#it had to have taken more than a year

[bravevolunteer]

i know the faz tokens are dated 1983 but i simply cannot believe that is the year fredbear's OPENED sorry

#THERE IS SIMPLY NO LOGICAL WAY #they have a whole BRAND by then like it's still owned by william and henry of course but the main 4 exist they have merch #they have a CARTOON it has to have Been Around no matter how successful the diner's opening was #it had to have taken more than a year #this is The smallest thing to notice i know but . yes i Am a big fan of ignoring technicalities for the sake of narrative sense lmao #also i want to write so bad but i am severely unmotivated to do anything today aughhgh h.. Annoying. #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[idiosyncraticrednebula]

Anakin truly set out the goal to marry Padmé as soon as he first laid his eyes on her. He didn't even interact with her that much to come to the conclusion that he wanted to wed her. As soon as they met again 10 years later, he wasted no time and put a ring on that finger. They didn't even take at least a month; they went straight to marriage. Their romance is essentially a Disney fairytale 😅❤️

#anakin skywalker #padme amidala #star wars #pt #meta #sw meta #txt #my characters differ from them in many ways but they too got married just a week after meeting each other #it was love at first sight #anakin had love at first sight padme didn' for obvious reasons but she still developed a fondness for anakin #it wasn't until anakin was already an adult that she went “oh damn you are hot now” #mine originally met each other as children (of the same age) but i eventually decided to change it to when they were already in their 20's #he is 3 years older than her. i changed it to make it even more fairytale-ish #they are the only couple in my story that experienced love at first sight #the rest have a more “realistic” approach to romance and took their time until they decided to get married #but these two? oh yeah they got married even though they just met #i know elsa would reprimand my oc for marrying a man she just met but i'm sorry but he is fine af and would do anything for anybody #it's a fairytale it's not meant to be taken literally in many ways #it's not a realistic depiction of reality but it teaches you about reality it's meant to be a metaphor more than anything #i went off a tangent again but yes #anakin and padme's relationship is essentially a fairytale #star wars is a fairytale it contains a good chunk of the elements. it's just deeper more detailed and extensive but the core is the same #anyway ramble over

[seaweedstarshine]

Okay so The Star Beast was fun and I'm hyped for Wild Blue Yonder and everything but I am shattered over the new episode of Eleventh Doctor Chronicles.

Broken Hearts is some of the best dark!Doctor Expanded Universe exploration I ever consumed, and that includes The Eleventh Doctor Year Two comics. I am sobbing. I am in tears. I am broken as thoroughly as the Doctor broke Valerie Lockwood.

Me when I can't find any Broken Hearts/Curiosity Shop stan posts to reblog or fic to read to get out the angsty energy...

(fic. I'm writing fic. and yes this is an open request for reading recs)

#'you can't be scared of me' 'YOU JUST SAID ITS TAKEN YOU CENTURIES OF PRACTICE NOT TO BE MURDERY! SO SCARED OF YOU? A LITTLE BIT- YEAH!' #that's my Valerie. that's my Doctor. one of the best tardis teams- audio dramas or otherwise #Valarie lockwood #eleventh doctor #eleventh doctor chronicles #where my Eleventh Doctor Chronicles peeps at?? someone help me #(I mean. im at work. but I can't stop thinking abt it since I listened. AND THERES NO BROKEN HEARTS STAN POSTS TO RB) #words by seaweed #btw I understand them not bein as popular/mainstream! they're prohibitively expensive #I bought this one because I couldn't wait. and big finish deserves more $ than bbc but I... have pirated maaaany doctor who audios #I love how horrible eleven is in his EU stuff. idk if I mentioned. it suits him really well. #he's horrible in the show too. but he doesn't get enough shit for it from his companions <3 #love Rory and River for their service buuuuut #Alice and Valerie are better than Amy and Clara sorry #(I do love Amy and Clara to DEATH) #that said Alice also forgives him reeeally easily. which is fine! but the fact that she 'trusts him implicitly' in year 3 is irrational. #at least with Valerie the Doctor had excuse of having been recovering from brain damage. #anyway eleventh doctor chronicles broken hearts is great and flawless and the perfect followup to curiosity shop

