#it almost feels?? disrespectful???

[frostbitedoesart]

Not the like to reblog ratio being so frustrating that I'm considering doing free YCHs in exchange for reblogs.....

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#not the first time I've done free art in exchange for an extremely simple task #sometimes it feels like people can't read #they can look at my art but as soon as I ask them to reblog it #they act like they can't see what I wrote #tumblr doesn't have an algorithm. #the like button does nothing #like actually #it does NOTHING. it's just a little button that you press #but it helps no-one and changes nothing #except for making a number go up #and it's absolutely phenomenal #how many times I've seen artists ask for people to reblog their posts #just to be completely ignored #it almost feels?? disrespectful??? #like they care about the art but not the artist #you like having pretty things to look at #but you don't wanna help the person that gives it to you #I genuinely want to know why people don't reblog posts #what makes it so hard for you? #what is it about pressing anything other than a heart that feels so impossible? #whatever reason you may have #I'm tired of it. #so if you guys really need a REASON to reblog #I'll give it to you #if you guys really need a reward for doing the BARE MINIMUM #I'll give it to you. #anyway extra tags that you can ignore// #artists on tumblr #art #ych

[inkskinned]

this is sort of pathetic, but when you were younger, you were sort of puzzled by the cartoon representations of fathers: how a kid would be outside with a mitt, waiting to play catch.

it's not that your father never played catch with you, but you also didn't like when he did. something about a hard ball coming quickly towards your face doesn't seem exciting. not that you'd ever say you don't trust him. you trust him, right?

it's not like he never tried to teach you anything. or never tried to parent. on rare days, a strange person would walk in your father's skin. bright, happy, magnificent. this version of your father was so cheerful and charismatic that you would do anything to keep him. and this is the version of your father that would laugh and gently coax you try again. this is the version of your father that would break down the small elements of a problem and point them out so you have an easier time with them.

as a kid, those days happened more often. but somewhere around 11, you started being too much of a person, and he was often cross about it. when he'd try to sit you down to learn something, you spent the whole time with your shoulders around your ears, nervous, uncertain. terrified because you didn't immediately understand how to navigate something. worried you will run out of his goodwill and then you will have the Other Father back, and you will have ruined a good day for your entire family. something about you being visibly afraid - it just made him angry. he would accuse you of not wanting to learn and storm away.

on tv, it's not like there's a lot of versions of men-who-are-mostly-fathers. they can be good dads, but usually their stories are not told in the household. so it's normal that your father is there, but he's never around. you know he was in the house, somewhere, it's just not that you guys ever... "hung out". he just seemed to get kind of bored of you, annoyed you weren't made in his perfect image. frustrated with how much energy it took to raise a kid. over time, you kind of adopt a bittersweet band around your throat - he knows nothing about me. he says at least i never abandoned my family.

and it's technically - technically - true. he was there for you. sometimes he even made an effort and made it to the big moments; the graduations and the dance recitals. he grins and tells everyone that he taught you. it almost erases the days in between, where he complains because you need a ride to school. the weeks that go by where he doesn't actually ever speak to you. the times you say i am struggling and he says figure it out on your own. i can't help you.

and that's fine! that's all fine. you can call him if you are having a problem with your car. or if you need a ride to the hospital. he loves playing hero, he just doesn't like the actual work that comes with being a father. and you've kind of made your peace with that; because you had to, because you don't want to live your life like he does; the whole world at a managed distance, a little rotating and controlled orb he can witness and take credit for but never truly love.

as an adult, you are rewatching some dumb cartoon - and again, the child standing in the rain, with a mitt, waiting for their father to come play catch. as an adult, there's this strange creeping dread - this little thing? this little thing, and their dad can't even show up for that? oh god, holyshit, it's not about the mitt, is it. oh god, holyshit, your father spent most of your life leaving you hanging.

