#it’s memory problems mostly

[phoenixcatch7]

If there's one thing I like more than time travel it's crossover reincarnation, so.

Botk link reincarnated as Damian Wayne.

An incredible weapon master of all types, but especially prodigious with a sword - he was beating knights at the age of 4 and with his memories as intact as they get for him I can see that goalpost moving even further (probably with traps and tricks, a 3yo doesn't exactly have great bodily control).

He's an excellent survivalist, agile, strong, durable, cunning and creative. He can move like a feather in the breeze, strike from behind with ease. His first kill, an animal, did not stir him as it did the other children. With his poise, grace, skills, obedience, he ought to be ra'as' finest assassin in the making, a jewel in the crown of the league.

Except he never speaks a word. Half his targets escape unscathed. He skates by true punishment on the merit of his skills and achievements in other missions. Testing has shown it is not a physical deformity that prevents his speech, but not even talia has been able to coaxe a word from him past his second birthday.

It is a defect ra'as is growing more and more frustrated by, as each attempt to fix these two final flaws ends in resounding failure. Less extreme solutions are running dry.

Talia fears those solutions. Her child does too, she knows. For them, there is a possible solution, more extreme than anything ra'as would tolerate.

She sends him out of the league. To his father.

To Gotham.

#'gee phoenix that sure sounds like that dp x dc you're normally rattling on about' yeah lol I steal tropes and sell them on the black market #Anyway this has been slowly rotisserie-ing in my head for a while I just like shaking canon like a magic 8 ball #I'd love to explore how link would react to Gotham and how he might see getting suddenly dumped in a found family as the youngest #And how that contrasts with both his expectations in the league and his role as the saviour last hope of a whole country #Because that kid cannot have a modern interpretation of killing. Like monsters? Kill with prejudice loot the corpses. #The yiga might have a little more hindsight understanding and he never killed them anyway but zero hesitation blowing them up #And ganon is so far removed from the concept of 'killing is bad' because a) human??? Monster??? B) literally the problem #C) he's been killing people so it'd even out d) everyone wants him dead So Bad e) been killed already like a dozen times what's one more #I get the feeling he'd assign the same role to the joker like 'widely considered the source of all evil. 'died' several times and came back #personal source of absolute misery for several heroes. Killed many' = slay the monster. Straightforward. #Like yes link always chooses kindness and has a strong morality and Opinion on killing people it's just a lot would be solved #By hitting the joker until he stopped making life miserable for everyone and if that means permanently well that's kind of link's job. #And like with Jason the bats understand that a lot better than they pretend to. But that is a 10yo who should not be thinking like that. #I think it'd be interesting to see how that'd change their reactions to 'Damian'. Like he holds a very similar opinion to og and Jason he #Just goes about it completely differently. #And I'd love to explore the differences between two fictional worlds and how they can go from pretty much the most black/white morality #To probably one of the greyest areas while still holding near identical themes and methods of dealing with that. #Found family compassion as a weapon against evil and copious amounts of weapons and cool gear lol #Also link should keep the arm he's earned it. Reincarnating with all his memories knocked a few other things loose I'd imagine #Mostly because all the loz games I've played have absolutely altered the way I view any link and also I love referencing them. #Damian with telekinesis and infinite glue would be great. A tiny 10yo sword master choosing instead to drop a dumpster on you #In between hurt comfort link beginning to bond with his family and begin to speak and learn sign language from cass #There's also the sound of explosives and a small figure clinging to a flying door as it crosses the Gotham night skies #Speaking of cass I bet her and link would be great friends in this au. #batman #batfam #bruce wayne #loz au #Loz #loz totk

[vargaslovinghours]

Y’all are being subjected to my Sims 2 tests, so there

The other set of Vargases came over for a visit and Scriabin picked up Shmee and started talking to Scriabin through him. Very normal, very usual

I downloaded some circle-glasses recolours and hghghh they look so good! Closer every day to his final details! Getting ever closer!

Edgar too! I made him a custom hair with a lighter undercut - I’m mostly happy with it, probably could’ve shifted it a shade closer to his skintone but the texturing was weird no matter what :P And his stripey shirt! I wish Body Shop didn’t have that hands-on-hips pose lol, it looks so much better in-game, but that’s all the better :)

I got some new clothes for Todd as well! As soon as I saw this ‘fit I was like “Oh that’s 100% Todd there he is.” Scriadad hug ♥ So cute

Foot-dancing together stopp it’s so cute!!

