#im out of practice to say the least

[dokyeomini]

i realized the last time i had a proper job interview was when i got the barista job in ... 2016?

#it's the only job where i was like.. compared with other candidates #im out of practice to say the least #i did have some meetings for the internship and then a job related to it but that wasn't like an official #the job at university i didn't interview for .. I've mostly done short jobs in between #so im.. nervous for the interviews i will have

[aprill-99]

Rhys: “So let’s see if I’ve got this; you have immense shadow power, incredible combat skills, height, tattoos, secrets, dead parents, a thirst for vengeance, the weight of the world on your shoulders, a rebellion to lead, and a dragon?”

Xaden: “Yeah? I mean, there’s also my girlfriend who I’m completely in love with and 107 people under my protection but-”

Rhys: *frantically flipping through papers* “this is the hyper-intelligent girlfriend with unprecedented lightning powers? The one you speak to with your mind and call a nickname permanently?”

Xaden: “I do only have the one girlfriend. Kinda offended you’d think otherwise.”

Rhys: *signs a paper* “Adopted. The rebellion thing is handled. Me and your aunts and uncles have got this. Your new mom is going to need some time to add you and your mate to the family portrait gallery. Your bedroom is upstairs, knives are in the training ring, family dinner is every Thursday, your allowance is infinity and your curfew is never.”

Xaden: “I am…. Older than your wife?”

Rhys: “Did I fucking stutter?”

#incorrect quotes #fourth wing incorrect quotes #fourth wing #incorrect acotar quotes #acotar #crossover #who wants to write it? #bat boys #xaden riorson #rhysand #you cannot tell me im wrong #Xaden would be adopted in 0.8 seconds flat #Violet and gwyn can hang out #Rhys and Azriel might have to fight over custody #Violet would have a lot of fun with the valkyries #Brennan has things to say about Night Court medical practices #Tairn Sgaeyl and Andarna have a lot of thoughts about Byraxis #if Xaden is 23 than he is factually at least 2 years older than the oldest we’ve seen Feyre and that’s objectively fucking funny #Rhys is in his Dad era and even if he weren’t Xaden is everything he looks for in adoptive family and IC members #Rhys thinks Xaden is baby brother shaped and Xaden thinks Rhys is a weird powerful guy who might be able to help him win the rebellion #Xaden needs a nap #Xaden is adaptable and he’ll roll with this #but damnit all if he’s not bringing Violet with him #Violet is sure something about this is funny #crack fic #crossover fic

[ryssbelle]

Poppy for N2 au, it took me so long to make her design cuz I didn't really know what I wanted to do only because I feel like her design is pretty perfect.

But then I just thought about fun outfits to give her or outfits that I would find comfortable if I was wearing them and it all came together.

Poppy here is pretty much the same as here movie counterpart, as nothing really changes on her end of things other than having more insight on Branch through his brothers, and through Lief. Shes also a bit more understanding a bit earlier on because of it but it doesnt do much to change her own character arc I would say.

Bonus

Part of Poppys design was based off a design I had made for previous rulers of Troll Village/Tree

Namely Queen Protea who I designed as Poppys grandmother

Named after the Protea flower which part of her design is based off :D

In the context of this Au Protea was the one who conceptualized the tunnels while her son, King Peppy, was the one to follow through after her death

#my art #dreamworks trolls #trolls #trolls 3 #trolls au #trolls band together #trolls branch #trolls poppy #trolls oc #trolls oc lief #trolls oc protea #its really hard to mess with poppy at least in the context of this au cuz like i said nothing really changes on her end #whats changed in this au was just stuff on Branchs side of things #Poppy can witness these things but she herself isnt really changed by them #she of course would have more insight on Branchs life through his brothers and the addition of Lief as a character #but idk if that would fully change her approach with him other than what ive displayed #where shed try to relate to branch rather than trying to force him to relate to her #which would then most likely make her more understanding going forward than she was in canon #im still figuring her out #also since im in the tags and nobody really reads this #i feel brave enough to say #that secretly #ive been kind of sort of #posting a fanfic of this au under the name not the only one #on ao3 #and thats where Protea comes from #its not well written in the slightest #but its just for fun and practice so in my mind it doesnt really have to be entirely #but i am having fun with it #so if you see this and check it out please be so very nice to me please

[milkbreadtoast]

