#i was feeling a midnights song and then i was looking at the tracklist only to find that there are like. none left to play lol

[titsthedamnseason]

chicago n2! chicago n2! chicago n2! so excited for us to play again, you probably know the drill but leave your surprise song guesses in the tags or replies 💗 and if you’re right you get a shoutout from a tumblr mega blog (me)

i am going to guess stay beautiful and dear reader

#you don’t understand how badly i want her to sing stay beautiful #OH WHAT IF TONIGHT IS IDSB PIANO NIGHT? that’s my secret half guess #if it comes time for idsb and she plays it on the guitar i’ll probably have a breakdown #taylor swift #surprise song game #mine #i was feeling a midnights song and then i was looking at the tracklist only to find that there are like. none left to play lol #except some joe love songs which seems like too much of a reach #so i went with dear reader which i honestly think would match quite well with stay beautiful

[tragedyandterror]

ive made some playlists i thought i would share if anyone might like some bjr tunes! i have a serious one, a silly one, and one for the nebulous modern au tht lives in my brain

the last two i'll most likely still be adding songs here and there, but the 1st playlist is complete! i'll add the 1st playlist's tracklist+some lyric excerpts in the read more

black black heart - david usher

Something ugly this way comes Through my fingers sliding inside All these blessings all these burns I'm godless underneath your cover Search for pleasure search for pain In this world now I am undying I unfurl my flag my nation helpless Black black heart why would you offer more Why would you make it easier on me to satisfy I'm on fire I'm rotting to the core I'm eating all your Kings and Queens

dark entries - bauhaus

I came upon your room, it stuck into my head We leapt into the bed, degrading even lice You took delight in taking down my shielded pride Until exposed became my darker side

dissolved girl - massive attack

Shame, such a shame I think I kind of lost myself again Day, yesterday Really should be leaving, but I stay Say, say my name I need a little love to ease the pain Need a little love to ease the pain It's easy to remember, when it came

on the bound - fiona apple

You're all I need And maybe some faith would do me good I don't know what I'm doing Don't know, should I change my mind? I can't decide, there's too many variations to consider No thing I do don't do no thing but bring me more to do It's true, I do imbue my blue unto myself, I make it bitter

i think i'm paranoid - garbage

I think I'm paranoid And complicated I think I'm paranoid Manipulate it Bend me, break me anyway you need me All I want is you Bend me, break me, breaking down is easy All I want is you

symphony - dorian electra

Something's funny when I grab my guitar Feeling lonely like a dead shooting star I'm not the only one who's crashing your car (crashing your car) Need something louder just to drown out the scars (Make some fucking noise) Come on, baby, can't you see? (Can't you see?) I'm gonna need a symphony (symphony) And I'm gonna need to hear you scream

lecher bitch - genitorturers

I am the Lecher Bitch and I call on all who feed on danger Taste of the whore. Suffer my seed Crawl with the heretic and the world outside gets a little bit stranger

the bondage song - london after midnight

Innocent child, how you thought you knew me Understood my ways, my dark needs The hunt is not the thrill I'm after I want the kill, the conquest, to be your master Wrap your arms around my pale skin, it's too late to back out you're in On your knees and praise your new lord, deeper now And here's your reward, take me to bed and rip me apart

mercy - hurts

Fill me with rage And bleed me dry And feed me your hate In the echoing silence I shiver each time that you say Don't cry mercy There's too much pain to come

touch myself - genitorturers

I love myself, I want you to love me When I feel down, I want you above me I'll search myself, I want you to find me Forget myself, I want you to remind me I don't want anybody else When I think about you, I touch myself

nihil - 3teeth

Bound by flesh Freed by blood

this s*it will fcuk you up - combichrist

I am a bitch How do you want me? From behind Or on my knees? I am a slut Please hold me down I'll be your noise This shit will fuck you up

you spin me round - 3teeth

I set my sights on you And no one else will do And I I've got to have my way now, baby All I know is that to me You look like you're havin' fun Open up your lovin' arms Watch out, here I come

closer - nine inch nails

(Help me) I broke apart my insides (Help me) I've got no soul to sell (Help me) the only thing that works for me Help me get away from myself

you've seen the butcher - deftones

I wanna watch the way You creep across my skull You slowly enter 'Cause you know my room And then you crawl your knees off Before you shake my tomb

hey - pixies

Hey, must be a devil between us Or whores in my head Whores at the door Whore in my bed But hey! Where have you been? If you go, I will surely die

And the whores like a choir: Uh-uh All night And Mary, ain't you tired of this? Uh, is the sound That the mother makes when the baby breaks

hail mary - skating polly

She got hit so hard she just got up from the ground If she ever hits back, I won't tell Hey Mary, follow me out and we'll never walk back Hey Mary, tell me honestly you'd never want that Hail Mary, trust me, don't look back or it's gonna end badly

if you really love nothing - interpol

When I find my home The next artery Splendid I bled my whole life So it's probably a kiss Goodbye then

tangled up in plaid - queens of the stone age

Come, lets play along And let each other lose A win would cause an alarm Don't matter to me, don't matter to you

spaceboy - smashing pumpkins

And spaceboy, they'll kill me Before I'm dead and gone And any way you choose me It won't be wrong And any way you choose me We won't belong

#black jack randall #fanmix #the modern au is vry vibes based i dont have any real concrete story beats or anything thought out #its just smth fun for me to play around with #the central theme is definitely the cycle of abuse going on with bjr+making him face things+attempt to deal with them #i imagine a scenario in tht au where alex gets rly sick+bjr has to return to their family home+he doesnt handle any of it well at all #i also like the idea of modern bjr being into hook suspension which is vry self indulgent bc im fascinated by it lol #my vision of modern au bjr is an evil femme set to self destruct #i also kinda like the idea of him being a fencing instructor maybe 🤔

[mindvice]

Now that I’ve had a good chance to listen through the album multiple times, here are my thoughts, in a random messy order similar to the album itself 🙃

Overall it’s okay. It’s not a horrible album but it’s definitely one of my least favorites.

Half of the songs could be cut. A lot of the good songs could be even better with some more polishing. In a way it feels like a first draft?

It’s hard to get past this being a Matty album. I’m not a fan of his and I really don’t get why she seems more into him than the guy she was with for 6 years.

Speaking of Joe, I hope this album isn’t the first time he’s hearing about Taylor’s Matty fantasies. Guilty as sin? Yeah, maybe. Emotional cheating is still cheating.

That said, the masturbation song is really catchy

If I were Matty, I’d be a little weirded out by how obsessed Taylor is with him. But maybe that’s something he’s into. I wouldn’t be surprised if they get together again at some point.

She’s kind of saying she’d leave Travis for Matty if given the chance huh 🤔 Wonder if Travis has really listened to the full album and what he thinks of it.

Post Malone is so underutilized in Fortnight. I was hoping for something more like exile/coney island

Most of the songs I like are from The Anthology, probably because of Aaron Dessner

I feel like if Joe is going to only get a few songs, they better be amazing. So Long, London lacks the emotion I wanted.

Clara Bow is decent but feels so out of place. It reminds me of Olivia Rodrigo (as well as imgonnagetyouback obviously)

My top 3 (for now): I Hate It Here, I Look In People’s Windows, imgonnagetyouback

But if you had asked me earlier I really liked these too: Down Bad, Guilty As Sin?, The Black Dog

I hate the emphasis on Joe’s mental health. Looking back on her older songs, it seems like it was always an issue for her

Is it possible Joe didn’t want to marry Taylor partly because he knew she loved Matty? I don’t want to ruin the previous albums for myself but pretty sure there have been more songs about him than I realized

I wish I didn’t know so much of the Taylor lore. I think casual fans who know nothing about her personal life might enjoy the album more.

The Kim K song was unnecessary

The Alchemy and So High School are so cringe. But even though I don’t like Travis, I prefer him to Matty

I’ve been called out in But Daddy I Love Him. I didn’t sign that petition or anything but yeah I have no regrets about disapproving of someone who’s made racist and misogynistic comments.

I know a lot of people are comparing this album to Midnights. I haven’t been able to decide which one I prefer yet

I do agree that this is one of Taylor’s most honest and vulnerable albums.

“Lights, camera, bitch smile” is going to be my new affirmation

As parasocial as it is, I really do hope Taylor finds whatever she’s looking for, which I guess now seems to be marriage and children. But I think she has too much baggage from these past relationships that only time and therapy can fix

This photo is STUNNING. Why wasn’t this the album cover? Why don’t the other photos and the music match this aesthetic more?

Also here’s what I’d pick for the album (tracklist in this order):

I Can Do It With a Broken Heart

Guilty As Sin?

But Daddy I Love Him

Down Bad

loml

The Black Dog

I Look In People’s Windows

I Hate It Here

The Albatross

Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me?

imgonnagetyouback

Peter

The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

The Prophecy

How Did It End?