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

if graham thought the used to be a man thing was just joking and like 5 minutes earlier she said she used to live in the outback for 123 years, he also definitely doesnt have ANY idea how old she is does he

#oh the fun they'll have in support group trying to figure out the doctor's age #graham sitting there just staring for the first 10 minutes like 'oh IMMORTAL immortal. like immortal? like. okay. uh huh. thats. okay.' #thats gotta rewrite like at least half your idea of a person right #im not convinced he or ryan really have an idea of what regeneration means #i think yaz a little more #but not like. really #and yaz was also so taken aback meeting ace and tegan like #other companions get that 'oh youve had lots of people like me' usually kinda early on #get their little jealousy moment #but they NEVER had that #like meeting all these old companions first already must be a bit of a........like rearrangement in your brain #like 'oh but if youre me. and you did this 40 YEARS ago. then uhhhh. the doctor is older than she looks' #and then someone drops a 'yeah when i knew them they said they were 700' and youre OH. OKAY. #like you thought you were travelling with just sort of a weird fucked up guy but then it turns out it's a weird fucked up guy #who has been doing this for longer than your country exists #12 voice: im old enough to be your messiah #fgkjghjkgh #like thats your bud! dfgkjhgjk thats just your fucked up little pal who cant drive what do you mEAN TWO THOUSAND #two THOUSAND years and you still drive THIS badly??? #i hope clara comes to the support group some time #she could blow at least the fam's minds a little i think #she knew the last one! #she can provide CONTEXT #between missy and 12 she can provide some GREAT context #also bill i think bill + yaz would be FUN #like hoo boy #bill can fill them in on the master too #feel like missy definitely gets wind of it 'ive been up and down your timeline' and drops by. a couple of times #trying to pass herself off as a companion #doesnt work for super long mostly bc shes just there to Cause Problems On Purpose but it does work for a Bit

[denkisauce]

don’t have the energy to rewrite my thoughts here on tumblr but these past couple weeks have been so rough and it’s really hard to talk about my feelings on everything but also really hard to not talk about.

i know i’m just like a random blog on tumblr but it feels important to share my feelings. zionism does not hold up under scrutiny or critical thinking which is why it’s so important to educate yourself, even if it’s hard even if it’s uncomfortable. knowledge is power and being informed is a key tool againist oppression

#i have a lot a LOT more i keep trying to write down and it’s so hard to get my thoughts in order #figured it’s better to get some of them out than nothing at all #but it’s hard to explain how it feels like every day every hour my heart is breaking #so much grief for the palestinian people while also feeling so much grief for like my own humanity??? #like feeling so taken advantage of by zionism #to have had my idealism and hope held hostage in the wha that it was #and when i talk about indoctrination i do not use that term lightly #like i’m talking courses in high school the idf coming and taking to our middle schools #telling 12 years olds that to believe in something is to be willing to die for it and nothing less #etcetera etcetera #perbsonal #palestine #zionism #anti zionism #jews for palestine

[deus-ex-mona]

series i’m gatekeeping from my family vs series i’m ✨ok✨ with my family knowing i’m into:

#‘why do you gatekeep hw from your irls?’ well. the thing is. i just ✨don’t want to✨ #and. like. i’ve already led my family to believe that i bought bl manga when i was buying idol sengen at animate #so i think im already past the point of no return in that regard. so. um. yeah. #thank you village vanguard for the unexpected μ’s content in 2k24 you truly are yappa saikyou #i s w e a r falling back into my ll phase almost 10 whole years after i first got into it is unexpected tbh #compounded with the fact that i can now actually afford whatever im looking for. so. like. my wallet is in crisis lol #i had just reached my savings goal last month but now i’ve overspent bc i saw great deals on resold honoka-chan hoodies and i couldn’t help— #so now i have 2 identical hoodies lol. but i’ll keep one of them safe in its packaging bc im unwell like that ig #my merch whaling is out of control i s w e a r but my oshis are just too cute aaaaaaaaa #i probably should open another savings account instead… maybe that’d keep my spending under control… #b u t for now honoka-chan jersey im looking for you #tfw ur oshi is decently unpopular amongst the fans so hardly anyone resells her merch lmao #so ig the relatively fewer fellow fans she has are more dedicated to her than fans of other more popular characters lol #but at least her stuff (when resold) isn’t as overpriced as the actually popular members (birb and tomato) #so my wallet isn’t crying as hard as it could’ve been? ig? hunting for almost 10 year old merch is a pain fr though #either way. the grip idol series have on my wallet is truly insane #i wonder how many bags of chips i could’ve bought with the amount i’ve spent on hw and ll merch to date… #at least a thousand… i think. maybe even 2 thousand if my past gacha game whaling is taken into consideration… #…this is probably why it’s important to have a decent paying job ig. #oh well. at least i may be making b a n k this month with how much ot i’ve had to do this week so far… #i hope i won’t have to work till 5am again over the next 2 days… that had been a horrible experience. #help what am i even talking about anymore why am i having a life crisis right here and now u m. #anyways. dni if you dislike honoka-chan. thanks for coming to my crisis rant. see you when the last stage mv drops ig ok byeeeee

