#i thought i'd make a whole post about it

[skeletoninthemelonland]

😭😭

#BEHIND THE CODES SPRINGTRAP NOOO #Hi. im posting this here during a break from studying. i'll be back soon though #:] #i plan on making some springdad au animations in the future to better my skills #working on the au helped me get through some stuff irl and honestly im not ready to let go of it so soon #i'd say its different from the aftons suburb one. i had lost interest in it when it became some sort of shitpost #there is nothing wrong in having 'shitpost aus' but ig its not how i wish to view things #i do like ephemeral stuff #things that last for a while and that make you think 'woah. im glad i had the opportunity to see this' are always my favorite #aftons suburb was one of these cases #springdad au is going through the same path. but i trully believe theres more content to come from it #oh and about BTC? #i took a break from it. its been two or three months since that folder was last opened (and if i did open it. i didnt do anything) #its relatively hard to come up with good dialogs when theres also a need to comprehend how different characters express themselves #especially when said characters are older than you. or smarter than you in some way #some of them speak louder. while others will speak through their actions #thought i had to grow up a bit more to understand how these things work. #turns out. that mindset was blocking the whole creative process #anyway. its going to take a while #thank you for your patience

[the-real-list-of-ominous-threats]

I will make your weird masochist friend call you a tsundere and beg for you to hit him

#read the tags #this is entirely my own fault #i am very aggressive and use threats in real life just like i do on here #and to be fair i kept doing it after i found out because i crave chaos #i mean the whole situation is objectively really fucking funny so here we are #tw kink mention #figured I'd better mention that just in case #adam if you did decide to make a tumblr and follow me then uhhhh #sorry lol #i'm threatening people with you now because that's just how it goes #mod lore #(i feel so weird typing that but also i think it's an objectively funny tag) #(haha. i have lore.) #lizzy is going to see this and laugh at me #my friends know about this blog if they ever check it I'm never gonna hear the end of this one #because of the tags not because of the post itself #like to be fair i did once choke him to make him shut up. in hindsight i have no idea why i thought that was a good idea

[loppiopio]

in water, fleas will drown.

#durarara #izaya orihara #shizuo heiwajima #shizaya #a cheap imitation #i made a thing #for chapter 44 #hwaaaaaagh #special thanks to @stray-tori for massively helping me out with the poses for me to redraw from #also for shading the character art!! and for generally enabling me :) #the idea came to me all of sudden weeks before but i didn't think it'd be that funny to anyone other than me #but i told tori about the idea out of context and she thought it was funny so #but yeah what a grueling sprint this was #i made a whole deal about it on twitter lol #“two days from now i will share the best marketing you've ever seen except it's also a spoiler.” #“read or ruin. make your choice.” #and gave myself 48 hours from that point to grind my ass out on this #also my friends were supposed to read the chapter before i posted it #i'd done some gradual work on it leading up to that but a loooot of what you are seeing in that video was busted out in those 48 hours #or at least the last 24 hours lol #in true aci fashion i fucked around and did nothing for the whole first day 💀 #it was a struuuuggle to get this done but i knew if i didn't finish it that day then it would never get done #i'm super happy with how it turned out though :D #especially with how absolutely dogshit garbage it looks all crunched up to hell and back #tbh the hardest part was drawing (redrawing) shizuo and izaya i am so painfully slow at drawing #the compositing and absolutely fuuuuucking up the quality of it was a long process but really fun for me actually #the most effort i've put into a marketing so far #we're not done yet though idk if i can do anything of this calibre again but who knows #oh btw thank you thank you anyone who tags my stuff it gives me much smile thank you

[indilaras]

Silly lil self-indulgent Genshin Self Insert!

Geo Catalyst 4 Star

Constellation: Tigris

Born and raised in Sumeru, graduated from Haravatat, and then fucked off to Inazuma (before the Vision Hunt Decree) and became a Light Novel illustrator

She lost her Vision during the Hunt Decree and took a long time to recover even after it's retrieved

Canon connections include Alhaitham (old classmate; acquaintance), Yoimiya (friend!), the Arataki Gang (...friends?), and Kirara (acquaintance; delivers packages to her family in Sumeru often). Knows of Calx, Zhenyu, Yae, and Nilou but doesn't know them personally

ID: drawing of the artist's self insert drawn to resemble a Genshin Wish art. The self insert is a brown-skinned woman, holding a dark green sketchbook by her waist while her other hand makes a clawing gesture. Her eyes are brown with gold pupils; she is wearing rectangular glasses, and she has a pencil tucked behind her ear peeking out of her headscarf. Her outfit includes a light orange headscarf with the flowing back fabric patterned in tiger stripes; a pale green baggy-sleeved top with a long orange vest and a soft green belt over it; dark green fingerless gloves reaching her elbows and long pants of the same color; orange shoes with pointed tips; and a brown bag with colorful charms on it. Her Geo vision is a brooch on her chest. Behind her are textured brushstrokes in yellow depicting three claws and an eye; a similar "splashing" effect springs out from one foot. Around her are dark wisp effects, similarly textured. End ID.

