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dizzybizz · 5 months

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hai here is a sketch dump with too many fandoms :) sorry about the ungodly amount of men here i have been going through it and by it i mean gay

ok wait i ran out of tags??? it wont let me tag them all😭😭😭 im gonna have to be sparing with them uhh i guess i will have to ramble under the cut then cus i like rambling in my tags but i cant with this one 😭

(ok im back from the ramble: it is way too long.... proceed forward if you want to see some guy just absolutely talk nonsense for entirely too long)

no cus i swear i have tried tagging more stuff than this before and never hit the limit but whatever

hello i really use this like a fkn blog huh

i just wanted to provide some thoughts on the harper and rosé one first bc its important to me 😌 cus i was thinking abt harper and how in my head and heart of hearts she would be the kid who thought you get pregnant from kissing and i dont think she ever really grew out of that belief. <- this ended up spawning the idea of harper being a sex-repulsed ace and i will die on this hill actually. fight me or die, you die either way actually nvm

this is just a buncha blorbos i dont know what to tell you really. sketch pages like these always end up so weird for me bc for some reason my brain always wants the characters in them to interact in some way. whether that be talking or just reacting to what the other is doing... its something i cant stop with, its so stupid and silly and i hate it and i love it. where else would i see kabru slowly losing his mind with how loud phoenix wright is in court????

I THOUGHT I HAD GOTTEN OFF THE RAILS WITH THAT BUT THEN THE NEXT PAGE HAPPENED. and all i could do was laugh and ask "what the fuck am i drawing??? HOW DID WE GET HERE? WHY IS THISTLE HERE WITH LEOPIKA HELP" LIKE that page started with the big leopika and then i was like "man i miss thistle lemme draw him real quick" but the curse struck and now hes being homophobic so </3

i rlly like how the nic(k) page turned out ... i just have a lot of nicks i like drawing idk.. the lil guy is an oc,,, one day his ref sheet will be finished and itll be awesome but not for now, sorry baby, no can do. im weirdly happy with how the hands turned out for all of them tho?? so thats a W

yotasuke, murai, nick (youll never know which one im referring to. .. jkjk its hoult i love the pose there ehehhe), nic and the entire last page r my favs. i like em all but those rlly get me yknow- the olly too ofc but ive already posted him, dont mind him being here, hes part of the set. AND OVER ALL IVE BEEN HAVING SO FUN WITH SHADING BLACK AND JUST LEAVING SPOTS BLANK ITS SO ?`????

WHY IS THIS SO LONG PLS DONT READ ALL THIS THIS IS STRAIGHT UP EMBARRASSING AGHSDFGSDHJSGD im all like "yeah i dont like talking about myself or whatever" but as soon as i get to my process or blorbos or smth the floodgates fucking break open, not even burst man.

also dont mind how i havent even acknowledged pingas twink pokemon counterpart. hes just here for shits and giggles i dont know the guy like at all, i watched a handful of eps of horizons and that was it RIP

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judeswhore · 7 months

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how bout u also being a celebrity (maybe an athlete) and u see jude at an airport but u don’t know who he is but ur just immediately attracted to him so u post him on ur instagram story and ur like someone find me this man’s @ and everyone’s replying telling u that’s jude bellingham and he plays for england so then u immediately delete ur story after realizing and u go to follow him and dm him only to see he has dmed u something ages ago and you haven’t noticed and you’re like “i hope it’s not too late to respond”

literally having no clue at all who he is but he’s so fit??? and u so desperately wna know but ur not able to actually go up to him (plus ur too shy to ever do that) so ur going to instagram w this little clip and being all “please help me find my airport crush” not knowing it’s jude fkn bellingham and that he actually already follows u. so all ur fans are replying and even ur friends are messaging u like “bro that’s literally jude bellingham” and still ur a bit like?? bc u half recognise the name and then people are explaining that he plays for england and rma and is just massive rn. so ur searching his instagram, getting so giddy when u see he already follows u and immediately following him back, having a little stalk of his instagram to prove he really is so fit before ur going to dm him. but he’s already messaged u a few months back abt one of ur roles, saying how good u were and that he loved it or wtv or maybe he’d even just replied to one of ur stories saying u looked pretty and now u cant believe u missed this bc ???? so ur replying asking “have i missed my shot bc i ignored u for so long?” and u kinda don’t expect him to reply bc it’s been forever and he might be dating now plus you’ve seen how many followers he has so god knows what his dms are like. but he does reply and he’s all “i think i can let u off for claiming i’m ur airport crush” bc everyone had been tagging him in screenshots of ur story and stuff so he’d already seen. and youse just hit it off so well and within like a week or something youse are agreeing to meet up

#hey jude :)

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lostfracturess · 2 months

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nici i’ll have u know i just took two shots of tequila in preparation for this chapter 🤣🤣 and it’s close to 1pm on a tuesday

ALSO I CANT BELIEVE S&C IS OVER 100k NOW THANK U FOR THE NEVER ENDING FEAST QUEEN

“how can u stay so calm?” “drugs, sweetheart. it’s the drugs.”

i cackled so fkn hard 🤣

"Tell me," he whispered, his breath a warm caress against your ear. "Where would you want him to touch you?"

