#im probably not going to make much money and its going to be so stressful

[obsob]

wizard that makes u nonbinary

#mine #hohohoheheh this is one of my. failed prints #was gna make like a wizard series w various colour palettes to do with th identities flag but....alas #this is the only one i finished tho the bi one got like halfway there so. maybe i will finish that 1 #i think new prints r arriving?? late next week maybe?? its a long bank holiday so. theyre gna b closed for a little #one of my insect books arrived yesterday VERY exciting. i. want to read abt buggies!!!!!!!!! #ive also been looking into uh learning to drive. bc i should. do that. #i think it is going to be awful i will probably kill someone #i need to do some theory first i havent had to study anything for like. 5 years. so this. is going to gp. badly #hfuhgn....sleepy.....sleepy baby....its only 4pm #oh i just got an email saying my prints have been dispatched jfbskdf never mind!! #ough i need to order. more envelops. my favourite thing to order #ive been spending so much MONEY it makes me so STRESSED #i had a spree of actually spending money usually i just hoard it like some sort of rabbit #i bought som clothes.......bought some skin care......som vitamins #i got some probiotic gut health vitamins n im like. cured. why did i not do this sooner #ibs be gone #wizard that gives u ibs

[panspy]

hmmmmmm.................vent post under tags...... feel free to give advice or dont¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#i think this is an autism related thing #but i genuinely feel like i wasnt made right for the world we live in #like something is just missing from me that ive never seen ppl talk about #and i know this is going to sound entitled and privileged and i KNOW i know i promise and im so lucky i can even be thinking about this but #it feels weird to have the privilege to be scared #this is specifically in regards to working #like having a job. like going to work #i feel like im missing an extremely important part of my brain or my BEING that is capable ot going through the motions of participating #in society. i never felt that switch of wanting to get a job in high school to make money for myself and get that experience #i feel like there's something i MISSED where everyone took a class on how to apply and go to interviews and write resumes and not be scared #like i NEED to be walked through every SINGLE step because i dont know HOW #and i see my peers and the literal entire world around me participating in this atmosphere and i dont know where to start #im fucking twenty three years old and ive only ever been an intern and an assistant #not even a full year of working #i cant drive and i probably wont ever because thats a whole other can of worms #and that means i have to rely on other people to even get to wherever it was i needed to go #i feel like a fucking child because im missing this knowledge that everyone else seems to have #ive tried i really have but none of it seems simple and its all so much and there arent steps to follow #i mean there ARE but its like 1) look up job 2) apply 3) interview 4) yay you're employed #and im talking about each micro step inbetween #what am i missing #and then theres the fucking demand avoidance that slaps me across the face whenever my mom brings it up to me like i KNOW youre being #supportive and encouraging and its not your fault my brain turns off and decides im full of shame bc i cant CONFRONT ANYTHING #jesus christ #manf i know u can see this maybe dont bring it up to mom i can do that on my own maybe #i WANT to help i just want to help at my own pace but unfortunately the world isnt built around individual paces and nothing revolves #around me. i know this #i want to help my mom i want her to never be stressed about money and to retire and never work or help me pay my student loans but i #genuinely feel like theres a switch that never turned on in my head and im being left behind and i genuinely dont know how to. like be alive

[toxooz]

Hi Toxooz, how do you get yourself to draw so frequently? 👀👀👀

bc i have literally 84 things going on at once in my brain at all times that my highly visually obsessed brain Has To physically get in front of my eyes so that i can see or else will i think abt it over and over again and Brother I'm always envisioning things characters scenes scenarios outfits designs colors all of it in my cranium like angry itchy itchy ITCHY bees until i draw them out lmfao even if i don't know what to specifically draw at the current moment imma still end up drawing somehow ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I think at this point it's literally hardwired into my brain that I Gotta draw its what I've been doing since I could hold a pencil tbh it's how i cope with being -gestures vaguely- Here and alive, i actually gotta force myself to take a day off and schedule days where I DONT draw bc I know it's wearing on my hands and wrists 😬 I guess physically drawing grounds me in a way and keeps me (mostly) sane like if I don't draw for a few days i start getting Vaguely Antsy it's fukkin weird and i think at this point my love for my characters has surpassed like any form of art block if that makes sense??? like they literally take up 92% of my brain if not more, and the only way to see them is to draw them but yeah it's just what i do it's my jelly n my jam which is why I'm literally so glad i realized that i don't want to make drawing a job/career bc God help me if i start dreading drawing bc of the stress of money I've been drawing like crazy for like 2 decades straight and I only wanna draw more man idk!!!!! It's just one of them 'how the brain formed around what you do an assload of times' thangs

Answer translation: idk I just like to draw a lot lmfao

#its like the kids say ✨💅its how i express myself✨💅 #and dont get it twisted im aware this is not healthy lmfao #dont aspire to b like me just draw or dont draw man its abt the want #like i said drawing is just What I Do at this point i didnt train theres not some ''oh draw for at least 30 minutes a day' shit #i draw fast as shit (probably obviously ) and so much its probably unnatural AHA #the secret is make drawing the only outlet for your brain to not completely self implode at the mere idea of existing #for 24 years!!!!! :) #honestly thats why im getting progressively more Tired when every mf and their grandma tries to convince me to sell my shits #like brother this is a part of me how can i give away something i created and inevitably formed a bond with for like 100 bucks #i caint do it and so if i go in with the expectation to imediately give it away then man i dont even want to be making art in the first pl #like for me Personally if im not going to make something that i fall in love with and want to look at occasionally then #Literally what is the point of me making anything #what is the point of me making my body and mind create a piece if not for my own personal joy??? #but thats just physical art ig #like digital stuff and selling it for money if some1 wants it im aight but physical paintings??? that shit is Me and Mine #like just bc i Can make art doesnt immediately mean i need to make money from it yknow #my brother in christ when it comes to the the only true outlet for me to find joy and inspiration in living i Do Not care about money #i will take any amount of shitty job abuse if it means i conserve my passion #ill get a scarring accident from welding before i will stress cry over a deadline for a project that i dont even want to do #absolutely terrified of that path and feeling it is The Worst for me #like literally thank FUCK i realized this when i was just in a community college and not balls deep in debt at some fancy university #granted late as all hell and all my opportunities of taking free welding classes in my early years have long passed but still glad #just stick me on an abandoned island with canvases n paint n shit and ill b fine #god knew if i managed my time better and wasnt Really Fucking Exhausted all the time i would be unstoppable #like ofc making money while drawing what i want is the dream no doubt but the chances of that are slim and the road to get there is even #slimmer #ANYWAY holy shit not to get hella preachy but i have Thots

