#i havent written anything with these vibes in so long !!!

[bogkeep]

i feel like i've had the "kids can handle dark topics in stories" conversation on three separate occasions in the past month, what's up with that??? my impression of children's/young teen literature is that it's always been SURPRISINGLY DARK and that it FUCKING SLAPS.

like yeah, my trump card is that i can answer almost every "but what about [HEAVY TOPIC]" with "Animorphs did that actually," which makes animorphs sound super edgy, but the thing is... it didn't feel edgy? it felt like a substantial adventure with drama, tension, goofs, stakes, and a vibrant cast of characters. it was one of the first book series i ever read, so there was nothing that tipped me off that This Series Is So Dark And Gruesome - and i think it's because it wasn't, comparatively. one of my other early reads was Deltora Quest, and like, what school library didn't have Goosebumps? i never got my hands on warrior cats, but like, that series is just one installation in a WHOLE GENRE - the silverwing trilogy, wings of fire, guardians of ga'hoole... groups of animals dealing with war and exile and battle and grief and ridiculously tragic backstories and whatever was going on in these series, ripe for self-insert characters and scenarios for play pretend during lunch break. even the HTTYD books, which are completely different from the movies - they look childish, especially with the illustrated charcoal drawings - hiccup gets captured as a slave at some point, and there's a dragon rebellion that seeks to eradicate all of humanity. it has a lot of goofy moments and some incredibly over-the-top villains, but it doesn't flinch from how gruesome it gets, either.

i think kids genuinely love this stuff!!! not all kids, sure, but i definitely did!!! like!!! have you SEEN the edgy OCs kids and teens will make? the finely crafted horrific backstories? you know how small kids have traditionally played with barbies, right, with beheadings and torture and shakespearean plots? how a lot of kids and teens sought out creepypastas???

i absolutely think it's much easier for BOOKS to go into dark topics than visual media, and i think that's why a lot of people don't realize how much is happening below the surface. we live in a post gravity falls world now, so cartoons for teens are finally allowed to be a little more twisted and "wow i can't believe they went there," but ALSO... from what i can remember from being a Child, the most scarring and horrifying moments in stories for kids were not the existential concept of "oh no you're ten years old and bad guys want to kill you!" but stuff like, the groke from the moomins cartoon, old puppet shows, moments that were viscerally horrifying without being gory in any way...

maybe you don't understand all the Complexities of Heavy Topics when you're nine. but some things will stick with you, and as you grow older and gain more context and knowledge about the world around you, i think those moments can become very valuable. i haven't read animorphs for almost two decades and so much of it has stayed with me. maybe i saw princess mononoke a bit earlier than i "should have," but to this day it's still one of my favourite movies of all time, and my understanding of it grows every time i rewatch it. i don't think it's possible for every story to handle every topic perfectly or even well, but it might still be worthwhile to have engaged with it. i mean, that's the Discourse, isn't it, stories tell you stuff and we can't control what other people take from it.

anyway yeah kids crave blood and carnage and we should give it to them sometimes

#for legal reasons the last sentence is intended in a humorous way #too long for twitter #obviously there's a difference in how kid's media is written and presented than like. game of thrones #... just remembered how i read the demonata in middle school and i was so so into it even though that's a gorefest and a half #ironically i can't read it anymore because my brain's more broken now (not demonata's fault) #i havent read the guardians of gahoole either but im ASSUMING they're similar to warrior cats in vibes #if the movie is anything to go by #IM PROBABLY PREACHING TO THE CHOIR AGAIN #im also saying all this as a person who does have several triggers when it comes to media #and if i read something that my brain is allergic to it WILL stay inside and torture me to the end of days so like. yea

[aliensunflower-fics]

My Recommended Fic List

So, I got this ask awhile ago, and since I have been re-reading a bunch of my old favorite fics as a way to cheer up after work I figured why not. This list will be long... and varied but mostly its older fics cuz idk there my favs. Now lets go:

Fashion Upgrade - By @soap-lady : Straight up one of my favorite fics ever, its fun, its creative, it never fails to make me laugh when I need something warm and wholesome after a bad day. Also go check out the rest of her stuff there's so much good okay like shes just a writing queen. Shes on AO3 I don't want to spoil you on her other stuff just GO experience it for yourself.

Ode To Decoy pt 1 / 2 / 3 - By @a-marlene-s : Ive always liked this short sweet little fic about Lila getting caught. Its Lila + class salt though so avoid if that's not your flavor.

EVERYTHING - By @unmaskedagain : They have salt, they have sugar, they have funny, they have crossovers. Like honestly they are a just a great writer with so much variety so go check out the masterlist I linked and I guarantee there will be something there you like.

@ravennm84 Is a writer on the saltier side but they have a wonderful selection of weird wacky tales from the salty but oh so well written Damning Evidence that sees Lila get caught in the best way to the 3 part Horror inspired Serafina other great fics from them include Marinettes Family Court Circus pt 1 / 2 and Of Moldy Bread and Cockroaches / Be Kind to Servers honestly its worth giving there blog a look.

@mochinek0 Is another writer with several beloved fics. They write a lot of Maribat and we love them for it. Ones to check out would be Blind Date / Bruce vs Gabriel just go check out there tag list of daminette for more.

Accidental Crime Boss Marinette - By @lady-literature : This is a wonderful idea and a wonderful little fic and I just... I just like it okay. Sadly I haven't read a lot of there other stuff... But I might after finishing this list considering how much I enjoy this one.

@nobodyfamousposts I love a LOT of there fics. They are one of the best when it comes to striking that sweet spot of calling out the show for some of its garbage while not getting so salty that you cant have fun lighthearted goodness. I have been looking for a masterlist of there work but cant find one so just go stalk there tags. I do recommend there Chloe's Lament Series 1 / 2 exploring how certain 'wishes' would backfire. Guardian Assistant Kevin is also a good one Miracle Queen Aftermath pt 1 / 2 / The 8 parter Burn the Witch series / The Wisdom Teeth Reveal / Kagami Vs The Wall of Faces / Resigning With Grace & Spite / I tried to give a lot of links cuz they have a lot of stuff

Kill Them With Kindness - By @luki-fanfic : Well written, good salt without going overboard. Just good vibes. I havent stalked there other stuff but if its anything like this fic its probably excellent quality.

Stephen Vladislav pt 1 / 2 - By @stormiclown : Adrien centered salt on the idea of finally giving Adrien his own proper rival. I like the idea of Adrien having a rival because its usually Marinette and this was just the right length to get those creative ideas flowing. Also just well written what more can you ask for.

Power Trip - By @storygirl000 : This was the first fic that made me go... Wait would it be more fun if Lila was actually competent? And that set me on the path to writing my own fics where Lila is more villainous and more capable. Its short, well written. Good.

Your Wish is My Command - By DemiGoddess28 on AO3 : A great 11 chapter fic looking into Lila's life if she were to win and get a miraculous wish. Its got sugary goodness for our protagonists and the class and salt for our dearest friend Lila.

LadyBugOut AU - By Miraculous-Content on AO3 : A 50 chapter fic made up of snippets and ideas. I found it really inspiring in many ways. I also love how it redeems Marinettes classmates showing how and why they were tricked but holding them accountable anyway its just... Good.

Juleka vs The Forces of the Universe - By goldenlaurelleaves on AO3 : For those of us not yet ready to accept the death of luka/mari we have this wonderful fic showing Juleka being the biggest wingman as she helps these idiots find there way together.

ChaoticNeutral on AO3 has there own Chloe's Lament fic as well as a Gabriel's Lament fic for people who need sweet salty of those two characters.

BroadwayCutie16 was Inspired by the person above and DemiGoddesses your wish is my command fic to write Lila's Lament fic going over Lilas failed wish. Honestly I always love these fics because there just so interesting and the way wishes can be taken and twisted is always a fascinating idea to me.

#WayneAngel - By Tired-Writing-Teach on AO3 : For us Maribat lovers. Its fun and lighthearted with some good gags and some light fluff.

Damian in Paris - By Lilliesandliveries on AO3 : A sweet Maribat series showing what would happen if Damian ran away from home and found himself in Paris and getting therapy.

How a Demon Commissions an Angel - By AlixAnonymous : Damian blackmails Marinette into letting him be her client so he can get his bros the best gifts, they end up becoming penpal buddies.

Mythomania - By LadyEnna_50 on AO3 : Proof that I dont hate Adrien or Mari/Adrien. In this fic Adrien's spine gets titanium plating and he sees just how bad Lila is hurting Marinette and does something about it.

The Contingency - By AbyssalGuardian on AO3 : SALT. Also Tim/Mari but even still I love the way this was written, the style, and some of the ideas just ugh love it. Its not for those who dont like salt so just avoid at your own discretion. Its about a chaotic Marinette done with her life running away to Gotham where she meets her true black cat, and gets her life back on track.

The String That Binds Us - By FaithAndATypeWriter on AO3 : Okay so is there any Mari/Bat fan who hasnt already heard of this one? Who cares its good, its cute, I love it. May the author be blessed with snacks.

The Great IKEA Game - By @batsandbugs : Okay again... I think every Mari/Bat fan has probably heard of this one already because its just that good and that popular. But who cares I am recommending it anyway. Don't read if your allergic to fun I guess.

If this list still doesn't somehow have enough salt for you then try @goggles-mcgee fics here is a link to there Masterlist. They are in a way a professional at salt and angst and they make you want to adopt Marinette and pop her in a blanket fort.

Honestly I could keep going but this list already feels so long for other great recs though I can link you to @jayphoenic who has some great Daminette Fic Recs and some Lila Salt Fic Recs!

Feel free to reblog this and add some links to stuff you would think I or others might like! Also lets just acknowledge how many talented authors the community has like wow.

#its just me #miraculous ladybug #not my fic #fic rec #lila salt #dc x mlb #daminette #kagaminette #adrienette #lukanette #ml salt #adrien salt

[queenofsimpsblog]

believe me - shuri x reader

A/N: IM SO SORRY I HAVENT WRITTEN A DECENT STORY IN SO LONG!! LIFE HAS JUST BEEN REALLY HAYWIRE FOR ME RECENTLY, BUT HEY I FINALLY WROTE SOMETHING!!

also heads up the reader is poc (obviously) but has a white father… BUT YOU BEST BELIEVE SHE MOCKS WHITE PEOPLE ALL THE TIME

i feel like at this point all the reader inserts in my stories have tony as their dad but a black/poc mom, and i kinda love the idea of tony simping for a woman of colour so we’re going with this

this story takes place about 2 years after wakanda forever

“i just get a bad vibe from her,” you ranted to riri as you did your hair for the day. your braids weren’t co-operating so you just decided to throw them up into low space buns.

“are you sure this ain’t just jealousy?” she asked and you snapped your head to your phone which was placed on your vanity.

