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soft-deceitful-wiles · 2 years

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IMPORTANT PSA FOR MY LOVELY FOLLOWERS

Doubt anyones gonna read but whatever...

so, since now its a pretty strong possibility ive lost my oldest and only remaining irl friend (my bff since we where 14 to be exact, we are 30, living prrtty far but relationship hasnt changed in 11 years mostly apart) or at the very least ive damaged our relationship INCREDIBLY

and all because of her ashole, conceited, full of himself boyfriend that i can't stand, accusing me of something i didnt do without even considering any other possibility (cause fuck presumption of inocense apparently?)

and her trying to pacify the situation, and by doing so basically putting herself on his side, and this knowing full well my current mental health state (mandated medical leave due to extreme depression, eating dissorder, high stress levels and extreme anxiety, being heavily medicated) and she's defending/excusing his behaviour after his selfish actions/words about some UNIMPORTANT BULLSHIT (this is all... Prepare yourself... About a piece of costume, a vest, i borrowed from him like 5/6 years ago AT LEAST to make patters out of and he thinks i still have it but i can't find it and im pretty sure i give it back... But he says no cause he can't find it... So its only possible I lost it... He's God's perfect creation an could NEVER have made such a mistake...

And i was already looking into btw even tho hes not my friend and i HATE HIM, cause my BFF already had asked me, but he felt the need to push me AGAIN last night AT 1AM (very polite, writing someone you dont talk to in the middle of the night without kmowing if youll wake them...) insisting about it and making me feel even more guily when he has NO BUSINESS talking to me... We are NOT FRIENS...

he gave me a panic attack last night, barely slept and I've had to overmedicate today to stop from loosing my shit altogether...

Which has never happened like this before...

I right now currently have exactly 0 percent to loose, thanks, you son of a fucking turd pile that thinks himself the best most specialest boy ever...

So, i have more than 600 posts on queue (more people should use it tbh), set to 50 a day, so you will keep seeing me for a while, is just not "me, me".

I'll probably be gone after today. Don't know if ill be coming back this time... dont think so tho

Not that anyone here fucking cares 😂 i just thought it polite so say.

The few notes i usually get (if ANY) on my own posts are pity likes from mutuals 😂 (and even those are appreciated, guys❤️)

But hey, dont say i went without saying goodbye!

You wont notice my absence (like the few days i suddenly stopped posting this past week, and i didnt even had the queue), but ill sure miss seeing you in my dash. Wish i could have tall to you more ❤️

TLDR: my life is shit, i had little, now i dont even had the only good constant in my life since before my mom died (i was 14) who is my bff. Its all asshole boyfriend of bff. Can't do anything cause i love her too much to cause her any pain, so i cant escalate and fuck him up as soon as i seen him like id love to...

So im giving up, starting by abandoning this hellsite (beloved) and abandoning myself to ALL the drugs (legal or not) that i can get my hands on that make me numb until hopefully i get to die all chill during the high of my life... Here's hoping🤞

#bye and all that #maybe a miracle will happen and the pills start working again #but my life never gets better #only worse #so hope is just a word to me #a concept invented for the naive #not trying to offend #i wish i could believe in it #So i wouldnt have to numb myself like this #anyways lets try betting #i say this gets 0 NOTES #perfect send off #very on brand #im so relaxed i thunk in gonna bed

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buggachat · 6 months

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imagine, say, Bunnyx went back to Origins Season 1 and pulled Gabriel aside as he was considering picking up the Hawkmoth mantle and showed him, "Look, Gabriel. If you continue on this path, you WILL succeed in getting the Ladybug and Black Cat miraculous. You WILL make a wish. But getting there will tear you apart. You will lose what humanity you have, you will literally rot away from the inside, spend the last months of your life in agonizing pain, Nathalie and Adrien (the only two people in your life you can even pretend to care about) will spit on your name and Nathalie will grow to despise you so much she will attempt to kill you. And your wish? It will NEVER bring Emilie back. You won't even be able to bring yourself to do it, because you'll realize that you've become everything that she hated and never wanted you to be. Emilie WILL STAY DEAD, and in the end, all you will be able to wish for is an end to your now-miserable life. All this gamble will win you is your grave."

idk I just don't think Gabriel's response to that would be "oh yay! I win!"

