#i have to find time for myself first <3 !!!!

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Valentine's Day! (and this blog's first post anniversary!)

#poorly drawn mdzs #better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Woah...it's been a whole *year* since I took the leap and uploaded my 'first attempt' art. #It's outdated now but it holds a special place in my heart for the fact it started all of this off. #Calling this 'poorly-drawn' was always about accepting that my art was going to be imperfect and messy - and doing it anyways! #There has been a staggering number of times I have drawn something I almost didn't upload because I didn't think it was 'good enough' #only for someone to say they liked it - or that it made them laugh. And it has helped me realize - #-The worst critic for my work has always been myself. If I listened to it all the time...well we would not be here now B'*) #And now that I have dabbled in other fandoms I can truly see how lucky was to start out with the MXTX fans. #The supportive messages and tags have truly been a guiding force toward my artistic and self improvement. #I really can't describe how grateful I am. #Thank you for seeing something worth rooting for when I was just figuring things out. #Thank you for being sweeter than the candy I have strategically hidden in the nooks and crannies of this house. #But watch out! If you forget to find them we will get ants. #I remembered to not hide chocolate in the bed this year. Yes I know it melted last time. Yes it did stain. I'm still sorry. #Thank you for loving me regardless <3 Even if it looked like I shit the bed real bad.

[heleizition]

hi :) ! i’m eddy, a young justice & ocs artist !

you can now support me on ko-fi ! i do not take commissions at the moment and i hope i never will have to ever again tho !!!! thank u for understanding <33

#artist support #digital art #NO COMMISSIONS EVER AGAIN IF I CAN !!! #i have to find time for myself first <3 !!!!

[burinazar]

Oh, wait, wait, ok, I can tell tumblr my news now.

I was accepted into the JET Program and will be moving to Japan for one year starting in late summer to teach English. : )

I don't know how many other applicants have ever had either of my specific application 'angles'. I think they were both pretty weird, but also very, very me, and I'm pleasantly surprised that they seemed to have worked, going off both by the acceptance and the very positive and warm reactions I got during the interview I had. These were:

Science/scicomm/museum background + implying mutual interest in and love of like insects and sea life could be an avenue of intercultural connection and exchange

India and Japan have always struck me as weirdly similar in ways nobody seems to discuss, especially in both being simultaneously hurtling into modernity and deeply traditional/conservative in many ways and places

So. Is this a silly idea considering most people in this program are fresh college grads, and people my age are expected to maybe be getting more settled rather than hopping continents? Is this a scary idea, considering I'll have to uproot all my shit and go exist in a foreign country whose language I really don't know beyond miniscule smatterings? I mean, hmm, yes on both counts, but I'm very excited. On count one, I'd only get older in the future and demonstrably *don't* already have a settled life and career here to disrupt (lol), and on count two...guys, I'm so so tired of letting fear and inertia make my life decisions.

Time to pack up and store most of my shit and end my lease and. Yeah. Also I haven't actually been to India in five years and will probably try to visit my relatives there in the coming months since idk if i'd had an opportunity for a prolonged visit in the future during the one year (at least) in jp. I'll also be probably selling, trading, or giving away a lot more of my hobby shit (that was sort of an ongoing project already but since I'll be unable to use most of it for a year plus it's another reason to do so), so uh, if you've ever wished I would sell any of my dolls now might be time to commit BJD Hobby Taboo and ask me lol. And, obviously, I'll be studying more Japanese, because mine is incredibly へたくそ at the moment. So much to do. But I'm really excited. And thank you to all of y'all that have been encouraging to me about anything related to this matter <3

#i don't know where they'll put me but i asked for ibaraki prefecture #during my research i became really endeared by the idea of The Prefecture Everyone Thinks is Ugly and Boring lol #seems like a good combo of 'not too far from urban things + cost of living + genuinely there ARE nice natural and cultural things there' #they could put me anywhere though lol #already one of my fandom friends from there wants to meet up ;; im so flattered #im obviously not going there to do doll and fandom bullshit but that stuff will be a nice bonus in off time #i have very little idea on what to expect specifically re japanese attitudes to south asian people and am interested to find out #and maybe be a bunch of kids' first exposure to both americans and south asians and like immigrants as a concept : 3 #keeping my expectations tempered though. It Could Suck #but it'll suck in a novel way and truly i thrive on novelty even though often i take the easy and familiar path to try to protect myself #just. aaAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaa scary but exciting im so excited

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

for some reason im really feeling the Queer Euphoria in this chilis tonight, specifically: being so ambiguous its hilarious. there is No label to describe my orientation/gender. like yeah i use nonbinary bc technically it fits but also bc the flag Fucks. if asked, my only correct answer would be "Wildcard, Motherfucker!"

