuses her of knowing 'only worship without adoration', which like... also the eight house's entire Vibe lol) -- mercy at the end of that book is totally a person breaking up with GOD, not just with john -- while augustine's vibe is more like a man in the last not-with-a-bang-but-a-whimper days of a marriage that sort of felt like it could have been something real and good once but all your illusions about it have since been taken from you and trampled underfoot into the mud and you've had the divorce papers signed and ready in a drawer for over a year now, hell, as it turns out, is other people etc. lmao)

having a threesome over the dinner table with god is one thing, having a threesome over the dinner table centered on the one man and god who has yet again let you down in a way so fundamental it can barely fit into words and who you both still love in a way anyway, miserably, and also just reaffirmed your joint resolution to murder (all under the pretense that it gives your baby sisters the chance to murder your brother of ten thousand years yeah that's why this is happening no other underlying aching emotional motivations here haha)... listen mercy and augustine are simply on a different level, theologically. they've added horny shrimp colours to the religious spectrum. who else does it like them

#the locked tomb #harrow the ninth #augustine the first #mercymorn the first #john gaius #dios apate minor #bad cop worse cop and sorry cop #augustine 'when I die I want john to lower my casket #not so he can let me down one last time that's honestly a given at this point #if at all possible I just want to pull him down into the grave with me' quinque #first saint to serve the king undying #nona the ninth spoilers #nominally? in that I am saying there's relevant information to this polycule clusterfuck in it? eh let's just be safe lol #just when you thought I had no more thoughts about the terrible old people to unleash upon you... here I am again hahaha #the locked tomb meta #also yeah I mean I guess they didn't actually have to get their tongues on god on-page for all this to still be true #but I'm glad they did let them have some lyctor enrichment #hate fucking is actually lyctor love language hashtag did u kno

[bunnyboilewd]

I dunno, maybe everyone on here saying how much they hate men even in little funny Tumblr speak might be damaging for all the trans men trying to escape reality on the "we love gays" site.

Like I'll be scrolling and see so many m/m ships and in the same scroll see "imagine men, ew." "At least I don't like men."

I know it's hehe funny site, but maybe we could also love men and not cringe at their mere existence.

Trans men, cis men, and masc identifying I love you, I support you and I hope you are loved by those around you.

#men #being male isnt a sin #why dont we love men when they arent our gay blorbos #i try so hard to follow people who are supposedly for equal rights but its starting to look like misandry runs rampant here #this isnt to say men can be without faults but just being male isnt a bad thing #hate speech is fucked up when its about literally just a person existing #I'm just so tired of it all

[byronicbi]

did you guys know i'm a writer? yeah i had no idea either.

anyway, AMAPOLAS IN THE DESERT is a new short story (3.4k words) that just went up for free on patreon if anyone's feeling zesty and wants to read about a displaced latino roaming the american southwest, coming across a questionable watering hole, getting flirted with by trickster gods, and getting torn asunder by a trans woman who may or may not be a primordial deity.

but also, for like a whole $1, you can get access to a T4T sci-fi romance short (8k words) inspired by H.G. Wells' The Time Machine.

but also also, i've got a couple of nonfiction essays dropping next year where i set out to piss people off by arguing that their favorite pieces of media are grossly mis-categorized (in a fun and non-judgy way; and who knows, it might make it onto podcast or even video format if i can afford to outsource editing). among other things.

#yes i am extremely worried about my finances now that i have a ton of medical stuff to deal with #but i hate asking for donos and shit. i also hate locking stuff behind paywalls. i'm just BAD at this. #so like. yeah here's how you can keep my ass from going insane. 'but mitch it's free' LISTEN I KNOW. leave me alone. #text tag #if y'all let this flop i am spiritually shoving you into an animatronic suit and triggering the springlocks (with love)

[craycraybluejay]

yeah yeah you hate me I'm an evil disgusting perverted manwhore we have each other blocked everywhere blah blah but I know you still jerk off to me and I know it makes you hate yourself a bit because you don't have the strength to accept the darker parts of your desire. but you can't help yourself and I take pleasure in the knowledge.

