#im v concerned but like

[bonbongiveshell]

The worst part of having a suspicion that someone you love is turning into a crypto terf is that they are hiding their opinions behind little "harmless" statements on purpose and collecting evidence so you can confront them about it is a fucking insane thing to do

#captain's log #im v concerned but like #i have memory issues right? #so in the past when ibe tried to bring up concerns with friends lr family #theyve rightly asked me to give examples #which are pretty hard for me to remember #in my family's case they do that on purpose bc they know i cant remember #or they do this same thing where its seemingly harmless but it does hurt #so i cant even confront this person bc my brain is sending alarm bells out like you cant do this thisll end bad and if yheyre not already #alresdy there youre gonna tip them over the edge #i will say theyre a young white person bc that doesnt narrow down literally sny of my friends except a couple #but because of that they are like so primed to fall into this sort of rhetoric #and theres another thig which makes them even more so but that will narrow it down #and i dont want my suspicions getting bscl to them

[ventiswampwater]

Kurt Russell as R.J. MacReady THE THING (1982) dir. John Carpenter

#the thing #the thing 1982 #r j macready #kurt russell #filmedit #horroredit #scifiedit #mine #a macready gifset? on tumblr dot com? groundbreaking. #<-this is all to say that these scenes have been giffed 7397493849 times before in far more gorgeous detail #but I'm throwin these in the tag anyway. bc we should all ponder our orbs about him from time-to-time #I played around w/colors on these and I'm kinda digging the blue #obsessed w/the fact that universal was leery about hiring kurt russell for this part bc he was ''too young and pretty'' fhsdjfhdsjhfdsjhfd #incredible. valid concerns. he was indeed v young and v pretty here #to use my previous tags: #macready if you read this im free on thursday night and would like to hang out #please respond to this and then hang out with me on thursday night when I’m free #guy of all time truly

[thesherrinfordfacility]

the thing that is actually making me giddy with the possible angst is that i really think that we are about to see the most monumental shift in not only how we saw these characters but also how they previously saw each other.

the fact that we literally now have confirmation that a) they knew each other before the fall, b) aziraphale has had heart eyes since before time began, and c) crowley... possibly not so much, completely changes the context on not just the eden scene but also all the historic scenes that followed.

aziraphale knew crowley as an angel, and knew even then when crowley was meant to be 'perfect' that crowley was maybe a bit different, always asking questions and toeing the line. maybe out of a bit of bastardy himself, or out of begrudging awe of his ability but also his audacity, or just plain attraction, aziraphale immediate takes to him. but this has meant that aziraphale has placed crowley, perhaps unconsciously, upon a pedestal. and the pedestal that aziraphale puts crowley on from that moment may have wobbled throughout their history together, but it's stayed relatively intact.

this worries me, that aziraphale may not have quite let go of the fact that crowley just isn't that person any more, maybe never was to begin with, and continues in some measure to idolise him. my interpretation of this is that yes, crowley can be a bit of a dick (because, well, obviously) and aziraphale knows this, has done since the beginning, but aziraphale continues to hold crowley to an overall moral ideal that is so firmly ensconced in aziraphale's first perception of him as an angel that crowley will never be able to live up to it. not because he isn't a nice person, or because he can't live up to it, but maybe... he just simply doesn't want to.

but the issue is that throughout the ages (including the job minisode which ive had corrected for me, so Crowley Anger is now simply simmering), crowley's actions have only reinforced to aziraphale that despite being technically a demon, he has a huge heart and is not a horrible person. bit of a bastard, but not cruel. all of this just feeds and feeds into this image of crowley that aziraphale has built of him, and when crowley has his flashes of, in fact, not being honourable or kind, this threatens to upset the pedestal altogether.

these wobbly moments - when he thinks crowley is going to kill the children, when crowley snaps at him in rome, when crowley first proposes the arrangement, the prospect that he came up with the french revolt, the holy water request, the bandstand, "how can someone as clever as you be so stupid?"... moments where just for a second, in a small or huge measure, aziraphale's faith in crowley... flickers.

and of course aziraphale has been here before, right? he's had his faith, his devotion, his loyalty tested to the absolute limit of angelic endurance. so when his faith in heaven (never lost it in god) was obliterated, well - it had to cling to something. something that wouldnt mean that aziraphale has to lose the concept of faith altogether. so we're back to the old standby of idolatry, that aziraphale's heavenly faith is replaced by his faith in crowley, this angel that despite never originally giving aziraphale the time of day, aziraphale cannot see - for all of crowley's faults and bastardy and the frustration he poses - crowley as anything less than something to be worshipped.

