#i used to be

[anotherrosesthatfell]

Are you gay?

Idk but I check I like to kiss fictional men

#ask #ask me #I used to be #aroace #now I don't even know anymore #I think I am #hopeless romantic #💀

[dufrau]

i am generally pretty un-embarrassable but in trying to find the vibe for this phonance fic i went back and read some old text conversations and im gonna be honest it made me want to crawl under the house. i am never speaking to anybody again it has been nice knowing you ✌️

#i used to be #so drunk

[burntvhs]

The way Barney went from a character I absolutely loved with all of my heart, to a character I still very much love but absolutely dread because of the amount of discourse that has surrounded the character is so crazy

Pro tip for any new Half-Life/Barney fans!!! Stay out of the tags most of the time! (Of course support your artists and fic writers by reblogging and stuff ^^) But, if you see any form of ship discourse or even a ship name, just RUN pls... Don't let this site almost ruin a character for you

#I used to be #*Intense waving* HIIII BARNEY <3 <3<3 #To now #Hey Barney... *Really awkward painful smile in a trying to be polite way...* #mini ramble #i need to go to bed

[void-dragon4]

me realizing that i am not close enough with anyone to ask them to use my secret pronouns

#void post #i used to be #but not anymore

[annieroses-rant]

used to

used to guilt and shame

like needles in my veins

am I doomed to be mediocre at everything?

everyone thinks that I'm doing too much

but not trying hard enough

no one knows how hard

I chase the dopamine rush

everyone feeds me the same motifs

enough is enough

I can’t be strong like I used to

can’t not be wrong like I used to

I can’t work like I used to

hell, am I even useful?

if I’m not what I used to be,

will I then lose everything?

do I know the girl I used to be?

who is this new girl that I see?

you call her by my name

but we aren’t the same

cause she’s not what she used to be

she’s worse than geometry

why can’t I just live

up to what everyone thinks of me

just lock me away

leave me with my artistry

the only thing that improved

but you’d only find choreography

I’m the one who makes the days the same

though not how they used to be

so much on my back already

but what else do you want from me?

I’ll take the blame

shackles and chains

though I really need to be free

because that’s who I used to be

so please, please don’t give up on me

I can’t live as who I used to be

but I’m still trying though crying

still going and growing

I’m not sure if I’ll make it anymore

not sure if I can take this anymore

but if I can’t, what am I even here for?

just leave me with my tears

just shut the door

I’ll sit here with my fears and my heart still sore

I’ll look back on these years

when I am hurt and bored

and when no one seems to need me

not like they did before

do you even need who I used to be anymore?

#imposter syndrome #gifted kid burnout #gifted kid problems #who is she #who am i #sad poem #sadgirl #sad poetry #sad thoughts #i'm sad #yearning for freedom #yearning for more #wish i was her #wish i was normal #there is no normal #homesick #homesick for the past #failure #loneliest #lonesome #why can’t i be happy #why cant i have nice things #i just want to feel good again #i just really wish i was as good as i used to be #i used to be #good at everything i did #now it feels like im failing it all #and i can’t do anything about it #and i cant stop thinking about it #and all everyone wants to do is cheer me up but it isnt working because i dont think im working nothings working and i dont know what to do

[poputepi]

I'm sorry my blog is so bare bones! I'll work on a cute html theme on PC when I feel up for it. usually on mobile

For now quick about:

I'm Alex, 26 and Greek but live somewhere where they speak French so that's crazy. I love languages and video games and art and music and shows. might make a more detailed carrd about my interests, the day i make a cute blog theme.

here to mostly reblog blorbo & funny posts and other generally nice stuff! my blog is somewhat new but i was here since the mishapocalypse.

autistic, bisexual & trans 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ he/him

Not exactly nsfw but please don't follow me if you're a minor. terfs please block

if we're mutuals please tag spiders/arachnophobia for me, and suicide, especially if it's a joke. thank you so much!

I try to tag quite broadly but if there's anything specific you don't want to see, let me know

Have a great day!

#i used to be #butterflykouka

[borntodoll]

why does he like me ?

#౨ৎ • im speaking #nini speaks #was it a joke? #he’s been on my mind #It’s like #is it bad #to not be obsessed with #him #i was in denial of not liking him #he’s adorable so adorable #it was enemies to lovers #i used to be #scared of him 😭

[theshinymewtoo]

Feels good to be back. Been a while

#i used to be #theshinymew #on here

[capfalcon]

i love trans ppl <3

#i used to be #a nonbinary person who was like #well i dont use the word trans bc i feel like theres a very specific connotation to that #but man fuck it im trans im so happy for me and for others we r so cool and beautiful

[fromkenari]

So anyway, anyone interested in some indie roleplay with my Derek Hale? It’s literally been years, but look what they did to my boy! I have to fix it.

#derek hale #derek hale rp #teen wolf rp #i used to be #wolfspirals #out of credits

[gale-in-space]

This is shallow but I wish I was a more popular artist

#i used to be #back when i was less good #ironically enough

[girlstressed]

can’t stop smiling in inappropriate situations

#personal #ITS A REFLEX IDK WHY I USED TO HAVE A RBF AND NOW I HAVE A RESTING SMILING FACE???

[lotrmusical]

never let anyone tell you that trawling through mediocre victorian poetry isn't worth it. we just happened upon an absolute BANGER of a worm poem. go read it or else 🪱🪱🪱

#was calling beckett and scouring the works of eliza cook looking for lesbianism #good amounts of lesbianism in evidence but unfortunately very little in the way of good poetry #APART from this worm one which DOES NOT MISS #eliza cook #is there a thriving eliza cook tag on tumblr. somehow i doubt it #the hand of the giant and the heart of the brave / must turn weak and submit to the worm and the grave! #not an original theme ofc but GOD the treatment is delightful. so fresh so gleeful some rlly nice use of sound. rlly solidly constructed #words #gay belligerence

[theboxfort]

Peace and love

#pink posts #i saw a tweet that was like “i see other people's art” --> i get discouraged #i understand that seeing art that is prettier than yours can be discouraging but why not twist that a bit? #why does it look prettier to you? is it the colors #is it the textures they used? the brushes? #study them and try to put your spin on it #and maybe you'll find your art beautiful as well

[malwarechips]

yknow i never noticed the sheer rareness of images having ids or alt text on this website until i started adding alt text to my art (and trying to remember to add it to any images i post in general, especially text screenshots) and that makes me kinda sad

#i used to be pretty intimidated by the idea of having to describe my art but. it isnt as hard as it sounds #i just treat it like im describing an image i dont have at the time really #plus ive been told that even a simple id is better than no id #lev.txt

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week