[databent]

[pained wailing emoji]

#.pdf #rd #THE REST OF THIS IS JSUT ME WHINING. FEEL FREE TO IGNORE #i dont wanna go to work ‼️‼️‼️ i feel like i am nearing a breaking point i am sofucking burnt out #every time i go to work. my brain gets Scary at me. stresses me out. dont like it ☹️ #im supposedto be going in tonigjt but im dreading it sososo much #my work hour options have changed from “fully flexible” to “7am-9pm only” whcih yeah i know that doesnt sound that bad. but i have non-24 #(circadian rhythm disorder that makes me sleep progressively later every day circling fully around the clock over ~3 weeks or so) #and bcos of it often i have to force myself out of bed in what my body thinks may as well be the middle of the night just to get to work #and then i dont ever get enough time to recover from that to actually let my sleep fall back into its natural schedule wjich is the only #time i feel properly rested. so essentially im chronically sleep deprived which is making me chronically stressed and way less productive #i just reslly really want to fucking save up a little money and just Not work for a week or two. bjt. with my sleep bullshit i cant really #work enough to be able to put anything aside. at all #so. kind of an unrealistic desire i guess. lol #ive been feeling like this ever since like early january when i was told i ahve to stick to a more normal schedule. & its only getting worse #idont know i just wishthere was something i could do that was fully flexible on timing but also doesnt havw the kind of workload that would- #-stress me out like basically anything with longer-term projects so ykmow Most flexible schedule jobs. #i do have one thing in mind i could do on my own but its dumb and probably wouldnt make much money and has startup costs i cant afford rn..

[bulletsfrank]

being online makes me feel so isolated because i cant reach out to a single soul without feeling terrified of the rejection. im too tired to be any kind of meaningful friend or even mutual, but i have absolutely no one in real life. i come online for my crumbs of socialization and human interaction that i desperately crave, but once i have it i just feel more lonely. like people talk to me out of pity, out of feeling sorry, or just that they will always have people they like more. i feel like a baby. i feel like someone who will always be watching everyone else live the life i desperately want through the lens of social media while i rot alone in the house that killed me before i was born

#honey's words #this is dumb. i will probably delete. but who else could i even tell #writing in my virtual diary today... #and i am soooo fucking stressed. being with my mom in the same house is literally killing me #i screamed at the top of my lungs and shattered my phone throwing it at the ground yesterday and i juzt feel so much shame #i keep crying i keep having episodes its all going to kill me if i dont leave #my car needs fixing but my mom only wants me to make money for her as always #i just. oh my god can i just actually kill myself #and she legit juzt texted me asking for a carton of cigarettes. haha . just another $50 i need to scrounge up #by driving doordash with my car that desperately needs fixing but i can't!! BECAUSE I HAVE TO GIVE HER ALL MY FUCKING MONEY!!! #please... no more. literally no more. i have to go back to sleep bc thats the only time im not wanting to die #im scared for myself genuinely. i dont think i can make it through this time. i dont think i will survive .. i wasnt made to. god i am #two steps away from begging the lord to help me and im an atheist ahiwjsjs. there has to be some kind of relief.

[cerbreus]

it’s been a hellish last couple months dealing with being caught in the crossfire between incompetent rental car agency that is mad at me and incompetent car insurance company that didn’t tell me the person handling my claim fucking QUIT and MY CLAIM WENT FORGOTTEN FOR MONTHS and it still isn’t resolved in fact things have gotten worse and tbh, when i have major stressful setbacks in life, my body and brains’ response is to just. not. do anything. just shut down. intense fatigue, inability to focus on literally anything because the background level of stress is so high.

#bro im gonna cry #fucking got blacklisted from one of the largest rental car companies in this country and it is apparently #impossible to get off the 'do not rent' list #whats making me more upset is that i literally called them the day the windshield cracked i got things sorted out before i even dropped the #car off and still shit is so far out of my control and now i'm stuck with all these repercussions that shouldn't have happened if my #insurance that i pay a hell of a lot of money for wasn't so incompetent #bro apparently even my ROOMMATES can get blacklisted for sharing an address with me #worse yet payment has been sent out but the company is still going 'fuck you pay me killyourself never talk to us again once u pay this' #i can't get ahold of the DRU person in charge of my claim on their end to find out what happens #so it might end up going to collections anyway which will perma fuck up my credit score which i've been trying. so hard. to raise. #being an adult is a fucking nightmare i want to sleep i can't focus for longer than 5 minutes on anything before i start getting that dread #its so frustrating i can't enjoy my hobbies i can't enjoy my work (which is going well right now) bc i'm so stuck on this i need this to go #away so i can regain my brain's normal functioning and yes i have anxiety this is the worst it's been in a while though #anyway sry for the venting i'll be fine it'll be fine my insurance WILL pay for this and things will be fine (probably) once that goes thru #not that it didn't add to my stress enough that my bp probably took another year off my life lbr #personal stuff #delete later i think #DO NOT rent a car without taking the damage waiver it doesn't matter how much it costs or if you have insurance just take the damage waiver #don't be me

[be-good-to-bugs]

crying shouldnt cause headaches, thats just cruel honestly.

