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sanguinaryrot · 8 months

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I’m so excited. I know how to have one (1) extremely specific interaction in Irish now. someone ask me how I’m doing and what the weather is like quick /j

#looking into tapping into things I have been curious about in the past #(this happens every once in a while)#again. my family is Irish so I decided the learn the language #but I’m also exploring spirituality #I don’t think I believe in any of the major religions (though I’ve been standing from afar gazing at Judaism #I am extremely fond of a lot of their ideas and culture. beautiful stuff #and frankly I feel like I’ve been getting signs that I should convert for years now #but I’m not in a place where I feel like I can commit to it so I am just admiring from afar #while I foster what I think ‘god’ is #there’s this concept that some people have that like #god is not a dude who has a beard and lives in the clouds #but rather is the feeling you get when you connect with another person #the sense of wonder you feel when you see something beautiful #and I think perhaps even the ability to hope/wish/manifest/pray/etc something into existence #my mom calls this ‘energy’ but I do not vibe with this term #idk how to explain it other than like #when you’re watching a movie and you see those lines they draw to represent wind and it’s blowing around leaves #or snow #and it’s meant to represent this idea that there is Something affecting the word but it is not corporeal and incredibly vague #that’s what I believe in #it is unknowable but it can be influenced with good intentions #and it permeates your body when you connect to another human in a meaningful way #that’s what it’s like for me. doesn’t have to be for you! but that’s what I’m working with right now #there’s this prayer that saint augustine wrote that I edited lightly to more suit my needs #and I try to say it once a day #I believe it is called Watch O Lord #I edited some of the words to more suit how I view the world but I really like the intention #anyways #Tá sé fuad ach tá sé tirim. It is cold but it is dry. thank you New York!!!!!!

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popsicle-stick · 10 months

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WAHOOO my drawing ability has returned!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seward be upon ye.

#jack seward #only a quick little sketch just to make sure i can still draw the most important thing: pathetic men in 3/4 view.#idk how to explain it other than um. sometimes i get phases of a week or so where i just can't draw #always.....on my period........#everything i try turns out so bad and i try and force it anyway and it's like wading through treacle and i can only wait till it goes away #i hadn't had it in years and when it came back it took me outta nowhere #lottieart #anyway does anyone else get this. am i insane. why does this happen #dracula

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sonknuxadow · 4 months

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am i the only one who still thinks that they didnt do enough with rouge in sonic prime. and not in a "she didnt get enough screentime" sort of way but in a "they didnt seem to be putting as much thought into what they were doing with her as they were with the other main characters" sort of way

#someone else would be better at explaining it than me i dont really know how to explain my thoughts on this #sonic prime #sonic prime spoilers #idk not really but im tagging just in case #like i wouldnt be surprised if they already had the idea for the plot and what they were going to do for all the characters down #but then realized how bad it would look if there were only 3 girls in that huge cast #so they just threw rouge in there without really thinking about it #its a huge shame really because i really like rouge #and was super excited when it was revealed that she'd not only be in the show but also be a main character #and she was super cute and fun in the first episode #all of her shatterspace variants feel like they easily could have just been some other character and the story/impact would have been #exactly the same. which isnt the case for other characters. except for big but big doesnt really do anything plot relevant for the most par

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toasts-httyd-hyperfixation · 7 months

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So i made this lil transparent worm-on-a-string Hiccup a while back

Im leaving him here for yall to watch while i go do a Thing

Im sure when i get back he wont be in any precarious situations, or unsavory circumstances, or anything of that ilk

Anyways

Have fun

Ill be back

#httyd books #httyd #book hiccup #how to train your dragon #how to train your dragon books #to be explicitly clear about this post: i am uploading this guy with the idea that someone may copy/paste him into various situations #like historical photos/bowls of soup/over an active volcano whatever #thats why he's transparent so you dont have to photoshop or whatever if ya wanna do it #i also dont expect anyone other than like my friends to do this #because Social Anxiety is a thing and interacting with strangers is Uncomfortable so like not everyone's gonna wanna do it #and thats cool if you just wanna reblog the boy cause you like him without edits or anything #but also anyone can slap this guy into a photo or whatever i dont care #i just wanna see my guy in situations lol #i feel like i had more to say but idk so #im aware this is a long explanation for this but #i like explaining to be clear #recently had a test that had very little instructions and i didnt know what to do so #im also probably just in an extra explaining mood cause of that lol

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isthatacalzone · 1 year

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im kinda a bit obsessed with how Alex cares so deeply about Darlington, is desperate to get him out of hell, but it's the same sort of loyalty she has for the rest of her tribe. she'd go just as hard for Dawes, for example. she's clearly attracted to Darlington, but can't let herself believe in a world where she loves him because she's too much of a mess.