#my art #genshin impact #genshinsona #genshin self insert #genshin #genshin oc #(of sorts?) #sumeru #inazuma #image description #long post #help it was a joke but then i thought the design was pretty neat so i finished it #i don't plan on doing much with her except maybe do more drawings and talk about like. her hangout quest and voicelines in the future #stickers/idle sketches would be neat... hangout ending illustrations are a different beast tho #do i make this into my new pfp... i'd have to change the whole blog's color scheme again if i do #[Genshin SI: Indira] #<- tag for anything related to her

[birdmenmanga]

@raventhekittycat

hi okay so I've been mulling this one over for the past day or two and I think I have the answer. not to be using hamburger to explain anything to an american but you're my detco mutual so I'm going to try and explain it in detco terms

There's a post going around recently about how if you've read detco and only detco, the first time hakuba shows up you're going to be totally flummoxed, because damn this guy is clearly important, he gets to be even cooler than Shinichi, he's got a half-page shot of him (in such a panel-dense series such as Detective Conan, no less!!) and he's got a fucking hawk. he's CLEARLY important. everything about the narrative is indicating that you need to PAY ATTENTION to hakuba and that he's the coolest guy and he's important!!!! and then he dies in the case lol (not for real. but still.)!! and you're like huh??? what was that. why did aoyama do that.

But with the context of magic kaito this totally makes sense. He's a beloved character that people have been waiting decades to see again. Of course Aoyama is going to hype him up!! It's his big moment after years of being locked in the backrooms!!!

Anyways reading birdmen for me was kind of like that. The author's previous series, Kekkaishi, was pretty one-dimensional at the beginning, and even after the main plot started picking up at around volume 6, it still felt quite understandable. I knew what she was trying to get at, and the spectacular job she did with the anthropocene and climate change metaphor towards the end of that series really made me interested in the rest of her works. That and the way she writes familial relationships is absolutely DEVASTATING. (I mean this with the highest of praise)

But when I read BIRDMEN for the first time, I was probably in... middle school, maybe? And I read it, sure, but I didn't get it. I could see what was literally happening on the page but the narrative choices were absolutely baffling at times. Why skip over the entire part of the plot where they figure out who the birdman that saved them was? She blatantly doesn't care about that. What does she care about then?? I knew I didn't get it, I knew there were parts of it that were important and I couldn't figure out why and THAT'S how it dug its pretty little claws into me. Even after I finished catching up it nagged at me a little bit, not often at all, but enough that every once in a while I go, huh, right, that was a thing, let me go read it again.

For the record this type of story haunting has happened to me twice. First time was the Heart of Thomas, second time was BIRDMEN. I think the thing is that these are both stories which are not what other people say they are and I think I came into both of these stories with a misconception, trying to look too hard for things that weren't important and therefore missing the things that were.

Because sure, BIRDMEN is about mental illness. Yeah, it's about an evil scientific organization growing mutants in a lab. Yeah, it's about what it means to leave your humanity behind. That's all technically correct, on a surface level, and the fandom at large likely agrees with these takes for the most part, but in my opinion none of that really delves into what the thematic messaging of the story is about.

There are cryptic conversations about authority and human extinction and peculiar outfit and ability choices. You can tell these choices weren't made to serve the purpose of "writing exciting shonen manga" because that was what she did for the most part in Kekkaishi and you can tell she wasn't putting her whole pussy into doing that here. So what was she doing? What's like. All of this. Waves my hands at this.

The short answer is that it's really about the interplay between capitalism (represented by humanity) and communism (represented by birdmen), and explores the role institutional white supremacy (EDEN) plays in enforcing capitalism. It is ALSO about queer liberation and the importance of community, but hey, that double-stacks conveniently with the communism metaphor.

But also take this opinion of mine with a grain of salt. As far as I know I'm the only one who really truly deeply believes that it is not only AN interpretation of the work, but one that was fully intended by the author.

So basically, I like it, because I think it says something true and beautiful that I also believe in, even if I didn't have the words for it the first time I read it. But I don't really think that's what people really look for in a media recommendation.

Do I like it? Yes, I love it. Will I recommend it to others? Yeah, sure. But do I think it's deeply flawed? Yeah, absolutely. It's flawed in the same ways as The Witch from Mercury— a rushed ending, too many threads that were opened and never tied together. The pacing and characterization is perfect in the beginning, and too rushed at the end. There are prerequisites you basically HAVE to read in order to understand the story (tempest for G-Witch and the communist manifesto for birdmen). I think a truly good story wouldn't have any of these things so if people don't like it I never blame them.