#both change on a daily basis #gender depends on vibes. weather. A Cool Art Piece I Saw On Tumblr. a dream i had the night prior. what im doing at the moment. song playin #i use & prefer they/them but really anything is free game For The Bit. i am willing to play pretend and try on different hats! #orientation depends on who im looking at in the moment. like i consistently surprise myself with who i do/dont find attractive #it also happens.... less than id expect. but when it does happen its a very strong Ohhhhhh. Ohoho Hi Heyyyy<3 moment #BUT OH ITS SO FUN TO BE UNLABELABLE #thats not a word! except yes it is! #i take the boxes people try to put me in. i make a sickass fort outta them & add blankets and pillows & paint #there is a drawbridge and a moat. and origami dragons! #its so so fun #but also very annoying on the rare occasion im asked what i am #like! fuck if i know! this is my first time being alive! its none of my business! i have bigger omelets to burn! #its like.... #'are you gay' yes but also no 'are you a lesbian' yes but also no 'are you bi' yes but also no 'are you-' Yes But Also No. #again: wildcard. #absolutely unprompted #its like... oh man if i wasnt so squeamish about syringes i could make my gender Soooo Me <3 #bc i want a deeper voice but i like my body how it is. mostly. its literally just my voice that i dont like #& facial hair would be nice but also do i want to deal with the hassle that is shaving. no i do not <3 #still i cherish the two hairs i have on my chin. theyre so neat #i wish skirts were comfortable. i need a better eyeliner pen. i need more tank tops and a good binder. i want to confuse people #and then like... women with deep voices and men who're all dolled up and ambiguous folks who are so visibly queer- #there is so much to love everywhere and i do not care for the generally excepted/used fences people keep putting up #im ripping up their signs and kicking over the fences. Let Us Roam Free Range #shoutout to all my fellow Idk What The Fuck I Am And I Like It That Way homies. we're so funky #and you're So fucking valid. you don't need a label and you don't need a description. you are so so so awesome and rad as hell

[merry-finches]

YAAAY TECH ISSUES RESOLVED!

HAPPY "SECRET" GIFT DAY TO....Mo!! <3<3<3 @lotrmusical

Where would we all be without you? :>

I'm so happy to be a part of this little fandom, everyone is so welcoming and joyful and skilled and friendly, gahhhh I'm never over it. And creative, oh my goodness, when I have half a moment to indulge in everyone's amazing creations I've caught glimpses of 👀

So please enjoy mine, I hope you love it :] 💚

I had entirely too much fun pulling from all sorts of places for the construction of this gift 👀 I... wonder... if they will all be obvious! Please do tell me what you spot :] (the invitation is open to all to yell with me always)

I think I managed to hit most of your likes list in one way or another ^.^

And a happy birthday to jirt too!

Heydey 🦵🦵🙌🧍(that looks deranged out of context someone take emojis away from me or get us better ones :D )

🌻🍃🌼🦌🐞🍀🐦🌸🐝☘🐞🐎🌼🍃🌻

#ive not been around tumblr lately (tragic) life is such a bully but the second i can I am ZOOMING to look at everyone's stuff !!!! omg!!! #@my gifter i saw your post and i am an inarticulate ball of mush about it i am going to read it and EXPLODE and CRY #lotr musical exchange #lotr musical #Aaaaaaaaaaaah <3 #to be honest i am refraining from spilling the beans exploding abt what i put in here #mostly because i want them to be discovered in real time so anyone listening can have the same feeling i did when i put it together #but also a little bit because I've hit the limit on feeling obnoxious I'm that pleased with myself 😅 I'm rly proud of this #i deserve it tho after yesterday drafting this post all excited only to upload it the first time and find out the audio was no good. crushe #vibrating with the amount of synchronicity you can find in this music and ACROSS MEDIA and you nudge it and wiggle it and it all FITS #absolutely shatnering myself into the wall. that both the musical and the movie draw a parallel between Boromir and Frodo through MUSIC!! #i did not end up including that particular howard shore-ism for style reasons but I Thought about it #anyway <3 christ. follow for more unhinged guy going feral about all things musical and all things hobbits #🐟🥛 #im so nervous at the same time posting this hfhfjd