[lastmurianwarrior]

Even if you never look at the rest of the manga, just look - LOOK...

...at this one page of Tribe Shooting Star Rockman Battle Side Story...

It is literally the most insane of the 3 interpretations of Star Force 2 [game, anime, manga] that I've seen.

#idk what to tag this cause it's canon to the manga but like- not the main muse here or whatever XD #dsdsflkadhfkjlda #have legit had the whole thing on hard drive for like 8yrs.... askldhklahfkla; read it to the best of my ability using translators ect #[saved that work to translate it also...] #can't really provide a link cause idk where or if it can be found anymore. But legit will pass it on if anyone wants it #original site it was on got taken down years ago and I haven't found anything more than the teaser for it since anywhere #back then I also found a separate 4pg teaser in Spanish that few ever saw as well and seems otherwise lost from the internet now. #it's where I get the headcanon that rogue likes fried cabbage. #manga rogue #burai #megaman starforce #Tribe Shooting Star Rockman Battle Side Story

[bywandandsword]

I still find it hilarious that it was me, quiet little unassuming me, who ended up being the family Bad Influence and the Troublemaker

15 year old me would be both impressed and horrified

#Sword speaks #I take these titles with pride #also bro 15 year old me would be so mad #they wanted more than anything to be a cool punk/goth/alt kid but had too much anxiety #and they would have assumed being disowned by half the family would automatically mean a 2009 Hot Topic makeover or something #''You ended up like this and you don't even have the decency to look cool?'' #''What do you mean we've taken up knitting? Are you a grandma? Wait why are our joints cracking like that?'' #''We're queer? Why don't you have any fashion sense then? Tell me we at least got a sick tattoo. No? C'mon!'' #''How the hell are you the Bad Influence when you're so laaaaaaaaaaame''

[cornerful]

Sméagol and the Gift

'Now!' said Sam. 'At last I can deal with you!' He leaped forward with drawn blade ready for battle. But Gollum did not spring. He fell flat upon the ground and whimpered.

'Don't kill us,' he wept. 'Don't hurt us with nassty cruel steel! Let us live, yes, live just a little longer. Lost lost! We're lost. And when Precious goes we'll die, yes, die into the dust.'

Devastated by this. Just a little longer, he begs. Even though his existence is a torment. Even though the will that holds him to life is barely his own anymore. He has long outlived his time but it's such a cruelty that now the only freedom for him is in death. I'm glad Sam didn't kill him but the whole scenario is awful.

When a mortal keeps a ring of power he does not gain more life, he continues, denied natural mortality as the fear of death is amplified and twisted into fear of separation, nothing matters anymore but the keeping, the continuing. In that miserable existence there is no peace, and at its end there is no graceful goodbye to life, there is only dust. Sudden, empty, and final.

It would take murder to spare him that. Or falling with the ring into the fire.

Bilbo let it go in time (did he feel anything when it was destroyed?) Frodo is freed of it now, though the toll it extracted for the separation was at very least a finger. It was too late for Gollum for the price to be anything other than it was, and that's brutal.

If you live long enough, death is no longer the enemy. What Sauron did to Gollum ensured that it would always be the enemy, to be feared and avoided for ever, once time and the ring had fashioned it into the only escape left. Evil.

