#i just cannot with this group sometimes

[littledigits]

When your cleric worships Loviatar you get in game moments you just have to draw.... because @immortanjill knows how to roll with the lore. 

characters belong to @adoradoi  @rennigann and @magalodan

#art #animatic #ocs #D&D #brynn #ashlynn #pain #panic #nym #mith #i just cannot with this group sometimes #but in the best way #also yeah ok i guess its not really animatic but it was fun to do this ..wee lil comic form of shenanagins

[blueskittlesart]

deeply refreshing to see someone critical of Swift who also like, genuinely likes her. Like i'm neutral to positive on her, but the online discourse has been absolutely rancid. flipping between "Taylor Swift has never done anything wrong ever and she's a fucking genius" and "Taylor Swift is the worst lyricist of all time and also a bad person" is exhausting, so thank you for like. nuance or something lmao

not to make it serious for a sec but i genuinely think that being able to like things that are bad is really important. like I think that it's an important skill to be able to look at something and see what you personally enjoy about it and then take a step back and acknowledge that objectively it's flawed. and to also be able to acknowledge that liking something isn't necessarily an identity or a moral stance. and i think that fandom space in general could really benefit from more people taking the time to learn how to do that. it's okay to like things that are bad

#people ask me sometimes why ill occasionally talk about something i like and then go 'but it's bad' and the answer is usually because it is #i love teen wolf. i love genshin impact. i love detective conan. and i fucking LOVE taylor swift. that doesnt mean theyre good #it just means i like them. and recognizing their flaws actually helps me better identify what i like about them! #it's like. in my mind bad > good is the x axis and i like it > i dont like it is the y axis yk. they're not mutually exclusive #tldr it's not that serious. we can all relax a little #irt taylor swift i do also think she has done some real harm to her fans in enabling them to deflect all criticism of her as misogyny #and i don't think it's fully the fault of these people who are parroting that response bc so much of her marketing has deliberately #reinforced this idea that to be a swiftie is to be a part of a sisterhood and that any attack on taylor is an attack on all of those women #who are in that in-group. when that's obviously not the case. but she's marketed herself as. for lack of a better term. 'girl music' #to the point where it makes her fans feel as though any criticism of the music or the woman responsible for it is an attack on their #personal experience of womanhood/girlhood/sisterhood/etc. and that's how you get all of thess bad-faith accusations of misogyny #i don't necessarily think this was her deliberate goal with her marketing tho because like. on first glance such a strong sense of communit #among fans sounds like a great thing. the friendship bracelets i got at the eras tour movie are really genuinely special to me. #but it does present a problem when your fans are unable to separate how they feel about the community and experience your music has fostere #from how they feel about you as a person. especially when you are a billionaire who absolutely CANNOT be above criticism in this economy #anyway. tldr i love taylor's music and i don't think swiftie hivemind is as deliberately malicious as it may seem #but it's obviously necessary to be able to take a step back and look objectively at what you're participating in. #anyway stream ttpd or don't idc <3 #taylor swift

[thedreadvampy]

legitimately insane how to some people, "we should wipe out this ethnic group that we've violently constrained to a ghetto because they're just genetically more violent and dangerous" is a reasonable and justifiable statement but it's Nazi Rhetoric to say something like, "it's bad that Israeli civilians are being killed but acknowledging that as tragic includes acknowledging that the almost daily state-sanctioned murder of civilians by the Israeli government is also tragic and unacceptable"

btw guys speaking of Nazi shit - can we check in, alongside what's been done to Palestinians in the last 75 years, what's the Israeli government's take on the Azerbaijani government's newest round of ethnic cleansing of Armenians? oh are the Israeli government's actions maybe not determined by Jewish identity, but by a commitment to colonial supremacy which puts them on the same page as other violently genocidal states like Azerbaijan, the US, and the UK? god can you Even Imagine?

(framing speaking against Israeli war crimes as inherently antisemitic requires understanding the Israeli state as representing all Jewish people, when it doesn't even represent all Israelis.

framing Israeli war crimes as synonymous with Jewish identity is pretty fucked up if we're being honest. I don't think that controlling water and power and movement for a captive population and shooting children dead for throwing stones is an inherent value of Judaism, any more than I think the torture carried out at Guantanamo Bay is an inherent value of Christianity - in both cases they're atrocities carried out by a far right genocidal government using religious identity as a shield.

