#i listen to songs/albums i like on repeat for a bit for fun

[kaz-oooo]

Seen some people talking about Lovejoy and Wilbur Soot’s music and feeling very upset about letting go of those songs since they brought a lot of comfort and joy.

I’m not gonna tell you what you should and shouldn’t do. I think it’s ultimately up to you to decide if you want to continue listening to Wilbur’s music or not. What I am gonna do is list some alternative artists that I either think have similar vibes or I know Wilbur / Lovejoy had cited as inspirations so you guys can find some new tunes without stepping too far out of you comfort zone.

(Also feel free to tag on and add your own suggestions as well, the more the merrier)

Lovejoy

Arctic Monkeys — when Wilbur started the band he claimed he wanted to be like the Arctic Monkeys one day. I’ve also described a lot of their later music as being very similar to Arctic Monkeys, so if you like Wake Up and It’s over and Normal People Things then you’d love them

Los Campansino’s — Wilbur has stated before that this is his favourite band so.. very likely big inspiration for his music. Lovejoy did a cover of Knee Deep at ATP, their version is a bit more chill than the original. I’m a big Los Campansino’s fan honestly, but for stuff Lovejoy related I’ve say the albums “Sick Scenes” and “Romance Is Boring” would have the most appeal.

Wet Leg — just a good band that I think has a similar vibe, especially with themes and funky tunes. Also I’ve seen Wilbur list them in his personal playlists before so he enjoys them as well

Good Kid — not a personal favourite of mine, but their songs have similar vibes and they toured with Lovejoy as well so Lovejoy enjoy their music.

James Marriot — (editing Kaz here.. not gonna change the phrasing of this part but I’ve been told James Marriott has unfollowed Wilbur on Twitter) friend of Wilbur’s (do with that information as you will) excellent musician and would heartily recommend his music if you haven’t listened already. Also worked very closely with the band before, especially in the early days so I wouldn’t doubt they’ve influenced each others music quite a bit

MSR and YCGMA

100gecs and other hyperpop artists — admittedly not a genre I listen to a lot, but if you liked Dropshipped Cat Shirt, especially the ending, then you’ll vibe with this genre a lot.

Jack Stauber — Wilbur’s been a longtime fan of his music, it’s a bit weird and silly on a surface level but nice and miserable as well. If you like MSR I’d recommend.

Crywank — helped Wilbur with producing MSR, plus I think Wilbur took some heavy inspiration from them as well. If you like miserable music you’ll love Crywank. (Also Lovejoy did a cover of privately owned, so if you liked that go check out the original)

More Los Campansino’s — ok.. I’m repeating bands now, but I’m recommending different albums this time! “We Are Beautiful, We Are Doomed” “Hello Sadness” and “No Blues”

Peach Pit — again, not a favourite of mine but they have nice chill vibes and the songs I’ve listened to are just as miserable as these albums.

Beabadoobee — once again, not someone I listen to a lot, but definitely got the same chill acoustic music as YCGMA especially, Lovejoy had done a cover of The Perfect Pair so if you liked that, and you like these albums you’d like beabadoobee.

E-girl Trilogy / comedy music

Bo Burnham — another favourite artist of Wilbur’s, someone else he’s cited as an inspiration and top tier comedy tunes! If you like Wilbur’s sadder music as well you’d definitely enjoy Inside. Otherwise his older music is great and very fun!

Lemon Demon — probably not an inspiration for Wilbur’s comedy music, but he’s definitely listened to it, it’s very fun and silly, also Ranboo highly recommends (as do I)

Other recommendations

Modern Baseball — found this band through Wilbur’s recommendations, they’re very fun and cool. Very Midwest emo, a genre that I think inspired MSR.

The Front Bottoms.. but with a warning — so I’m not super familiar with the story, but from memory a former member abused a fan, they aren’t apart of the band anymore but the current members handled the situation very poorly. This was another favourite band of Wilbur’s and I get why, very emotional and angsty. I find their lyrics hit a bit harder than Modern Baseball’s but they make very similar music.

AJJ — kinda similar to Crywank, another band I found through Wilbur’s recommendation.

Radiohead / the smiths / the cure / the strokes / just 70’s and 80’s alt rock bands — Wilbur definitely enjoys this music and took inspiration here and they’re all very cool and fun. I’m not super familiar with these bands but I know a lot from this time have good old controversies so be mindful of that, but yeahhh good music!

I don’t know how but the found me — alt/indie rock band with very fun tunes! Sits alongside Wilbur’s comedy music and Lovejoy in my playlists a lot of the times so.. if you like those two you’d probably like this band :) also Dallon Weekes deserves all the love in the world, all his former bandmates (Brendon Urie and Ryan Seaman) keep fucking him over.

Cavetown — not sadboy acoustic like YCGMA but very chill and good acoustic tunes nonetheless. Also a bit similar to Beabadoobee so if you like that you’ll like this :) oh also, i know a lot of people liked Lovejoy cos they gave off a lot of aromantic vibes, Cavetown is openly Aro / Ace so.. lots of aro vibes in his music :D

Yotam Perel — Wilbur used his music in the background of his streams, typically the album "Nice Snakes" but he used "A Long List of Short Songs" as well. It's great background music honestly, some songs have entered my top 100 playlists on spotify, but yeah, if you liked the funky tunes in the back of the geoguessr streams, this is what he played

#Wilbur soot #Lovejoy #mammalian sighing reflex #ycgma #E-girl trilogy

[linghxr]

My 2023 in Mandopop/Chinese music (update & recs)

It’s been too long since I last shared some music recommendations/updates on what I’m listening to! Admittedly, I haven’t been discovering as many new artists because I’m busy listening to 薛之谦 on repeat. But we'll focus on the new.

You can check out my Spotify playlist featuring these songs (plus bonus ones). In addition, I’ve included YouTube links below.

五月天 / Mayday 五月天 is a legendary band, so of course I knew of them and had heard a few of their songs over the years. But I never proactively sought out their music until recently. I still haven’t had time to dive into their back catalog, but I’ve already found some songs I really love.

《我又初恋了》 I actually really didn’t like this song the first time I heard it, but it wormed its way into my brain. It’s just a lot of fun! Non-serious songs can be good too.

《转眼》 My favorite 五月天 song <3. I’m probably too young to fully appreciate the lyrics, but they make me feel so nostalgic and bittersweet, like transitioning to a new chapter of life and leaving the old behind.

《因为你 所以我》 This song didn’t stand out to me at first, but it grew on me! I caught myself humming it a lot. It‘s kind of corny, but it sounds so full of hope.

陈奕迅 / Eason Chan I first started listening to 陈奕迅 a couple years ago after my Album a Day August challenge, but I’ve found that his music has grown on me over time. I believe I’ve only mentioned him once before, so I thought now was a good time to highlight my favorite of his songs.

《之外》 This is probably my favorite 陈奕迅 song. The lyrics convey a sense of hopelessness, but the overall song has a smooth, light sound.

《娱乐天空》 You know a song is good when it’s over 6 minutes long but feels like it flies by! It makes me want to get up, get moving, and be productive.

《烟味》 This song is dramatic, and I love it for that. Also has a hint of orchestral flavor.

《淘汰》 One of 陈奕迅’s most well-known songs—for a good reason. It has big Cpop ballad vibes but is definitely livelier.

白举纲 / Bai Jugang You’re going to notice several mentions of 披荆斩棘 in this post. That’s where I “met” 白举纲. I instantly liked his voice and loved seeing him with his “brother” 高瀚宇 and “dad” 张晋! You may also see his music under his English name, Pax Congo.

《被动失控》 This is the only song on the list you could headbang to.

《Shy Boy》 I love this song because it’s cute and includes a children’s rhyme that I learned as a kid: 找啊找啊找朋友 找到一个好朋友.

苏诗丁 / Su Shiding At some point last year I did a one-month free trial of Apple Music. It was an interesting experience because the recommendations were very different from what Spotify tends to show me. I’m glad Apple Music led me to 苏诗丁!

《LUCIFER（傲慢宗罪）》 All I can say is that this song exudes coolness and confidence. It also has a fair bit of English, but honestly I had to look up the lyrics to tell what some of it was.

《梦幻病》 This song is from the same album. It’s dreamlike but gets more frantic as it builds. Overall, it’s just a bit…unsettling.

队长 / Young Captain I learned about 队长 from a random post on Instagram about his concert in Malaysia. I think these songs might have gone viral on 抖音 or something. I was surprised I liked them so much because they both have some rap (I’m not a rap fan), but it was love at first listen.

《11》 I love how this song builds towards the end. I spend the whole song waiting for the crescendo, and it’s great payoff.

《楼顶上的小斑鸠》 This song is like the slightly mellower sibling of the one above. But I ended up liking this one even more.

金志文 / Jin Zhiwen 金志文 was another artist who Apple Music recommended to me. I definitely need to explore his discography more but haven’t had the chance to do so yet. But he has some good stuff so far!

《自娱自乐》 Smooth and relaxing but in a fun way. Simple and no-frills but will put a smile on your face!

《远走高飞》 This one feels like enjoying the breeze on a beautiful sunny day. I also enjoy the duet with 徐佳莹 version.

163braces 163braces started out as a YouTuber posting song covers. I have watched a couple of her covers, but they didn’t leave much of an impression on me. I was pleasantly surprised by her foray into original music. I look forward to hearing what she does next!

《控制》 The song I would want as my “soundtrack” if I were a video game character. It’s energetic and loud.

《murmur》 Honestly this song is pretty similar to the first one. Sometimes I have trouble distinguishing them. But hey, if ain’t broke, don’t fix it.

小鬼 / Lil Ghost 小鬼 did what I can best describe as “pulling an MGK” by going from more rap to kinda pop-punk? That MGK album was my guilty pleasure when in came out, so I’m all for 小鬼’s new direction.

《Last Day》 This song really gave me MGK vibes. It’s about half in English, but I often don't even notice when he switches between languages.

《不良少年》 I just know I would have loved this song so much in high school. It’s an angsty teen anthem. 

《为明天写封信》 I can totally imagine this song playing at the end of a 2000s teen movie! Maybe while showing a montage of the main characters graduating.

《无所求必满载而归》 by 陈粒 / Chen Li This is technically cheating because I have recommended 陈粒 songs before, but it was at least a couple years ago. I heard this song covered on 披荆斩棘的哥哥 and immediately looked up the original. Honestly I should have known it was a 陈粒 song because you can totally tell it’s her style.

《轻红》 by 曹杨 / Young I keep coming back to this song! It’s from a drama soundtrack. I was super surprised the first time I listened to it because I thought it was going to be a typical ballad based on the first ~45 seconds or so—it wasn’t. There is also another version by 陈雪燃 (the king of cdrama OSTs). But I actually prefer the 曹杨 version.

《时光机》 by 吴克群 / Kenji Wu I was introduced to 吴克群 via 披荆斩棘2. He was instantly one of my favorite contestants after his team’s amazing 《新地球》 performance (check it out). This song is bouncy and a little dreamy. I kinda want to hear a remix with Harry Styles’ As It Was. I just wish it were longer than 3 minutes!