Also I love the chorus of Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me. As a big MCU/Scarlet Witch fan it instantly made me think of this part of WandaVision:

#honest review #plenty more thoughts but this post is getting long #taylor swift #ttpd #gif #joe alwyn #rambling

[fritextramole]

my blood runs red

part 4 of a Dan Humphrey playlist - best heard in order

tracklist and quotes under the cut

Einstein Brain ~ Admiral Freebee

She gave me a six month sentence For not being charming towards her friends With two hands you eat One hand to greet Everything she said Sounded like a repeat

Mistakes Like This ~ Prelow

I wanna know all the dreams that you keep beneath I want the words that you whisper when I'm asleep Wanna give back the things that I plan to take And I hope that you won't care But all your makeup's running

Black Magic Woman ~ Fleetwood Mac

Got your spell on me, baby You got your spell on me, baby Yes, you got your spell on me, baby Turning my heart into stone I need you so bad, magic woman I can't leave you alone

Human ~ dodie, Tom Walker

Unzip your skin and let me have a see Paint me in trust I'll be your best friend Call me the one This night just can't end

Like or Like Like ~ Miniature Tigers

I looked like a goon, I was dressed for winter Even though it was the middle of June

There's No Way ~ Lauv, Julia Michaels

I wish I could make the time stop So we could forget everything and everyone I wish that the time would line up So we could just give in to what we want

Tired of Being Alone ~ Al Green

Honey, please love me if you will

More Than A Woman ~ Bee Gees

You got me working day and night Just tryin' to keep a hold on you Here in your arms I found my paradise My only chance for happiness And if I lose you now, I think I would die

Baby I'm Yours ~ Arctic Monkeys

I'm gonna stay right here by your side And do my best to keep you satisfied Nothing in the world could drive me away

Love to Keep Me Warm ~ Laufey, dodie

I love the winter weather So the two of us can get together There's nothing sweeter, finer When it's nice and cold I can hold my baby closer to me

The Book of Love ~ The Magnetic Fields

The book of love has music in it In fact that's where music comes from Some of it's just transcendental Some of it's just really dumb But I I love it when you sing to me And you You can sing me anything

Autumn Sweater ~ Yo Lo Tengo

We could slip away Wouldn't that be better Me with nothing to say And you in your autumn sweater

At Your Door ~ Alexi Murdoch

Well, you can take from me all you think you need And you can bury it deep, deep in the ground But I will never let you down

Love Of My Life ~ Queen

When I grow older, I will be there at your side To remind you how I still love you Back, hurry back, please bring it back home to me Because you don't know what it means to me Love of my life

Mostly Dead ~ Joseph Dubay

I can't comprehend this bed I'm in Without you by my side I get so afraid that all I'll ever do Is haunt you God, it makes me weak to think How bad I fucking want you

Shut Up Kiss Me ~ Angel Olsen

I could take it down to the floor You don't have to feel it anymore A love so real that it can't be ignored

This Must Be The Place ~ Talking Heads

You got a face with a view I'm just an animal looking for a home Share the same space for a minute or two And you love me till my heart stops Love me till I'm dead

New Song ~ Maggie Rogers, Del Water Gap

I'm young but I feel like an old man The tar in my lungs and these cold hands They held onto you

Shimmer ~ Fuel

She dreams a champagne dream Strawberry surprise Pink linen on white paper Lavender and cream Fields of butterflies Reality escapes her She says that love Is for fools that fall behind And I'm somewhere between I never really know A killer from a savior

zombie girl ~ Adrianne Lenker

Sleep paralysis, I sworn I could've felt you there And I almost could've kissed your hair

Losing My Religion ~ R.E.M.

Every whisper, of every waking hour I'm choosing my confessions Trying to keep an eye on you Like a hurt, lost and blinded fool, fool Oh no I've said too much

midnight love ~ girl in red

Say I'm not your consolation prize I can't be your second best

Impossible ~ MOTHXR

All the lies I tell myself There's so much in your blood I'm here to help you let it out I'll cut you up all night baby girl if I'm allowed I'll use the same weaponry that you used on me

Cherry Wine ~ Hozier

Calls of guilty thrown at me All while she stains The sheets of some other

Love is All ~ the Tallest Man On Earth

The future was our skin and now we don't dream anymore

Wounded Heart ~ Matt Berry

You tore through me Like fire at a grand prix And I knew you'd won

#gg #ggplaylists #dan humphrey #gossip girl #source: senamarais

[pacinosgf]

many old guard stars have succesfully made the transition into the digital era, but barbara ann robinson is not of them: no social media team or presence whatsoever, though is known that she keeps a tight staff running anything related to her work. since she started dating a (younger) girl a few years ago, she has made some appearances on the internet: besides showing up on her girlfriend's account from time to time, barbara now has an instagram account from herself, where she posts videos playing bass and piano from time to time with the help of her beloved girlfriend. still, no one imagined she would show up in 2022 to talk about her only dig at a solo career for spotify, celebrating the 40th anniversary of the cult classic contemplations and ramblings.

     barbara ann: it's been 40 years since contemplations. that's more than half of my life. ( barbara chucks lightly to the camera, dressed in one of her famous flowy dresses and wearing her cowboy boots. ) so many things have happened since then. i've had girlfriends. i've broken up and reconciled with my husband. i've written some songs, we will get back to this. i've done some few shows. i turn 75 this year. it's been an eventful, mostly good, life. above everything, it's my life, and i think it's already obvious how much i like to ramble. i have always thought a bit too much for my own good, but it's important to contemplate from time to time, to remember where you came from and check where you are now. that's what i needed to do when i released contemplations. that was my remembering-and-checking moment.

     barbara ann: so, the first song is core. i had just come back from what you could call a nervous breakdown. i was desperately trying to get back on my feet, all i had to talk about was this solid emptiness inside of me. when i realized i wanted to do this record, and i wanted the theme to be, you know, my contemplations, i knew i wanted it to go from low to high. i start the record by saying that i know i ruined it all, that i couldn't face myself and that, well, if you are here you know it- that breaking up with brooke wellington messed me up. but there i was now, ready to accept the punch and move on with my life. the only thing that could truly make me feel better was reconciling with her, and that was not going to happen, so. i had to go on.

( pictures from the robinsons personal archives are shown on the screen, with home videos of barbara in her home studio and newspaper cutouts about barbara at the time of her mental breakdown and the end of midnight mayhems. )

     barbara ann: the second is don't tell me, the first one of many i wrote about brooke. you know, during my breakdown, i wasn't in the country, i was travelling. this is one of the first songs i wrote once i felt like myself again, probably at some european beach, while my husband pretended not to look what i was writing. it's me, finally letting some of this terrible pain crawl out of my body. if you don't know anything about the relationship me and brooke had, you'd think, by the lyrics, it was easier and ended better than it actually did. i still have this journal entry.

     barbara ann: this is where the fun starts, and the point where the rock fans who bought the record finally shut up about all my folk and country. success would be a perfect country song, but i wanted a contrast between the desperate lyrics and the dancing sound. i like to think some kids danced over my lyrics complaining about how terrible were the shifts as a nurse and how nobody but me believed that i could make it as a singer. it's a personal favorite out of the tracklist.

     barbara ann: here we come with success' sister, failure. thank god i became more subtle with time. also a rock song, now i admit that though i was in the top of the world at some point, i certainly didn't feel like it. i wasted that time worrying and once it was over i lost everything i loved. i had wasted all my years of hard work. when i listen to this one, i feel this sorrow all over again. it was not easy for me to admit that i had failed, that we had lost the war. but once again, the rythm distracts you from all that. failure is also an answer to brooke's playing your song, but i am only admitting this now.

     barbara ann: annie is my childhood nickname and the fifth song of the record. it's the longest one. my parents were odd and shy people just like i am, and though they mainly expressed their love through giving me a bed to sleep and food to eat, they were very loving. as a girl, me having to get married and leave home destroyed them. if it weren't the fact that i had to get married so i could study and leave my town, i would have stayed with them forever. it took me long to get used to the idea that my family would now be my husband's family and my only connection with the family i was born would now be my memories. i loved them. after my first tour with the band, i came back home all excited to share that happiness with them. they weren't so pleased.

( three pictures of young barbara show up on the screen. barbara as a baby on her father's truck, barbara studying as a well-behaved teenage girl and barbara smiling for the camera on the day of her wedding, just a few moments before becoming mrs. robinson. )

     barbara ann: the contemplations wouldn't be complete if i didn't come back to my childhood. i talk about running with the chickens all over our farm, about dreading my aunt's piano lessons, about being a young girl waiting for her lover to show up. about being a grown woman who had lived so much since then and wondering how that girl became this. i talk about how me and jim have been solid as a rock since the moment i agreed to be with him. i talk about how i never actually thought me and brooke would ever be over. i talk a lot. nowadays only jim calls me annie, since it's the person that has been the longest with me, and that's what i like about our relationship. he has seen and been through all the barbaras that i have been.

     barbara ann: i go back to talking about brooke with crazy on you. it's quite a sensual song. our relationship wasn't all about sex, but it was a big deal for both of us. brooke was, is, a free spirit, and it took me long to follow her steps and stop being so repressed. i think she would still call me repressed. but here i reminisce our nights on tour, when everything was so intense and hot and there was nothing we wanted to do more than to go crazy on each other. i try to sing like she does, i reference her song ash. i really did not want to be subtle.

     barbara ann: bait and love bites are sensual too, but in a different way. i acknowledge the complexities of our relationship, how one day we would be making love promises to each other and then the next day we'd say we were just messing around, and then the next we would break up. and repeat it all the next day. but it didn't matter, because we always came back to each other. even after all those years, if she called me, i'd drop anything to answer. i'm her bait. for love bites. and all.

     barbara ann: we get to moving on, where i finally collect myself and stop crying over brooke. it was hard, but i did. there is a point where you learn how to live with the pain and the simple things that suddenly seemed so hard to do become simple again. i'd never get over her, but for my own sake, i had to pretend i could. and so i did.