Calling statements like "Israel is committing genocide against the people it's displaced" inherently antisemitic is doing more to further the idea that all Jewish people are associated with Israel than saying "the Israeli government is doing war crimes," which is a statement of fact about a country that exists and does war crimes. Is criticism of Israel as a nation often used as cover for antisemitism? Absolutely. Does that mean the Israeli government isn't doing literal war crimes repeatedly, on record, while talking publicly about scrubbing an ethnic group off the map? Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh well in the last 48 hours they've definitely cut off water and power to almost 600,000 civilians and allegedly used white phosphorus against civilians so in an extremely factual and unambiguous way yeah man those are Literal War Crimes whoever does them.)

#red said #sorry man saying 'it's bad to do genocide and war crimes' doesn't actually mean 'I'm happy when Jewish people die' #it means 'there is a context to Palestinian militants attacking Israelis which involves Palestinians being killed wounded or imprisoned #very nearly every day by the Israeli state and settlers. so no you can't treat a Palestinian attack on Israel as an unprecedented tragedy #without also recognising that Israeli forces have repeatedly visited attacks of similar magnitude on Palestine which is ALSO tragic #as well as the regular state-sanctioned murder of over 200 Palestinians in the 9 months BEFORE the Palestinian attack on Saturday #It means 'Palestinian lives don't matter less than Israeli lives' not 'Israeli lives don't matter' #this week is literally the FIRST TIME SINCE RECORDS BEGAN that more Israeli lives have been lost than Palestinian #bc for every year since 2000 orders of magnitude more palestinians than Israelis have been killed in this war #you don't get to say 'it's only bad when X ethnic group is killed it's GOOD to kill Y ethnic group' then accuse OTHERS of genocide apologis #it is legitimately a tragedy for Israeli civilians to be killed and wounded en masse. the people are not the nation. #but it's not less of a tragedy for Palestinians to have been killed and wounded en masse week after week for decades. #and when peaceful protest gets you shot and bombed and acting against the military gets you shot and bombed #and just existing doing nothing at all gets you shot and bombed. living near someone accused of terrorism. looking for your fucking cat. #when you're getting shot and bombed daily whatever you do. it's not surprising that sometimes people move to violence against civilians. #because as people from Gaza have said. better to die fighting for survival than die on your knees waiting. #which like. I'm not making a moral judgement one way or the other bc i am intrinsically disgusted by mass killing. as we all should be. #and this might be the movement which liberates Palestine and it might be the excuse which allows Israel to finish Palestine #and either way hundreds of people are dead on both sides and however you slice it that's a fucking tragedy #but we cannot. treat it as if Hamas' strike began the violence. and ignore the 200+ Palestinians killed by the IDF this year beforehand #Palestinian lives matter as much as Israeli lives. 700 Israeli citizens dead is a tragedy. 600 Palestinians dead is a tragedy. #and if you lay out the numbers from this weekend alone you can pretend that Israelis are getting decimated by Palestine. #but to do that you have to ignore the facts that for every 1 Israeli killed in the past decade 3 Palestinians die. #and that Israeli deaths happen in occasional outbursts of violence while Palestinian deaths happen every week #whether or not Hamas or any other Palestinian faction initiates violence

[13eyond13]

Hi I noticed you have been in the deathnote fandom for a long time. Do you know some changes the fandom/ships went through? I already know that the misogyny towards misa used to be terrible

Thanks 🙏

Hi! Yes, I've been here a long time lmao So from what I can recall things have actually stayed pretty remarkably the same when it comes to the popularity of the ships and dynamics in this series. Lawlight has always been the most popular ship, followed closely by M2 (Matt x Mello). However back in the mid/late 2000s it was different in terms of certain things, like the way the ships were referred to. For example, there was no such thing as a nickname for a ship as a whole back then - you didn't call it "Lawlight," you called it either "L/Light" or "Light/L." You had to specify which of the two you liked as the top by putting their name at the start of the pairing. They were treated almost like they were two entirely different ships, and people would definitely get upset if you weren't terribly careful about specifying this when posting shippy fics and things. This changed sometime between 2009-2012, maybe? Possibly around when "Brangelina" and celebrity couple nicknames like that became a thing in pop culture, lol. I am personally glad things are no longer this fussy about labeling and defining the ships, because I find it dumb and possibly a bit offensive towards gay folks to be that obsessive about their bedroom dynamics above all else. But I definitely still see people get very particular about their preferences for this stuff when it comes to their discussions of the ships these days too, so I might be the odd one out here. Overall I'd say tolerance towards diversity of the pairings and appreciation of the more minor characters has increased? Stuff like pairing L with Matsuda or having het ships like B x Naomi wasn't terribly common back then, from what I remember. People won't hate on you and fight with you as much for daring to enjoy depicting the characters with somebody other than their fave in a story or a piece of art nowadays, either (like "how dare you pair L with somebody other than Light!" - this was a very common thing to hear back in the early fandom days, and people would often act like you were "cheating" on a character by shipping them with somebody other than the character they decided they belonged with.) And fans have also started showing more appreciation for the female characters and attempting to be more inclusive toward them than they used to be. There is a bit less hatred of characters like Near and more shipping of him now as well. Many people were extremely dismissive of him back in the day, and he has definitely grown in popularity over time.