IM CHEWING MY MF KNUCKLES I NEED THIS MAN (or both men) IN MY BED IMMEDIATELY

Geto stripped the rain from his hair, then twisted the dark strands into a fresh bun. His eyes flickered between you and Satoru, a single raised eyebrow his only question. You wouldn't meet his gaze, the floor suddenly fascinating.

stoppppp okay first of all the writing is eating so hard idk how but w every chapter i just fall more n more in love w the way u write 😭 BUT ALSO DON’t GIMME THE IMAGE OF A RAIN SOAKED GETO or else something ELSE is gonna be soaked out here🧍🏻‍♀️

ok i have to stop quoting every other line lmaooo

"Just so we're clear," Satoru's voice suddenly cut through the quiet, "I don't share. Not you."

PLS I KNOW I SAID I WLD STOP QUOTING EVERY OTHER LINE BUT THIS WAS THE NEXT LINE AND IM SCREAMING this is not fun to read while i’m in my fertile window

sighhh the conversation ab the 37 y/o pt passing n how he’s just a statistic now 😭 so heartbreaking yet realistically put

im loving the daddy dom energy satoru is exuding in this chapter i just love when usually flirty/amused men lock tf in when things get serious lol it’s so hot. also so sweet how all he’s concerned ab is her reputation & career ahead

“A familiar ache rose in your chest. You longed to reach out, to bridge the chasm he insisted on maintaining. But his posture, rigid as stone, and his clenched jaw, sent a silent warning. This was his battle, one he'd fight in isolation—as always.”

ughh i feel like this perfectly sums up their dynamic. also if s&c was a paperback book this wld 100% be a quote that readers wld highlight on the page n crop to post on pinterest lmaooo it’s so good

“He was falling apart. But all you could do was watch.”

🥲 pls. stopp im so fragile rn.

NOOOOO NOT SUKUNA BOOO BOOOOOO 🍅 🍅 GIMME FIVE MINS IN A ROOM W HIM RN 💥👊🏼

i have sm anxiety over this ethics hearing my palms r actually sweaty. its like i’m THERE rn.

wait nici can u explain again sukuna’s want for revenge towards gojo n wanting to tear him/reader down 😭 was it like the jealousy that he wasn’t able to become a successful surgeon like gojo n had to settle on educational matters instead? :”) im dumb sry. ik he’s the root of gojo’s addiction but i think i might be missing something here lol. or do we not know yet

ok i still hate sukuna’s guts but there is partial truth to what hes saying🧍🏻‍♀️not saying reader isn’t brilliant n talented in her own right, but for sure, satoru’s attraction to her has given her opportunities that other qualified students were potentially robbed of (we live in a society lol). but idk how exactly she ranks among her peers, so maybe she rly was the best student for the job, but that’s all very subjective

"Because you would do the same," you finally managed, the words scraped raw from your throat. "You would stay. You wouldn't leave me."

ok “why do you even stay?” sent a chill down my spine but THISSS. im gaspeddd :””(( reader loves him sm and if her commitment to not letting him take all the blame isnt evident enough, her sticking w him thru his drug addiction is truly a type of devotion that comes from a purest point of love

“You—you make me feel things I've spent a lifetime avoiding, things I don't know how to handle. It scares the hell out of me."

ouchhhh 😭 ok but i feel him on this. that avoidant attachment be hittin againnn lmao me n him are so same

"You don't need to deserve me, Satoru. Love isn't about deserving. It's about choosing each other, again and again, no matter what. And I choose you.”

CRYINGG YES 😭😭😭💕💕💕 this healed a part of me ngl

"If you don't come down in the next few minutes, you're the one getting folded, first-year."

WHY IS HE ALL OF A SSUDEN MR FUNNY MAN NOW PLSSSKDJDJD their chemistry this chap is off the charts

FFFFFUCKKK MEEE JUNKYARD BOY CHOSO!!!!????? I BET HE SMELLS LIKE GREASE N SWEAT N SOMEONE I WANNA FUCK. omg he called me pretty company 🤭🤭 bye dr gojo im all about them blue collars im sorry 😔🤚🏼

"I love you, first-year. Damn it, I love you. I don't care how complicated this gets, I want you."

god pls 🧎🏻‍♀️ if i’ve done anything good in life, then just give me this man

OMGGG HES GONNA FUCK US OVER THE HOOD OF A CAR ?!??!!?

"You give in too easily." A teasing smile played on his lips. "You don't really want me to fuck you on this hood, right?"

😐😐 this isn’t funny. im not laughing rn. i will not stand this sort of edging. gimme dick NOW

omg🧍🏻‍♀️ive no words to say about that smut. delicious, devious, dampening. he is my every fantasy and i desire him. i desire him so deeply

aaa he hurt her in his sleeeeppp 😭😭 for a man that cares so deeply like him that mustve really fucked w him. also this is so random and must be my daddy issues speaking lmao but satoru (minus his addiction) wld be such a good family man🧍🏻‍♀️the way he loves is sooo providing and stubborn to a fault but almost in a way that’s kind of grounding lol bc i feel like he’s almost always, at the end of the day, right about everything? haha i cld be proven so wrong ab this but i just had to share the thought

mannn im on the second court hearing n im just SO damn curious what is going thru satoru’s head rn 😭 it seems like something switched in there somehow, his demeanor is so different

him actinf so calm rn is scarinf the shit ourta me im ngl🧍🏻‍♀️like bb ur scaring me. PKS IN SO SCARED WHY IS HE SUDDNELY TELLINF US HE LOVES US

ah. and there it is. satoru’s impending fall from grace. i saw it coming from a mile away and that he wld do something like this, but fuck. the way it was written. i thought it would be something that came a place of more heightened emotions from him, something desperate to protect (kinda like in the first hearing). but THIS….so calm, collected, so sure of his love for reading that he’s willing to let go of almost everything that has given him purpose in life up until this point. it aches.