“no! of course not! i just get a bad vibe from that mara chick,”

“maya,” riri corrected you and you rolled your eyes.

“yeah yeah whatever. the bitch is on to something. i’m telling you. besides. shuri is my best friend. i’m allowed to be protective over her.”

“right. and the fact that you confessed your feelings to shuri 3 months ago and the fact that she rejected you, has nothing to do with this. obviously,” you sneered at the girl staring back at you. riri had the habit of being way too honest sometimes. but you knew she meant well.

and technically, she wasn’t lying. you’d known shuri since your dad, tony stark, took you to meet t’challa. you were about 15 back then, and about 20 when your dad sacrificed his life to save the universe. as a symbol of goodwill and gratitude, t’challa invited you to move to wakanda, and you accepted the offer.

you became best friends with shuri since the day you met her. as predicted, you fell in love with her rapidly. after a lot of convincing from riri, you gathered up the courage to confess your feelings to her.

*flashback brought to you by riri’s speakers that okoye so graciously sliced in half*

you cleared your throat to get shuri’s attention. as always, she was in her lab, tinkering away on some invention of hers.

she raised her head to look at you. “hey, what’s up?”

“i need to talk to you. alone,” shuri nodded and grabbed your hand, leading you up the stairs of her lab to her ‘break room’ where you could have some more privacy.

“what bothers you?”

your pulse was racing. your heart was pounding. you thought to yourself: i’ve made it this far. i can do this.

“shuri, i have to confess something. i’m in love with you. i have been for a really long time. and i was so terrified to tell you. but i realised that i couldn’t keep it a secret anymore. it’s alright if you don’t feel the same way, but i just needed you to know.”

you looked up to make eye contact with shuri. her eyes showed shock, surprise, and then something you dreaded.

pity.

you knew the idea of her liking you was absolutely ridiculous. but seeing her look at you like that just felt as if someone ripped your heart out and tore it into a million shreds.

“i’m sorry y/n, but i don’t feel the same about you. and i guess i forgot to tell you that i… have a girlfriend,”

goddamnit it!

you didn’t say anything. you wanted to talk. but you just couldn’t. your throat just closed up. so you did what you thought was best, and just bolted out of the room. you could hear shuri call for you, but you didn’t have the heart to look back. you just ran, and went back to your apartment, and cried your eyes out.

*end of flashback*

you shook your head, trying to rid your mind of that memory. somehow, you and shuri still remained friends. she said that things didn’t have to be awkward between you both. it was sweet that she wanted the friendship to stay the same, but insensitive at the same time. i mean, how can she expect you to just move on like that?!

either way, you said goodbye to riri and gathered your things, leaving your apartment to head to the lab. you worked in weapon design, but today you were most likely to help with assembling as the lab was short staffed today.

you sighed as you walked into the lab, smiling at the dora milaje outside and making your way towards your station, where a bunch of your unfinished works lay taunting you.

you cracked your knuckles and hit play on your lab playlist, shrugging off your jacket as you grabbed a screwdriver. you spent the next hour or so fixing up the first project before moving on to the second one. you were, how you say, ‘in the zone’. your day was going very productive, until your focus was interrupted by a fit of giggles.

“baby, stop,” a voice giggled out. you didn’t need to turn around to see who it was.

maya. the girlfriend who you just didn’t like.

“i can’t help it, usana. i just love you so much,” shuri spoke and then you heard them kissing. the thought itself made you wanna throw up.

“yeah okay i can’t take more of this,” you said and turned up the volume. ‘girls in the hood’ by megan thee stallion blasted in the lab as you lifted a hammer, trying to fix up the piece of vibranium you needed to finish off the modified spear you were making.

“y/n, hey!” shuri said as she walked up to you, turning down the volume of your music to be able to talk to you better.

“hi shuri,” your gaze stayed on the hammer, not wanting to look at her.

she cleared her throat. “so… what you working on?”

“the modified spear. if i can build it right, this one should be able to electrocute people when wielded. the blueprints look great, but i didn’t realise how tedious it would be to build this stupid thing,” you huffed out and shuri laughed. god, you loved her laugh.

“anyways, i wanted to ask if you were coming to the party this saturday?” you looked up at her in confusion.

“maya wanted to throw one. she thinks i need to let loose more,” shuri sighed, “i need a friend there to help me get through the night,”

you laughed at the image of shuri pushing her way through the crowded dance floor. she hated crowds like that.

“yeah, for sure, i’ll be there. i’ll drag riri too,”

shuri cheered and you smiled at her stupid antics. you talked to each other for a few more minutes until you were disrupted.

“hi, my love,” maya looped her arms around shuri’s waist and stared at her with a look of ‘adoration’. you could easily tell it was fake, but shuri looked really happy and you didn’t want to ruin it for her.

“hello maya,” you sneered out and managed to shoot her a fake smile. she returned it. “i hope you’re coming to the party i’m throwing?”

“wouldn’t miss it,” you grimaced. she chucked and looked you up and down. “i hope you dress well this time,” this bitch had a fucking death wish to talk to you like that. the only thing stopping you from yeeting your wrench at her face was that shuri was right in front of you.

“anyways, if you’ll excuse me, i really need to finish this,” you ushered maya away. shuri frowned at your behaviour but understood that you had work to do and left as well. before you knew it, the day ended and you were on your way back home.

you changed into some pyjamas and made a sandwich for dinner, not having the energy to make something too elaborate. just as you were about to take the first bite, your phone rang. you groaned and answered the call.

“bitch who takes so long to pick up a call?!” riri’s voice bursted from the phone.

“i was eating dinner,” you mumbled, eating your sandwich.

“okay, listen. summer break starts tomorrow and shuri asked me to come to wakanda for the month. i’m obviously gonna be living with you the entire time,”

“duh,”

“oh and before i forget! she told me about some party maya’s throwing this weekend?!” you rolled your eyes at the mention of her name.

“yeah, i really don’t wanna go but i don’t have a choice,”

“i still don’t get why you hate maya so much. i’ve texted her a couple times and she seems really nice.” you gasped dramatically in mock betrayal.

“dude i don’t really know how to explain it. it’s just… you know when you meet someone and they act nice to you but you can kinda tell that they’re faking it? it’s something like that. i’m telling you, she doesn’t actually love shuri. she’s just using her. but obviously i can’t go tell shuri about this without sounding crazy. so i need to gather evidence,”

“evidence?! girl this ain’t no damn cop show!”

“you trust me, right?” you asked your friend.

riri sighed. “of course i do. i always do. i just think that you might be blowing this out of proportion a little bit. it’s completely plausible that maya is a normal girl that shuri is into. and honestly, it’s a little unhealthy for you to fixate on this so much.”

you raised an eyebrow. “what do you mean?”

“you’ve been ranting about how ‘evil’ maya secretly is. but has she ever actually done something shady? besides, you’re supposed to be getting over shuri. planning on how to prove maya is a bitch— which she isn’t— isn’t gonna help. you have to move on. you have to let her go.”

“look, i get where you’re coming from. but i promise you, this isn’t jealousy. yeah, shuri rejected me. and yeah, it hurt a lot. but above all of that, she’s one of my best friends. and i want her to be safe. my gut is telling me that maya is not what she seems like. and i have to tell that to shuri, but i gotta find some dirt on her to prove it.”

riri rolled her eyes again. “if you don’t stop this crazy talk…”

“i just care about shuri. i want her to be happy, and we both know a shady girlfriend isn’t gonna help with that.”

eventually riri got fed up and just yelled, “okay fine fine! if you shut up about her for the rest of the week, we can keep a close eye on her at that party. as long as you stop hyper-fixating on this every second of the damn day,”

you cheered as riri laughed. both of you talked for a while longer until you hung up to go to sleep.

*one week later*

it was the night of the party and you and riri were in your room, getting ready together.

riri picked out a sparkly white tank top and some wide legged jeans, while you picked a sparkly black dress with full sleeves that stopped mid thigh. both of you did each others makeup and took a billion pictures before getting in a cab to go to the party venue.

maya decided to host the party at club purple, which she happened to own. you’d been there a couple times before, and knew that the third floor of the building was off limits for everyone else. you figured that if maya was hiding something, it would probably be there, seeing as she didn’t even let shuri enter that floor.

you and riri soon made it to the club and got inside, instantly spotting shuri and maya talking to some other people. you made a beeline to shuri and gave her a hug.

okay so technically speaking you weren’t fully over shuri, but hey, who’s asking?

“yay, you made it!” shuri smiled at you and then moved to hug riri.

“oh i love your outfit riri,” maya looked her up and down and shot her a smile. riri seemed to have bought it but you knew it was fake. you talked to them for a few minutes before maya left to greet some other guests.

you, shuri, and riri were sitting at this booth in one of the farther edges of the club. it was relatively secluded, but you could still hear the loud bass of the music. it was the perfect place to talk.

“so, riri, how’s college going?”

“oh well my last year starts in like 3 months, and then i have an internship at stark industries which starts in july, so i’m super psyched for that,” riri smiled.

you all continued to talk about your lives, while waitresses kept bringing you drinks and a couple snacks.

(a/n: i’ve literally never been to a club so i’m making this shit up, sry if it’s not accurate)

“these are courtesy of the owner,” the waitress winked at riri and walked away. you looked at your friend as she smiled sheepishly and shrunk into her seat.

“oh my god, i think she’s into you,” you laughed as riri dismissed you with a wave of her hand.

“no, no, club girls just like that,”

“bitch don’t be stupid! go talk to her, shuri and i will be fine here,” you ushered riri to go meet the waitress, leaving you and shuri alone.

“so,” you turned to look at shuri. “you having fun?” she rolled her eyes in annoyance and you laughed.

“shut up, you know i hate clubs,”

“i honestly don’t get why you dislike them so much. they can be pretty fun,”

“i don’t get what’s fun about paying 15 dollars for one drink and then dancing with a bunch of strangers and ending the night by crying in a disgusting bathroom,”

you laughed at her oversimplification of clubbing.

“well, when you’re with the right people, club nights aren’t that bad. unless you’re with a dirty skank who ditches you the moment you get here,” you said and took a large sip of your drink.

shuri looked taken aback and slightly offended at your answer. “was that a dig at maya?”

“what?! no,” you scoffed and tried to hide your lie. shuri knew something was up with you.

“is there something you want to tell me, y/n? something about maya?”

you sighed. maybe trying to talk to shuri might help you.

oh god. you were SO wrong.

“look, it’s not that i don’t like maya. she seems pretty alright. i just get a bad vibe from her,” you mumbled, hoping she wouldn’t hear you. but alas! for the heart shaped herb blessed her with enhanced hearing.

“why do you dislike her? and don’t tell me you don’t, cause i catch the way you glare at her whenever she comes nearby. she’s just trying to get along with you,” you could tell that shuri was starting to get pissed off. you didn’t wanna fight with her, especially at the club her girlfriend owns. so you tried to be as nice as your drunk ass could be.

