#i will allow myself claiming this

[thorst]

Imagine how awkward apartment hunting with Bruce Wayne would be.

You: okay, it's a great place. I'm going to present an offer of (10% below asking price)

Real estate agent: *slowly looks between you and your "friend with experience in real estate", who is very obviously the Prince of Gotham, Bruce Wayne himself*

You: can I get the paperwork ..?

Real estate agent: so that's (10% below asking price), right

You: yes

Bruce: *breathes in*

You: you don't have to do that

Bruce: I kind of do, though

You: at least let me buy lunch

#lmao did i just accidentally do an imagine #i don't know how anything works anymore i just think this would be hilarious #there is NO disguise that could hide bruce wayne from a real estate agent #Bruce Wayne Imagine #lmao what am i dojnf #anyway this exists in an AU where inflation isnt out of control and we all accept that Bruce being a billionaire is awkward and funny > #> instead of morally reprehensible etc #fictional billionaires can be good even if irl ones cant is my point dont come for me Tumblr #Bruce Wayne #Balebat #my writing #is this writing though? #i will allow myself claiming this

[moonlit-imagines]

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#hypothetical situation (not) but how would one feel if their roommate was using their tv in the living room (which was bought by your father #as a gift to you) and is sitting on the couch you paid for (rubbing their feet all over it like literally rubbing back and forth and in #between the cushions) and had left a mess on the table you also bought and when you asked if you could use your tv in the living room their #response was to immediately argue (raise voice) saying ‘I PAY RENT TOO YOU CANT KICK ME OUT OF THE LIVING ROOM’ when this was the first time #i had asked in our 2 months of living here to use my tv bc shes been using it all week and my ps5 is connected to it so i wanted to use it #she said ‘this isn’t yours your dad bought it’ and then said ‘dont you have your own tv in your room’ (which is much smaller and i cannot #play ps5 games on bc yaknow. ps5 is in living room) #how would we feel in this situation #knowing said roommate is using your things and claiming them as apart of rent (i assure you its not apart of rent i paid for and dragged in #and set up all these things out of my own pocket) #claiming them……as their own………. #and taking over? #she has not even bought anything for the house and then whenever i ask and finally give up and get it myself shes like ‘oh i was gonna get #that tomorrow’ (which is why shes not allowed to use my shower caddy now lmao) #am i being territorial or am i being reasonable for being upset with her? #wtf do i do LMAO #delete later

[commander-gloryforge]

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#damn . if i like. ever did something wrong i wonder why they dont just talk to me about it #like idk i thought when they like. vagued about *someone* i had to convince myself that it wasnt me #like i literally went through our messages to make sure i didnt say anything wrong #but apparently it was me after all? i just wish they wouldve. idk. talked to me about it #it feels so hypocritical? why are you allowed to say what you think and im not #unless i actually did what you claimed but i cant remember this happening nor can i find messages where it happens #and even then instead of vaguing about me when you know im not doing well you can just approach me #or is there a whole different reason? do you avoid me because of something else? am i just not on your level after all? #if it was any other person i wouldnt have cared so much but they were one of the first friends i made there #we worked out so well in the beginning and now you realised im not who you thought i was and instantly replaced me #why does this shit ALWAYS happen to me? is there something wrong with me or is it everyone around me? #this is why i dont approach people. this is why im so intimidated by others. it doesnt work. ill always end up being less. #everyone always ends up being better and more and i am the replacable one. idk. just sucks

[pocketramblr]

fae court but it's a legal court, changelings are fae they leave in place of human jurors during the trial because it's the best way to prevent the trial from just becoming a bunch of fairies trying to one up the best bargain for their vote with the accused

#now this could be funny or concerning based on how much time a trial actually takes #but i think it would be funny if fairies had a constitutional right to NOT be tried by their peers (aka other fairies) so that they didn't #have to incur debt to get a fair ruling) #and also if. fairies had a constitution. #but also this means fae get jury duty letters too. or more accurately changeling duty let's #*letters #or maybe some fae are career changelings that just are good at acting human and so the court pays them to do it full time #maybe it's both like a big city can afford court appointed career changelings #but it smaller counties with less resources well. it's changeling duty time #'pocket why are you thinking so much about jury duty' because i was trying to think of funny places to say you met your spouse #(because i just learned something funny about a relative lol) #and 'oh yeah we met at jury duty' popped into my head #so now I've been thinking about it. like is this an established trope in romance circles? i could see it but dunno myself #and also thinking about how i have got to get that jury duty experience approved for my students so many of them don't know.... #and then the fae court fic I'm reading in the background bled in #probably fed by that one post that's like small claims fae court #and now. considering the systems of government that would be in place to allow these scenarios fbchvjm #... o need to go to be #bed

[average-robot-enjoyer]

Why do people react so weird when you say your self diagnosed?????? How about you let people live their life?????