The way he looks at them stoppp <3 <3 They kept doing this right up til they left for home haha, Todd’s giggles are the cutest

Used SimPE to save him to the Body Shop, I now have infinite copies of The Boyyyy ♪

Moved him in with his “parents” as just shadow people basically, they’re not gonna matter in a bit as long as I remember how to get the Social Worker/Adoption process to work properly. Get her Todd!!

Wanna play? :D

Menacing :(

Look, Todd, your new dads are here! Initially I wasn’t sure who I wanted to adopt him, got lots of options; the first passes, the married couple with their own Todd, Johnny?? He definitely doesn’t have the facilities for a child lol But these are the ones that showed up on their own, so the married Vargases are the winners!

Scriabin cares more about him than his actual parents ;; A stranger off the street shows him more care! Not that it’s a high watermark

Look at him being a good dad!

Weh, he just wants friends ;; Poor baby

Best timeline, thank you

While we wait for CPS, let’s get some other interactions in! Nny is mean so he tended to prank the other two with a nose flick - mostly Edgar lol ♪ Now kiss

“Oh please don’t break all my bones~ :3” I love Todd looking up at them haha <3

Pffft, I think he was talking about the other Scriabin and just how attractive he is. Classic Scriabin. Alternatively, also funny to imagine him bragging himself up about how he’s just so handsome that Edgar can’t help but love him hahaha ♪

Allow me to tickle you with my KNIFE! >:D

Get a load of this guy lol

He ended up passing out at one point - I forgot which motives make CPS show up >.> - and completely 0%’d his comfort, but for some reason stargazing increased it?? It’s the same ground wh

Is two not enough to satisfy your butterfly bloodlust child?? He ended up with three, I had him release them before he was picked up by the Social Worker - success!

He rolled a new Want as soon as Todd was taken away - “Wants to see Ghost of Todd” Woah, dark! :0

And here he is on the married Vargases’ lot!! Success!! I did it right!! Heck yeah! :D Unfortunately they were uh, indisposed at the time. Good job guys pft

Goes right for Shmee, he really is Todd <3

#The Sims 2 #My queue is too backlogged on main! And I /have/ been working on a lot of Vargas-specific Sims 2 retextures so it's fine lol #These are still tests - as said up top lol - so these events are ''non canon'' to what will eventually be my actual Vargas family #The beats will be similar tho! It's mostly just a lot of tweaking at this point to get everything just where I want before the domino falls #Edgar Nny and Todd are all so close to done - Scriabin still needs a bit more work lol of course he's the problem member ♪ #It'll be worth it tho! >:3c Handsome lad <3 #Did find out some interesting things with the Social Worker/Adoption process :0 Most importantly that adoption basically wipes everything #Wipes memories and family relations and changes the last name! So I'll have to go in with SimPE to change his name back once I'm there #I love SimPE haha ♪ I mean it's just an extension of how much I love TS2 but I just ughsjkhagf it's a good program! #It's extremely powerful and easy to get lost in if you don't know where to look but it's also incredibly user-friendly if you do know #Like - it's as easy as ''Open this sub-menu. Click this button. Rename this. You're all done'' it's just jdsflf Sims 2 my beloved <3 <3 #I decided to cheat down the Casils' relationship with Todd before everything else - thus why his father is menacing him for the prank #I've seen Sims with not high enough friendship to not take a water balloon as a fun invitation but not between a parent and child! #It's subtle but the parent being mad and the kid cowering :( It's sadly appropriate for Todd #I stuck the Casils in a box to wait things out and they ended up glitching frozen in bed - they're effectively dead by Motive but can't move #So they can't die /or/ live - feels fitting #If you'd like to recreate CPS taking your child away without straight up torturing them! - Hunger. You just need hunger lol #Alternately you can also have them miss class if you'd prefer to feed them - both will result in being taken away after long enough #If I return to this save it's gonna be confusing since both Todds are identical and have the same names lol #I do have a bunch of new clothes! Second shopping trip :D #There's something oddly fitting for the Vargases to adopt twin/clones lol - fun shenaniganary until the Final Version comes to pass #Although now that I think of it I Could also give them a toddler!Todd hmmmmmm #It's an idea :)