“shuri, i’m your best friend! it’s my job to be wary of the people you surround yourself with. i’m just trying to keep you safe,”

“safe? oh please, you’re just jealous that i love maya and not you,” she spat out.

ouch. that stung.

at that point, you decided to just give up. clearly, shuri wasn’t going to believe you. so why bother?

you grabbed your purse with your phone and stormed off. maybe shuri tried to call for you. maybe she didn’t. you couldn’t hear much anyways as the club music blasted through your ears. you moved to a part of the club where shuri wouldn’t be able to see you. you managed to glance at riri who was talking to the waitress from earlier. you smiled at the sight.

at least one of us is having fun tonight.

you started moving your body to the beat of the music. the alcohol finally affected you as you lost the burning sensation in your heart. a girl came up to you and began to dance with you. you thought, ‘ah what the hell’ and danced with her. for a moment, you forgot about all of it. maya. shuri. everything. you lost yourself in the music and whined your hips, slowly stopping your movements when you saw maya stealthily walking up to the elevator and going to the third floor.

now, a normal person would just forget about it and continue dancing. maybe get another drink. some food. hell, a normal person might’ve even decided that they partied enough and would’ve left to go back home.

but you weren’t normal. not at all.

so you did what you originally planned to do. you left the dance floor and followed maya to the third floor, trying your best to avoid all the guards littered everywhere. she turned to go to another side of the floor, but you unfortunately didn’t see that and so you began to investigate.

somehow, you sobered up fast and your feet led you to the room at the farthest end of the hallway. the door was, surprisingly, unlocked which in hindsight was not a good sign, but then again, you were too invested to catch maya than to care about that.

the room wasn’t brightly lit, so you used your phone torch to see better. you saw a drawing board with a bunch of papers about shuri, her inventions, her security passwords, her secrets.

you took a picture of that before turning to the computer in front of you. you opened it up and it asked for a password or touch ID. you sighed and looked around the room, when you spotted some tape and a bookshelf with one book popping out. you looked at the title: beginners guide to hacking into servers.

you chuckled to yourself. holy shit, i was right all along.

there was an ink stain with a few fingerprints surrounding it. she must’ve tried to clean it up and made the stain worse by accident. you took a small piece of tape, put it over the fingerprint, and gently peeled it off. then, you moved the tape to the pad of the computer for the touch ID, and it unlocked the device.

there were multiple folders and they were all messy and disorganised, but a few caught your eye.

there was one folder titled ‘work’. you opened it and were welcomed with a billion documents. one of them titled ‘wakandan weaponry database’.

turns out, the file had tons of classified information that other countries could’ve used to take down wakanda. it was filled to the brim with details about wakanda’s army, their architecture, and ‘potential spots to attack’.

your gut instinct was right. maya was bad news. she was trying to harm the country you loved so dearly. the country where your love resides. but why? what was her motive?

quickly taking pictures of all those documents, you shut the laptop and got up from the desk, rummaging around to try and find maya’s real identity.

unfortunately, your ‘snooping around session’ was cut short.

“what the hell do you think you’re doing?”

JDHDNSHSHSYSWH I HOPE YALL LIKED THIS

should i make a tag list for part 2?

#shuri x reader #black panther #wakanda forever #shuri #letitia wright #i don’t like maya #this took so long to write #i hope you guys liked it #queen of simps does it again

[moonshynecybin]

do you have any books recommendations? 🙏

okay usually i like to know a general vibe for recommendations bc this is INTIMATE!!! and im actually in a weird place in my reading journey where im trying to branch out and try a bunch of different books in a bunch of different genres bc i got lowkey sick of what i was reading all the time so this is all over the place. whatever fuck it. here are some recent ones in no particular order that ive enjoyed OR at the very least found interesting. most of these are pretty famous i'll be real im not breaking the wheel here. under the cut bc she is long

our wives under the sea by julia armfield. was this book good hmm i dont know. was it kind of fucked up and interesting. YES. some of the prose is legitimately sooo gorgeous and the portrait it paints of the central relationship is intimate and oftentimes heartrending i still think about it which is kind of what you want from a story tbh... a really slow plot (kind of nonexistent) thats frankly more about grief than anything. theres some spooky body horror here so beware

slaughterhouse five by kurt vonnegut. shes a classic for a REASON. do you ever pick up a book that is very beloved and famous. and then get genuinely and pleasantly surprised that it actually rules. happened to me. legit kind of life changing and also made me laugh out loud. if you havent read it get on it

the kingdoms by natasha pulley. read this over the summer and i vividly remember sitting in the basement at my job hiding so i could read one more page i was RIVETED!!! its historical fantasy its time travel its amnesia it is. on a boat. basically like what if fucked up gay love and also magic made france win the napoleonic wars would that be crazy or what!!! and it was!! also read some of her other stuff which is VERY similar and it was like. fine to good. but i LOVED this one

carrie by stephen king. read it around halloween and i enjoyed it more than i thought i would ! some category 5 stephen king sexism but its an interesting 200 page scifi novel with epistolary elements and some great characters i can see how it launched his career into the stratosphere... really good one to start off with reading stephen king if you wanna dip a toe in but are wary of the 1000 page doorstop novels. i say give it a try !

demon copperhead by barbara kingsolver. recent pulitzer prize winner. its a retelling of david copperfield with a distinctly southern appalachian lens which im always interested in because i am from southern appalachia and frankly the way we get treated in fiction is wild. like hillbilly cannibals who are illiterate coalminers wild. if i ever catch the guy that wrote hillbilly elegy we are throwing hands. but i liked this ! the region does have a long history of poverty and it was interesting to think about that in conversation to the social commentary with a victorian vibe from david copperfield. i mean this is decidedly unvictorian but that was floating in the back of my head at all times reading it so it made me THINK.

giovanni's room by james baldwin. another one where i was like do you see this shit?? this shit is crazy. and the shit in question is one of the most acclaimed and beloved novels of all time. anyways another life changer get on it.

even as we breathe by annette saunooke clapsaddle. another southern appalachia moment ! this one rings VERY true for me actually, despite being a historical novel... written with a lot of love for the area and made me cry a bit cause i was homesick at the time... great mystery and cool local history. also! one of the better representations of the cherokee people ive seen in fiction. which usually im hesitant to like. pin that as a THE major reason you should read it bc the story is ALSO very good but its a central theme of the novel so i thought i should mention it. plus the author is cherokee so she's coming at it with knowledge and care

in memoriam by alice winn. recommendation from a tumblr mutual so i thought id continue the tradition! read it in literally a day so im fuzzy on the details but its about rich eton style english schoolboys getting their spirits basically destroyed in the trenches of ww1... also a gay love story... lots of poetry very tragic but not overly so and certainly very readable... a competent historical gay romance if thats ur thing youll probably enjoy it

the poppy war by r f kuang. interesting bc it initially feels like a historical fantasy novel with a young protagonist going to a magic school and overcoming the odds slash beating the evil enemy story thats been done one billion times. but it is DEEPLY not that. takes the conventions of the genre and kind of refuses to make them reducible or easy to package. deals with war (read the warnings etc). deals with genocide. deals with race. wrestles with the ethics of all of its characters and comes down with some nuance. kind of a slay

and then here's some all time faves that are just GOOD and im reasonably sure anyone would have a good time with:

jane eyre. i have quoted this enough on this blog cmon. also if youre following me youre probably a fan of fucked up relationships so you should go. be with the OG. fly. like its foundational to the GENRE babyyyy

dracula. yayyyyy epistolary novelssss... another "fun" classic along with dorian gray... read em both they slap

the book thief. took me a year to read. made me cry lots.

daisy jones and the six. look at me look AWAYYY from the amazon series look at ME. this is a fun book. and if you are in a reading slump i frankly HIGHLY recommend it bc it is done in the style of like. a documentary autopsy on a fleetwood mac esque band implosion so its told in 100% dialogue as if they are being interviewed. you can read it in a DAY and its FUN and sometimes they CONTRADICT each other which i LOVE

the queens thief by meghan whalen turner. GOD!!!!! all time. all time. straight relationships in fiction that make you crazyyyyyyy and also genuinely delightful twists at the end of each book i LOVED them. i read them all in the pandemic they slayyyy

howl's moving castle. delightful. if you like a silly time in a fantasy world that makes you laugh a lot i would recommend. also the sequel its fun

any terry pratchet novel thank you goodnight

#rapid fire ones: circe by madeline miller. piranesi by susanna clarke. the underground railroad by colson whitehead. the things they carried #also and i am beign so serious. if you have never read ella enchanted you should. it is fun. #callie speaks #asks #staring down my tbr and waiting for my brain to get better. torture. #next up is house of leaves. lfg. #the tonal whiplash on this list is so funny im realizing. 50% fun fantasy and 50% THE HORRORS OF WAR.

[gg-selvish]

analysis of maple syrup vs. good luck charm: mirroring in dynamics, reactions to rumors, and bad vibes

this spoils the ending of both fics btw.

there's a lot of mirroring between these two fics, naturally because they're in the same series/au but there's a lot of similarities between the two relationships yet it's handled completely differently by the characters involved. all four of them have issues (sapnap is the most stable but he's damaged too lets be real) and they handle those issues in unique ways that lead to interesting dynamics in the duos they're in (because while they're all connected they don't really all connect yknow?)

in maple syrup george is unempathetic and possessive while also having this deep desire to be 'good' because he knows he's not. he knows sapnap makes him better because sapnap is in love with him and can kind of wrangle him into being reasonable so he latches on both emotionally and physically. he really does want to be a good person i think he just has no idea how besides clinging to sapnap because all he's ever known to do is hurt people throughout his life. sapnap is so kind and endlessly understanding, its inspiring to him and he admires him as well as truly loves him and i believe that. the way he hurts him is because of impulse and some sort of trauma response i don't even understand but rev said it was because he had his toys taken away as a child (/lh)

so he scars him as a permanent commitment to settle his internal anxiety that he's going to fuck up and sapnap is gonna keep running instead of just committing to being better and showing that he can be a good partner for sapnap. but he can't yet. so sapnap pulls himself away and they take another break and george relapses into his self-hatred and self-destructive tendencies and perhaps that's the wake up call he gets that teaches him to be tamed a bit. so him and sapnap are back together a third time and he treads much more gently because he knows no matter what he does, even permanently marking his lover, it's no guarantee he'll stay. the only way to get sapnap to stay with him is being kinder and learning to be good.

karl is very different. at face value when you first hear about him he's pretty similar to george, untrustworthy and a bad reputation, but the way he's introduced to dream is different because he has a base level of respect for dream and admires him distantly. as in the fic: george sinks his teeth into sapnap while karl yearns from afar. he probably talks about dream so much without even thinking of it, he's quite resigned to his fate of never being anything to dream because dream is far away from anyone, but then sapnap gives his number, dream texts him, and it's the start of something.