this is exactly why i think that one of the main points of s2 is going to be a rift between them both. obviously i haven't talked about crowley's perspective of this and maybe i will in another post, but i do think that crowley is going to do something, a bad thing for the right reasons, but aziraphale isn't going to see it like that. that crowley will do something awful to protect aziraphale, but all aziraphale will be able to see is the betrayal or the cruelty or the despair, he can't see wood for the trees, and just lose that last vestige of faith he had altogether.

i feel like once all the disillusion and disenchantment has been swept away, and they're both laid bare at each other's feet... that they may not quite like what they find. from aziraphale's perspective, that whatever crowley does in s2 might be crossing aziraphale's line in the sand, and now aziraphale is starting to see crowley as someone that is truly grey, fluctuating between doing things that are Good, and things that are Good for Crowley.

and it's not as if aziraphale was blind to this before, but instead now... he kind of finally sees who crowley is? who he has been all along? the film has lifted from his eyes. realises that love and worship are not the same thing. what he loves, who he loves, doesn't equate to worshipping it/them, idolising them. there's a very big difference that echoes down to the very core tenet of who aziraphale is and his experiences with having and losing faith, but love having remained.

so stripped of the pedestal, crowley is now just simply... crowley. a person, not an angel, not a demon. and there is the distinct possibility that aziraphale might be completely blindsided by what he finds.

#good omens #good omens season 2 #ill let you in on a secret - no idea where i was going with this #but what im essentially saying is that aziraphale has this shiny picture of crowley in his head and heart #and when crowley continues to do crowley things aziraphale kinda steps back and is like #“huh... has it been this was all along?” #and if I'm wrong well honestly THANK GOD #but i feel like there is going to be a real reckoning at the end of s2 where faith and love is concerned #that the two are very different but aziraphale kinda confuses the two #anyway #good omens spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #good omens... speculation? Sure why not #not a shitpost but its good omens babyyyy #im saying theyre in somewhat of a toxic and disillusioned relationship and its likely going to (temporarily) end v badly im afraid #rhi needs to stop manifesting

[lo-fi-charming]

like... daisy ending up in the coffin is significant. it's not just to be ironic. it being her "first encounter" with the entities after becoming an officer is significant. the fact her former partner - someone whose apathy and brutality as an officer she understood and sympathized with - is taken into the coffin isn't just scary because it could have been her, but because they end up in there for the same reasons. it's about the crushing, inescapable weight of what she's done, knows is unfair and awful, but does anyway.

daisy doesn't realize what she's been doing for most of her life is wrong just because she gets trapped in the buried; it isn't, like, detoxed out of her, affording her Sudden Clarity. and it isn't that she's forced to change, either. that she's made to suffer long enough that ~moral goodness~ manifests, as if that's how you become a better person, you just have to get what you deserve enough... the buried didn't MAKE daisy "good" or "regret" what she'd done - it's just that everything finally caught up to her. daisy was already afraid of herself and the things she'd done. she's been afraid at least since the first time she saw the coffin.

the buried is a fear that can represent the feeling of being trapped under so much Something that there is no way you can ever see yourself escaping it. the things daisy has done throughout her life are not done without consequence. in the past, she was always able to outrun it for this or that reason: luck, cleverness, a system that protected her, a partner that enabled her, etc. but it meant daisy had to keep running. keep feeding it and keep killing. keep digging the hole. nothing forced her to do it; you can argue quite a lot of things encouraged her behavior, but daisy admits it herself: she liked it. she was good at it. it's always been a part of her and that's what's scary.

and even when daisy gets rescued and is out of the coffin, is she? the weight is still there. she's still being crushed by it and there's still nothing she can do to escape it. the only difference between then and now is that daisy refuses to try running from it.

#endlesschatter #daisy tonner #sorryyy sorry i had to get some more words out #real talk i myself for a while did not really consider the obvious significance of daisy in the coffin for a long time #if only bc my realization that she's my fave tma char was kind of a slow burn #so i didn't think about it v deeply for a while... #but i feel like it is. something that's not often discussed #as... with most things... concerning daisy. imo imo #i get it but unfortunately she is my favorite so im terminally underfed and constantly musing #...there's something to be said about the similarities of the hunt and the buried. somewhere in here #it plays nicely into daisy being a hunt avatar who falls to the buried

[chryblossomjjk]

ot7 enlistment reality is starting to sink in

#im so sad like #what the fuck do you mean two years without them #we’ll have our jinnie back soon tho 🥹 #that scene in twilight where this bitch just looks out the window for five months bc her emo boyfie left #is literally going to be me like #what am i (adhder) to do without my hyperfixation ?? #and highkey worry about their mental health a lot #especially joon and jungkook #bc i feel like since hiatus they’ve been v concerning on live yk? #like being really sad #talking about feeling lonely and whatnot #sigh #i just want them to be happy #im going to miss them a lot #IM SO SAD RN