#this pussy makes homosexual men hate themselves !! #this tdick makes you want to kill yourself !! #this wretched and desirous personality has captivated you so !! #pussy change your life like im god~ they always fall in love not my fault~ #im never pickin up when they call~ #<- song lyrics #you want to fuck me so bad it makes you act stupid !! #im genuinely not mad people are generally going to end up hating themselves too much to be chill #but i am having a wild laugh bc this mf who told me i'm a gross freak also told me that he has sex dreams about me regularly #like yeah ok faggot #watch this loser text me in like a year apologizing for being a judgy little bitch begging me to respond LMFAO #thank u next hoe !! #idk its extra liberating to not only decide to be more choosy but also to know they obsessed #how's the vanilla boyfriend taste? can he get you off 7 times in a row? does he make you feel free and hedonistic? #anyway yeah im just being mean here bc its a mood boost i would not say this shit to anyone lmao #trust me bro i am literally the last person to cross the line when i get emotional (usually excited sometimes angry or horny) #ok no im a little prone to excitedly infodumping for 8 hrs but i try not to offend people #making enemies for no reason is a terrible idea

[stuckinapril]

i think i officially set my sights on a therapist and i'll be contacting her very soon?? therapy was legitimately not on my 2024 bingo card (or in the cards for me at all) but here we are????

#this blog always had a focus on social science and detangling feelings and experiences. like it's basically been serving as my diary #bc this blog has always been my main outlet for it. i hate talking feelings to anyone irl. it's a bad habit but i hate it #so it was a game changer and helped me grow up sooo much. esp supplemented w other people's experiences. #being raised by a stoic engineer mother who's very much warm but also not very good at feelings at times has caused me to suppress SO much #compounded w being the eldest daughter. like that is a damning sentence in and of itself #tumblr just gave me an outlet for stuff like this. and every social media is essentially a highlight reel of ppl's best moments. #tumblr is the opposite. i've always loved that too whether it was in the form of humor or more earnest posts #could i work through my own issues by myself? yes probably #and my blog will always have that facet even if i get a therapist #but a therapist's input. just a professional's input. will expedite a lot of improvement for me i think #this has been a critical time period for me anyway bc i'm budgeting my whole schedule for once vs being handheld by uni deadlines #and it's just gonna keep getting more and more intense from here bc i'm truly pushing my comfort zone more than ever before #it just feels like the right call even tho i'm lowkey nervous ab it bc i HATE talking feelings in person. #this therapist will not fall for my trying to deflect by asking her about her life. which. usually works on my friends <3 #we will see. a therapy arc is coming very soon basically #p

[eternalglitch]

PSA: my fanfics are all now locked for AO3 users only!

This is due to the rise of AI scraping fanfics to unfairly repurpose our skills without permission. If you want to read my works, please login or create an AO3 account to do so - it's very easy to do and gives lots of other perks like being able to subscribe for updates from fanfics you are reading.

#glitch speaks #I'm annoyed I have to do this BUT WELL #I hate how AI is being used so much right now lol #I also work in tech as a job and it's bad out here SIGHS.

[krussyarts]

I'm gonna throw up my brain is so full of these two

#Posting ugly wips motivates me to finish a piece #So uh. Here's the ugly wip #Good Omens #Good Omens 2 #aziraphale #crowley #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #God im sick #It may not look it #But I'm much worse about Aziraphale than Crowley #I want to pick his brain so bad #I need to see him suffer #I need him to hit his lowest point next season #This startet with Aziraphale having gay panic over a slightly more possessive arm on shoulder #And then spiraled into me drawing David Tennant a million times (don't ask about the sketches) #this has been sitting in my drafts for 6 months help #i forgor to post this #to be fair i guess. after saving this i had made some pretty big changes to the layout and i redid the lineart #and then my laptop died. for some reason nothing was saved so yeah. i hate looking at this lowkey so ill post smth else soon

[qcomicsy]

Reading fanfic instead of sleeping until 5 am just for the last chapters turn out really bad might be my 13 reason

#i laughed a lot #ngl #but the end was really bad #I'm so fucking upset I could be in in the last ladder of the sleepness but here I am #this is how I remember myself that I just really hate fanfic tonal changes stick with the tone ffs I'm so mad #q rambles

[mattodore]

guy whose childhood drags behind him like a dead body

#river dipping #simblr #ts4 #ts4 edit #theodore doe #echthroi #i forgot to post this after sharing theo's birthday edit last night... listen i was so tired i just hit post and passed out #but so far today i've just been looking through character page themes for a bit and messing around with codes while watching dropout tv #i still need to get to my activity feed sometime today or tomorrow and then i want to set aside some time to just hang out on here #and catch up on things like i keep disappearing and missing out on posts jgkhjfnkh so i gotta do that... #but i'm actually fighting off the world's biggest nap rn..... my meds work really well but lord i'm still so tired all the time woof #so i'll probably end up caving soon lmao #but!!! anyway!! THEO!!! there was nothing i could do abt the proportions on theo as a kid like i couldn't make his head any smaller... #the sims team actually hate me so bad and are trying to force the huge cartoonishly big heads onto my sims </3 #also when i aged him down to a kid like all of his presets were gone so i just had to try and replicate them to the best of my abilities #his lip preset actually has a much deeper cupid's bow but thanks to the liquify tool <33333 it looks like his regular preset #i've actually posted teen theo on here before but i've made a ton of changes to him since then so this version is pretty different compared #to the older version of him at sixteen #he's definitely got more baby fat than he did before like his cheeks are pretty round #um. also i have these closeups i took of adult theo from the pose i made for his birthday edit that i gotta edit a lil and then post!!! #bc you really didn't get to see his expression or the actual pose that well and EYEEEE personally am really in love with the details #of the pose itself like ugh.......... theo is so.......................... yeah. #holds him