#lotr newsletter #suicide mention in tags #haunted by the au in which gollum goes into the fire with the ring On Purpose #bc he still couldnt separate himself from it but frodo's compassion had somewhat released him from its evil #in a way an honor to frodo's quest and in a way an act of mercy to be able to give up the self-torment #which gives me shrimp feelings bc of the everything but also back to the original point that it is so tragic that death is all that awaits #bc death is natural and that was taken from him. what is the will to live in the absence of natural death? #smth deeply horrible about that #matt bugg screaming we'll be dust. so famous and rent free #lotrn325 #damn it im having more thoughts #wraiths vs gollum: discuss #the nature of the ring kept affects the nature of its possession no? those rings were made FOR thralldom #sauron has power over gollum but not That Much and his own ring is all abt the domination #what would a 2000 year old gollum even be like ._. #the wraiths are probably even more tragic bc at this point they're like...undead. even death isn't freedom #on that topic what happened to the witch-king's spirit fr #I'm pretty sure he isn't ever actually called that in the book but it's epic and gender and way snappier than lord of the nazgul #anyway shoutout to i think yambits for breaking the lore and giving them peace that was sick #where's my gollum rehab fic #i know he's a horrible little man who is constantly trying to murder my boys but i love him so #the au...gollum gaining the willpower to destroy himself because he was given trust and kindness and companionship for once. FUCKED UP. #fucked up horrible i need a minute. being shown compassion and then becoming more self-compassionate. epic #that compassion entailing seeking the freedom of death your soul was denied bc this is fantasy and somehow the exact #arc that usually leads to fighting to live is now flipped. HUH. #yeah jirt alluded to his motivation being For Frodo but i maintain that the willingness to die is HUGE there and extremely relevant #me and my red string keeping me company #ugh tag championships i win i think but at what cost #who wants to spin around miserably in a pool like franknfurter with me as we listen to gollum's song #tam you're already invited i have a floaty for u

[neomachine]

shots of carter and leo i wish were in trakkena's revenge

#power rangers #lightspeed rescue #lost galaxy #carter grayson #leo corbett #it should've been about them! #the original gogo v vs gingaman theme mapped perfectly onto it #fantasy powers vs. human science #leo WOULD have been as cocky as ryouma considering what he can do #and while carter is more reserved than matoi #he would've knocked it out of the park when advocating for how much they strive to protect people #what we could've had!!!! #not that pr would've done this back then but there would've been layers to that considering leo and the others fled to terra venture #while... well canonically carter and his team comprise the humans who stayed behind to endure the potential monster attacks #as does every other team- so the canon gets fuzzy there #could be the difference between angel grove and mariner bay as two cities with different histories #but do you see what i mean! the potential here specifically for them as pr characters! damn bruh #going back to my fanfic it's taken a billion years why not a billion more

[cursed-onepiss]

i do kind of miss how funny it was when my entire impression of doflamingo was ‘fresno nightcrawler + scariest dude i’ve ever been around at a rave’

#one piece #cursed one piece #donquixote doflamingo #on the other hand he’s MUCH more interesting than that #very well written character (both dq brothers are) #i ​still want to put him in a jar but now he’s managed to fully engage the analytical part of my brain too #wanna pull those strings a bit to see what direction he skitters in #it’s so funny bc literally all it would have taken to reign him in is a world where absolute power over others was not possible #borked his reward pathways completely to hell in that two extra years he had as a world noble #and now it’s everyone’s problem #is he terrible on purpose? yes #but i would also argue that the big pink man has always been playing the part he’s been given to play

[actual-changeling]

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#alex gets personal #no because now that i think about it the funniest fucking part is that this. this. #is the best i have ever been. #and i still wanna off myself every single second of every day. #i don't even have standards at this point #they're not in hell or anywhere they just don't exist. #like i cant believe 'i should be fucking grateful i am not longer terrified of being legit murdered in my sleep by my father' is a sentence #that i can think and actually mean #if it had been any worse id be dead aka it was as horrible as it could have possibly been #if you had given three year old me a way out they would have taken it #do you know how horrifying that is #a toddler. who loves books and is fascinated by animals and would love nothing more than to die #what a life i have huh literally cant believe i made it this far #sorry for the breakdown on main it will happen again

