#i'm killing my hand so bad

[tblsomedoodles]

The Preferable Alternative-prologue-part 2

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And here we go! : )

#tmnt #rottmnt #preferable alternative #my doodles #rise donnie #rise mikey #I feel like a lot of you are going to figure out exactly what's going on here before you're supposed to #but that's fine #I won't be confirming or denying it if you do #not until it's revealed in comic that is #after that oh boy do i have some very stupid jokes for you #and a lot of cool shit too #also i love drawing tails! #Especially Donnie's tail #it's so expressive! #he's just flipping and curling it around #and i love it #i should really slow down with this comic #i'm killing my hand so bad #but i'm having fun #so rip hand #the comic thanks you for your sacrifice lol

[saikkunen]

Well hello, Darling...

#i lost my mind so bad over this #darling's so eager to grab his hand and zane's just instantly *fondle fondle fondle* #they're made for each other #and then they f*cked and created alan in their afterglow or whatever #anyway #WH*RE!!!!!! great to see you again #(i'm really doing my best with trying to cover all my bases with the spoiler tags so please don't kill me) #alan wake #alan wake 2 #alan wake 2 spoilers #the final draft spoilers #new game plus spoilers #ng+ spoilers #casper darling #thomas seine #thomas zane #tom zane #zane #ilkka villi #matthew porretta #remedy #remedy entertainment #my edits #gif

[fromtheseventhhell]

Do you ever think about how Arya being left-handed most likely had an impact on her needlework and other tasks? And how she needed special attention not only because she wasn't as naturally gifted as her sister but because the way she was being taught fundamentally didn't work for her? And how instead of being given the attention she needed she was instead held to an unfair standard by her teacher and used as a measure for bad behavior? And how this all impacted her self-esteem and her views on being a Lady?

#arya stark #septa mordane #catelyn stark #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #I think about this all the normal amount I'm definitely not obsessed with Arya and her internal conflict on being a lady #I'm not saying her being left-handed is the sole reason she was bad at those tasks but I do think it had an impact #that's why it gets pointed out by Syrio and how it will impact her swordplay...it has an impact on the way she does things #Arya not being able to fit in kills me because she genuinely tried to be the Lady that her family wanted #she was literally trying her best to do tasks that didn't come naturally and she was constantly told she wasn't good enough #if her family hadn't forced the issue and been so hard on her it would've been so much easier for her to do what was expected of her #it's just so fascinating and one of my favorite internal conflicts...I can't wait to see the resolution #so many people try and make Arya the problem but she was literally 9 years old #and her behavior in canon isn't the disruptive wild child people portray her to be she was doing her best that just wasn't enough for some #she was frustrated because her work wasn't as good as her sisters and her teacher mother and sister made sure she knew it #of course that's going to impact her views self-esteem and behavior #like no she was not a burden that her /poor/ mother and teacher suffered through lol

[elvenbeard]

Glitter and Gold

upcoming masc underwear by winks uwu

#cyberpunk 2077 #cp2077 #cp2077 vp #kerry eurodyne #kerry eurodyne x v #vincent ezaki #cyberpunk 2077 vp #virtual photography #my vp #otp: to bad decisions #WHEN I TELL YOU #I CRIED A LITTLE WHEN I TOOK THESE #cause it had been quite a while I sat down to do some shippy shots ;_; #and their hands always kill me and asdöfhasdf #this is also the first time I have them both properly in a shot since I updated Vince's tattoos #and I'm just a mess rn xDD #also not me spending a ridiculous amount of time trying to remember how to make that text colorful #bc tumblr removed the yellow from their palette for some reason and that makes me so mad XD #yellow was always kerry's color when I did little chat-style convos beneath my pics >:[ how dare

[dailykugisaki]

Day 111 | id in alt

"WE'LL USE THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP!"