[sergle]

also I know ppl hate vetting ingredients, but also want to know what I mean when I say Bad Ingredients, and I’m generally talking about the stuff that’s pretty high on the “might irritate skin” to “I WILL give you cancer and that IS A PROMISE” scale. this is the list I refer to when ingredient checking

Fragrance / Parfum Butylphenyl Methylpropional Butylparaben / Benzylparaben Isobutylparaben / 2-Methylpropyl Methylparaben / Methyl Ester / 4-Hydroxybenzoic Acid Ethylparaben Propylparaben Octinoxate / Ethylhexyl Methoxycinnamate / 2-Ethylhexyl / DEHP DMDM Hydantoin Diazolidinyl Urea / imidazolidinyl urea Almond Fragrancealpha-Isomethyl / Ionone / Laurel Fragrance Oleth-10 Ammonium Chloride Alpha-Isomethyl Ionone Cocamide DEA / Coconut Diethanolamide Selenium Sulfide Ammonium Lauryl Sulfate Laureth-23 / Laureth / Laureth-3 / Laureth-12 / Laureth-10 / Laureth-4 / most of the laureths with a number after them

#I know everyone hates it when I talk about irritants and carcinogens in beauty products. hey. I don't care. It's 3am #and I used to get hives every time I showered and now I don't. explain that atheists #there are one or two on here that are less bad and some that are basically biohazards and I'm amazed that #they get put into products that are meant to go all over your skin #but I try and avoid all of them if I can... #I know fragrance is difficult to avoid but it's the Mystery Boy bc fragrance itself isn't ingredient #so much as it is a catch-all term for a mixture of [redacted] used to make the fragrance #so it automatically is suspicious bc its ingredients are essentially Legally Undisclosed and I don't trust like that #so a lot of the stuff I try to go for is unscented completely #it just takes the guesswork out for me #sergle.txt #you can google these individual ingredients if you want to look more into exactly what risks they bring to the table #but this is just My List

[iluvmatt]

chapter ten, boyfriend, girlfriend? taglist: @taking-a-footnote-in-your-life​, @lostwonderwall​, @lomlolivia​, ​@sturniolomads, @kylespencersvocalcords, @stxrniqlo, @sophialimass, @loonielol, @siriusfahey, @getbillzoned, @kjd55, @ceceswriting​, @dancingintheedark​, @yoongoboongo, reach out to be added :-)

new plans, matt sturniolo smau synopsis: coming home for the holidays has its perks; you get to see your childhood best friends again, you get to spend the holidays with the people you’ve always loved, and the list goes on. of course, it also had its cons— you have to face your best friend, matt, the one that you’re madly in love with and have been in love with since you were merely thirteen. little do you know, though, that he’s dealing with the same mixed emotions of you and the holidays; biting his nails as he waits for you to knock on his front door.

previous ♡ end. | m.list © iluvmatt, 2022.

#nick just wanted to take all the credit although at one point in a previous chapter he said 'we' and i respect him for that! #but here we are #at the end of something i've put my entire heart into. #i'm so excited to make more stories for you all and i hope the ending wasn't too bad. #i hate ending things so i just wanted to make it lighthearted #like with chris and his jokes; the litany of bickering #and of course matt and y/n being sappy!! #who knows; maybe i'll write about their relationship at some point based on this au. #but thank you all for staying and following me through this journey. #i should have named the last chapter 'confessions' but i'm also nitpicking myself SO! maybe that's why i'm overthinking #but i'm also so devastated to let new plans end. it truly has made me so happy to meet you all through this story #i hope my new pieces keep us together. #thank you all for giving me this opportunity and being here #i love you all. #matt sturniolo x reader #matthew sturniolo #matt sturniolo #matt sturniolo x you #matthew sturniolo fic #matt sturniolo smau #matt sturniolo fanfic #sturniolo triplets #sturniolo #sturniolo triplets smau #nick sturniolo #nicolas sturniolo #chris sturniolo #christopher sturniolo #sturniolo triplets fic