In general I think the fandom has chilled out and diversified and become more tolerant and deeper and more accurate with the characterization in its discussion of the series overall, but I still often will see the exact same takes and trends and tastes and arguments going on now as I used to see back in 2008. Especially when I step outside of the Tumblr bubble and back into a broader/more casual group of fans talking about the series and their faves.

#also i feel it must depend a lot on what site you use / what group of fans youre interacting with #because sometimes i'll get surprised when i like end up in a pocket of oldfans on twitter who still act very similar #to how they acted in 2008... who seem to in fact want to preserve #the aspects of the older fandom days that i find particularly dumb. so when i try to talk about a broader scope or things changing #im basing my views mostly on the vibes i've noticed here on tumblr and like trends ive seen with younger/newer fans #for the most part though the biggest changes have probably just been in fandom culture as a whole #and in the series becoming an older/nostalgic one instead of an exciting new one #also i have no idea what's going on in like death note tiktok land or anything so I cannot answer you about that #ask #anon #p

[sailforvalinor]

Someone please tell me to stop trying to read YA, I go in hoping “maybe, just this once, it will be good” and every time I come out a worse person. I don’t want to be a hater, but have you considered stopping making it so easy

#I had heard that red queen was actually supposed to be good but I just want to gouge my eyes out #the mare is so so so so annoying and stupid and is objectively a terrible person. she’s a brat and I can’t stand her #she has three love interests who all like her for what reason I cannot fathom and the only one I like (Maven) is nice and all but it is #instantly obvious that he’s going to betray her. he just suddenly decides to join an underground terrorist group that is waging war on his #family and you’re not supposed to bat an eyelid #also the prose is so bland and repetitive and sometimes even grammatically incorrect #like who edited this and allowed her to refer to someone as a ‘soldier of words’. like WHAT #the irony here ma’am #red queen

[wild-at-mind]

Today's events and the past few months of bullshit have made me feel so rejected from my local LGBTQ community.

#tried to write about it in my last 2 posts but it's hardly a short story :/ #i'm so lonely #my hormones are fucked up and i feel like shit #going on t cannot come soon enough i can tell you #i think i'm perimenopausal :'( #i spent today with the LGBTQ youth group's stand at the park thing #because my name is mud with the organisers of the main group now #this youth group is not super young it goes up to 25 i think #but i'm WELL over 25 and omg i felt so fucking old #and it doesn't help that the main group barely has any transmasc people but this youth group it seems like it's fucking everyone #i just spent the whole time about to cry because i feel like i wasted my entire fucking 20s #being around people who came out in their teens fucks with my head #they have their whole lives ahead of them now #god sometimes i feel like when i came out as trans a door opened up somewhere and now i'm freer #and it hurts so fucking much that i couldn't have gotten there sooner #when i was in the main LGBTQ group i was around people who came out as trans in their 50s and 60s #so i neve felt old there i felt young #but now I can't go back there ever :( #i think there's 2 ages- your actual age and your number of years post coming out/transition #i haven't even started physical transition #i'm so jealous i feel sick i hate myself #i hate the other group for rejecting me

[goldensunset]

i will NOT pick fights with my group members i will not i will not and i will ESPECIALLY not pick fights with the girl who’s both one of the leaders of the project and who i’ll probably be coworkers with next year i will have patience i am so chill and fine and secure and confident not at all going to explode