Christelle doodle🤧

#twsb #when the third wheel strikes back #christelle de sarnez #섭남파업 #서브 남주가 파업하면 생기는 일 #my art #this was supposed to be just a quick doodle to practice drawing her hair bc its so hard for me #and the lines of the body are messy + the pose is stiff #but i ended up spending too long coloring it KDJSJ colors turned out p nice tho #and her face is cute so im happy #fun to go full 90s shoujo w twsb fanart... :) #drawn on phone as always... i dont say this nowadays but fun fact i do dnfbdm #oh yeah i didnt use artshield on this *sweats* BC IT RUINED THE COLORS #so i just took screencaps... thats not enough to prevent scraping but at least its low res...

[lokh]

making friends involves showing up to places. i do Not show up to places

#im remembering that tiktok or whatever and like its tru i get it but also. #not even Places. i mean i cant even stay active on discord servers AKZNZNXXJD #but also realising its just. not. in my nature to like. interject in conversation????? #this is something im realising becos while sometimes i watch streams i realise i do none of what #people are like. there for. which is interaction #also im realising im not great at group talking. also less cues online #not that i know the cues or like. etiquette irl lmao #im also realising that part of it is obviously initiation like u gotta put urself out there and invite people #i will say that at least 60% is personal and its something that can be worked on #but growing up with the kind of parents where u couldnt go to peoples houses or bring them over #lets just say. i am not practiced at that either and it doesnt occur to me and i still like. #expect to be told no by my parents lmao #even when i did show up to places (uni) i didnt know how to Keep friends #simply because unless the topic of convo was being dictated (eg classwork) i wouldnt know what to say

[itsybitsybatsyspider]

Deleted Adobe Photoshop (which bums me out because i felt like i was really getting the hang of it. Booo to their new terms of service) and downloaded Clip Studio Paint instead!

Probably gonna try out some sketches tomorrow to get comfortable using it!

back at it again with the new drawing platform learning curve. yyyyaayyyy

#man i can't tell you how pissed i was about the new terms of service #like really??? #really???? are you kidding me??? #so needless to say i deleted my account today #it bums me out because i wanted to practice some more on it since it's the industry standard for character design and concept art #especially in the animation/film industry #but i guess i can hold out a little longer until they get their shit together and change it again #first twitter now adobe and maybe insta??? #god these corporations have no remorse or guilt whatsoever it's disgusting #at least i can try my hand at animation with CSP tho! Im excited to try that out

[toytulini]

if you draw enough monster ocs, when you go back to drawing a human character, it feels like "sameface syndrome" everytime, by virtue of their face being. human.

#toy txt post #or maybe i am just sameface syndrome #but also different face syndrome #two characters will have the same face but then the next time i draw those characters its a different face than they had last time! #i know part of it is being out of practice but also there is definitely an element of feeling constrained by human facial structure lmao #the monsters have Their Own Problems but like. no one has a face like bokrae no matter how inconsistent i am about drawing her #her features are iconic enough to her that you can tell everytime #birdie???? i faceclaimed eartha kitt for her and im still struggling cos i feel weird about faceclaiming as a concept #but even then 😭 one time i was trying to give headloose a face and someone was like wow he looks like birdie! #me 😭😭😭😭😭 what!!!!!! hes not supposed to!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i need to practice. features #you know the worst part about coming up w a bunch of fuckin Scenarios in my brain for ocs is that i have even fucking Drawn them yet #to give them like. iconic staple features and figure out what their faces look like. which feels like it would really help to have that #knowledge and muscle memory before i jump into trying to draw intense scenes with difficult poses!! #not to mention. listen. i can do the monster faces. somewhat. the bodies??????????? well for one. theyre too big everytime #im convinced i could be trying to draw bokrae on like a full ass wall size paper like a mural thing and run out of room. it just keeps #happening. i have no sense of scale for them either. by which i mean i struggle w scale already and also cant decide what i want it to be #and ive tried to handwave it away by being like ohhh uh. birdie casts spells on them to change their sizes for convenience but also #no. perhaps that explanation works for other ppl. @ myself tho its not good enough i Know Better!!!!!! #agh!!!!!!! i really need to figure out bokrae's Teeth also. like i dont. i coukd get away with it. but i should. and i want to. #anyway all this to say that i need to give these characters faces and body designs (actually the body designs for humanoid ocs is the easy #part. the faces are whats stumping me? well. i need more practice w all the body types again but like i Know what im Going For at least. #for the most part anyway. havent fully figured out heights. struggling w characters that i want to make short but give imposing tall energy #on occasion? birdie can be short all day long no problem. I want Alasdair to be short enough that he has a bunch of short boyfriends that #feel tall around him? bytte was going to be like 6ft max but then i thought about making her taller and like. what if i made her taller #headloose is not that /short/ but he is Not Tall and prolly pretty lean? twink build for sure #and of course all these short /tall distinctions come with a bias of relativity to my own height which i categorize as medium height #but short ppl call me tall and insist its not average and tall ppl call me short. (5'6) and then i have to factor in how the gender changes #the dynamic of a height like my height is Short For A Man but medium to tall for a Woman. which id argue is medium height bc mens heights #are socially held to high standards (hehe) and also i know ethnicity/race is also a factor? but im out of tags. rip. bye