It's my personal experiences that make birdmen so profound to me. If you are not queer I just don't think Eishi coming out as a birdman to his mom will hit the same, just as an example. Sorry that I wasn't the kid you wanted me to be. I know you love me and you just want the best for me and that's why you're so controlling, because you think I can be saved by conforming to societal expectations. But I can't live like that. I can't be like that. And that's why I must go. etc.

Aesthetically I do love birdmen a lot. If I had to describe it in a few words it would probably be "chilling", "beautiful", and "powerful", which nicely coincides with the type of things I personally like to draw. It's also silly to a small degree but it's so serious and I know Tanabe can be way way way funnier (read kekkaishi for this. kekkaishi and hanazakari no kimitachi he were foundational to my sense of sequential art humor) so that's not really the standout trait of this series.

I can't let it go because I'm chewing this series like a bone. And it's taking me years but I am getting that sweet sweet marrow. By god. We are on year 3 of this shit and I am GOING to understand this series. and I'm going to make 3 video essays about it

#just thinking thoughts... #stray bird thoughts #so it's like... I don't like it because birdmen is good #I think I like it because I am a certain type of person and the author was trying to say something specifically to the type of person I am #OH #I'M THE TARGETED AUDIENCE THATS WHY I LIKE IT. #YEAH THATS REALLY IT!!! #A long time ago I said that birdmen wasn't written for the people who read it at the time it serialized. #it was written for the people they would become. #and I stand by that 100% #if it really stays with you there is going to be a reason even if you can't articulate it yet #and it may APPEAR sloppy to someone who doesn't see the queer or communist metaphor #like 'what is she doing what is she saying here she's not saying anything meaningful and emphasizing the wrong things' #but that sort of presumes she is gunning to make 'the best shonen manga ever' #which she clearly isn't. #I remember when I was reading fma with a bunch of my classmates and I'd lend them a volume or two every day #and a piece of feedback I received that has stuck with me was 'volume 15 was so boring' #(that was the volume recounting the ishval civil war. it was boring because we were middle schoolers and didn't REALLY get it.) #and like. I think to people who are looking for something like kks. the whole thing is going to feel like fma volume 15 #like WHAT is she going on about? ? ? #like witch hat and dunmesh I think are similar types of stories but I think these two are just executed way better than bm #but because of that it is just not as compelling to me you know. #like yeah yeah it's well constructed. we all see it's well constructed. #the metaphor is so well constructed that I don't feel the need to point it out. everyone is saying it already you know #but bm is cryptic enough and just slightly missed that execution enough that I feel like I'm pulling the analysis out of a smoking wreckage #recently I've been watching mentourpilot videos about airplane accidents and like. that's exactly it. #there's nothing to say about a perfectly executed flight. #it's the ones that failed. and in particular the ones that just barely failed by a little bit. that compels people the most. #cue my de communism is failure post. bc that bm sure did fail.

[laesas]

did you ever make a post about pete not liking tankhun ? i know you mentioned it a few times in your tags but i don't remember seeing a post. (i share your opin ions.)

I definitely toyed with the idea of meta or a gifset but I didn't ever make a full post! I love unrequited love and I ESPECIALLY love the extremely rare platonic version which Tankhun and Pete absolutely nail in my opinion!

There are loads of moments where Pete's smile drops around Tankhun very quickly, or he insults Tankhun behind his back. Instead of laughing things off like Arm and Pol, he almost has a wincing fear-response to Tankhun, which we don't really see at all from the other bodyguards.

I think that Tankhun likes to think of himself as being close friends with his bodyguards, and he does genuinely show a lot of open affection for Pete and eventually concern for his safety. But I think ultimately for Pete, Tankhun is just a part of Pete's job, and over time resentment has built up until he thinks of Tankhun as one of the *worst* parts of it. I definitely don't think he resents Tankhun enough to hurt or endanger him, but that's about as far as it goes, there's certainly very little love there.

Something about that dynamic is just particularly brilliant, especially when combined with Pete's eventual defection from Tankhun's side to Vegas'. He chooses a man who has beaten and tortured him over a man who showers him in affection and throws parties on his return.

I utterly adore Tankhun but I think as a character that's grown up in a gilded cage, he doesn't really understand that what Pete needs is a sense of his own autonomy rather than being dragged to "fun" "lets cheer up Pete" parties that Tankhun has demanded on his behalf. At least with Vegas he *chose* to go back, he handed Vegas the ropes, let him lock him back up again. Even before he develops feelings for Vegas, Pete has clearly felt like a subhuman pet for Tankhun and the main family for a long, long time and I think ironically Vegas acknowledging Pete's humanity is the tipping point for him.

I think even without their nascent romantic love as a factor, Pete would always choose Vegas. Because despite the threat of suffering, he offers a sense of freedom that Tankhun's gilded cage does not. It all makes for an incredibly interesting betrayal, and makes Pete choosing Vegas over Tankhun all the more pointed. By choosing to be Vegas' pet, he chooses to be human.