Darlington, on the other hand, just wants to fuck her so badly.

#hell bent #you understand im generalising here #like his relationship to her is obviously more complicated than that but like #idk how to explain it other than his attraction to her is simpler. he's devoted & in love #Alex's on the other hand is. it's queer love #all encompassing and non denominational #she loves as the protector #she does not love as someone who wants anything for herself #Darlington's feelings toward Alex are all about wanting and devouring #idk! its so interesting to me!!!#hell bent spoilers #alex stern #darlington

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solivagantingrebel · 5 months

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Thinks about Soap who felt so out of place with his family that he ran to enlist the moment he could to avoid dealing with the complications of his future with them in it.

Thinks—

#about the mw3 ending #mmmmm #soap family angst #imagine if like. his avoidance led to a point in his life where his parents passed when he was on duty #and he just buried himself further in his work to avoid those feelings again #he has one sibling (my hc)#but his avoidance also pushed him apart from his sister beyond repair (he can repair the relationship but he never does. also because he-)#mannnn #this man ruins me always #putting this + in contrast with Ghost's situation with his family/past #man x2 #angst #mw3 spoilers #ig?#anyway #soap #john soap mactavish #(-also because he died before he could repair the relationship)#this is me filling in the gaps of - why the taskforce was the only one there in his funeral #also sister because he doesn't seem like a man who didn't grow up with a sister idk how to explain this to you other than like #divine visions and vibes told me so

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avatar-mikazuki · 4 months

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Sonic is beginning to realize how much he values others' company, and I need to talk about it.

Can you believe we actually got this inner monolog!!?!? We really SAW Sonic open up as the comics progress. This is an incredible moment of awareness. The moment it really clicks that friendship, companionship, and adventure don't have to be exclusive. He can enjoy others company and still be free, still have fun, and still get things done. He can still be himself, while others join in on the ride. It makes me so happy. I'm so happy to watch him grow.

Look at him!!! He's not just lying down hands behind his back, eyes closed all the time anymore. He's engaging!! He's so much more alive.

#i grew up with him #and now im growing up and HE seems to be growing up too #it means so much to me #seeing sonic open up to experiences like companionship really does it for me #i always related to him and his aloof nature #never fully present #always on the run thoughts and spirit farther than my body #but as the years went on i started to learn how to apreciate other company #and now he is too #it's just wonderful idk how else to explain it #sonic the headgehog #idw comics #idw sonic #sonic idw #sth #sth comic #sonic

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crybaby-bkg · 6 months

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tw: mention of incest role play, mention of fear kink, mention of cum inflation????, scummy gojo, also I have no idea how to word this????

gojo who gets paired up with you for a college project, and you’re fucking reeling for a few reasons. one being; he’s extremely attractive and damn near everyone on campus knows who he is. and also, you’re intimidated by his beauty and popularity, especially since you’re only known for giving out the answers when people ask nice enough in classes.

but he’s so…friendly, when you guys meet up to start on the project. he’s all smiles and helpful answers, bites at the people who come up to him and pretend you’re not even there. he listens to you with this dumb (cute) little look on his face, with his lips slightly parted and his brows raised and his white lashes peeking over the roundness of his glasses whenever he nods.

he’s kinder than you expected him to be. funnier, too, with his shitty jokes that you find yourself snorting at in the quiet library. and when you guys are finished with the project, he still keeps in touch. moves his seat to be next to you in class, texts you and asks you out to coffee, even invites you on a date after a few weeks.

and everything is perfect—until it’s not. until he beds you one day and it’s not as special or magical as you were anticipating it to be. he’s kinda…strange, in a sense, when he fucks you. oddly quiet, like he’s holding back, his hands just a little too tight, his eyes too focused on random parts of your body.

but you sleep with him again and again, until he starts becoming real comfortable with you. almost too comfortable, let’s how weird and strange and almost scummy he really is start to shine through, let the mask he’d be unknowingly wearing this entire time slip away.

“What if we were siblings?” Gojo asks you one night when he’s fucking your brains out. he’s gotten better over these few months, gotten looser and more comfortable. too fucking comfortable.

“Satoru, what in the ever loving fuck are you on about?” you ask him in a gasp as you reach a hand back to keep your head from hitting the headboard. but he’s undeterred, his eyes wild and unseeing as he grips your hips tighter, thrusts becoming sloppier.

“No, I mean in a role play way.” He explains, as if that makes it sound any better. “You know? You’re my sweet lil sister taking big bro’s cock so I won’t tell mom and dad about you sneaking out.”