a kind of unfair aspect to the style of this storytelling is because maple syrup was written for an exes to lovers prompt, so i skipped over their whole getting together and pleasant months of their relationship. i havent put too much thought in how it happens but i have a feeling its just george stalking after sapnap after that first glance in the first scene of maple syrup and sticking to him. that's another similarity between the two dynamics: sapnap and dream look different than the rest of campus. sapnap punk and hardcore with denim jackets and big boots, dream in maxi skirts and loose blouses and long hair, and karl and george are very intrigued by that and it piques their interest. karl and george are bad, dream and sapnap are different and they want that.

so i think georgenap got together in a pretty simple way, with george and his girlfriend breaking up when he realizes he has feelings for sapnap, pulling moves on him at parties until they hook up, continuing to hook up because despite george's abysmal reputation he's funny and hot and a good fuck so sapnap goes with it until he catches feelings himself and then he's In It for about seven months. then he gets cheated on again, maple syrup, moving on.

good luck charm: karl has his eye on dream from before dream even knows what he looks like. well, he kinda does, he's seen him around, but dream isn't really attentive to other people with what he has going on. karl sees him, though, around campus and at parties and maybe even at the bar too. i think that could be a cool thing to think about... when karl brought george and the ex gf to the bar in the first fic and must have tried to talk to dream. and dream still doesn't have him on his radar at all

and then dream gets a little interested himself, with karl being flirty and promising nothing serious it's easy to accept his affection and instigating because dream's always just been kind of going with the flow. he doesn't have any big expectations and definitely doesn't think anything with karl will go anywhere until he actually meets him. then he's consumed, infatuated, totally drawn into his orbit and would really like to stay there even though he's scared of two things: karl leaving, and karl asking him for more. they're equally terrifying to him, so he holds his feelings close and enjoys being fond of karl without worrying about escalating it at all and just coasting.

my friend rev brought up another really cool aspect of mirroring that i didn't consider until he brought it up: the scar versus the hair dye. it's obvious that the purple is important, though it may not seem so at the time. that date where they dye karl's hair really means the world to dream, that's when he really starts to commit to having feelings, it's a shame he got scared off so shortly after that just because it meant something to karl too.

the thing is, george and karl have some pretty nasty skeletons in their closet. they both fuck and drop, they both kiss boys and brush away what it means, they both war with themselves with what they want and what they can't have but they handle it very differently. george never stops moving towards his goal, while karl knows to respect boundaries, because if him and dream had something real he knows dream will come back. especially with sapnap on his side. setting up the party and loosely inviting dream is the farthest he's gonna go with instigating and trying to get dream in the same room as him. but once he's back he takes that as an inch to run with and really let dream know he wants him and that hasn't wavered despite dream ghosting because he knows and trusts that dream feels something for him too. even after scaring him off. he came back, and that means something to both of them

the hair dye is kind of similar to the scar, that's the mirroring i'm thinking of. not as permanent, but a physical altering of karl's body that stays after dream is gone. and when he comes back to karl's house and sees him in his lilac glory made from dream's own hands it hits him right in the chest. he did that. he's so used to things happening to him and taking it so it impacts him, but this time he changed someone else and it was a good thing. george branded sapnap as an act of cruelty and possession, while karl asked dream to dye his hair because he wanted dream to have some kind of claim on him. and dream finds comfort in that with his own more hidden possessiveness in the same way george finds comfort in the scar, the difference in the climate in which those changes took place

just one more thing i want to touch on: the ending of good luck charm. when i first finished it i was worried it was unsatisfying and rushed and didn't really hit very strongly, but then i read it cohesively with the full context of that ending and i was like

oh.

so it's a fic like that. you have to reread it to really get it, maybe not the whole series though that would be cool, but definitely glc is meant to be read more than once. watching dream agonize over karl's behaviour in contrast to his kind actions to him personally you're wondering the whole fic what is wrong with him? why is he hurting people? and then it comes out and you're like oh my god. he's just ace. so you reread the fic with that information and all of karl's actions make so much more sense, everything he says and his behaviour and his gentle treatment of dream's boundaries, and then his freak out at the end of dream touching him. i still think it's a bit rushed but when you've spent the whole fic agonizing over a why and then find out that why, what more is there to say? they get each other now, so they can just be together and be happy. that's what it's all about, really, georgenap's ending was bad because of their contrasts and george's poor way of navigating his feelings while karl is more stable and both asks for what he wants and respects boundaries.

so the same, but different. two very different stories that follow the same general idea: damaged people do damaged things, but sometimes there's a reason you have to unearth to find the good person buried beneath the negative actions. and it's up to you whether you choose to stay and steer them in the right direction, or protect yourself and run.

i'm glad they both stayed. i'm optimistic for their futures together.

#txt #thonking

[crookedkryptonitebeliever]

I almost hate how much i switched teams from 2718 to abacus, but its just bc he's new and shiny and pretty and pushy. He stifles autonomy so i know 2817 is better in the long run bc u can reason w him and he puts mcs best interests first. Abacus gives me the kind of vibe that he'd let mc get hurt so long as shes his, and tbh i feel like he might enjoy it? Like he'd like to fix her up and *accidentally* press a lil too hard into her wounds wheras 2718 would just use his abilities so that she wont feel the pain to begin w. That's just my assumption tho given what we've seen. Abacus seem the type to only use his powers thingy to subdue reader.

We know that 2718 has met readers past forms/reincarnation w.e u call it and i originally thought abacus did too. Maybe he was her affair or lover in a previous reincarnation methinks? I just felt like he knows her before. This changed a bit towards the end when they were walkin thru the streets while he was giving her the endoscopy (😮‍💨💦) and we learned just how badly mc is seen. Now im starting to wonder if aba is just greedy n wanted her as his lil disabled spouse genuinely, no past relation. Idk. I still feel like they know each other previously. Or maybe he sensed something abt her back when 2817 brought her in to that place all the way back then. Mc is key to the universe type thing. Doubt that tho.

Neyways i think aba is gnna take her home where he reveals that he not only has four arms, but also two dicks n he's gnna try to fawk her but some event will inconveniently stop him. I also think he lives in an oasis like place, their version of natural wood everywhere, running waterfalls from the cieling, tons of glass that he can mentally control and shatter at will to threaten reader while having a saccharine smile on his face, the works really.

I wnna believe translator(TA) is gnna get 2718 and theyll find mc but now im thinking maybe they might not meet up like that. 2718 might find TA n ditch her to find mc and TA has to scramble to keep up, might even meet her on the way back after 2718 saves the day. Also wondering whts gnna happen to TA bc i dont think anything criminally bad happened to her even tho we heard her screaming. Be real interesting if she were screaming bc 2817 found her and juuuust missed mc and aba. I think when 2718 finds mc and aba they're gnna be familiar w eachother but not fight bc aba is one slippery bastard. Or maybe itll be convenient where aba leaves mc unattended for a bit and someone tries to harm her and then 2718 makes him big appearance, like when mc was first dropped into the world and 2718 saved her. I have more thoughts on that but ive already wrote an essay here and in my other ask 😭

Anywhooo ty fr the chapter, hope your healing well 💕💕💕 -🐰

Damn this sure is a well written essay 😳 its either ur a really good analyst or im just a predictable writer cause it almost seems like u have access to my drafts

Cuase that... Kinda exactly whats gonna happen ngl, its still pretty rough around the edges part 15 is just still in its embryo stage with a 50 word list of whars going to hapoen, but yea it pretty similar to what you just described , havent been writing cause i regained my leg freedom finally and i spent literally every waking hour outside, driving and shit

There is going to be a fawking scene in p15 ill tell u and whoevers reading that. Similar to what you descibe with their anatomy but a little different in sequence of events

Thanks for sending in this ask bunny anon this is so cool and i had a great read ❤️❤️ lovely motivation youve given me and i really appreciatte the essay asks -- like, i appreciate if A LOT actually, thanks for reading language barrier too

#bunny emoji anon

[the-francakes]

20 questions for fic writers!

Thanks for the tag @schmem14 - sorry this took me so long!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

28: 27 finished and 1 WIP

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

350,018

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Harry Potter. sometimes si consider others but ideas never hit me like they do for hp

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. Five Times Draco Malfoy Accidentally Apparated into Hermione Granger's Bed… And the One Time He Meant To (Dramione) - every time draco masturbates, he ends up in hermiones bed 2. An Overly Considerate Friend (Jegulus) - james confronts regulus about spying on their quidditch practices and ends up liplocked instead 3. Both (Hermione/Fred/George) - the hermione and the twins fuck or die DVP PWP 4. I WANNA SEE SOME ARSE (nottpott) - theo is on an island vaction and somehow sharing a bed with harry who has an amazing arse 5. The (Third) Worst Year (drarry) - draco has one year to kiss his true love, harry potter, or turn into a dragon... so he picks dragon like a dumb ass

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes.I do my best to because i think the converation is important and im grateful so i want readers to know. i havent lately because i get overwhelemed and im on a hiatus but yeah i try to

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

You & Lily - regulus is so tired of being used by james, he gets his mark and only tells james after they have sex to really fuck james up. then years later he returns to james to apologize by promising to save harry and its open ended but like... also cannon compliant

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

all of them are happy endings tbh... while i like writing angst, i dont like writing unhappy endings or dead dove sort of things. so pretty much any of my fics will leave you happy

8. Do you get hate on fics?

nah not really. i think its cause im in happy rare pairs world. every now and then i get the off the wall comment like 'telling somone to come is SO overdone' and im like cool bye.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

all the smut. mostly vanilla-ish? i like to change up positions or what the sexual act is, but i dont cross into anything kink mostly cause i just write what i know/like/is comfortable.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

nope. probably never will either.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that i know of...

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes! The Quidditch Pitch Incident is in Russian Five Times Draco Malfoy Accidentally Apparated into Hermione Granger's Bed is in Chinese

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No! But im open to it with the right person

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

I dont really have one. It always changes for me. I like trying a new ship so i think the majority of my fics are different ships.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

honestly, Im starting to think Echoes wont be finished. i havent had the want to write it all year and i dont think the first parts are really my best writing. so part of me might even delete and rewrite it if i start getting the vibes to pursue it again.