:( im heartbroken rn. amazing chapter 😭💕 thank u sm for writinf it, oh my gosh, jusf amazing

i need more tequila

giiirl!!! not the tequila ahhhhh 😭😭 that brings back bad memories omg.

& yes the story is over 100k already and still no end in sight. i never thought i would write so much lol. but also i'm already so sad when the story will eventually someday end. like i never want to not write about my unhinged neurosurgeon gojo help.

stoppppp okay first of all the writing is eating so hard idk how but w every chapter i just fall more n more in love w the way u write

thank you so so much!! that's such a big compliment coming from a fellow author <3

BUT ALSO DON’t GIMME THE IMAGE OF A RAIN SOAKED GETO or else something ELSE is gonna be soaked out here🧍🏻‍♀️

GIRL 😂 I'M SORRY.

i have sm anxiety over this ethics hearing my palms r actually sweaty. its like i’m THERE rn.

so glad the angst transpires well in this chapter!!!

wait nici can u explain again sukuna’s want for revenge towards gojo n wanting to tear him/reader down

so first: sukuna is an asshole.

second: sukuna is an asshole.

third: SUKUNA IS AN ASSHOLE.

no seriously, how i portray him is like a very power driven man, that thrives on the misery of others. moreover satoru being his lifelong rival and sukuna finally getting a change to push him of his throne is just something he wouldn't let slip through his fingers. so it's really all about power and control on sukuna's side.

also satoru's states in that chapter that he did something stupid in his past that sukuna is still mad about. feel free to speculate, given satoru's past 😂

ok i still hate sukuna’s guts but there is partial truth to what hes saying

yes it is!! satoru really has just eyes for yn and is defensively letting other students down in the process. this just adds to the overall mess their relationship is.

ok “why do you even stay?” sent a chill down my spine but THISSS.

hmmmmmm ahhhhhhh SO HAPPY that these lines landed well <333 love them!! they are so messy and raw ahhhhh

WHY IS HE ALL OF A SSUDEN MR FUNNY MAN NOW PLSSSKDJDJD their chemistry this chap is off the charts

he had a little bit of drugs and was all happy again lol.

FFFFFUCKKK MEEE JUNKYARD BOY CHOSO!!!!????? I BET HE SMELLS LIKE GREASE N SWEAT N SOMEONE I WANNA FUCK.

i was wondering, if i should just do a random character or one of the jjk cast and choso just came into mind at first. idk why but i think it fits ahaha.

omg🧍🏻‍♀️ive no words to say about that smut. delicious, devious, dampening. he is my every fantasy and i desire him. i desire him so deeply

here to serve!! so glad you liked the spicy scene. they are always a pain in the ass to write.

aaa he hurt her in his sleeeeppp 😭😭 for a man that cares so deeply like him that mustve really fucked w him.

YES!!! you're the first to comment on that!!! also thought that this is so so so SO BAD for him. like he would never (physically) hurt her and doing it unintentionally in his sleep??? EVEN WORSE. poor boy must have felt so miserable and angry at himself after.

the way he loves is sooo providing and stubborn to a fault but almost in a way that’s kind of grounding lol

honestly, love your observation about the potential family man side of satoru! his love IS fierce, demanding, and sometimes overbearing, but at its core, it's deeply protective, and i think you're spot on about that being grounding.

but THIS….so calm, collected, so sure of his love for reading that he’s willing to let go of almost everything that has given him purpose in life up until this point. it aches.

so happy satoru's fall from grace hit well!! wanted that choice of his to feel both shocking and inevitable. not a desperate outburst, but this chillingly calculated decision, born out of love. it just hurts so good!

thank you so so much for your lovely reactions to the chapter ellie, as always!! it means the world. also give me some of the tequila lol. sending you kisses and hugs ♡

#symptoms and causes #inbox

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straycalamities · 4 months

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🍀✨🌼🌺🥊 for ace?

this is an essay (oops) so readmore B') tons of ramblings especially about the concept, origins, and brainstorming of ace below

🍀 - What originally inspired the OC?

so when camp entre (truffula flu) was in its death throes, i kinda saw the end coming over the horizon and was already thinking "well, i'm really attached to a lot of the things we've done here what if i made an original webcomic based on that" and so i had to start populating it

well originally i made andrew to be in entre's spot and he was literally deoncelerized entre (until 2019 when he rly became his own thing w just some similarities) and i'm literally swagtre-obsessed til i die so i was like well obviously i want to recreate a similar dynamic so i literally made ace to be andrew's love-interest and foil. that's why i include swag as one of his inspirations and it's..kinda obvious too. but trufflu swag-mod was fine w the obvious inspiration so it's all good

it was like a decade ago i did this so things are fuzzy but i remember when things really Hit me was when i remembered(? or someone mentioned? i forgor. just basically i ended up watching) Ferris Bueller's Day Off and it literally smacked me in the face like i know Exactly what i want to do for this character now. i threw in some eddy from eene and kuzco from emperor's new groove and boom. i had him.