#i understand if someone just looks at a disorder and goes hey thats me without doing absolutely any research on the subject #that is bad and just shows that people need to actually do research on shit before claiming they know everything about it #but if somebody has actually done tons of research on the subject and has even been told they seem like they would have the disorder/illness #it should be acknowledged that that individual has the full right to self diagnose. #THIS CASE ESPECIALLY GOES FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE UNABLE TO GET A DIAGNOSIS OR WHO DONT WANT ONE!!! #i personally want to get a diagnosis. i feel like it would help me be able to understand myself more #i am currently unable to get a diagnosis though #my parents arent convinced there is a possibility i am neurodivergent so they just dont want to take me to get diagnosed in the first place #i am fully allowed to be self diagnosed. i would like to keep it that way. #wow i just rambled a lot in tags yet again #okay time to go to sleep im tired as hell #night night time #need to go honk mimimi #robot enjoyer rambles

[gxlden-angels]

I really am just religious trauma wrapped in a trench coat at this point huh?

#Had an issue in therapy that I couldn't quite get at #basically we couldn't figure out why having a diagnosis mattered to me #and I finally wrote/talked out my thoughts #and it's because the 'bad parts' are the only part I allow myself to have #all my good traits are 'from the lord' so I need bad traits to exist #otherwise I'm nothing #so I have to cling to having observed bad parts to stay human #it's a weird transitional state to me #I'm clinging onto the bad parts but if they're a diagnosable disorder then they aren't me #they aren't who I am #but if the good parts of me are from the lord and for him #then they aren't mine #I don't get to keep those #and we're trying to take the bad parts of me before I've established the good parts #or that's what it feels like #basically I'm scared of being nothing at all in that in between state #and the label of 'disordered' gives me something to grasp to without holding onto the symptoms themselves #it gives me wiggle room #until I establish myself as a mix of good and bad #I just have to learn how to claim those good parts first #anyways that's how my trauma therapy has been going #haven't even met the religous trauma coach yet #there's so much to unpack holy shit #ex christian #religious trauma

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

I love 😍😘😆 being dead 🪦🥀 named 🏷 by my mother 👩‍🍼👩‍🍼👩‍👦👩‍👦in front of ‼️‼️ people 🧍🏻‍♂️🧍🏻‍♂️who previously only knew my chosen name 😍😍🥳🥳😆😆🤩🤩😝😝🤗🤗

#my quote on quote self labeled “”“”“”supportive“”“”“” mother who has had YEARS to get used to my name #this woman has not shown a shread of supprot literally ever she just doesnt want to be labelled as transphobic or homophobic #both of which she is ☝🏻 but claims shes allowed to be because im ruining the plan she had for my life 🥺🥺 #shes in mourning (direct quote) dont you know #I CAME OUT MULTIPLE YEARS AGO BITCH PLEASE #YOU JUST WANT ME TO TAKE IT BACK #lmaaoo she doesnt know im starting hormones soon 🤭🤭 #gonna get myself disowned at this rate #she literally stormed out the house when i first came out and then cried about how hard this was on her #and then got mad when my friends asked if she was supportive and i didnt reply with a resounding yes 💀 #she wants points for not kicking me out 👍🏻 i mean im obviously glad she didnt kick me out but uh #doesnt mean youre being supportive babe #she loves to yell my deadname and she pronouns at me when shes mad at me 🥰🥰 and thinks shes justified in it #and i dont mean just yelling and she deadnames me while yelling #i mean shell literally be standing there say something and repeat 'she' over and over again #like if my brothers there or something she'll talk to them and refer to me like “she - SHE SHHEE said blah blah!” or smin like that lmaaoo #so super duper fun #transgender #not to be dramatic and trauma-y on main im sorry guys 💀 #im just back home with my mother and that always causes suffering

[badolmen]

Wrote out a big long phone call rant to have with my mother later because as much as I hate it she is my closest irl spiritual confidant 👍 here’s hoping her response to ‘hey I’ve been spiritually depressed and disconnected for like 8 months and for some reason these last two weeks advocating for Palestine has me feeling alive and burning with divine passion and love in a way I’ve never felt before in my life’ isn’t like. ‘Talk to your psyche abt your meds hun’