     barbara ann: it's a stroke of luck having myself again, i saw a girl in the street wearing this shirt once. stroke is my favorite song out of the released ones. it's me, being able to trust myself again, being able to live with myself again. i have the belief that you don't have to love yourself, but you can't make your own life harder than it needs to be. you have to at least be neutral about yourself, and i liked having myself on my side.

     barbara ann: the last one is call her. it obviously doesn't match the rest of the record, but i needed to add it, so entranced i was by amèlie bergstein's charm, whom i met at one of those boring hollywood parties. she flirted with me and said i should make a new record, i promptly told her i had a few song written down. it's also the only song out of the album that became a hit, the song to her, the song about her. i know for a fact she loves it.

     barbara ann: this is the official tracklist, the one i released way back in 1982. many songs were left out, and those, along some others that i have written over the years, will be released in contemplations and ramblings' special reissue for its 40th anniversary. i told you i had lived so much since then. ( barbara chuckles, and the camera lowers down to show the record cover she holds, a modern version of the contemplations one, with older barbara and her characteristic melancholic look staring at the camera. )

( once again pictures from the robinsons person archive show up on the screen, pictures taken since 1982. you can see barbara with her stepchildren, barbara and some of the girlfriends she had since then, barbara and jim at their ranch. )

     barbara ann: we start the new batch with bw. somehow someone leaked it and now there are dozens of audios of the song around the internet. i recorded it so it could be on contemplations, but i thought it was too heavy for the record. i still think it's quite heavy. it's another song that i wrote during my exile, and you can see by all the traces of sorrow and bitterness in the lyrics. it's bw for brooke wellington. i couldn't find a better name for it, but the lyrics made up for the lack of a creative name. i've never been more honest in a song. this kind of love i wrote about back then, which is the love we had, is not one you get over. i lost myself when i lost her, and i got myself back by accepting that i could not get her back, but daydreaming about it should be enough.

     barbara ann: on a brighter note, we have maybe love. it's about my husband. i've never written many songs about him, which i know upsets him and it's a flaw of mine. i was always very protective of our relationship, because i soon realized people understood brooke and dash's arrangement better than ours. brooke and dash were different people. they would scream and get their feelings out and they didn't care about anything as long as they were having fun. but me and jim worried, i felt bad because i loved someone else, he felt bad because he could never compare, we would suck it up until we finally exploded. but i also haven't written many songs about him because me and jim were real. solid. we existed in both of the worlds we lived. we were in the same band, but we also would go back home and do the groceries and i'd say that he had to fix the sink and he'd say i had burned the eggs again. the day-to-day mattered me. meanwhile, i had to resort to writing songs to talk about my relationship with brooke.

     barbara ann: anyway, maybe love goes back to our early days, as boyfriend and girlfriend, as newlyweds. i remember the anxiety i felt about finally becoming a woman, going from girl to wife in a night. i didn't love jim from the start, but i wanted to, and as we progressed, as i felt it was safe to trust him... well, after so many years, we are still together, you see.

     barbara ann: i sang this one in a midnight mayhems' concert once and it almost made it into the contemplations' setlist, but it's finally out. renegade is, obviously, about brooke, straight out of the midnight mayhems momentum. as i sang it and attentively watched her face so i could see what she was thinking, she held her head high and went on drinking her beer, left the stage a few times, didn't say much besides alright, enough with the moping. she had this thing about saying that she never needed anybody or anything, that nothing could ever affect her. we fought a lot about this. i wanted to be there for her, she wanted me to go easy and leave her alone. the drugs and the chaos gave her an escape from this life, while i wanted to pull her out of that. i couldn't accept to watch her destroying herself. sometimes i though she did it on purpose, kept fucking herself up so i would get tired of her or whatever. i couldn't understand her, she couldn't understand me. after i finished the song, just me, rambling alone on the mic and playing a made in the moment melody for five minutes, i remember dash said something like you are fucked up, barbara on his mic. as always, we aired the dirty laundry on stage. the only thing we did without a crowd, besides sex, was breaking up.

     barbara ann: his song is about the years me and jim spent apart. i wanted to free him from our relationship, so i said he was free to go, to meet someone nice and have a normal relationship as he dserved. i wanted him to do it. but he felt i was getting rid of him, so he got back at me. if you are here, you know what happened, i don't wanna talk about it, but the song is i what i felt during those years. i thought we'd never reconcile. i still haven't forgiven him for what he did. but then again, he will never forgive me for falling in love with someone else. we will have to keep on living this way.

     barbara ann: if it's been 40 years since contemplations, it's been a bit longer since the moment i told brooke i was leaving. we have done a few band reunions, we never had a proper relationship, but my love for her is still as strong as it was then. every girlfriend of mine has had to deal with her shadow, and i don't plan to get rid of it. this love keeps me grounded, as much i have suffered over it, as much as it is hopeless. as you age, you start to appreciate even the bad things that happened to you. i will always ache over the fact that we didn't work out, but at the same time it's such a beautiful feeling! i wouldn't trade it for anything. our love was fleeting and intense in a way that doesn't seem real. sometimes i wonder if she ever loved me too or if i simply want to believe she did. but what is the good in thinking so much? love is something to feel.

     barbara ann: and i do feel. i never buried brooke's ashes, you see. i kept the memories as my allies in life, close to me so i could dip into them whenever reality felt too much. ashes is a song i wrote for contemplations, but it never made into the final cut. i think i only recorded half of it back then. jim asked me to not release it, and though he gave me no reason, i felt obliged to comply. he had never felt anything so strong about my work to the point he couldn't simply ignore it. but we have accepted our problems since then, enough that i'm releasing it now.

     barbara ann: the same way i accept mine and brooke's relationship in ashes, i accept mine and jim's relationship in yosemite. we did good things for each other, we did bad things for each other, through affairs and children and breakdowns, we are the person each other wants to be with every day, and so we will, until we die.

     barbara ann: we finish with years, baby sister to annie and stroke. it's me, talking to myself, once again thinking about everything that happened in my life and who i am in this world. ever since i was a child and even after i decided to retreat from living in the spotlight, people have been trying to tell me who i am, who i must be, and their words were once my sense of self. this is the past. the best thing aging gives you is that you realize that nothing really matters in this world, but that you must engage with life anyway. before we even know it, it's over, but we once lived.

@gllianowens

#ok essas são as musicas oficiais! #até que eu fale o contrário #o bebê é a stevie tar #nao um aleatorio #barbara ann.

[midnightsslut]

a few midnights predictions after a chat with @cages-boxes-hunters-foxes:

lavender haze - ‘we lie awake in love and fear’ / ‘a journey through terrors and sweet dreams’ - the fear of losing your love due to outside forces (‘you said there was nothing in the world that could stop it’), combined with the beauty of actually being in love. reminiscent of what she said about the ‘phantom pain’ that inspired both dancing with our hands tied and the archer in different ways.

anti-hero - ‘we lie awake […] in turmoil and in tears’ / ‘we twist in our self-made cages’ - this one’s pretty self-explanatory. it’s basically an exploration of her most restless and self-loathing nights.

midnight rain - ‘a journey through terrors and sweet dreams’ - as romantic as the title sounds, it seems more reminiscent of clean and evermore to me. the position of the song on the tracklist also makes me think it’s a turning point in the album just like look what you made me do is. this is the point where she starts to feel as though she’s cleansing her mind through her sleepless nights. the only way forward is through - a fairly common theme in her discography since 1989.

question..? and karma - ‘…pray that we aren’t - right this minute - about to make some life-altering mistake.’ - she questions her own involvement in her future (i.e. the possibility of ruining your life with one mistake), while also subverting this theme by attributing her fate to karma (i.e. a mix of her own actions and involvement from a higher power.

vigilante shit - ‘the floors we pace and the demons we face’ // ‘for all of us who have tossed and turned and decided to keep the lanterns lit and go searching’ - she is a vigilante of her own past and mind.

bejeweled and labyrinth - again, ‘our self-made cages.’ cages are both metallic/shiny on the surface (‘gold cage, hostage to my feelings’) and hard to navigate mentally.

mastermind - this is pure conjecture, but I think mastermind will be a hoax style summary of the album’s themes. since mental health and fate seem to feature in both the album prologue and the track titles (especially karma), mastermind will probably address those. Taylor herself is the mastermind behind her own fate: all the self-mythologizing and wondering about ‘invisible strings’ in her life is her doing.