#I have had this gifset concept rattling round my brain since before I even learned to make gifs #if I didn't have so many complicated feelings about Pete after the whole Build situation I'd make it in a heartbeat tbh #my worry is that it would either be taken as a ''hating on Pete'' set and I'd get mad shit for it in my inbox #(despite it being one of my fave facets of his character) #or it would be interpreted as a ''Build's acting appreciation!'' post which tbf it kinda would be. #theres no getting away from the fact that he shaped Pete into a very interesting and nuanced character #but you wouldn't catch me dead making a ''Captain Jack Sparrow appreciation'' set even if I loved POTC as much as KPTS yknow? #like theres only so much distance I can split the character from the actor. which sucks bc Pete as a character was one of my favourites #idk. probably not the ideal answer lol #my first instict was to just make the set since it was all planned out from like december #but since January my love for Pete as a character has mostly been in a little box on a high shelf that I do not ever touch. which is sad #but it is what it is ig #anyway lol 👀 #tankhun theerapanyakul #pete kp #tankhun kp #kp meta #ask #anon #watch me deliberately not putting that shit in the pete tag out of fear #anyway back on the high shelf you go little pete feelings. lets go back to simply not acknowledging u once more lol 🥲✨ #goddamn I deliberately hadnt thought about him in months but now I kinda miss Pete... :( I love this ask though thank u for sending it! 🦔✨ #damn rereading this its like girl. do you have an unrequited love for commas?? fucking use them?? :) anywaY #kpts

[chiarrara]

I don't know I just feel like....

We just watched a man self-immolate in his military uniform. And I don't want to sound like an idiot, because it's much more than this but, couldn't you say that was a very extreme form of conscientious objection?

He could not be complicit anymore, but there is literally no way out of being complicit in this genocide if you live in America. For him especially, being trapped in military service. But for all of us. All of us are trapped in complicity in some way, and we can try to counteract that sin with as much meaningful direct action as we can possibly do, but all of that action comes with some proportional level of risk.

So, a man burned himself alive in an extreme form of conscientious objection (the only form available to him - one of great violence)

And people are still on here telling people to suck it up and vote for Biden.

I just... maybe I'm really stupid and I just can't see the logic y'all are putting forward. Because the way you lay it out it all seems to make so much sense to you. I understand we're trapped in a two party system. I understand the Republicans don't have the same consciences we do and are gonna vote en masse for Trump. I understand Trump is a danger globally and domestically. I understand all that, and I don't want his second term to come to pass. I'm not ignorant of how dangerous he is.

But a man self-immolated to object to the system of complicity he's trapped in, and the most logical response y'all have to a bunch of people wanting to opt out of complicity in this election, and the next four years of horrors that will be done in their name is to tell them, you just have to suck it up and be complicit. Your only tool is to make a phone call. You can try to protest, but there's a non-zero chance you'll be beaten and arrested and have your life ruined, by the way. You can donate to try and put a bandaid on the horrors you're seeing through your phone screen everyday (and you should, but God it's sure not stopping anything). But you're not allowed to object to being complicit in the selection of the Genocider-In-Chief.

It's not going to stop the genocide. We know this. It's not going to stop the election. We know this. It's not going to change anything directly, and Trump is going to get elected (which he will either way. most people who would vote against him are doing it anyway, y'all are fighting a very very small online minority).

But a man self-immolated in his military uniform. He didn't think that act was going to directly stop aid from going to Israel, or stop the genocide, or destroy the US military industrial complex. He didn't think his one small (but extremely brave and impactful) act was going to solve everything. Everything that was going to happen is still going to happen just with one less man in uniform.

But it wasn't nothing. It didn't do nothing. It's not his fault that the military will keep on chugging. It's not his fault that things are getting worse in Gaza every day. But he's not complicit anymore and he sent a message. And he had to die to achieve that.

And y'all are telling us we can't even do the very small act of not being complicit in the presidency. It's a less effective act of protest, but I also don't have to die for it.

It's not a boycott (I've seen this strawman, i don't know why you think we think that). It's not going to "send a message to the government" (obviously, we're not ignorant). It's to the Party that runs these candidates, and makes money off of "pick us because we're not the other guy" then commits crimes against humanity. I don't want to roll over and be fucking complicit in that.

Parties and candidates look at those numbers. they see how many people voted for them last time and how many people this time.

They don't care about our voices, and our protests, and our emails. They care about donations, and they care about votes. That's it. That's all they look at. If the emails and the phone calls and the protests don't result in a drop in one of those two things, they don't fucking care.