My Spotify Wrapped

I have a tradition of sharing my Spotify Wrapped, and I wanted to continue the streak in some form. So here's a quick rundown.

Top genre: 华语流行音乐 Representative city: Taipei Minutes: 21,750

Top artists

薛之谦 / Xue Zhiqian

林宥嘉 / Yoga Lin

五月天 / Mayday

李荣浩 / Li Ronghao

陈奕迅 / Eason Chan 

Top songs

《木偶人》 - 薛之谦

《狐狸》 - 薛之谦

《骆驼》 - 薛之谦

《转眼》 - 五月天

《后来的我们》 - 五月天

Also, fellow Mandopop fans should check out the Mando Gap newsletter. I stumbled upon it this year, and I know it’s going to be a great resource for discovering new artists in 2024!

#chinese music recs #cpop #c-pop #c pop #mandopop #chinese music #chinese #mandarin #mandarin chinese #chinese language #studyblr #langblr #learning languages #language learning #chinese langblr #mandarin langblr #languageblr

[swordheld]

hello! do u have any new music recommendations?

of course!!! going to throw some general pop/indie/rock/instrumental all over vibes at you? these are some of the ones that i've been having on repeat a lot lately because they bring something bright and fun into my days - hope you enjoy them !! 💛

if i'm honest (trousdale) – oh the absolute vibes of this one. the harmonies. the beat. the slow downs and build ups? that ending? it's like easy, slow, growing ease and joy. that point 3/4 of the ways through the song, that building of things? the payoff? those background horns? the drums? i cannot sit through it without some kind of air guitar / drums / chair dance type beat. it's too good that you cannot help it, it just goes so hard.

close one (fizz) – i have been writing so much love poetry to this song. it is soft and slow and serene like light, all golden hour, the soft golden hues of almost, of here, like this, with me? that little 'fuck it' before the chorus is so fun. this group is made of insanely popular individuals (dodie/orla gartland/greta isaac/martin luke brown???) and together .... they are so powerful. cannot wait to see what they create next !!

run (maisie peters) – there is such a fun vibe to this song. that line of the chorus, that 'i've been lied to / i've been cut and deleted / i've heard some things i will leave unrepeated' is sooooo good, that rhyme scheme that syllable count balance? it immediately went onto my writing playlist w/ that fun beat, that synth, that catchy repetition? the whole album this comes off of is so very good too, esp. 'the band and i'? i really enjoy her sound!!

like a brother (hey, nothing) – this song feels like a lullaby, in the way of being swung in a hammock? all late summer, early winter winds? but there is such a lyricism that gets stuck in my brain, the whole layout of the chorus and is just so soft. i feel so many things. another easy one for the poetry playlist.

margo (sally boy) – oh the orchestral, string opening? the easy flow of it, instrumental and light, before hitting that small bit of silence before the guitar and lyrics come in? and then the absolute hit that is the beat of the chorus hitting? obsessed. phenomenal. i love the balance of gentle, light instruments and the slow instruction of the drumbeat, it feels like a whole story that you can experience, the flow of it!

eightball girl (maddie zahm) – i can leave this song for a few days and then out of nowhere it'll just be in my head again, the vibes of it, that beat of the chorus? the layered voice effects? sometimes songs have this balance to them that my brain just sucks up like a sponge and this is one of them. soooo good. i'll be in the supermarket and my brain will just go eightball girllll, tell me how you feel about meeee and it's perfect.

snow angel (reneé rapp) – this was one of the first ones i found on my daylist that was just like, how did i go so long without you. how did i not know about you. and since then it's been a daily listen. the slow, gentle breeze of that beginning? there is such a rising and falling to this song, like seasons, like the breeze? all tide, all here and there and back again, all resilience and ferocity, softness and violence? that electric guitar and the piano and the feedback just makes me want to just. aaaaaaa. this whole album is just banger after banger too!!

grace (henrik) – it's so fun!!! it brings me so much joy and energy, the easy breezy pop vibes, it's so hopeful and gentle and loving. i have it set as my alarm rn because i really do think it'll last through the sisyphean task of getting me out of bed in the mornings, it just feels like sunlight.

#q&a. #birdsong. #music recs. #i have not been immune to the impact of the daylist introduction. spotify will tell u i am obsessed ! #some of these artists have only like? 20k listeners? and i'm just amazed. flabbergasted. like they're SOOOOO GOOD???? #anyway music continues to be something i love and live to enjoy. artists u have my whole heart!!!!! #went through my liked songs to look for The Recent Hits™ for this and i think i've saved like 200+ in the last week and a half. love it !!! #hope u enjoy them babes !!! lemme kno if ur lookin for more / or anything more specific <33

[likeadevils]

what songs from TTPD and TA are now yours? Which ones have spoken to you the most?

songs that are genuinely MINE

chloe or sam or sophia or marcus: i cried myself to sleep listening to this song on repeat on release night and for the life of me i cant tell you why. i think it’s a great example of her being older really deepening her writing— just that old scarred over longing of a possible life, a possible love, too far away to reach but close enough to brush past. also, the double edged sword of “if you want to break my cold, cold heart, just say’ i loved you the way that you were’”— you loved me before i’d twisted myself into the shape i am now in order to keep my current partner, but also, you loved me the way i was, not the way i am now

i look in peoples windows: i wrote a poem with the line “im afflicted by the not knowing” in it!! inspired by the outside!! and by spending so much of my childhood reading by moonlight and spying on my neighbors through their windows!!! it was called where midnight lives!!! what the fuck!!!

robin: another song i sobbed hysterically to. i was a strange little violent child obsessed with dinosaurs it feels like a lullaby someone made specifically about 3 year old me.

songs that i’m obsessed with:

but daddy i love him: the bridge is just so fun to scream along to. everytime ive been in a car since the album came out ive played this at least two times just cause

fresh out the slammer: it’s just. the first verse??? the way the song stutters apart for the last verse??? this song takes the blurry muse conceit of the album and uses it to its fullest. also just the diminishing returns from “but its gonna be alright, i did my time”

i can do it with a broken heart: my first listen favorite

the smallest man who ever lived: the bridge????? the bridge???? the bridge???? a few of the negative reviews specifically mentioned this song as boring and for a millisecond i was so angry i could’ve exploded

the black dog: this is like, the platonic ideal of a taylor swift song to me. just that old quiet tragedy she can build out of little moments of hoping your ex will remember you when they hear your favorite song or not having known your last kiss was your last kiss or your ex still sharing their location with you. like, it’s just her at her best, but with the maturity to sing “and you jump up, but she’s too young to know this song”

i hate it here: people have talked about seeing reputation in the anthology but i think you can also see so much debut and it makes me feel so tender. also i genuinely don’t understand why people don’t like “if chose the 1830s but without all the racists” like?? it’s supposed to be a bit clunky?? the songs about the limits of escapism?? the line enhances both of those themes?? also “i’m there most of the year” is such a funny devastating relatable lyric to say about a daydream

thank you aimee: it’s not every day a song inspires you to send this message about something a child did to you (fuck you madeline!!! fuck you jessie!!!)

the bolter: avoidant attachment representation!!! i love that it takes the stuff she hated about herself in the archer and just accepts and loves them and appreciates what they’ve given her. i especially love it because bolt can mean like, crossbow bolts, so it’s a flip on the archer. also “bolt” is one of my favorite words i love all the different meanings

“the only thing that’s left is the manuscript, one less souvenir from my trip to your shores, now and then i re-read the manuscript, but the story isnt mine anymore” also just had me sobbing. there’s just. wtf!!!!!!

#asks*

[joesalw]

i am a firm hater of midnights, but my god do i hate this album even more. sure the production at the beginning of the album is way better than that of midnights, but then it devolves and i’m forced to listen to some of the most boring songs in existence. if you’re gonna have a 31 song version of the album, give it some more variety. the amount of times i’ve complained to my sister about how many slow songs with bare production was in it is absurd. truly, the only songs i came close to having a pleasant time listening to were the collab songs and The Prophecy. you know, i’ve not even listened to eternal sunshine in full, only bits and pieces of like four songs, except those four snippets i heard on Ariana’s much shorter, 35 min album was far better than Taylor’s whole 122 min album i listened to in full. this album was the most boring shit i’ve ever heard, with horrible one liner lyrics i know she’s 100% serious about. at least midnights was fun and each song sonically unique! what the fuck is this!

oh the way i reacted when i found out that taylor Did make songs about TK on the album, with actually football references that aren’t even metaphors she’s legitimately talking about football in a song called the Alchemy on an album called the Tortured Poets Department. like i knew this would happen, just not this soon.

I mean what's the point of 31 brand new songs when they all sound the same and repeat the same things she wants to convey...imo she did this to gain streams. again the ts strategy of "Quantity over Quality" or else how do you think she'd break the records? i have streamed eternal sunshine and let me tell you it's so refreshing and meaningful. even the shortest interlude puts so much more depth in the album. the into is so beautiful too and even after a divorce she doesn't sound so petty towards her ex husband as TS sounds in her one month's relationship.

#anti taylor swift #ariana grande

[7grandmel]

Todays rip: 13/03/2024

Nuclear Pomeranian

Season 8 Featured on: Now That's What I Call Quality! 3

Ripped by Half Pixel

Requested by Oetam! (Discord)

I've covered a number of rips featured in Now That's What I Call Quality! 3 already on here, and I maintain that it's likely the best album the channel has yet put out in terms of raw concise quality on offer. Beautiful Dreamer, Initial Deluxe (I've Just Raced on this Course Before) and Owner of a Mahjong Board are all absolute highlights of Season 7, and it feels like the entire SiIvaGunner team came together to truly show the best of the best on the album. Yet beyond featuring classics from the Season that was then wrapping up, Now That's What I Call Quality! 3 also featured a good few rips that had yet to be uploaded to the YouTube channel - that is to say, some of the first-ever rips that you could consider to be part of Season 8. Its in this category that Nuclear Pomeranian finds itself in: the seventh rip of Rhythm Doctor makes an incredible first impression on what to expect from Season 8 in the months to come.

Honestly, it wasn't as if Half Pixel had to prove his prowess in creating these sorts of dense meme medleys: Since way back when I first heard Everybody's Special Course in Season 1, I'd known the guy had an undeniable knack for these sorts of rips. It may be coincidence, but it, Nuclear Pomeranian and Siiva Lining all just have this immense energy and adrenaline to them, a celebratory party atmosphere that never fails to bring a smile to my face. So then, I suppose Nuclear Pomeranian mainly shows just how much Half Pixel has grown as a ripper in those years, how many creative flourishes are added and implemented with complete confidence. The lyrical silliness in the opening is one of my favorite examples: transitioning Infinite's lyrics of "I am the last one that's standing, don't try and stand in my way" into a simple "okay" sound, followed by a response of "and now you're in my way" from Call Me Maybe. That's so fun! That has nothing to do with Rhythm Doctor, or SiIva's own memes, or Season 8 or anything, it's just a little bit of flavor added to the rip by Half Pixel to make it a funnier listen.

