#i kinda dont like the way im arting rn

[spliceyblues]

#twisted wonderland #twistedwonderlandfanart #malleus draconia #i kinda dont like the way im arting rn #maybe i'll take a break #or maybe its just my self low confidence #either way #sorry for disappearing #haha lol #:)

[b4kuch1n]

still thinkin bout it

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #assistant sonia #gym leader raihan #three parts of a whole idiot #hi. Im figurin out how to lay stuff down Really quickly #again! I used to know how to do it. in another software using another hardware in another lifetime #it does feel like 70% of my arting time is rediscovering old skills again and again. which is? fine? I think #the goal is the same. but the result is always somehow very different #and that's great. that's the joy of it #it does come to it tho that this way of doing things usually doesnt leave room for grayscaling in one go... I wanna figure out how to #keep grayscaling stuff. I dont like leaving stuff just like this #more work for later! we'll figure it out #I genuinely love drawing these guys as kids they're so prime for that #early disney channel layering kinda fashion... I enjoy drawing that #mmm. Im busy with a thing tonite. but I wanna get that done as a whole unit soon #just feelin things out rn! road's long. #have a good night guys. wear colors!

[shokupanda]

gonna start posting shitty doodles as updates so i wont just go back to dying again. anywho this means an actual drawing will be on like. monday or tuesday or after. if you see me post before that then itll probably mean i actively didnt do something i was supposed to. whoops

#sho.sketches #<- new tag for shitty art #sho.scramblin #<- this is a tag for whenever i get rambly which. applies here i think #sho (sona) #anywho yeah #i should be finishing my assignment rn #so i can try n get sleep before goin to campus #since after class there'll be a seminar AND an evaluation meeting for a campus event i helped organize last week #which means ill get home like. late at night. oh boy! #im also kinda bummed bc i was gonna go to a con next week but bc of complications im. not going #like. i was really counting on it as a pick me up #like. i wanted to buy art prints damn it. and no i dont want to ask an acquaintance whos going there to buy them for me #part of it bc its not the same #partly bc i dont htink asking someone i barely know to buy me buff furry men art prints is. good optics for my social standing #<- closeted (in both ways) #anywho #see you on the flip side when have the time to draw beegee 3 fanart. ciao

[alukaforyou]

do we like the backlight or

#i finally finished this sort of : | #i only had to paint the clothes but idk y it was so hard lol also i used ref for it but #it looks kinda weird the folds : | ok.. maybe i shouldve winged it like i always do LOL #and the way i harvested the bg from an older pic i made for a zine rip lol cuz i dont have time to draw a bg rn 😵‍💫 #honestly im fine w white bgs but i put Something there so thats a win #i looked at this too long it looks weird to me :( idk how to fix the face :( sad #noah fence but i cant even tag this as.. u kno 🤣 #cuz i feel like i draw him sooo far removed from canon 😬 so im like low key embarassed 😳 #idk hes a prince to ME ✊😔 im gonna try to finish up the #halloween mads from. so long ago. theres not much left to be done there #and the bgs gonna be white sorry LOL #alulu art

[real-life-cloud]

im GOING to write today ........ i WILL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#the sky speaks #i havent used twitter in so long and lemme say i missed using tumblr like twitter. just putting my long rambly notes into a single post #anyways onto the rambling #i havent been writing or drawing like at alllll #too busy #also was so sick #but now that i have my new job and i know what my schedule is gonna sorta look like #3 days at joann 2 days cleaning w mom and 2 days nothin #PLUS i dont have to spend money on therapy til after the new year now #and mom is coming home and she seems rly optimistic abt sobriety #im feeling like i can finally create again !!!! #i have 2 creative presents i need to do before christmas #but aside that and 1 prompt still in my inbox (that i rly wanna do anyways) everything else i wanna do is all for Me :) #im kinda put out bc a lot of stuff i wanted to do this fall got shelved.. i wanted to make bday art of kirishima xinyan and kazuha. #i wanted to open comms. but im way too rusty w art rn to be confident doing that. maybe after new years? #god i wanted to come out to my parents properly. the day my mom went to rehab was national coming out day. #it was also one of my last therapy sessions. i came out to her instead #i still managed to do stuff tho. started my new job and got together with friends TWICE !! and i've kept up w doing my moms job alone #idk where im going w this anymore ive lost steam. but yeah. i wanna write today! idk what yet. i hav so many wips i could work on..