#spilled ink #writeblr #:) lol . anybody notice how i write about dads in second person exclusively #me: haha silly cartoon #also me: ): this child is not getting what they need #also btw this is about a father but it might apply to any parent or caregiver #there's a really weird space of like #''this person was technically around me but either ignored me or was actively harmful to me'' #and like u learn this very strange ritual of like... this person is my parent/caregiver on a technicality #that you almost spend all ur time with them like... tiptoeing and acting as THEIR parent so u don't upset them. #like you're 17 and ur mom is suddenly hit by a wave of wanting to talk to you so she's like :) lets make breakfast together :) and ur like #uhhhhhh okay?? bc you feel like this is absolutely going to go wrong and is why u usually make breakfast alone #and she starts being like: THIS is called a TEASPOON ... & u know all this stuff but you also know to just be very quiet #bc if you say like ''mom ive been making this breakfast every day since i was 13'' she would FREAK OUT and be like #DONT ACT LIKE I NEVER DO ANYTHING FOR YOU DONT ACT LIKE I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU. FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL . #so u have to smile like ur a preschool teacher and be like. OH COOL! i didn't know A CUP existed! tell me MORE! :)

[unnecessarybeltbuckles]

Tsung: I can make you better, faster, stronger. Baraka: Just like your half-breed clones? Tsung: Mileena was a masterpiece.

#he will tolerate no disrespect towards his creation #shang tsung #mileena #dad tsung #like I KNOW I know him referring to Mileena like a work of art rather than a person is intentional #and shows how everyone dehumanizes her #but also I so many Feelings about Shang Tsung insisting she's his masterpiece while almost everyone else calls her a monster #cleaning out my drafts

[maesaeart]

I've been blessed with Nun Nagito headcannons from soft and something possessed me to make these than to work on my Kinktober prompts (；☉_☉)

#saedraws #this is the new obsession im sorry #posting from twt #nagito komaeda #danganronpa #danganronpa nagito #danganronpa fanart #super danganronpa 2 #sdr2 #self insert #oc x canon #sdr2 nagito #komaeda nagito #nagito x you #nagito x reader #nun nagito #nagito fanart #im religiously ignorant so forgive me #i almost made a panel that was kindaaa on the fence of being disrespectful #so if i feel like that with any panel I tend to scrap #so this concept is dangerously close to just not being touched LOL #at least... not posted LOLOL

[fairestwriting]

really though if thats an actual thing could we please respect writers a little bit more. this shit takes time and effort to do lol. Hell if you do it because youre not confident with your own writing id say start using like personal botmaking for practice. its actually pretty ok.

i do actually consent to my stuff being but ive seen a few tweets of people complaining about having their work stolen. yknow sometimes even your 1k word pwp shot can take like 4 hours to make. a lot of thought goes into writing even stuff that might look silly. and it can be pretty mentally and physically taxing Especially if youre writing regularly.

most writers do it all for fun yeah, im not saying its torture to stand in front of the computer and type about your favorite guys but like, you Can see the amount of people who get burned out after getting involved with fandom stuff. so yknow. respect and acknowledgment of your effort Is very nice. even an ao3 comment with a keysmash goes a long way. this turned into more of a ramble than it was supposed to be but you get what i mean. if you want to keep reading be respectful to the ones writing stuff for you.

#lis talking #this has been like. my main hobby and nearly a personality trait for almost half my life now #im not saying not getting enough comments gave me carpal tunnel or whatever But i have been spammed and had to deal with #people commissioning who were very impatient and disrespectful #would be pretty awesome if that was less of a thing #ive been lucky on that front lately but i can say it feels Kinda Bad! like the hours you set aside to do something just dont mean anything

[kingprinceleo]

Oh fuck me fuckme fuck me

#I'm going to start killing people #I need SLEEPY TYLENOL NOWWWWWWW #Mfer laying in bed for 8 hours full awake 🫠 eyes shut. Brain. ACTIVE #IM TRYING SO HARD TO SLEEP JUST BE UNCONSCIOUS #Too late now #Fuck me I have to be aware enough to not kill everybody in this vehicle #Mfing murder nightmare too what the fuck #Set the scene: YouTuber wedding #The man in charge of filming is an asshole to the minimum wage people working there #Like real mean. And one meek guy tries to tell the groom but the groom is kinda a dismissive asshole about it bc he's already paid the guy #So it's too late now. Meek guy keeps getting disrespected and storms out to the parking lot to just leave #Woman who has been witnessing this apparently is gonna kill on meek guys behalf. He does not want this #Woman gets into a fucked up death machine car and drives it into the groom #But not like. Runs him over. There's a fucking saw blade on the front that starts cutting through the bottom of his torso #He was screaming a lot. I'm not sure if he survived or not. But the atmosphere was not fun #Very muddy desaturated colors. Very wet and musty feeling. It was like almost a parking garage #I don't think I'll ever have a dream as scary as the um time-looping cannibal beach dream #But this was just the delightful cherry of not being able to sleep at fucking. ALL . #Literally cried I'm so distressed about not being able to control anything about myself rn #Hhhhh :((( #3rd night in a row I've slept like shit

[mariana-oconnor]

The githyanki are the absolute worst. I don't know why, but every time I end up fighting them it's ten times worse than any other fight I have.