#the bin #i went through to figure out costs more and im most likely not gonna be abek to bring almost any of my belongings #i can probably manage to at least bring my pets. my sisters boyfriends cat cant tow and it doesnt have a lot of space in it so im not gonna #have much room for anything at all. i guess maybe its a good thing my sister wont be coming then :/ #honestly. im not actually THAT upset. he seems fairly chill and respectful of my boundaries. moreso than my fuckin sister is. not that thats #hard to accomplish. if i set a boundry with her she will most likely break it repeatedly and then also refuse to apologize #im still uncomfortable with it but not much more than i was with going with her anyway. i van just keep earbuds in the whole time probably #im really upset that ill have to leave my stuff here though. with her. i hate that. and im also probably not gonna have a bed when i move #and ill be sleeping on the concrete basement floor so uh. that sucks. a lot. my aunt probably has an air mattress i casn borror for a bit #im also probably gonna see if i can convince my sister to let me take one of her beta fish and the one tank she has for it. its a small tank #so i could easily bring it. its too smalm for the poor thing but its gonna be in that if it comes with me or her so. and i wanna get it #something better. ive become pretty attached to it after taking care of it for the past 4 months. ugh the fact she just ditched me with her #fish pissed me off so much too. not to mention the snakes were supposed to be a shared pet but she just stopped dling anything ever and it #became exclusively my responsibility to care for them and pay for all their stuff. she should not have pets of any kinda #im trying blt to be really upset. i can hopefully bring my most important belongings at least. his car isnt THAT small. and then ill only #need to pay for the gas and thats it and i can definitely afford that. hhhh. ill figure it out. i hate this :/ #my head hurts so bad from having a 2 hour long meltdown. im so upset over our whole relationship and everything #she just keeps doing selfish things over and over again and treating me like an idiot for not knowing things she didnt tell me #specifically treating me like im stupid for not knowing she isnt gonna be able do what she specifically told me she could #im im so mad at her for the ditching me and the repeatedly taking advantage of me specifically for money and fucking me over #wnd everything before that. our whole relationship. im seo stressed abt this. i have nobody now. #i hate her so much. im glad i can clearly see how abusive things have always been bug it doenst make it sting any less #and it doenst helo the fact she continues this behavior now too

[southislandwren]

today on things im FREAKING THE FUCK OUT about is my car being basically wrecked and now i have a loaner car until monday. and also i didnt have a chance to get any of my stuff out of my car so i dont have my derby stuff or my knife or my protection sigil or my farm boots or my ice scraper etc etc

#a big thing is that my FUCKING drivers license is in my car so like. if i get pulled over in this loaner car #with no license or registration or proof of insurance. like what the fuck do i do #i have my expired license card in my wallet but like. lol thats not good enough for the pigs! #cant wait to go to school on monday and be like not only was the 3 day weekend not relaxing i am actually MORE stressed out than before #well. time to overdose on some benadryl and play skyrim until the shadowman takes me #(thats a joke. im going to take 1 benadryl for my anxiety as recommended by a pharmacist. and then im going to play skyrim.) #oh and i didnt get an estimate for all the work they have to do bc the guy in charge of my case is new and probs forgot #so i have no idea how much this is gonna cost and my parents are going to cover it but like. i will probably start crying if its over 2k #my friends will be like hey hope how was your weekend #and i'll be like guess how much money i spent on my wrecked car. now check out how hard i can cry #oh and i ALSO still have to learn how to make ice cream mix on monday from my prof #who will teach me math and then lecture for 6 hours straight. #mom told me to bring him coffee but i dont have time in the mornings so maybe i'll bake him something idk #diary post

[fabulouslygaybean]

god. im scared

#realizing that i lost all of my teen years to trauma and bullshit like that. and that it forced me to be an adult way sooner than i - #- should have needed to be. #im turning 17 in a whopping 13 days and just. im terrified. like genuinely scared. #my family is having a lot of financial issues rn and im probably gonna have to pick up another job to help my mom make ends meet #and i think she wants me out of the house by the time i turn 18 so i gotta hurry. #idk how the fuck im gonna find a job where i can make enough money to help my mom while also letting me save up for an apartment while - #- also helping me cover all of my own costs BEFORE i turn 18. so food and medical stuff and clothes and such. while also having enough - #- time and energy to balance my final two years of high school AND somehow have a social life on top of that #i dont know how the hell im gonna pull it off. i dont feel like an adult but i have to be one already so i just gotta figure it out i guess #ive already lost the rest of my teen years. i shouldn't be sad about losing the last few. i don't have time to mourn. #my mom keeps saying that i need to stop stressing out bc its my birthday but like. the problem is my birthday. #sigh. i should be happy this month. im turning 17! im going to riot fest! i like most of my teachers this year! i have a bit of freedom! #but i don't feel happy. im just violently reminded that time has passed way too quickly and that im running out of time for everything. #im also violently reminded that i very much do not feel like an adult. even though it's only a little over a year till im 18. #i still watch cartoons and buy stuffed animals and have sleepovers with friends where we gossip about school and make pony bead bracelets #i cover my notebooks with stickers and laugh at immature jokes and have glow in the dark stickers on my bedroom ceiling #just. idk. i keep trying to catch up for lost time but i just have to keep rushing foward faster than i can handle. its weird. #sorry to post disappointing shit. im just tired and my body hurts and im stressed and scared and sad. nothing's going right. #in better news. after i get a job to pay for it i can apparently get a birth control prescription without parental consent in my state #i might finally be able to escape from my debilitating monthly pain! ill be able to function!! #im also gonna be getting myself a lowkey ugly rottmnt birthday cake from a grocery store because its my birthday and i can do what i want #so im still stressed and scared but ill have a day with friends where we can play games and do stupid shit and act like teenagers i guess #it'll be nice :')

[somethingtodowithreaders]

Wrong Number, Right Day

Chapter One: Good Deed of the Day

Gaz x Female Reader

Warnings: None

Word Count: 526 words

Summary: Kyle gets a wrong number text but decides to be a little generous that day.