[nerdie-faerie]

Just when I think the day's going well, I crash a golf cart

#summer camp tag #ace is a mess #i do not have a drivers license and i havent even been behind the wheel in like 4 years since i stopped lessons cus of the pandemic #the day was going fine i got loads done didnt feel like i was irritating my director too bad #doing some paperwork for her and she says when im done well take the golf cart out while its not currently raining #im like ooh fun never been in a golf cart before i see the higher up staff in them im not gonna say no to chilling in a golf cart #i did not realise that meant i would be driving esp when she asked if id been in one before and i said no #she then asked if i could drive and i said not really thought that would be it #cus i was supposed to be studying for my theory before working towards my practical #but no she insists im driving and first off i gotta reverse outta this bay now at least i didnt have to think about gears #but i hate tryna figure out how to turn whilst in reverse in mess with my brain im not great with shape visualisation #we do all our stops its fine for the most part a lil too fast going down some of the hills #and some tight turns but my turns were always like that cus im too busy focusing on the most immediate thing #we get back i park fine and then shes like oh actually there are some more stops we can make so i reverse and turn back out #do our two stops with only minimal confusion about direction then as i go to park into the bay we came from #shes like oh actually park in the bay closest to the health centre and what i should have done was reversed and adjusted my angle #instead i drove directly into the supporting beam separating the two bays 🙃😭 #i immediately turn the cart off and expect her to switch with me instead shes like laughing it off oh it was just a little bump it was fine #im like it was not that was a loud ass bang i feel so bad and then she lifts up the light cover i broke off saying its just a scratch #and i feel worse so pf course thats when the camp director comes out to check on the noise and i dont think ive ever worn a guiltier look #but theyre both laughing it off oh just having a little driving lesson :) and i am mortified #she gets back in the cart and shes still insisting that its fine and i should still park after that which i do with great trepidation #but there are no more problems and the lights still work but the cover does need fixing and i just oh my god #ive never crashed before never clipped or scratched a car so of course id crash the golf cart trying to park of all things 😭

[iftitah]

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#the more i stay around people the more i want to become like them out of spite #because i was so surprised these people are at least 24-26 years age some even did a minor bachelor's before coming here #some have completed post grad and then joined #like aren't you all too fucking old to act that immature #i grew so resentful of everyone how they keep on doing the worst low man shit and then victimize themselves #hypocrites full of shit they don't want to hear the truth #i know no one has the audacity to take a fight with me on here because they know im the youngest here #not because im the youngest but because im better #the girls frown upon me because i don't hear their low mindset humorless jokes and pointo out where they fall short #oh [my irl name] youre so stiff hamesha kami kyun nikalti rahti ho hamesha baat kaatne ki aadat hai learn to take a joke #mazaak hi to kar rahe hain kya yaar #ive cried so many times because i feel suffocated here and out of hate i want to act immature selfish hypocrite too so i do #i become self centered and look into my needs #but everyday bcg shows me how one stays firm in mindset even amidst surrounding of shit people #he points out to me all the time when i start acting like them he says why aren't you trying to rise above #i say ham bhi karte hai na unn chutiyon jaisa behave kyunki unhe unhi ki language mei samajh aata hai #achha ban kar honest banne se kuch nahi milta yaha #but he knows his stuff #he never does these things #however much i let evil thoughts take upon i get astounded everyday how he's practicing his rightful his honesty even tho no one's looking #it makes me want to cry #i hope he gets so ahead in life i hope he stands at the podium one day on a stage and deliver speeches where people actually can see him #like he sees the orator that come to attend our unis gatherings and says everytime kuch to baat hoti hai inn logon mei #i hope he achieves whatever he wants i hope he gets ahead of everyone all this fucking corruption #its not that he's done anything that im applauding he tries his best #and maybe teachers see that too all in class they're only looking at him and teaching they know #do you know how fucking hard it is not get corrupted in this uni and become one of those assholes that have done things unimaginable #im inspired everyday ill try my best to be like him #i do not just want to praise him i want to become someone he doesn't have to say fir tum bhi vahi karogi to kya farq reh jaayega #kuch bada nahi hota logon ki roz roz ki choti choti aadaton se pata chal jaata hai vo kaise hain