#midnights predictions #midnights #midnights mayhem with me

[startreatment]

i feel like i can say this here so i’m just gonna let loose but i think jack doesn’t challenge taylor and that’s why midnights is so…. i hate to say uninspired but that’s how it feels. like, maybe if we weren’t rehashing similar themes in previous albums over and over again with some pretty mediocre beats in the background it’d be fine but someone needs to light a fire under taylor or something, im not even saying this in a “she’s a horrible songwriter” type of way… it just feels like she’s gotten too comfortable and has become maybe stagnant in a way?? like i enjoy karma and sweet nothing is cute but when you look at the lyricism on this album vs her recent work it doesn’t feel cohesive. like she could do better. i’ve seen the argument that people “just hate fun” but that isn’t the truth, we can have fun with taylor… literally look at lover & 1989, it’s just so like “that’s it?”.

first of all, i am so flattered that you came in my inbox to bitch, love you for that <3 second of all, YES!!! COULDN'T FUCKING AGREE MORE!!!!!!! i couldn't put my thoughts into words, but you said it perfectly! yeah, she's fucking rehashing the same themes and i'm sick of it. folklore and evermore are outliers in this, because she very masterfully mixed up her own stories and stories she made up, which is one of the reasons they felt so fresh and exciting, despite both having jack in the credits. i don't want to be an asshole and say that artists are only good when they struggle and suffer, but how many times can you tell the same falling-in-love story? sure, having new perspective can be fun, especially when it's a retrospective/reflective thing, but at this point it just feels... reductive? idk. like, the fact that it's a popular thing for swifties to be like "false god belongs on reputation", or "high infidelity is so evermore!", or "paris sounds like something off 1989" is not good. doesn't necessarily mean she's constantly writing the same song (even though it feels like it sometimes, especially if you rearrange them a bit), it just shows that all three of those pop records are not entirely, and i'm sorry to say this, sonically cohesive. lately, it feels like she just puts most of the songs make it onto her records and very little gets left on the cutting floor or whatever. i do not think songs like mastermind/vigilante shit/paris belong on an album like midnights, purely because i don't think they fit the ~vibe. and that's a problem, at least to me! when i first saw the tracklist, i was So Excited. a 13 track album?? finally, she's gonna pick the very best songs instead of making a bloated 16+ track mess (looking at you, lover)!! oh, wait.. there are 8 more tracks? yeah, that's taylor alright.

i know nothing about music industry, but what i do know is that the most exciting music taylor swift has ever made was heavily influenced by

a) working with a new producer, stepping out of her comfort zone (1989, folklore)

b) going through a horrible break up (red)

c) having Shit to prove to losers and people who doubted her abilities (speak now and 1989)

so yeah, i also agree that she needs to be challenged, needs to try something she hasn't done before. she's incredibly talented and hard-working, to see her waste her time/money/mental resources on shit like midnights when i KNOW she can make shit like 1989, red and folklore, is upsetting.

#that shift back to pop makes no sense to me. #i mean it kinda does. she's having another peak and she's doing everything to leave a legacy. 10 tracks in top 10??? that's fucking insane #i just wish she was less success oriented. oh well! that's who she is so... #but if her next album is another pop mess with jack i might have to move on with my life like i don't have the time to go though that shit #anyway sorry this is so long. i didn't proofread this at all so sorry for any weird spellings i've had a long day <3 #honey ask me i should know*

[cosettepontmercys]

Hi Cossette! I enjoy MUNA's discography (their self-titled release from 2022 is really good) :D I just quickly looked up some details on The Japanese House's upcoming album and there will be a MUNA collab!!

One of my favourite Phoebe Bridgers features happen to be Silk Chiffon from MUNA's self-titled album! I also enjoy her more acoustic collabs e.g. Nothing New, but Silk Chiffon is a pleasant surprise in that the song is more sonically polished and upbeat (though the lyrics are nevertheless very moving)

For Speak Now TV, I'm most excited about the vault tracks: the previously unreleased self-written songs that she wrote in 2009 ~ 2010. I don't have any specific songs on the top of my mind, but I'm certainly preparing to be surprised by her choices!

In addition to the vault tracks, I'm also looking forward to listening to Sparks Fly and Back To December with the much improved production & vocals in the re-recording! (and yes!! fingers crossed that she will expand more of Speak Now & the Debut in the later shows of Th Era Tour)

I just looked up about Gracie's upcoming deluxe version of Good Riddance and am looking forward to hearing the bonus tracks :D Listening to deluxe / expanded versions is fascinating that you get to appreciate a musician's creative process towards working on the main album e.g. the songs that almost made it to the standard tracklist and it's a joy to see these songs seeing the light of the day 💖

Gracie had mentioned about personal growth whilst working on Good Riddance, so the deluxe tracks will be a wonderful opportunity to listen to the additional songs that paved way towards her maturing artistry!

P.S. Speaking of album tracks, what are some of your all-time favourite deluxe / bonus album songs?

hello jennifer!!! i hope you're having a good thursday! i saw something about a MUNA collab, and saw something about bon iver also being on the album and i'm so so excited. i know justin has worked with the japanese house before on dionne, and i really like the way their voices blend together so i'm really excited for whichever track he ends up on — i'm just so excited for in the end it always does to drop! i've been listening to sunshine baby nonstop (to be fair, i haven't been listening to a lot of music this week though).

i've only listened to the MUNA "essentials" playlist and i really like the things i've heard but i need to do a proper deep dive! i downloaded all three of their albums to listen to on the plane tomorrow, but we'll see if i actually end up listening to it! speaking of speak now TV, i wonder when we'll get a speak now TV vault puzzle! i would love for debut to get it's own section (and for more speak now songs on tour), but i feel like it's pretty set in stone now unfortunately, at least for the US leg. i'm still crossing my fingers for surprise songs though! there are a lot of things on speak now that i'm attached to (like the shaky breath in last kiss) that i hope she'll keep for the rerecording too! and yes!! i'm super super excited for gracie's deluxe good riddance! i ordered the vinyl a little bit ago, and i'm really glad that i waited to order it (there was a good riddance vinyl available in the UK that i almost caved and bought, but it didn't include the deluxe tracks). noah kahan is also, i believe, announcing the deluxe version of stick season today (?) which is exciting! i think his vinyl is also going to include the deluxe songs, which i'm really thrilled about. i'm still a little bit bummed that the midnights 3 AM songs aren't on vinyl!

i think my favorite deluxe/bonus album songs include: if this was a movie, come back...be here, jump then fall (i'm counting fearless platinum edition), the great war, new romantics, you are in love, wonderland, bruises by reneé rapp, it'll all work out by phoebe bridgers, and then all four tracks on the emails i can't send: fwd album by sabrina carpenter (opposite, feather, lonesome, and things i wish you said). i feel like i'm missing some songs here, but that's all i can think of right now! what are some of your favorites? 🤍

#post: answered #mutual: jennifer

[thisselflovecamebacktome]

'#it especially makes the tracklist order make more sense to me tbh' I'm sure this is a dumb question, but what do you mean by this? Because the tracklist order still feels a little random to me so I'd love to hear your thoughts

Not a dumb question at all. Like until I listened to the album in full after making the realisation of it being the equivalent of calling your exes and asking why it didn't work, I felt the tracklist order was all over the place and felt off, but it just clicked to me upon that specific listen through. I'm going to go through it track by track below, but yeah I'm gonna put it under a read more because it'll be long lmao.

So in short, while I don't want to go as far as to call the tracklist the equivalent of a mental breakdown because that's dramatic, I do think it highlights the ebbs and flows of what goes through a person's mind when they're in a relationship that they're uncertain about the future for and unsure if they should stay in or not. Like to me the flow between one topic and another just feels more natural in a stream of that kind of mindset. My thoughts on how each track fits this is below.

Lavender Haze: The starting point of the thought process. I've always felt this song was about 2016 (first verse) and 2021 (second verse) with the bridge being a general comment and now I'm more sure than ever of that. By having both, it sets up not only how Taylor perceives fame as the main issue in her life but also why she wants to fight so badly for this relationship. I'm unsure if it's intentional but it's also interesting to have 'haze' be a part of the first song, indicating that she's not seeing clearly, but would rather be in love and not seeing clearly than consider other people's concerns in a moment where the relationship isn't working (tying in The Great War where she felt she was being betrayed by analysing someone else's [the other woman's] disregard to the relationship). With the truth now coming out that Joe was not 'handling [the scrutiny] beautifully', this song acts as somewhat of a mix of Taylor reminding herself of a time where he did and trying to convince herself that he still does and that's worth fighting for.

Maroon: Coming from a place of 'looking back at past relationships to see what didn't work when your current one isn't working', Maroon makes sense to be next because Joe and Jake are the most alike of Taylor's exes. And I mean this personally, both of them could not handle her fame/not being on her level with that being a big reason for the split and both of them being the biggest loves of her life so far. While I'm not going to talk about the order of the 3am tracks here because I don't think there's much to say past the last 3 tracks being deliberate with Dear Reader being a great closer and Glitch clearly being a sequel to High Infidelity, I also have always felt like the lyrical similarities between Maroon and The Great War (including The Great War being later on, making Maroon 'the past', like part of Jake's legacy is how Taylor interacts with lovers sadly) and to a lesser degree Maroon with Lavender Haze stick out to me whenever I listen to this album, making the similarities between the two men all the more noticeable. So yeah, the jump from what happened with Joe to what happened with Jake is the smallest and flows well when considering this angle.

Anti Hero: The spiralling moment of "god maybe I'm the problem" (no pun intended). Like especially with the "Taylor Swift is the problem" movement being at its height at the time Taylor was on again/off again with Jake, again it makes sense for this to be the next step.

Snow On The Beach: The moment of clarity of "yet despite being the problem, Joe still wanted me at my worst and things were good at the beginning when it was just the two of us".

You're On Your Own Kid + Midnight Rain: As an aside note, I've always seen YOYOK as a purely sad song, not bittersweet/happy at the end and I think this is highlighted more here. But yeah these two both acknowledge how multifaceted her feelings of fame are. Because yeah she worked her ass off and achieved all she wanted without anyone's help. No one coming into her life or leaving it can take that away from her. But it also came at a cost and has caused her a lot of pain and has been the downfall of most of her relationships (making it clear that's the fault of the guy for not being able to handle it, but she's still at the stage of blaming the fame itself). It feels natural that something like this would come after Snow On The Beach, a song about someone wanting her despite her being at her worst/things being good when fame wasn't as much of a factor.