(i cant find my original drawings of him rn but he just. looked like some Dude at the beginning lol)

✨- How did you come up with the OC’s name?

now we get to the next part of ace's development. so when i made him he was kinda just..on the backburner but! i got the idea to try and put him in thneedville/thornville high and develop him there, but i Also wanted there to be more girl charas in the au and i was like "well i think his personality would be really interesting in a girl chara" so i made him a girl for my concept for that au

him and his twin (was gonna be run by spike/rocky's mod) they were Ace and Anna (i think..) he still has the kinda original look here even if i made it a bit more feminine. he also doesnt have a twin anymore. i joke he absorbed her in the womb and that's why he's so lucky.

bc the thing i kept was when i originally made him (cis male), his name was gonna be Dwayne and he just chooses to go by Ace bc its a cooler name. and when i made him a girl his name was gonna be equally embarrassing so he..still ended up going by Ace. (i kept it. it's his deadname now LMAO) bc after the highschool au was a Flop for me, i was like well no i want him to be a guy again but decided to make him trans bc i didnt have a trans chara yet and i thought it was Time, especially as a trans man myself, to have a chara with those sorts of experiences like me :3

i was attached to the name Ace bc 1. its fkn cool 2. i always knew i wanted him to be asexual so. the puns 3. there's a lot more puns to be made w a name like Ace and it just fit his demeanor and stuff and the way he loves doing stuff with cards (cardtricks, poker, etc) there's a lot of weight on his name being Ace and i love it

his full name is Ace Dale Miller. and it was meant to sound redneck af. being someone born n raised in mississippi, i know the culture very well LMAO and so his middle name is bc his dad (regardless of being born afab) gave him that middle name bc of Dale Earnhardt. and Miller comes from the beer of the same name. bc that was a thing i wanted was his discontent and disconnect from his roots but never fully escaping them

🌼 - How old are they? (Or approximate age range)

in his mainverse (zombie apoc comic whenever that happens) i keep him early-mid 30s and typically that's the age-range i default to and have done the most to Set Up for. i like him being old enough to make a name for himself and be Set (before whatever plot happens to tear it all apart) and also being in that age but having the tendencies of a manbaby. it's funni to me

however in the cult au i want to eventually get running on a blog, he's going to be a senior in high school and being a teen is the general age-range i go for for that au

🌺- Do they have any love interest(s)?

i'm a chronic multi-shipper especially with my own ocs, so he's had flings with a lot of my friends' and former-friends' ocs, but the main chara i default to (and is canon in his canon universes) is Andrew :3

he was literally created to go with him so. ya.

exposes my obvious swagtre-redraws but acedrew. the Original Vision

but like i said i'm always down to clown with any oc with him at any time. he's just hard to love and hard to get to realize he loves. so everyone has to be prepared for that LMAO

🥊 -What do they love to do? What do they hate to do?

his favorite things to do: be right, be correct, other people be wrong but not him, mobile games like candy crush, poker, card-tricks, darts, billiards, blackjack, craps, you get the idea he likes to gamble and do stuff you find in bars, he also likes singing, he also likes getting his way by any means necessary like it's a thrill for him to outplay and even manipulate other people so that things end up in his favor when luck isn't already working for him, he likes to show off but only when it works and people fawn over him for being so cool and skilled. oh yeah he also lowkey likes pranks and trolling ppl but he doesn't do it a ton? so i wouldn't call him A Prankster, but he does enjoy it.

he hates doing things that are the opposite of all that. like he hates being wrong, loathes losing, he hates being bored, hates getting dirty, hates too much manual labor, hates being inconvenienced especially in the smallest ways (but he does like a Challenge so this isn't the same thing as that), he hates emotions especially confronting or even recognizing his own that aren't happy good time emotions, he hates crying (him or other ppl)

the thing about him is he complains and bitches and moans about the smallest shit but if something Big and Serious were to happen to him either emotionally or physically, he'd play it off like he's fine. he's okay (he promises). like he'll whine about a paper cut all day but catch him with a mortal wound tearing through his middle and he'll hide it and march on til the blood-loss gets him. he's just That Guy.

#asks #Anonymous #ace miller #THANK YOUU for the questions :3 #i love info-dumping about my ocs sorry there's so much thought i put into them (most of the time)

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monkiebois · 1 year

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Nezha is an insanely picky eater who also likes some of the most disgusting food combinations. It’s one part neurodivergent and one part preteen-ness. (I’m sorry, I just want Nezha to have a few characteristics that are pure “this kid is eternally 12 and it shows”)

Yepyepyeyep

He is eternally twelve but i like to think that he doesnt want it to show. He's an important god after all and "major god's cant act like children"

honestly when it comes to nezha and all my hc's no matter the au i see nezha as a kid who has to hide his "childish nature" and act as an adult constantly. yes he's naturally responsible and often has the braincell but he takes it one step further as ALWAYS being responsible and taking charge. so that others see him as an adult and not a child.

...

masking

hes masking. constantly.

but anyways back to the food picky stuff yeah. i hc mac is a really good cook cause mans had next to nothing else to do with how fkn lonely he used to be,,,unless u count plotting revenge but thats not exactly a hobby now is it.

anyways, Nezha would normaly push these tendancies aside but when hes at home and mac or swk cook theyre always sure to note nezha's pickiness and make his food accordingly. whether its the food touching or just....wierd combinations.

"baba?"

"hmm-oh...i forgot the-"

*holds up grilled cheese* "you forgot the ketchup

(listen when i was like....5 ketchup and grilled cheese was AMAZING and i never knew it wasnt normal till i was like...13)

*holds up lil' nezha*

HE IS A CHILD

GODDAMMIT HEAVEN LET HIM BE ONE

#lego nezha #monkie kid nezha #nezha lmk #nezha #lmk nezha #lmk sun wukong #liu er mihou #consequencesau💫#anon ask

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tutuandscoot · 8 months

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I’ve watched all the moulin rouge practice vids I could find. What are some of your other favorite practices of theirs other than those?