16. What are your writing strengths?

characterization. i love fanfic because i can use the base of what we know and grow from the tiny details to make fully developed ones. its hard for me to read some fics that the characterization doesnt match what i know from the books without explanation. like its hard for me to see hermione as a sugar baby for money and loves being doted on because i dontt hink that matches her from the books but like if you can explain she gets her strength and independence from manipulating men then im like yes okay im on board.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

im awful with commas. everyone else loves them but i forget them so much grammarly is always yelling at me.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

nah. i've been living in italy for a month now and the only words i know are ciao and allora LOL - if i want it i ask someone to translate for me

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter and twilight at the same time back in 2004 ish

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

I cant pick just one so here are my faves that are not my most popular because of the ships but probably some of my best writing and get really good comments. Locals Only (draco/blaise/theo) A Saving People Problem (draco/james potter snr) The Quidditch Pitch Incident (ginny/blaise) A Good Night for Whimsy and Love (ron/luna) tis the damn season (Pansy's version) (pansy/ron) Maid of Honor for a Day, Best Friend for Life (susan/blaise)

tagging whoever sees this and also @crazybutgood @vukovich @holygnocchi @phdmama @sailtomarina

#Dramione #Jegulus #hp fanfiction #harry potter #draco malfoy

[myfanstories]

Adore you

~ Joseph Quinn x Fem!Reader

A/N: I havent written in about 3 years so I’m a little scared to come back aaa!!! But if I feel comfortable enough I might open my requests again :))

Warnings: smoking, talk about alcohol (if anything is missing please remind me!!)

Requested: no, but its based on a request I saw somewhere

Summary: Joe’s roommate tries to stay out of the media for as long as possible, but what happens when Noah Schnapp accidentally lets her name slip?

It all started with that stupid interview, god that stupid interview….

“Who’s the meanest on set?”

Joe, Natalia, Maya and Joseph all looked at each other, all supporting a thinking face “None of us… or like, never intentionally I guess?” Maya answered, Natalia nodding in agreement “I know who’s the meanest” Joe laughed “She’s not a cast member but” with that he quickly shot a look at the boy sitting next to him “your roommate” Joe laughed while Joseph looked at him in surprise “You think she’s mean?!” “I think she’s an angel and I adore her…. except for when she wakes up from a nap” Joseph winced slightly, tongue sticking out with an amused look on his face thinking back to all the times you yelled at him when he accidentally woke you up from a nap. You even called poor Charlie Heaton ‘Satan’s whore’ once, apologizing over and over again when you were back to your normal, calm self again. He slightly leaned forward in his seat, facing the camera with a guilty look on his face “Sorry roomie, but I have to agree”

Thats what triggered it all. The mystery of the roommate.

Joseph was an aspiring actor who had already made a decent name for himself in his home country but he wanted more, so the next big step… the States. But he quickly figured out that it was quite expensive living there when you’re just starting to make it. So when he came across the little advert paper that was hung up in his favorite coffeeshop that you were looking for a roommate he quickly contacted you and almost 3 years later, you guys were still going strong. You knew he wanted to make it big and supported him every step of the way… but nothing could have prepared the both of you for the fame that would bring your roommate when he got a huge part in the fourth season of Stranger Things.

You stayed in the appartment while Joseph flew to Atlanta to shoot the show, but that didnt stop you from flying out there from time to time just to visit him.

And when you where there he always tried so hard to make you feel welcome and so naturaly, tons of new friendships were formed.

And when the new season finally aired and you started to notice how much the fans took a huge liking not only to the new character Eddie but also to Joseph, the both of you agreed to keep your name and the current living situation out of the public eye. So when Joe mentioned his roommate….you… the fans went crazy trying to figure out who you were

And then came the accidental name and face reveal by Mr Noah Schnapp

* reader’s POV from now on •

Laughter echoed through the room, alcohol and food on the table, music playing in the background and stupid Noah… livestreaming on his goddamn instagram

I took a sip from my red wine, listening to a story Sadie was telling, a smile on my face as I looked around the room. This cast was something else… Joseph used to tell me stories of some of his set experiences where the vibes where just off, where nobody really spoke to anybody, where work was work and nothing else. But this, these were friends for life. I felt a light squeeze on my shoulder and looked up to see Joseph smiling at me “You alright?” He asked and I nodded, returning him a smile. His hand stayed on my shoulder and I put my hand over his, giving it a light squeeze in return “Joseph, Y/N say hi” a camera was suddenly pointed directly to my face, I smiled nicely and waved, thinking nothing of it. Noah always had his phone out, making ridiculous video’s so I thought he was just making another one. But then my heart dropped when I heard him say to his phone “Oh yeah thats Joseph’s roommate” my smile faded as I shot a look at Joseph who’s smile had also dropped “Noah whatcha doing?” He asked “A livestream” he fired back, but realisation quickly hit him as he realised what he just had done “Ooooh nooo….” He dragged his words, panic on its face as he looked at me and Joseph “Its fine, its fine dont worry” I smiled and before I knew it he had moved on to Maya and Millie who where chatting on one of the sofa’s.

The internet loved this. Finally they had a name AND a face. Luckily for me my socials were all private and Joseph was also a very private person so they had a very hard time tracing me

But then the first fan encounters came.

“But do we really need this?” “I need this” “But do we really need it?” Joseph sighed, putting the box of cookies down with a frown “I dont get why you’re upset, arent the 3 other different kinds of biscuits you put in the cart not enough for you?” I argued, an amused smile creeping on my face “But I havent tried those before” he whined and I rolled my eyes at him “A literal child… lets go” he stumbled behind me, dragging his feet clearly upset that he had to put the biscuits back. I stopped in my tracks, dropped my head and turned to him “Okay go get them, I’m gonna check out already” he clapped his hands and turned on his heels back to the aisle to get his goddamn biscuits.

I waited in line until it was my turn to check out but Joseph was nowhere to be seen. The cashier ringed up the last item and I desperately looked around for him… I quickly paid for the groceries and made my way outside to the car. When I went to put my cart away there was still no sign of him and I was ready to go back inside and have his name called through the speakers like I was his goddamn mother when he came walking out the store “Sorry sorry sorry i’m here” I threw up my hands in a questioning matter but he just grabbed my arm and lightly dragged me to the car “what hap-“ “Hi? I’m so sorry to bother you but are u Joseph Quinn??” An excited voice sounded from behind us and he turned around, putting a smile on his face “uh, yes” “Do u mind if we take a quick picture with you?” The girl almost squeeled, looking at him and her friend “uh sure” he let go of my arm and stood in the middle of them, the girl raised her arm to take a picture but clearly the sun was bothering her so I stepped forward “Do I need to take it for you?” I asked and the girl looked at me in surprise “Would you mind?” “No, not at all” I smiled and she gladly handed me the camera. I took a decent amount of pictures from quite a few angles and gave the phone back with a smile “Here you go” “Are you the roommate?” The other girl asked and I looked at Joseph, raising a hand to shield my face from the sun “Uh yeah” I laughed awkwardly, luckily Joseph could feel I wasnt comfortable with this encounter so he spoke up “Yes and our ice cream is probably melting so we should get going! Girls it was lovely to meet you” he hugged them as I climbed into the passengers seat.

I gave them a small wave and a smile as we drove past them and then let out a deep breath “You okay?” Joseph asked after a moment of silence and I just nodded “You sure?” He questioned and I looked at him “Yes Joe, its fine.. I promise”

But it wasnt fine. Not after stupid me went on tiktok that night and most definitely not after I read about 100 comments about myself.

Most of them were nice, saying how lovely I was for offering to take those pictures for those girls but I also quickly discovered how cruel people could actually be.

She looks kinda weird…

I hope they’re not dating on the downlow cuz he for sure can get way better than that

I’m glad to see she’s not a threat to any of us lmao

I was knee deep in the comments of another edit on tiktok when a knock on my door startled me. Putting my phone down I walked up to my bedroom door and opened it, being greeted by a smily Joseph holding out something to me. I looked down to see him holding two cigarettes and I sighed, gladly accepting one. “Thank you” I breathed as he walked into my room. I opened the big window behind my bedframe and sat on the ledge as Joseph sat beside me. Lighting up the cigarette, I inhaled deeply and handed the lighter to Joe who did the same. We sat in silence for a minute before he spoke up “are you okay?” I nodded, frowning “Yeah, yeah why wouldnt I be?” “I dont know, you’ve been awfully quiet since dinner” I blew out a cloud of smoke outside and shrugged “Just tired” I said and he nodded, accepting my answer. “I have to meet my manager tomorrow at 2 but I think i’ll be able to get out of there at 5. Is it okay if we leave around 7?” I gave him a questioning look, not really understanding what he was talking about before I realised “Oh! Oh yeah perfect” we were going to the Harry Styles concert tomorrow. I had been looking forward to it for the past month but with all thats been happening the past couple of days I kinda forgot about it “Great, I think Joe, Maika and Maya will meet us there. Sadie texted me asking if we could pick her up on the way there” “Sound great” I replied quietly and soon we where back to a comfortable silence.

I threw the now finished cigarette out of the window and not long after Joe did the same, he cleared his throat and stood up from the window ledge. He looked at me for a second before reaching out, placing his hand on my cheek “You know you can talk to me right, if something is bothering you” I gently placed my hand on top of his and nodded “I know” we locked eyes for a moment and he smiled, leaning it to give me a kiss on the other cheek before walking out of my room “Goodnight Y/N” he closed the door behind him and I crawled back into bed after closing my window.

I stared at myself in the mirror, adjusting my skirt one last time before sighing “well good enough” I mumbled and grabbed the lipgloss from my desk “Holy Kapow! Damn you look great” I rolled my eyes and laughed as my roommate whistled at me. I turned around and smiled “You dont look too bad yourself Mr Quinn” he did a spin and ended his pose with his hands on his hips, his tongue out of his mouth and a shit eating grin on his face “But! We’re both missing something” He held up his finger and walked to the living room, I followed him and let out a laugh as he held something fluffy in his hands “A boa? Really?” “Hell yeah, I got one for everyone! And in different colors, you get the honor of choosing first darling” Darling.. I quickly shrugged of the shivers down my spine and walked towards him, picking up the light blue one and put it on me “Now thats a sight for sore eyes” I hit his chest playfully and smiled “Come on, Sadie’s waiting on us”

As we met everyone there and got settled - and after the two Joe’s had a discussion about who got the pink Boa - I looked at Joseph who was already smiling at me “What?” I asked and he shrugged “You look cute” a slight blush crept on my cheeks and I quickly started a conversation with Maika.

When Joe first introduced me as his roommate to the rest of the cast they couldnt believe nothing ever happened between us. And I mean sure, the first few months we lived together there was an undeniable amount of sexual tension between us but neither of us acted upon it. It also didnt help when I got a boyfriend and when that said boyfriend cheated on me, all the sexual tension kinda just disappeared over time as he realised I just needed my friend at that time. But sometimes, in moments like these when he says something like that or just even sometimes when he just looks at me.. those feelings come crawling back for just a moment.

The concert was halfway through and we were having the time of our lives, dancing like no one was watching and singing at the top of our lungs. Having famous friends came with a lot of benefits, including getting to have backstage access which meant we were standing behind the barriers with an amazing view but that also meant… standing very close to the fans in the pit.