[nomsfaultau]

Another mini-arc of Fault is being released. Fault is an SCP SBI AU that deals with themes of dealing with the trauma and guilt of surviving, The SCP Foundation’s system of oppression, and naturally found family. The first arc is Tommy and Tubbo-centric, focusing on the sacrifices needed to survive, and then broadens to fully introduce the rest of the Sleepy Bois, alternative morality systems, and new terrible mental health strategies. While the story does get dark, it makes the moments of love shine all the brighter. Even if humanity hates them, these monsters have each other’s backs.

Mind the tags, and enjoy.

#wanted to do a fun art piece but my phone is to broken rip #writing a description was so weird. Cause the plot is so convoluted at this point I don't think a summary would be useful. At all. #like i could explain how the new chapter is abt Wilbur selling his blood to an eldritch monster in exchange for protection from his trigger #after he was left sole defender of the group as a combo of the cost of a blood god's rampage #+ Philza being completely stripped of his identity humanity and memories #and the bitterness of trying to retain familiarity with someone you love even though they're practically a stranger now #while tubbos arc is bubbling in the background as they start poorly coping with chronic pain/disability/resentment/relying on ppl they abho #and the growing hints of the magic systems lore and planting the seeds for later metafictional themes #this whole mini-arc is mostly foreshadowing for HUGE problems later on #mmmm i should stop rambling #fault au #sleepy bois inc #sbi #sbi au #sbi fic #dark sbi #sbi scp au #technoblade #wilbur soot #tommyinnit #philza #tubbo #clingy duo #scp au #scp fic #scp foundation #sbi fanfic #something to nom on

[love-cult-enthusiast]

Just found your account, and I'm curious:

What's your opinion on Warren?

I hate him with every fiber of my being.

#Its mostly because he is exactly like a guy I used to be friends with #Warren and Yellow guys dynamic is basically how he treated me #so he evokes some back memories #I don't have a problem with anyone who likes him or finds comfort in him of course #I DO have a problem with people who try to justify his actions though #I know he's supposed to be annoying because he's supposed to be the representation of every terrible friend you've ever had #but I just can't force myself to like him #btw I love your art it's so colorful and shapely :) #anyway uh normal tags time #dhmis #don’t hug me i’m scared #dhmis warren #dhmis warren the eagle #dhmis warren the worm #my ranting about Warren is so incoherent but that's because I have so many thoughts about him #It honestly feels kind of good to type it out #answering of the asks

[sodalite-lite]

Today's (last week's, really) Trackpad Tuesday is sponsored by: Lying to your friends to protect them! I gave up on doing the dithering sorz Process parts under the cut

#soda draws #taleblr #trackpad tuesday #blood #eyestrain #i keep forgetting parts of my design for him but WHO CARESSS #wouldn't be a fun fandom without that one person who draws bad awkward edgy mspaint fanart #<- i say that endearingly #yeah i colored the gloves. so what they get covered in blood anyway #i have a lot of useless things to say i'm writing this like half an hour after i finished at 2 in the morning i feel a bit panicked #i was drawing this and was like 'this is getting more about me by the minute' whatever THAT means #this was fun for the most part. took way too long. i really like leaving most of the sketch visible but it makes it hell to color #honestly he probably has a better memory than me but whateverrr mann #'so is the blood real or symbolic simon?' that's for you to figure out random person online reading my tags!!!! #whatever my problem is sucks two days ago i could barely get out of bed and today(ish) i whip SOMETHING up after working on it #for like 10 straight hours #i'm mostly just thinking about my unfinished assignments #ENOUGH TALKING INTO THE SCHEDULE FEATURE 4 YOU...

[lovecraftian-lolita]

Please for the love of god, please we NEED more comfortable lolita shoes... I need to be able to walk around Disneyland until the end of the day without having my feet hurt until the last part of the day... and they need to be sturdy too!