Yeah I don’t think you can really beat the 2/17 practice.. that shit is the holy grail. I mean a full uninterrupted- no cut aways of VM being VM, practicing THAT program… for 30 mins… than camera man new what we fkn wanted and gave it to us.. i truly cant believe we have the “thats how you win the olympics” practice in beautiful high quality video!!!! . I mean I could be greedy and say I want that for every practice there has ever been but I’ll forever be grateful we have 2/17

As for others:

Obvs this one for… reasons x

SD practice at worlds 2017- so many cute moments, i also like that its a kinda weird camera angle, kinda feels like how it might be at some skating comps if you are right at the boards x

Fd practice at gpf 2016- i did a whole sappy babbly post on this bc i was in my feels one night, but its so beautiful x

Sd practice in sochi, its just fascinating.. i remember them saying once that in sochi the relationship with marina had become so toxic they hardly went back to the boards at all during practices to consult with her but in this one they are back there bc T cut her finger. There’s kinda this erie, quiet quality to how they are going about it all, they are confident but also so alone and at times seem so fragile x

Theres a few fan cams of them practicing at COR 2012. I remember a few years ago.. in my kinda second round of obsessing over them i watched all these videos, then when i came back (and stuck around this time) i went back to those practices and remembered watching them, but now with a new obsession appreciation. The way they handle having to emergency stop the rotational lift bc a team was in their way, when S holds out his hand for T to take their bows, the pre practice hugs x x

Practicing Aint No Mountain at worlds and S not remembering the chore x

Oh and of course them choreoing/ running LTR for the first time at SCI 2017 x

Theres many many more and theres lots i haven’t watched in a while so i forget how good they were

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alicenpai · 11 months

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reading medalist ch 5+6 ⛸

inori killed a man... two men. gonna hit inori with the monopoly go to jail card

more funny inori faces

ill keep posting about this series as i read until i get bored of typing ahaha. like i said in my previous post, this series hits hard for me so i def want to write about it. i'm having a lot of fun so maybe i'll do it for every series i read from now on?? bc ive noticed with conversations with people, even friends ive known for a while, that often they have no idea what i even like...... im sorry!! im such a lone wolf!!!!!!

spoilers + etc under the cut bc the images were making this post too long (ill only post comedic/non spoilery images before cuts)

why is this guy so fkn edgy for.

EDIT OCT 18 2023 JUST REALIZED THE CAPTION ON THE IMAGE WAS A METAL GEAR SOLID REFERENCE. HOW DID I FORGET I LOVE MGS.

who hurt you. im sure someone did... knowing this manga so far... heh... when hikaru was performing, tsukasa wondered if the dance routine was a famous skater's, but felt a bit off. turns out the routine was choreographed by jun (this guy). i'm wondering if the more experienced, older skater has something to do with jun's attitude...

gay gay homosexual gay

i cant wait for the anime to come out bc i bet there will be yaoi fanart of these 2 (im half joking) (but also i wonder if itll be like when i got into trigun last summer even before trigun stampede was announced and i was like i bet wolfwood/vash are a huge ship....and all of the fanart was from the 2000s. i was like well when it comes out in 2023 i bet there will be an explosion of wolfwood/vash fanart. I WAS RIGHT. I CALLED IT)

their victory dance is so CUTE

again like my previous post, the character progression in medalist is incredibly swift, but also somehow naturally paced and well deserved. albeit the chapters are super long, but only a few chapters ago miketa was bragging to inori about how she's a rebel who doesn't need adults to become a top athlete.

i think it's also an interesting narrative about kids who don't exactly fit in, but in the opposite way of the usual kind of kids who are quiet and shy - about kids who act out, and are aggressive and competitive but can't control their behaviour. and it's even more tragic when they're aware of their actions but still struggle to stop and to ask for help, to only wish to be like the other kids. these kinds of kids also feel alone much in the same way. points to tsurumaikada for really understanding how children work and weaving such insightful narratives into their characters.

#medalist

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whxre4hange · 2 years

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the most disturbing deaths in aot

manga spoilers below! u hav been warned!

honestly, all of the deaths in aot were horrifying in their own way, but in this post, im just gonna brain-puke my thoughts about all of the most terrible deaths (in my opinion)

carla

eaten alive by her husband’s ex wife

covered her own mouth so her son wouldn’t hear her weeping for him to come back so she wouldn’t have to die alone ):

also connie’s mother (as a pure titan) recognised connie enough to say “welcome home”

so u cant tell me dina didn’t know who carla was....

>:(

mike

the guy is usually so strong, composed, everything a leader should be

and he was screaming like a child when being eaten alive

it freaked me out

nanaba

similar to mike, a survey corps veteran who was eaten alive

screaming for her father to stop the whole time, indicating some kind of trauma

broke my heart into a million pieces

her death was pretty much forgotten but it stuck with me

marco

and even at the end of the manga

i couldn’t forget the ‘disposable’ character who still had an impact years after his death

he was so fkn innocent and sweet

he wasn’t even angry

he just wanted to talk things out ):

faye

a literal child who just wanted to see the air ships

torn apart by fucking dogs

i can’t comprehend how people can do that kind of awful stuff

especially to a CHILD

as someone who has a sibling that age

idk it really just

yeah

isabel

again, a literal child, who had no idea what she’d gotten into

brutally killed, still believing that levi would come and save her

farlan

and farlan, who refused to run even when he knew he’d die a gruesome death

who waved farewell to levi, a slight smile of acceptance gracing his face

ymir

who willingly went to marley, knowing she’d die, to save historia

who died knowing that she’d never get to marry the love of her life

she was so full of a drive to survive

but in the scene where she was chained up to die

she just looked broken

marlo

and all of those soldiers that charged headon into certain death

who thought of hitch just before he died

she was thinking of you too; worrying about a man who would never return

hannes

who was so wracked by grief and regret that he charged the smiling titan just to avenge Carla

he mightve had a chance to survive, but he got so caught up in avenging carla (e.g. torturing the titan instead of going for the kill because of all of the trauma she caused eren and mikasa), he didn’t

who closed his eyes as he died

he had a good redemption arc but still ):

and all of those survey corps soldiers who died, screaming in fear, pain and anguish. theres too many to name here, but yeah

okay back to crying now! would love to hear your thoughts in the comments :)