Just... they're so mobile. They can heal. They immediately and enthusiastically go after the weakest members of the party. They attack far too many times.

I'm on Explorer mode and all the other encounters mostly live up to that. But the bloody githyanki. Every damn time.

Although I have them to thank for hearing the 'Gale! No!' line from my Tav... multiple times. Man was practically a yo-yo in that fight.

#Baldur's Gate 3 #Baldur's Gate 3 spoilers #BG3 #BG3 spoilers #Also I did an experimental run to see what happened if you disrespected Vlaakith. Lolol #Gale I love you but Idc if you disapprove of me apologising to her #If I hadn't I have it on good authority we would have all been Wished out of existence #Seriously the fucking gith #they kill me every time #Also I didn't realise there was a puzzle on the roof so I ended up in the Blood of Lathander chamber with no crest #Luckily I had a wizard with two spell slots left #and a scroll of Cloud of Daggers #I do feel like Astarion should have approved of me stealing the weapon though #Although he did get stuck in a magic cage #And almost die #So maybe not #I guess now I need to wait for my Tav to go down so we can see if the disaster wizard reacts to that

[tea-time-terrier]

My short stint as a groomer trainee left me with horrors (the normalized neglect of pet dogs), respect (for all that groomers deal with), and so so much love for those tiny little dogs.

#someone walked by my table and said 'oh a chihuahua' in That tone and I almost bit them #don't disrespect my little chi he was basically perfect #a lady brought her little doodle puppy into the salon in a shiny bag and I have never been more obsessed #the urge to get a tiny little dog is continually growing #Pichael is just a little too cool with too much potential #I need a dog that makes it so nobody takes me seriously #I feel bad for not having what it takes to do the grooming thing but also #it's harder than my warehouse job #It was easier to pack an entire truck than groom one (1) uncooperative husky

[forgottencartoons]

God bless Russell T. Davies, patron saint of respecting the audience

#doctor who #dr who #rtd #russell t davies #just watch the second special #I died #Rtd writes like he expects audiences to actually watch the episode and never pulls a crappy gotcha just because he has the power #Like yeah I KNOW bringing Tennant and Tate back was because Chibnall almost destroyed the brand and they needed to pull it back but OHHH #they gave us an actual STORY #They invented another beautiful cosmic horror #They gave us banter and wit without it being snippy or disrespectful or “oohooohhh look at how clever I am” wank #This episode only had two actors in it and still had enough moving pieces to make one delicious puzzle #I cannot WAIT to see what they do with the regeneration #Ncuti Gatwa is walking into an environment primed by RTD to make people feel ready to WATCH #To experience entertainment that brings you back from week to week under a man who actually knows how to craft STORIES! #Holy shit I forgot how much I used to love this show #And now I remember #Big fucken heart eyes emoji

[torturedblondhairedboy-child]

Experiencing my own mizumono level betrayal rn (smoking the last of my weed despite knowing ill regret it in like three days when i want more)

#hannibal nbc #hannibal #mizumono #i think maybe i just destroyed the emotional power of this episode #feels almost disrespectful

[madhushala]

<3

#my besties here at college #when i came in we used to talk about stuff and she'd get surprised and ask me how i notice such small things #and have detailed description of everything #and always made jokes on me being deep analyzer and taking things too seriously #it was fun mostly but one time she made it in front of bcg that was when i began to have crush on him #i got so defensive i actually said not my fault you view life so blantly and superficially #how can you not see the beauty that comes in patterns that must feel awful being that oblivious almost disrespectful to nature #and i said it ofc in the funny manner and that may sound really rude but she took it in a positive way #so she began taking interest in everything and started to try to discuss and know my opinions about everything #and i loved that there was someone listening so fascinately like a kid #simultaneously she uses a lot of shuddh hindi vocab not even adults speak like that #and it was just weird to me to listen them in normal conversations #but since ive been good at hindi literature and have a good vocab i tried it too #used to feel so awkward at first almost like the words took too much effort to come out of mouth #because obviously i grew to learn the internet slangs and their medium is english so my mode of expression in hindi was #but now she surprises me with talking about things and noticing what escapes my attention #and i have to mock her say its not that deep #and i while speaking use too many shudh hindi words and then when she can't find a word i think before and give synonyms as well #and we both laugh #ive said this before ig

[mostlymobilegames]

I'm feeling nostalgic and I might've said this before but ROTT had an amazing soundtrack, like easily among the best of the best; off the top of my head, Murphy's theme and the club's music were disgustingly good.