#ok im exaggerating a little but still #shoes are a gigantic problem #theyre sooooo uncomfy #doesnt matter which brand #just standing in shoes like that hurt... #sucks when you have a meet up that's mostly walking or standing #sweet ollie tag #I need my super plushy memory foam #and my arch support

[specterofyou]

I am starting to dislike my naming conventions, they make drawing the titles so hard... Anyways, to go along with the menu preview from earlier, here's rough inks for the title.

#all the lettering problems will be fixed I promise... and all the other uneven attributes #this is mostly just layout #the memory journal

[simonstamenovic]

i just want to say i love you constantly to everything everyone if i think about it too long it becomes so overwhelming it feels i am made of it

#bloodletting #perhaps part of the problem is i dont want to be not... just me? i miss geralt i am wholly myself. but perhaps also becoming something else? #it is daunting. 'scary' is a word both somewhat juvenile for me and reserved for someone else #but it is... something like that. #i do not know if this is at all anything that makes sense #especially because since we share memory and the worst is that it mostly gets very blurred + distant #it feels odd to... be? #i hate feeling the 'am i allowed to call myself xyz' impulse but this website is a prison for #being 'insecure' for lack of a better word about plurality #it feels desperately violently sickeningly wrong to call ourselves the same person and we do not share #many emotions or opinions or impulses. is that not enough? i must disclose our emotional neglect first i see...?

[raytorosaurus]

Hi sorry I need to win an argument!!! Did Gerard break a microphone at Melbourne Night 1??Having trouble finding information about that show.

LOL i'm actually not sure which is so weird i'm trying to remember 😭. brisbane night 2 one of the screens was broken and it's possible that i recall gerard saying something about technical issues or maybe me thinking something to myself about technical issues (bc melbourne was the next show). was that in relation to a broken microphone? perhaps. did i completely make that up? perhaps. i'm sorry does anyone know/remember?

#the problem with my memory is that it is mostly outsourced. if i don't reblog and tag it on tumblr it's gone forever

[lucifer-kane]

Are there any fictional characters you think you resemble, either in appearance or in personality?

Interesting question, I do enjoy stuff like this. Hmm. I don't... really think so? At least not that I've come across. I would like for some characters to look or have a similar personality, it would be neat! I think the most I could think about, but it's really only one thing, is Warren Godby (Red Valley podcast) and Lloyd Allen (Shaperaverse) in terms of their anger issues and how they deal. Other than that? Especially personality and how my autism shapes it, it's. Rough? It's something.

I feel like unless I headcanoned a character (since I primarily listen to audio drama and most of those, characters don't really have canon looks) to have similar features to myself, none of them would really have my body type/appearance. But that's more a thing of the lack of fat people in media, even trying to find real people who have similar body types to myself is hard

#my face is very... small? my features arre very close together it seems to me #especially when it comes to like. my mouth to chin ratio. not a lot of space between the two #idk if this is what you wanted or if i described things well enough! #i generally also don't have a good personal view of myself but that's mostly the autism #it's also hard to find autistic characters who aren't like. smart. im not smart! and im not saying that as a diss #im not smart i have hellish memory problems and the best i can do is parroting things that i remember well bc of hyperfixation #even then it's all so stressful. the only reason i got the grades i did in school was the classes i had that were remedial #i failed two seperate science classes (granted that was mostly bc of the teacher but also the science classes i had to take were hard) #tho i had a much better time in anatomy than the ones i took before then switched to anatomy sr year to fill out my final science class #despite the councoler being like 'idk i think that'll be too hard for you' and granted. it was #i passed but it was bc the teacher was fun adn cool and stuff and /helped #okay i didn't mean the tags to get like this im sorry ksldjfklsd

[bednbunfast]

heh,,, hehh,,, bald

wip

#this guy is a redesign!! or sorts idk #i got the chara from a trade mostly because of memories with their prev owner !! theyre like.. severly tortured /j #slaps head. thjs bad boy can fit so many problems ( everybody wants hjm dead )