[tio-trile]

This is about GOS2 but not quite -just wanted to tell you how refreshing (and calming) it is to see someone dislike something, or disagree with something, or someone (Neil, in this case) while being completely polite and respectful to people who do like it (the show, the ship, this season specifically, whatever) and not doing personal attacks or being insulting or downright hostile or aggressive. Just... Liking what you like, not liking what you don't like, and being in your own "bubble" so to speak. I adore the first season, and some moments in this one (not the season in general), and I've had to see and start avoiding absolutely wild stuff since 2019, from haughty superiority from book first fans calling people who liked the show absolute idiots, people directly attacking fanwork creators or even Tennant, Sheen and Gaiman themselves, to even worse stuff I'd rather not think about. As you can probably already imagine, that specific kind of dumpster fire has only gotten worse since the release of S2.

My take on fandom has always been to enjoy what you enjoy and ignore the rest unless it's something serious with real-world implications or consequences. It's always stressed me out how people can get, to the point that for several years I stopped engaging with fandom entirely, and I just wanted to say this, I guess, because it's been a breath of fresh air. I wish more people engaged with fictional material and fandom the way you do. Cheers, hope you have nice day and that this wasn't too weird of a message to get

This is really beautifully put, thank you for the nice message! Yeah all-in-all, these are just a show/a book/content made for people's entertainment, and there's absolutely no reason to get to the point of attacking the cast and crew or fans personally.

#ask #nice ppl #I'm not gonna pretend that I'm always level-headed and calm but I know better than to lash out on a public blog that everyone can see #And 1. Neil Gaiman WAS still following me on the first few days after the show came out at the peak of my anger so #as mad as I was I still can't bring myself to say the worst words in front of my...mutual...? 😂 so thank you Neil for controlling me ig LOL #2. some of my old friends actually really liked the show and that doesn't change how much I like them? #Just like how my friends and I have different opinions on media all the time? Sometimes I'm in the majority sometimes I'm in the minority #3. I have outlets aka DMs and groupchats with like-minded ppl (or ppl who don't care) who I trust where I can spew the worst venom 🤣 #Basically where nobody else on the receiving end will ever be able to see #So I guess the lesson is...find someone you can confide in so you don't have to show your true colors to everybody #so you can appear calm and collected in public alksdjhalskdhas

[roitaminnah]

hey have u guys read the fic bandit queens of the mont satiné shopping mall. (shaking through tears) i think u should. join me in my insanity <3

#butterfly soup #ppkm #pretend this is framed and colored really well it did not turn out exactly as i envisioned. also technically #i wanted to start the line earlier but . i didn't leave enough room on the paper! oops! so #you'll just have to read the fic! to find out what it was <3 #I've read it so many times because uh. it makes me so insane (positive). this scene and . so many others #written in such a way that highlights what i love about the ppkm dynamic so much. i'm illiterate i can't describe it perfect but #I'd. i wanted to do more of the scene where they were actually on the carousel but i thought about drawing horse and was like. nope. #but it is so good. the. ouhhhhhhhh. ohhhhhhhhhhhh. #funny story i am terrible at reading (adhd) and when i get excited I skip lines on accident #and the first time around I missed the line where they get off the carousel so I imagined them having this intense conversation while #still on the carousel spinning around. made myself so dizzy. sob emoji #anyways this??? the confession???? illegal activity??!! queer activity????!!! gamestop?????!!!???? *explodes* #i duno what else to say I'm exploding . maybe i'll draw more who knows who knows . peepeeketchup man . chomping at the bars of my enclosure #wow not purple! (they drew the whole thing in purple originally and then decided it was not *the vibe* so he added 400 multiply layers) #roi draws

[skeletalheartattack]

re: your recent tags about the gameboy sp! that boy's got headphone adapters i POMISE!!!

the magic of modern science. wow...

