#it's hard not to despair

[blueboyluca]

“When I first heard it, from a dog trainer who knew her behavioral science, it was a stunning moment. I remember where I was standing, what block of Brooklyn’s streets. It was like holding a piece of polished obsidian in the hand, feeling its weight and irreducibility. And its fathomless blackness. Punishment is reinforcing to the punisher. Of course. It fit the science, and it also fit the hidden memories stored in a deeply buried, rusty lockbox inside me. The people who walked down the street arbitrarily compressing their dogs’ tracheas, to which the poor beasts could only submit in uncomprehending misery; the parents who slapped their crying toddlers for the crime of being tired or hungry: These were not aberrantly malevolent villains. They were not doing what they did because they thought it was right, or even because it worked very well. They were simply caught in the same feedback loop in which all behavior is made. Their spasms of delivering small torments relieved their frustration and gave the impression of momentum toward a solution. Most potently, it immediately stopped the behavior. No matter that the effect probably won’t last: the reinforcer—the silence or the cessation of the annoyance—was exquisitely timed. Now. Boy does that feel good.”

— Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Secret History of Kindness (2015)

#dog books #this chapter was very sad reading #when you become aware of punishment #and its use and its prevalence #it's hard not to despair #again this is why positive reinforcement feels like absolution #maybe now my eyes are open I can make up for what I did #what I did because it's what everyone does #because it's more acceptable to punish than to do anything else #I've been having so many thoughts about punishment and society and justice #this book was very validating #another great validating moment in my jumbled thoughts #was listening to the You're Wrong About episode on justice #with Amanda Knox #it helped to ease the despair a little

[kittykatthetacodemon]

I too want to be so gay and in love that my relationship is part of an “institutional problem” and the actual Metatron, Voice of God, has to come down from heaven on high to stealth break us up because the miracles we do together are too strong. Power couple

#good omens #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #in the last hour since finishing the show I have swung so wildly from despair to rock hard and very amused optimism #these two are canonically the most intelligent and competent idiots to have ever failed to achieve literally anything #and everything always ends up alright for them in the end #so. everything is gonna be fine. and I’m going to watch and eat popcorn and point and laugh at heaven and hell #for thinking they can outwit these nitwits

[spittyfishy]

If you break all your toys then there won’t be anything left to play with

#I tried to make them look like action figures I hope that’s clear lol #the lighting made it a bit hard to see #this was sitting half finished for Months lol #but I got some danganronpa vibes again so I thought I’d get it done! #danganronpa #remnants of despair #sdr2 #junko enoshima #mahiru koizumi #ultimate imposter #mikan tsumiki #hiyoko saionji #teruteru hanamura #nekomaru nidai #gundham tanaka #ibuki mioda #nagito komeda #peko pekoyama #goodbye despair #danganronpa 2 #danganronpa goodbye despair

[bittersweetresilience]

the great gatsby / kentucky route zero / koe no katachi / disco elysium / omori / night in the woods / homestuck / koe no katachi / l'étranger / disco elysium / firewatch / john dies at the end / everything everywhere all at once / the subtle art of not giving a f*ck

#MAKING THESE IS SO HARD #i've always been obsessed with them so i wanted to try it out #but there was so much i didn't get to include #wolf 359 minecraft end poem goodbye despair the things they carried... there will be other chances i suppose #the media i consume is an endless cycle of the same themes over and over again which gives me an abundance of ideas for these #yay i'm having so much fun! #🌃 #kentucky route zero #a silent voice #disco elysium #omori #night in the woods #homestuck #firewatch #john dies at the end #everything everywhere all at once #man i miss being a ghost

[milkbreadtoast]

"The perfect orv dub/Kim Dokja voice doesnt exis-"

EXPLAIN THIS!!!!! (@voiceactorken on youtube!!!)

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #omniscient reader #전지적 독자 시점 #kim dokja #yu junghyeok #yoo joonghyuk #desperately trying to share this fandub w everyone i can so posting abt it here too #i even did a quick edit w the english panels so its easy to follow along #im only doing it for this vid only tho PLS CHECK THE REST OUT ON HIS CHANNEL #BUT ANYWAY THIS DOKJA VOICE IS TOOOO GOOD??? IM LITCHERALLY OBSESSED #like i feel like dokja is a chara thats hard to get just right #BUT THIS GUY.... HE IS DOKJA #LIKE... JUST WATCH IT IM SPEECHLESS #AND ALSO WATCH THE NEW YRS GREETING ONE ITS SOO CUTE #his voice and acting are both SOOOO perfect??? #literally dropped to my knees in despair when i found out this was a fandub I WANT HIM TO BE OFFICIALLY CAST AS DOKJA SO BAD #THIS IS WAY TOO GOOD TO BE A FANDUB..... SOBS #yjh is amazing too but dokja is the real star of this fandub imo (and im yjh bias KDJSK) #like i could imagine other deep voiced pro VAs for yjh (eg jang minhyeok) #but this guy... i didnt picture dokja sounding like this but after hearing him i now i dont want anyone else😭😭 #IM LIKE THIS IS IT. THIS IS THE ONE... #watch them cast some other pro VA as dokja and ill just be mourning bc it just doesnt hit the same as mr ken from youtube