It goes through so many phases, yet compared to something like Memey Hell, it feels as if each part featured is allowed room to breathe in isolation from one another. Some of the sources. such as PSY's music, feel like they're subtly in the background almost throughout the whole rip, but segments focusing on just one source at a time feel like they strike such a perfect balance in terms of how long they're featured. The rip will for instance use Bo Burnham's Bezos I for a six second segment to give you just enough time to register the song as both funny and catchy in its context, before using a snappy Among Us sound effect break to transition into an equally-as-long segment using Boulevard of Broken Dreams, repeating the cycle. Much of that is of course owed to the structure of the original Bomb-Sniffing Pomeranian itself, but it's incredibly commendable just how well Half Pixel adapted that frantic, back-and-fourth pacing of the Rhythm Doctor song into such a different format. Very few of the sources, even when focused on as the sole joke for seconds at a time, are left completely unedited: small little quips from other sources, little interjections and pieces will play alongside or over the joke in focus, althewhile remaining completely harmonious.

I realize that a lot of what I'm describing is just the standard procedure on what to think of when creating a meme mashup medley like this in general, but what I'm aiming to say is that Nuclear Pomeranian is one of the best examples of how to do things right across the board. The amount of sources featured span across the channel's entire life, from the aforementioned PSY to appearances from Smooth of 【＝３】e-MUNO Disco (vs. 音MAD AGENT) fame in Season 2, the Season 1 classic Chip the Ripper closing the rip off, the Big Chungus-posting of Season 4 Episode 2 and AIN'T NOTHIN' LIKE A CHUNKY BEAT, the Among Us posting of Season 5 and Among Drip Drop Galaxy, and oh so many more. Yet compared to something like, say, the Season premiere collabs such as Joke-Explainer™ 7000 Fusion Collab and Bramble Blast Collab, the rip doesn't place more emphasis on these nostalgic, well-remembered sources than anything else featured in its vast list of sources. SiIvaGunner classics or not, Half Pixel uses what sounds best and what's funniest at every possible moment to create a rip that works incredibly well even outside the context of the SiIvaGunner channel, as a huge tribute to Rhythm Doctor and the art of ripping itself.

Put concisely - Nuclear Pomeranian is a banger, and was a fantastic showcase of the level of quality that we've now seen many examples of in the last month and a half. The SiIvaGunner team is truly firing on all cylinders, and I'm all here for it.

#todays siivagunner #Season 8 #siivagunner #siiva #Half Pixel #rhythm doctor #rhythm games #video game music #mashups #gangnam style #psy #Youtube #Bandcamp

[redactedbloop]

Music Tag Game!

Thank you so much @running-tweezers for tagging me 💕💕😭

Rules: On Repeat playlist, shuffle, post the first 10 songs

Im gonna tag people up here cause this post feels too long lol: @mokozroach @bubblergoespop @ilaria-jinx and anyone else who wants to do this (tag me, i love getting new music recommendations)

Alright let’s get into it!

….outting myself as an emo kid right out the gate I see. Sometimes I wanna feel like an angsty middle schooler and that’s okay

I absolutely adore Noah Kahan. Stick Season is one of my albums of all time, hands down

This song has me in a chokehold. Get it? Chokehold? Im fun at parties. ANYWHO Sleep Token 🥴 There is something so alluring about their music. I wanna bite it

Heavy pop does it for me sometimes. If you go listen to their other new song, Brag, there’s a speaking bit that kinda sounds like Huxley

SPEAKING OF. 1:10 for those interested.

Hell Yeah. This song is sung entirely by Poppy and she does a phenomenal job. I love Bad Omen’s social commentary

Also outing myself as a kpop stan got it cool cool. This song is actually my roman empire. I have thought about it since the first performance video came out in like 2017

This wouldnt be a song post on my blog without these guys. I love them so so much

I recently learned this song has an acoustic version and ive never been happier. It’s lowkey got me 🥴🥴 somethin bout it hits different

And ending on my favorite song at the moment! I swear this rewired something in my brain the first time i heard it. The chorus does things to me

#Spotify #god my music taste is so weird #i want you to know the next songs after these were mitski then my chemical romance then peace prc #thank you again for the tag!! you’re the best

[auspicious-manner]

uh hii a request for graham dunne where you’re apart of the band and billy like dismisses your input and graham didn’t defend you to you do all the way back to your hometown and graham goes to get you and you have an emotional reunion where he apologizes please

this one ended up being long again lol i’m sorry. also my writing isn’t what it used to be, i’m a little rusty. i really liked this one though!

fem reader x graham dunne

warnings: billy being a bit verbally abusive, brief mention of smoking

The Guitarist

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working with billy dunne was both immensely rewarding and ruthlessly difficult. he was controlling and overly picky, and had to always have the last say. but, then again, that’s why you all were as good as you were. billy demanded the best and nothing less.

even though billy was the band’s main stressor, it helped to have someone by your side that was better at navigating around billy’s traps. for you, that person was normally graham. your rock.

as a female bassist, you drew the eyes of many people in both positive and negative ways. to many, you were progressive and unique. to some, a woman bassist in a rock band seemed wrong. luckily, the six seemed to lean more towards the majority most of the time.

living in florida for your early years of life turned you into the sun kissed, constantly tan beach bum you now identify as. as lovely as waking up to the ocean and smelling the salty air every morning was, there wasn’t a future for you there. the music scene was subpar, and you knew you needed a change of scenery.

with little money in your pocket, you moved to bright and beautiful california in 1974 with nothing more than a dream. living out of hotels and playing guitar on the streets for extra cash became your new normal.

walking down the strip, you noticed a band seeming to fill the headlines of every big name venue lining the road. both the troubadour and whiskey a go go had a headline showcasing a band called the six. seeming as the name was everywhere, you went into the troubadour one night to see what the hype was about.

upon entering, up on the stage was four boys and one girl. you laughed to yourself, thinking the name of their band wasn’t necessarily fitting but it made them stand out. it was unique. there was a blonde girl on the keys, guiding the rhythm of the songs with her smooth notes. there was a curly haired drummer in the back adding the heartbeat to the music, and a dirty blonde bassist keeping pace. the front man had a voice like velvet and was wild on stage, likely because of the immense drugs in his system. you could just tell he wasn’t well. and then, on the other side of him, was a bright eyed, curly haired guitarist that played tough solos like it wasn’t nothing. he seemed at ease on stage, and you were instantly a fan.

that performance caused you to go out and find the band’s debut album titled seven eight nine. you listened to that album on repeat, and despite your best efforts, your ears kept wandering deeper and deeper into the sound of the guitarist’s killer licks. based off of what you remembered from the show, you pieced together who on the cover played what instrument. you stared at the faces on the album, your eyes always darting back to the blue eyed guitarist. something about him was electric.

as far as you could tell, the names of the individual band members weren’t clearly printed on the album anywhere, and you didn’t want to dig to find their history. to you, the mystery made it fun. you had no predispositions about anyone and no outside factors influencing the way you perceived the music. you wanted a pure relationship with music, and you did just that with the six’s music.

*

months passed, and you learned how to play most of the songs off seven eight nine on both guitar and bass. you knew that record like the back of your hand at this point. you could pick up the notes on the record and play it back, and you did that for every song.

one day, your heart skipped a beat when you saw a flyer on the strip for auditions to be apart of the greatest band in the world; the six.

the flyer called for a new leading man, and although you clearly weren’t masculine, you went anyway, thinking the worst they could do is say no and the best is that your name gets on their radar. at that point, you didn’t even consider being added to the band. you were there for shits and giggles.

on the day of the audition, you arrived at a quaint home in the beautiful laurel canyon. you strolled up to the house wearing your best boots and bell bottoms with a crocheted halter top and flower shaped sunglasses. your layered, voluminous hair fell over your shoulders.

you saw the group that you had been idolizing for months now in person, sitting in the garage of the house. they hadn’t spotted you yet, but you saw the beautiful blonde that you knew to be the keyboardist, the newly mustached drummer that you recognized from the album cover, and the long haired bassist. the guitarist that truly drew you in was out of frame for you, since he was further in the garage.

you approached the garage, and the drummer’s eyes fell on you first. his look of confusion made the rest of the band turn their eyes to look at you, and you kept your eyes down behind your tinted sunglasses, nervously questioning why you decided to audition for your current favorite band.

then, as you rounded the corner, the boy that you had been pining over aesthetically was staring at you with the same look of confusion, but with more wonderment in his eyes. he seemed unsure, yet impressed, and you couldn’t help but crack a smile seeing your favorite guitarist in the flesh.

before the band could stop you, you set down your guitar and bass cases and went up to the microphone.

“i’m Y/N L/N. i’m a huge fan of all of your work, by the way,” you said into the microphone, lifting your sunglasses so they rested on top of your hair. seeing the boy’s perfect oceanic eyes without the shading of the sunglasses made your heart flutter even more.

you practically watched the band’s ego inflate after that comment, but the long haired bassist of the band quickly went back to his familiar look of confusion. “i’m sorry, but i-”

before he could turn you away, you interrupted him. “i know you called for just guys for this audition, but i couldn’t help myself. i can play guitar, i can play bass, and i can sing a bit too. i have no expectations of being added to the band, i just want to get my name out there,” you swallowed and looked down at the pavement before looking up again. “can i play for you?”

the band looked between each other, talking with their eyes.

“you said your name was Y/N?” the girl asked. she stood up, approaching you slowly. you nodded, hesitant. her thick english accent caught you slightly off guard.

she held out her hand. “i’m karen sirko, i play the keys.”

you smiled and took it, shaking it. you tried not to get too carried away and come off as crazy. “i know, i’m a huge fan of your work.”

karen smiled gently before taking a seat again. the rest of the band looked at her, almost as if they were searching her for answers.

she caught sight of the boys and looked back at you. “she’s already up there, i say we give her a shot. why the hell not?”

you smiled when the rest of the band didn’t protest. “the flyer said to prepare look me in the eye for the audition, but i wasn’t sure if i should learn the bass track or the guitar track, but i do know both,” you said nonchalantly into the mic. the band smiled in amazement, and your eyes quickly darted to look at the boy you’ve been idolizing, whose eyes were never leaving yours. you quickly flicked yours away to prevent the blush from growing too rapidly on your cheeks.

you counted yourself in and started from the second verse.

“i got a wicked on

let me stretch your ears

put down your broomstick, baby

gonna look like a witch”

you focused on playing the bass through the verse, and keeping your voice steady despite the excitement in your soul. keep it contained, the guitarist is watching.

“and I know you don't mean it

i know you don't mean it

i know you don't mean it

because you can't”

going into the music break, you switched from your bass to your guitar as quickly and as seamlessly as possible. the awkward silence when you switched instruments could make anyone cringe. you immediately wondered why you decided that was a good idea.

you started the guitar solo now, mimicking the guitarist’s riffs and licks cleanly. you looked up briefly, and the band seemed to be oddly shocked, especially the bright eyed boy in the corner, who paired his shocked expression with one of astonishment.

you finished the song with a repeat of the chorus, and after you strummed the last note, you looked at the band, hopeful. they seemed impressed with you.

