#i want to be motivated like this BADLY

[kindaorangey]

once again screaming crying throwing up about the fact that infinity train was prematurely cancelled despite being contracted for 5 seasons.

#infinity train #like i really really want all 8 seasons. & i really really want present day!amelia and all that would come with that (e.g. hazel and grace) #but i feel like i would be so much more content with the show's cancellation if we had the bow on top of it all that was the amelia season #because she was the villain from s1 #the fallout of her villanry births the antagonists from s2. #she appears again in s3 having moved on slightly and changed her outlook. thereby creating a somewhat optimistic outlook on the end point of #her story #and s4 shows (in parts) her descent into villany. #she's been the main reocurring presence in the whole show and her train motivation (unbearable grief) and villain arc are the most #complex the show would've handled #i truly believe that if they had been allowed to make it it would have served as a perfect ending to the show #because she's been built up for so long and because the writers would've had so much material to work with AND detail to pay attention to #it wouldve been spectacular.... and everything they wanted to explore in later seasons wouldve been so good too #(older tulip and revenge and acceptance of something as complicated as alzheimer's disease) #(and i also think it wouldve been neat for them to show us a glimpse of 40 y/o rymin cuz those boys have major issues still when they get #off the train #and so id like a snapshot of them in the future that shows they worked things out) #yeah. justice 4 infinity train justice 4 amelia hughes. i want to fuck that 60y/o deeply evil woman so badly and i need her back in my life

[potatochip-oc-dump]

new character......... her name is jack

#oc #jack attack #i have no idea if thats gonna b a permanent last name for her but i kind of like it actually #its stupif. its goofy. its PERFECT #to give further information abt this character: she was raised and indoctrinated into some kind of.m. fighting club #her backstory is connected somehwat with marks backstory #shes there kind of as like.. a foil? if im using the term correctly #she considers herself a hunter and likes to take the heads of “Beasts” i.e. big powerful insects (or in this case Midnight) #AND MARK. SHE WANTS TO KILL MARK. #we need more antagonists!!! #her motivation for wanting to do that is like... #if she defeats the NOTORIOUS (formerly) BLOODTHIRSTY ILLEGAL FIGHTING RING CHAMPION #thwn she will feel. worthy. #insecure girl. sje has many problems #i like her VERY much #hmmghh ????? something going on with mauve and gidget Ok #the point is that shes rlly young too. and mark (who was raised in the same horribl living situation) sympathizes with her #and wants to help her really badly #but she keeps stabbing him #so thats a problem #gidget foxglove #midnight #NOT REALLY YOUNG AS IN “SHES A CHILD” BUT YOUNG AS IN. SHES A TEENAGER STILL. AMD SHE IS KILLING PPL

[fluffalpenguin]

Happy Shun Duel Links Day!!! (party popper emoji)

#yugioh arc v #yugioh arc-v #arc-v #shun #yuto #comic #duel links #sorry for the long format but OOH it looks so clean when its all in one line!!! #this almost didn't make it out of my wip jail cells because i spent 30 mins on one of the panels #using references and everything but it just looked super duper odd and it was a waste of time overall #and don't even get me started on the toning (clenches fist) nothing was looking right at one point #but enough about the process i want to talk about the comic itself #part of the motivation for drawing this was seeing all the fluffy shunyoot celebration pics during his roaming event #they ARE cute but also i really really wanted so badly to see shun's visceral reaction that didn't reduce him to mere comedic fodder #(something i'm also guilty of) #so anyway like we always say in ygos we make our own food #wow im rambling anyways the last line of dialogue i had most trouble with but also the most proud of #no shade to the writers of the show (ok maybe like a LITTLE shade) but with this comic i really wanted to reflect the feelings of both #fans of the show as well as fans that left after the ending because that was something i saw floating on jp twitter during the roaming even #and it really made me Think #also can we talk about how in the event yuya was just like hey shun i have a surprise for you!!! haha :] #he was THERE when shun said never appear in front of me ever again did he think shun would just be omg yuto :) #this is why youre my favourite (yuya) #anyways last but not least #the final yuto panel is a healthy mix of guilt + existential dread and doubt about his own existence i hope that was obvious enough

[nothingwronghere]

#love between fairy and devil #shangque #cang lan jue #yeah im sorry this isnt my best #have it anyway #i wanted to do it and then my motivation left.... #i thought if i dont do it badly i wont do it at all #these are all moments when he interacts with jieli #so technically it is a longli gifset #myedit #yeah i dont like it....