*beats you to death*

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #itadori yuji #The reason why Kugisaki looks like thay is because Itadori is prone to freak jumping ngl #Itadori grabbing Kugisaki and suddenly they're both through 5 roofs and theres multiple sirens going off just because his ass jumped #i had to add the dog it made me giggle okay #i am thinking too much #ANYWAY #BESTIES THAT HOLD HANDS BESTIES THAT CARE SO BAD BUT ARE SO ASS AT CARING IN A PERCEIVABLE WAY TO THEMSELVES #theyre so yas #i miss them so bad #using bright lights on clothing killed my grandparents on both sides💔 #also off topic but if somebody makes a backshot joke around me I'm going to steal something out they house before #before obliterating them with the thingamajig

[b4kuch1n]

tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out) #we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

[mister-brightside]

as soon as I saw the photo I knew I had to draw it 😔

done in ink and copic markers because I hate myself I’ve never actually done a portrait in this style before and wanted to try it out

#iwtv #iwtv 2022 #amc iwtv #iwtv art #my art #mine #gnarlystarships #I'm glad I didn't give up on this one #I did a section of louis' suit and the pinstripe was killing me and it looked horrible #so I put it aside for a bit #but when I took it out again I was like huh this isn't too bad actually and I kept going #and it turned out pretty okay!!! #also I'm going insane over the details in the original photo #like how lestat's right hand is on louis' shoulder but his left hand is only touching claudia's chair #the composition is just so hhrnrgnhghh

[sydmarch]

anyway this is what i was actually trying to find. fucking thinking about this.

#NEED to know about their young adulthood. acele is described as 'late teens to early twenties' & we have no fucking clue how old evrart #is beyond 'around the same age as harry' which could mean anything when klaasje thinks hes 44 & kim thinks hes 56 #but i imagine they ARE actuslly very close in age bcus it'd just make sense wrt the timing of the revolution & all & yknow the parallels #so like they definitely could have been somewhere in their mid or late 20s when they came into power? & this 'at her age' as just a handful #of years before that? (choosing to just believe this line rather than taking it as him only trying to 'kids will be kids'ing away the drug #lab thing & making something up. so i can totally just like imagine lots of anger. at the state of things. about powerlessness. what do we #DO about it? probably getting into trouble & getting in fights for a long time. like leo says they ALWAYS came to help it wasn't just a one #off thing where they defended him it was just that one incident where the bullying stopped. bcus they beat him until he NEEDED STITCHES #like god i can just imagine their childhood & then the adolescent & young adult frustration & all of that coalescing into ok we WILL do #something to make things better. whatever it takes even. coming to the decision it's worth killing for #'your honor it's fine that my little meow meow had someone assassinated he had a bad childhood you see' #im chewing through concrete im throwing up im pacing my enclosure #anyway. me when i'm normal about the video game men #texticles #de #disco elysium #evrart

[hamartia-grander]

My professor took off a point from one of my scripts because I labelled a character as Nonbinary, and he claims I should've left the gender description blank because "it's not necessary for this character", as if "nonbinary" is a placeholder for "I don't care what gender" I am actually going to tear him to shreds

#This is hands down the worst professor I've ever had in my life this is the guy I've ranted about before who is so fucking pretentious #And treats us like we're all inherently going to fail at scriptwriting/film in general as if he's the all knowing being on that #Like oh I'm sorry how many scripts of yours have been produced? Oh what's that? NONE? Interesting #And he's old so he's also one of those “I know absolutely everything and you all know nothing and there's nothing more I have to learn” #Can't wait to be rid of him dear lord #Dreading my workshop with him so bad thank God this is an online class bc if I had to see him every week in person I'd kill him #Film #Film shit

[uselessgaywhovian]

how to bring up to your dungeon master that your character might be better if she got railed