#ask #sapphicdroid #i did look it up to fact check myself after i reblogged the post and saw the adapters #honestly when i was younger i never knew it didnt have a headphone jack #granted the only time i ever saw one in person was on the school bus with a friend #he played pokemon blue on it and i dont remember the details of all that went on during #i mightve also seen another kid on the bus play pokemon emerald. i dont remember. #however that was my first exposure to gen 3 pokemon. as a kid i only knew about Red Blue Yellow and Crystal #my brothers had Red and Blue. and so thusly i have both games now. i... dont know where my copy of Red is though. #i have a copy of Yellow from Ebay but it loses its memory sometimes. which i think is why it was put on Ebay in the first place #Crystal however? well first i knew of gen 2 through pokemon stadium 2 #we had both pokemon stadiums for the n64. or. well. still do have them. #speaking of. sure does suck to go through the gym leaders and elite 4 in those games. mostly due to how long rounds are. #emulated it a while back and i had to use the fast forward feature a lot #anyway. Crystal. somehow i got my copy from a random coat in a clothing store. just. in the pocket. #i dont know how i managed to find it. it was either in a coat my mom was looking at or i was looking through pockets... probably the former #anyway within like a week. a kid in 3rd grade stole it from me #i... think i got to the elite 4? i remember getting to the last dude with the charizard. forgive me for forgetting his name. #but like right after i had it stolen. i got on the bus and vented to my friend and he was like ''oh i have two copies of crystal'' #and then gave his second copy to me. i forget if it was on the day of or if it was the next day. #anyway that same day it got stolen again. by the same kid. that kid stole so much shit from me #he switched schools the next year so i couldnt do anything about it #i have uhhh... soul silver now. so its not that big of a deal these days #anyway thank you for the ask :) i appreciate you telling me anyway

[mattodore]

#river dipping #ts4 #echthroi #matthias evanoff #...theo's there too but let's leave that tag out #looking at all the screenshots i took the other day that i simply can't share here lest the vultures descend upon me to feast <3 #his eyelashes are so long it's one of my favorite aspects of his appearance but bc of the dof i use sometimes they get blurred away... #jail. jail for the dof guy. #also...... i really need to either recolor his brows myself or find different brows for him in a lighter swatch #his eyes are a little different here bc i changed his preset....................... you honestly probably can't even tell tho #i make the world's SMALLEST changes to my ocs at a time #the biggest change they've ever had was either when i first revamped their sims back in like... 2019? (this was before my simblr era) #or june earlier this year when i finally was like okay. let's fix theo's hairline. and got super distracted jdkhjf #anyway. this is from another mattodore pose i made... bc yea i make poses knowing full well that they'll never see the light of day <3 #it's abt love for the craft ykwim #...anyway i didn't take a single photo that i can use for nene so i'll have to go in game later today 🧘

[lottieurl]

why don’t you carry me home

care by robot koch

#clexa #clexaedit #yea im tagging those #i spent way too much time rotating the words on those screenshots lmao #believe it or not the way they are rotated and what direction the uh quotes leaning in and so on all have a meaning #cause im unwell #like on the last space pic the 'i belong' is in the exact middle of it cause um well meeting of the sky and earth on the horizon? #i said theres meaning i didnt say its coherent #the first carry me home leans down cause clarke needs to fall down to the ground to find hers <3 #then on the ground those two pics its straight line in the middle cause again. horizon #the last one is both just how the entire song feels like it loops on itself constantly #plus im thinking clarke was circling earth in the ark and theres no end to a circle and also! its them in a little bubble #coherence left the chat sorry i cant words right now #also i liked how those space parts are very dark and so are those first parts with lexa like a familiarity #(and cause they understand each other's darkest experiences) #but then the last one is a brand new color palette just engulfed in the gold #again target audience me myself and i #i wanted to make a fanvid out of this but my laptop hates me #anyways the 'to where i belong' needed to be on the clarke drawing pics cause im presently unwell abt that #she covers her cell in the ark in drawings of earth!!!!!! and the first thing she draws on earth!!!!!! is lexa #things i should have processed in 2016 but didn't etc

[thegeekyartist]