#ra speaks #personal #religion #oh god these tags got out of hand. look away I’m rambly today. #outing myself as deeply spiritual and devout on main oops #‘aren’t you gay and trans and -‘ listen Israel the person received that name after literally wrestling with gd in the desert #I’m allowed to put my faith leaders in a spiritual headlock for past and present crimes while I live my joyful life #maybe a physical headlock too. I’m down to body slam some wueerphobic racist pos who claim to be faithful while never exercising such faith #also lmao of the idea of a queer leftist being deeply spiritual makes you uncomfortable…bro everything about me makes ppl uncomfortable #I’m bi gender I consider myself a trans gay man and a nonbinary dyke at the same time. I’m disabled and ugly and autistic. im not palatable #accept the inherent apparent contradictory nature of the varied human experience and move on. #sorry thought about that post complaining abt observant jews being excluded from the conversations about queer jews like #you don’t have to get it. you don’t have to think it’s real! but it’s real to me! it’s important to me! #so are you gonna be my transphobic uncle and call me sick and deluded the same way he talks about trans people? #or are you gonna keep your mouth shut accept that you don’t have to understand someone to respect them and move on with your life. #anyways uh. here’s hoping I don’t lose my voice or start crying like I did while typing the script up. #vocational woes

[dryingoutmymind]

So we’re gatekeeping the way we display symptoms of autism and other disorders now, lads?

#not that this is new #autism #apparently there’s discourse on TikTok about who looks autistic enough to make jokes about going nonverbal #you’re not allowed to manage to have fun with someone who understand you while being nonverbal apparently #the claim is that allistics are using nonverbal to mean clocking out of a social situation and yeah there’s a difference but also #a. how Can you tell someone is allistic #b. the places we’re seeing this don’t link to the specific videos they’re talking about #c going nonverbal due to anxiety or depression is also going nonverbal there are different degrees and durations #im also not on TikTok so I can’t dig for myself easily

[jessaerys]

the problem with being a trendsetter is that you have to keep innovating to stay original

#if im allowed to be a little full of myself. ever since i claimed the summer all you bitches want a seasonnnnnnnnn

[workingforitallthetime]

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#it is a beautiful pearly marine layer morning #perfect for putting on a cozy hoodie and biking to my favorite coffee shop to write at #i have claimed my favorite seat by the window #and i am going to finish this fic #by 'finish' i mean i am going to finish the final scene #and then i will allow myself to read the whole thing and hopefully that will give me enough momentum #to dash out those last two interstitial scenes and 4-6 sentences of smut

[purplespacecats]

still riding the high of the gender euphoria from the other day when my friend was talking about home repairs she needed to do and i offered to take a look if she gets stuck and she was like "yeah, i'll let you know if i need another butch on the case" :)

#like. i felt like i wasn't allowed to call myself butch bc i love pink and still wear sundresses and such #but this friend is butch and she also loves pink and wears skirts and jewelry and even makeup sometimes #and like this sounds so silly typing it out but agh. we're so conditioned to feel the need to sort ourselves into neat boxes y’know? #but yeah it's like a) if she can identify as butch then i can too and b) the fact that she clocked me as butch #without me ever referring to myself as such #🥰 #and yeah i guess i always feel weird about claiming a lable when i don't feel born-this-way about it?? like idk i used to be p femme #but rn being butch sparks joy so. yeah :)

[dreamlogic]