#peach rambles #it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine there’s no need to get worked up over these little persistent annoyances #she’s nice she’s talented she’s hardworking she’s also. there is just Something i can’t put into words #i should not get bitter about her little quirks she’s human too it’s fine!! #even though sometimes communicating with her and the others like her is like trying to walk through a glass wall #i simply cannot reach them i have never been able to reach my peers she and her people are an in-group #and in-groups can tick you off so fast by failing to communicate or recognize you even though they’re just regular chill people #but they never look past their groups they’re in their own world but they’re trying to be polite still i can’t get mad #it turns me into the villain of the story bc i’m the mean annoying one who has negative feedback that shatters the fairytale world #i approach things differently and it doesn’t gel with how they approach things so they give me orders and i question those orders or argue #i’m the one causing problems with my own ideas but i don’t have a chorus of friends to back me up i’m alone in the fight #so i just look like i suck #auhhhiiihghhhh

[taichouu]

Explaining to my friends shaking and crying swearing my oc is goth but in the "she's a teenager who listens to darkwave/etherealwave and is a part of the culture but goes to a school with a strict appearance policy so her sense of identity and ability to express herself is muted" way and that's why I rarely draw her in typical goth attire and not because i confuse genres-

#tai talks #the nuance . th . #okay it isnt that serious but sometimes whenever i get a commi/ssion of Kou im like . i swear shes goth i just . #it is not a lack of knowledge for me or passion for the sub culture its MULTI LAYERED AAAAAAAAAAGH #i will NOT be grouped in with people who think FOB is goth i cannot

[officialrapunzelfitzherbert]

bro i miss having a dnd group so bad part of me is very ready to play again but another deeper part of me simply cannot endure the horrors a second time

#it turns out when u have. multiple ppl in close proximity w each other for an extended period of time. sometimes they stop getting along!! #and then it becomes Everyones problem!! wild how that goes!!! #i simply cannot be in the middle of a Situation again dude #idk what it is abt me that makes ppl want to fight Around Me. like whats going on there it keeps happening #its not even me picking friends that arent compatible w each other like they pick each other!!! im just along for the ride!! #so silly sooooo silly #but its like. dnd groups can be sooo beautiful but it can also v easily be a recipe for this exact thing happening again soooo #how do i get a party that wont do me like that so i can just have fun playing my silly little characters. how do we get there

[electriccenturies]

Okay, so the other day I was talking about how there's two "detransition" subreddits, right? One that's unfortunately full of never-transitioned transphobes, and one that has practically zero detrans people because it so aggressively prioritizes the feelings of trans people over the feelings of detrans people (for a long time they didn't even have any detrans mods, if that gives you a clue of why this subreddit exists in the first place).

I can't really handle either of them these days, so I usually just Avoid, but some people on twitter were making fun of a post on the second ("good") one, and I really had something to say to the OP so I went and replied... and I think it's SO. TELLING. that of the replies, mine was the only one from a detransitioned person... and mine was also the only one the OP responded to (and said it was helpful).

I say this all to point out how strange and sick it is that hurting, questioning trans people get pointed to this "good" and "virtuous" resource that WILL NOT HELP THEM AT ALL, and does not even have the primary goal of helping them! It certainly happened to me.

This person specifically was posting about how they want to dress feminine all of a sudden and are starting to think that they just feel too fat to be pretty, not actually that they don't want that... and if I hadn't happened to see other people being mean about it, the only advice this person struggling with body image would have gotten would be to "embrace femininity" by waxing, wearing makeup, and dressing for their body... which is not actually addressing what they're saying!

Instead of what they actually WANTED to be told, which was that those feelings have nothing to do with gender, so dressing differently, or trying to be seen as pretty, will never solve them.

This isn't about me or any other detransitioner being in the right place at the right time, though — it's about the fact that I *don't* like to go on this subreddit, and neither do any detrans people I know who have feelings more Complicated than just "I'm glad I tried it". There's few opportunities for our knowledge to mix. That is why there need to be real, facilitated detrans support groups — preferably irl — where people can discuss (unfortunately) taboo ideas like mental illness causing dysphoria, and the possibility that some of us (unconsciously) transitioned as a coping mechanism.