[graveyard-society]

hi chat guess who's back

#THIS HYPERFIXATION ISNT FUNNY #IVE BEEN HYPERFIXATING SO HARD ON DANGANRONPA TO THE POINT THAT I CAN HEAR CHARACTERS SPEAK TO ME #IN MY EAR #I CAN HEAR MONOKUMA'S STUPID FUCKING PUHUHUHUHU LAUGH EVERY SO OFTEN AND ITS DRIVING ME INSANE #I DONT DREAM #BUT I DREAMT OF PLAYING DANGANRONPA #AND NAGITO'S HOPELESSLY STUCK IN MY HEAD I HATE HIM #this is it this is my return to tumblr #all because a friend of mine rambled to me about danganronpa until 5 in the fucking morning #i hate this twink #nagito komaeda #danganronpa nagito #danganronpa #danganronpa 2 #danganronpa: goodbye despair #aiden.png

[wist-eri]

coming to terms

#🖼️ #drdt #danganronpa despair time #despair time #david chiem #fangan #fanganronpa #drdt spoilers #not sure if you noticed but #first line is a ch2 pt1 reference #and the last line is ch1 ep12 #there’s some LGI references in the mix on the second panel but they’re hard to see (ftnote10) #also #that’s rose and eden putting the cake back together LMAO #eden tobisa #rose lacroix #xander matthews #i forgot to tag them lmao

[cemeterything]

we don't know what VAL was like before she became VAL, and therein lies the tragedy of her, but something that eats at me is that what we do know of her life doesn't suggest that she was much better off before. i don't doubt that part of her motivation for joining the war effort was probably rooted in that hateful, ignorant patriotism that hurts everyone and everything it touches; misguided faith in the propaganda she was sold, and perhaps even a capacity for cruelty that already lay festering within long before her transformation. but she volunteered. she wasn't a soldier returning to the active duty she'd trained for. and even if she didn't know that she'd have her personhood flayed from her to make room for a god of lies, she knew she was signing up for war. and happy people, those who are genuinely content with their lot on life, aren't generally in a hurry to throw that all away to serve on the front lines. we hear in the podcast about how even the truly desperate are more afraid of conscription than of going hungry. which begs the question of how utterly miserable the woman who became VAL must have been, how desperately alone, to see signing up as her only way out.

#🐉 #of course her whole mommy didnt love me backstory could be another lie and i could be making a classic fool of myself #by believing her. but im inclined to believe it if only because its hard to fabricate that kind of despair fuelled hatred for someone. #VAL thesiltverses

[rexwrendraws]

spotted on the wall behind the white horse theater!!

Happy one year to Bolt in the Blue by @valeriianz ! Truly the best band au fics I've ever read, I am Endless' #2 fan forever (#1 is Hob, of course) 💙🎸✨

+ alt. colors for the flyer & other scans:

i love taking advantage of my art uni's massive (MASSIVE) scanners for literally anything i can. it's got the most gorgeous grit and scan banding that photoshop trickery cant replicate (though i try lol). so, yes, i literally printed out the b&w flyers, scanned them in, then added color and printed them again to stick on my wall haha.

when digitally adding color, i wanted it to really feel like black ink on colored paper instead of trying to print on color paper and then scan it again (i have done this before idk). i think the xerox-y look is pretty convincing! the green, pink, and purple are my personal favs.

an irl friend suggest i try non-black-ink versions to see what i liked. i think they look cool but some of the text gets a bit lost. still, i like the pale yellow+red ink one. (this almost makes me want to try riso printing this to see what it'd look like 👀👀).

