#i need to do better

[bwunnishit]

#~ : ୨୧ :~ broadcasting now! #needy streamer overload #needy streamer overdose #needy girl overdose #nso #kangel #nso kangel #how i feel about everything lmaoo #i need to do better #if i wanna get anywhere #i dont feel like im doing enough #lol #<3

[lesbiangiratina]

Testament has the 6th largest character page on the wiki i need to do better

#losing to sol and ky makes sense thats natural. asuka yeah sure. potemkin and anji just have sections testament is missing. #I NEED TO DO BETTER #the kat goes meow

[yowlthinks]

Some mornings I wake up and want to cry. I am exhausted, it is quarter to six and I would love to keep sleeping but my toddler is awake and full of energy so I slog downstairs, leaving everyone else to sleep. This happens every single day with the variety being the actual wake-up: sometimes it is earlier, sometimes I can even get to a little past 6. Sometimes I get up through the night too...

I deal with the evenings too, of course, and on weekends I am mostly there too. And I know children are only this small for a short period of time, and I enjoy spending time with them.

But I am also approaching critically low battery level. I need some sort of downtime, but at home, because I have so much stuff to do. But my days start with getting the kids ready, then work and then immediately dealing with kids again, there is hardly any downtime, and it is taking a toll on me and my health. Like physical health: I can see I look bad, and ai am somehow gaining weight, while I need to loose 20kg to feel myself, to like myself again.

The problem is, I don't know how to rebalance it all. I want to go to the gym, but by the time the kids are down and the key chores are done it is 9pm or even later, and I am exhausted, and operating on 5h of sleep is not easy. I am underslept, so my willpower is not great and I crave carbs (which is probably where the problems start).

I try to make sure my partner gets enough sleep, if I am already awake, what is the point of waking up someone else. I feel like I need to somehow plan time specifically to myself, but then... well, it is not very fair, is it? There are times when I take one or the other child to classes, so my partner is looking after the other. It is not like he is having some free time exactly, so I feel bad asking for time just by myself.

I am trying to figure out why I need this and my partner doesn't. I mean, he has the office commute, I wfh. He seems to be ok, while I am on the verge of tears and feel totally out of it. And the problem is, the more tired I am, the less I delegate and the more I try to crawl through it, what happens is that I try to withdraw more, which means others take more space, which means I feel cornered. It's a viscious circle, and I am trying to remember what the therapist said before they stopped my sessions nearly 2 years ago. The little recharging breaks like watching even half an episode of a series at lunchbreak come to mind. But my lunchbreaks lately are... well, taken over by work or I feel too guilty or too impatient, I have no idea why.

Many people here in NL take a 4 day week with a paycut (and less holidays), spend one more day with their kids instead of taking them to daycare or aftershock care. I feel like I have no capacity for this, with an already super-tight budget and the bare minimum of holidays, and already giving the kids all my spare time. I know a lot of people have it way harder, and I have no idea how you guys are doing this.

#i need to do better #i can do better #i just don't know how #personal

[beautifulheartandspirit]

I hate myself I feel the sadness coming

Things will be different this time

I got a my 1st real job. Start march 11.

I hate myself inside

#i’m sick and tired #athens #greek tumblr #me #I need to do better #life is hard and confusing #mental battle #self sabotage #tw self destructive behavior #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #tw mental health #mental health #personality disorder #actually eupd #eupd

[classycookiexo]

#honestly #i need to do better #sweets

[prettyboywoll]

I have some of my moots notifications on so I could try to interact with them more but just end up clearing them off my phone

#a speaks #i need to do better #lol

[junnieverse]

I have been so busy with babysitting and not to mention I've been fixating on Bada Lee as of recently, I've hit a writer's block wall, for that reason I have closed my requests and put a halt on my wips too. (and my dm replies are extremely slow too, so sorry)

I ask for your understanding everyone, love you all and please make sure you guys eat and drink plenty of water too.

#junnieverse.msg #sigh #i need to do better #no thoughts head empty #only #bada lee #brainrot moment #i can't even be delusional about my other biases because of her #she is my hyperfixation

[mortonsalts]

John Turturro in Quiz Show (1994)

+ bonus

#this post should be my sign that i'm in too deep #too bad i can't read #john turturro #quiz show #honestly there's not enough dead tooth here #i need to do better #if you dont love him at his dead tooth you dont deserve him at his alive girl #but his performance here was certainly a Choice i'll say that #the gif sizes required to contain him are poetically large #op

[homeless202]

✨️👁✨️👁✨️

#i tried to pick the most genuine ones #there's more shiny eye panels but most are when he's trying to trick ppl /telling a lie #i'm sorry guys i claim to be a no home blog but in reality i'm an eunyung baek fanblog #i need to do better #no home #no home manhwa #집이 없어 #webtoon #eunyung baek #lil bibs

[shaniacsboogara]

haven't been posting a ton because anxiety's been acting up, hoping to be back on my bullshit soon!!!

dropping some (mostly unfinished) dnd sketches i've been working on in the meantime because character design is fun and helps me chill out :)))

Marscha Squabblestone, halfling barbarian. Has a mace bigger than her head, a Russian accent, and a passion for getting into fistfights with bears. She's extremely honest, especially when she shouldn't be, and has an overall cheery demeanor. She drew the little bear tattoo on her arm by herself. It was supposed to look scary, but... She isn't exactly an artist.