#aot #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #snk #hannes #aot sad #farlan #isobel aot #levi aot #aot imagines #armin aot #aot fandom #aot death #ymir #historia #nanaba #marco bodt fluff #marco aot

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cyborg-franky · 9 months

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pssst. yo dad. pops. my main man. i need help.

i like to write for fun- okay- and this commenter was like “you cant ship these two! the age gap is 5 years!!” like they didn’t start dating after they are 18/23.

but the “”issue”” comes from them meeting ONCE at 10 and 15 for a solid minute, and then being “business partners” at 13 and 18. the older didn’t have romantic feelings for the younger until the bitches were 20 and 25. but oh no, the age gap.

LIKE I CAN TOTALLY AGE MY FKN OC DOWN ~2 YEARS TO MAKE IT “BETTER”. BUT I MADE THE BITCH ABOUT MY AGE FOR A FUCKING REASON. it’s meant to be a college romance- but because one entered early, it’s “bad”

but now i’m thinking it’s bad!!?? shoulder i just start over or stop and die at this point??

Age gap ships will always devide people I feel. As long as the two are adults and there was no grooming [an age gap DOES NOT mean automatic grooming thank you] then there is nothing wrong with it.

I have seen people getting death threats and being herassed over age gaps in One Piece [LawLuffy, MarcoAce] and like if someone has that much time to dedicate to hassling you over fictional ships then honestly, touching grass isn't going to help them and it's best to ignore them.

I have seen people love a ship [the same people who hate age gaps] until someone points out -something- that is an issue with the ship then they rip each other apart.

I've been blocked and hassled for liking Marco Ace as a ship and my OC being younger then Marco, older then Ace but like. As long as it's all above board an age gap is not bad on it's own and you should just have fun and ignore people who can't get over it. They can block tags and ships. Just 'TW agegap' like most of us d and just vibe with it.

This is always a topic that caused alot of issues and headaches for people I feel aaaah.

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destiny-fics · 2 years

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Crying, screaming, kicking my feet, sliding down the walls, squealing like a banshee.

Hongjoong's pc's are sleeping in the shed tonight.

GURRL WTF! The Hj fic WAS SO GOOD I CANT FKN BREATHE!

I love that you made Hongjoong so mouthy because I think he would secretly be such a dirty talker.

The SHOTGUNNING BIT 🚬 🔥 🚬

Masterpiece, absolute masterpiece.

This Minho photo accurately describes how I feel watching y'all lose your minds over something I've written, it's very flattering and also very confirming that people actually like my work.

Just call me Park Seonghwa bc I like to watch y'all squirm 😈

Anyway, I'm seriously glad you enjoyed it. Like so seriously happy.

Also I'm glad you liked mouthy Joong, bc like there's no way he isn't a dirty talker. Man has a filthy mouth, I just know he does. I have no basis for this but I've decided I'm correct.

In all seriousness though I am really glad you liked it 💕💕

#rose's mailbox 📬#hard thoughts with rose #ateez smut

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thehardkandy · 1 year

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really struggling getting back into being productive outside of work hours. the initial jitters have all settled down, but man it's just a fuckin chore.

like i finish at 5 and, naturally, i want to not immediately get back into work. so i fuck around for 20 or 30 minutes. so i get started on shit, but by the time ive even remembered what the hell i was doing last, it's now past 6, im starving, and need to get into dinner.

and then by the time ive eaten dinner and cleaned up, it's probably past 7 at least, at which point i am feeling exhausted and cant think of a single thing to put on page without forcing myself into it, but if i force myself into it it bubbles past 9 or 10 pm, which are the times past which i shouldnt work otherwise i cant fkn sleep. just. annoyed

im sure the solution is inevitably "get over it and use some self-discipline for once" but i havent quite got my butt in gear with that because sometimes that just comes out as self-flagellation, which is something i am trying to stay out of the habit of, but then not doing it makes me mad and equates to the same blah blah blah

hoping ill find the equilibrium ahead of me in the near future

#like yeah today did not finish all my after work bullshit until just now #and so i sit down do work again but im frustrated and angry and increasingly hungry so i need to stop and go make food #but i fucking if i stop to make food it's over. aint no coming back #which is sujkgdfgsdgsdg. fucking hell #the only solution is to wake up earlier/start work earlier #or to work shorter hours #but neither of those feels like good solutions because this schedule otherwise works well for me and i shouldnt be turning down money #idk we'll see where we go. all i know is tonight i cannot make any concrete decisions because im angry & not prone #to make the sustainable/right choice until im out of this #or to even fucking make something creative when trying #just stare stare stare mad mad mad mad mad mad

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lostfracturess · 3 months

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i’ve got my work laptop out and my phone in hand to live react to this chapter 😼

omg i kneww it was the fkn student he punched. satoru’s so sweet to not want to drag her into a courtcase though.

kafka 😩🫶🏼💕 ive been on such a kafka kick lately omg (not so much reading his actual works but looking at kafka tumblr quotes 😔 i feel motivated to actually read his works now) also the way he sees her?? we’re so beautiful to him 🤭

“what a fucked up way to describe it. a child, small and defenseless against an unyielding force. where was the justice in that?”