Notes: I wrote this on my phone on breaks in between jobs. No editing.

Kyle groaned as he body refused to relax. His muscles still tight and tense, despite the flight home and the bar with the others. The piss poor alcohol had done nothing to ease Kyle’s stresses either. He ignored the constant buzzing of his phone on the table. Soap was probably sending updates on whether or not he’d managed to make any leeway with Ghost.

Soap had been trying to get in the Lieutenant’s pants for a while now. Kyle could tell by watching that Ghost was interested but never made a move. The little ways he took care of Soap. Making sure he was get checked out by medical. Doing check ins while at the safe house. Getting water and food into him. Subtly touching his shoulder when stressed. All these little things, and some alcohol, led Kyle to stupidly mention all of it to Soap.

So now the man was determined to get Ghost ti break first. Another buzz of his phone finally annoyed Kyle enough that he reached for it. Of course he had like 16 texts from Soap. As he opened his phone he noticed one was from a number he didn’t recognize. Opening the text he blinked stupidly at the text.

Unknown: Seriously Kyle I need the rest of the money.

Who the hell was it? Probably a wrong number. Cause the only person he owed money was Ghost. And he was letting him cover the next round of drinks instead. Kyle quickly started to type a response when Soap sent him another message making his phone buzz and Kyle’s alcohol fuzzy brain was spooked. His finger slipped across the phone.

Kyle: Sorry w

Shit. He’d hit send to early. Before he could respond again he got a flurry of texts.

Unknown: please

Unknown: kyle

Unknown: he said he’ll kick us ouyr

Unknown: *out

Unknown: im already working thre jobs just to cover what you can’t

Unknown: im not trying to make you feel bad but i cant afford food for a few weeks to cover this

Unknown: and don’t ask me to not feed your dog again

Unknown: he has to eat kyle

Whoever this Kyle was, he sounded like a fucking prick. This poor thing busting their ass just to get by. And to not feed his own dog? Kyle pulled up his bank real quick. As long as it wasn’t ridiculous, he could probably afford to send some money.

Kyle: How much?

Unknown: thak uo!!!!!

Unknown: just the last $250 and then well b god

Unknown: *good

Unknown: u still have my link?

Kyle: Please send it again.

Unknown: here ya go

Kyle: Sent $500

Unknown: what no! i just needed the rent!

Unknown: you need money for food!

Unknown: kyle take the other back!

Unknown: kyle!!!

Kyle: For your troubles. Going to sleep. Goodnight, love.

Kyle leaned back against the couch, his body finally releasing all of its tension. For some reason being able to help someone in a tangible way made him feel better. He could hear the buzzing of his phone but it lulled him into a soft sleep now instead of annoying him.

#gaz x reader #x reader #female reader #inspired fic #my fics

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for lying about my babysitting availability to my aunt?

🧛‍♀️🐈

to recognize later^

M in high school. for the past few months ive been picking up my younger cousin (8m) from school, im scheduled for mondays and his other babysitter does other days because shes just a generally easier option (shes goes to school in the same building as him and gets out earlier/at the same time).

i take the bus to a school thats out of district, and commute is usually around ~30min, depending on traffic and weather. im home at 3:00 most days, and i pick up my cousin at 4:15, which is when he gets done tutoring.

sometimes my aunt will text me during school and ask me to pick up my cousin when his other babysitter drops out, and i'll be a bit grumpy about it but agree. heres the problem:

some days she'll ask me to pick him up at 3:15. my house is within walking distance of the school, but its an incredibly small window of time even if i rush to get down there, and thats not even taking into account weather conditions like rain, cold, or wind. in the past i've always agreed to pick him up at that time if i am literally able to (like if i dont have an appointment or something that is time-sensitive), not taking into account if my bus may be late or a road may be closed. but ive started to consider just lying and telling her im not available whenever she asks if i can pick him up at 3:15.

i'd say a big contributing factor is my autism, which makes me really stressed about getting there on time or how physically tired i'm going to be after speed-walking up and down steep sidewalks and roads to get there, also i have a tendency to not eat as much as i should for breakfast and lunch so by the time school is out im really hungry and that makes me cranky. i was always told as a kid to never lie, that honesty is the best policy, etc. and i took that literally. i only ever lie for jokes, so this will probably be the first time i consciously lie about something that isn't a joke and i am worriwd about it.

she does pay me what i consider to be a significant amount of money, anywhere from $25-50 depending on how many times ive babysat that week or how long its been since shes last paid me. i cant access the money rn, but im working on being able to (current total of $105)

tldr: i'm considering lying to my aunt and telling her i'm unable to pick up her kid from school sometimes because in reality it causes me too much stress, WIBTA?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[liquidstar]

SEASON 3 TRAILER DROPPED HERES MY THOUGHTS (LN spoilers)

BROTHER AND SISTER OF ALL TIME THEYRE SO CUTE <3 love seeing how their relationship has progressed from beako literally throwing him out a window for stuff like this to her happily playing along its so so so so so cute. genuinely just one of the cutest and sweetest dynamics in the series

hi ram roswaal and fred :) this is probably all we're going to really see of you guys this arc lol