#actually detrans #i will say that some of it is in the delivery for sure. i know some detrans people who CANNOT seem to deliver these sorts of messages- #in a way that someone just starting to question/deal with this can understand. or that respects where they're at. so i get why we have a - #bit of a reputation. but the gap gets harder to close when we're all disconnected. i think a neutral facilitator would solve much of this #i really want them to happen but i'll admit the logistics of an irl detrans support group would be... difficult? #like sometimes i forget how uncomfortable a lot of people get just TALKING about detransition. let alone More. (i used to be like that too)

[weirdopponent]

red is a kind color like a rusted rebar that served you well once some time ago red is the color of dead petals which stink in their rot and revel in the air, a carpet on the concrete and a wet weight red is the color of you when you fluster when the blood rises to your skin or the skinning on your knee red is the color of your knuckles as they brush my cheek rough like old rust and heavy like a wet weight and bloodied with the fight and red is your hair, stained you trip away from me and you relieve when i fail to follow but red is the color of a trap set in the upcoming autumn

#poems #poets on tumblr #sometimes when i just start writing it ends up being about a murderer #i cannot help this. #this is another thing from 2019 #mannnnn it would be nice to make like a lil creative writing group #if i made a post on lex i wonder if anyone would respond #i feel like my city is kind of quiet #it wouldnt NEED to be queer i guess but id rather it be #im always disappointed by ppl i meet in Gay Spaces bc theyre usually like #idk. i have bad luck with making friends #or im just bad at it lol #originals #bwbwbw #definitely a notes app poem. lol #like i like writing on my own but i TERRIBLY miss sharing it with people. who like actually listen. #and told me what they thought

[baltears]

also i know this is a hot take but it’s constantly on my mind whenever i read atla discourse. katara does not start out the series emotionally mature. katara starts out the series parentified and traumatized so that she has learned to replicate the behavior of an adult caretaker as closely as she, a child who is NOT an adult, can. there is a very very large distinction between these two things and without realizing that katara is acting from a space of trauma and playing a relatively rigid and simplistic role as a means of coping, you are imo pretty significantly misreading her character and her situation

#she definitely does mature over the course of the series and by the end of the series she's in a much different place #but it drives me up the wall seeing people say katara is the mature one of the group. she literally never has been. #katara is very responsible and very nurturing. those are not the same things as being emotionally mature and having grown into oneself #and there are so so so many instances where it's very clear katara is still a kid. #i think there's even a pretty substantial time in the show where she actually lags behind sokka developmentally #bc he matures pretty quickly and dramatically over the course of season 1 while katara's journey is a lot slower #by the way im Not saying that katara's care for her friends isnt genuine im not saying they dont benefit from her nurturing #and im definitely not saying she's incapable of genuinely acting mature. #what im saying is that you cannot just take these characters at face value &it's important to understand that they all have a lot going on #and i think katara is one of the most misunderstood potentially because people simply don't realize what parentification looks like #and exactly how harmful it is to the child #or how to notice the difference between someone operating in the role of an adult vs someone who genuinely is an adult emotionally #also btw im sorry if the language in this sounds inflammatory i really don't mean it to be. but sometimes atla fandom... is wrong abt things #it's honestly a little hard for me to understand how so many people miss this about her character bc #it's such a huge foundational element to how she behaves basically at all times 😐 #but idk #anyway for reference see sokka literally explaining kataras parentification to toph in the runaway #and being able to express her emotional state and general headspace much more clearly than katara herself can #atla

[bunnyb34r]

Really wish this brain fog would pass bc I have a shitload of posts in my drafts i saved bc i wanted to read them but my brain said no. And it's tax season so I'm getting important papers in the mail and I cant fucking read them. Well I can read them but it's just words. Nothing is connecting up there. Thank god mom is here to help read that shit and translate but fuck do I hate this shit

Why can't my brain fucking WORK

#it feels like when i kept getting concussions in 9th grade (had 4) and i couldnt fucking focus and my reaction time dropped significantly #like we were doing a basic reaction time experiment in science and i said oh lets not use mine when we submit it (group of 3 pick best #result) and my friends were like pfft whatever go. and i did and they got real quiet and were like oh... #bc they didnt realize i was concussed concussed like bitch my ability to vaguely see in the dark is GONE i cannot see my rt is SLOWED #my brain cannot WORK RIGHT #it's recovered since then (yay neuroplasticity) but i still have bad brain fog from fibro and it's like god at least when I was concussed i #could easily be like listen i had 4 concussions i need help. no problem. but with brain fog it feels like give me a min im stupid today #i hate it!! i hate feeling broken i hate feeling like my brain is half working! it sucks!! #i got insurance shit the other day and had to ask my mom to make sure it was just a basic 'yeah youre covered heres more access' and not #something i needed to act on and it was so frustrating #marquilla #and whats worse is sometimes ill be talking or typing and think im making sense and then ill look back at it later or someone will ask me ab #it and its like oh... im sorry my brain is not working atm and i cannot get out what im trying to and what is getting out is jumbled #the absolute worst is when it hits when im driving and it's like hey you're 2 hours away from home snd now LOST get home bitch :) #luckily it only happened when i was 40 min from home and in a familiar enough area but my brain couldnt find the right 'path' #sucked but i actually knew i was actually on the right path when i saw this house with a lesbian flag sgsgdgdgdgdgdgd like oh! here!!