#when you're also the person in the group who's usually least interested in doing a sex scene #listen i'm not saying sex will fix everything #but my formerly-oath-of-devotion paladin who has lived in a constant miasma of anxiety and is a highly pressurized bottle of emotions #is finally letting herself make (frankly bad) choices and letting her rage out and went oathbreaker and is trying to enter her bad bitch er #this is the ariadne who fucks and she should get to fuck one time 😂 #i keep thinking about this guy back in the city where her order's main temple is #who took over the thieves' guild because the temple wasn't helping the city and he was taking matters into his own hands #and god he's been stuck in her craw because like #you're saying the thing i've devoted my life to is shit #and i'm not sure you're wrong but i can't say that #and i hate that #and i hate you #and you're doing more for the city than my entire order is #and i hate that too and i hate you so much and why do i want to make out with you a little bit #god if we run into him again later in the game now that ariadne's not quite as tied up in her order shit might get weird #also: my notes from the session where we met him read “idk who this dude is but i'm gonna fuckin kill him”

[vodid]

yall ever experience a love for something so great that it literally hurts. like it feels like your brain is gonna explode. screaming crying throwing up except it feels like that's actually going to happen. bc you're experiencing so much emotion

because that's me with bay jazz. again. help. he has an autistic grip on me

#i cant stop watching his scenes frame by frame #ive seen them all 40 times and yet #who decided live action was a good idea he looks so real #and its killing my neurodivergent maladaptive daydreaming brain #i'm holding his head in my hand. from the statue i bought. and i just can't stop Thinking about He #and i am just so upset that we didn't get more of him and won't #I'M UPSET HE'S NOT REAL #i feel like i'm a child fresh into transformers again #dreamy sigh #but on another note this might be a bad sign that the stress is getting to me too much #at least i'm trying to make something good out of it ? even if its. really just hurting me in the end LOL #anyway i really really truly love bay jazz #time to draw him! #........just in time for jazzy week perhaps?

[bataranqs]

"nobody is allowed to hurt me but you." abandoned and hated by her family? betrayed by her fiance? literally gives up her heart to a demon and is forced to relive the same week of suffering over and over until the apocalypse comes? raviel casting that all away for gongja. raviel etching the moment of killing her lover into her heart because she needs him to remember her. raviel saying that being saved isn't worth it if her epilogue isn't his.

#sssrh #rolling on the floor burying my face in my hands I KNEW THIS WAS COMING. I KNEW THIS WAS COMING. #WHY DOES IT STILL HIT SO HARD #it hurts so bad but it's the happiest ending i'm TT TT TT #urghhhhh #and we finally say goodbye to reckless!gongja bc he's not allowed to die without her permission!!!! AHHHHH #raviel saying she would not love him and raviel saying love is awful #raviel choosing to love gongja in the very moment she realizes it will break her #raviel killing gongja over and over and over and it is barely him. it's his face but it isn't his mind or his words #he doesn't understand anything but he lets her kill him because some part of him recognizes her. #99% of him is gone. his existence has become faint. what remains is in love with her #i'm going insaneeeee #please read this stupid manhwa i'm dying #SSS-Class Suicide Hunter

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

haven't finished my light yagami lingerie wips because i've been touching grass instead. tragic what going outside does to a person

#i have literally soooo many wips that i need to finish but i've been enjoying the lack of achy hands from not drawing so much #and i've been taking pictures which is fulfilling my need to do an art #but it's nice i like going outside it makes me feel less mentally ill like as soon as i'm outside the mental illness turns off then as soon #as i come back inside BAM i'm ill again but i find if i go outside regularly enough i feel less bad + anxious over nothing #though i have been having an interesting increase in times where i wake up in the middle of the night 100% convinced i'm about to die #or that someone is going to kill me. which is definitely a development but unrelated to going outside i think #i really gotta finish those wips though i want to get better at drawing lingerie + general anatomy so i can go crazy wild during #kinktober this year because reasons

[burymeinblack2022]

Ok ok ok cool talk now I need y'all to start talking about glamorous on Netflix before I turn this car around and drive off a cliff 😃🤠