JOSHUA REAL!!!!! but not for long (also otto in the bg foreshadowing all the drinking hes about to do this arc. hes so stressed. poor emilia is trying her best)

julius looks so babyfaced here? they really emphasized his long eyelashes just like subaru has been on about every time he mentions him. they better include the scene where he checks him out, like, if they dont animate subaru looking dead at this mans ass im going to riot

i LOVE this shot of ana. you can really tell shes up to some corrupt capitalist bullshit as we speak. love her for that. wish i had this pic when i made that one money game anastasia video

the red dress actually does look really good on crusch like it compliments the green hair really well but also the crusch we know would not walk around in such a thing so its like. damn looks like the "memories are an important part of identity" story thinks memories are an important part of identity. who knew.

ALSO LOVE FELTS NEW LOOK SO MUCH! the only complaint is i felt (felt lol) like the red brought out her eyes more but the blue also looks cool. three primary colors all being used looks nice too

whatever who cares about all that THE CUNT!!!!!!! THE CUNT IS HERE!!! I CANNOT WAIT FOR ALL THE DRAMA SHE CAUSES TO BE ANIMATED FOR REAL

no fucking way... did they actually...

THEY DID! THEY CENSORED THAT HORRIBLE FUCKING DESIGN OH MY GOD. SHES WEARING SHORTS AND JUST A CROPPED SHIRT. AND CHAPS I GUESS? BUT ALSO A LITTLE SKIRT CAPE SO NO ASS SHOTS... THIS WILL MAKE WATCHING THE SEASON SO MUCH MORE TOLERABLE. i mean not perfect but STILL.

photos taken seconds before disaster lmfao. i still love how chin thinks subaru is a freak and weirdo for being so buddy buddy with him after he and his buddies mugged him. twice. (even more times from subarus perspective. hell he stabbed subaru once) genuinely cant wait to see more of this dynamic its so stupid.

THE FUCKING CUNT!!!!!! also the apples lol

oh you poor thing. you have no idea what next level family drama bullshit awaits. good luck. get ready to kill grandma AGIAN lol

:'( emilia still misses her terrible cat dad and its kinda sad when you know were not getting a resolution on that here either. they both look so sad :(

i cannot wait for garf mommy issues round fucking 2.

THIS CRAZY BITCH!!! I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE THIS CRAZY BITCH ANIMATED. I CANT WAIT TO SEE HOW THEYRE PORTRAY HER MANNERISMS. ESP W HOW WILD PETELGEUSE WAS ANIMATED IN S1. REAL LOONY TOONS BULLSHIT. AND HER POWERS ARE ALSO SOOOOOO MUCH COOLER I CANT WAIT

NO MORE DRESSES FOR CRUSCH YAY

he fucking bit it. yeah i guess thats what dogs do tho.

YOU. DIVORCE MAN. KILL YOURSELF. SLASH SERIOUS.

the empathy powers will have a glowing eye effect. very cool but i hope they dont show it too much in the first scene bc like in the LN i think its cooler if you dont know why everything is so... Wrong.

i dont rly have anything to say i just think ferris looks cool covered in blood. imagine being healed here like doctor catgirl will see you now

emilia be nice. that crazy bitch might be your mom. just like how the previous crazy bitch was in fact your dad.

THEY CHANGED UP CAPELLA'S DESIGN TOO honestly tho her being sexualized makes sense w a lot of the themes (the way its intentionally meant to be perverse and gross in a way explicitly stated) so i didnt mind as much and she still IS here but. this is still an improvement imo just a better outfit looks cooler. bug.

NAUR I DONT WANNA WAIT... OCTOBER.... AUGH

#re:zero #very excited even the things that i was the most unexcited abt and made me wary to watch have been fixed a bit yippeeee

[lifeonmarz-blog]

Jupiter through the houses Pt. 2

Jupiter in the 7th- Slow Downnnn. Ya might be extreme in your behavior and very hardheaded. These people love bragging and that attracts alot of people that want to take from them but even if they not bragging the way they carry themselves makes people jealous. You could have no more than the next person but for some reason people think you do. They can have alot of secret enemies. Hella self centered lol. Very territorial, kinda reminds me of a taurus stubborn forsure but will defend their loved ones to the death. Only they can bully the people they love, dont let you try it. They may also feel like they have a point to prove or have to put in extra work to be treated the same.

Jupiter in the 8th- They want a big family and want to do it differently then how they were raised. They hold grudges really bad and need to learn how to forgive people and move on. These type of people can be completely different from their parents. Learning from their mistakes and choosing to do better for their own kids. This definitely isn't a easy one but the patience and perseverance that is learned here is truly admirable.

Jupiter in the 9th- These people know how to blend in where they need to. When it comes to making difficult decisions they procrastinate real bad. Their more cerebral and not as conscious to how their actions effect other people. Practicing being more in your body and not in your head so much would really do them well. They ignore their own feelings alot. Super prone to burnout its like they punish themselves with stress.

Jupiter in the 10th- Public figures vibes foresureee. i bet you wanna be famous. Yall love the spotlight and survive off adoration. You hate feeling misunderstood and will clarify something in a heartbeat. Money hungry forsure and might have a hard time being grateful because you feel such a responsibility on your shoulders like you never have enough. You either put people in position to receive more materially or someone has put you in position to receive more but its probably both. Be cautious not to use people for what they can offer you. A lot of times you feel like you receive no real benefit from the hard work you do.