Sadie was the first person to notice that a couple of them recognised them and told the rest and not long after those fans started to creep a bit closer to us. Luckily for us, they were super nice and Keery suddenly turned to us “Should we go dance with them?” He shouted over the music and Maya shrugged and nodded. Joseph looked at me and I smiled “Go! Go! I’ll wait here” I urged at him as the rest started to leave the safe space of the barrier, but Joseph just took my hand and dragged me along with him in the crowd. The looks on those poor girls faces when they realised who they were dancing with was priceless. As ‘Treat people with kindness’ played we all jumped and danced together like maniacs. Maya was holding hands with one of the fans swaying to the music while Sadie was dancing with another girl. Joseph and Joe were forming a small circle with two other people and dancing around. They motioned for Maika and I to join them and soon we were one big circle, all holding hands, dancing, smiling, laughing. The song came to an end and just as we were catching our breath the next one started playing. The soft beat of Adore you filled my ears and I smiled looking at Joseph who was already making his way towards me, swaying his hips to the beat

“You dont have to say you love me

You dont have to say nothing

You dont have to say you’re mine” he sang loudly, his hands suddenly on my waist as he swayed my body to the music. With a smile from ear to ear I placed my hands on his shoulders. He closed his eyes, throwing his head back, shouting the words in to the air with his hands still on my waist. I giggled and grabbed his face forcing him to look at me as I sang him the words

“You dont have to say you love me

I just wanna tell you something

Lately you’ve been on my mind.. honey”

His hands made their way to the ends of my boa and pulled me closer by it, our faces only inches apart from each other as he cupped my cheeks, the last chorus of the song blasting through the speakers

“I’d walk through fire for you, just let me adore you

Oh honey

Just let me adore you

Like its the only thing i’ll ever do”

We kept eyecontact as he sang the words to me. I was too stunned to speak, my heart racing so hard I thought it might burst out of my chest. We kept eyecontact for another second as the song ended, me being the first one to break it and step away. I soon realised again where we were and felt a panic starting to rise.. this intimate moment we just had wasnt gonna stay so intimate..

And I was right.

My face was everywhere. And I mean everywhere. Tiktok, twitter, instagram, you name it and people where talking about me.

Is roommate the new codeword for secret girlfriend? Joe Quinn spotted getting intimate with infamous roommate

I rolled my eyes at yet another headline I read about us and kept scrolling. As I closed the daily mail article and moved over to tiktok I was already regretting my decision to look at it.

I get it, people are jealous and curious but those comments… those were something else. A single tear slipped down on my cheek, I put my hand of my mouth as I surpressed a sob, fully aware Joe was in the room next to mine. I kept scrolling and scrolling and scrolling through comments, each harsher then the previous one. There were some lovely comments in there as well, but soon I was blind to them, only focussing on the hatefull ones.

Joseph was in his room, answering some work related emails when he suddenly heard his phone buzz next to his laptop. Picking it up, he looked at the phone screen and frowned when he saw the name on his screen. “Hello?” “Joe what the hell??” the voice of your best friend echoing through the phone “Whats wrong?” Joe questioned, a little panic in his voice “Have you seen Y/N today?” she asked and he frowned “I’m pretty sure she’s in her room, do you need her? Why are you calling? You never call me” he asked “But have you seen her?” She questioned again and he thought for a second “I mean no, I knocked on her door an hour ago or so and when she didnt answer I figured she was taking a nap and I did not want to wake up the beast” he laughed but the smile quickly disappeared when he heard your best friends panicked tone “Well I think you should try again” “But whats wrong?” “Joe… your fans..” she trailed of and he heard a sigh “I’m gonna send you some stuff okay, she’s not answering me and I’m getting really worried. People are mean Joseph, fix this.. please. Call me back later okay?” but before he could reply the line was cut and a few seconds later his phone buzzed again. He opened the pictures your best friend had send them, his eyes quickly scanning over the comments and he let out a loud gasp, quickly getting up from his chair and marching to your room

A heavy knock on my door pulled me out of the trance that was my phone “Y/N?” I closed my eyes, tears rolling down my cheeks as I stayed silent, hoping Joseph would just go away “Y/N I’m sorry but i’m coming in” and before I could respond the door opened. I didnt look at him as he entered my room, adverting my gaze to the wall as he sat down next to me. He gently placed his arms around me and pulled me closer to him. I covered my face as I slightly leaned into him “I’m so, so sorry” he whispered and in that moment I just broke down. I sobbed into my hands as his grip got tighter and he softly sushed me. He stayed silent as I cried in his arms for a good minute and heavy tears turned into soft sniffs. When I finally got the courage to look at him, its then when I noticed his own tears on his cheeks “Oh no, dont cry I’m sorry” I wiped down my hands on my blankets before my hands made their way to Joseph’s face “I’m so sorry” he spoke softly as I wiped his tears from his face “Joseph this isnt your fault” “I never meant for this to happen, I promise I will fix this. And I want you to know” he grabbed my hands, squeezing them “I really want you to know, that none of that bullshit is true. You have no idea how beautiful you are, how loving and caring you are.. and those people have no idea what you mean to me” I nodded as a few more tears rolled down my cheek, I was quick to wipe them away and let out a deep breath “I never thought it would be like this, that people would hate me for just living with you” he scoffed “Well let them hate I dont care. They dont know me, they think they know me but they dont. They dont know what we’ve been through together and they most certainly dont know how much I love you” I smiled as we locked eyes, his fingers softly grazing my cheek “Like, I really really love you Y/N” I leaned into his touch, a small blush forming onto my cheeks “I love you too Joe” we stayed in a comfortable silence for a second before I spoke up “Will you stay with me tonight?” He looked surprised and I shrugged “I dont have any self control and I will fall back into that rabbit hole and honestly, I really dont wanna be alone right now” without replying he climbed to the left side of the bed, he softly patted the empty spot next to him and I let out a small giggle. I climbed next to him, making myself comfortable under the blankets as we laid next to each other, face to face. I closed my eyes as I felt gentle fingers running through my hair. I hummed in satisfaction before I heard him speak my name, his voice low. I opened my eyes again, meeting his brown ones “I’m going to kiss you, but if you dont want that just pull away” he whispered, his lips gently meeting mine in the middle. When we finally parted I just gave him a soft smile as I moved closer to him burying my face into his neck, his arms around me and with a big, satisfied smile on my face I finally let sleep consume me.

Joseph’s ears were blessed with the soft but deep breaths of his roommate on his neck. She was fast asleep but he just couldnt shake off the thought that he wanted to do or say something to make things right. He gently took his phone from behind her head, carefull not to wake her up and unlocked it, opening his instagram account. Opening his camera roll he smiled as he selected a few of his favorite pictures with his favorite girl, also adding a video he knew she would beat him up for but he didnt care.

The first picture was a mirror picture of the two of them together on set, him with a big smile on his face and his roommate pouting her lips as she rocked Eddie’s wig.

The second picture was one Jamie took of them on a night out, half smoked cigarette in her mouth and him resting his chin on her head from behind her, hands firmly locked around her waist and her hands on top if his.

The third picture was a picture of her sleeping in one of the tents on set, she looked so peaceful and her hands were crossed as if she was dead. Sadie, Gaten, Keery and Natalia standing over her pretending to cry and mourn for her as if it was her funeral. He quietly chuckled at that memory.

The fourth slide was a video of her, Joseph’s laughter echoing in the background of the video as Y/N cried her eyes out at the sight of Joseph as Eddie on the screen “Why are you crying love?” “Because i’m just so proud of you” she said in between sobs “And stop filming me dickhead” the video cutting of as she slapped the camera.

Then came the last picture. His favorite picture of her ever. Sitting on a hill, surrounded by tiny flowers, eyes closed and a smile of her face while the sun radiated of her skin. He remembered taking that picture of her in the early days they lived together and being mesmerised by her beauty.

He carefully chose his next words, typing it out and rereading it one last time before pressing send. He gently felt her move and quickly threw his phone back to the side. Satisfied, he closed his eyes before giving the girl in his arms one last kiss on the side of her head. He loved her, that he knew and he hoped the world would see that now too.

This girl has been my rock for the past three years. She has seen me at my worst, at my best and everything in between. She is the reason I made it as far as I have, being my number one supporter. She deserves all the love in world and that is what I ask from you guys, to give her love and nothing but love. Thank you Y/N for being my best friend and my favorite person ever. I love you x JQ

#stranger things x reader #eddie munson x female character #eddie munson x female reader #joseph quinn x you #joseph quinn x fem!reader

[cyb-organ]

starship modern au?! woahh!!!

okay so i've had this idea floating around in my head for so long

basically, the "galactic league" is just some generic office building somewhere (it's still called G.L.E.E. but im just not sure what that stands for yet) and bug is just a reverse gregor samson.

like he has NO CLUE where he is or why (because its modern, humans havent reached bug world yet so he has no way of knowing anything) he just wakes up one day in The Wrong Place TM

most of the rest of the crew work at g.l.e.e. offices; specs and tootsie (and possibly kray i havent decided yet) work just at desks, taz (and also maybe kray, havent decided) work as a barista in the company cafe, mega-girl is an ai created to help with work flow but she is gaining consciousness, feb works as a receptionist, and junior is the insufferable boss who everyone hates (including himself). and up is retired (he spends all day playing candy crush. living his best life.)

kray and specs live together (childhood best friends), and up adopted taz and they live together.

plot wise, the main thing is that the Generic Office Building they all work in turns out to be Not Generic. think CCRP. dr spaceclaw is doing weird shit with robots and ai in the basement and its causing issues. bug and co have to stop him, and bug ALSO has to figure out how to get home (i havent figured that bit out yet so. good luck with that mate).

so spaceclaw is like the MAIN MAIN villian and junior is just annoying as shit. its really funny because ive had this all planned before i watched atla but junior literally is zuko. not the main villian but an antagonist. and gets a redemption arc cuz his dad sucks. (juniors is not that redeemed hes still an asshole that no one likes but hes not an evil prick! or. less of an evil prick than his dad.)

big found family vibes. like big time. up adopts (kidnaps) everyone

this is so self indulgent as are most things i do but i LOVE THEM

i have a couple scenes/bits of dialogue written (by "written" i mean ive thought them) and ill probably write it all up at some point but for now i just wanted to ramble

#starkid starship

[the-s1lly-corner]

Random creepypasta character hcs VOL. 3(?)

Lost count on these but yeah I wanna drop more headcannons!!!

Nina is genderfluid and uses any pronouns! They also wear binders every now and then + they wear pride jewelry

Also they dye their hair like. A few shades lighter because he likes how the roots look when they grow out!! Same note they dye their own hair!!

I'm sorry for really focusing on nina but I've been flashing my design for her; but she also wears fake fangs

Before eyeless jack became eyeless, he has heterochromia! One eye was brown and the other was more gold!