[dorkicon]

bitching abt my job again

tags contain frank mentions of transphobia and homophobia

#this happened like. i dont know. a month ago or something but i still keep playing it in my mind #for those unawares: theres been a fucking community outrage over the pride display at the library i work at #and have been working/volunteering at for 5 years #only it never went up. it never went up. bc the mayor came in as a quote unquote private citizen and demanded it taken down #despite the fact that patrons are required to fill out complaint sheets and even then it isnt ensured a display will be taken down #so obviously its a misuse of power that hes spinning into him being a concerned citizen #and i made a whole post bitching abt it and im doing so again (hi) bc i didnt like how our director responded to it #and yeah. so there was a board meeting after that right. well i set up for them as i usually do and let me tell you. that was the first #--time more than like 6 people came to spectate. it was insane. #and i guarantee that this months meeting wont have half as many people that fucking crammed themselves in there to complain abt gay ppl #bc of course they dont give a shit about the library #they just care about how scary the queers are #and yeah it was a shit show. i learned we have a far right organization in our town #and i was sat right in front of her husband the whole time #(standing actually. i was standing between him and my moms chair and he was sighing and grumbling the whole time bc he couldnt muster the #--balls to ask the 5 foot 2 fag in front of him to please move lol. small victories right) #when i say her i mean the leader of the freaks. idk. chairman? anyway she had a whole speech about how like queers are bad and cutting #the penises off little babies or whatever and she pulled up this passage from a book that was part of the display #its some book by the youtuber rowan ellis-- here and queer i think was the title. it was cataloged in our ya section and contained passages #talking about like having safe sex and what dildoes are and all that kind of shit. just really clinical descriptions imo. im not familiar w #--the youtuber really but im assuming they wrote it as informational bc shocker: teens be having sex. unsafe sex. especially queer teens #sourse: i was one of tgose #and...think for a moment. remember when you were a teen. youd rather fucking DIE than listen to your parents give you the sex talk #and chances are if youre gay your parents arent even going to know WHAT gay sex is (hugging without shirts on) so youre going to look #--elsewhere #bc if youre a hormonal fucking teen youre going to figure it out one way or another! especially if youre from (cough) a podunk shitwater #--town like mine that ran on abstinence by way of sex education #i think teens deserve to have access to that sort of information through trusted means. and i do mean het teens too #but no these fucking morons put on airs like everyones waiting till marriage--no! not my becky sue! as if they werent fucking around in #--holy shit i reached taglimit. i didnt ecen know there was one. hold on

[jabberwockprince]

the only thing that's keeping me from unleashing all 90 nonsensical thought trains in my brain about re1999 lore is the fact that im ruled by this very strict mindset of "if youre gonna do something, do it properly/thoroughly/organized or don't do it at all" which means i get to filter all this nonsense for my writing blog so its neat and cohesive

but it also means that until those posts are finished, im just gonna be seething and violently vibrating bc the information is just in my brain waiting to be released into the wild

#SCREAMS anyway the thoughts are the following #the fact that vertin's spinning wheel which she uses to summon arcanists trascends time and space #because if we're going by times of exhibition. pavia shouldve been the first one to be saved (1990's) but canonically it was regulus #which explains why pavia talks about his mother as if she were alive. because vertin PULLS people regardless of time space continuum #that (and a whole different argument) explains that exhibition dates arent dates of births. theyre the year/era they were taken from #because both matilda and pavia are listed as exhibited in the 1990's #theres 11 years of difference between them. if exhibition date = DOB then it would be impossible #aside from the fact that pavia wouldve had to live up to 2015 AT A MINIMUM to be 25 IF he was born in exactly 1990 #but theres characters who have more than one exhibition dates. such as satsuki or regulus (only in global iirc?) #so perhaps its the time they were acknowledged as arcanists by whatever government was established at the time? #regulus makes sense since “mid 20th century” encompasses 1930-1960. which correlate to the prologue. 1st and 2nd chapters of the main story #satsukis is harder to explain. since the times listed are just 1910s and 1920s. but it perhaps relates to her story? since she is trying #very hard to leave her past life as a thief behind #people also complain about sweetheart being 17 because 'she doesnt look 17' and since shes based on marilyn monroe she 'must be older' #sweetheart was exhibited in the 1930's. marilyn monroe was born in 1926. more proof that sweetheart was 17 at the time she was summoned #AND that exhibition dates ARENT DOB