[thespaceaxolotl]

hi tumblr

#art #my art #digital painting #digital art #digital illustration #illustration #rendering practice that got WAY out of hand #my friend critted this so ill probably chip away at it a bit more but im happy w it for now #my mom also critted the composition of the bubbles SCNEIFINEIFFJ #she at least didnt say it looked bad. and didnt say the bored ‘’its nice she always does #so thats a win in my book #procreate #kiiind of a rinotuna study? #been trying to understand light a bit better

[impulsivedecisionsat3am]

do you ever get homesick for an instrument?

#i know at least half of y’all don’t even really play instruments but lemme have this #venting time: #i’m good at bass clarinet. like not particularly great. but i’ve played it enough in certain challenging situations to get good at it #and like. everyone recognizes it. sure my neurodivergence makes it hard but hey. my effort is recognized and my playing is complimented #AND NOW IM ON TENOR FUCKING SAX #it’s fun. it’s cool. but oh god I CAN PLAY TWO NOTES AND ONE HALF-OCTAVE SCALE #LIKE BRO. TF IS THIS SHIT #i’m not good at it. and that annoys me. so i’m probably gonna get annoyed to the point where i will practice out of spite. and that’s fine #but also i haven’t played bass clarinet in over two weeks and i turned in both my school instruments #rip theodosia 3 and 4 #i say things sometimes #bass clarinet #tenor saz #marching band

[cleromancy]

dick stans who feel threatened by like. literally any other dc character than bruce are so goofy like... you dont need to. i promise you dont need to. youre biting your nails anxious defensive staring at the 2nd-3rd horses lagging halfway down the track in a race your guy's *already won*. like please be serious

#''like sure my guy has more merch appearances history adaptations and is overall treated by canon with more consistency and respect'' #''but what if the 40 year head start vanished overnight bc everyone started liking the other guy more'' #i dont think you gotta worry about that man. #and my condolences about the ric arc bruce stealing his robin tts everything etc but it could b worse: #ur fav could be practically any other dc character. #however. its also pretty funny of me to say this as a jason todd guy who was originally a dick grayson guy so #maybe you should feel threatened actually 🤷 #anyway dickie ilu im kissimg your little forehead. dont listen to ur stans all ur friends and family love u #i always just wind up pretending the person was actually channeling dicks insecurities like #😱😱 what if donna DID start loving jason more what if tim DID replace me what if roy HATES ME now bc jason was telling him LIES #and then whatever annoying thing i saw circles back around to being funny. #like even in the cases of roy and tim briefly liking jason more in canon that. is already getting phased out and also at least for *roy* if+ #that makes you madder than any of the other ways his character got slamdunked in the trash i dont wanna fuckin hear it from u

[bustafe]

its so bad when ur jealous of friends i hate it when my brain keeps lying or me (or maybe its not lying. auuhfhffhhdg) maybe i should make a disclaimer now like "do u want to follow me right now bc im having a paranoid episode"

#even after all that i still havent gotten out of it its like my head spins when i think abt it #i dont know how to get better;;;;; #esp since last time they were practically justified i think it actually got worse #never do the 'confront ur paranoids' thing cuz 99% of the time theyre justified at least thats how it is with me #so thinking abt this now is killing me #i feel like im losing my grip w reality? i suppose i can say that to mean what i mean but its not exactly it #teutablogging #vent

[britneyshakespeare]

The shy bachelor Godwin thought that Mary Robinson was not only intelligent and "Rational," but also incomparably beautiful. His daughter Mary Shelley recorded that "Among his acquaintances were several women, to whose society he was exceedingly partial, and who were all distinguished for personal attractions and talents. Among them may be mentioned the celebrated Mary Robinson, whom to the end of his life he considered as the most beautiful woman he had ever seen, but though he admired her so greatly, their acquaintance scarcely attained intimate friendship."