☹️☹️☹️ ok i’m teared up. wtf.

“for all her strength and boldness, there was this fragile core to her. one that the world, am i, seemed intent on bruising.”

😩🤚🏼 i feel for reader fr she can do no wronggg in my eyes omg i can FEEL the stress of all this fkn research & trials gone wrong omg. she’s such an empath and it’s takin a toll on my girl over here

OHMYGOSHHH she saw the lawyer papers plsss higurama you had one job 😓 also i know im supposed to hate how secretive n stubborn he is but something ab his habit of shutting reader up w kisses 😩🤚🏼 i like my men toxic like that LMFAO

yaga laying innnn on him omg i love the consequences of his actions catching up to him. the forbidden romance is forbidden romancinggg. THE ETHICS COMMITTEE….hmm i mean considering the power dynamic i think satoru would def be the one to take the brunt of accusation if they were caught 🤔 i really wonder if reader would receive as heavy of a fall from grace as he would

omg the elevator stuck scene 🫣 PLS HE CONSIDERS FUCKING HER IN THE ELEVATOR!!?? IM SCREAMING. also they need to stop talking ab thisss in the elevator omg ppl might be listening or recording 😔 where is higurama w the legal counsel.

i cant tell if its my iced coffee giving me palpitations rn or if its your fucking writing (most likely latter). i looove how theyre resolved to try n keep each other tho :”) despite facing the things going on rn.

sheesh those lab results lmao that patient’s liver gotta be fucked 🤣 Oh WHAT ITS SATORU’s LIVER 😨 NOOO.

aw a signed kafka book?!? 😩🤚🏼 lord…

im on the basketball scene and ugggh first of all basketball satoru?!?! NEED. just imagining his arm muscles flexing while he’s shootin a shot 😩 also he’s sooo whipped for her oh my god. need a man who loves this deeply.

OHY MY GOD A SPARE TO HIS APARTMENT ITS SO REAL. ITS ALL FEELING SO REAL RN. SCREAMING. TRYING SO FKN HARD TO HIDE THE SMILE ON MY FACE RN.

oh god i cant ice ant i cant the hydropmorphone this sshift in energy i cant. to the bathroom for my ten min i go because i alr know imma need to scream for this 😭😭😭

NO WAAAYYY HE’s DOIN DRUGSS OFF OF HER IM ABOUT TO LOSE MY GODDAMN MIND. OH MY GOD IM CLUTCHING MY PEARLS RN. OVER SUGURU’s FUCKING DESK?!????

OH. MY. GOD. SATORU IS THE FUCKING DEVIL. HE’s THE DEVIL. I……….I JUST GOT TO THE END. I COULD DEADASS SCREAM RN. THE— THE GUMPTION. THE GALL?!?!? TO LICK HIS FUCKING FINGERS.

i…….🧍🏻‍♀️i’m literally shaking. im SHAKING like IM the one w a panic attack or withdrawal rn. you ate this chapter up. you ate this chapter ALL the way fucking up and i could cry rn. no words. pheewww AND IM SUPPOSED TO MOVE ON W MY DAY AFTER THIS?!????!

fuck.

girl you make me cry with your comments! 😭❤️ yes, satoru is such a sweetheart for dealing with the lawsuit with money that she wouldn't have to go to court, even if that means he would have to swallow that bitter pill. green flag!!

and yes, pls pls read kafka! there are a lot of short books and stories of him that are just like a four hour read but so worth it, can't recommend that enough!!

OHMYGOSHHH she saw the lawyer papers plsss higurama you had one job

higurma must have done it on purpose i'm so sure!! like i wrote it, but still am not quite convinced it was a coincidence ahhh! and him shutting her up with kisses is EVERYTHING. bit toxic okay, but EVERYTHING.

the forbidden romance is forbidden romancinggg.

yes, the forbidden romance is catching up to them, how would have thought. like satoru was not even trying to hide it that much, but now he's surprised?? he's so stupid.

PLS HE CONSIDERS FUCKING HER IN THE ELEVATOR!!?? IM SCREAMING.

yeeeessss!! he really considered it a split second as he knows that will work quite good to shut her up ahaha he's so miserable with talking and feelings. but he sure knows what he's good at and how to use that. 🌚🌚

im on the basketball scene and ugggh first of all basketball satoru?!?! NEED. just imagining his arm muscles flexing while he’s shootin a shot

yes!!! i want to rewrite this scene out of reader pov just to be able to describe a bit of how this mf handsome man looked in this scene for us to please ahhhh.

also he’s sooo whipped for her oh my god. need a man who loves this deeply.

he's down bad for her and this will be his undoing. but yes, everyone deserves a man how's on his knees for his girl!!!

NO WAAAYYY HE’s DOIN DRUGSS OFF OF HER IM ABOUT TO LOSE MY GODDAMN MIND.

he's so fkn feral omg, like he really got some nerves doing that aahhhhh. also over suguru's desk ahahah. still he could lick every drug he wants from my body at any time ngl.

I COULD DEADASS SCREAM RN. THE— THE GUMPTION. THE GALL?!?!? TO LICK HIS FUCKING FINGERS.