“damn, eddie, she plays your own bass lines better than you!” the drummer said while laughing, nudging the long haired boy’s arm. you now found out a second name; eddie the bassist.

eddie playfully nudged the boy back, before stopping and thinking. he had gears turning in his head. “actually, you’re kind of right.”

the band tensed up, looking at eddie. they clearly didn’t know what he was going on about. you stood awkwardly watching the scene unfold.

“think about it, guys. i was never great at bass to begin with,” eddie said before standing up and walking next to you. “i started on guitar. Y/N-your name is Y/N right?” he said, stopping. you nodded, and he continued.

“Y/N seems a lot more experienced at bass than i am. we could add her to the band and i could go back to rhythm guitar. it’s perfect. what do you say?” he asked excitedly.

“adding her won’t solve our problem, though; we need a frontman still,” said karen.

eddie scoffed and smiled. “guys, i can do it.”

the band looked at each other, almost doubtfully.

you stepped away and gave eddie the mic, and you boldly and anxiously sat on the ground next to your favorite band member. he turned to look at you, a red tint on his cheeks.

“you said you’re a fan of ours, Y/N?” he whispered while eddie played.

a tingle went up your spine when he said your name. you didn’t even know this boy’s name, and he was already giving you butterflies.

“yeah, why?” you asked.

“i think i’m now a fan of you.”

you bit your lip to keep back a giddy smile. “i’m graham dunne, by the way,” he said, holding out his hand. you took it in his and let it linger. “i-uh-” he stammered, getting butterflies from your touch. “i play lead guitar, and my brother billy used to be the frontman before he left.”

“you’re really talented,” you told him, your faces not far from each other. his colorful eyes seemed to keep you paralyzed.

graham seemed to get flustered. “so are you.”

eddie finished, and the rest of the band looked at each other and shrugged. you and graham were sitting in the corner of the garage, however, stifling laughs and glancing at each other because both of you didn’t even listen to eddie’s audition.

the drummer sighed. “it’s the best we can do. is Y/N in then?”

graham turned to look at you before standing up and reaching his hands down to help you stand up. “i say yes. she’s an asset, she’s versatile, and she’s better at bass than eddie.”

you blushed. he saw that you were blushing and he put an arm around your shoulders. at that point, you nearly melted.

eddie, now the new front man for the six, smiled proudly. “let’s do it.”

*

after getting the offer to move in with the band, you wondered how you got so lucky. you were apart of your favorite band and you were flirting with your favorite guitarist and most beautiful boy you had ever seen on a daily basis. what could be better?

sadly, the honeymoon phase of your arrival didn’t last long. the first time you met billy on the night you moved in, he wasn’t totally thrilled with you presence.

billy and his wife camila saw you sitting on the couch in the house with graham and karen. eddie and warren were sitting on the floor, and graham had his arm resting nonchalantly around your shoulders. you felt the happiest you had ever been until you heard the front door swing open and you laid eyes on the man you recognized from the album cover.

he squinted at you, clearly confused. “is this your new girlfriend, graham?”

graham turned his head and grew red. “no, um… not quite…” he said, trailing off nervously. he seemed to do that a lot around you, like he had to carefully choose his words in order for you to like him. it made you smile.

“she’s our new band member. billy, camila, meet Y/N. she’s our new bassist and background vocalist,” graham finished, removing his arm from around your shoulders.

billy looked oddly smug. however, you noted that camila seemed to be the exact opposite. “you added a new member to the group?” billy asked, an aggressive tone building.

eddie frowned. “well, yeah. billy, you’re out of the band now. why should it matter to you?”

billy looked offended, and like he was ready to fight your arrival in the band. but you watched his expression turn when he realized eddie was right; he was out of the band.

graham saw how uncomfortable billy looked. “she’s really talented. she can sing, and she’s trained on bass. she’s better than eddie, actually. that’s why we added her and moved eddie to lead.”

billy looked pained. but, the band was right. he had no control over what they did anymore.

for a while, that was the energy in the house. billy never did warm up to you, he merely tolerated you because you were close to his brother. you and camila, however, hit it off right away, and oftentimes camila would get frustrated with billy for not being more open to your spot in the band.

graham quickly became your second half. being in a band of mostly boys would be intimidating for any girl, but graham took extra care to make you feel right at home. he seemed to be spending more time with you in his room than anyone else. sometimes you created music together, and sometimes you just talked. a lot of times, your late night talks turned into accidental overnight sleepovers.

obviously graham was one of your best friends. you didn’t want to process that it could be anything more than that, though. for months, there was evident flirting going on, but you had no clue if his intentions were to be playful or thoughtful. you didn’t see any good reason to think about your every interaction more than you already were. you knew if you thought too much, you’d eventually spiral.

then, on the night of the christmas party, billy came back to the band with a new song. much to eddie’s dismay, he was no longer the frontman for the six.

that night, graham pulled you aside into a hallway. “what’s up graham?” you asked, your heart rate picking up. due to the tight nature of the hallway, he seemed to be towering over you, your bodies only a few inches apart. you didn’t need to be that close, the hallway wasn’t that narrow; you both just wanted to be that close.

you watched him swallow nervously. “since it’s, uh, christmas, i wanted to get you something.”

you blushed, and a wide smile spread across your face. your grin made graham beam in return. “graham, you didn’t have to. money is tight right now.”

he nodded. “i know, but you’re worth it. billy doesn’t see your talent and potential, but i do. i wanted to give you something that showed my appreciation for you joining the band,” he said before pulling a small box out from behind his back.

you laughed to yourself. “god, graham, you’re making me blush,” you said, taking the box. “you must sweep girls off their feet with that charm.”

he shook his head. “i don’t get a whole lot of girls. i have my eye on…someone else.”

immediately after he said that, your body seemed to freeze. there’s no way he could be talking about you, right?

you bit your lip and untied the ribbon on the box. inside was a silver bracelet with charms of your favorite flower: sunflowers.

“oh my god,” you breathed, taking the bracelet out of the box and holding it up to the light. “graham, it’s beautiful. how did you know i loved sunflowers?”

“i remember you mentioned it once during one of our talks,” he looked towards the ground smiling, almost as if he was reminiscing on the moment. “i can help you put it on.”

you gave the bracelet to graham and you held out your wrist. gently, like he wasn’t trying to hurt you, he grabbed your wrist softly and brought it closer to him. the warmth of his skin against yours gave you the chills. you could feel his calluses from his guitar on your wrist. he wrapped the bracelet around your wrist, securing it place with the clasp.

graham held your hand in both of his, bringing your wrist closer to his face. “it looks great on you.”

“thank you. i love it so much,” you said lightly. you looked up at him, and he looked down at you, proud of himself for making you smile like that.

“i have something for you too,” you said, feeling a rush of confidence.

“what is it?” graham asked.

you hesitated before leaning up and kissing his cheek before turning down the hallway and walking away. graham stood dumbfounded, and he knew he never wanted to forget that feeling.

*

with billy back in the group, teddy believed that a collaboration with the band and a singer songwriter named daisy jones could really take everything to the next level.

the day of the studio session, a red headed girl confidently strutted into the studio.

“daisy?” you asked softly, unsure of how she would react to you.

she turned around, giving you a brief smile. “i’m Y/N, the bassist. it’s great to meet you,” you said, holding out your hand.

daisy took it. “it’s good to meet you too,” she replied, her smile growing a bit wider. she seemed eager to meet someone new.

you let go of her hand, spying graham watching the interaction closely. you walked towards the door to meet up with him, and when you opened it, he was already there.

“you already makin’ new friends?” graham asked, looking down at you.

you shrugged. “i’m being nice. she doesn’t know anyone here, i wanted to make her feel comfortable.”

graham laughed and began walking with you with his arm around your shoulders. then, he put you into a soft head lock before ruffling your hair.

“you’re a cute little social butterfly.”

the band began recording the instrumental track for look at us now, and you had some ideas about how the bass lines could go.

“hey billy?” you asked, approaching him. he stoically turned to look at you, waiting for you to say something.

“i-i was wondering if i could try some of my own ideas for bass. i think what i can do will add a lot to the song.”

he stared at you blankly. “and why would i let you do that?”

your eyes widened. “because, whether you like it or not, i’m good at bass. i don’t need you directing me on how to do my job at every second. this record is all of ours, and i should be able to contribute what i want.”

billy grinned smugly. he stood up, making his authority clear by towering over you. “Y/N, you may not know this since you’re still pretty new, but this is my band, and we do as i say. got it?”

just as you were about to comply, you heard graham speak up. “billy, just give her a chance to do her own thing,” he said, walking up behind you. billy squinted, finding it odd that his own brother was standing up to him. “she’s experienced, she’s not a newcomer on the bass. just give her a chance.”

billy glared at graham, then glared at you. “maybe some other time.”

*

and thats how things went for a bit. look at us now quickly rose in popularity, and during the rehearsals for the diamond head festival, tensions with billy got so much worse.

denying your input on ways to improve songs is one thing, but billy routinely put you off to the side and ignored you. you didn’t seem to exist in his eyes, and you never once got recognized by him. the only time he saw you was when he scolded you for playing something wrong, and then telling you that you didn’t belong in the band. it grew to be extremely detrimental. the rest of the band was easily influenced by billy, and even they started to follow suit and make you feel inferior.

but through it all was graham. he stayed by your side and never let you fight alone. he was your biggest supporter and biggest cheerleader.

one night after a particularly rough day of rehearsals, you were laying next to graham in his bed, your head resting on his shoulder. you both lay looking at the ceiling in a comfortable silence.

“graham?” you asked quietly. you tried to hide the cracks in your voice.

“yeah?”

“why does your brother hate me?” you asked.

graham shuffled a bit, and he turned on his side to look at you. you readjusted and turned in so your faces were only a few inches apart. he saw that your eyes were glossy with the beginning stages of tears, and he used his hand to brush away the strands of hair falling into your face before resting it neatly on your jawline.

“he doesn’t hate you,” graham started, never breaking eye contact. “he just doesn’t understand you.”

“he’s had plenty of opportunities to get to know me and my story. he doesn’t even want to acknowledge my contributions to the band. i just want to know what i did wrong to get on his bad side.”