#honestly I'm a firm believer in Gabriel's win condition being ''Emilie is revived''#if Emilie was revived in any capacity i would agree that he won. no matter what. even if she hated him even if he died #if emilie lives then gabriel wins #because that was his Only Goal #but emilie didn't live. so i dont know how this could be a win for him yknow?#the only 'positive' part of his wish was saving nathalie. but nathalie would never be dying in the first place if it werent for his actions #he won the battle in a sense on a purely technical level but he absolutely lost the war and achieved none of his goals #ml s5 spoilers #ml re-creation #re-creation spoilers #ml recreation #recreation spoilers

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obscureenthusiast · 1 year

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-Brutus and as many as 60 co-conspirators, circa March 14th, 44 BC

#ides of march #would you believe that I created this image all the way back in january STRICTLY BECAUSE I HAVE THAT MUCH BEEF WITH CAESAR?#this was created because he insisted that the Rhine was the border between Gaul and Germany #just so he could declare that he'd 'conquered' Gaul #but there's very little evidence that the peoples living in those places even viewed the Rhine as a barrier between lands #and their continued fighting against rome along that border line could indicate that they were in fact #attempting to reunite lands occupied by foreign invaders #anyway fuck you caesar i hope your triumph sucked ass #and that everyone who ever made bald jokes about you found idk a denarius in their pocket unexpectedly #yes i'm retroactively wishing dead people good and ill i'm complicated like that

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comradekatara · 2 months

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aang and sokka have by far the most underrated dynamic in atla. they’re very cute and silly together, but they’re also insane. like, aang’s central tension concerns refusing to let his values be shaped by war and the imperialist logic of his oppressors, whereas sokka’s entire value system has been defined by war, by his experience as a colonized subject. in many ways, the ultimate tragedy of aang’s character, that he may become too cynical to appreciate his cultural values of joy, friendship, freedom, harmony, and peace, is the tragedy that he might someday become what sokka already is.

if aang is a force for good in sokka’s life, showing him how to play, to appreciate living in the moment and connecting with others, then sokka is quite literally a corrupting influence. “there, that’s how it’s done,” he says, and you know he’s not just posturing, because you’ve already seen him kill people before without remorse. sokka is aang’s big brother, his friend, his protector. he plays his games, makes him laugh, shows him kindness and undying loyalty. but he is also everything that aang must constantly strive to never become. he is a ruthless tactician, a hyperlogical cynic, a killer.

sokka would do anything to survive and protect his loved ones against the cruelty of the world. so he chastises aang for refusing to kill, for being soft and idealistic. he in fact almost kills aang after he accidentally hurts katara. while aang can never let himself sink into despair, to adopt the colonial mindset of his oppressors, to close off his heart to hope and feeling, sokka already has. yes, aang shows him joy and friendship and the potential for freedom, but in truth, it’s too late for him. and perhaps if katara cannot retrieve her brother’s humanity, his very soul, from the hollow shell of who he has since become, she has a second chance now, with aang.

#i have an even longer post about this in my drafts if you can believe it #but like. they’re so crazzyyyy #real ones know the best aang&sokka episodes are the deserter the siege of the north the serpents pass (!!!!!!!!) and sozins comet #aang&sokka #aang #sokka #katara&sokka #aang&katara #analysis #god 😭😭#the way aang represents who she wishes sokka COULD be just breaks my heart #SHE JUST WANTS A FRIEND SHE CAN PLAY WITH!!!!!!#fucicuccuucucjkkkk !!!