#Girl. (gn) Do u like devil wears Prada but wish every single character (basically) was 💅🌈? Boy do I have the show for u ‼️‼️ #The 1st ep is a biiiiit cringe but it gets good after that fr #I'm saying this bc I don't see anyone talking abt it and it 4sure is gonna get canceled if ppl aren't watching outside of Tumblr too #And I'm not letting that happen on MY watch during pride month #They literally just dropped one of their gayest shows ever and I don't see anyone talking abt it #Which I feel is exactly what they want but not if it's up to me diva.... #This reminds me so much of the bold type my beloved..... AH #Anyway. Get on it bc if we have another first kill situation on our hands I'm gonna start pulling my hair out #Y'all want representation so bad but then let it flop (sidenote: did I mention basically all the 🌈 rep on this show are of color too?) #wow anna said somehting #glamourous #glamorous netflix #Netflix #Netflix series

[novelconcepts]

i don't make resolutions, but if i did

it would be to finish this fic

(and to be kind to myself for however long it takes to actually do so)

#i'm finishing it if it kills me #i know i've been writing this makeout scene for 3 weeks but baby that can't last forever #if we want to get deep and dark and serious for a second i do think a lot of my struggles to write lately have to do with engagement #and how incredibly low engagement has been on the last few things i've written #which like. is what it is. i'm not entitled to anybody's time or comments or kudos. #but when you write stuff you're proud of and it feels like it's barely getting read it's hard to keep momentum. #this isn't intended as a woe is me or whatever it's just kind of like. there. hovering. #happens enough times you start to wonder if it's you. am i just writing for the wrong fandom/ship? #(too bad if so. they're in my bones i'm writing for them and no one can stop me.) #but yeah. if you ever wonder if authors do care or notice about hits. comments. kudos. buddy i am here to tell you #not only do we care and FLOURISH we also notice when those things drop off and readers vanish #and it is a giant bummer. and sometimes makes us wildly paranoid about why that might have happened. #so if you liked a fic today--not even one of mine. just. anybody's. share it. comment on it. #kudos at the VERY least (cuz frankly kudos is there to be an 'i got to the end and this was nice' feature. #so when you get 500 hits and only like 30 kudos? it feels like 470 of those people hated your work) #anyway. that got out of hand. lil' too raw lil' too honest. happens when you let yourself ramble at 11:30 instead of sleeping #to sum: let your local fic writer know if they've made you happy #and as we go into 2024 i am swearing to myself that this fic (and probably several others) are getting finished #come hell. high water. or dishearteningly low engagement numbers. #(and then maybe we...actually work on something original. cuz why not. new year same old me but i'll do my best.)

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Massage was not what I'd hoped 😔 kinda frustrated. I feel like a lot of the time when I ask a massage practitioner to concentrate on a certain area (in this case my shoulders and especially my neck because the pain has been getting really really bad) they say, "Absolutely!" And then proceed to do the routine they already have memorized, regardless of what I asked for. Like, they spent more time massaging my legs than my neck. I never mentioned my legs. I mentioned nothing about pain or anything else being out of whack below the waist, or even below my mid-back.

Maybe it's because a lot of folks get nervous when I bring up my rotated vertebrae and they just end up avoiding the area altogether, perhaps even unconsciously doing so. But goddamnit my neck fucking HURRRRTS and it almost never isn't hurting and I just paid $150 to have someone not rub it for an hour and a half.

#disappointing massage #can't believe I spent so much goddamn money for no relief #In the past I've literally gotten more relief from just plopping myself in front of a friend on the couch and bribing them for a neckrub #The problem is I'm just out of comfortable touch friends #my neck still hurts so fucking bad I'm gonna cry #except i shouldn't because that will also make the neck hurt worse #worst part is I still tipped them because it is deeply ingrained in me to always tip #life of faye #god I wish I had just like one close friend with strong hands I could bribe to rub my neck #I'd pay them cook them food kill their enemies whatever they wanted #just please make my neck not hurt for a little while 😭