“no, sweetheart, you did nothing wrong,” graham said, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. he blinked slowly, like he was trying to think of an answer. “billy doesn’t like to share. he’s a total control freak. and when people try to challenge his authority, he feels threatened.”

you nodded. graham looked away before turning onto his back again and using his arm to pull you closer to him. “i don’t like when he says those things to you either. i know it hurts you, and when you hurt, i hurt.”

luckily, the darkness of the room concealed the red growing on your cheeks. he swallowed before continuing. “i don’t know why he’s so dismissive. you’re talented and confident, and you have great concepts for these songs. he doesn’t realize that you make us better.”

he rested a hand on the back of your head. “thank you for being my best friend,” you said, your eyes briefly flicking down to his lips.

he didn’t notice. “thank you for being my best friend.”

after that night, you hoped things with graham would pick up on their own. although you had slept in the same bed before and always looked for ways to lean your head onto his shoulder, that night felt different. the way he brushed your hair back with his hand. the way he carefully tucked the hair behind your ear. the way he rested his hand on the side of your face. it felt so intentional.

but if anything, things got worse between you two. he seemed more distant than normal, and you wondered if he saw you as only a friend. you knew asking could potentially ruin the friendship you have, so you decided not to press it. it was better to be his friend than nothing at all.

even though look at us now was quickly becoming the song to define the summer, you thought it had even more to give. it was missing something you could have delivered with the bass track you wanted to do. billy, however, ruined this for you.

the diamond head festival arrived, and you saw the crowd from the sides of the stage. you felt like you had finally made it after years of working your ass off.

you ran out on stage with the band, playing songs from the band’s previous album. the crowd loved it, but they absolutely lost it when daisy came onto the stage. warren began the beat to look at us now, and you began to feel bored.

when it got to the chorus, you made a spur of the moment decision. you played the track you were fighting for all along. it wasn’t drastically different from the original, but it was enough to notice if you knew the song inside and out like the band did. you tried to block out the confused glares from the rest of the band, but more importantly, the death stare billy gave you. however, despite taking a risk, the crowd loved it.

after finishing the set, you all went off stage. you were smiley until you heard the voice you had been dreading all day.

“Y/N, what the hell was that?”

you turned around to find billy who seemed to be fuming. the rest of the band lingered a few paces behind him, watching the scene unfold.

“what do you mean?”

he rolled his eyes. “don’t fucking play dumb. you know what you did.”

“billy, i-”

“you ruined my song that i wrote. i told you time and time again that this is my band. i make the rules. i don’t know what’s wrong with you, but you can’t seem to follow simple directions.”

“can i fucking explain myself?” you said, raising your voice. “you have dismissed my contributions and talent from day one and treated me like fucking garbage. in fact, i would even go as far to say that graham is the only one here that truly values and listens to my opinion. i’m a real member of this band, billy, and no one seems to recognize me,” you tried your hardest to contain your composure, as angry tears threatened to build at any moment.

billy switched his attention to graham. graham began to say something before billy cut him off. “what is your obsession with her? you always seem to come to her defense. graham, you always used to be on my side on band matters, what happened? tell me right now if you two have something going on. i don’t like secrets”

graham froze under billy’s harsh gaze, and you looked at him desperately. you needed his support now more than ever. he sorrily looked at you before shaking his head no. the tears began to drop.

billy’s tone of voice went from one of aggression to one of disappointment. “you could have screwed the entire song up, Y/N. the rest of the band doesn’t seem too thrilled with your improvisation either.”

“but it sounded good, didn’t it? the crowd enjoyed it, and it worked. it added even more layers of complexity to the song,” you looked to the band, who was avoiding any and all eye contact. you felt lonelier than you ever had before. you were losing a battle that was doomed from the beginning.

you picked up your bass case. “i did what i had to do to prove i wasn’t just a puppet in the billy show. to prove i’m more than the piece of shit you all make me out to be,” you choked down a voice crack. “i was just trying to help.”

you turned the opposite direction and walked away, trying not to look back at anyone else. you felt so betrayed. not only did none of the band come to your defense when you were being consistently torn down by billy, but the one that stuck by you through it all went mute. and he denied any romantic possibilities between the two of you, which absolutely broke your heart.

you thought you were home free to a taxi when you heard your name. upon turning around, you found daisy running after you.

“honey, what’s wrong?” she asked, noticing your tear stained face. without asking questions, she brought you in for a hug, and you almost melted into her arms as the tears fell. it felt good to have a friend again.

“what happened back there?” she asked, pulling away. she held you at arms length, searching you for answers.

“i tried to stand out. i tried to make everyone else notice me since i’m always the forgotten one in the band. i did my own bass line, and it worked, but i was just punished for it. and the one person who made me feel wanted, who saw me as the musician i am, who made me feel beautiful absolutely broke me.”

daisy hugged you again, and you tried to control your infrequent sobs. “i loved what you added. it was so deep and rich. fuck them if they can’t see your talent. i see it.”

you nodded and pulled away. “thank you. but… i-i don’t think i can stay here. it’s too painful for me. no one seems to have my back in that band.”

daisy nodded understandingly, yet gloomily. “where are you going then?”

you sniffled. “i don’t know, maybe home? not the house in the canyon, but my home in florida.”

another taxi pulled up, and you took your case in one hand and daisy held onto your other hand. together, you walked towards the car. trying to make small talk, daisy asked, “where at in florida?”

“cocoa beach. it’s beautiful there,” you replied, distracted for a brief moment.

you placed your case in the trunk and looked at daisy. you asked the driver of the taxi if he had a spare pen and paper, and he did. you wrote your address and phone number down and handed it to daisy.

“if you are ever in the area or need anything, give me a call,” you told her. you wished you could have gotten to know her more before your untimely leave from the band.

she smiled brightly. “good luck, Y/N. be safe.”

the taxi took you to the hotel to pack your belongings, and then it took you to the airport where you bought a one way ticket to florida.

*

you arrived at the airport in florida at about four in the morning, exhausted from the travel. you grabbed your luggage before finding a taxi.

on your plane ride from hawaii to florida, you had a lot of time to think about you and graham. it’s okay if he didn’t feel the same, but he felt like more than just a friend. he dropped subtle hints about liking you as more than a friend, yet he denied any romantic affiliations despite the flirting that stopped feeling just platonic a long time ago. it hurt you like crazy.

as much as you missed graham, you couldn’t stay somewhere where no one was willing to stand by you. you knew you did the right thing, but your mind kept wandering to graham. your heart wanted to see him, but your mind told you otherwise.

the cab took you to your childhood home. you paid the driver and he sped away. you bit your lip and apathetically approached the door. when you knocked, it took a moment before you saw your mom in a robe and her slippers for the first time in a long time.

she yawned, then fully took notice of you and then tilted her head slightly when she saw you. “Y/N, what’s wrong? if i would have known you were coming, i could have made arrangements, i-”

you cut her off by dropping your belongings and hugging her. you needed quiet support. she hugged back. “do you want to talk about it?”

you shook your head no and headed to your old bedroom. the walls were a light pink, and you had band posters all around the room. it was painful to see, as it reminded you of your band.

you didn’t bother changing into pajamas. before laying down, you noticed you were still wearing the beautiful sunflower bracelet graham had gotten you. a small tear slipped out of your eye as you slid the bracelet off. you set it on your dresser before laying in your old bed and falling fast asleep.

the next morning, you woke up at noon, and felt no desire to leave your bed. you wanted to be melancholic, and you wanted to be alone. every so often, your mom would stop by to bring you food and water, knowing that you needed time to decompress. she didn’t know what was wrong, but she knew something bad must have happened.

you tried your hardest to focus on anything but the events that unfolded the day before. all of it was too painful to revisit. the one thing that normally brought you peace and serenity, music, now hovered in your mind as a dark memory.

you lit a cigarette from the pack still hiding under your bed from when you were a teen. you didn’t smoke that often, but today it seemed dire.

a lot of the day was spent sleeping and reflecting. you weren’t sure where to go from here, but that was a problem for another day.

at about ten o’clock that night, just as you were about to fall asleep, a knock sounded at your bedroom door.

“Y/N?” your mom’s soft voice spoke from the other side of the door.

“yeah?”

“you have a visitor.”

you sat up. no one knew you were here except for daisy. “i’m coming.”

you opened the door and saw your mom. “who is it?” you whispered to her as you walked down the stairs.

“he says he knew you in california.”

as you pieced together what that could mean, you arrived at the bottom of the staircase and saw graham, looking disheveled and tired.

“oh my god,” you mumbled. your heart sank, and your undeniable feelings for him were brought to the surface again. “how did you know where to find me?”

he sighed. “daisy told me i could find you here.” you thought about the immense effort he had to go through just to see you again. he paused then stepped closer to you. “Y/N, we need to talk.”

you looked at your mom nervously. she could tell this was the source of all that you’ve been through the past few days. you nodded, and your mom went further into the house for privacy.

“let’s go upstairs.”

graham followed you to your room, and you closed the door behind you. you sat on the edge of the bed as graham looked around at the band posters.

“you’re, um, a fan of the doors?” he asked, looking at your poster of jim morrison on the wall.

“yeah, they’re one of my favorite bands.”

“y-yeah, me too,” he stuttered, looking down. he looked up and took note of the way you fiddled with your thumbs nervously and avoided eye contact. he could see that you were trying to come to terms with the way your involvement with the band and him ended. he knew that you were hurt.

graham sat next to you on the edge of the bed. “Y/N, i’m sorry about what happened at the festival. billy was way out of line for saying those things, and he had no right to speak to you like that. i-”

“graham, why are you here?” you asked bluntly. he seemed taken aback. “you know that’s not the reason i’m upset.”

“i’m here to apologize. i feel awful about the way billy treated you.” something about his statement still seemed off.

“billy’s words hurt, yes. but it hurt more watching my band stand by and watch as i get shit on time and time again and to have my best friend who always has my back stay silent.”

graham sunk a bit. he knew you were right.

you scooted away from graham. “i was so embarrassed. i still am. i really thought we had something, but i learned the truth the hard way.”

you paused and turned your body slightly inwards so you were facing him more, your head still lowered. “just tell me what it was that i did wrong. what i did to make everyone turn against me, even you. especially you.”

graham took your chin in his hand and lifted your head so you were looking him in the eyes. “Y/N, you did nothing wrong. believe me. i blame myself for the way the band treated you. i could have and should have done more to prevent this,” he said. he broke eye contact for a moment while he hesitated about saying something. “and i-i wasn’t being totally honest with billy when i denied what we had.”

you had been waiting to hear those words for a long time now. you so badly wanted to hug him and forgive him, but part of it didn’t seem completely genuine.

“you’re just saying that to make me feel better,” you said, pushing his hand away from your chin.

“i’m telling the truth,” he said in a low, almost sensual voice before cupping your face in his hands. his thumbs gently ran over your cheeks as a few tears spilled out onto your face.

“i was scared to admit it, Y/N. i was scared to face my feelings. and i was scared to tell the truth to billy in front of the band, because i hadn’t even come to terms with it. i started pulling away from you during rehearsals because i couldn’t face my own emotions. but now, i’m not afraid.”

he leaned his forehead onto yours. “i like you, a lot. not just in the friendly way, i like you. i always have. ever since you auditioned for the band, i’ve admired your talent and your ability to be outspoken and absolutely everything about you. as soon as i saw you running away, i knew i had made a mistake. i couldn’t imagine surviving in this band without you by my side.”

he paused to catch his breath as your tears fell onto your legs. “i’m so, so sorry. i’m sorry for being an idiot and caring about what billy thinks more than your feelings. i want this. i want you.”

“graham, i can’t go back,” you said, lifting your forehead from his. his hands remained on your cheeks and your faces remained close. “no one but you wants me there. i’m going to get torn apart again.”