I don't know. This is a long ass ramble, but I'm trying to work out my feelings about this. Because we can't opt out of paying taxes, we can't really opt out of the benefits of living and being born in the Global North, we can't opt out of work, we can't opt out of the military, we can't opt out of following the law without extreme violence being brought against us. We can't do a whole fucking lot besides call, email, donate, and protest in a way that doesn't get us beaten and arrested, and if you do get beaten and arrested, you'll be dealing with the legal consequences for years or potentially the rest of your life.

And a man burned himself to death to object but I can't withhold my vote???

#just saw a long ass post that asked the question “what is your objective” #and concluded if you don't have any leverage you should just do nothing #and i really really thought about it because it was very well thought out #but i just can't agree with the conclusion #yes find your leverage and use it #yes tailor your tactics to your objectives #but I'm not wrong to object to the system in the very limited ways that are available to me #i feel like I'm crazy #but I've spent this whole last term regretting breaking down and voting for biden last time when my morals told me not to #i don't think i can do it again #and it's not a baseless moral stance or a self-centered “i don't want to feel bad” one #it just doesn't make sense to me #maybe I'll feel guilty when trump wins and wish I'd chosen differently #but i think #I'll feel like this system didn't give me a choice #and I'd rather not let my voice be used to prop up genocide #than roll over and act like no choice is a choice #“people fought for your right to vote” then they fought for my right to opt out of that as well #I'm not good at outlining my logic but i hope if anyone actually sees this #you understand where I'm coming from

[orchideae]

I apologize for the severe radio silence literally everywhere for the last 2/3 days! While Christmas and New Years Eve were immensely fun, my social batteries were depleted to the absolute max (which is very rare for me), along with coughing fits recommencing and so I needed some air (which didn't do my lungs well either, 'cause apparently I'm supposed to sit forever and rest and never live life), and then when I was inside, it was Sims time while waiting for my batteries to recharge. But now it's time to get 2024 started here.

#[ i finally also installed some big mods to that game-- so it kept me entirely focused. it was like a whole new experience. ] #[ and how did this game activate meta thoughts? we won't talk about it [yet]. ] #[ but also-- i'll be getting to the nye asks i got. and also responding to those i received-- or reblogging rather to save them! ] #[ you guys were too sweet. 😭 it only reinforces what i'd started typing in my own ny post-- which is also gonna be posted today... ] #[ 3 days late. 😚 ] #[ listen. i'm me for a reason; right? ] #[ me at self in the new year: can i just... have the right sidebar that pops up when you select your blog-- always be there? ] #[ surely i can code that in. i got this. I'D BETTER SUCCEED TUMBLR. ] #[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.

[copiasblair]

sometimes i think about when copia got his plastic surgery and his face was all covered in bandages for a while (i don't know how long it takes plastic surgery to heal) and how i still wanted to be affectionate with him but since i can't kiss his face i just end up kissing him everywhere else,,,

#also i know that i was kind of against the whole plastic surgery idea in the first place #but hey. if it would make him feel more confident/happy. it's okay #and also. i'd love him regardless of his face. i mean it's certainly a plus that he looks so attractive pre and post plastic surgery #but it's about him as a person you know #anyway. just having thoughts about that today #just trailing kisses up his chest up his neck and pressing ones along the edge of the gauze around his chin #my honey bun 🖤 #what do you have to say doll?

[hersweetrevenge]

i was stalking ur account and you mentioned how rohan was so expressive playing corey and that reminded me why i put that as one of his autistic traits. corey’s *so* expressive without having to say anything, even tho sometimes what he’s expressing on the outside is not the same as what he’s feeling on the inside.

speaking of corey being autistic, joan would 100% not tell corey that he is and that makes me sad :((

i really do think we were blessed when they cast rohan, he's exceptionally expressive and i will literally die on the hill of defending him because he made corey.

you're so right !! corey is literally always saying something even when he's not speaking. even his resting expression when he isn't reacting to anything is so expressive.

i think you can divide his expressions into two categories: broad and micro. i feel like his broad expressions don't always directly match his emotions because he can sort of "put them on" even if he doesn't realise that he's doing it. he can't really control micro expressions though, and they come through even when he's pretending otherwise. like when he's talking to laurie at the allen house, he's grinning because he's having fun -- because the whole thing is funny, isn't it? laurie blaming him? it's funny -- but the anger comes through in how his brows move and his lips twitch. he's layered beyond belief.

honestly, with how joan doesn't seem to trust doctors (or at least how she doesn't want corey to trust them), i don't know if corey would ever get a formal diagnosis.

i know rohan and dgg have mentioned that they talked about corey being a victim of a munchausen by proxy adjacent situation, so i'm not sure how that would effected how she would navigate a real mental diagnosis. i feel like she'd write off a lot of corey's traits as him just being "sensitive" or "particular" or "shy". traits which she can use to her advantage.

if he did get a diagnosis though, i feel like it'd be when he was pretty young, maybe after it being flagged up as a possibility at a regular childhood check-up? but i 100% agree with you, joan would not tell corey, and that makes me really sad too. not telling him keeps him more reliant on her, because he doesn't ever learn how to cope on his own or assumes he just can't cope on his own, as he doesn't have any frame of reference for what he's experiencing. so, he's left to struggle, with no support, and doesn't even know what's "wrong" with him, because he thinks there must be something.