[0v3rachi3v3r]

bpd sucks

when i first went from tumblr to twitter circa 2018 i followed a few folks from tumblr on twitter bc they were friends and i had no idea where to start

since then, shit went down and there were ppl i just. could not absolutely stand to see bc they reminded me of the bad times(tm). 

unfollowed/blocked on twitter made my life so much better

then twitter shit happened so i came back and lo n behold holy moly yikers i forgot they existed on this site too...

and just bc of that my day (at least the next few hours) has been ruined bc i have such heightened emotions and negative feels

like yea blocked the one account i never hope to see, unfollowed the main acct bc even looking at it is :///

hhhhhhhhhh life is difficult with bpd bc literal emotions from 3 years ago will come back and hit you like a truck the same way it did years ago with the same intensity

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #pointless blogging #if you see this and i unfollowed you i just wanna say im sorry #bc i unfortunately cannot look at you and your name without remembering Ex-Mutual Friend #who in my eyes failed me completely and abandoned me without reason #took half my friends with them and it really feels like you're one of them #we dont talk anymore and when we do it feels disengenous #i tried to support you and your endeavors for a few months but i just absolutely could not bc *he* was there #i felt pretty replaced #and that no one heard my side #i really feel like that entire friend group we had #didn't even bother to listen to my side and left to be with them #and sometimes it feels like youre included in that group #which is why i had to do this #i just actually am emotionally unable to separate you from them #if you wanna talk to me... do so only as closure bc it won't last long #i'm sorry but my bpd is stronger than our ex-friendship. #if you dont wanna follow me bc of it i literally dont care #block me if you want bc i won't look back

[pr]

its sooooo embarrassing for me hearing the coworker next to me's computer constantly ping with teams message notifications 😭 like theres no way they dont have a group chat without me but like also 1. is this high school did yall REALLY need to make a separate group chat to be silly without the weird girl 2. why cant being quiet and weird just be something you tolerate instead of excluding me bc of it like i dont understand am i being rude for being socially anxious like is it really THAT bad jesus

#i decided after last week when i finally sat at the lunch table and everyone was like deadly quiet that i was just going to give up #like i truly cannot tell if its in my head or if it happened unrelated to me being there and they ARE quiet sometimes #and i just dont notice bc im not there - idk #but i like physically cannot make myself join conversations happening next to me like i cant i KNOW im being annoying #my voice gets stuck in my throat. i wish they would just accurately interpret my weird avoidance as being socially anxious #and not as being rude and not wanting to be around them. and maybe they do and just dont care!!!! #but i feel like i need to be in social skills 101 and i got thrown into an advanced course #even my fiance said yeah thats rough you are all in a big room together constantly #and its not a small enough group that everyone has to be included #but its not a big enough group to have small factions that can be friends together either #and you all just constantly have to be together #like if HE can see why im anxious then you KNOW im fucked aldhalsja #i also still canNOT get over i 4 of us left to get on a golf cart and as soon as i hopped on the back #the girl that wouldve had to sit next to me literally went to get a different cart instead....... #like??? how do i NOT read that as not even wanting to be near me??? #idk only 2 more weeks until i can just wander around the fair for 10 hours a day and not have to social anxiety sit on my chest. sigh. #op

[so-emo-i-fell-apart]

Aparently I'm useless for offering to make supper but not knowing what to make so I asked my mom what she'd like and now she's just doing it and I'm trying to to cry

#thanks one of the things she said when i mived back home was that i was supposed to help with supper and i agreed because i really wanted to #learn to cook but i physically cannot look at a group of ingredients and see an end product so sometimes i need help coming up with the idea #but every time i ask she just makes supper on her own and ive learned nothing