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multifandom--mess · 24 days

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Mads and Hugh reunion in 2024?!? 🥹

#like??? this just made my yearr #can't believe we're getting a hannigram reunion #i wish i could go #mads mikkelsen #hugh dancy #hannibal #nbc hannibal #hannigram

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booperbeanv3 · 10 months

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drawstuck #4: june edition

alt june shirt under cut

i jst thought it would be cute

#homestuck #june egbert #dave strider #junedave #srry to the cargo shorts june enjoyers lol #img 2 is post meteorstuck if it wasb't clear #idk abt you but if I had access to a magic machine that could make anything i wanted i WOULD try to synthesise hormones #while i also believe in t4t junedave i love writing oblivious cis ppl #if dave isn';t trans he's probably never heard of a tran outside of anime #june egbert is wish fulfilment for me (<- unfortunately no nerdy gf)#not to be straight but god im straight straight as hell straight as an arrow straight as a mf skyscraper #haha jk enough thirsting for now #john egbert #johndave #pepsicola #mayb ill do junekats next IDK depends on my mood #art stuff

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crocchompers · 2 months

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This is all I got for a while now lol

anyways that's it! (I also found that drawing of Howdy holding Draft from that last post with Draft Julie)

WELL! THAT'S IT FOR NOW! I'M GOING NIGHT NIGHT NOW!! NIGHT NIGHT!

#I guess I was looking in the completely wrong file when looking for that Howdy and Draft drawing ajsdkjak #and idk if there was a drawing on this post that's already been seen?#but it's too late now i guess #Beta has to be my favorite little worm #I wish I could hold Draft in the palm of my hand and carry him around #wow my old style is so different compared to my new one kajsdkjas (the drawing at the top and the drawing at the bottom)#anyways #time for the real tags once again #Draft Wally #Beta Wally #(aka Unhinged Beta)#unhinged belongs to DumbLittleJay #you've seen him before I believe lol #Draft Howdy #Draft is so pretty #Og wally #Wally Darling #Welcome home

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theoldkyokodied · 11 months

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"For the tyrants in a rut, I got a love For the gutless dogs, I got a love For the doomed youth, I got a love Won't you tell me please Why they got no love for me"

#tomgreg #tom wambsgans #gregory hirsch #greg hirsch #succession #cant believe gay love won succession. i wish nothing but the worst for the happy couple :) <3 #the song in the caption is siberian nights by the kills #its in my playlist that i postet here too heh #'i could make you come in threes. im halfway to my knees. am i too close to comfort?' was another contendor for the caption #or 'for the blue eyed boys i got a love. for the cruel youth i have a love' like okay #too many good lines in this song man #anyway... that bathroom slapfight to affixing your sticker to objects you covet. they were insane for that. how tf did tomgreg win

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cemeterything · 4 months

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sometimes i regret ever telling my parents about my low empathy and intrusive thoughts/impulses because even though i explained that i work hard to behave acceptably in public and just wanted recognition that i do have to put in the work to do things that they might consider automatic and effortless, they still sit me down for a Talk every time we're going to have guests over to stress the importance of "being polite" and "reading the room" and "not acting out for attention" because they're so worried that i'm going to make them look bad out of spite. i guess it's not really something i can complain about because it's a reasonable concern when you have a strained relationship like ours, especially regarding how i present myself to the world and my interests, but it still feels so infuriating to be reminded that they consider me a bit of a disappointment and an embarrassment and would prefer me if i was someone else entirely.

#🐉#like my parents straight up refuse to believe that anything they dont like about me could be liked by anyone else #but if i try to get them to admit they wish id just be more like their ideal version of me they get defensive

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canyoureallycallthisablog · 7 days

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The player opening undertale post no mercy route fr

#undertale #chara #chara dreemurr #undertale genocide #i kept making ut drawings and was like damn i wish someone would see them #and i remembered this fucking according existed #so hey... hi...#i can't believe chara actually says and i quote 'it was you who pushed the world to its breaking point but you can't accept that'#and then the fanbase still proceeded to blame them for years #what a way to prove a point #this could also be about everyone who says 'Chara...' anytime something remotely morally ambiguous happens in Deltarune #utdr #ut chara