#ask #corey cunningham #ahhh i'd love to hear more of your thoughts about it !! about corey's expressiveness and his traits -- #-- it's not in my experience to say but i love hearing people who do know what they're on about #so feel free to hmu any time !! #god i kind of wanna make a whole post about joan. the extent of what she does is barely even touched in the movie -- #-- and the novel leaves just as much to be *implied* as it does outright say #joan cunningham hate club

[cinna-bunnie]

"you're easy to be comfortable around and I appreciate you being my friend" music to my fuckin EARS babe

#i am so touched i want 2 cri about it (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) #i remember the beginning of the yr by myself post breakup w No friends n having 2 start from scratch #and i had a lot of misses trying 2 make friends on dating apps but the person who ended up actually being a good friend fr was my pharmacis #like akskdkak i just thought she was rly hot n looked so artsy n cute even though she was in her lil lab coat and i was #SO shy about saying anything but she just started gassing me up immediately and it broke me out of my shell and I'd hype her up too!! #when I'd come to pick up my pills we'd be having a whole conversation while she's helping someone and someone's helping me 💀 #i eventually just asked if she wanted 2 be friends and it's been so fun the whole time (⁠✿ ‚‚⌒‿⌒‚‚) #i love her fr i feel the same way friend 🐇💕 #lol this other boy who works there said he loves my outfits and says I'm their most fashionable visitor 🙈 thank yoou i try n appreciate it! #he is such a sweetheart too my other pharmacy is so mean and i remember calling him n he was so warm after just talking w the others #i cried (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) he is always so sweet n easy to talk to. i wasn't sobbing or nothin but aa he was just so nice 2 me ╰(￣ω￣ｏ) 💕 #i love everyone there lol

[devoursbears]

So I go to a gay church in my area because I like the community and it is honestly incredible to see old queers every week. But I've been thinking recently about this particular dynamic in the bible study group.

in the group there is this gay catholic and and a nonbinary communist who are both retirement age and butt heads on every topic, with the Catholic very adamant in his positions and being sure of his being right about How To Christianity. Then the Communist who has studied other religions and is much more concerned with the Divinity found in humanity than some invisible Patriarch making all the rules. and it as me thinking about the Uber Right Wing politics of a buncha christians, and how 'traditional christianity' really does make sense with their political views (and lets be honest, it was designed that way)

because like, the Catholic. He means well, but basically always falls back to "Yeah God is easy. He is perfect and mysterious and we can't understand him but we have to follow his rules and those rules are the Bible and the Catholic Doctrine." Which. Every time I hear him talk I cant help but hear right wing rhetoric about not questioning established authority and how those in power got there in the first place.

For example, there was a discussion about Sin. and the Catholic goes on the expected spiel of "Sin is these actions as defined by bible and to be rid of sin you have to do the 3 step plan that the church made up which goes like admit guilt, apologize, then repent by not doing the thing again and also pray about it. Bam Done. Easy Peasy."

He kept repeating this line of reasoning even when this other guy, a New guy who specifically doesn't like Christianity because of people who prescribe how to think and act, as it is a trigger for New guy. But the Catholic couldn't tell that. His Catholic Programming wasn't able to compute any other way of a Correct Relationship with Religion. It felt incredibly reminiscent of something along the lines of "oh its easy to not get arrested, just don't to a crime sweaty :))))" type rhetoric.

and I don't have the writing skills to make extensive conclusions and tie all the strings together but I just wanted to share this pattern I see. where right wing Evangelical Christians have their view on life baked in in every aspect of their beliefs. and its frustrating!!! because religion even including Christianity can be a helpful tool for spirituality/hope in the world/ community for people but just like any system of power, it is important to question the structure, and who is in power and why. And like most power structures that want to maintain that structure, Christianity and Right Wing rhetoric often go hand in hand in their ability to drive any questioning out.

Anyhow, shoutout to Alien the 70ish year old nonbinary racing champ with an intersex cat they are my hero and I love them for having the energy to push back against the Catholic and his rigid power structures.