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#just turning over the idea of executive functioning issues in my head part by part. impulse control. im extremely tightly controlled. im the #best at control. the only times im impulsive is when someone asks me something and my brain doesn't work well in the moment so i tend to b #like fuck it: says something that might fuck me over later bc im like whatever itll prob b fine lol. but mostly not an issue. emotional #control. i dont lash out at ppl except myself i guess. ill sometimes have freak out meltdowns bc i get so frustrated with myself plus mood #weirdness. so not great. flexible thinking. im pretty rigid. if plans randomly change theres like a 1 in 3 chance ill freak out and start #crying and it takes me a long time to adjust to the idea that i have to chsnge something. and things tend to have to b a certain way #not for any reason in particular. thats just how it has to b. i have to eat the same foods. operate at the same times. do thr same things. #thats just how it is. and i find it difficult in social situations to adapt to the flow of convention bc its like but we're talking abt thi #now but something just interrupted and we aren't going abck to that thing. i dont make it other ppls problem but its uncomfortable for me. #working memory. my memory is pretty fucked. self monitoring. im good at that. too good. im pathologically self reflective. planning & #prioritizing. i can plan but i cant prioritize for shit. i will spiral for hours doing nothing bc i can't decide what comes 1st. #task initation. im good at torturing myself into getting things done but i anxiously avoid a lot of things but once i start its like: im in #this mode now. no i cant fucking stop i need this to b done. i need to sit here and finish it otherwise i wont come back to it. i cant do #moderation its all or nothing. all school and nothing outside of that. cant send mail. cant clean sink. i see it and kno i need to do it an #then i just walk away from the disaster area. organization. is ok. it looks a disaster but i only exist in like 3 places so i dont lose #things often but i dont remember where i put things once i put them down i have to deduce where i would have put it. does that paint the #picture of executive functioning issues or rigid and restrictive compulsive behavior paired with self destructive impulses leading to #absolute mental exhaustion which is y things arent getting done? could b either or both. idk my ability to do things 95% of the way and wal #away leaving a mess that ill never come back to strikes me more as the former but what do i #still its worth considering bc i do have an amazing to control myself in a way that's completely out of my control. maybr my start/stop #switch is just fucked idk. slow down and reorient says my counselor u never stop to rest. shes right but also im a grad student stopping #would mean death u gotta keep swimming and doing more than u should. thats how it is #but im so tired and i only get more and more tired. so somethings gotta give eventually #unrelated #i forgot focus. my focus is good sometimes and sometimes my brain is moving too fast and i cant focus at all. its static #but focus is not a thing i cna control

[asiancatboy]

so

#a couple of weeks back i was talking to my therapist abt my trip back to my college town & how being there made me realise how much #i had changed. and how i can see that in the way i was able to navigate a space that held so much anxiety for me without any problems #maybe not completely without. but it was different. more clear #they brought attention to the fact that i'm visiting my friends again next month and it could feel the same #i've been thinking abt that ever since & idk how to feel abt it #nervous? excited? a little embarrassed over old memories and i think mostly surprised to be in this position #where i've committed to friendships for years & actually have the opportunity to grow with & be seen by #and i mean actually offline & in the flesh like damn ok why did u have to bring that up now i feel the most vulnerable i have ever felt #😭

[willowfey]

a year and one day ago, one of my favourite people in the world, my kindred spirit, my uncle chris, died of a heart attack. he was a kind sensitive gay man who loved to read and travel and make people laugh and wake you up in the middle of the night to go out for ice cream if he was lonely. he had a peculiar interest in clowns and circuses and trains. he loved dogs more than people and people more than anything else in the world. i never got the chance to talk to him about being autistic but i’m almost 99% sure he was.

i couldn’t say anything about him on the day because i was absolutely inconsolable. i sat on the shower floor until it went cold and sobbed for hours so hard i threw up and then didn’t speak the rest of the day. and then, late at night, i went out for ice cream and was served by an old queen covered in pride pins who was around his age, and he reminded me of him, and it helped a microscopic amount. my mom told him we lost our uncle and he looked at me and i wanted to tell him “you remind me of him” because i know he would’ve understood, but i couldn’t make any words come out, so we just looked at each other a moment. i don’t remember anything else about that night. except that it rained really hard for a long time. i still go there for ice cream occasionally and he serves us every single time and he talks as if we’re good friends, even though i never do much of the talking.