“no you won’t” he started. “i’m going to protect you forever and always. the band will too. i talked to all of them, and they said they were too afraid to defy billy in the moment when he was in that state. they feel awful about this too. please, come back. we need you.”

you paused before leaning in and putting a long awaited kiss on his lips. he smiled against you, and you put your hands on his chest. this was everything you had ever wanted.

you pulled away giddy, despite the emotional moment you two had just shared.

“okay, i’ll do it. but only because you’re my favorite guitarist and i’m kind of a super fan.”

graham laughed happily and scrunched his nose, wrapping you in a tight hug. you both fell onto the bed laughing, tangled in each other’s arms.

graham kissed the top of your head. “i’ve been wanting to be like this with you for a long time.”

#billy dunne #daisy jones and the six #warren rojas #warren rojas x reader #camila dunne #graham dunne x reader #graham dunne #daisy jones fanfic #billy dunne x reader

[synthshenanigans]

woah hey a year has been passed wowie :0

First two weren't posted here cos they were too long ago & not CJish related but love the way he took up 70% of the year lol

[ Full images + templates below :} ]

[TW for Bright Colors, maybe blood & very very vague themes of depression/suicide for like 2 drawings I believe]

Long text about the arts if anyones actually curious!!

January: An old OC I completely forgot about until making this. He's based on old radio like things :}

February: Played Person 5 Royal last year & drew Joker cos idk he's neat. Fun fact, the same day I fully finished the game was the day Storm & a Spring came out. Also while grinding in the game, I had his Bidding & VoaC covers on repeat. Which was a bit annoying to do since they weren't on Spotify yet & YT on mobile didn't have looping then.

March: The Hawaii Part ii album cover :} I did post that eventually but that's the time I actually made it. Had listened to TME a couple of months before then which got me into the album, so months later I drew it cos why not? [Also the month Vol.1 fully released on everything. What's funny is my gallery for that day was a handful of memes I saved at 4am before I fell asleep. And then the next image saved is when I woke up which was a screenshot of the whiteboard in TfaR lol]

April: First main Jash art !!! And its not even with any of the songs from Vol. 1 lol. I had his Moss cover on repeat again & now that all of Vol. 1 was out, I drew Heart in some moss. Or really in the image from the video.

May: Lil animation I made of Heart with the song Don't Hit the Lights! Link to my post & the song can be found here :}. Still really like the song & even the drawings. Might remake em eventually idk

June: Sky/socialc1imb's Clue AU! I like murder mysteries & this one was real interesting so I drew it a lot lol. Might remake that one or one of the others I made at somepoint? It'll be a bit later if I do but ye

July: A redraw of a HMS piece I originally made back in May, based on the Three Wise Monkeys thing. I like the idea of it so I keep wanting to remake it.

August: I honestly can't remember if I posted that art or not. Actually yea I don't think I ever did PFFT. It's one of the few drawings I did of myself this year & its from CJs Not Perfect cover [as you can tell by the lyrics on it]. Also one of the very very few vent-ish arts I made. I like the background more than anything but its still neat ig?

September: Art for one of the best songs ever. I love Fine, I'm Fine its so good & I listened to it for like 70% of the 20+ hours it took me to make the drawing. Still proud of it so there's the sketch I drew on paper, the one on my tablet & then the final versions.

October: There was a lot from this month due to Jashtober. I still like this one lot & it wasn't insanely rushed so I picked this one to show lol.

November: I have no idea why I made a fun lil soul. I was having an identity crisis over my art style & ig decided to draw the guy who is a walking identity crisis/j

December: Same as September. One of my favorite songs ever was covered & released, so I made a drawing like everyone else lol.

#time is wild #also love the way my art style changes each month or two #anyway tho im actually pretty happy with how much better I've gotten #have a lotta plans for more HMS/CJ stuff #just quite busy & overloaded atm lol #more will hopefully come tho #chonny jash #moss post #-atlas art-

[melit0n]

Part three to the Sleep Token FX post. Some of these I've picked up on my own, and others have been pointed out to me by @reveries-of-my-mind and @moonchild-in-blue through their reblogs of my original post about Vore. A lot of these FX bits are more obvious, so I decided to just put TMBTE in one post.

Part three includes: Take Me Back To Eden

Part One -> One, Two, Jaws and The Way That You Were

Part Two -> Sundowning and This Place Will Become Your Tomb

+ If I've missed something, feel to add your own thoughts!

Note- some of these are FX, others are sound mixing and music bits I wanted to mention. Any song you don't see mentioned are songs that I couldn't find anything to pull out of them. Plus, reminder; these are my interpretations, I'm sorry if you can't hear what I hear, or you think something different.

Chokehold

- Lots and lots of digital, glitchy FX which sets the mood for the album. This is also repeated throughout all the songs in the album, which works with their algorithm-esc, robotic theme (both lyrically and musically) in their songs for this one.

The Summoning

- Unfortunately, everyone's favourite jazz-metal amalgamation doesn't have any other SFX notes other than carrying on Chokehold's glitchy FX motifs.

Aqua Regia

- Jazz café ambience shown throughout the song, also, every single instrument other than the main paino is echoed and or muffled.

+ Fun fact! Aqua Regia is Latin for Royal Water. It's a concentrated solution of Hydrochloric and nitric acids, and is one of the only acids that can dissolve Gold; it's used in the jewelry trade to test the purity of Gold. Not a clue what Vessel is trying to get across with that, but his obsession with chemistry and biology motifs strike again.

Granite

- The screetch of the guitar chord at 2:32, right before the breakdown, sounds almost like a car hitting the breaks and skidding. Works well with Granite's theme of car crashes. You can almost imagine someone having an argument in the car, and the screetch is a result of things going a bit too far.

Vore

- Like I said in my original post, in the beginning (first fifteen seconds), along with the scratchy guitar chord, there are chewing and swallowing sounds. The song is quite literally from the point of view of being stuck in the throat of a God.

- At 3:23 to 3:30, there are bird noises similar to the ones at the start of TMBTE! They're incredibly subtle, but they're there. If you can't pinpoint it, there's a squeaking noise at 3:27, which is just a bird tweeting!

Rain

- From 3:55 to the end of the song, there's rain, which is obviously very fitting. Not specifically rain tapping on a rooftop, but more so rain pouring down a gutter, at least to me.

Take Me Back To Eden

- From 0:00 to 0:40, there's echoed animal noises, like if you were to stand in the middle of a rainforest. The song starts of in absolute silence, only broken by nature; not a human made noise to be heard. It's quite literally Eden. These sounds are there throughout the song, they just get much harder to hear the longer Vessel sings and the more instruments they later on top of eachother.

- At 1:42, there's either a Lion's or a Tiger's roar.

- From 3:10-3:16, there's the sound of thunder.

- A lot of the jingles you hear in The Summoning are repeated here! E.g; 3:40 and, more clearly, at 4:50 and 7:50.

- The lyrics "we were tangled up like branches in a flood; it was no accident" are direct refrences to the lyrics in Chokehold.

Euclid

- The song is 5 minutes and 13 seconds long, but Vessel only starts singing at the 13 second mark. The first lyric? "Just run it back, give me five whole minutes". We, as the listener give him five whole minutes to say what he's gotta say. Further, the song ends on the exact same piano chord that it begins with; the song, in of itself, is a loop. Anytime you play Euclid on loop, you are running it back and giving him five whole minutes. One of the reasons Euclid is my favourite (next to Aqua Regia) for this album.

- The lyrics "the night belongs to you" and "this bough is broken through" are lyrical refrences to The Nigh Does not Belong to God from Sundowning and When The Bough Breaks from One. The oldest album, and ST's first produced album.

- From 4:02 to the end of the song, a verse from The Night Does Not Belong To God is played. It completes the produced album trilogy, and, with the five stages of grief, allows for acceptance and healing. Euclid not only loops itself, but loops the three albums together. Sundowning, TPWBYT and TMBTE are an endless loop that can and will be played as many times as needed for Vessel, for you, as the listener, to heal. To accept change. To realise there's more than denial, anger bargaining and depression. And I think that, in of itself, is beautiful.

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Album Notes: Sleep Token really put their whole soul into this album huh. By far, it's the one that uses SFX the most, and rounds out Sleep Token's own genre as a whole. We see snippets of older songs used throughout the album, both lyrical refrences and actual chunks of old songs taken out and placed within other ones. 10/10, would cry to again.

Thank you for reading through all my thoughts and feelings, whoever you are. Remember, the night belongs to you; worship <3.

#THIS ONE. #TMBTE my one true love #they do a lot of linking older songs in this album #and I love it #a lot #the brainrot grows stronger each and everyday #someone said something about needing to study them under a microscope and I completely agree with that statement #the fact that Euclid loops their three main albums together kills me #like I'm dead on the floor #I'm never getting over that #I'm gonna crumble to bits when I see them live I swear #music analysis #music and lyrics #sleep token #sleep token vessel #vessel #st #sleep token tmbte #mel's rambles

[burins]

song meme

tagged by @vinelark and have been picking away at this as typing allows! I suspect this is going to look very silly because I haven't been listening to very much music lately (or when I have it's mostly been on han's Spotify in the car) mostly audiobooks

shuffle your on repeat playlist and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people

good luck babe by chappell roan - has anyone not been listening to this song? I'm so happy she's blowing up on a song that's I think legitimately one of her best. also this is a dinahbabs song if I ever heard one. which one is which? great question it's both

be the wheel by theo katzman - I think this showed up on my discover weekly? I'm actually not entirely sure. it's a bop! like most of theo katzman / vulfpeck's stuff the lyrics don't really make much sense, but it's a fun summery tune

where you lead by carole king - so the other reason that I thought this playlist might be a little bit all over the place is because I had my library program playlist on repeat for like two and a half hours on Wednesday. this is from that

what'd i say by ray charles - another one from the library program playlist! Ray Charles is making so many different sounds with his voice in the song and it's a delight

1612 by vulfpeck - This is an oldie! I put it on my crush playlist when I first started dating my spouse :)

masseduction by st vincent - I just relistened to this whole album and it's still so so good. sugarboy is another dinahbabs song

make some room by the suffers - This is a song for cooking brunch.

butterfly by jon batiste - jon batiste has such a beautiful voice

springtime by alison russell - holding you by the shoulders. listen to Alison Russell right now. Do you like harmonies? Do you like incredible vocal performances? Do you like beautiful and hard-hitting lyrics? This album got four Grammy noms and it deserved every single one of them

ameriican requiem by beyoncé - so this song did make me tear up when I first heard it omw to work. The chorus is a little... milk toast, but I am such a sucker for a big choral inflected song. also after listening to so many two-minute 45-second little tidbits of songs it is really nice to sink my teeth into something that is nearly 6 minutes long and actually grows and changes over that duration

tagging (no pressure) @timetoboldlygo @luckydicekirby @uhuraisgay @suedeuxnim @mengyao @blotthis @dancy-nrew @misspickman and anyone else who'd like to do this! if you don't use Spotify just tell me about 10 songs you've been listening to recently

#tag game

[android-anathema]

i was tagged by @scholar-of-envy and also (retroactively) @dorkichiban to post 6 songs that ive had on repeat!