Figgriffin "Fig" Boldebort, a half-orc warlock with an Archfey patron. Just started working on his backstory, but he's very much a crystal bitch, a free spirit and is honestly a pretty chill dude. Does he know a ton about his patron??? No. He's just going with the flow. Vibing, if you will. He grew up with his human mother (a very eccentric Professor Trelawney type, an icon truly) in a cozy little commune / village and had a good childhood (I DIDN'T TRAUMATIZE HIM I DESERVE AN AWARD)

"Buggs" Templeton, tiefling artificer. He DOES have childhood trauma, and a shit ton of it. His mom was shitty so he ran away and was taken in by this nice clockmaker guy (kinda like Geppetto from Pinocchio) who ended up giving him his nickname. (Yes Buggs is his nickname. No you don't get a real name reveal 😈). He has a tiny little mechanical dragon companion named Pal, which he built after learning he had a passion for engineering by helping out in the clockmaker's shop. He is also autistic because I say so. And he's aroace.

Salxire (aka "Sal"), tiefling rogue, sort of a crime boss or something. Somehow the Newsies soundtrack inspired him??? Idk boogers, Boog's mind works in mysterious ways. It's taken me AGES to figure out a design for him so this sketch is MONUMENTAL (although I do want to draw a better version for his actual proper reference in the future). Anyway he has a burn scar on his face from that one time his childhood house caught on fire and yeah he's a goober.

If you Boogers or moots want more DnD infodumping I have a TON more characters (these aren't even the ones I've been playing in my campaign lmao) and a lot more to talk about for these sillies so yeah

Keep on boogieing 💕

#average boog post #dungeons and boogons #dnd #my ocs #not even an aurelian sketch damn #and he's my guy #i need to do better #holy shit i should infodump to you about my ships for them i- #no boog conceal don't feel

[shoheiakagi]

How do each of the boys get together with their girls in the band au? Is it sudden or just a kind of natural getting together? Do they make it public or hide it from their fans?

Y’know, i think the boys wouldn’t really mind making their relationships public (although Kusanagi would probably have their heads cause there goes like 45% of their fandom who were extremely delusional about them). But they have to keep it private for their girls’ sake, since fans are more tough on female idols for dating since it’s a threat to their delusions

Dewa/Miyako:

I hate to say this, but we got a woman chasing a man with this couple 🤦‍♀️ Its not that Miyako is desperate to get Dewa’s attention. she just hates how he forms his initial judgement on her based on her idol persona, and isn’t willing to get to know her because of that. Dewa doesn’t really want anything to do with some rich girl who paid her way into the music industry, and thinks Miyako lack depth as a person. As someone who’s used to getting whatever she wants with no issue, she finds herself trying to soften up this delinquent who looks down at her for using her privilege to her advantage. They finally get together when Dewa eases up on Miyako and realizes that despite her being spoiled rotten, she genuinely cares about others and that she is a lot smarter than he gives her credit for. He will never reveal this out loud, but he does find himself mesmerized by Miyako’s looks and laugh when she’s not paying attention.

Chitose/Izumi:

Chitose and Izumi are the second couple to get together, but unlike Shohei and Sakuno, they strictly remain as friends with benefits, ignoring any lingering feelings they may have. they’re pretty quick to get in bed together, since izumi’s initial hostility quickly fades away, along with her loyalty to maria. they get revealed in the messiest way possible, at least for a female idol like izumi. the paparazzi gets an anonymous tip, which leads them to secretly camp around chitose’s apartment for a week. izumi was careless and managed to get caught entering and leaving chitose’s apartment during multiple nights. with her leaving chitose’s apparent in the same outfit she wore hours earlier, it was pretty obvious what they were doing (the messy hair and smudged makeup didnt help either). izumi gets more backlash than chitose. not only is she a pop idol with a delusional fanbase who wanted to believe that she was innocent and single, but people were quick to realize that she’s fucking the same guy who broke her friend’s heart 😬

Bandou/Kaoru:

Its a slowburn 300k enemies to lovers fic with these two. Bandou makes it known that he would get with any of the other girls, but not Kaoru. If anything, I can see Bandou crushing on another member while he kept bickering with Kaoru, which adds some potential angst here! But like a lot of the pairs here, they both end up becoming friends before even thinking of any potential relationship. After all the countless arguments and insults, they both are a little awkward at first, averting eye contact, giving each other random compliments, and just being decent people. Once they get out of their awkward phase, they’re quick to bicker again, but this time its more friendly jokes. Bandou tries to get Kaoru to set him up with other girls (including some of her members), and Kaoru would purposely set him up on blind dates with some ugly or extremely shallow girls she happens to know. Its only when bandou goes on a serious date with a pretty girl he gets along with, Kaoru starts to feel a type of way. At first she shrugs it off when he’s cancelling their hang outs to go on dates, cause shes used to them failing miserably and him coming back to her so that he can vent. but when he starts ditching her all the time, she gets pissed and yells at him for ignoring their friendship. But even when he gives her enough time, she still feels weird whenever the topic of that new girl comes up. Meanwhile, bandou is confused. He finally found a pretty girl that likes him and his weird personality! But something feels off, and he can’t help but feel that he’s missing someone. Only when she gets an aggressive confidence boost from yata, does kaoru try intervening between bandou and his new girl, obnoxiously playing the “girl best friend” card. Kaoru is the one who makes the call in the relationship, so similar to dewa and miyako, their relationship is kept private

Shohei/Sakuno:

While they are the first to get together, they didn’t get into a relationship right away. It starts off with a mutual attraction at first sight, to shouhei chasing after sakuno as she tries to stay away, to them falling into a situationship and becoming friends with benefits, to finally getting into a relationship. Before their relationship gets exposed, some fans notice small hints such as sakuno wearing an oversized jacket on a night out with her girlfriends that look a little too similar to the iconic jacket shouhei wore to an award show. or how they seem to have been at the same place, but different times, according to their instagram posts. some people even notice from their ig posts that they even seem to hang with the same group of people. But none of these were made to a big deal by anyone other than those who shipped them and would over analyze their every move. They wanted to remain private, but were forced to go public to remove some steam from Chitose and Izumi.

#tyyy for the ask!! #ngl im so bad cause it took me a while to come up something with dewa/miyako and bandou/kaoru 😭😭 #i need to do better #ask #chickadeedeedeedee #celeb au

[boudicca]

it is so humbling when i go to reblog a post like #MEEE!!! and the person i'm reblogging from tagged it as gansey

#i need to do better #p

[sluttysaph]

Who are your celebrity crushes? Mommies you'd let ruin you any day 🌸

mhmm, lets see. jennifer lawrence for sure. anne hathaway, emma stone, taylor swift, zendaya, margot robbie, alexandra shipp, all the girls from skam.. theres so many😭

#and also the one and only man louis tomlinson #i just realised like all of these are white women #i need to do better #these are also the only one i could at least remember half of the name #i dont remember names at all #they can RUIN me #asks

[twelverriver]

2002 for the movies ask!💕

thank you ellie💕 real answer is ofc the jack black spiderman special with sarah michelle gellar as wonder woman in it <3

ok just kidding djfjd it's actually two weeks notice with hugh grant and sandra bullock !! it's iconic what can i say i am a romcom girlie at heart

#i've got mail💌 #honestly i thought i watched more movies of 2002 but it was just a handful :/ #i need to do better #ellie tag

[sortagaysortahigh]

My toxic trait is having several wips that i did not finish w the same reader in the same general universe that i absolutely refuse to get rid of bc i cannot be normal ab said reader. She’s damn near an oc atp with her prominent ass nickname bc i spent the past few months working thru my writing to stray away from using Y/N as much and trying to go back to second person pov. But i kept running into the same issues i have w third person pov bc i feel like instead of constantly using he or she related pronouns (bc dont even get me started on the struggle i had qhen working on gn third person fics EVEN THO IM RUCKING NONBINARY JFC) i feel like i use the word you too many times, mind you as a person who lives laughs and loves reading and the world of literature (and who doesnt really enjoy first person pov) I UNDERSTAND THT IN THIRD PERSON PRONOUNS ARE USED QUITE OFTEN JUST LIKE SECOND PERSON RELIES ON YOU AND OTHER 2ND PERSON POV PRONOUNS in my head i think i overse them all and have to constantly delete and rewrite wips.

This is why i havent posted any real writing guys. Yk life does kind of get in the way as well but during my designated writing time, instead of yk finishing my fucking wips, im rewriting them and tweaking out over them, then starting new wips and continuing the never ending cycle

All this to say. Sunshine my beloved i will never give you up and one day ill acc post these fics w you aka my secretly optimistic, emotionally damaged sarcastic and cunty reader </3

#crying in the club #i NEED TO DO BETTER #someone come smack me

[buggyandthebartoclub]

WAIT I CAN PINPOINT WHAT IVE BEEN DOING IN MY ART THATS BEEN DRIVING ME CRAZYYYYYYY FUNALLY YEAH BUDDY

Okay… fixing it tho… >:(((( will rage myself through it …. Jk not good plan… should be easy w myself but!!!!

That’s hard! lol!

#trying too hard for clear definition right away…. need to start softer #use softer brushes #built up the definition and sharpness last #I’ve been doing it in reverse making it sharp and defined and adding in softness and and smoothing it out #listen being self taught is hard #I also have to watch some videos on composition #I need to do better #and make better bgs