[byanyan]

ㅤperhaps unsurprisingly, byan doesn't like the holidays — christmas in particular, as it's the most prominent and unavoidable one, and the one they have more experiences with. not growing up consistently celebrating the holiday past the age of four, they don't have any real positive attachment to it, and having it shoved so violently in their face each year, being surrounded by kids in school who are always so excited about it... it's always felt quite alienating. it's a very lonely time of year when everyone and everything around you is going on and on about family and you haven't got one.

although most years the only thing they've had to look forward to is the christmas dinner that the group homes they've been in have tried to provide, they have had a few experiences of what a more traditional celebration is like through foster homes they were living in during that time of year. the first one, when they were five, was... actually pretty okay. it was just them and their foster family, and they still remember having fun playing board games and watching movies, and how good the food at dinner was. they even got a couple of gifts from their foster parents. ...it was only the second christmas that they weren't celebrating with their first family, and they remember crying when those gifts were handed to them. another was when they were ten, with a foster family they hadn't been with for more than a few months. there was a lot of extended family in the house, none of whom they knew, and it was an incredibly overwhelming few days, during which they felt very much out of place. they didn't feel like they belonged and ended up spending most of their time hiding in the bedrooms to avoid the awkward conversations people would try to start with them so they didn't feel so left out. at one point, they remember sneaking out to go buy themself a hot chocolate with a bit of money they stole out of their foster brother's piggy bank to cheer themself up and to have a bit of quiet. no one noticed they were gone, and they weren't sure whether they were glad or disappointed.

at best, the holidays are an annoying time of year highlighted only by the two week break they get from school, and at worst, it's a reminder of all the things they've never had or the things that have been torn from them. even the positive memories they have have been soured by the way the kindness and the families didn't last, making it near impossible to look back on any of it fondly.

#the adoptive family they were with for their first four years did celebrate but they don't really remember much if anything from that time #so we're not counting those. ...outside of the way it upset them on that fifth year anyway. #i've had byan for 3 and a half years now and somehow this is the first year i've actually sat down & thought about them and the holidays #it's a very messy and unpleasant history. i know; who could have seen that coming? who could have possibly expected?? #they've had a couple other holiday experiences with foster families but these two are the ones that stand out the most to them #they're the experiences that stuck because of the emotional impacts both had on them #like they baaaarely remember anything about that fifth year but those couple things they do have been impossible to shake #...i'm losing my train of thought. but they've definitely taken out their anger on a few christmas displays in the past #when they've gotten REALLY fed up with the inescapability of it all #all of this to say....... they hate this time of year and tend to be grumpier and more of a problem than usual until early january #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ headcanon ⋮ danger in the fabric of this thing i made.

[kozidraws]

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#irl rambles #dunno if y'all remember but my work had been saying for months they were going to offer me a part time job #they just kept it back saying they have to work out the roster #anywho because I was so sure i was going to get it I told one of my friends who recently bought a house #he said that he can't rent out in the first year due to government requirements but he'd be more than happy to move in with him #but then work took back the contract and on top of that have cut my hours back #like theyve taken 2.5hrs off each of my shifts #that adds up! #so i told my friend i don't have secure work and how upset I was about it #he would prefer I have a stable job but if I can start saving now I could move in next June #the problem is saving until then #the bills are so high at my current house #my housemate owns the house and he works from home #and he has the air con on all the time #takes hour long showers #and leaves all the darn lights on! #so by the time I have a bit of savings the bills come and practically take what I've saved #legit the reason I was on hiatus for so long is because of money struggles #i don't feel stable rn #i don't have family to help out either #it got to the point I was strongly wondering why I'm atill living when I could barely afford it tbh #but at least i have a goal in life now #I'd rather cut back on food now so I can afford moving out #hopefully work won't screw me over further #or another job actually hires me #ahhh I hate capitalism