[skitskatdacat63]

you don’t have to post this but i just want you to know i totally relate i rbed an ask game post today and got no asks :/ it sucks even if it’s just a silly little tumblr game

Yeahhhhh :(( I'm glad I'm not alone, anon. This made me feel a bit better, so thank you <3

#I feel pretty lonely in general atm #and it's not fun when you try to make an attempt to get out of your shell and it just. Doesn't do anything. #I already feel weirdly desperate for attention when I reblog those #like it's one of those things that still make me feel weird for some reason #And it doesn't help when you feel like you don't get acknowledged #again im probably being super whiney rn but #i feel like im having trouble attracting interest? is that bad to say? idk :/ #i just wanna talk about anything and i just have trouble finding ways to get people to engage ig #thats not to blame anyone at all. i just dont know how to get that :') #its just a weird thing to kinda feel like youre losing your footing like this #ughhhh sry i sound so insecure #but idk. i wanna talk about art and such. or get peoples opinions or questions. #but I just dont even want to reblog them bcs it makes me feel emptier than not reblogging #and you see other people's blogs and theyre getting a lot of asks and idk what to do in that situation #they deserve those asks and im very glad for them but like. am i doing smth wrong :/ #my constant insecurity is that im being annoying. and unfortunately things like this just make me feel like people are fed up w me ig #SORRY AGAIN. its my blog i can complain ik that. but still. am i being whiney idk #catie.asks.

[crescentfool]

hello everyone! now that team picking is out i wanted to say that i am participating in artfight for the first time this year on team werewolves! (its the color blue. i love the color blue.)

you can find my profile here! https://artfight.net/~crescentfool

#lizzy speaks #lizzy does art #<- sort of! because the art on the left is new LOL #im very excited though! i've wanted a chance to draw more splatoon related stuff and i think art fight would be a great way to- #discover other peoples ocs. i mostly just want the additional practice idrc if i dont get attacked back or w/e #i feel kinda bad bc i wanted to focus on making stickers but then artfight came up so.. im shifting my goals 4 now lol #after artfight though.. nothing can stop me #art is a bit weird for me rn just because i've gotten such a huge surge of motivation back at the start of this month- #but at the same time there's a lot of projects and things i want to do that im like... uh how do One Commit #so im trying my best to take it one thing at a time!!! and i hope you all who are doing art stuff feel at peace with your process #also i feel like this should go w/o saying but i am not guaranteed to attack back but yknow #in my head im gonna do So Many Cool things for artfight but also a part of me knows i might just take a break to draw fan art n thats fine! #anyway bye i cant believe we're halfway through the year! can you believe it? yeah! me neither! explosion!

[bmpmp3]

I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away

#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd #ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding. #i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way #when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee #but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo #and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards #not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony #my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like #marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there #i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my #parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL) #but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school #nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is #same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL #i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not. #i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds #but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice #i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring #that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases #and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason #you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident #im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like #i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS #i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3 #i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔

[sinnamonstache]

Just lost my job.. so I wanna try to get back into drawing.

However I’m.. not exactly comfortable picking up where I left off? I’ve changed a bit, mentally, and like. My interests aren’t very different, but…. I don’t think I can stomach making the same content I did before. I don’t know that I want it to attached to whatever I do going forward, either. I want to get more into OCs and stuff, if possible.

That said.. I know some of y’all really wanted that old art back. So I’m weighing my options…

I’ve considered making some kind of archive, but idk how to.. twitter frustrates me and feels far too public, given the subject-matter 😔 I may use it going forward but it doesn’t feel like the right place for my old works

I may just re-start with a new username and let this one lie...?

#idk.. what do you think? #i don’t even know really how anyone feels about the kinda shit I was making #i ONLY see the purity culture type shit these days and i feel.. idk #kinda lost.. #I’m not gonna be doing RPF anymore.. just to be clear #***PROBABLY #I must admit i dont trust myself with any promises these days.. #I’m just.. oh man. well. probably as uncomfortable as I should have been to begin with? #i might just go back to being silent idk #sorry y’all idk what I’m doing.. #i miss y’all a lot.. sorry I vanished 😔💚 #also like.. tired bc I’m trying to think of ways to make money to survive rn and #one of my thoughts has been to put my old art together and offer a purchasable download or something #idk if anyone would want that?? #at a reasonable price of course.. ik we’re all going thru it rn #hhhgn gosh okay im leaving now but inbox is open if anyone has thoughts..