^ this is what the white horse metal barrier edit looked like before I added the Huji Cam filter lol. it wasn't feeling convincing enough like this, so i actually took a photo of my laptop screen with the filter and somehow that looked more real than the actual shot from the show lol. (also, because i've stared at this screenshot for so long, the orange/yellow June 12th poster? is everything on it a reference?? loll)

anyway, had a lot of fun making this!! feel free to print if you want!! READ THE FIC EVERYONE GO READ BOLT IN THE BLUE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#bolt in the blue #the sandman #dreamling #dream of the endless #morpheus #desire of the endless #despair of the endless #((it is SO hard to find pictures of donna thats not smiling haha i love her)) #death of the endless #delirium of the endless #dc #rex draws #sorta. i dont have an editing tag on this blog hm #rex process #i was also going to try to edit hob/into the first pic but couldnt decide on a photo to use lol. hes there in spirit ofc #desire may be the biggest on the poster but morphy's centered in the white horse manip hehe see what i did there.. framing and symbolism wo #FEEL FREE TO PRINT BTW! use the b/w one!!!!! BUT LIKE DONT REPOST OFC #valeriianz

[valictini]

Here is how the story goes: I find a half finished, sketchy comic I drew about these two and think ‘oh it’s kind of funny, let me finish this real quick ahah it shouldn’t take long’ fast forward literal hours of struggling to write/draw something I like that stays light hearted and doesn’t dwell in the more serious implications of the post game because I don’t want to ruin the vibe I had going on with my initial draft. Anyway. Just take it.

#komahina #nagito komaeda #hajime hinata #super danganronpa 2 #goodbye despair #Danganronpa #drawing comics is so hard #tho I did have fun with the formatting #it’s messy but I like it #also I wanna explore a more grounded and serious view of the post game cast one day #it’s just hard to put it on paper ! #so many uncertainties on how they deal with it all! #my art

[ultimateplaylistmaker]

X

#goodbye despair #chiaki nanami #chiaki #nagito komaeda #komaeda #komanami #my edit #musings from the music manager #i chose chiaki because imagining her saying that made me laugh really hard

[cumaeansibyl]

Guy in last night's meeting talking about when he first got sober a little while ago and he said in a rehab meeting "I'm doing this for my baby daughter so I can give her a better life."

And a woman said to him, "You know, your daughter deserves a great life, but so do you, dude."

Yeah I feel like that's the thing you gotta believe before you can change your life -- you don't have to believe it all the time, we all have doubts, but if you can just one time find that spark inside you that says "I deserve better than this" it'll take you farther than you thought was possible

anyway this week I have twelve years of sobriety and I hope for you the same success in overcoming whatever's keeping you from the better life you deserve

#i know shit is hard out here and just thinking happy thoughts ain't gonna get it done #but despair will kill you #no two ways about it #you don't have to be cheerful about it but you do have to keep fighting

[agentc0rn]

"Get the key back. It should not be used. Everything will vanish again. Do you want to know unending pain…like I have?"

#Pokemon xy #pokemon x and y #pokemon #pokemon fanart #my art #kalos #az pokemon #Revisiting this scene/part of the game and man #it just hits differently (and hard) #he's on his knees btw #i feel like he should have been sitting on the ground when we see him in jail in utter despair watching history repeat itself #this man's already trapped in the prison of immortality and sorrow #now he's stuck in a physical one unable to do anything but #helplessly watch with pure guilt + shame as the protag goes to stop the ult. weapon #sending someone young and small like the protag to fight is reminiscent of Floette being sent off #imagine if he gets sent to jail in ZA for whatever reason

[mocha-tapioca]

🍀 oh baby, isn’t life so

FUCKING INCONSISTENT ⁉️

#❣️ ai arts #I REMEMBERED MY ART TAG WOOOOOOO #i feel like every single time i draw teruko my art style changes DRASTICALLY #then again it has been almost two years…… wow she looks SO different from the last time i drew her #i changed my art style for this woman i don’t even do eyelash spikes anymore #rendering is so hard ppl who do it impress me #drdt #danganronpa #fanganronpa #danganronpa despair time #digital art #teruko tawaki #tawaki teruko #love her current ch 2 characterization i say keep it going

[traf-gorbaff]

Hinata, come back to bed 💤🥱

#chlobee art #danganronpa #danganronpa 2 goodbye despair #hinata hajime #komaeda nagito #komahina #sdr2 #super danganronpa 2 #post game kmhn #hinata has a hard time falling asleep and so he gets up to work instead #komaeda gets up after him and lays on top of him to go back to sleep

[pratchettquotes]

It seemed to Angua that he was drunk again, if people could get drunk on despair.

Terry Pratchett, Men at Arms

#angua von uberwald #samuel vimes #sam vimes #men at arms #discworld #terry pratchett #character description #despair #bad day #drunk #emotions are hard #drunk on despair