Question: Tbh kinda a sense of "Do you know what else fame fucking ruined for me? Any chance I had with Harry", a dude who should have been able to handle it because he was at the same fame level as her. Again, with that being one of the heights of fame interfering with her love life, it makes sense to be in this section and flows well as a "it's not just that Joe isn't as famous, it's that fame is the issue" connector.

Vigilante Shit: What better time than when bitter about all the ways fame fucked you over is there to include a song about the main dude who facilitated the bad press about you and has benefited from it the whole way through? Like this song isn't just about her masters, it's about how he facilitated snakegate, how he has been alleged to have paid for every bad story about her (and Selena) to be written and more. So having Question, a song about one of the periods where the press was at its worse, flow into this makes sense.

Bejeweled, Labyrinth + Karma: The 2016 + consequences/rewards trio. It's not hard to imagine how talking about Scooter would be a small jump to Bejeweled (what was going on while he was orchestrating snakegate) and then Labyrinth was the direct sequel with Karma being the ultimate recognition that without those fallouts, she wouldn't be where she is. Like the chorus and bridge of Karma is in many ways, the song version of "without your past you could never have arrived so wondrously and brutally by design or some violent, exquisite happenstance here." from her Why She Disappeared poem. It's also the turning/decision point that yes, what her and Joe have is worth fighting for and she does want to stay (even if it is in that Lavender Haze). I do wonder/find it interesting how much of this was her convincing herself though considering that while I do 100% believe Bejeweled is purely about Calvin, it's clear that Taylor was feeling cast out at that point with Joe. Like the latter two songs almost feel like a reminder to/convincing herself that Joe is not Calvin and this is different.

Sweet Nothing: This song is not only the embodiment of the good parts of Joe and Taylor's relationship but also living proof of what they can achieve when they work together considering he cowrote for it. I know a lot of people say that they believe in the double meaning (that he didn't need anything from her professionally but also wanted someone less famous/more dependent on him) and I can definitely see that, but I would say that this song goes back to Lavender Haze in the way that it's a "well I don't like fame and would rather be home with him anyway", which again, makes him different from Calvin (at least in the moment, ultimately it sounds like it wasn't), who, we later find out in High Infidelity, Taylor felt suffocated by when put in the same position. The contrast to Calvin/2016 in general also makes it make sense why her mind would flow from Labyrinth to Karma rather than having the two Scooter songs together.

Mastermind: The counter song to YOYOK. This is the "Hell yeah I worked my ass off and played the game and look where it got us. I got to have love and fame". Very classic Taylor to finish on a high note that encompasses the main themes (her need to be loved + understood, fate vs her own actions, why this love/pain hits different [pun intended] for her etc).

3am tracks/Hits Different + other thoughts: Like I said, I don't have much to say about the non standard tracks because outside of the pairing of High Infidelity + Glitch and Dear Reader being last, I don't really think there was much of a narrative purpose for the order. If anything, all I could really add is that it makes sense that WCS (and BTTWS if it's about her growing up too fast like some think it is) makes sense to be on the deluxe because while it does fit the theme of going back and considering what went wrong with your exes, there's no direct tie in what happened with John and fame or how it led her to Joe like there is with the standard songs. Likewise the rest of them just don't really sonically/narratively fit in with the standard in my opinion, so she made the right choice having them be seperate.

What I do want to mention is that I think Aaron recently mentioning that some of his songs being written when they were at the 2021 grammys (so months before the standard tracks with Jack) is extremely interesting and may lend some insight into how long Taylor felt cast aside for as well as how this album came to be. Like I don't think it's a coincidence that the John and Calvin songs came on not only a night where she had to see John (which she has noted that she actively avoids where possible because it upsets her that much), but on a night where she once again was receiving the top award for her field without her partner being present (call back to what she said on Miss Americana about winning the 2016 AOTY grammy). Also just in general, I'd argue that out of her exes John and Calvin are more alike to each other than they are to any of the others. And before anyone says it, yes, while it's possible Joe didn't show due to Covid restrictions, given how many other things he's missed over the years and that seemingly being a main if not the reason they ultimately broke up, I'm not so sure of that anymore. Like I don't want to speculate, but I imagine the mix of those things alongside the potential issues with her and Joe's then current relationship made his absence all the more noticeable.

Likewise, I don't think it's a coincidence that the songs about Jake, Harry and fame came at a time where not only was Taylor releasing her rerecorded album from 2012, but where Joe was once again not available, this time definitely due to his own fame/career. Like it sounds harsh, but the tie between the standard and deluxe tracks seems to be Joe reminding her of her exes by not showing up.

Anyway, it's almost 2am here so hopefully this makes sense and please feel free to send more asks if it doesn't, but yeah, like this album and it's tracklist order just make a lot more sense and flows better to me since realising that it's the equivalent of calling your exes to ask where things went wrong to try and figure out what's going wrong in your current relationship in album form.

#taylor swift #midnights

[septembersghost]

This may be stupid/impossible but can you put the album in chronological order for me? I'm trying to figure out each story and where it should go 😵

in chronological order of when they happened in her life? 😅 maybe! i'll try to tie in other songs as touchstones too, though there are far more than just what i'll mention.

you're on your own, kid spans her entire career

2. midnight rain (this is a guess, but it sounds like someone she knew very young, and reminiscing about that small town feeling, the "normal" life she gave up, we could say debut-fearless, i've seen it connected to the way i loved you, and to the story of 'tis the damn season/dorothea from evermore)

3. would've, could've, should've (preceding speak now era, connected to dear john and the story of us, jm)

4. bigger than the whole sky (this is me taking a shot in the dark only because this and the previous song are linked lyrically - "what would've been, could've been, what should've been you," in my head is her mourning herself, because that's how it speaks to *me*, and how i grieve myself. there are dozens of different interpretations of this song and we're probably all wrong, but i like them as a devastatingly heartbreaking pair, so.)

5. maroon (red era, jg, it's literally just. it's all of the heartbreak and yearning and quiet anger that exist on red as a whole record, but darker.)

6. question...? (1989 era, hs, interpolates out of the woods, also very i wish you would and all you had to do was stay)

7. bejeweled (post 1989/pre-reputation era, ch, i'm smacking the next person who misinterprets this as anything having to do with her current life with a glove, he was stifling her and dimming her shine)

8. high infidelity (pre-reputation era, ch, possibly reflective of tolerate it, and ivy tbh, from this point all love songs are about joe, who is mentioned here, "he brought me back to life," which very briefly connects to gorgeous and paper rings)

9. glitch (pre-rep, connected imho to so it goes... and cruel summer and cowboy like me)

10. snow on the beach (pre-rep, but i'm not 100% sure of this placement, i'm only putting it here because of the feeling of delicate, and falling in love at the same time vibes seeming like early on, glimmers of long story short and cornelia street as well)

11. labyrinth (pre-rep but to me also spans time, she's initially afraid of losing him here, maybe linked to dancing with our hands tied, but he turns the plane around, which is very evermore)

12. hits different (pre-rep, i think? also some gold rush vibes. feels like it leads into the next)

13. the great war (i assume also pre-rep, possibly connected to lover's the archer and afterglow)

14. anti-hero (since this is taylor about herself and her insecurities, i'm just slotting it here due to what happened, and her snake hiss in, "everybody agreesssss," but it isn't specific to one moment)

15. paris (reputation, because they were somewhere else, and she wasn't bothered by any news)

16. lavender haze (lover, also spans time though, including the past - the haze is mentioned in TGW - and reaches the present, a little i think he knows, a little call it what you want, a little daylight)

17. vigilante shit (gonna say lover era when she decided to re-record, could also be more recent, see: mad woman)

18. mastermind (reputation-lover-present, invisible string on purpose)

19. karma (reputation-lover-present, u know we love a london boy)

20. sweet nothing (rep/lover-folklore-present, it's peace and it's daylight)

21. dear reader (as the closer, spans time to the present like yoyok)

and now looking at this tracklist, even though some of it is estimates, this looks like a fabulous album and i'm going to have to listen to it in this order 👀💖

#this was such an interesting question anon i hope i did okay and that this helps what you were asking! #taylor swift #midnights #anonymous #letterbox

[iknowthatitsdelicate]

midnights songs as pairs

guided by the tracklisting, here are connections between adjacent songs

lavender haze vs. maroon

"i just wanna stay in that lavender haze" vs. "how did we lose sight of us again" / "it was maroon". she is comparing two different loves to different colors, and in the first song she is fearful that outside forces will cause the relationship to fail. she is concentrated on protecting it, staying in love, and not losing sight of it. lavender is also a softer, easier color than the dark reds.

anti-hero vs. snow on the beach

"i'm a monster on the hill" vs. "life is emotionally abusive" / "you wanting me tonight feels impossible". feeling absolutely undesirable because of your own brain is present in anti-hero but in snow on the beach someone is there to want you despite this, and it feels impossible.

you're on your own, kid vs. midnight rain

"i didn't choose this town, i dream of getting out, there's just one who could make me stay" vs. "my town was a wasteland" / "and the love i gave away". early parts of the yoyok mirror what midnight rain seems to be about - wanting more from the life you have, leaving your town to get it, and leaving a love behind.