[fellhellion]

Something something the spot’s goofy antics distract from how dangerous his own entitlement and resentment is

#I don’t want to be that guy but I feel a little bit like spot gets sanded down a tad into just the fact he’s funny #and he IS funny I get it. but what makes him scary is the power to lash out with his entitlement and resentment towards miles #it’s you did this TO ME (miles didn’t #he was busy getting pummeled by kingpin and then venom shocking him back and the building was being EVACUATED it’s literally no one’s fault #but spot’s that he was there AND miles didn’t even know he was there when the collider exploded) #so I’m owed the role that you made me into <- miles literally didn’t do this #I’m OWED being your nemesis because I created you <- when all of itsv is about its miles own choices that make him heroic and not the bite #spot can’t even take ownership of his own actions. he’s like oh IM not robbing you that’s the bank. well buddy I don’t see you robbing the #bank I see you harassing some guy owning a corner store #like I get it. ur a cosmic horror and it sucks capitalism is pushing u down and u can’t get a job but like OWN UP TO WHAT THE HELL YOU DO #LMAO #and even miles trying to genuinely reach out and say look I’m sorry I made u feel bad (even though this isn’t an owed apology) and spot #STILL is hellbent on breaking miles back for an imagined slight #I AM GOING TO KILL YOUR LITERAL FATHER BECAUSE I BLAME YOU FOR SOMETHING YOU DIDNT DO #like god lmao. he’s a fun silly villain but there’s legitimate anger and spite and RESENTMENT motivating him purely to try hurt miles back a #as* badly as he imagines miles hurt him. when it’s like dude. own tf up to who’s responsible here #I’m not angry at the spot btw I actually think he’s a fun villain but I think recognising that resentment is what makes him effective as a #*​frightening* villain and one that poses legitimate danger #tunes talks spiderverse #apologies xinakwans ik u said you didn’t want to read any spot posts hopefully this snags on ur filtered content block shdjfjfk

[cainware]

Okay I might get devoured for this, but I'm gonna post it anyway, so please bare with me:

I feel like Bruce has this belief that Jason never understood why he can't kill right, but also I feel like Bruce also doesn't understand why Jason can. Like he looks at it as a moral failing in so many different iterations from writer to writer but like? Bruce, understanding is a two-way street.

Bruce thinks he'd never be able to come back from taking a life, but then you look down the line at Jason, and Jason can and does. He's not lesser because he kills when he thinks it's the right thing to do, he doesn't lose himself in the bloodbath like Bruce thinks he himself would. Jason doesn't go mad with power, he doesn't go around just murdering any random thug just because.

And I think that damages Bruce a little bit, because he doesn't want to admit that Jason's killing isn't as much of a moral failing as he thinks it should be. I think that Bruce, somewhere in his mind, wanted to believe that if he couldn't do it without losing himself, then nobody could. And I think he can't bring himself to admit to himself that in that regard, Jason has always had a better understanding of the world and his own person than Bruce ever will.