anyway. i went back to look at his obituary today and it feels like it just happened. or like it didn’t happen at all. idk. but the thing that’s getting me the most is i’m looking through his photo gallery and there’s pictures of him in his teens and 20s and like….. we would’ve been friends. i just know we would have. despite how quiet i was in school, despite how quiet HE was in school, he would’ve seen me one day and said smth to make me smile like he always did and we would’ve been best friends from then on. but i was born 30 years too late and instead of befriending me first he befriended my grandmother and mother, and instead of going to school with him every day he called me nearly every day to do animal impressions. mr. cow says hello. mr. sheep says good morning. mr. horse is passing the phone to silly chris now. we grew up calling him silly chris. that was just his name. one word. sillychris.

idk where i’m going with this post but i just wanted the world to know that i miss him, and that when my nephew is finally big enough to use the phone he’ll have to speak to my secretary mrs. horse

#he used to visit foster homes dressed as santa and the easter bunny to give out treats #he kept a bowl of dog treats by his door despite having no pets just in case one was walking past #he was the kindest person i have ever known #and the fact that my kids will not grow up with sillychris breaks my heart more than anything #but god i am so so glad i visited him before he died. that we went to the korean bakery and out to dinner and took a long walk #and smelled all the flowers we passed and talked about books and travelling and the world and how different we feel from other people #despite how badly we love other people #that i still have a fresh memory of hugging him. of him telling me i’ve always been the same girl. that i’ll always be his book lady. #one of my biggest regrets is that i didn’t text him when i said i would. that i didn’t send him a book like i promised. #i got so caught up in my life and my own problems and i thought i’d have so much time. i thought i had years and years #i thought he’d dance with me at my wedding. y’know? u always think u have more time. and the thing that scares me the most is not knowing #i know he could never ever be upset with me for anything. and that he’s still here #anyway. this post is mostly for me bc tumblr is my journal but here we are #it is something i think that the only thing able to pull me out of my head on that day long enough to drink some water and lay down #was another chris

[ferrouscrown]

thinking about twins getting reunited in hisui by way of emmet falling rather than ingo being returned to his own time in unova... pulling the ol switcheroo in that emmet also loses access to all of his memories in the fall save for his own name, but for ingo, when he sees emmet, it’s like a jolt to the system that sends a precious few memories flooding back to him. like, this is him, this is the man that’s been haunting the back of his mind just out of reach, this is EMMET this is his brother who meant and means the world to him. how could he forget? moreover, why can’t he remember more than this, even now?

emmet, for his part, realizes that ingo looks exactly like him and as such doesn’t doubt ingo’s claiming to be his brother, but the memory is just... not... there. no recognition of what little ingo recalls; there is at best only a passing sense of familiarity that could be missed were he not looking for it. still, surrounded by people he doesn’t necessarily understand in a place he certainly doesn’t, this is enough for him to take a preference to remaining by ingo’s side. 

(i like to think that the first memory emmet recovers, ghost though it is, is dug up watching ingo battle in jubilife... the incredible sense of deja vu watching him point and call out his commands... it spurs on this overwhelming urge to stop what he’s doing and take a place at his side, to act as a mirror image. he can picture it, it feels like he’s done it before, he wants to do it...)

#uhhh [leans into microphone] they fall in love for a second time your honor #or it is more of a rediscovery rather #hee hoo hee ingo remembering mostly just emmets name and the general significance he holds but not necessarily #the finer details of that relationship beyond their bond as brothers #however over months there is a particular feeling that begins to surface that ingo knows in his heart is not new #but whether emmet once shared it is yet unknown to him... and even if he did #it is all but a certainty he doesn't remember now #god........ pining........ #ingo looking at emmet in profile by lamplight and knowing this to be love #knowing that he has probably been in love with emmet his entire life #but he mustn't say anything... not now when they have only just begun to rebuild their bond not on the foundation of memory #but of this life they now share #*vomits* sorry im diseased #i had really good tag rambles about this but i accidentally deleted them all please learn from my hubris #i also DONT. know if this is coherent thats a problem for me Later.

[startersword]

Mdzs op still makes me want to do a little ballerina twirl and shake my ass all at the same time IT'S SAUR GOOD

#wanwan #i never got too into it mostly bc Memory Problems BUUUUT i did watch quite a few eps of the show and i remember liking it #I love you wwx i love you lwj <3 and i love you mdzs op <3