“You’re a sick fuck.” you tell him plainly, frustrated that your tone doesn’t carry the same bite because his nimble fingers started playing with you at the same time. “Fuckin’ weirdo.”

“Incest role play doesn’t turn you on?” he asks, cocking his head to the side like a confused puppy that you wanna kick in the chin. “Maybe, hmm,”

he pretends to be lost in thought, thrusts slowing down and you let out an irritated huff as you slump back onto the bed. but your back arches up when his hips pick up pace again, suddenly slamming into you as he looms over you. one hand cupping your cheek, the other returning in between your thighs as he grins madly.

“Maybe you’d like some fear play, yeah? How’s that sound?” Gojo bends over you until his nose skims yours, his pupils entirely too tiny, makes your breath hitch in your throat. “Me, chasing you around the campus with a big knife, scared that I’ll catch you. You know I would, right?”

he forces you to nod with his big hand cupping your cheeks, pouting your lips at him as you whimper. he kisses you, breathless, chuckling a little under his breath as he mutters something incomprehensible, his cock carving its way deep inside you.

“Maybe even cum inflation? That one’s not the realest thing out here, but I could figure out a way to make that work. You’d like that, right?” he sounds like he’s off the deep end, like every single twisted thought that’s been running through his mind these past few weeks have finally come to the forefront. started spilling out between you two like a cracked dam, like he’s been bottling this up ever since you met him.

you cum only a few seconds after his last inquiry, scared of the way his smile widens, as if your body told him an answer he’s already known.

#sorry. for this.#idk how to explain it #but I thought about this the other morning and was like #wow. I think he’d have some very different knks than you’d expect from him #but he makes them hot every time for some reason #the other knk was free use but I didn’t know how to work it in lol #I hate when I have these short drabbles written and my mind is in #is immediately* trying to convince me that I should make it a full fic #I already have like 15 on my list and it’s stressing me OUTTT #rambling sorry #—new treat in the streets! 🍫#also why haven’t my tags returned like they still don’t pop up when I type them ☹️#gojo treats! 🍬#tw: incest #tw: fear

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puppyeared · 3 months

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i wanna post my skip to loafer art but i cant do it knowing ppl are gonna put it on tiktok and pinterest bc itd be like. bringing an invasive species ykwim

#my meds just kicked in so im feeling talkative but truly idk how to explain it #its like. with anything else id be more than happy to introduce it to ppl like monkie kid and mp100. witch hat maybe but its personal to me #but skip to loafer is special to me. and i feel bad for saying this bc other ppl do deserve to watch smth they will enjoy #hell the reason i got into it was bc my friend was kind enough to lend me her copy and i got hooked #its so ironic im saying this esp given how insecure i am abt depicting characters wrong. but i really dont want to look thru the tags #and see them on a 'can i copy your homework' tier list. or ppl getting mad abt why egashira mitsumi and shima cant just be a throuple #its just!! i wont stop you if thats how you like to engage with the show or how you interpret it bc ill just ignore it and leave u alone!!#and theres no objective wrong way of doing it!! and i know that interacting with the work is what forms a community after all!!#but keeping it tight knit is just easier for me bc nobody has to worry abt making each other laugh and we can enjoy it for what it is #fully aware im saying this as someone whos drawn monkie kid art with text post memes and owl house draw the squad templates #but at the same time i just. dont want to explain myself or give ppl reasons why shima and mitsumi are ace coded just bc it 'feels right'#fandom is a communal thing and it feels so hypocritical thinking this. too many conflictng thoughts that idk what to act on #yapping

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sparklingspidey · 8 months

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My community headcannons if I ignored cannon and every rational instinct within me

Troy Barnes - trans man, gay, adhd

Annie Edison - trans women, bi, acesexal and autistic

Shirley - Ally

Abed - bi, non-binary, autistic, disabled

The dean - pan, gender-fluid

Chang - gay, disabled

Britta - bi, autistic

Jeff - Bi, ace, trans man, adhd

Pierce - gay but so far in the closet he’s homophobic

#yeah. um #here ya go #idk how to even explain #some of these are more likely cannon than others #community #community nbc #abed nadir #troy barnes #trobed #jeff winger #britta perry #shirley bennett #dean pelton #ben chang

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nicoscheer · 9 months

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01/08/2023

Porto Ercole, Italy

He looks so boyish, like the backwards cap and the dangling foot

His standard Apple cable headphones I can’t he’s so sweet (probably either listening to the Beatles, Bowie, some classical music, the strokes or Miles new album 🐢 and maybe getting some inspo for AM8)