Obligatory "I hc that ej and nina would be friends" but they do each others nails and would help each other put together outfits

A majority of eyeless Jack's shirts are band shirts

The neighborhood, TV girl, hollywood undead, mother mother, ICP, ect ect are a few of his favorites! Granted I think his wardrobe would become more limited since he lives in the woods alone in my au...

Still focusing on EJ, in my au before he got all.. monsterified... I feel like he was studying to be a doctor

Ironic and kinda messed up considering now he's forced to dissect people to sustain his own body but yeah

I'm pretty sure I said this before but I'll say it again since I love the concept; but Ben 99% of the time is bound to electronic devices. Basically meaning you'll rarely, if ever, see him drag himself out. Even when he does it takes a lot out of him, and he can only wander for so long until he has to go back

More au stuff but to help give jill her own unique vibe and stuff, I designed her to look like those old dolls you'd see way back then. You know the ones, with the porcelain faces and ragdoll-like bodies!! She still has her black and white clown look but yeah!! Due to this she also has visible tears and stitches on her; mainly on the limbs!! I also kinda wanna give her a sort of lolita dress look, if I ever draw her again! Give her loads of frills and stuff

Tying this all off since shes made to resemble a doll shes short 😔☝️ a moment of silence for lady

She can still stretch her limbs like jack, though

Though tbh idk if jill could do that or not <\3 but shh it's my au

Jane is much more... well idk the right wording, but I guess shes more masc presenting in my hc/au? She doesnt wear a dress or pair of heels like her canon look

I adore her canon look dont get me wrong, but I feel like considering that shes gunning for Jeff, that isnt too practical; esp considering jeff is.... something else

Basically wears stuff that's easier to run in, add some protection to her if she falls, swap the heels out with running shoes, no dangly accessories, ties her hair back. If not she'd definitely cut it down short

She still has her mask, though, but its a prosthetic she made/received herself since I dont think she'd want to touch the one jeff gave her

So yeah!!

Also I feel like, out of most the creepypastas, she has the best chance of living her own life in society; she only has intention to end game jeff, but asides that shes just. Mostly normal. Shes in therapy for her trauma, she has a job, she lives in her own place, ect

Oh that also reminds me! I keep rattling in about "my au" this, "my au" that, but I havent actually... released anything about it outside of headcannons

Idk if it'll be out in written fanfics, or as comics, or just one shot half au-accurate drawings or WHAT but

Basic run down of the au; time skip has taken place, havent decided a set amount of years, but it's been long enough that characters (that age) like jeff or jane are in their 20s (so like anywhere between 7-13ish years)

Slender still has his mansion, but it's hardly like anything the old fandom had,, it's no where near as huge or extravagant; its about as good as an abandoned mansion can be with little to no access to materials to upkeep it, and hardly anyone lives in it

Also same area ej lives, but they don't interact much and have a tense dynamic; both refuse to change locations

Still fleshing out the mansion idea!! So this is subject to change!!

Anywaus

Obviously characters who dont age/are ghosts/undead dont change ages; so like ben and sally are still the same, and the same applies to others like

Uuuuuh

Puppeteer, laughing jack and jill, slender and his brothers (this au does not include THAT one, fuck that one, we only have splendor and trender here), zalgo

Oh speaking of zalgo! He exists!! They don't really have a physical/tangible form though, hes more so a concept/untouchable entity that corrupts whatever it touches and causes chaos

Anyways

Also eyeless Jack's aging is... slowed; not by much but yeah!! Side effect of his curse and the whole "his body is changing into something horrific", and the slow age thing is a whole thing about the curse trying to extend his life span in order to cause more damage to himself and others

Real goofy stuff

Anyways

Laughing jack lives in his lil box and mostly transfers from person to person via the box being passed around

Be it garage sales or being sold in a goodwill, he eventually finds a new family to torment

No one suspects the old ass jack in the box!!!!

Ysah that's about it

Sits

Anyways yall should totally send me In requests (please read my pinned first!!)

#creepypasta headcanon #creepypasta #creepypasta au #au #slenderman #creepypasta nina the killer #eyeless jack #laughing jack #laughing jill #ben drowned #zalgo #jane the killer

[clearlitebergaming]

time to write down semi-coherent thought about EoD +it's post expac!

so.. somehow, compared to previous expac n living worlds, EoD feels uh, short? idk, im a person that space out story and not binge everything, but even then EoD feels short

the only memorable things i remember is stuffs with aurene and rama. everything else feels kinda like blurr.... i remember liking the humor.

i did the each map meta events this time. it does helps with the story. dragon's end especially. this time anet put on big achie icon to remind me 'hey, do the meta first before ending the story, or you'll feel like HoT all over again' -- which i appreciated

finale is good tho! super nice. i see they want to culminate the whole dragon cycle saga into these last part. certainly have epic feeling to it.

i like the post expac stuffs too. felt bad for rama for his bothced party. it felt super painful....

LOVING the date with canach

i also like how major npc in previous map's meta is present for gyala delve's story. it ties off nicely! still feels lack of build up and resolution tho. im used to it by this point, gw2 is never great at building up and resolution. and i already got spoiled about it, so im not disappointed to see lack of trahearne hahahaha

it IS jarring to see gw2 suddenly utilize NAKAMA POWAA in post expac in that manner. its so anime. i dont dislike it, could be written more smoothly. VA is doing amazing. wish id see more distressed commander in the future

can i say one thing tho, the part where aurene 'said goodbye' should be done in cgi / cinematic. unless somehow i dont see it....?

ok so gameplay wise. i never did high end content, so when it came to instanced boss fight, i was pleasantly surprised they have more defined pattern n mechanic in normal content. my xiv instict kicks back in >:3 still hate when doing strike that KO'd member cant be rezzed tho :<

being able to fish is highlight of this expac not ironically. i spend many time just fishing.

seitung is my fav map this time. its pretty, and easy to get around.

new kaineng is novel in that its a 'city' that is also explorable map. but novel wore off when getting around is hard. i remember i got motion sickness often when im in that map. maybe i just havent memorize ziplines n lift location. almost felt like tangled depth, but concrete. almost, but TD is worse. echovald wild.... is also a bit confusing to get around, but at least the ground level have 'clear path' i can blaze with roller beetle to get around for meta wwww dragons end is... okay. its a map for grand meta event, the main attraction is not on the scenery, as long as i can get around quickly, im fine with it.

and then, stuffs i dont like that i nitpick. the inflammatory part. the part that probably make people whos unfortunate to read this itching to make counter post in expressing disagreement (probably lol)

in the cut.

i hate they have to kill mai trin. she doesnt have to die, her death doesnt further anything. she can jsut be benched. it makes me dislike anka even more. i dont like her when shes hurting aurene, and i feel like her reasoning is stupid. she has similar vibe to scarlet in wanting destruction, but scarlet is bound to mordremoth, she has no choice. beside, making mai trin+scarlet fend off anka is super epic, it could be redemption for both girls. up to this point, i dont have 'ugh i dont like this character' in petty way, and congratz anka for earning that place (zojja came close, i dislike her being super petty and abbrassive esp to eir --i dont even like eir that much. but shes felt very different when i play as asura, shes super caring in tough big sister way. so i can let her slide)

post soo won got loose, and we have to confront joon, but joon threw a big tantrum. i understand shes stressed and not thinking clearly, loosing soo won and putting the whole cantha on energy disaster, but when she rambles about 'not sorry for being who she is/can' i was liek, "girl idk where that came from, now is not the time!" super out of left field. no one in commander side is questioning her ability, she just almost trauma dump on commander right when aurene is at stake.

now when i think about it, i got riled up real hot when either taimi or aurene got in harms way lol.

on to post expac stuffs,

stop making me care about eir goddamn it. its getting annoying at this point. i have nothing against eir, i just dont feel anything, stop making me to. if anything i felt bad for killing trahearne, but we cant have that grieve can we, anet?

of all ppl anet think commander is feeling guilty for...

you know who i feel more guilty for instead of cinder? those poor unarmed bastards smodur told me to drop bombs to inside bunker in drizzle wood.

id even go further by saying my commander still have regrets over shelling his own troops in PS, or over Tonn and Apatia's death. tho i understand anet cant do it because they long ditched permutations.

well, its not that bad actually.

will try to save to buy SOTO for now, or trying to get sule up to EoD as well.

#gw2 #gw2 rambles #end of dragon

[meatriarch]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN !

what made you pick up the muse you have ? : stares at the roster: ...uhhh...well, maria i chose in a toss up at first between testing out between her and ana, but went with maria because i have a habit of picking up muses that are usually challenging to write from the start -- in this case being, how do you develop for a muse who haunts the narrative rather than is directly part of it. i also just enjoy taking and really going wild with the personal interpretation routes on characters, picking specific points and running with them which i did with maria, and which i did with danny and then nancy. just enjoy scruffing characters with just enough or barely anything to them and going wild. its like having a template at first lmao. and then my remake tcsm muses were picked up because im a 03-06 remakes truther, i just enjoy it more than i do the concept for the original timeline. i enjoyed the dynamics of the hewitts, i loved them as characters and im happy that although they arent part of the of timeline or the games', that theres people open to writing with them and indulging in my ( & lambs ) connecting of the families into one c: birdie's been a remake oc for years on & off, and then pepper i know is a recent add & havent gone over her yet but im re-crafting them both to make them a little more intertwined into the game canon (: but maria's my main muse because she'd just been so easy to write? which i havent had a muse take up so much headspace in some time now but i truly do adore her so much.

is there anything you really enjoy writing ? : unfortunately angst and darker themes to a point are my go-to's. im big on looking at complicated thought processes, on traumas, on grief and rage and how both manifest differently. im out of practice on alot due to writers block but i do remember a time when i was big on writing g.ore more viscerally than i currently do, but that was mostly one-on-one with a writing partner offsite. but i enjoy and typically am more interested in darker plots or connections; but im also a sucker for icky-sweet and endearing themes too c; i just often find myself feeling off about it at the start because i feel i come across cringy at times and i typically second-guess alot of the softer prompts i try writing for lmao but once certain dynamics get formed and im more familiar with who im writing with then it becomes easier c: its partly why im slower to ship with.

is there anything you don't like to write ? : i wont write Certain Brands of darker themes and i prefer not having them on the dash so i usually just wont follow if i see them being written by current or potential mutuals. but otherwise, theres not a whole lot that im exactly against writing. i wont really write usfw content unless ive been writing with someone long enough to feel comfortable with them ooc & if theres at least some chemistry between muses. everything else is just dependent i guess.