question..? is right in the middle!

vigilante shit vs. bejeweled

"draw the cat eye, sharp enough to kill a man" / "looks can kill and i might try" / "dressing for revenge" vs. "i polish up real nice" / "i can still make the whole place shimmer" / "i think it's time to teach some lessons". in the first song, she is dressing as a way of enacting revenge, dressing to show her success. bejeweled is about reclaiming self-confidence through glamming yourself up, but there are undertones of putting someone in their place whilst doing it, which kind of mimics vigilante shit.

labyrinth vs. karma

"it only hurts this much right now" / "never trust it if it rises fast, it can't last" / "i thought the plane was going down, how'd you turn it right around" vs. "you're terrified to look down ... you'll see the glare of everyone you burned just to get there, it's coming back around" / "karma is my boyfriend"

labyrinth starts with pain and fear, but it turns into love. what "comes around" is actually something wonderful, it's love, it's her boyfriend who turned the crashing plane "around". it's hard to trust because it happened quickly, but in karma the alternative is to rise up high by burning the people below them - this is what can't last.

sweet nothing vs. mastermind

"what a mind" / "all you ever wanted from me was nothing" vs. "'you knew the entire time... i'm a mastermind... and now you're mine" / "i've been scheming ... to make them love me". in sweet nothing, she is valued for her brain, her mind, after writing a poem. in mastermind, she is scheming but he loves that part of her too. she also tries and tries to get people to like her her whole life. but in sweet nothing she doesn't have to do anything to make him love her. he wants nothing from her and loves her as is.

#taylor swift #midnights #poor question...? stuck in the middle haha #lavendar haze #maroon #ts10

[terrainofheartfelt]

*pirouette**arabesque* just dancing in to give another unsolicited song recommendation - "love you like that" by dagny is the song for all your "blair fell first" needs (and workout/power walk mixes). I would include my lyrics of choice, but really it's the whole dang thing, so I'll just drop in part of the chorus: "you know when they say you got the real thing / and nothing else matters? / I love you like that / I love you like that." INSTANT SEROTONIN TO MY BRAIN.

*clumsily soft-shoes in* soooooo funny thing about these lovely unsolicited song recommendations (which are always welcome)…I made you a Thing:

nevertothethird’s Unofficial Dair Playlist

(aka Dan Humphrey and Blair Waldorf Are Total Saps: the Album)

So I took all of your recs from the ask box and ao3 comments, added a few of my own selected tracks and made 🥁🥁🥁 this playlist!

Youtube link here. Tracklist & annotations under the cut. I hope you enjoy! 💖💖💖

Young and in Love - Ingrid Michaelson

Starting strong with this absolute BOP

And you break my walls down (Coming down) / 'Cause you make me fall apart in a good way

Only You - as performed by Joshua Radin

Pulled directly from the ao3 comments on the milo-verse. I was immediately interested bc I love the original so much. Which may or may not be Captain Swan related

Wonder if you'll understand / It's just the touch of your hand / Behind a closed door

Like Ships Need the Sea - Emily Hearn

Another ao3 comment rec

Finally, you gave me the hope I'd awaited / Finally, you gave me your heart

Storm Comin’ - The Wailin’ Jennys

The first of my own inserts to pad out this playlist. I picked this one because a) The Wailin’ Jennys are an all-time fave and their albums were the soundtrack of my writing the “I know a place”-verse (plus that series title is a lyric of theirs!) and b) it’s hella sexy

When that love calls, open up your door

Souvenir - boygenius

Pulling thorns out of my palm / Work a midnight surgery / When you cut a hole into my skull / Do you hate what you see? / Like I do

Best Friend - Ingrid Michaelson

It’s the friends to lovers angst of it al

I keep my mouth shut tight / 'Cause I won't want to lose what's not even mine

Love You Like That - Dagny

Blair Fell First™

I know when I say it, it doesn't say enough / With you close, I'm the happiest I ever was / I tend to avoid getting emotional / I'm not shutting you out

So Long, Honey - Caamp

And there’s this feeling I get / When you’re in the room / I want you to stay

The One You Love - Passenger feat Kate Miller Heidke

Another insert because the VIBES. Something something pure & simple love etc etc

Oh, and if you find someone / That doesn't undermind you / If you find someone / That doesn't drag behind you

ivy - tswift

I wish to know / The fatal flaw that makes you long to be / Magnificently cursed / He's in the room / Your opal eyes are all I wish to see / He wants what's only yours

Strawberries - Caamp

Be my books, head on your shoulder with damn good looks

Jealous - Ingrid Michaelson

I used to be so sweet / Now I see a change coming over me

High and Low - Joshua Radin

This is technically my addition, but only bc there was already so much Radin. I’m not mad about it.

Don't you worry, now / Don't let life get you down / Just remember you're mine

Sweet Love of Mine - Joy Williams

Another insert from me. Joy Williams post-Civil Wars era is SO underrated and anyways she wrote this gorgeous love song/lullaby to her son who happens to be named Miles which is a coincidence I will milk for all it is worth.

I was broken, I was blind / Lost in a moment I thought I left behind / Then you woke up this dark soul of mine / Carrying a light I thought I'd never find

Me & My Dog - boygenius

I had a fever / Until I met you / Now you make me cool

Any of My Trouble - Sawyer Fredericks

I’ve thought this was a “Dan Humphrey is a giant sap” song for quite a while but it didn’t feel right on my other playlist(s)...THIS one though…

So set my heart down in the cold / Let it freeze so I will know / How it feels to be shattered / When you go

Missing You - Ingrid Michaelson

Never, you said this had dan/nate vibes so now everytime I listen to it that’s what I think…I may just have to write a fic about it and it’ll be YOUR FAULT <3

I'm in his bed again / Feeling like a stranger / When he's kissing me, I'm missing you

Hate You - Ingrid Michaelson

Okay normally 2 consecutive tracks from the same artist feels Wrong to me but here I think it works.

So much swirling up inside my head / Of what I didn't do or what I should have said

Skinny Love - Bon Iver

I tell my love to wreck it all / Cut out all the ropes and let me fall

Stay Down - boygenius

Wasn't a fighter until somebody told me / I had better learn to lean into the punch / So it don't hurt as bad when they leave / There you were, turning your cheek

Walking on a String - Matt Berninger & Phoebe Bridgers

I knew that I was dead before you touched my lonesome skin / You're never running out of ways to worm your way back in

Hey Kid - Ingrid Michaelson

This song was not one of your og Ingrid recs, but I thought it fit, so it had to go in here.

These arms and this heart / They are the only things that I have left to give

Little Giant - Roo Panes

Have the heart of a giant, but know you're a man / Start small, grow tall

By and by - Caamp

Just wish I'd spent more time / Listenin’ to her speak her mind

Call It Dreaming - Iron & Wine

Say it's here where our pieces fall in place / Any rain softly kisses us on the face…For all the love you've left behind / You can have mine

Today - Joshua Radin

it’s got the romance AND the found family

And you are the one I've been waiting for today

Feels Like Home - Caamp

Know that I lived my whole life long / And gave all the love that I could've given

The Muse - The Wood Brothers

Included for many obvious reasons, the title of course, and the dilf!dan of it all

Times like these so sweet and so true / Thinkin’s the last thing that you wanna do

This Is Why I Need You - Jesse Ruben

it’s about how living is hard but this is what makes it worth it.

You are the who, love is the what, and this is the why

My My Love - Joshua Radin

a simple sweet unadorned song. the perfect finale

It's something new because of you

#*tswift voice* look what you made me do 💕 #asks #nevertothethird #this was a delight to put together I hope you like it!!! #playlist #dair

[kaasism-midnight]

BITTERSWEET is M!DN!GHT’S debut EP album. It was released December 10th 2021 by KAASISM with Rhythm as the title track and Dark Red as the b-side track. The full album was released a week after the title track. The album’s focus was about the bitter and sweet sides of love.

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TRACKLIST

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Rhythm

1:35 ───ㅇ───── 3:20 [written by Maddox & MinSu] [produced by Eden] [choreographed by Tots-Kray]

↳ ❝ As track, “Rhythm” has all the elements of a sensual R&B jam: a repetitive bass line that only drops out in the pre-chorus and to give some space, crooned vocals, and breathy falsettos to add some dynamics. By forgoing a vocal bridge and standard high-note, the track maintains a steady rhythm, carrying a hypnotic feel throughout its short run-time. It’s the kind of song that can be played on loop without missing a beat which gives it excellent repeat listening potential. The lyrics play with the idea of push and pull, wanting to have something so badly it burns, being unable to grasp it, and experiencing simultaneous pleasure and pain in that kind of longing. ❞

[instrumental] [made by KAASISM]

Dark Red

1:35 ───ㅇ───── 3:31 [written by Maddox & F.O.R] [produced by Eden] [choreographed by Mong]

Dior

1:35 ───ㅇ───── 3:58 [written by Teruis] [produced by Kyo Jong-Soo] [choreographed by Scaod]

Now or Never

1:35 ───ㅇ───── 3:22 [written by F.O.R & Maddox] [produced by Eden]

Laugh now cry later

1:35 ───ㅇ───── 2:39 [written by MinSu] [produced by Kyo Jong-Soo]

All 4U

1:35 ───ㅇ───── 4:53 [written by L. Kue] [produced by Eden]