THE TATTOO I can’t 🤣🤣 like after leaving the fandom wondering for five years what he possibly did with the Taylor tattoo, the little shit just doesn’t give a fuck

Pretty sure that’s the hotel, cause towels, the pool and the dock all fits

Also like im sorry but if you look at the pics of Harry Styles and Olivia from the beach that were taken by Backgrid they look near identical

Also cause i was already on the subject of Harry Styles:

Are they in the same place ?! cause towels and the furniture and the stonewall. That would be fuckin hilarious but probably they already know each other well through Alexa Chung

Alrighty confirmed Harry also stayed at Il Pellicano (he was photographed with a bag with the hotels name on it)

#alex turner #arctic monkeys #slightly overwhelmed by the amount of shirtless swim short pics like that’s more than we got in the last 18 years #his hair 🦁#he looks and seems so youthful idk how to explain it but he doesn’t appear a day over 20 #(I literally just googled Porto Ercole residencies that was like the first one to pop up)#they deserve a break #(not just from touring but also from each other it seems ;))#also like I’m so so sorry but wtf is that white stain on Alex’s trunks #Alex has the opportunity to play tennis and wear shorts again 🤣#I’m sorry but like my biggest take away is literally that the little fucker (affectionately) just didn’t bother doing anything bout that #Taylor tattoo #like the fact that he just has his exes name in his body still after 5 years and just seemingly can’t be bother that alone screams autism #Il Pellicano

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ineed-to-sleep · 1 year

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#stop whitewashing Pisha vtmb 2023

#can't believe this is STILL an issue in the vtm fandom like #you guys can SEE. you can see right. that she's not white #so why is she white in your art? do you have a problem with her skin tone? the skin tone of one of the very few dark skinned ppl in vtmb?#literally why #I'm wondering do people just not understand the racism in that??#bc if so man. you should. there's plenty of videos on ytb that explain it much better than I can and you should get informed #bc this affects poc and their self image and idk how to explain this but you should care abt other ppl #vtm #pisha #sleep.txt

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lord-squiggletits · 1 month

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One of my least favorite parts of how JRO wrote Optimus is that he wanted so badly to continue his dark and gritty world building making the Autobots problematic, but evidently couldn't reconcile this with Optimus being a Heroic Paragon, so instead he leaned way too hard into "oh Prowl was the one who did this and it was behind Optimus' back" which if anything I think makes Optimus look worse, not better. Because then it's like, okay I know Optimus trusted Prowl a lot as his friend but you CANNOT TELL ME that over the course of 4 million years, Optimus as the leader of the Autobot army who literally would have access to 99.9% of all the records they produce, would never notice or question where some of these odd/inconsistent details were pointing. It just seems really inconsistent with how a real military would actually function, especially regarding Optimus' character, who is incredibly thorough and responsible and wouldn't neglect to keep up with all the details of his army.

Hell, Optimus knows who the Wreckers are and had them on call for tricky operations when he needed them (Stormbringer) so he's literally not at all ignorant of/averse to the use of special wartime units composed of dubious individuals. He's the fucking commander of an entire army, of course he knows that War Is Hell (TM) and no one's hands are clean. That's not even getting into all the stuff he got up to in phase 2/3, I mean everything from the annexation of Earth to OP breaking humans out of prison against Council orders shows that Optimus is no stranger to immoral and/or unlawful means.

It also leads to a lot of annoying fanon where people write Optimus (sometimes unintentionally, sometimes not) as like some sort of ignorant fool who's unaware of the machinations of his own army or has some sort of naiveté of "b-but we can't use bad tactics against the enemy! I would never condone the use of morally gray means in war!" No, IDW Optimus knows perfectly well all of the bullshit he's enacted/condoned for the sake of trying to win the war. Some stuff is definitely out of character for him and was only machinated because of Prowl, but I think this fandom REALLY underestimates Optimus' personal agency/responsibility as the commander of a whole ass army and ESPECIALLY underestimates Optimus' capacity to condone morally gray Bullshit Of War while still being a good person individually as well as, comparatively, the lesser evil compared to Megatron/the Decepticons.

Anyways what I'm saying is JRO may be a good writer but he's really hesitant to make Optimus morally gray and does some asspulls sometimes to justify most of the bad things the Autobots did as "Optimus just didn't know," and since the majority of the IDW1 fandom only reads JRO's stuff they go running with this premise of ignorant/uninformed Optimus when there's evidence elsewhere in canon to show that Optimus is, in fact, very highly aware of the bullshit he's allowed "for the greater good" and the only stuff he was "unaware of" was the stuff he would literally never agree to the ethics of, like bombing innocent neutrals disguised as Decepticons to get them to join the Autobots.