#idk i was rereading utrh and ive been absorbing a lot of other batman related content at warp speed #and maybe this doesnt make sense but to me it feels like bruce just #doesnt want to admit that its possible to take a life for the right reasons #as a direct relation to his own personal traumas #but in that same vein feels like his views on it should be universal because its no shocker that #bruce has very black and white thinking and the concept of the grey area doesnt exist very often to him #but at the same time i feel like its either a blow to him mentally to think that someone can do something he cant #or a blow to his ego that he wouldnt be able to control himself if he slipped #and this is based entirely off the more popular and rehashed versions of bruce that dont fully understand him #but unfortunately that kind of litters a lot of batman media #like dont get me wrong my favorite versions of bruce are multidimensional and has a broader understanding #of the world and gotham and all his kids and their motivations #but the more popular versions (i dont want to say badly written because every batman has their own merits) #(except for you frank miller you know what you did) dont all have that level of growth and general acceptance #of gotham and his kids being Naturally Morally Gray #i should probably shut up or not post this but its out there now so yeah #jaybirdwhistles #shut up jay stop being annoying on the tl

[spurgie-cousin]

I don’t regularly watch videos of/from the Rods but I know the older girls have the signature “yeah”s and smiles while pitching their voices up. Olivia(?) sounds like she’s about to have a panic attack from having to talk to Jill, what the fuck did this woman do to her before filming??

I think it's less panic and more just strain from having to sit there and stare at the camera with a big smile for the entirety of the video. And having to come up with words on the spot when she's not used to speaking much on camera. Kind of like how when you're taking pictures with younger kids they can barely hold a smile for 30 seconds, but Olivia doesn't have the option to stop so she's just gotta keep forcing giggles to kind of help maintain her smile. And I'm guessing that's a Jill rule because all of her kids do that.

The way she speaks on camera reminds me a lot of some of Jill's older videos when she used to have her (now adult) kids speak a lot more, and they always sounded like Olivia in that last video, either strained or nervous. People would comment on that and their high pitches and weird accents a lot tbh, which Jill had no good explanation for, so that probably factors into why she doesn't really let them talk much anymore unless they are adults.

#which i totally get not wanting your kids to be made fun of don't get me wrong but i don't think that was Jill's primary motivation just #based on the way she is. she doesn't care about exploiting her kids unless it can reflect badly on her parenting/homeschooling #which their weird accents and breathy high pitches immediately strike most people as bizarre like it is surprising #and jill has no good explanation for it except that they were very very isolated & her own weird speech patterns just became the family nor #the rodrigues family

[whumpy-wyrms]

SNOW DAY TOMORROW YESSSYESYES YESYESSSSSSS AHHHHHH

#currently very excited abt that as you can tell #I GOTTA WRITE TLLR GUYS I GOTTA GET MY SHIT TOGETHERRRR #IM SO SORRY ITS TAKING SO LONG #wyrms says stuff #very very hyper all of a sudden i’m so fucking happy i don’t have school tomorrow #you know what #something i kinda did like when i first started writing tllr was making up this thing to motivate myself to write and draw tllr #called “Dew days” so kinda a play on words with due date #and by specifically calling tomorrow a Dew day #it’d make me more productive somehow and that was during the summer so literally every day was Dew day because i was excited as fuck about #tllr. so yk what tomorrow is a Dew day i am going to spend all day writing and drawing tllr because I WANT TOOO #i’ve been slacking badly. i wanna get to the good parts. chapter 12 and 13 are okay. you guys will Definitely like them but im more focused #on future chapters. so i gotta just sit down and WRITE and then… i really really wanna AHHSHGHHHH talk about the mystery character #but FDSJHHSDFJHKDFSJHH i can’t yet #anyway yeah new chapter maybe tonight or tomorrow I FUCKING HOPE

[naegiriweek]

Thanks for doing this every year

is appreciated

Thank YOU Anon, and everyone else here, for sharing your interest and support for us every year! It makes me so happy seeing people come together at the end of the year to share our mutual love of these two silly characters through such incredible pieces💖 I hope you had a fantastic week, anon, and hope to see you around next year too!