I haven't napped this much since I was on antidepressants

#im so exhausted #im sad and anxious and my stomach feels like its on fire rn #i got abnormal blood test results on Friday right when all the offices closed #after going to the hospital that morning for OTHER test results that were extremely concerning #(only to find out THOSE results were a mistake) #and ive spent all weekend working myself into a spiral over these fucking results #and i wont even know what they mean until tomorrow at the earliest #and im so tired of getting bloodwork done 😞 ive gone like 3 times in a week and a half #and all of this extea testing isnt even WHY i went to the doctor in the first place!!! #so even after i figure out this shit i STILL have to get a colonoscopy next week 🙃 #i just want to feel better 😞

[victoriartdrawings]

fanfic rec post tomorrow maybe???👀

me to all my fandom ships knowing perfectly i wont have the time to do even 1 for at least one pairing til next week 🤡

#percabeth #snowbaird #anidala #zutara #hiccstrid #so much more ships name to add (like REALLY) these tagged ships are just some my brain is currently obsessed with this week #my next obsession next month???? idk yet 💀 my head is weird. like often #rn im mostly frustated with myself and feel a little bit useless be.cause. it takes so much time!!! but i want to do it #but i dont #so my brain says to me DWE IT YOU LAZY USELESS PROCASTINATING ASS!!!! #like first i have to remember the fic #then scroll through my 7000 downloaded fic folder. a nightmare 💀most of the time i dont remember the title but only the period #where i was obsessed with them (also hell because my multiple obsession with a ship always leave and then come back 2 or 6 months later 🤡 #so sometimes I find myself downloading 2 or 3 times the same fic🤡) #(ALSO some its been 4/5 years since i read them so i let u imagine the headache i get trying to remember lol) #then class them by long fic one shot - theme etc...while re-reading fast some of them bc my memory is shit #and AFTER ALL THAT i write the actual commentary for each one of them and remembering what my experience reading it was like #because personal commentary that made people laugh and want to read the fic recommended make me so happy for the author!!!! #ALSO I MOSTLY JUST LOVE SHARING MY READING EXPERIENCE WITH OTHERS!!!!! SO MUCH JOY AND HAPPINESS! #but then real life is like no.not today. and indeed. not today. #fanfic rec #fanfic #reader #fandom

[taeyungie]

😺

#i haven't addressed yoongi's situation yet because i'm honestly still not hit by it i guess. like it didnt gwt to me yet #i dont think ill ever love anyone the same as i love him you know what i mean #he has been the first reason of my self development. like he literally raised me??? i learned from him how to be the person i am today #and its like im saying goodbye to a family member. the thing is i have never griefed anyone's absence like this #its like a part of my soul will be missing until he comes back #but at the same time i know what he would want for me. to move on and to become my own reason #he would want me to be kind to myself. to focus on myself and not miss him that much. #he would want that for all of us right #but i have a very hard time processing things. do you guys remeber the festa last year? when we found out theyll be going on hiatus #the reality of it snd the fact that it will be happening hit me onky after around 3 months. #thats when i first cried because i realized what it meant. ofc i knew but it didnt occur to the emotional part of my brain at that time #and i feel like im truly gonna fall apart when THIS hits me in 3 months lol #my life has never been worse and thats honestly the time when i need the reassurance the most #when i need the people i love and find comfort in the most. #but its just me and thats technically just my problem. but since i am talking about my view on this then thats okay i guess hahah anyway #i just hope he knows there are milions of ppl who love him as much as i do. and thats like extra love like forever & beyond type of shit #i honestly dont think other people ever truly fully understand how we feel towards them. especially when you really love somebody #because they have their own opinions about themselves. they debate whether they deserve some kind of treatment or not. we all do that right #and i just know he does that too. i just reslly want him to feel completely loved and cherished and appreciated. #i want him to see himself through our eyes. to surround himself with people who see him exactly the way we do. #to fall in love with somebody who will see him like we see him #nobody deserves better life than this man. and i hope that after our reunion he will live that life to the fullest 💓 i can't wait to see it #anyway. if somebody needs to talk about it or wants to get sadness out of your system - im here 💓 #please keep your heads up and lets wait for him 💓 #we have esch other and we will be okay 💓 #sorry for typos i can barely see its 1am 🤓

[cheekyquokka]