[mariejordans]

they are starting to scare me a little…

#like im kinda concerned a bit 😭 #gen v #gen v cast #derek luh #asa germann #notderekandasa

[matd0]

WIP of jefff cuz i have been playing minecraft for the past few days instead of drawing B)))

also tysm for the support immm so glad people like my stupid self indulged drawingzz lolll :]

#jeff the killer #creepypasta #creepypasta fanart #creepypasta art #creepypasta jtk #jtk fanart #art wip #also i'd like to point out that i love reading the tags u add to the reblogs lol #they're v fun to read ilove them #even tho i am abit concerned for some of you guys 😦 #oh yea btw. for whoever cares about the going ons of my life. i also got a bridge piercing afew days ago!!!! #im like. so happy. :] #also i finally ordered a binder and it should arrive like sometime next week?????@?! yippeee!!!! #ok thats all ty for reading lmao

[dissociativemagicalgirl]

thinking further on my response and i do think CDDs can be a spectrum more than clear cut diagnostic criteria. like just in general. like just from what ive observed & what im reading (currently working on the haunted self!) i think theres a lot of overlap in symptoms between DID, OSDD, and even C-PTSD & BPD, which makes it harder to draw a line on whether certain presentations count as one disorder or another

it's an added layer of difficulty that theres so many different ways CDDs can present. i feel like every system i meet and every system i read about has its own unique ways of presenting, which im assuming is because it's a complex series of adaptations to very specific stimuli & circumstances. but like the variance in peoples' lived experiences makes it hard to make blanket statements about systems (or even like, alter archetypes, for example)

like theres just so many ways a system can look. some people know about their alters as early they can remember & experienced them as imaginary friends or voices. some people go 20, 30+ years without realizing theyre a system at all. theres polyfrag systems with layers upon layers of subsystems and complicated inner workings. theres people whose alters have only a passing awareness of each other. and so on. Individuals might share a diagnostic label, but there might be little overlap in how they experience being a system

anyways This is a lot of rambling that's straying into different territories.. sorry my mind may not be all here LOL

at it's core we are all experiencing various levels of structural dissociation ... unity 🤝

#borderline #i think changing diagnoses and/or comorbidity is common for us. So im not terribly concerned on whos using the 'right label' #When really diagnostic criteria arent set in stone. my perspective on this is probably at least partially informed by my experiences #being in the mental health system for a very long time & going through Most of the DSM-V LOL.. #in i hate you dont leave me. my copy is at my parents' house so i cant double check #But towards the beginning there's a list of how BPD has a lot of overlap with like. Most other disorders #i remember the phrase that BPD seems like it's on the of everything else #& i would not be surprised if other disorders related to complex trauma were similar as well - in that they can easily mask as other #disorders. & theres naturally going to be a lot of overlap with many other disorders #This went off topic but ^_^ if anyone has anything to say on the matter feel free to add on. not sure what the point of all this is LOL

[sages-herp-garden]

the newest beetle to pupate got stuck in her molt so i had to help pull it off because her back legs were trapped in it! she's fine now but needs a name and i want it to refer to her misadventure.

for reference her 7 roommates are beetle: the squeakquel (male), beetle: electric boogaloo, beetle: senior year, jenah 2, marshmallow, windshield wiper (aka WW or quadruple-U) and ty beetleridge (male).

pics of her (both stuck and freed) under the cut!

#v excited to have 2 males btw #that's the perfect number for a breeding population as far as im concerned #1 and then a backup #with 1 male and then 5 ladies in a row i was worried that i had somehow changed the conditions so they all developed a certain way #and it was like what if something happens to him and then i cant figure out how to get another male #so ty beetleridge was a huge relief #bugs #insects #beetles #poll #tumblr poll #zophobas morio #superworms #sage speaks #sage original post #sage pets

[padfootastic]

Day 1 - Prongsfoot Week 2023

massive thanks to the lovely Jen for organising another wonderful event for us!!! you're the best <3

What are the first 5 things that pop to mind when you think about Prongsfoot?

oooh okay, okay, not as easy as u think, this one. because the only thing that pops into mind when i think about pf is like. cacophonous screaming. incoherence. a teenage fangirl running around a room, arms waving madly, mind lost in the obsession. im uh. a bit unhinged for j&s, if u couldnt tell so far lol. but i'll try.

soulmates. in every world, they're connected to each other and they'll find each other. it's a comforting thought precisely because of how tragic canon j/s is.