#I never finished that story (and from what I've seen the ending sucked) but the vibes were immaculate #I mean this in the least disrespectful way possible #but I almost felt about ROTT how I feel about Psi in terms of atmosphere and world building #just going to a different mental space #romance club #rc rott #rage of the titans #rc rage of the titans

[notfa-mousyet]

Anyone else boop first and then reads the post after it? It feels so weird to do the silly little thing just to find out that the post was about the Flour Massacre or something like that.

#almost feels disrespectful? #it's weird #this year is just... #free palestine #boop

[digirainebow]

i didn't think jacob would be arguing with olivia, wanting it almost as much as her. what the hell. i expected the self defeated, taking one for the team attitude but actively needing it like her? when he had been trying to stop her all night? i feel like i've been blasted by a buckshot

#digi discusses #the world needs more jacobs and i just took him out of it #did he go back to being a kid again? to see the lights of possibility again? #to feel like he's doing something exciting and worthwhile again not by making art but by being “freed” by maggie's knowledge once more? #or did he. choose another timeline entirely? augh i'm gonna have to watch the ending back again...where did he go... #maggie would be turning in her graaaaaave to know he chose this. she would hate that for him she would h a t e it #the anna parallels. stuck between time only able to hear him on radios if you are lucky. fuck off #becoming an urban legend...i think he would have liked that. immortalized just like he wanted. ugh wait did riley do that for him #but the details getting lost his name becoming warped over time? i think riley (and i) would feel it was almost disrespectful to his memory #the fact he puts meeting riley on the same pedestal as saving camena. god god god god. even when they aren't friends they are. #riley talking to athena like a person like he did. i am MISERABLE #its the dys exocolonist thing all over again. he's happy and that's...good. but he could have been just as happy if he'd stayed too #every single time i think about the hug i'm going to cry #every single ending has done this to me there is literally no winning #being kinda mean to him was bad enough but this ending just feels! it feels like riley. like i. drove him to. #girl i need to log off bye #oxenfree II spoilers #yeah there's the essay. just took a minute #i will make another one about hurt healed olivia in a bit too because that. made me sob. that one hit really...close to home #he says when he was a teenager he would have fallen for it if someone told him he could open a portal in the sky and make things better #what a liar he would still do it now #EDIT: NO i knew it he says almost exactly what nona says after you hug her when you hug him. the orange-associated characters strike again

[stardustloki]

I am beyond hyped to see Barriss Offee again but it seems wrong to see her without her headscarf on. Was it her choice to remove it? Did the empire make her? I won't feel comfortable until I know!

#like maybe I'm being stupid #but it feels almost disrespectful to be looking at her hair #I've never seen it not covered #anyway these are just my thoughts #tales of the empire #barriss offee

[clarabow-mp3]

so much respect for the adhd people who don't take medication because they feel like it makes them not feel like them or dulls their sparkle or w/e but i can't relate at AAAALLLL. i can't do anything without my meds, i struggle so much with motivation and for me the best thing the meds do is just getting me started doing what i need to do. they streamline my thoughts it's like my brain is the ocean in finding nemo and there's clownfish and jellyfish and dory and schools of salmon and sharks and boats and they're all talking over each other all at the same time and not getting anywhere and then the meds are the east australian current that puts them on a simple path to where they need to go. it's so good.

#again no disrespect to people who hate them i just. almost feel like im weird for being helped by them? #people are so anti medication and their experiences are so incredibly different to mine idk #maybe it's the meds themselves bc i think the ones i take are relatively weak in comparison to others and it's a smaller dose. idk. #people are so weird about neurodiversity in general like yeah be proud accept and love yourself but what if we. hm. what if we acknowledge #that these are disorders and disabilities. can we say that? can i say that my disability disables me or is that ableist? #can i say that medication and surgery and doctors and god forbid psychiatrists and psychologists can be helpful? #i know so many people have had terrible experiences and that's awful but sometimes. medicine can help people. let's not discourage people #from seeking help and accommodations idk.