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#shit chat #family cw #parents divorcing: dad moved into tiny apt & doesn't want anything. mom moving to kentucky in a few weeks? months? w/ new fiancee #brother sick of the drama; doesn't want anything & isn't talking to my mom rn (understandable) #so i'm. pawing through 30 years of my parents' junk trying to sift out & salvage childhood relics #the leftovers mostly bc my mom has already laid claim to most of the things i have a strong attachment to #and currently having an existential crisis on my bedroom floor sorting through xmas decorations to keep/donate #like damn my childhood has so much substance in my memory & these objects seemed imbued with so much magic #and looking at it now there's a few things that still have a glimmer of life but mostly it's just cheap old shit. #i don't want any of this; i just want the sense of comfort and love and security of a functional loving family #but the divorce is also dredging up a lot of shit that i'm further processing in therapy #and i'm coming to the very depressing realization that a lot of my childhood kinda sucked ass #not all of it! and looking at photos i still feel strong positive emotions towards my past #but there really isn't any legacy to speak of. heirlooms consist of a few sentimental tchotchkes & a box of old picture books #also my mom kinda fucking sucked as a parent in ways i'm only just now allowing myself to admit & examine #like i don't think i could ever hate her or write her off completely and i did get certain wonderful aspects of myself from her #but she hasn't consistently been a Good Mom to me. p much since my brother was born when i was like 5. #more like a very mentally ill fair-weather friend who was also partially responsible for raising me #god this sucks. but at least i have a box of delicate sparkly glass baubles that i can smash on the pavement for catharsis sometime #anyways. friends if it seems like i've been more hermit-y and avoidant than usual lately– this is why #i've been estranged from most of my extended family for years & used to be really close with my immediate family. #which is currently a reeking dumpster fire that's choking my life with noxious smoke #and p much all of my energy & free time is going towards not letting actively retruamatizing current events nuke my brain #brother & i agreed that the current Vibes are like... #trying to cut loose the life boats from a sinking ship and get clear before the water displacement sucks us under #but i finally have all my shit out of the house except furniture that can't be moved until my mom moves #so the gaping chest wound is slowly starting to scab over and i can start actually clearing out some of this shit & #tracing the panicked exodus back to a more grounded stable version of myself #ugh.

[izzy-b-hands]

prolific is slow, so more filming and posting it is for today (tho I'm making!! slow progress!! towards enough ad revenue for a payout, and i got like 100 views across all my stuff yesterday alone! which isn't a lot for most ppl but for me it's !!!! which makes it worth it to try and keep up the tighter filming/posting schedule as best I can)

#text post #im gonna check on prolific again tonight tho bc i can do more then as well #then break from that and filming the days i work the day job (in theory at least lol tho after shift time who knows) #i know being proud of my side gig isn't probably how most ppl want me to feel abt it but. i am proud #im creating stuff using myself! and ppl like it! and it's Just Me in the content nothing else for them to claim they watch for that only #and im exploring new things and feeling more confident in my body and myself and like. dang it i wanna be proud of that #im alive and im trying and I'm working towards better overall and being better and contributing more in general #i don't feel allowed to be proud of that either bc the bar is So Low but most of last week and into this one #the brain has been full on Suicidal Ideation time nearly 24/7 even with coping skills/tools so like. fuck me i think if i wanna continue #to survive and shit maybe i do have to occasionally let myself be proud of the lowest not even over the bar things

[jentlemahae]

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#okay i need to vent a second #im literally heartbroken rn #this friend of mine just told me that she feels that ‘our friendship is starting to revolve around me’ bcs i asked her to help me once with #wheelchair practice and i was late to a meet up once and i am genuinely without words rn #like she’s been late multiple times and i’ve always let it go bcs i don’t think it’s that big of a deal but im late once and suddenly im an #awful friend #and yeah i need some more accommodations than most people but i feel like it’s obvious why #and to say that it weighs on u is genuinely cruel to me #cause i always try to make myself smaller so i dont bother people and u know that very well so to call me a weight is the cruelest thing #and she said that she feels like our friendship now is just about me discovering the world and her just being there #an insane thing to say when she knows how hellish these past years have been for me and how now im finally able to go out #it’s like am i not allowed to be happy? #i am so sad but also so angry #also the fact that she sent me this when she knows i’ve just started uni and im so stressed and overwhelmed is just beyond me #like does she even like me? does she care about me? she claims she does and then does this like wth #and i dont wanna be a bad friend and maybe she’s right and i am but im trying my best here #and im always there for her when she needs me so i dont get why she’s trying to make it seem like im not #like idek how to answer her #this is really not what i needed rn

[katyspersonal]

I really just wish I could dial back in time to August, to the day when he sent a friend request to me, and simply deny it. I was fully coped with harsh reality and ready to move on, I finally disconnected and recovered. Why did I have to accept it? It was that time when he managed to open a wound that took such a long time to heal, only to leave it open. Just.. why the hell I had to hear him out? Why can't I take that decision back?

#/vent #personal #honesty not regretting having met him and went through everything #experience and all that #I would not have had problems if I was allowed to *stay* healed #it was just that exact day that want to take back #if only I could alter just one event in my life.. #i just don't know how I can recover and move on the SECOND time. I am not strong enough. #I can't pick myself back together the SECOND time #especially not after how much he rubbed it into my face how he didn't need me anymore #despite claiming that he could no longer live without me just like 10 days before #just why did I have to hear him out? why did I have to believe him? #I can't wait for mom to leave the house already #I really really really need everyone who could stop me gone right now