#I really wanted to make this into a tighter essay or something but I'd rather have done than perfect at the moment #I have so many thoughts about gay church #did you know there are conservatives there??? I dont think the catholic is but I work there at the food pantry and theres like 3 whole #whole people that hate poor people but still volunteer I want to study them but I don't have the patience #anyhow #Christianity #religion #musings #i think I had a tag for original text posts once

[cowboy-like-moony]

Matty Healy and Taylor Swift could literally be making out in my living room and I'd be like "oh my god they found a way to exchanged musical cues through their tongues, they're clearly working on a 1989 vault track"

#did you ever hear about the girl who lives in delusion? #I'd just love a 1989 collab with the 1975 #I guess they could still collab if they are dating #edit: i didn't know about most of the stuff he has done/said when i first posted this and don't want a collab anymore now that i know #why she would date this musty crusty problematic man is beyond me #I don't actually care that much #I just hate being wrong #I truly thought the sun was just making shit up #but of course matty healy had to ruin it by coming to her concert #and then taylor did the whole “i love you” thing like wtf was that? #she is so messy right now #I can't wait for all the crazy stuff that will happen at tonights show #also I'm not up to date with anything so most of my takes are already outdated when I post them #like found out phoebe brought matty on stage like 10 minutes ago #i can't deal with all of this #taylor swift #matty healy #1989 #the 1975

[muninnhuginn]

Post s2e9 confirmations and speculations as of this ep, starting with confirmations and moving on to thoughts/speculations.

Before I start, just going to link my speculations as of a couple of episodes ago here because they're surprisingly either still relevant or have been confirmed either way. Of these, the main pieces still outstanding are Liu Min's phone and the serial murders.

Fountain boy low-key confirmed to be Liu Min's younger brother (Liu Xiao, apparently?). He knew Tianchen would soon be given the opportunity to "hunt" and lo, there is Liu Min (who even vaguely recognised Tianchen which makes sense if he's an acquaintance of his brother's). His own surname is Liu and obviously that's a pretty common name, but the fact he had someone driving him around means he's pretty rich and, well, son of a games company CEO seems pretty rich indeed. Apply law of conservation of detail and this one is now locked in at 95%. Fountain boy = Liu Xiao = "hunter" = hat guy (the last I'm a bit less certain of, but again, conservation of detail and there aren't many episodes left).

I'd been wondering about the weird focus the neighbour got in terms of his gaming so him being someone Liu Min wanted taken care of made that entire side of things click for me. Liu Min was terminally online and so was the neighbour. Tianchen must've thought it karma that he had this opportunity.

Third story: Tianchen as red eyes, going further and further as Tianxi is forced to watch until he goes too far even for her - at which point she broke free and tried to appeal to Lu Guang (but why him?). (All that said, Tianchen claims he killed both their parents, but we didn't actually see it properly in any of the flashbacks which could just be because they're being careful with the censors but I'm still side-eyeing it until we see exactly what happened. After all, there was no knife in the picture when we left the scene.) Tianxi's story I'm presuming is simply an animated version of what Tianxi is showing Qiao Ling to tell her story.

Speaking of, Tianxi "broke free" in her school uniform and that was also how she was found. Does that place the hoodie scenes in the hospital as before she fled? Because rewatching a bit of ep 4 and it seemed that QJ was talking to Tianchen-as-Tianxi then (could be wrong, 'Tianxi' never spoke that we heard in this scene but it being actual Tianxi rather than Tianchen raises so many more questions) which would imply she was missing after the hospital and that's when they implemented the disguising plan. Thinking about the "sorry" scenes in the third story and wondering if Chen Bin was the final straw for Tianxi.

First/second story: The Romeo and Juliet backstage they're at was indeed as I saw a few people speculating a production featuring Qian Jin's wife and her co-star. Tianchen "I killed them both" @ Qian Jin: wow he just like me fr. (But nah this definitely raises more questions about the murder of his wife). (Also, just to note that I'm putting the different perspective of QJ meeting LTX and LTC down to the unreliable nature of Xiao Li relaying info initially rather than alternate timelines. Can't rule it out, of course (and the blood on Tianxi in only one of the tellings has me even more hesitant), but unreliable narrator seems an easier fit at this stage. We also know QJ doctored the case files and if LTC outright told him "I killed them both" then that sure didn't make it to the files.)

Qian Jin's motives now back up in the air. Initially it seemed as though he wanted the powers so he could bring his wife back, but with the revelation that he had reason to believe she was cheating (and pregnant with the person she was cheating on him with) the idea he would want her back seems... a lot less likely. Also, his break from morals is placed a lot earlier than it seemed from the outside. Those in the police thought he was outstanding etc etc until his wife died, but he was gone long before that. Ultimately, in both cases with alleged cheating it doesn't matter if the person themselves was cheating because they didn't deserve to be killed for it, but it is fascinating that we're presented with these two similar scenarios from two entirely different perspectives. Li Tianchen and Tianxi as victims of domestic abuse by the person who believes they're being cheated on whilst Qian Jin is the role of the husband who believes he's being cheated on. (The way the pregnancy reveal is played - QJ not seeing his wife often because he was always at work, her startling when caught on the phone - it does seem like he takes the pregnancy as confirmation that she was cheating as the pregnancy couldn't have been with him. She's already dead at that point though.)