Perdita: The Literary, Theatrical, and Scandalous Life of Mary Robinson (2004) by Paula Byrne, page 322, contained in the beginning of Chapter 22: Radical

#i can't stop thinking about this #william godwin #mary robinson #mary shelley #mary wollstonecraft #and in at least one letter wollstonecraft admitted to godwin that she had wanted to leave a dinner party earlier out of jealousy #but she didn't bc she could tell he was enjoying perdita's company so much #for what it's worth nobody should take this out of context bc these two marys were huge supporters of each other and friends #but if my dad were to say this about any woman other than my mother who died due to complications after giving birth to me #bruh. i know this is probably a rather contemporary cultural judgment to make but still #'oh YEAH dad? why dont you go tell that to the daughter you had with mary robinson—OH WAIT #you just have ME. MY fucking bad' #ps i also love how (i have yet to read her novels but this is routinely mentioned in the biography) all of her heroines #have long dark auburn hair and blue-grey eyes. bc that's what she looked like #and tbh i love it for the incredibly selfish reason that that's what i look like. im vain. goodnight! #(we really do stigmatize that sorta thing now. making ur main character resemble urself. i think thats stupid. its a fine practice) #(no i think we only do that when the author is a woman bc then her character is omg basically her she didnt even try) (eyeroll)

[todayisafridaynight]

Wanna put your friend in a lil terrarium just to see what wacky things she does stg 😂

i actually Cannot Stress the migraine she gives me every time we hang out. like without fail she'll always say or do something that ranges from mildly questionable or irritating but relatively Whatever to How Have You Survived This Long Without Burning Your House Down Boiling An Egg

#snap chats #and then there's her just forgetting things or being late despite the amount of times ill remind her #and i keep stressing to her i cannot stand it when people are late. and then she shows up to things an hour late anyway #or 'when shes late' by fifteen minutes because she didnt think to text me she's there. and im already stressed and annoyed I. UGH i swear. #LIKE. i have only really had two irl friends and both of them i lowkey had to parent in some way #at least my childhood bestie she's like. she's grown a lot and even if i havent spoken to her in a while im real proud of her right #THIS MOTHERFUCKER THO. OUUUUUGGGH.... youre not supposed to say anythin if you dont got nothin nice to say #which is contradictory to the main body text but point is let me Not be any more mean than how ive been already LMAO #even funnier about her looking at that comic is that LITERALLY masumi says he's talking to jo ☠️☠️☠️☠️ #did i already say i have to remind her who jo is every three seconds #like the entirety of chap 2 when ichi's out of jail she was all 'why doesnt he just say who ACTUALLY killed the guy' #and then when we finally run into the fuckass who 'actually killed the guy' she's just 'wait who's that' #then i tell her and shes like 'oh my god he's so old now' IT'S BEEN 18 YEARS DUMBASS #ngl did wanna make a comic based off that LMAO BUT POINT IS she tests my patience every day and i think its good practice #if im going to work with people in the future like ohh.. my god.... #she told me once she's never been on a date and its like. yeah i wonder why you can't even be assed to show up on time to hangouts ☠️ #like ive never had friends so maybe im just insane.. im not insane for wanting people to be on time tho.... #OK IM BEING TOO MEAN LET ME CAP IT THERE

[kxllerblond]

im sorry but no other self-indulgent concept is better for me than clark being in the presence of someone with a god complex and them agitating him to the point of having to humble them and say some metal ass cringe shit like "you think yourself a god but you bleed like a man"

#cuz like you have to understand clark is out here with powers. he IS among angels and demons category wise #and he hates himself to a good degree and he doesnt think himself above ppl really #at least not in the way someone with a pure god complex does. #his is arguably the 'i feel like im the worst so i always act like im the best' god complex type kjfgnbhfkh #but he's amONG god and demons and angels and so to see just a fucking hUMAN out here trying to play god #and lord over ppl or like wtfever. it makes him near ferAL. it annoys him so much #when i say he practically has a kink for humbling those sort of individuals..... #cw suggestive