#mod eon #ask #anon #you guys are genuinely so cool!! #crazy we've been going for 8 years i gotta think of what to do for year 10 #I so badly want to make stuff for prompts properly like I used to; gotta find motivation for writing or learn to draw people xD #but it makes me so happy to see everyone share their thoughts and ideas on these characters #i would talk in the tags forever for each reblog I do if i could

[delicateimage]

Hey girlies update time… I’ve been sent to a clinic for my weight and it’s been really stressful and my life is kinda falling apart lol there’s defiantly good aspects to it but ughhh I’m like :( bc my diets had to change so much and I feel so unproductive now and I’m really scared about gaining weight but they’d said I’d like die or whatever if I didn’t which um. I genuinely feel so disgusting heavy and sick and disgusting and DISGUSTIGN eww and my disordered eating brain is coming back in full force after silently controlling me for like nearly years at this point and it’s all so much. the hardest thing about this is that I don’t want to gain weight at all and particularly I don’t really even care to live anymore. I’m scared everyday I’ll fall deeper and deeper back into disordered eating I’ll get lonelier and lonelier I’ll get fatter and fatter I’ll lose everything I’ve ever built for myself… ugh this is a mess but ong.

#it’s hard because I don’t want to sound like I’m bragging like HEYYYY I GOT HOSPITALOZED FOR BEING A SKINNY QUEEN YASS but omg I can’t #this is so sickening I feel so fat and disgusting there were two days where I could feel like I could eat the calorie count they gave me but #now I feel like a FAT FUCKING BEKUGA WHALE I feel like I gained 40 pounds in a day I feel so hulking and disgusting I’m eating so much ew #the self harming intentions came back because I lost my only form of control over my autonomy. I feel like there’s no other way for people #to hear me other than harming myself and depriving myself #I feel like such a waste #it’s like tomorrow I want to go back restrict restrict restrict restrict eat 5 calories exercise for an hour #but I just can’t. #I don’t have anyone to talk to because no one understands. #I feel so lost #the one thing I enjoyed about the diet change is the snack kinda… it gives me motivation to keep going. #everything is so stressful though and I don’t know how to encapsulate everything AT ALL ugh #I’m so tired and I just want to fall over and die already but… idk #I want to restrict really badly. I want to purge and fast again. I want to become anorexic. I was at to scream out and cry and say that I’m #hurting and I’m weak and I can’t take it anymore #ugh #omg I haven’t made a huge tumblr rant in months omg I haven’t USED tumblr really in months omg #my ED loves tumblr like girl hey

[frecklystars]

Sierra Six being my S/I's bodyguard and not quite differentiating the lines between "I need to be closer to Keri in order to keep Keri safe" vs "I need to be closer to Keri due to these... budding personal feelings that I don't understand that seem to be consuming me whole but I'm sure that's normal and nothing I need to dwell on whatsoever"

Such as making sure her ice cream isn't poisoned so he taste tests it first. but then it evolves into her spoon feeding him a few more bites... minutes later they're both sharing it together. then it becomes a weekly routine, get ice cream every Sunday afternoon

Or he checks everywhere in her room before she sleeps, under the bed, the closet, makes sure the windows are locked. then he sits in the room closest to that bedroom door and stays awake typing on his computer or something. but her nightmares make her jolt awake crying out, so he's rushing to her side and calming her. Minutes later he's crawling into bed next to her and cuddling her like a good bodyguard does. because all bodyguards cuddle in bed with the person they're protecting, right? sure, he's sure of it. yeah. This is an every night ordeal until finally she asks him to just sleep in the same bed with her so if she has a nightmare he can just be there immediately. and he's all calm and collected "sure of course I can do that for you" but he isn't sleeping immediately. he isn't in that habit. he's fully alert of every creak in the wood, the branches snapping outside, every tiny noise. His cheeks are on FIRE and he's trying to hide the shake in his hands when Keri suddenly rolls over in her sleep, her face pressed against his chest, unconsciously wrapping her arms around him. And he's wrapping his strong arms around her, petting her hair, suppressing the urge to kiss her forehead. YEAH SURELY ALL BODYGUARDS DO THIS. And for the first time in a very, very long time, Keri doesn't have any bad dreams that night.