With the current timeline we have, I don't know whether QJ engineered the initial killing of his wife (and the fact the culprit escaped legal justice actually kinda makes me think that he didn't), but I do think he used Tianchen after the fact to set up the suicide and suicide note of the killer

The serial killings. We originally believed there were eight in total, starting with Emma. However, this episode shifts the timeline somewhat. Liu Min says thank you for dealing with "that woman", but he still seems to have use of his legs so presumably "that woman" isn't Emma and this is taking place beforehand. Which would imply there are a number of extra victims the police haven't uncovered. (The alternative is that this flashback was in a timeline before the Emma stuff went so wrong and Liu Min still had use of his legs? I'm really hoping it's not this because it'd break my brain a bit) This also somewhat explains how the police were unable to tie motives together for the serial killings if it was a killing-for-hire type scenario, though I do still somewhat believe there's some underlying logic that QJ either bought into himself or was able to make Tianchen buy into in order to believe the victims weren't "innocent"

#link click #link click spoilers #shiguang daili ren spoilers #this is less down the speculation end but I loved the intertwining metaphors in the entire 'hunter' thing throughout #as well as the parallels about the cheating and the lack of total confirmation around that #because it makes you compare the two scenarios and wonder #as well as qian jin and what he saw in li tianchen because I think he saw himself honestly #he didn't know at this stage about his powers so that's not why he took to him #(also. unrelatedly. I really don't think we're done with chen bin. he's a loose end (not) walking) #oh and I don't want to edit my older spec post but I do now think tianxi is the one with the phone double crossing the other two #which should be clear enough from what we now know but the whole hospital timeline is funky so thought I'd say

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#sorry guys I'm going through some stuff #a friend confessed that they loved me and I don't feel the same #i adore them platonically and it's just the wrong time and i'd hate to lose them #i have been very anxious every since because they won't talk to me and i'm so scared they don't want to be friends anymore #writing will be a lil bit slow because i'm teary eyed thinking about the whole situation #gonna give the friend some space and hopefully we'll work it out #i saw the signs for months and didn't want to overthink it but yep it was real and it feels like the confession was a dream but was real to #and the rest of our friend group are in different time zones so i feel alone dealing with this so #i just needed a quick vent #gonna have a cry and try something to distract my thoughts #feelings can happen and that's a very okay thing #i just am scared because we've had such a great friendship up until now #ironic bc friends to lovers is my fave trope :') #but #unrequited stuff is like a punch to the gut #edit: i see the typos #i wasn't wearing my glasses while making this post #mod poet

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‘Listen,’ the man said, once again pointing his finger in Vitali’s direction.

‘I’ma give you to the count of five, and if I don’t have my eddies back by then- all three thousand of ‘em- that dark red suit o’ yours is gonna be red for vastly different reasons.’ ‘Really now?’ Vitali asked, raising his eyebrow and slightly tilting his head, a smile taking shape on his face as he let his eyes trail the crowd; people were starting to get rowdy, starting to cheer. A rush of adrenaline was already soaring through his system, reminding him of the street fights he used to participate in- Sure, he was there for business now. But he could have a little bit of fun. ‘One!’ the guy yelled, his voice barely audible above the buzz of the club, the music suddenly a lot louder than before; though it could just be Vitali’s imagination, straightening his back and redistributing his weight to his left leg while grabbing his cane halfway down the shaft. ‘Two!’ ‘You sure you’re going to do this, jefe?’ Judy asked. ‘Viktor’s gonna kill you.’ ‘Only if I get hurt,’ Vitali replied, rolling back his neck as the man yelled out a loud three, dragging it out a little bit longer as if he was trying to give Vitali time to reconsider. Another day, another client turning against him. Far from the first time and far from the last; though usually Vitali dealt with these sorts of things with a bit more finesse than he was about to do. ‘Four!’ He did not care. His reputation preceded him; the bruising of his knuckles as dark as the rims underneath his eyes, everyone knew Vitali Dobrynin was a fighter first and a fixer second. All to protect, all out of love- but no one cared about that. They only ever saw what was on show. ‘FIVE!’

#tag games #nuclearwriting #so many fun bits in this chapter i'm very excited to post the rest >:^) #this is just some random guy also don't worry about it #that last part though. reputation preceded him. fighter first fixer second. all to protect. all out of love. but no one cared. #i'm fucking normal about him i wanna fucking smash my head through a window #this is EXACTLY what matvey wants. take away the context to make vitali look like the villain in all this #to take everything away from him. people only ever see what's on show. aha xoxo #never thought i'd have this much depth in the whole fic but here we are baybeey... themes... motifs... [dies] #also. once again. if anyone wants me to yell more about the fic my asks are open and i Love yelling about things so. teehee #if you have any quastions. >:^) let me know >:^) <3