A to Z of Han Jisung

Z: zzz

#Han Jisung #staycompany #staysource #3rachasource #jypartists #Stray Kids #skz #atozhan #my tings #THE END! <3 #I will now cheese it up: #I wanted to thank everyone who has supported this ~passion project~ #When I started this series I had no idea what I was doing because I'd only made like 5 gifs ever #So it kinda serves as an evolution of progress so far #I had recently started having some free time to myself for the first time in two years and wanted to pick up a leisure activity #I genuinely didn't think anyone would care and that was fine because it was meant to be just a little something for me #So when some of them ended up doing well it became a big something for me #It became a way to find the homies in stayville and something to look forward to- which is the tags people write #I read all the tags and some of you are comedians- some say nice things to me- some I just relate to because they're Jisung freakouts #I really really enjoy reading all of them and it brightens my day to see people having fun with it #So again thanks to everyone who has kept up with it- it sounds silly bc it's just the internet but it does mean a lot to me #And now I don't know what to do with my time anymore fuck lol

[mcnuggyy]

just remembered the fucked up dream I had last night where like 99% of the population switched bodies with somebody else somewhere in the world, BUT you weren’t aloud to talk about it at all or say who you really are or what your actual body looks like or else the government(?) would fucking kill you, like there was cameras watching us at all times, and people getting shot in front of us was common, it was very dystopian… but it was kind of an unspoken fact that almost all the people who were doing the best job at pretending to be people they weren’t were all transgender for some reason?? to the point where a lot of us had found ways to talk about it without talking about it and could bypass the cameras and shit… and the like guy who was all behind it had to get involved eventually…and he like started interviewing some of us and finally once and for all had us talk about who we really were and it was very dramatic and emotional but I woke up like immediately after saying what I looked like and who I was so 🤷🏻 who knows what would have happened next LMAO

#definitley some sort of weird queer horror trans narrative going on #but waking up I was like damn… I was getting misgendered left and right non stop and just had to deal w it #then I was like oh that’s already my existence LMAO #(I was on the body of a very very attractive young blonde woman btw #like MODEL type but I was still unhappy… even being conventionally attractive cause obviously I wasn’t myself #and I can’t even imagine what it would have been like with people experiencing racism for the first time or not experiencing it for the firs #t time… all sorts of wack stuff #I remember there being like a 60 year old guy who was on the body of a little girl #and when they die their bodies switch backed so you would see the like dead old man there instead of the little girl #but I’m not sure what happened to the other person you switched with? like did they die too? would u be responsible for their death? #or would they get to finally live as themselves again? #which would be worse? #idk… #cause then I could see like someone trying to find themself and then try and trick the other person #into talking about it so they could return back to their body #or you would always be on fear that someone out there on the other side of the world could kill you at any moment #NOT TO MENTION THE LANGUAGE BARRIER OF THATS A THING but I think in my dream people just were able to speak the language of the body they #switched into but yeah… anyways <3 #very interesting thought experience once again my dreams are always so strange lmao #callate guero

[the-crow-binary]

Do you think Death took on different appearances just to please Mathias? Heck, maybe appearance of an certain knight?

Short answer: Yes.

I mean Death definitely took a liking to Mathias at some point (since he will later insist on bringing him back to life because he misses his immortal "friend" too much :( ). So it's to be expected that he'd do something nice for him once in a while, out of his own free will. :) (not that he needs to change to charm Mathias, but I guess turning into a fair haired pretty boy helps a bit. <3)

Now I wonder... Can Death take the appearance of anyone, existing or not, like a succubus/incubus can? Or maybe... He can only take the appareance of dead people. In that case, you can guess the implication of him turning into Leon, one night. :)

#maybe he grew confident as he took different shapes to please Mathias night after night #but then he turned into Elisabetha. and Mathias snapped at him :) #let's just say Death never tried anything like that ever again #Mathias: Death. I told you already. I appreciate the intention... But I find you have your charm as a skeleton. You don't need to- #Death: *Turns into Leon* #Mathias: *Start undressing* Damnit Death you'll be the end of me #Death: :3 #anyway there's as much cute potential and hot potential and drama potential with this idea #imagine Mathias snapping at Death the first time he turned into Elisabetha #.........but after some time....... Mathias ask him to turn into her again........ #just so they can cuddle :( so he can feel like he has his wife again :( #unfortunately. Death cannot replicate her warmth......... #I am going to make myself cry I need to stop #castlevania #mathias cronvist #deathias #death castlevania #anonymous ask