STYLING

Ace Kai Ha’Naun

Jori Axel Kyung-Da

ACHIEVEMENTS

:: Their debut count down was trending on twitter for 3 days in a row :: The received their first music wins as a group on Inkigayo and Music Bank 1 week after debut :: The title track Dark Red was highly praised by i-fans :: Midnight was praised for their vocals and visuals throughout promotions and appeared on shows like Weekly Idol, Running man and Ask us anything :: The M/V gained 15 million views in 24hrs :: RHYTHM promoted for 3 weeks while DARK RED promoted for 2 weeks

ERA HIGHLIGHTS

:: Ace and Axel stage presence and expressions was unreal they looked like they’ve been doing this for years, they named their sub-unit double-kill

:: They kept their natural hair colors for this era

:: They don't seem to have a set concept

:: Moonlights were quick to call out the unfair line distribution

:: The company had very obvious favoritism between the members but fans hoped this won’t affect the group to much in the future

:: There’s some heavy awkward tension between some members but fans brushed it off, because they just debuted and probably aren’t that close

:: Ha’Naun was seen to be the most known member after many clips of him went viral (from KAAS ACADEMY, his previous YouTube channel and predebut videos)

:: Kai and Ha’Naun was given the nickname Kiko as it means sweet fragrance in Ha’Naun’s native language (because they have a candle and fragrance collection)

:: Their concept isn’t really clear at the moment

:: Kyong-Da was heavily praised for his rapping as he had a flow nobody in the industry has heard as yet

:: Midnight is an outstanding rookie group so that led to toxic fans comparing them to other groups from the big 3

:: If moonlights learned anything never leave midnight in a room alone

:: Overrall their debut was successful

ALBUM/MV AESTHETIC

LINE DISTRIBUTION (RHYTHM)

#fake kpop band #oc idol #fake idol group #fictional kpop company #my writing #oc boy group #oc kpop group #original character #fake kpop group #fake kpop soloist #aestethic #aes!ocnet #oc stuff #kpop oc #kpop layouts #kpop

[haikyustanaccount]

Taylor Swift (again)

My opinion changed enough that I’m running it back! Honestly, I’ve just had enough time with each album that I really feel like I can make a confident statement about all of them. 10. Taylor Swift: 7/10. Sooo sweet. This album is just really sweet and even this early in her career her eye for lyrical specificity and chorus catchiness is amazing. Even with that though, the youth blinders are on pretty hard and its the hardest to ignore it on this one. I think the best song is maybe Our Song or maybe Mary’s Song it could even be I’m Only Me When I’m With You. There’s a lot of choices.

9. Fearless (Taylor’s Version): 8/10. Exactly the same except the youth blinders have lowered a lot. They’re still visibly there, but the improvements are massive. Her lyrical ability is only going up and the songs just straight up sound better and more unique. I think my favorites are probably Hey Stephen or The Way I Loved You. I just like the way they sound.

8. Midnights: 8/10. I feel really bad for this one. I really wanted to like this one. I organized a listening party with a bunch of snacks, drinks, and over 20 people in a massive room and it was actually really fun. Even with all those great memories this album just isn’t much to latch onto. Lavendar Haze and Sweet Nothings are really the only songs I’ve continued to listen to. Although Karma is kinda great too.

7. Speak Now: 9/10. ooooooo dam this ones good!! I’m honestly kinda upset with myself cause I couldn’t click with this one as much as I can with the others above it. The songs all smack and they all are surprisingly unique. Just looking through the tracklist I remembered how every song went even though its been years since I listened to it. My faves are maybe Haunted and Enchanted.

6. reputation: 9/10. Now this one was one of the first albums to reallllly grow on me. To the point that several other albums grew on me more, but I still love this album. It’s kind of a beautiful madness and in the right mood nothing feels better than this album. Faves are I Did Something Bad and Getaway Car.

5. Red (Taylor’s Version): 10/10 Oh how times change, this used to be my top and now its fifth. Even though its literally still a 10. Yeah this one’s amazing, it soundtracked such an important period of my life and it still remains one of my favorite albums of all time. Faves are my namesake Starlight and Stay Stay Stay. 4. Folklore: 10/10 AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i realy like this one. Its just so simply perfect. Everyone takes this one to death, but yeah the instrumentals are beuatiful and Taylor’s best lyrics make for a damn good album. The bonus track is even amazing. Now my favorites on this one slides around constantly, but seven is always amazing, illicit affairs and invisible string have been growing on me, and like i mentioned the lakes is amazing too.

3. 1989: 10/10 I recently had my 1989 era and it was super slay and sad. So I am contractually obligated this album up pretty high. Also important disclaimer that I am referring to the deluxe album since all the bonus tracks are bangers! This album has a pretty similar album arc to reputation just with different genres and the layers slowly pealing back to reveal a love story. Whether falling in or out of love, but love is a primary focus of both. faves are definitely clean and wonderland those songs mean everything to me.

2. evermore: 10/10 I don’t think any album has grown on me as much as this one. It just means so much to me and every song is kinda perfect. It basically takes all the things from folklore but change the setting to a lonely cabin in the woods and you’ve got it. Each song feels so slow, methodical, and careful. It’s her most beautiful album. fave songs are marjorie, closure, cowboy like me, and ivy.

1. Lover: 10/10 Shut up I like being happy. I don’t care if other people think other albums are better this album is the most emotionally mature she’s ever made. It feels like healing, thriving, and genuine happiness in a way none of her other albums do. It just makes me happy to listen to. I don’t love every song, but I believe that she does and that’s more important. faves are Death by a Thousand Cuts, Cornelia Street, Afterglow and the Archer.

[anitosoul]

tripreport.020: THE VAST

isolation in expanse 🧑‍🚀

Key Inspirations

Arca (Music artist)

Koreless (Music artist)

DJ Sabrina the Teenage DJ (Music artist)

Specifically the song “Being Alone” (Song)

Space visualizers (YouTube video)

The Met Surrealist exhibit (Art exhibit)

Jon Watts – Spider-Man: No Way Home (Film)

Christopher Nolan – Interstellar (Film)

Night on Earth – “Dark Seas” (TV Show)

Doss’s opening DJ set for Arca (DJ set)

100 Gecs (Music artist)

Playboi Carti (Music artist)

The weird purgatory between Christmas and New Years (Time)

THE VAST Tracklist Act I: entropy

The Hellp – 4up7up

100 Gecs – mememe

Trippie Redd, Playboi Carti – Miss the Rage

Headband Andy – I must apologize – Remix

Slikback, FlexFab – Raw

underscores – Where did you fall

Danny L Harle, DJ Mayhem – All Night

Anz – Unravel in the Designated Zone

Louke Man – Took a Turn

poolsideconvo – anybody else but u

DJ Sabrina the Teenage DJ – Being Alone

Carlos Niño – Esssssssence

Koreless – Joy Squad

Oli XL – Go Oli Go!

THE VAST Tracklist Act II: ether

Doss – Softpretty

AceMo – Through the Pressure

Jacques Greene – Serenity

Oli XL – Cartoon Smile

Loop 7 – The Theme – Lamento

CFCF – Marigold Mix

Jesper Ryom – Apolune

Maddy Maia, Tottie – Spirit

DJ Sabrina the Teenage DJ – We Go On

Magdalena Bay – You Lose!

Harvey Sutherland – Priestess

808 State – Pacific State

Koreless – Shellshock

asc – lose ya

THE VAST Tracklist Act III: abyss

DJ FLP – Close the Door

Erika de Casier – Drama

Arca – Luna Llena

Sega Bodega – Only Seeing God When I Come

DreamWeaver – Altered Reality

Yu Su – Klein

CFCF – Nostalgic Body

PHD & The Funky Technicians – Above & Beyond

Dirty Bird – Midnight

Winslow – Snooze Button Roller

No Rome – Secret Beach

SPIRIT OF THE BEEHIVE – RAPID & COMPLETE RECOVERY

Virgil Abloh, serpentwithfeet – Delicate Limbs

1995 epilepsy – get 2 kno

Returning to NYC after Thanksgiving was a weird experience. I had extended my time in Tulsa so I was gone for about three weeks, which was the longest I had been away from NYC since moving back in May. As my plane descended over Manhattan, it felt like flying into the city for the first time. Something just felt…different. Maybe it was because it was getting cold and the days were becoming shorter. I reminded myself that I had a lot to look forward to, though, like concerts and holidays. 

That first weekend back, I had tickets to see 100 gecs. I ended up going with the partner of one of my friends from high school who I met in November when they visited and came to the PQ party. The concert was amazing and the chaos of it brought back a taste of the boundless energy from earlier in the year. Afterwards, we ended up walking all the way from Terminal 5 down Manhattan back to my apartment, talking about life and witnessing the spectrum of human experience pass us by as we drifted through the varied vibes of each Manhattan neighborhood. Getting to connect with someone I didn’t know that well so easily was refreshing and made me excited for the future. Still, there was a feeling of surrealness to everything, like I had entered into some sort of alternate reality. I was working fully remotely at this point, so my office became the various cafes or hotel lobbies in a 1-mile vicinity of my apartment. The lack of familiarity in anything I was doing was bizarre, and I wasn’t sure what else to do besides go along with it.