[scattered-winter]

watching an interview with hans zimmer and it's crazy how artists will always always always be such perfectionists about their work no matter the level they're at huh

#like hans zimmer (HANS ZIMMER) says that he will always look over his work and think ''man i shouldve done better on that'' #honestly. something kinda unifying about that. like no matter how renowned you are #you're always gonna feel like a monkey wearing a hat that says ''artist'' #and yet especially in zimmer's case he's probably one of the most popular contemporary composers #like ask anybody who their top 5 fav film score guys are and he will Most likely be in the mix somewhere #and idk. as artists we all tend to look down on our own work and downplay our importance #and we compare ourselves to each other and think we dont belong or we arent ''real artists'' #but the truth is we ALL feel that way and everyone's art has a place. i truly truly believe that. #everyone's art will touch someone. somewhere. at some time. it might be millions. it might be hundreds. it might be ten. #hell it might even be one. but that doesn't make it any less worth it because it touched Somebody. #and isnt that what we all strive for!!!!!! isn't that one of the reasons why we create!!!!!!!!!! to connect!!!!!!!!!!!! #idk. idk im so soooooo so tired im stepping off my soapbox rn #its almost 1 am. ive been trying to fix my sleep schedule. has not happened. at all. #winter speaks

[fleshdyke]

☹️

#not a great first day. augh. #as we are all aware a bunch of my closest friends stopped talking to me and wouldnt tell me why. so seeing them again and especially seeing #them all talk to each other and have fun stung a bit. and then my phone died and i couldnt remember what room my math class was in so i got #there late. and when i walked in when i tell you that everyone started laughing im so fucking serious. #and i just grabbed a random seat and the girls who were sitting there were i shit you not the most stereotypical high school mean girls you #have ever fucking met. like they were laughing at me when i sat down and kept looking at their friends and were texting each other and #laughing in that way you can Tell theyre bullying you. like when you’ve been bullied your entire life you can tell. but its not like i have #any proof of them doing this so i cant really do anything. and this group of boys were just openly making fun of me like 🧍‍♂️ #and whenever i ticced which was a lot bc this was fucking stressful these girls i was sitting with would stare at me and then giggle to each #other like STOP. i quite literally didnt do anything but sit there and they were bullying me for fucking existing #and then the entirety of my old friend group was in my art class and its so nerve wracking being around them bc i still dont know what i did #like i want to kind of spite them by being happy without them but i also kinda wish i could just drop dead so they could know how much #that effected me. idk man. it sucks #and then theres the whole thing with getting on the wrong bus and walking home and im in so much pain rn. just. not a great start. #rambles #vent

[be-good-to-bugs]

2022

#tw sh #tw self harm #ive felt unsure of posting art like this but. i really like it and think its nice. around 2 years ago i noticed a big push by people to #attack people who make vent art or even just gore art and ive been a bit scared to post anything like that sbit i dont see it anymore #i think it was a pretty short lived thing but i was personally attacked (different blog) and its kinda scared me from doing it #but i like these drawings. its just like all my other stuff but it has sh in it. im working through a recent relapse rn #im also worried abt making any followers uncomfortable but if they dont wanna see sh art then they should already have the tag blocked #so thats probably not an issue #tw gore #idk if id even call this vent art. im not sad or anything. im just trying to deal with it in a calm way #sorry. ill stop talking now #orbs art #thinking of inking these but idk. its nothing new but i just really like them

[ruairy]

.

#it has really been a long time since ive drawn anything really abd like #sometimes i sit and wonder if I'll even remember how to draw my ocs when/if i get back into it #i dont even mean this in a depressing way but more of a like. weird object permanence kind of way #this is probably the longest ive ever gone without drawing ecen one thing and its really weird!!!! #what am i without my One defining trait which is being able to draw lmao #i can also write but i have no intention of ever posting my writings anywhere lol #i think i wpuld kind of like to start getting back into the art thing in the new year but!!!! #whos to say if that will happen #at this point in time i don't really care aside from when i look through my art and think aaaaaaaaa #i miss drawing #and then im like ok well im over it like two minutes later #sertraline is weird and also makes me wonder what spurred me to draw while i was unmedicated #i think it really was entirely for attention lmao #awful awful little gremlin that i used to be ( like a year ago) #i do miss my ocs though!!!! #yeah they live in my brain and are constantly rotating like sweetly glazed rotisserie chickens but i miss seeing them u get me #and unfortunately im the only one who can truly draw them the way they are intended to be #i kinda feel bad for them rn!!!!! they simply cannot exist without me and if i never draw again then they can never be known #on other news i wanna make a new pokemon oc to go alongside rua #they will never see the light of day but they'll just have to be ok with that

[chisatowo]

Man I've been dead as fuck on here I miss posting stuff but idk what to post abt :/