Making sure he's always turning his head towards her and annunciating as clear as possible because he knows she needs to read lips to fully understand someone. He starts wearing chapstick. He starts sharing it with her. He tries not to think about how that chapstick is the closest he'll ever get to her lips. He tries not to dwell on that.

#saw an interview where ryan said that Six just wants so badly to live a little bit #and he's destined for this life of danger and he will never be free from it and it's all he craves #he doesn't want to be a spy. he doesn't want to be an assassin. #he wants to eat chicken nuggets and watch netflix and fall asleep on the couch #he doesn't want to jolt awake gasping every night. he doesnt want to look over his shoulder every 2 seconds #he doesnt want to be on high alert 24/7 knowing anyone and everyone is after him constantly #and he cant even trust the organization he was accepted into #so when he finds something that he enjoys like... a comfortable shirt or a delicious meal #or getting a new tattoo or listening to a good song. he holds onto that. #he just wants to live. and ryan said he cherishes those moments where he's living his life just a little #like at the party in the first scene he's just eating chicken and laughing a little with Dani #so I feel like w/ me he starts finding those moments more and more #bc I'm insisting Six have some more ice cream. Six come see this movie with me #Six you don't have to hold my bags just hold my hand. Six let's get you a Kenough shirt #Six let's go to that new pizza place and let me order you your favorite toppings. my treat #Six I saw this pendant and thought of you. Six I drew this for you. Six this song reminds me of you. #and slowly over time it's not just a bodyguard and the girl he's protecting #it's two friends teaching each other how to find love in living again #his love for the smallest moments gives her that bit of motivation to live too #his appreciation for the small things. those little gratitudes. they add up #I LOVE HIM SO MUCHHHHH #love notes #💕♡☆ I'll always protect you ☆🖤🎆 #IT FEELS SO GOOD TO WRITE LOVE NOTES AGAINNNNN

[chipsncookies]

I dont have energy to draw but I'll just put this analysis? Speculation? here as my contribution to emmelyn. This was originally posted on twt but i decided to compile it here for better collection

I've been thinking what would happen if emmet and evelyn pursue this relationship and get married. Will evelyn be working at gear station then? Iirc the battle chatelaines are already struggling to maintain the battle maison after their parents' death. I feel they won't appreciate eve leaving. Just look at this backstory (Morgan's line when battling with Nita)

At this point i must bring up that the Battle Subway and Battle Maison seem to be quite different, the latter seem to be struggling, judging from how desperate Morgan sounds since she's always telling them to do things in order to attract patrons to the Maison. They're even afraid of her (seriously check their quotes). Also besides pokemas, xy and oras are the only games they appear.

This contrasts heavily with the Battle Subway which seem to be quite popular and doing well. Their popularity is even mentioned in other games they don't appear in. The twins don't even mind changing careers (source: pokemas, but that depends if you consider pokemas canon). Maybe the fact that they also run a transportation service contributes to their success as opposed to the Maison, which focuses on entertainment, but this is speculation.

With these info, it seems submas have slightly better social (and maybe financial?) status than the chatelaines (This might also explain why eve felt bad for 'copying' emmet, as she said in pokemas). This difference might present some challenges in emmet and evelyn's relationship. After all, you cannot overcome these with love alone. How would evelyn deal with emmet being more successful, when she's already lacking self esteem? Can emmet accept evelyn and her sisters, knowing well they're struggling?

Which also brings us to another question, will emmet get along well with evelyn's family? Emmet has a good relationship with his twin brother ingo, but the battle chatelaines seem to be afraid of their eldest sister Morgan (seriously check their quotes). Will he be able to accept this or will there be some tension between him and her? Will Emmet's honest and blunt personality cause a problem?