Getting Sodas by the world is a beautiful place and i am no longer afraid to die (or, any song by them really. i really really like TWIABP)

1,000,000 people died to make this sound by Thee Silver Mt Zion (not zionists) (fifteen minute long song so you KNOW its good) (god i fucking love post-punk bands, this shit is so funny) (band is also known as A Silver Mt. Zion, Thee Silver Mountain Reveries and Thee Silver Mt. Zion Memorial Orchestra and Tra-La-La Band with Choir) (one of their members is also in Godspeed You! Black Emperor)

Yoshi's Island by glass beach (trans indie/emo music) (glass beach is such a good fucking band, please listen to them. their entire album plastic beach is so good too but i particularly recommend the CIA)

Your Ex Doesn't Mark Treasures by FUCKING WEREWOLF ASSO (fun fact: they were indirectly responsible for the creation of hotline miami. you can find this on wikipedia but the band isnt notable enough to themselves be on wikipedia. that's such a funny legacy to have as a musician)

Into the North Woods by Panopticon (black metal anarchists) (again, pretty much any song by them is incredible)

Battle Anal Lolita by Cheerleader Concubine (i'm sorry, this isn't even a joke. i can't stop fucking listening to this stupid band) (i couldn't get a youtube link because theyre probably not allowed on there) (self described "guro grind" artist)

Tommorow is a Trap by Street Sects (TOS friendly alternative sixth option, cool industrial music :3) (blacken the other eye is probably a more accurate choice but tomorrow is a trap is what i'm going with for other reasons) (apologies to any transfems named tomorrow that may end up reading this)

A Disclaimer To the Self by Circle Takes the Square (not a part of these six, however i desperately need more people to know about CTTS. they were a formative band for my teenage years and no one knows they exist) (their album decompositions vol 1 is really good and a bit less painful to listen to if this sounds cool to you but you want something a bit more refined) (also what the fuck is this slideshow i found for this song xD this is incredible. were all youtube videos about obscure screamo bands like this fifteen years ago?)

and um, i'm tagging... the girl reading this 😌

[bvnnyholly]

the evans and their favorite arctic monkeys album (gn!reader x the evans)

note: this only consists of tate, kit, kyle, jimmy, jpm, rory and kai— their seasons are the only ones i've watched LMAO. they're also the only ones i think would listen to the monkeys.

CAUTION: opinions, slight mentions of intercourse, mentions of being impregnated, cursing, and ahs spoilers.

tate langdon - favorite worst nightmare

-he's definitely a big fwn guy, alex turner wrote 'do me a favor' just for him I JUST KNOW IT. the album title fits him too.

-he found out about arctic monkeys through you when he was looking at your spotify playlist. he found the band name a little bit silly so he played it but to his surprise, he actually liked it.

-his favorite songs have to be brianstorm and d is for dangerous.

-he probably also like 'humbug' and 'whatever people say i am, that's what i'm not'.

kit walker - the car

-not so sure about this but considering that he works at a gas station, 'the car' kinda fits him and it also sounds kinda old and funky so i think kit would like that

-he probably listens to arctic monkeys when you play it in your record player. he wasn't really a big fan of it at first but he grew into it and the band reminds him alot about you so he really likes it now.

-his favorite song is probably 'i ain't quite where i think i am' and 'body paint'

-he also likes tranquility base hotel and casino and plays it after a long day at work

kyle spencer - whatever people say i am, that's what i'm not + humbug

pre-death

-he definitely likes wpsia and relates to it.

-he discovered it at a frat party and liked it. he probably listens to them after class. you both became friends because you also liked the monkeys.

- his favorite song has to be 'riot van', 'certain romance', and 'mardy bum'

-he also likes am because who doesn't

franken kyle

-humbug is his favorite because of how slow it is and how it's not as fast paced like the other albums.

-he listens to arctic monkeys when you play it and cuddle with him. you play it so much while you guys cuddle to the point where he associates the band with cuddling.

-his favorite songs are 'secret door' and 'cornerstone'

-he also likes tbhc because it's calm, he gets jumpscared when 'she looks like fun' plays though. he also likes 'i wanna be yours', the calm stuff basically.

jimmy darling - am

-jimmy definitely likes 'am'. his hair is also just as musty and covered in hair gel like alex in his late 'sias' and 'am' era.

-he heard 'am' through the local radio and really liked it. he sings 'r u mine?' for you in one of his performances on the freak show, and you absolutely love it.

-one of his favorites are 'do i wanna know?', 'fireside', and 'snap out of it', but absolutely despises 'why'd you only call me when you're high?' because he says "the lyrics are too real".

-jimmy stays loyal to his beloved 'am', probably because he doesn't know other albums exist, you're trying to get him into 'sias' though.

james patrick march - tranquility base hotel and casino

-james adores 'tbhc', he thinks the storytelling and the story itself is genius. but even how much he likes it, he wouldn't be caught alive listening to it (probably because he's dead).

-he first listened to the monkeys when you asked him to play something that isn't jazz. you forced him to spin one of your records, so he picked 'tbhc' because he found the title intriguing. he loves it but would never admit to you.

-'star treatment', 'one point perspective', and the title track are always on repeat for him. he thinks 'golden trunks' are the two of yous' song.

-james probably doesn't explore the arctic monkeys much, he listened to 'the car' but it was too modern for his taste.

rory monahan - suck it and see

-assuming that rory lives in california, he would definitely listen to "sias'. he also fits the album's aesthetic very well.

-you both discovered arctic monkeys at a record store. he picked 'suck it and see' as a joke and because he's a borny little shit. to his surprise, he ended up liking it though.

-'black treacle', 'piledriver waltz', and the title track are his favorites. you'd both debate on which one is better: the 'sias' version of 'piledriver waltz' or alex turner's version, he always defends the 'sias' version for some reason.

-he probably listens to the other albums but not as much as he does to 'sias'.

kai anderson - am

-he doesn't listen to 'am' that much, he doesn't listen to music that much in general. he thinks it's something sacred and should only be listened to when doing something holy, like creating a messiah with your sister through your gay boy toy twink cult member.

-he discovered 'am' through the internet, and plays it typically when he works out or attempting to "create a messiah" with you.

-he only listens to 'do i wanna know' because it's average republican behavior—he also only listens to mainstream music so like it's the only song he knows.

-as i said, mainstream music type of guy, so definitely only am.

#american horror story #evan peters #evan peters fanfic #evan peters x reader #tate langdon #tate langdon fanfic #tate langdon x reader #kit walker #kit walker fanfic #kit walker x reader #kyle spencer #kyle spencer fanfic #kyle spencer x reader #jimmy darling #jimmy darling fanfic #jimmy darling x reader #james patrick march #james patrick march fanfic #james patrick march x reader #rory monahan #rory monahan x reader #rory monahan fanfic #kai anderson #kai anderson fanfic #kai anderson x reader #ahs murder house #ahs fandom #ahs coven #ahs roanoke #ahs freakshow

[fourseasonscomeandgo]

Like Pieces Into Place.

Pairing: SNSD Tiffany x fem!reader.

Word Count: 2k

Genre: Fluff.

Tiffany's POV

After a year of postponing the long awaited comeback of the group, SNSD finally has the songs for the new album defined.

I was personally involved in this project, as I monitored and directed the recording sessions of all the members.

That's how I met y/n.

She is an exclusive producer for SM Entertainment, she started working for the company shortly after my contract ended. She has been involved in creating music for all (or most of) the active groups under SM, and worked numerous times with Taeyeon.

During the recordings I spent a lot of time with her, as we worked side by side.

Eventually, when you spend so many hours cooped up in a tiny studio, with only one person, who is kind and fun, you become friends, so y/n and I started a friendship. We would go for lunch after the sessions, sometimes even for drinks, we were always in touch, and when we had free time we would get together and hang out.

On the day of the last recording, when we called it a day, and all the people involved in this work called the album finished, y/n came up to me and confessed that she had feelings for me.

I guess you're never ready to hear that someone likes you, whether you like them back or not.

y/n is younger than me, she's 28. It's not that she's not attractive, it's not that we don't have a great time whenever we're together, and it's not that she doesn't listen to me and care for me every second. But y/n is like Seohyun, who is 31 and I still look at like she's a baby, so it's even worse with the producer, who is even younger.

"I can't be your friend, Fany, not when I want to take care of you and love you the way I want to."

"I only see you as a younger sister, y/n, sorry."

But no one tells you how hard it is to turn down someone who really loves you. Because when it's the person who cares about you the most, there's something inside you that keeps you from distancing them.

She always worries about me.

After the finishing of FOREVER1 I didn't see her much, only once or twice when we coincided because of mutual friends, until the day of the release. At the showcase she was with the other people who participated, supporting us.

I just greeted her politely, as the atmosphere between her and I has been a bit tense since she confessed to me. She rushed over and hugged me, bringing her hand to my hair and delicately moving her fingers through my forelocks. I can't deny that I sank into her scent and the warmth of her body for a second.

I just missed her presence, her friendship.

She congratulated me for my effort and dedication, reminded me how talented I am, told me she was proud of me, and so she filled my ears with beautiful words. And then she left to go greet and congratulate the other members.

I continued the event nicely, we did the interview with the press, took pictures, and when all the formalities were over, we all stayed for a little party.

I was having a good evening, but as I was walking towards the table where my colleagues were, someone bumped into me, provoking them to drop a bottle that exploded into pieces when it hit the floor, hurting my foot with the broken glass.

From the table everyone could see me. I fell to the floor, holding my ankle as if the pressure would cause it to hurt less. y/n got up from her chair and ran to me before anyone else, kneeling next to me.

"Fany! Are you okay? Let me see." She asked taking my hand to pull it away from my leg, but I refused.

"No, y/n, it's okay, don't worry." I brushed it off.

"What are you talking about? You're bleeding." She accentuated.

"I'm fine," I repeated standing up, wincing from the pain with every movement "y/n" I called, scolding her, as she put her arm around my waist and brought mine around her neck "I'm fine, really."

"Okay then, can you walk?" she pulled away from me, leaving me at my mercy.

Due to the fear of resting my foot and the pain increasing, I held it in the air, which caused me to wobble and eventually lose my balance, causing my foot to hit the ground and drawing a shriek of suffering from inside me.

"I told you." She mocked, quickly holding me again "I'm not letting go of you again, don't worry."

She gave me a flirtatious smile to which I scoffed, rolling my eyes at her. She helped me over to the table and sat me down in my seat, to go get something to disinfect the wound with and then bandage it.

"Ah, Fany-ah," Sunny spoke from the spot across from me "you are so lucky that someone like y/n loves you so much," she laughed bitterly, jokingly "god gives bread to those who have no teeth."

I let out a laugh and raised my middle finger at my best friend playfully, indicating for her to shut up. She was right, though.

y/n came back with a bag full of products from a pharmacy for my wound. She had gone out to look for somewhere open so she could heal me properly. Then she stayed with me all night, keeping me company, since I couldn't walk.