Jupiter in the 11th- With this placement its like people want you to prove yourself all the time. They wanna see you work hard before they'll help you but once people feel like you've ''proved'' yourself you waste no time and have your foot in every door. You gotta learn how to chill out and not be so defensive you dont have to be so impulsive and defend everything you say or feel. At times you can feel like you have no control over your life and and everything bad happens to you.

Jupiter in the 12th- You may have felt like you had overbearing or very demanding parents. Like a part of childhood was taken away from you. You give yourself unrealistic expectations then beat yourself up if you dont accomplish them. Things could be going downhill for a while before something extreme has to happen for you to acknowledge it. Im not gonna lie this placement is a lil sad because of how critical you are of yourself. You dont have to deal with everything on your own. Talk to people, reach out when you need help.

-luv of marz

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Travelling Together - NCT Dream

genre: fluff, bf content, gn reader c:

No warnings, sorry if the formatting is strange I did this all on mobile :s

Mark

Would definitely love to visit somewhere new and interesting, especially if its somewhere you two can drive/rent a car/van and have a roadtrip. Driving past all the landscapes, architecture, freedom to come and go in your own time? Loves it. On that note, maybe even a campervan or mobile home type thing so you can go on a long roadtrip, sleeping in campsites under the stars. Would love to go somewhere where you can stargaze and lie there, hand in hand, tucked under his arm, whispering sweet words into your ear. But in general is just so incredibly happy to go along with whatever you want to do, he loves seeing you happy so everything makes him happy if you are! He also just loves to wander and find out where you guys end up, no destination, finding joy in the journey. One arm is always around your waist or shoulder, or your hands are interlinked, and when it gets busy he lets you put a finger through his beltloops or tucks a hand im your back pocket to ensure you don't get seperated. Definitely a sensible packer, and is willing to keep watch of important things like passports/money/etc but gets very worried about losing them so maybe ... just reassure him and help him keep track of things... Only a bit stressful to travel with, mostly because he tends to overthink, so probably needs you to be a calm, reassuring presence that reminds him this is a holiday — fun and relaxation is the whole point. Wants matching tourist shirts or something silly as a souvenir to remind you of the trip. Every time you wear it even if its just to go to bed or lounge around the house, his dreamy, hazy smile lets you know exactly how lost he is in the memories of your trip.

Renjun

Wants to look at the scenery and appreciate the views, probably gets a little melancholy watching the clouds passing across the sky in a new place, so you have to wrap your arms around him and re-anchor him to a tangible happiness. He would love to travel by train and watch the scenery rolling past on the way to your destination. Visits to historic sites and art galleries, linking pinkies with you and quietly wandering, preffering places with less crowds so you two can appreciate the stillness in silence — of course, he always whispers to you that you're more stunning than any of the art, more divine than any holy site, more brilliant than any natural or manmade wonder. Most sensible packer, brings anything he thinks you might forget and even things for emergencies (medicine, bandages, you name it — he has it). Insists on sharing dishes every meal, so you both get to try as much food as possible! Probably orders way more than you can finish because he gets excited about trying all the foods. Possibly wants you to pose for him so he can sketch/paint you as a present/souvenir, either that, or wants you to do some kind of activity together like pottery painting or making something and exchange the pieces as a souvenir.

Jeno

Introverted staycation type, but if you convince him, he'll go wherever you want — he can't resist when you talk so excitedly about the place you've always wanted to visit, and the warmth he feels inside when he thinks about being the one he accompanies you there? He's melting. Willing to pack for both of you, but wants you to take on some of the responsibilities so it's as stress free as possible for the both of you. Likes staying in a hotel where neither of you feel burdened to cook or clean, and of course how soft the mattress is. Wherever you go, you'll end up hiring bikes and trapsing the sights on two wheels. Whether it's a super bikable place or not he can handle it, but would probably give in to you if you weren't up for it (might suggest trying to find a tandem bike or put you in one of those lil carts you put kids in the attatch to the back of the bike). Also wants to try all the local delicacies. Does the cute thing where he feeds you his food and wants to hook his arm with yours when you do a cheers and drink something (even if it's literally just iced coffee). After a long day of biking, sightseeing, and eating, he enjoys coming back to the hotel to wind down by watching something on the hotel room TV, curling you into his side on the bed so you can't escape. Gets matching fridge magnets for both of you as a souvenir, and displays his proudly on his fridge as a daily reminder of the sweet vacation you both deserved, and seeing yours on your fridge reminds him of how much you enjoyed it too.

Haechan

Chaotic but in a good way? Spontaneous and poorly planned, but when you get there, you wouldn't have it any other way. Getting lost is an adventure that leads you to backroads with the most delicately beautiful architecture, booking a hotel two hours from the airport means you get to take a train across the area and see rolling landscapes you'd never imagined, even a miscommunication due to the language barrier means you end up trying one of the best dishes you've ever tasted but would otherwise never have tried. You get by even if you forget something, because Donghyuck is by your side with his tongue in his cheek and a clever response that. He navigates around an unfamiliar public transport system flawlessly, then whines that his feet hurt and you need to rub them when you're back in the hotel. It's impossible to decide if he's the best travelling partner or the worst. It's a misadventure that'll end up being one of the unforgettable memories you share, one that gets slipped into every conversation. Full of laughter (and maybe a few heated discussions that always end up in kissing away pouts and hands comfortingly rubbing your back), the only souvenir of the trip that you need is the train ticket you bought but never used, as it was for the opposite direction than you needed.