how do you come up with your headcanons ? : alot of it just comes in swinging, others are influenced and thought up following someone on the dash bringing up something or there being a random post that got reblogged / spotted that inspires it. some of it comes from just brainrotting backstory info, some of its from tt audio edits lmao or just tt in general sometimes. but ive written a whole mess of different types of characters, and sometimes certain aspects of past ones i feel can fit into current and so bits and pieces of those older characters sometimes get adopted into my portrayals here c:

do you write in silence or listen to music ? : depends!! alot of music DOES inspire alot of the writing! but oftentimes actively listening to music as i write distracts me too much. so ill often instead put on specifc songs in a queue to get myself in that vibe headspace for what im planning to write and and turn it off and dive in -- when, of course, the writers block fuckin' lets me write- lmao

do you plan your replies or wing them ? : i sometimes toss in little notes to myself in the drafts as i set them up, but otherwise? not really. im an A-thru-Z writer -- meaning alot of the time, when i start a draft i either write it out start to finish in one go, or thats the only one ill focus on to try and finish. if i bounce around between drafts like most people do i usually burn myself out for whatever reason. usually if i cant finish it in one session though i have a hard time revisiting it another day, because i lost that initial fuel for writing it through all the way. which is also part of why im fairly slow with replies, im sowwy- ;w;

do you enjoy shipping ? : yes!! i love it but im also big on building chemistry between them first and then going into that route if i feel they click. i dont autoship, even if the muses are in a relationship in canon. because sometimes its simply a matter of interpretation of canons that just dont mesh too well between how muns write them -- and thats okay! but once i feel that theres that connection between them, and doubly so if myself & the mun click ooc too? its so over. like for here especially, the dynamics between maria & lamb's johnny is my most ridiculous ship dynamic ive ever worked with and i love every second of it. the amount of different ways we've developed them for their different routes ( and that we're STILL adding to ) has been so much fun and i adore them so much for all the complicated ways their ship goes. c: but yes, i like exploring ships with people whether in fluff or dire or complicated or same stardust, it just very much depends on the chemistry aspect <3

what's your alias / name? : renee! my middle name c: but if you also call me by fog or creature im gucci. im the cryptid standing awkwardly in the middle of some dark dense trees that scurries away out of sight into the fog when im Perceived lmao

zodiac sign ? : im a capricorn moon, sun, and aquarius rising. (: im a multi-placement capricorn though.

Birthday? : january tenth!

favorite color ? : darker greens so -- viridian, platho, forest (:

favorite song? : uhh... its hard to narrow down so ill just say deftones' passenger / digital bath / entombed / s.extape / cherry waves / rosemary c:

last movie you watched ? : oh. uh. tv / movies i havent watched often at all in so long but hmm... honestly probably the remakes i think? to get clips from.

last show you watched?: haunting of hill house c;

last song you listened to? : rosemary -- deftones

favorite food ?: either carne asada fries / carnitas or salt & pepper wings (:

favorite season ? : autumn!

do you have a tumblr best friend ?: i think just from how we've clicked, i'd say lamb <3 just with how much especially we've crafted not just between maria & johnny but also with johnny & the hewitts c; however i'd also say rae & kels too! i love them all dearly and i send them kisses to the sky for being so much fun to have been writing with & getting to know for these past six months <3

TAGGED BY : yoinked from kels c:

TAGGING : anyone go ahead and swipe this <3

#[ 𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘦. ] ── * the yappening.

[thewritingstar]

I'm curious if you'd ever write for Brick x Buttercup? 👀 Or is that a notp for you?

hi! I have actually written a few fics for that ship before. Its not my favorite ppg x rrb ship but none of the pairings are off limits for me.

this is my lists of fav to least fav (but will still write)

-butch x blossom

-brick x blossom

-butch x buttercup

-boomer x bubbles

-boomer x buttercup

-brick x buttercup

-brick x bubbles

-butch x bubbles (this could be higher because I think we need to explore this dynamic)

-blossom x boomer (this one is not my fav because I think blossom gives off older sister vibes to boomer more than anything so I dont see it working as well)

even though its lower, its not that I dont like it, I just haven't explored it as much because I just havent. Im a blossutch girl to my CORE and I think they are the top tier couple pair but im a sucker for the regular counterpart ships.

If you would like to read more ships that you like....just ask me :) I always love to get requests where I can explore something I haven't really before. But if you are looking for the ones I have written, they should be listed in my master fic list.

anyways, long story short, I do like that pairing Im just lazy and haven't written much :)

-star <3

[mo-ok]

Character Ask game

Is it okay if I do two?

Dustin Brooks

2, 7, 8, 12, 23, 21, 26(What other team would you put him on, can be PR or sentai?)

Heckyl

1, 3, 6, 11, 15, 12, 26(Would you share a blunt with him?)

Get ready for a lot of words!

Dustin

2 - fav canon thing - everything to do with his motorbike skills tbh. Love that he follows his dreams and moves from racing to jump/stunt riding instead

7 - something the fandom does that I like - everyone that pairs him with Hunter is my best friend

8 - something the fandom does that I dislike - damn i really have no idea?? People just seem to get Dustin right most of the time tbh??

12 - a headcanon - trans. Dustin is trans. I am correct

23 - i'm away from my laptop atm but i will add a pic when i get home 😭😭

21 - as a writer - i've never actually written anything for ninja storm BUT when I draw Dustin i love giving him pointy teeth

26(What other team would you put him on, can be PR or sentai?) - i would LOVE to have all the ninjas come together in one big ninja crossover, but i feel like he'd get along and fit in really well with the Dino Charge team tbh

Heckyl

1 - what do I like/dislike - genuinly i think his suit is one of/the best dino suit in the franchise

3 - least favourite canon thing - hate how small his part was in cosmic fury lmao when he popped up i was YELLING but he was there for like 2 seconds (does this count??)

6 - something we have in common - my hair has been that exact shade of blue before

11 - would i date him - noty not my vibe he's a lil too... a lil too *gestures vaguely*

15 - fav ship for this character - tbh i was too busy thinking about Chase/Riley and Tyler/Shelby for DC's run time that poor Heckyl didnt even get a look in lmao

12 - a headcanon - genuinly i cant think of anything fun??? I havent read the comics and its been so long since i've seen dino charge 😭😭😭 are the comics worth it??? Which do i have to read to see my boy???

26(Would you share a blunt with him?) - yeah man lets get cooked and talk about space

#regaliasonata #damn i miss dino charge i gotta rewatch dino charge #also dustin is a top 3 yellow ranger for me i love him so so much my big dumb dirtbike boooooyyy 😭😭😭 #dino charge #ninja storm

[ncteez]

how about i, r, and v if they havent been asked yet !

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

in my own writing, i have a guilty pleasure in problem-solving ig. Whether it be unhealthily done or not, it helps me flesh out characters and their personalities. I have my fair share of toxic as fuck readers in my works and this is why most of my story-driven fics will have arguments and/or some inner turmoil even if the conflict is something as simple as pining for someone.

with reading. I love enemies to lovers in terms of actual hate, not the "you're so hot i need to be mean to you" hate. also, longer fics. anything less than 10k is tiny tiny tiny to me, and i do prefer fics with more storyline and less smut? Like, give me 30k words of the story and one smut scene, and ill fucking melt. I do read fics for smut, I don't wanna get it twisted. but i need my porn to have some major storyline with it. TELL ME WHY THEY'RE FUCKING, HOW THEY FEEL, HOW DID THEY FEEL BEFORE??? IS IT A GOOD VIBE? A GUILTY VIBE? A LUSTY VIBE? AN "IM FALLING IN LOVE" VIBE? i can't get those feelings in a 3k fic labeled "slow burn". this is not me talking shit about people who write shorter fics. i still read and enjoy them. i just hope people know that there are some of us out here who will jump through hoops to find their longer works.

R: Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence?

i mean, i try to not let other writers influence me too much. if this question was about my paintings and drawings, yes. In terms of storytelling though, not really. I guess i influence myself and use shared ideas between me and my friends, but style-wise i feel like my writing is very much purely me and not really influenced by anything else.

V: If you could write the sequel (or prequel) to any fic out there not written by yourself, which would you choose?

@domjaehyun : kiss u right now

@dontflailmenow : push it down (sooner or later it all comes out) (p.s. jen, i know you're writing part 4 rn but i hope you know that you're the first person to release a fic that I actively try to stay updated with. like i havent done this in years. it's been a long fucking time since I've craved more of a fic lmao.)

#[mail] #this is very long im sorry #[games] #neonun au

[mostlymaudlin]

Hi! For ao3 wrapped I’d love if you answered 5, 12, and 30 😊

5. What work of yours got more feedback than you expected?

this SHOULDN'T have surprised me, but bangable was my first outright smut piece for aftg, and i laughed when i woke up the next morning and my inbox was POPPIN. i feel like aftg fandom is usually p quiet in the comment section (or im just spoiled by the richness of simon snow fandom), but people were SO READY to talk about this blowjob hahahha.

12. How many WIP’s do you have in your docs for next year?

oh man LOL. theres a short answer and a long answer and im gonna go for long bc maybe talking abt it all will hold me accountable for finishing stuff.

ok so like technically i have 1 million wips. jk. technically technically i have 41 aftg wips (and ENDLESS more simon snow wips), but most of those google docs are resting in peace in my "wip graveyard" folder. they may be resurrected one day but who knows.

so more accurately i am currently sitting on four wips! all aftg.

my hs au We Can Live Forever... which i actually completed the next chapter for! but i dont want to post it until i finish the one after bc i kind of leave it off on a mean note. i might post it anyway so that people get mad at me and motivate me to keep writing though...

what i have dubbed "slut au," in which our favorite resident ace neil explores sex. its sitting at 20k rn, about halfway thru the plot. very messy atm. about 60% smut.

my secret aftg winter exchange fic

my (NEW AS OF A FEW HOURS AGO) secret aftg mixtape exchange fic

im also p much always playing w flash fics, AAAAND i have been thinking abt revisiting this old au i was working on last spring where neil works at a froyo shop. i actually wrote an entire first draft for that -- i think its sitting at like 12k but its a complete mess. i think of her tho... the found family vibes were v good...

OH and i am seriously considering doing a magnum opus andrew POV fic. i need to move into my own apartment in order to accomplish this because i want to like. really go ham analyzing the books and scaffolding that plot bc if i do it im going to tell the same story but with a very different structure i think. and i cannot do this in my current living situation. so that would probs be my Fic of 2023 if true.

30. Biggest surprise while writing this year?

cheesy. but more than anything i think i've come to know myself as a fiction writer this year. ive always written fiction in bits and pieces, and ive done a shit ton of professional nonfiction writing. writing snowbaz last year felt good in that i was finally writing regularly, but switching fandoms upped my confidence because thats when i could finally prove to myself that i wasn't just copying rainbow rowell hahaha. WHICH LIKE she definitely continues to influence my writing but i think ive developed my style in a way where its more my own now -- i don't lean on the style of aftg the way i did for simon snow fics. and while andrew is undeniably NOT my character, ive done a lot of work around the way i write his POV that im proud of. and this makes me think that if i wanted to write original stories i could... even tho i havent rly come up with a story i want to tell on my own just yet!

from this ask meme!

#went off in this one LOL #my writing