A few days after that concert, Arca randomly had a DJ set at a small bar close to my apartment. I’ve been training for a marathon, so despite running 12 miles right before, I decided I didn’t want to miss it and checked it out with a friend. It was an interesting experience, given it was on a Monday, I was physically exhausted, and the music was less than accessible. Doss started off the night with a fun set, and afterwards Arca went b2b with Shayne Oliver, the founder of Hood By Air. They absolutely blasted their tracks, doubling the speed to 200+ bpm, setting extremely short loops, and blowing out the speakers, trading sound quality for sheer volume. It was a mix of Latin and hip-hop but didn’t have any sort of natural flow like most DJ sets. Sonically, something about the set deeply intrigued me, but it mostly just added to the surreality I found myself in.

My birthday was the weekend after and I was looking forward to celebrating. I didn’t realize, though, that most of my close friends were already going to be home for the holidays by that time. There were murmurs of the “Omicron variant,” which seemed to be spreading in NYC but the impact of its manifestation wasn’t fully clear yet. I had tickets to Playboi Carti the Friday before my birthday, but the friend I was going to go with didn’t want to risk getting COVID as they were flying home the next day, which I understood. I ended up going alone, and it was yet another surreal experience. I was surrounded by teenagers in the pit as they moshed to the songs played in the interim before Carti went on. I felt like I was one of the oldest people in the pit, and being there alone made it even weirder–not bad, just kind of absurd. When Carti went on, though, none of that mattered anymore. It was arguably one of the greatest concert experiences I’ve had in my life. It was definitely top 5, up there with Frank Ocean, Kanye, Dead & Company, and FKA twigs. 

The whole experience was articulated perfectly by this white dad who brought his pre-teen son to the show and called it an anti-concert.

Afterwards, I didn’t want to have my birthday hit while I was in an Uber or something, so I walked over to this bar literally called “That Bar” and had some questionable (creepy) locals try to involve me in their conversation about dating younger women with a 20 year age gap. I was turning 25, so I didn’t have much input to offer. Once again, surreal.

On my actual birthday, my mom was in the city. There were some factors that made this emotionally complicated for me, but I got brunch with her and the people she was visiting with and then decided I would spend the day to myself. I had tickets to see AceMoMA and other Nowadays DJs at a fundraiser for Good Room, but it got postponed due to the Omicron variant. It was cold and rainy that day even though the day before was weirdly sunny and in the 60s, so to make the most of the day I went to the Met, a place I knew I could spend hours inside. 

I walked through the cultural exhibits, listening to tracks off LTJ Bukem’s Earth collections of chill drum and bass. Eventually, I got to the surrealist exhibit. I listened to Agor by Koreless for the first time, and I was fully immersed. The music was extremely trippy and matched the visuals in the exhibit perfectly; it was an overwhelming sensory experience. Afterwards, I left the museum, appreciative of the day but ultimately still in a very weird headspace. I was reflecting on what it meant to be alone, especially in a world with the dual stressors of COVID and climate change–the fact that everything was getting canceled brought back difficult memories of March 2020, and the constant shifts in weather felt like a tangible impending crisis. As I did earlier in the month, I tried to just roll with it. 

I had tickets to see Spider-Man: No Way Home, so I attempted to get myself in a mindset for enjoying a fun movie. I don’t want to include any spoilers, but the movie ended up being pretty emotional and I was a wreck afterwards. The impressions I had back in July about nothing being promised were eating at me. I called my mom as I left the theater, realizing how foolish it would be for me to give up an opportunity to spend time with her. 

My mom came over to my apartment and for the first time I could see how she’s aged. I noticed the wrinkles forming on her face, the strands of her hair turning grey. As a kid, she would rub Vick’s vapor rub on my forehead when I didn’t feel well, and she did the same for me on my 25th birthday. The difference, though, was that it wasn’t in my childhood home, it was in my own apartment in downtown Manhattan. 

I recalled that my mom told me when I was a kid, I said I was going to be a doctor and live in NYC with a dog. While it hasn’t fully panned out that way (yet! I will have a dog at some point, doubtful about the doctor part), I couldn’t help but think about how surreal this was for her, too. She spent the night in my apartment, and I set her up in my bed and said goodnight as I went to go sleep on my couch. It was in that moment on my 25th birthday, tucking my mother into bed in my own apartment, that I felt I transitioned into adulthood.

The rest of the month wasn’t any less surreal. My sister and mom visited for the week of Christmas, and on the day my sister arrived I tested positive for COVID. We were left to quarantine in my small apartment, and somehow my mom and sister didn’t test positive afterwards. I spent a lot of time that week mixing with the music that I had been listening to. I was finally able to express the weirdness I had been feeling all month. 

The surreality culminated on a random night when I decided to go over to a friend’s apartment and play him the mixes. We listened to them alongside a spaceship visualizer, and it was awesome. That night I realized that December’s theme is THE VAST, split into a trilogy. All month I felt like Matthew McConaughey’s character in Interstellar or Sandra Bullock’s character in Gravity, floating aimlessly in space and left to reflect on the memories of life on earth. That same solitude in the vastness of space was related to the vastness of the ocean, floating at sea. 

There was one missing aspect, though, which is represented by the ?-side of the mix, entropy. It’s the chaos, the absurdity, the confusion–accepting that sometimes things don’t make sense, and laughing through it anyways.

Visuals to go with Act I: entropy

Visuals to go with Act II: ether

If you have Netflix, Act III: abyss we discovered that it syncs up perfectly with this episode of Night on Earth: “Dark Seas.”

I found that this month broadly wraps up all of the themes I’ve felt over the course of this year and serves as a worthy conclusion to this series. If you’ve read any of this, I hope you’ve found a part of it you’ve connected with, or at the very least found a song or two that you enjoy. 

Have a wonderful 2022. 

Peace, Michael

#trip report #music #music writing #lofi #reflects #the vast #SoundCloud #Youtube #dj #dj mix #mix

[missbrunettebarbie]

Midnights - a review 3 months later and my tracklist

I've made a post about the album back when it came out, but I do think TS' songs in general are growers, not faders or instant hits, so here are my thoughts after having some time with it. Tbh, what really annoys me about Taylor's albums is usually the tracklist, which makes no sense, so I remade ir, using 16 out of the 20 songs (we don't count Hits Different bc I haven't listened to it). I am gonna talk about the 4 songs I left out at the end. My order is something like: from nightmares to sweet dreams, with track 5 being the darkest before dawn. So, in order:

1. Anti-Hero - 10/10. Perfect album opener, sets the tone for the rest of the songs AND establishes Taylor both as a person you want to root for and an unreliable narrator.

2. Maroon - 5/10 Still not a fan of this song, but it's a good second track and it fits the 'thing that keeps you up in the middle of the night' very well.

3. Midnight rain - 6/10 Pretty much the same as Maroon (yes, the voice distortion still grants on me).

4. Question....? -8/10 This is such a grower. I love how much more assertive and quite bitchy the narrator is here compared to the previous two. Like, all these 3 songs talk about past loves, but this narrator is less introspective and more like 'we were a meteor strike, babe!'.

5. Would've, should've, could've - 10/10 I mean, come on, this is the true track 5 of the album. Everything about it screams heartbreak and vulnerability.

6. Bigger than the whole sky -6/10 The saga of grief continues. And this song makes so much more sense next to WCS. They just fit, both musically and lyrically. Look how the new placement improved its rating, from 1 to 6!

7. Labyrinth - 8/10 When you hit rock bottom, the only place to go is up! Spmetimes against your will. And this is the perfect song to describe this.

8. Glitch - 7/10 We are almost out of the nightmare realm, and into the sweet dreams world. This topic and its narrator are much more uplifting, but there is still a sense of....haunting here.

9. Bejeweled - 10/10. I feel like the sweet dreams section needs to start strong and what better way than with Bejeweled? This is the narrator who went out tonight to make her dreams come true xDD

10. Mastermind - 9/10 Perfect transition from Bejeweled. Again, a very confident narrator who took matters into her own hands, and refused to believe in pesky little things like fate. This is also the first long song where we get to see a bit of the other partner's point of view as well.

11. Sweet Nothing -6/10. After 2 "I am that bitch" songs, I feel like Sweet Nothing is an welcome change of pace. It calms you down and shows you the other side of love.

12. Lavender Haze - 9/10. It's a bop, but it also is a very....limited point of view, of someone who refuses to let the relationship follow its natural course, because the narrator wants to be stuck in the pavender haze forever. I feel like this, alongside the next 2 songs, make their own story arc.

13. Paris - 8/10. Another romantic bop about how great it is to be in love.

14. The Great War - 10/10. But all lovers fight, and this song shows that the important part is 'surviving the great war'.

15. Karma - 8/10. This is such a positive song, that it needs to be towards the end of the album.

16. You're on your own, kid -10/10. This is A Journey. Most people say it feels like Taylor giving us a hug, so IMO, this is the best way to close the album. It is vulnerable, yes, but it's very uplifting and is a perfect closer to the Midnights chapter.

Overall score: 8.125/10. Pretty good!

Songs that didn't make it on My Midnights playlist won't get a score, but here are my thoughts on them:

Snow on the beach - Not only doesn't it add anything to the album, but it doesn't even fit the midnights theme in any way shape or form!

Vigilante shit - It's ok, but very manufactured! And we have Bejeweled and Mastermind to give us the same vibe, but better, so it adds nothing.

Dear Reader - I mean, it could add somthing, but I feel like it doesn't fit the theme at all.

High Infidelity - Eh. It's ok, but again, I feel like it adds nothing.

#taylor swift #midnights #my thoughts