Of course I was lucky, I was conscious. You don't find someone like that every day. It just wasn't in me, those feelings weren't in me.

It was the night of the MAMA's, I had been invited as a host, and I was behind the stage, waiting with some idols who were going to perform after I presented the award I was in charge of.

y/n was a special guest of the event, as people who work behind the scenes, in the creation of the music, are sometimes even more important than the artists themselves. As a major producer who worked on almost all of the nominated projects of the night, she was there, witnessing it all.

At a certain point I turned my head and saw her appearing backstage. The aespa members were behind me, ready for their performance, and upon seeing the producer they got excited and went to her quickly, to which she welcomed them with open arms, hugging one by one.

y/n had told me before that she had a special fondness for the members of said group, so it was no wonder she had gone to greet them and give them encouragement before they went on stage.

She hadn't seen me yet, so I just watched them lovingly as they interacted, as it was a tender scene. But the more I watched the more I noticed a certain hand playing with y/n's fingers, sliding down her arm, resting on her waist. Touching y/n too much.

My y/n.

No.

Not mine.

Tiffany, what are we saying?

Karina was very close to her, being very affectionate, and the girl didn't seem to care, she was even comfortable with such displays of affection.

I don't understand, if you like one person, shouldn't you be indifferent to the flirting of others?

Maybe not.

My countenance changed to a totally serious one and there was a discomfort in my stomach and another in my chest. I simply turned my head away from the scene and assumed that the nuisance was just the nerves.

Some minutes later I felt a hand on my shoulder and as I turned, there she was, with that smile that always made me feel better. Except this time I wasn't too happy with her.

"Hey" she mumbled.

Taeyeon once mentioned that y/n had a very attractive voice. I never understood until that "hey".

I melted.

"Hey" I returned.

"How are you? Easy?" She asked, standing next to me.

"Fifty-fifty." I explained "It's been a long time since I've stood on stage at these awards," I added "but at least it's not to sing, if it was I'd sure be dying of nerves."

We both laughed, she agreed with me, and we kept doing small talk, until I asked her a question and she looked at me, but she stood amused, not answering, looking at me. Carefully, she lifted her hand and led it to my hair, to arrange it, tenderly running the tousled parts, to finally put a lock behind my ear.

"You look beautiful today, Fany."

I couldn't suppress the smile that broke out on my face, and I was going to respond, I was going to tell her that she looked beautiful too, but a voice interrupted me.

"y/n-nim!" The named looked in the direction the voice came from and her face lit up.

"Lily-ah! Haewon-ah!" She exclaimed cheerfully, going towards them and leaving me.

After that she disappeared with the two girls and I had to go up to present the award. As I went back to the audience zone, I saw that her seat was next to mine. I was happy to think that we would spend the rest of the MAMA's chatting, but I ended up disappointed, as she only interchanged a couple of words with me and then spent almost two whole hours talking to Tzuyu from Twice.

Who on top of that kept looking at her seductively and wouldn't let go of her hand.

And I thought Tzuyu was shy.

Even at the end of the ceremony we didn't meet again and I went back to my apartment sad, angry

and jealous.

Because it's true that you don't realize how much you love and need someone until you see her talking in Chou Tzuyu's ear.

I mean, until you lose them.

And that image on repeat, imagining her with someone who wasn't me, was driving me crazy.

I tried to lie down and sleep, relax.

I got up, made some tea, drank it, went back to bed.

I tossed and turned, kicked, groaned.

I got up, made myself a sandwich, ate it, tried again to rest.

Why does she have to be so perfect and friendly? Why do other people have to love her the way I should have loved her months ago when she told me she liked me?

I got out of bed, angry, for about the fifteenth time in the night. I put on some other clothes and grabbed my car keys.

It was 2:31 in the morning and I was at the door of y/n's apartment, ringing the doorbell.

The door opened, a y/n with tousled hair, in pajamas and half-open eyes appeared behind the door.

"Fany?"

I didn't even give her time to think about what I might be doing in her apartment at those hours in the morning. I threw my body to hers and grabbed her face to pull her close to me, thus being able to trap her lips between mine.

It took her a bit to react, but when she did, she put her hands on my waist and tilted her head to make it more comfortable for me. She held me tighter against her body to deepen the kiss.

For the first time something inside of me settled about her. Like a piece of my internal puzzle that I didn't know where to place, and only now do I realize that she is the only one who knows where it belongs. Those feelings were in me, they always were.

—ica.

#kpop imagines #kpop #snsd x reader #snsd imagines #snsd scenarios #snsd tiffany #tiffany imagines #tiffany scenarios #tiffany x reader

[7grandmel]

Todays rip: 25/02/2023

BELIEBERDANSEN

Season 8 No Album Release (Read More) Caramelldansen (CA Version) - Caramellagirls

Ripped by DiamondBrickZ

With Season 8 officially in gear, it means I'm going to have to play a bit of catch-up with it in terms of coverage on here! All other prior Seasons have over 30 posts each on here - you can check for yourself on the pinned post! - but Season 8 still sits at just a single one, with Joke-Explainer™ 7000 Fusion Collab. Well, today marks the second ever Season 8 post, covering its first surprise event - BELIEBERDANSEN and the Justin Bieber takeover.

The idea of cringe culture in how it relates to SiIvaGunner's history is a really fascinating topic, and one I covered back on mlp racism anthem (comix zone arrange) in pretty good detail. To summarize, there was a time early in the channel's life where a good number of the references and jokes were made in rather poor taste - where the crux of the joke was to point and laugh at the weird and different parts of the internet, to have trolled the audience with something "cringe". The feel of internet discussion has changed a lot in the years since 2016, though, and it generally feels as if we're far more accepting, more nostalgic and intrigued by the stranger parts of the internet, rather than blatantly antagonistic. Be it with "dead" memes like in Corridors of Vine and Wario's Hampster Mine, or with phenomena that are still ongoing like with Hidden Headtoilets (skibidi toree 2), the SiIvaGunner channel and community tend to take a far more...playful stance to things nowadays. If something is to be loathed in SiIvaGunner nowadays, it has to truly earn it through its presence on the channel: the Yankin'/Astronaut in the Ocean wars of Season 5, as talked about in Aquarium in the Ocean and Knowledge of the Depths are the clearest example of that.

With all of that in mind, I don't really know why I was still surprised over how much fun the Justin Bieber event wound up being! The event, on February 19, 2024, celebrated the 14th anniversary of Justin Bieber's infamous release "Baby", a song that lit early internet ablaze with exaggerated vitriol way back when. And yeah, a bit of that resentment could still be seen in the comments section - its a fair bit more justified given how much Bieber himself has changed since the song - but overall, the rips made during the event all put a really fun spin on this otherwise overplayed song! I recommend you all give the event a listen if you haven't been keeping tabs this month, but BELIEBERDANSEN is really just one pick amidst a plethora of other excellent ones. That, and as said in Caramariodansen - any song mashed up with Caramelldansen is bound to become funny.

Honestly though, it wasn't a blind pick, and I may just be a little bit biased toward the aforementioned song in particular. Caramelldansen, if you weren't aware, is a Nightcore-ified version/remix of a Swedish pop song - and I, Mel, the writer of this blog, am Swedish. That draws me to any Caramelldansen rip on its own, and the concept of BELIEBERDANSEN alone is just very funny, a mashup of two absolute juggernauts of early "obnoxious" internet culture. Yet ripper DiamondBrickZ went the extra mile beyond just making this a mashup - at the point where the choruses of both songs begin, Bieber's Baby vocals are sentence-mixed to the original Swedish vocals of Caramelldansen. I of course have no idea what the creative process behind this was, especially due to the not knowing much about DiamondBrickZ as a person, but as a Swedish listener myself I have to say: This is SHOCKINGLY well done and still sounds wholly legible as Swedish speech. Like, the rest of the mashup is great: I love the use of the repeated "Baby's" almost acting as a choir during the instrumental break after the chorus, and the use of Ludacris' feature during the midway point of the song is perfectly placed, but like...the sentence mixing genuinely caught me completely off guard in the best way possible - memories of Season 1's double-rugpull in Be Cool, Be Wild, and Be My Girl came flowing back. It's just the cherry on top of an already fantastically creative mashup idea that was excellently done, and turned BELIEBERDANSEN into the absolute highlight of the event for me.

#todays siivagunner #season 8 #siivagunner #siiva #tentative rip name #DiamondBrickZ #Youtube #caramelldansen #caramella girls #nightcore #justin bieber #justin bieber baby #early internet #2000s internet #cringecore #cringe culture is dead

[branches-in-a-flood]

make a musical rainbow🌈 pick one song for each color of the rainbow. you can assign them however you choose: color in the title, a song that seems to be that color, etc. there are no rules other than you need a song for red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo & violet 🖤

Em I am kissing you for this! What a beautiful idea.

Red: Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge. I think the album is red, but tell me this song isn't red. I also think every playlist should include an unhealthy BDSM reference. (We're starting out strong. And by that I mean bizarre and unhinged.) For anyone reading, if you somehow haven't heard this song, DO IT.

Orange: Malleus Maleficarum by AFI. This song is absolutely burnt orange to me (honestly the whole Black Sails in the Sunset album has orangey tones). Then again:

Breathe in the life of summer's death as the orange and red breathe their first breath,

So welcome as they're burning through. We all begin to burn.

Autumn's flame dances in my eyes - Set alight for all we've learned.

Is a little hard to think of as any other color.

Bonus lore for this song - I think "My skin is singed but it heals my heart" is going to be my next tattoo. For reasons.

Yellow: 💛 Black and Yellow 💛 by Wiz Khalifa. (Boo no yellow text option) Pittsburgh is one of my favorite American cities. And being an ardent Penguins fan in the 2010s, I heard this song way more than once XD I don't have much to add about it from there lol

Green: Solringen by Wardruna. The birdsong helps, and the song itself is. Kind of about summer and then the passage of time? It feels like growing trees to me, and community happiness while you can still grasp it.

Blue: Atlantic would be the easy answer. So instead of that I'm going to say December by Seven Lions and Davey Havok (and yes, 2015 Flood nearly died when they saw this collab.) It's a fairly chill song from Seven Lions, and Davey just has such a blue feeling to his smoother vocals. "It's growing colder. Will you remember to fall like the snow, holding me close? Bring me winter my dear December." Ugh and the instruments all falling out of key at the end. What a song.

Indigo: 🔵Indigo Children🔵 by Puscifer. Obvious title correlation. Not much more to say about it (it isn't my favorite Puscifer song, but it's not an unpleasant listen.)

Violet: Bittersweet by Apocalyptica, Ville Valo, and Lauri Ylönen. I can be easily convinced this song is a cold purple color based solely on vibes. Commonly a song I'll play on repeat for an entire day, but then forget about for a few years because emotions are hard and I prefer to ignore them.

We're my answers all over the map enough? Feels like we still stuck in the alternative section a good bit. This was actually tons of fun and had me listening to all kinds of things to find the right colors for songs!

#politemagic #music rambles #flood will talk about music forever