SO. TO KICK OFF THE WEEK OF SPECULATION BEFORE THE UPDATE DROPS.
last night i had a bit of a Revelation. literally. i borderline woke up in a cold sweat with this realization. the way i lunged for my laptop to scream at friends... ough. lets get into it
so. i do believe I've made a couple of theory posts about Barnaby not being quite as receptive to his and Wally's "forced" best friendship as Wally - since the show wrote them to be friends instead of it happening naturally. i thought it might be a point of tension for Barn. i thought a lot.
YES SO I'M TOSSING (almost) ALL OF THAT OUT THE WINDOW!
the bios state Barnaby as Wally's best friend multiple times over. it had to be regularly reinforced. their colors were chosen to mark them as friends.
but Barnaby - presumably - can't see the bios, he wouldn't know the scripts. the friendship would be natural from his perspective. how would he know otherwise? even if the relationship started out synthetic, i don't doubt that it became genuine. in the context of their world and perceptions, realistically speaking Barnaby probably wouldn't sense anything wrong.
the reminders to be best friends weren't for Barnaby.
they were for Wally.
i'm starting to suspect that Wally is Barnaby's best friend, but Barnaby isn't Wally's. i think that Wally's "best friend" is Home - or at least Wally has a closer connection to them / Home is more important to Wally than anyone else is.
i remember reading this livestream trivia (from theneighborhoodwatch's doc, if you haven't their resources yet what are you even doing?):
and i assumed it was for Barnaby's side of the relationship. but it's not, is it? it's Wally's? and it makes too much fucking Sense! it fits! i can see it perfectly! i can feel things slotting together in my mind due to this shift in perspective, and i'm scared
Barnaby probably thinks the relationship is natural, just like how he thinks he's a real person in a real world. Wally probably knows that the relationship is a role, just like how he knows he's a puppet in a false reality.
that leaves me wondering how much of it is genuine on Wally's side. i don't doubt that they really are friends, but how deep does that connection go? in the interview, Wally sounded excited/proud about having a best friend, but how much came from a place of feeling, and how much came from a place of Fulfilling The Role? how much of it is performative? how much of it is a mask?
i've been seeing everything differently. Barnaby poses for Wally the most because he has good balance and is good at staying still, not because of favoritism or because he's Wally's best friend. in the 14 (15 including the hidden halloween) audios, Barnaby consistently seeks out Wally and checks in on him. Wally seems more casual about their relationship than Barnaby is.
i'm worried that Wally values Home & You/Us over Barnaby. that Barnaby is second or third place in Wally's heart. that Wally means more to Barnaby than he means to Wally. after all, only one of them needed their relationship to be reinforced on a seemingly regular basis.
i'm confident that Wally cares about / loves Barnaby, but the question is how much? to what extent?
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YALL I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING WHILE WATCHING THE FINAL EP OF FIRST KILL
AND IM SAD IT TOOK ME THIS LONG TO CATCH IT, BUT LIKE
WHEN OLIVER IS TALKING WITH ELINOR IN JAIL, AND WE SEE THE FLASH BACK OF HIM DRAINING THEIR COUNSELOR AND MARGOT SEES HIM AND THEN CLOSES THE BLINDS
ELINORS EYES TURN YELLOW
AND DONT THEY DO THAT WHEN SHES ALTERING OR ERASING SOMEONES MEMORIES???
IS SHE ALSO ABLE TO USE HER POWERS ON FELLOW LEGACIES???
cause tbh i thought her powers only would work on mortals etc
this just creates more questions than answers; did she alter Olivers memories? Did she alter her parents memories? Was Elinor and Oliver both responsible for his banishment, or did Elinor have a bigger role in it?
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fuuuuck my life I think I lost my pencil pouch #gonnakms
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WHY DO I ALWAYS GET ATTACHED TO THE TRAUMATIZED BBYGIRLS IN MEDIA HUH?!?!
anyone got any answers because wtf 😭😭 i get unhealthily attached and hyperfixate on them and then i must suffer as they suffer. and then i must consume unhealthy amounts of fanfics to cope lmfao. its a vicious neverending cycle. the more traumatized they are, the more I am obsessed.
is it my “i can fix them” complex? mayhaps? or maybe i’d just make them worse 🤔
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ok i know i promised to be here this weekend, but as my wonderful fucking life likes to throw curveballs at me -- i've been hit with a big medical bill and i've been uber driving all weekend to just make enough for rent/groceries. getting closer to my goal but sorry for yet another broken promise :(
im giving myself this afternoon to rest then will be hitting the road again this evening. and probs all day tomorrow - but i want to write a wee bit this afternoon so i shall be here. but wanted to apologize..again sfghdlkjf ugh
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Title: you're lost at sea, then I'll command your boat to me again
Pairing: Allan Thompson/Tom
Rating: Explicit
It started with what he was sure was just another dry spell.
It had been a while since he’d brought back a girl, he’s been busy setting up links in ports with Allan, trying to find the best people to help distribute Sallad’s product. He just hadn’t felt like it lately and he hadn’t really given it much thought until Ernie (fucking Ernie) brought it up during a card game.
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Tom refuses to think for more than a second about his relationship with Allan until he's in front of the man and can't do anything else but.
Yeah, YEAH I KNOW, a new fic? After several years!? Madness. Anyway, 10k of my favourite bastards. Enjoy!
Read it on AO3 here
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Just when I thought things were going great🥺
2023 has not been nice to me 😭
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Top Three Reactions
1. Oh no, poor Fox :(
2. Finally Carson Pickett!!!!! I can't believe another player had to get hurt for her to make the roster
3. So we have the power to add replacements at this stage and they didn't call another forward for Pugh because...?
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