#rat rambles #Ive mostly been thinking abd wc rp stuff and a lil bit of sploon and bndori but not enough that I feel motivayes to talk abt it #idk I might try doing an oc art ask game tomorrow maybe. like yall can give me two characters and Ill draw a scene between them #honestly if you wanna lock and load a pair ahead of time feel free to send it just know I might not get to it in a bit #I do have owed art Im working on still but Ive drawn more art than I have due total in one day before so Ill be fine #Im getting to draw monkeys for the first time so thats exciting!! Ive been wanting to for a while but havent had a good excuse to so Im #having fun with it :] #Im happy abt how flexible my artstyle is now if you asked me to draw a monkey like a year ago Id probably die djskhdjd #also Im soooo much better at poses now which also makes me rly happy #idk I just feel like my art is in a good place rn :] #I still have things I wanna improve on (mainly perspective) but all in all I think Ive made HUGE progress over the past year #I will say though I still feel like a lot of my stuff from abt a year ago still holds up (not all of it tho lol) #like in abt 2 months my beats animation will be a year old and thats fucking wild to me #but I will say I think in general my art is on average better quality noe #plus I will say the background in that animation was kinda shit Ive definitely improved on that frong djskysjs #I still have way more to go until Ill be happy with my ptoper backgrounds though #Im not bad at them per say but I dont rly know what Im doing with them either #I wanna be able to more easily get across the images I have in my head for backgrounds #Ill get there eventually tho #for now Im ok with where Im at Im sure Ill improve more as I draw as is always the case djsjhsks

[kaykoko]

Would it be off putting if I started to put [reblogs more appreciated] at the bottom of my art posts😗?...Would that be a bit much or is that just how its gonna be now?? Like im genuinely curious.

#im talking #text posts #a little vent in the tag as per usual. here we go ^u^/ #but i posted a doodle today and it has 7 rb vs like 50 likes or whatever #and im just kinda like....man....thanks for liking it thanks for seeing....but rbs are way more appreciated #but i feel so desperate and ungrateful saying that...like i dont want to come off that way i really dont #im thankful for anyone seeing my art but like...id like...it if people shared it...if they wanted to :> #i dont know...this is such a stupid problem to have lmao. like whatever. being an artist on social media rn blows lol geeez

[arolesbianism]

Y'know I should rly do a comb through of the wiki and correct any mistakes in the logs cause even if I'm too lazy to add all the ones not there it would make double checking the ones that are on there much easier

#rat rambles #oni posting #I know there's at least one that uses an outdated version of the log that was likely a mistake in the first place but there's probably more #a lot of logs have been tweaked and changed over time and if one slipped through the cracks others probably did too #especially since theres already been mistakes in the gravitas page along with outdated duplicant art (aka ellie) #I cant be assed to update everything but I do wanna at least correct the stuff that caused me some confusion at first #I might also do some tweaks to the gravitas employee section to better describe some of their positions #I should probably add some other ppl at some point but that can wait #mostly because a lot of them would require the logs that arent on the wiki to be added and Im not doing that (at least not rn) #I still do want to make my own lore database but Ive been procrastinating mostly because Im not sure where to put all that info #Ill probably just dump it into a google doc for the time being and maybe find a fancier way to present it if enough ppl are interested #which basically means itll probably remain a doc unless more ppl get interested oni lore because currently its pretty much just me and like #what 2 or 3 other ppl #rly my main issue rn is deciding what should be included or not #ofc all of the data files you can find will be included along with story trait logs #but things get kinda fuzzy once we get to the artifact descriptions cause some of them definitely are lore relevant and some of them aren't #like it doesnt rly feel necessary to include some of them but if I dont include some then I have to establish standards #but if I do include them then it means Itd likely be in my best interest to include other item descriptions too #and even if I didn't theres some that legitimately are rly good to read for lore and/or character implications #and then theres also the fact that I should probably also include other stuff™ #such as examination quotes and duplicant descriptions along with maybe scrapped logs #yknow rly go the extra mile #but this of course all has to balance not going too deep into proper gameplay cause otherwise Im just making a new wiki #and while Id love for oni to have a non fandom wiki Im not going to be the guy who makes it sorry #I do not know this game nearly well enough on a gameplay level to do that and even if I did I quite frankly wouldn't want to #its already going to be hell for me just to retype all the lore stuff I do not have the motivation for this shit #I would also like to put in info on how to find different logs but I well. don't know. #Id have to find some way to remove all of my logs so I can go recollect them and Im not tec savvy enough to do that #idk maybe there's a mod for it Ill have to go look #because I rly would like to know how unlocking logs works on a deeper level