Jaemin

"Let's take one bag it's easier that way," type. Wants to share all the essentials (steal whatever you pack), but always carries the bag regardless of how little of it is his. Just picks it up and takes it, no questions. Constantly asks you if you're excited, because he's excited. Might even want to plan the trip himsef and surprise you with the location/accomodation because he loves seeing the pout on your face when he reminds you it's a secret, (and then of course the way your face lights up when you see the hotel room). Probably wants to stay in a nice hotel near a city centre so you're as close as possible to all the sights and attractions, and so he can stand behind you and hold you in his arms while you watch the sun go down from the hotels big window, pressing kisses into your neck as you sigh contentedly. Prefers to walk around and see what looks best in person rather than making plans beforehand, and whenever your eyes linger on a storefront or ask another question about a museum you've walked past, he'll squeeze your hand and lead you towards the entrance. Takes SO many pictures, and frames a lot of them when you get back so you can always look back on the trip. Even if it's a photo without either of you in it (although you are the subject of the majority of his shots), the way its a subtle reminder of the private memories you shared is more precious than any trinket or tourist trap.

Chenle

Chenle wants to pay for everything and feel like he's treating his baby u knoo. Wants to get a business class flight/train/cruise/whatever to the destination you've only ever dreamed of visiting, then rent out a whole airbnb house or apartment with the best view of the city. Part of the reason he does this is because he wants to have the option to cook for you in the kitchen if you don't feel like going out, and impress you with his chef skills (he loves the domesticity of it). When you do go out, he's not afraid to talk to locals and charm them into telling him where the best spots tourists don't know about are, and somehow gets you into all the best places, and spares no expense making sure you have the best experience. No matter how much or how little, he just wants to take away your burdens for the duration of the vacation and shower you with affectionate touches, exquisite food, and sentimental experiences. As much as you both love the expensive gifts, both of your favourite souvenirs would have to be the postcards of the city you bought, complete with notes handwritten by each of you. Even if he teases you after reading the touching words, he knows he'll treasure it forever

Jisung

Nervous about missing the plane, jittery on the way to the hotel, overthinks what he should wear for the weather. But despite the overthinking and nerves at your first proper trip together, your fingertips tracing patterns on the palm of his hand as you excitedly look out the window, he realise it's something he doesn't need to worry about — you're there with him. It's a traditional, fly somewhere nearby, mid-price hotel kinda deal, but everything is special and novel when you do it with hands interlocked and eyes darting to meet in the middle when you both remember it's really happening. Together, you do your best to make the most of everything, rinsing the overpriced hotel breakfast buffet for all it's worth, walking the streets and basking in the unfamiliar side of the sky, taking as many photos of eachother (and together) at historical or scenic sites as your phones allow. Jisung's hand pulls you along when you get tired of walking, his long legs and irresistible smile dragging you into another burst of energy as you cram in another museum before lunchtime. At first your dissapointed that in the blur of excitement and adrenaline, you forgot the get a proper souvenir. But when you realise its been months and the hotel shampoo and bodywash that sit in your shower are still untouched, you know that they'll stay that way, a soapy reminder of your first holiday together.

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[be-good-to-bugs]

hey what if i like, didn't have a headache right now. that idea sounds cool we should do that idea.

#the bin #ack. i cant like. do anything. #i want to draw right now but i cant cause of this :/ #the screen hurts my eyes and the leaning over makes it worse. and the leaning from traditional art is SO BAD. #hhh. i hope it will go away soon but i dont think it will. im feeling stomach sick too so i cant take ibuprofen either. sad. #i didnt end up getting to call my mom yesterday. i was SO tired probably because i had a 2 hour panic attack and it was past when #id been going to sleep anyway so i fell asleep. today should be more idea bc i stayed in bed till kinda late. #im really nervous. theres other stuff stressing me too like lending a bunch of money to my sister again. i dont have a lot right now and i #will need some extra for moving costs regardless of if i stay here or get to go home. supposedly she will return it in a week #its not for her technically. its for her boyfriends rent. if it was for her i probably wouldnt have tbh bc she sucks SO MUCH about this #stuff. i do have the money and i get it. i dont know him but its not a problem for me as long as i get it back very soon #ive lent a couple smaller amounts to him before and he was quick to get it back. and he always offers to send back more which i dont care #about but like. he gets that im not REALLY in a position to be able to do this. im still stressed the fuck out tho. #my body hurts so bad all the time. im glad i get time off this week but god damn. #i was gonna use it to clean but idk if my body is gonna let me. well. at least one of the days it will have to. #i hope i get good news today when i talk to her. i wanna stop having to stress so bad about this

[chris-continues]

Okiiii

Only one bed in the booked hotel room trope? 👀 (not nsfw obv) I read something similar to this but it was Vash so maybe a Nai version?

Star wars convention with Vash? (If u do dis one and if u need any help feel free to ask me anything cuz im a huge star wars nerd)

Vampire Vash and/or Nai?

CARNIVAL!!!! I wonder if the brothers would compete to see who can win the most prizes, also watching the fireworks on the ferris wheel would b cute

Beach episode? 👀👀

Sorry if it's alot-

(I love your au's so much oml, you write all the characters beautifully ♡)

AAA TYSM I REALLY APPRECIATE THAT imma screenshot this message/ask and use it a few times probably but the one that caught my eye most is vampire au PLS SEND SO MANY ASKS ABT VAMP AU I need to write more stuff on it

Ngl I’m most willing to write suggestive stuff for vampire au bc bro… 0///0

Lonely nights lead to delectable frights <3

In which two vampires with extreme charm have you wrapped around your finger (when in reality it’s them wrapped around your finger). (To be added on to, I wanted to expand on this more later lol)

WARNINGS/TAGS: mentions of depression/loneliness (reader runs into the woods to be alone but also craving companionship), gender neutral reader

Vampire Vash and Vampire Knives meeting reader! I’ll add onto this in separate pieces but I haven’t set a definitive timeline yet!! So any drabbles written may deviate from the last piece

I was debating on writing this in Victorian era type beat or modern au (because I’ve written vampire Nai modern au) but I asked my fav vamp lover @coffinbeananteiku and her word is final 🫡 (I needed to ask someone to decide for me I’m very indecisive sometimes)

Tags: @lune010 @vashfantasy

The dusk of a new night greets you as you run. Far, far away. You had nowhere to go, your feet leading you wherever the wind took you. Nothing truly important lay back in town, perhaps a few less than noteworthy friends in society who’d given an artificial smile and obligatory wave.