unattainable. both of individually, and together, are so far out of most people's leagues its not even funny. they're an intimidatingly attractive couple, and they're almost always in the middle of an inside joke that no one else understands. their friendship is inherently exclusionary and it doesnt bother them at all

affectionate beyond belief. gosh they're a public menace. in any decent society, they'd get locked up for obscenity and 'offending sensibilities' and 'outraging the modesty of people' etc etc bc theyre SO all over each other all the time. its a problem.

jigsaw puzzle. they fit like one, filling in each other's cracks perfectly. at any given time, they're what the other needs, and both consciously and subconsciously at that. seeing them together is a treat bc they're so in sync its almost unreal. even...magical, one could say ;)

larger than life. they're not. a real couple ykno? its not a relationship you'd want in reality, nor does it make sense for that to happen. it's fantastical and amazing and not constrained by practical concerns. u dont have to worry yourself with minor issues bc these two are just. *that* intertwined. i dont know how to explain this one properly haha but just know, they're not a relatable couple nor do they try to be.

#sirius black #james potter #prongsfoot #bambibelle #prongsfootweek2023 #i have been. so bad with tumblr and fic and writing these days #i dont even know if i'll be able to do this entire week but by god ill try #someone needs to teach me time management lol #but honestly. any excuse to talk about my two boys is welcome #also: the obscenity thing is mostly a joke #i just find it v funny that outraging the modesty of a woman is an actual legal concept that can get u locked up/fined wtv #like. its the funniest most absurd way to frame harassment/assault/sexual misconduct #also blanked tf out on n. 5 lol like what else do i say bruh #the last point is why im so picky ab my pf #bc the minute u write it like a real life couple im just like eh. not my cup of tea #my fav part of it is how u dont have to worry ab irl concerns w them bc theyre above it all #idk. its just. nice.

[shadowpeachyuri]

see, i WAS gonna put the “oh no he’s hot” in azure’s step-by-step guide for his feelings towards swk but also was like “nooooo….that’s merely a headcanon 😅”

but I’m so happy to see it wasn’t just me too

in a show full of homosexual behavior (freenoodles) and the gay mess that is shadowpeach, azure still manages to stand out for his massive man crush on wukong. like girl wtf are you doing. fellas is it gay to be unable to concentrate on controlling your world destroying power because you just keep thinking about that guy who you fought alongside that one time even though he turned against you centuries ago.

#ask!! #fluffy!! #i do not know any other possible term than man crush here #i dont know if it's homophobic (v much hope it isnt) but like. #there just is not a better word in my vocabulary for azure's feelings towards swk #but yeah as far as im concerned there is just not a heterosexual explanation for azure's feelings towards wukong

[kanamedaite]

assorted art of various quality of my smtv protagonist redesign!

#smtv #smtv protagonist #shin megami tensei #shin megami tensei v #nahobino #im not concerned if this gets attention or not i just need to post more art because i will post like 3 things and then not again forever lol #some of these are a few months old but I realized i never posted any of these or compiled them so here they are #my art #poprocksart

[space-writes]

Happy Worldbuilding Wednesday! What's archaeology like in your world?

hello! ty for the ask~!

i’ll answer this for Valloroth, since claws is real-world set, just with tweaks.

I think about this a bit, sometimes. because the Draconic Empire is like. old-old. the current-day version of it is very much fallen from glory: it used to cover all of what’s now the Wilds, and a lot more of what’s now Mohaade and Fygek. Out in the Wilds, you can find pieces of the old Empire—forgotten magic, broken artefacts…things that are worth a lot of money to the right people.

Current-Era Voi’xindiiri considers it theft if you take things from the Wilds and do anything other than return them to the Empire. There’s a big market in smuggling things from there, and in saying things are from there even if they aren’t, including just like. things that grew.

That’s less archaelogy though, but it makes me think of it, because it’s kind of like that thing about ancient Egyptian archaelogists like. the civilisation was so old, and the parts that we consider old now were young enough then to be picking through pieces of their own history that were long gone. that’s how i think of the Draconic Empire. Looking for pieces of a past that got literally torn down (a dragon did it. the god-empress Sirsassa the Black was not happy about this betrayal. she’s still kinda salty). Looking for magic they’ve lost or forgotten how to make.

and then there’s those who go poking at ruins in Invereid, which used to be heavily a dwarven country but got taken over by humans. dwarves live 90% underground, so there are a lot of things intact but lost, and if humans go digging when building or just researching, they’ll stumble on abandoned or broken dwarven constructions. and there are pieces of those poking up that still exist, like there’s a surface part of a dwarven structure in Willowtown that’s a tavern now, but it didn’t use to be.