HE HAS NO SHAME!!! this man is so unhinged and i loved every second writing him like that. he maybe is about to lose his mind but he's still serving while going insane!!

thank you so so much for your comments on this chapter, is was so funny to see your reaction while reading!!! thank you so so much for your support and taking your time to write this (also on your rec on the story??? reposting this in a minute), wishing you nothing but the best! 🥲🫶🫶

#symptoms and causes #inbox

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straycalamities · 10 months

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24 for kian, ace, and daisy waisy

What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they’d made those decisions?

AH! the nearly-uncomfortable au strikes again

kian: hrmm...im trying to think...i cant imagine a world where he doesnt eventually leave his dad... like...is it even feasible to live ur whole life in those conditions and not try to get away. theyre just..UNLIVEABLE. if he didnt leave he'd just DIE

tho...even if he just left later that'd make a huge impact on him i think...he'd be soooooooo cold. he wouldn't even have the unserious funny haha nihilism he has now. he'd just be an angry dick that's entirely dead inside. he would survive doing the bare minimum bc he wouldn't think about how life could get better than that. everyone would avoid him besides the naïve "ooo sexy man" initial response but just one interaction would have them being like nah, actually,

ace: oogh, there's so many decisions he made that i could unmake, oogh. delicious.

if he decided to not help his dad financially as a kid. oh thats a big one. oh its so big the more i think abt it. holy shit. that's what formed his entire personality. all his interests and everything. (special mentions for if he decided to not befriend jack or decided not to pursue his dreams so hard)

but i wanna do this one

so. honestly? ace would probably be taken away from his dad if it got worse. even if CPS fucking sucks there's nooo way i think it'd be allowed to go further downhill. (otherwise they'd be literally on the streets and THEN ace would get taken away? either way) and i honestly cant see ace getting adopted, unfortunately.

his dad, even if he didnt spoil him with STUFF, he spoiled his attitude. it's like...probably some way of like making up for not being able to get ace anything is to let him act however he wanted. so it'd take some reeeeeeal patient parent(s) to wanna take ace in because he wouldn't have the mind to hide it at that point. ace would maybe eventually learn to chameleon his behavior? but i think by the time he learned it in the foster system it'd be too late bc..ppl dont tend to adopt teenagers either

god this is making my brain gears TURN that one decision rly is everything

i think that his growing up would be pretty shit. bc now im thinking abt the differences between this and cult au ace AUGH. cult au ace at least had a stable home with a turn-around of income even if it wasnt from him specifically busting his ass to earn the money (well in a way it still is, but, different)

ace, but...jaded O_O he wouldn't evolve that charming personality. i think he'd lean more into the class clown personality. but it's not as endearing bc everyone sees him as a girl. and i know from experience, girl class clowns are just...weird-girls w Issues to everyone. its not endearing like it is w boy class-clowns to other ppl. he'd still have like..pretty strategic ideas for situations and stuff bc that's inherently him. but..i dont think it'd get him as far as it normally would

so he'd be so..lonely lmao. like regular ace also has issues w loneliness but its way more complex. this would just be straight up. fkn lonely. and straightforward misery from it. maybe he'd have some goons or smth at some point? but idk if he could ever truly connect w them unless they were also from the foster system.

cuz see im thinking that normal ace learns everything he does bc he makes the decision that he HAS to. he has to to survive so it all becomes this like...ok i do this or i starve. whereas an ace that's either decided its hopeless, not his responsibility, or just didnt think to do it, wouldnt have that same direct "inspiration" riding his ass. so his social skills would form in a rly weird way based mostly off how much of a brat he is and how much he desires everyone to like him (which is also true of any other ace but this one has a like..feral desperation to it in comparison. like a stray animal more than..someone who grew up too fast and forgot to make real friends along the way <- the usual)

he'd still have these like lofty dreams and i think he'd still want to chase them somehow, but he wouldn't have the connections nor the charm normal ace has. he'd be, at most, some stand-up comedian who performs nights at some local venue and he's just an opener for the main act. maybe he'd sing and put in the work to be good at it, but a big part of this kinda career is the ppl you know so :pensive emoji:

god this ace is the epitome of sopping wet meow meow. what a miserable little man. so richie tozier-coded but more of a failure bc he doesnt have a group of friends to bond w over other-dimensional clown trauma

anyways i think that's enough rambling abt this. i could go a hundred different directions with it from here and i cant choose one. so. there u go. something to chew on. (god he wouldnt care abt sleight-of-hand shit or magicians or card tricks or any of that. WHO WOULD HE BE??????????? maybe he'd hold onto the bar interest in general? like billiards n stuff? oh my god he'd be more likely to be an alcoholic like his father NOOOOOOO)

after that daisy's gonna seem so lack-luster LMAO

daisy: the thing w daisy is i dont rly have a set story in my head for her rly? i kinda just have..scenes and things i like her doing. ive never sat and gave her a like...biography

so idk what decision she'd make that i could undo and have it make an interesting change...if she didnt decide to sing, she'd be an actress. if she didn't decide to kill ppl, she'd just be focusing on her dreams full-time. and so none of that's super interesting to get into uh...

if she didnt decide to push being famous, she'd probably just be happy being some homemaker or smth. someones trophy wife or...a singing waitress or waffle house worker idk.

even with nyanpire daisy its more like...her big decisions is to not...die. uh. (bc shes miserable as a vampire) so if i reverse that then shes just dead LFJKSDJF

so idk 8_8 thank u for including her but IDK WHAT TO SAY!!!!!!!!

#asks #hybridkilljoys #kian elliot kennedy #ace miller

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