Nothing to go back to.

So of course you’d been an idiot to run into the woods. You have one horrible day, and rather than wallowing at home like usual you make the horrid decision to run when others keep berating you for it, fine attire catching on brambles you’d almost tripped over as the haphazard movements of yours fell to a halt. How far had you run? How far did your stress carry you?

Alone. Just as you wished and terrified. Only the moss at your feet and rather barren branches accompanied you, horrors of the night awaiting your person.

Wonderful. Wonderful.

You breathed in shakily, only to exhale into a sob. God, you were tired, so so very tired.

You eventually lifted your head to observe your surroundings. Eerie; yet a welcome sight compared to the bustling cobblestone streets of town, quiet, perhaps too quiet. The wind whistles past your ears in its reverie, encompassing you fully into the charm of the night.

This could be good, you attempt to reassure yourself. That thought is fleeting as you attempt to appreciate the short lived tranquility and struggle to backtrack. It’s futile.

You have no way back. So what must you do? Trudge forward. The next town could be for miles, you have no money and certainly no mode of transportation besides your already exhausted two feet.

You trek forward.

Not long after, your loneliness returns. The peaceful night soon digs into your heels once again, dragging your already worried mind into further disquietude. Your arms wrap around yourself in poor manner to shield yourself from the further night’s chill, vision hazy from the little light and paranoia suffocating you.

But nevertheless, you persist. You were stubborn in that way, never knowing quite when to stop despite the fear you’d be too much. Even now, when you’d done too much, by leaving town entirely to the welcoming yet terrifying arms of the woods did you remain stubborn. In a will to survive? In the pursuit of curiosity? The need for more? To deserve more?

You’d never quite place it, you’re sure. Perhaps all of the above.

Such thoughts plague you as you unknowingly stare down at your feet, eventually reaching a cobblestone pathway.

Your neck snaps up to see- ruins? No, it’s far too neatly kept for that. A castle, complete with gates and stone pathways; warm torches lit at the sides if you squinted from the faraway grounds of the gates. Cool moonlight acted as your light as you traversed forward, feet picking up. Perhaps you could try to see if it was abandoned, fashion yourself a place for the night! Hopefully no dangers resided here, in such a domestic place. Well, perhaps it wasn’t the most welcoming of homes but it certainly was a new sight amongst what surrounded you. Ah, yes, dead trees, dead trees, and.. woah! More dead trees!

..so, quite the refreshing sight.

The pats of your feet are the only noise you truly process, the gates creaking with movement as you walk closer to the manor.

Large metal rings the size of your head hung heavily at the double doors. Should you knock? They appeared to be in usable condition.. so you supposed, lifting one knocker with your dominant hand.

A heavy boom resounded as you dropped it. You’d never really used one- just accustomed to the usual rapping of knuckles on doors, or a verbal call whilst entering a room.

“You appear unfamiliar.” A voice suddenly husks behind you, making you nearly jump out of your skin.

You whipped around quickly, “Holy shit!-“ for someone in the Victorian era, your modern slang (profanity) was rather proficient. Standing before you was someone cold and cunning, towering over you intensely. His presence demanded attention, the need to stand straight and not let him out of your sight in fear of what he could do.

The wind whistled in your ears once more. Like a taunt that it could run far away from here, unlike you. His domineering white- no, almost white, pale blue eyes stared down at you. He seemed inhuman.

Your mind seemed scrambled in a feeble attempt to explain yourself, “Sorry I uh, was walking and needed someplace to stay for the night..”

His eyebrow arches in amusement. “So you decided to reside here?”

The crunching of leaves is what alerts you to a new presence behind the.. man who’d confronted you, wisps of blonde hair peeking from over his shoulder until he stood next to him. “Aw, that’s no way to treat a visitor!” He gave a sweet, yet strangely tight lipped smile. “I’m Vash, this is Nai. It’s wonderful to meet you.” A partially gloved hand adorned in lace outstretches towards yours in a pleasant handshake, small tears in the fabric from overuse. It’s a paradoxical feeling of ‘rough lace’, yet it suits him rather well.

You hesitantly greet yourself, voice meek with unfamiliarity and worry. An introduction slips past your lips albeit shaky voice, he remains ever so friendly and opens the door for you, the.. Nai guy taking care to briskly zoom past and ignore your very presence.

How kind. He’s taken a liking to you.

Vash merely brushes it off as usual banter, perhaps it’s nothing personal, you assume. He seemed unbothered overall and didn’t really acknowledge anything, that much you could observe just from his behaviors so far.

It’s not of importance, not in your mind at least. What truly caught your attention? The ornate structures in the main hall- carvings of angels in rich marble and stone, hell, even the floors had carvings!

Out of curiosity you dipped your toe into the slight crevices in the ground, feeling the divots of some.. geometric swirls and markings that decorated the beauty of the castle.

“Hey, you coming?” Vash peeked over his shoulder towards you- you’d lost yourself in the beauty of the room. He gave a knowing smile at your wonderment, entrancing chuckle reverberating throughout the tall ceilings. “I was the same way when I first came here, it’s definitely a sight to take in!” He jolts his head to beckon you forward,

“You can stay the night. If you wish.”

What other choice did you really have?

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