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front-facing-pokemon · 10 months

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#spinda #AAAHHHH YES!!! our belovèd spinda. from their café!!! probably one of my favorite minor characters from pmd sky #whom i don't even think was in the original explorers games. i think spinda's café was exclusive to sky. if i'm remembering correct #ly. or maybe that was shaymin village. i know shaymin village was for sure but maybe it was just that and not both of them. either way #have a delicious drink and allow the flower of conversation to bloom! i could quote spinda all day. he had “hopes and dreams” before toby #ever did. THAT'S ALSO like i had no idea what spinda's pronouns were. i kept trying to figure it out because i talked about him quite a lot‚#but no one in game ever talked about him. to mention his pronouns? turns out. there's ONE line of dialogue where the post office fucker in #shaymin village mentions him and calls him a he. i think that's the only time spinda is referred to in the third person with a pronoun #i believe it's when they're talking about like. how you can send gifts or whatever and pick up the characters' responses at spinda's café #which is still a really fucking good feature. of any video game. SEE WHAT I MEAN spinda and their café is just an incredibly good Thing #it's to the point where my home wifi network is named “Spinda's Café Wi-Fi” because i love it so much. so if you're ever runnin around #and you see a wifi network by that name… it might be me! you never know! or… it could be the real deal. the real spinda's café is somewhere #nearby…! ugh. i wish. i would go there immediately #not even to mention all the other shit about this pokémon that's really good. like that they never walk in straight lines or whatever #their little dance. it's just. huUGHKLJKAHJVDHJHDAJSVGD i love spinda. a nice pick-me-up after the underwhelmingness that was grumpig #shake it this way… shake it that way… and stir it all around… and it's done!

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luminarai · 4 months

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you’re on your own kid / yeah you can face this

I started this Parse comic almost a year ago (!) but I’ve only just managed to put it together now. I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about Kent and how he mostly exists in bits and pieces as seen through the eyes of other characters.

There’s just something about being haunted and defined by your past (mistakes) but also finding strength on your own. (And how there can still a hopeful ending despite it all.)

#my art #omgcp #omgcheckplease #omg check please #kent parson #kp #kvp #pimms #(ish)#jack zimmermann #check please #this is the real version finally!! so sorry about the accidental posting of one of the drafts earlier 🥲#I can’t believe this took so long… a YEAR #I’ve had most of it finished for a YEAR #but here it is #I had to cut a few lyrics and images to make it flow better #a couple of the cut pics I really wish I could have managed to fit in there but alas #besides it was mostly like. parse being ghosted after jack’s overdose. the pics were too static of that makes sense #the song is you’re on your own kid by Taylor swift #yes I firmly believe that kent parson is the check please character most likely to be a swiftie #and I stand by that #honestly in universe parse has probably been to at least one of her parties #as a fellow celeb cat parent #a lot of this song is very kvp and some of it is a bit more handwavy ~it fits the vibes~

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mrghostrat · 5 months

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cc: my only main hobbies are playing video games and like, spending time with my wife. uh, nothing really outside of that... like i don't secretly read, for example. (background laughter) that would catch you off guard. (screaming with laughter) wait why are you laughing so hard. (still laughing) why are you laughing so hard. what the fuck. that was rude.

heard you all needed a dose of "partner causing chaos off screen"

tina changed my brain chemistry with this one

(april 2021 highlights) (full qna) (stream) @tinadayton

#can't believe i almost didn't think about this today #i'm BEGGING YOU all to watch this #please #ray narvaez jr #twitch #shoutout to pee pee poo poo or poo poo pee pee #that's my streamer #(i also wish i could see this as streamer au but i know these guys personally and dont really cross that line ha)

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ari-the-arotistic · 23 days

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Everyone who recently fell head first into AFK Journey and now wants to marry Valen, please raise your hands ✋

#afk journey #afk valen #I love this game a ridiculous amount #I wish you could marry characters #I would put a ring on him so fast you wouldn’t believe

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geodenes · 2 months

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