this was kinda rambly, and i don’t have like. dates and detailed history all mapped out for Valloroth cause a) i haven’t got round to it and b) i don’t need to know everything, but i do think about the layers of the past in the world, cause it’s fun

Valloroth taglist: @cherrybombfangirlwrites @memento-morri-writes @foxboyclit @lawful-evil-novelist @at-thezenith @morganwriteblr @fayeiswriting @serenanymph @sam-glade (ask to be +/-)

#writeblr #wbw #worldbuilding wednesday #worldbuilding #fantasy worldbuilding #valloroth blogging #im bad at conceptualising time so working out When Historical Things Occurred is v difficult #but like. my main cast aren't going to be discussing dates so it's doesn't matter that much #leshannas a magic nerd not a history nerd #and lucian's info is all secondhand or out of date anyway #and aliyne and zander are more concerned about the present than things that happened like. a gajillion years ago #quest would go poking about in ruins if they found any tho #...quest would really like indiana jones movies wouldn't they. oh no #don't give them ideas. or a silly hat

[fatcowboys]

my PA for ajovy got denied (booo) but the reason it did was bc a neurologist needed to prescribe it which i already had an apt set up for and gad yesterday (yay!) and the appointment went really well and i like the provider a LOT of migraine management (YAY!!!) so now i am once again waiting for an ajovy PA to be approved lmao

#nervous abt needles but jax offered to help plus ajovy has auto injectors so we are going for it #but i really liked the provider she was good and very easy to talk to and stuff!! and am excited to work w her and try things #also got a referral to their sleep clinic bc my sleep is still Bad and also sleep is a big trigger for me #so im hopeful to see what i can figure out/learn from that #this is the year of blue getting health shit figured out lmak gonna get my tonsils removed etc etc lets Go #she also said i could be a candidate for botox if that seemed interesting but i like how like. open ended she was w things #like she gave me a lot of good info but also everything was my call #she also was good when looking at my mri and explained why she isnt concerned abt ms based on mri and symptoms #and in a way where i actually agree lol like. esp bc i get so anxious i can just latch on to something #but she took the time to answer my questions and explain and show what theyd see if it was ms vs my brain lesions from migraines #and Yeah! i was super stressed and like gad cleared my whole afternoon in case it was a bad time #but it wasnt! im v happy w my new neurologist! #wild to have TWO whole doctors on my care team who i like and trust???? as a fat person??? wow #(trust is w a grain of salt lol i dint entirely trust any doctor But)

[rattkachuk]

It was a clean hit. Sucks that eichel is hurt but that was a clean shoulder to shoulder hit. The misconduct is a bullshit call imo

i agree with u

#and i love jack and im bummed hes hurt #actually v concerned about him #i hope hes back for the third :(( #but yah i dont see how that was a bad hit #a big one but #thats just the way they are sometimes #anon #asks #im watching them analyzing it now and it looks like eichs just didnt see him

[theunconcernedembalmer]

Mr Gatto, do you like doing your job? Is it something you enjoy doing?

(Also take care of yourself Mun! :D)

Even after everything... I don't think I will be changing my job anytime soon.

#identity v #aesop carl #identity v embalmer #identity v ask blog #identity v the embalmer #gatto event #hi anon thanks for the concern XD #im doing alright i just have this insane depressive block that has been impeding y creative processes #so ive been trying a lot of things to get out of it #one option is to wait it out but im miserable doing nothing. so i will force it out and feel slightly better that at least i did something #i probably should have spaced oout my posts i clear the inbox really really quickly #ill try to get some stuff out while i can. since im free for the month before work resumes n i disappear again #seriously though its frustrating sitting down staring at a blank canvas for 10 mins with 0 ideas and low energy #and then resigning myself to going back to lying down and mindlessly scrolling twitter or whatever #every single time i try to do something i end up back on my bed. for days on end. it makes me want to throw myself down a flight of stairs #at least with asks i have something to work towards and thats so much better even if i do end up back on the bed afterwards #this sounds like a very pathetic show of begging for asks. which i guess it is??? #its just that. i used to have so many ideas. i used to draw so many comics. i want to cry every time i compare that with myself now #has work killed off so much of my creativity? probably. but i just really want it back. so im trying my best #i didnt mean to get this emotional in the tags but this is really something ive been struggling with a lot right now #so if u have the time to spare. just drop something dumb in my inbox. it helps a great deal. much greater than i can express #but anyway if ur reading this im still very grateful for the support u have shown to the blog in one way or another. #so thank you very much n i hope the day will treat you kindly #less than three