Besides that, Emmet battles to have fun, not to earn income or maintain his station like the chatelaines. Will he be shocked or will his enjoyment decrease, knowing evelyn and her sisters battle for different reason? Will he clash with Morgan, who try so hard to earn profit? She's already a bit desperate and try to recruit any strong challengers they got, look at her line here

I have a feeling that evelyn ending up with emmet will make Morgan scream with joy, for multiple reasons 😅

I don't want to make emmet like some sort of money making machine, but from chatelaines' perspective emmet might just be what they needed since he could potentially attract many new challengers from different demographic. Will Morgan try to coax him to join them? Battle chatelaine emmet? 😬

I swear I'm not trying to demonize Morgan, this is how shes written in game, it could be that she feel pressured to reign them in, to preserve the Maison, causing her to be a bit harsh to them? What if the reverse is true, with Emmet around, there's more challengers and she can finally relax and not be as harsh on her sisters?

Or will emmet and evelyn's unity not affect the chatelaines at all? Or is there some sort of unique way where it makes everyone happy? Much to think about. I don't think there's any correct answer to this question, but these are ways it could be interesting to explore. What do you think?

#other people when shipping: makes cutesy headcanons #me: thinks about character dynamics based and their backstory status motivation personality etc would affect them #im weird ok 😅 #emmelyn #doublebattleshipping #pokemon #battle chatelaine #I sound like a rich parent who's arranging their child's marriage lmao 😂 (i do want them to be together though) #chipsays #i try to out every relevant thought here but it's getting late i might miss some things/there might be loints badly explained #whateve I'll check later

[bravevolunteer]

just so i have a post about it instead of vague complaining in tags— my activity will most likely be sparse until the 17th. i have about 10 days to complete two final projects, one of which is in its beginning stages and the other a large piece of group work that's on . kind of severe crunch time, so ic activity will not really be happening much if at all!

i will however still be annoying the dash with ooc posting ( so sorry ) and please please feel free to reach out to talk / plot, i am going to be slower than usual but i still have so many brain worms please—

#maybe posting this will make me actually accept it instead of staring at my laptop and my work like >:( #i so badly dont want to do it i'm dragging myself kicking and screaming except it just looks like me sitting on the couch #i feel bad saying this bc i've already barely been ic anyway JUST. I REALLY WANT TO. I SWEAR TO GOD IM ITCHING TO ANSWER MY STUFF #you'd think that would motivate me more. No. #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[snowberry-pie]

gortash and kit’s relationship in my head is this rly specific dynamic in my head of like. if the fake nice high school popular girl and the loser she “befriended” and kept in a toxic friendship were also cousins who had shitty parents. does this make sense

#bg3 #oc: kythonos #gortash #kit is a special situation where they know they’re being manipulated but they crave affection so badly that they will take it from whoever #is willing to give it. like i think #the fondness gortash felt for them was very much real but not devoid of ulterior motive #they both know this relationship is shitty. and they know that the other does too #but like! it’s the closest you’re gonna get when you’re in their situations #it’s why it’s important to me that when in act 3 gortash goes ‘but you? i liked you’ kit thinks to themselves. i don’t want this kind of #person to like me #i don’t want to be liked by this kind of person #which is a HUGE step up in character development

[purplelordscp035j]

Frick it! I got no motivation to draw shit! I wanna! Believe me I do! But the motivation and is gone! Which one of you shits stole it! Hand it back over please! >:[

-R

#shitpost #feel like I’m boring as shit #am I boring? is my blog boring? if it is then just say so #I can’t do comics I’ve tried I can’t do little short memes I have no motivation to do that #man I fucking suck! I don’t have anything! I want asks so badly but I might as well just like turn em off for my main #who gives a shit anyway I’m trying to do stuff I think will maybe stir up some asks! nothing nada zip #I’m boring and stupid

[mangocheesecakes]

I take back all the nice things I said about my dearest last week lol

#my dearest #kdrama #idk!! the writing in episode 10 is ???? idk it's not it #like the characters are saying what i wanted/expected them to say but it doesn't feel connected to their motivations/characterizations?? #i feel like it was badly edited. did i just download a bad file? #bcos like i feel like there was a cut during that moment when gilchae goes to janghyun's house and sees he's alive for the first time #but even so. it still felt like they compressed at least 2 episodes into this one #and like there were missing scenes in between the grand speeches. idk!!!!