#its exciting when you figure things out!

[emblazons]

BYLER WEEK 2022: Day 4: Song Lyrics

I was the best man in a size too small. You were my best friend, going at it all.

"Size Too Small," by Sufjan Stevens

#byler #will byers #mike wheeler #bylerweek2022 #I KNOW ITS WILL ANGST. IM SORRY OKAY #this song works as S4 Will's internal monologue song to me #the way he knows + loves + remembers Mike #and is sad the love isn't quite right in spite of how close they are #sweet and heartbreaking and soft in all the right ways #but the song still has hope for a surprise--which we all do too #also: this took so much learning on my part gif-wise #when I got that text to do what I wanted I almost yelled #its exciting when you figure things out! #especially since I've been making gifs for what...6 days? lmao #anyway. i hope you like it #and do listen to the song if you haven't before. i love it #stranger things #the me tag #my gifs

[catmanbowser]

Help ive succumbed to bman the knight gays—i mean guys—[explodes]

#bruce wayne #minhkhoa khan #ghostbat #batman #ghost maker #dc #scrimblo doodles of men as usual #i’ll be normal abt this one i prommy ^^ #catman's art #sorry i didnt do justice w khoa’s face ;;;; #im figuring out new faces as usual i will study his face further <3 #trying out new brush too bcs im tired of using the good ol procreate pencil #yknow what i like abt bman the knight is how similiar it is with the batman 2022 novel. how they kinda have the same vibe too #its not the same thing but i just felt the same ‘WOAHHH’ when reading it #this comic’s fun you guys im vibrating with excitement

[b4kuch1n]

Your swsh art always makes me want to replay the game because i love it and its my favorite pokemon game and every time i play another pokemon game i think of it how i miss certain elements from swsh. Then i boot up the game and im once again caught in the 1 hour 40 minutes hand held intro and im like ah- now i remember why i have been playing other pokemon games instead of this one. Happy (late?) birthday!

you don't want to listen to hop? you don't want to hear him teach you about type matchups? you don't wanna let him cheer u on...? 🥺 waa....?

#ask #bakuspeech #I am joking to be clear lmao #thank u happy bday to me !! #tbh I got real used to pokemon overexpositioning since sumo lol. it's kind of a boon for me #cause I'm not a Gamer™ and my brain takes stuff on Very slowly #so the tutorial stuff and the cutscenes give me time to catch up. also it's still fun to see these guys run around #I am in fact here for these guys lol. weird thing to say about the game built on and with an essential focus on the pokemon I know #I just like humans! I just like watching hop running circles around my player character all excited #and leon being a dick to his hometown people when they're expecting 'leon' back and they get the champion instead #and you get to see sonia used to dealing with it but the frustration never fully fades and how close she is to hop and that picture's bleak #listen this is my bread&butter lol. leon really doesn't show up That much himself around the game he's a shadow casted over the story #it's always interesting to me! does Not mean it's not sluggish to other people who want to play the game lmao #but I like it. also the tutorial at least the first time around was necessary to me bc the difficulty scales way up later on lol #it's a very good first pokemon game I maintain this. sumo never managed to teach me the same way swsh did #I still care drampa tho thank u drampa for being real I love u #lmao it feels like saying I'm not a Gamer™ violates some tenets of having adhd somehow. but its just the case here #the main genres I play are 'itch games tangential to the haunted ps1 people' and 'popcap-style casual games' #my sport's figuring out shapes n movin my stylus sadly. well not sadly why would that be sad

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #(<- NUMBER 3!!!) I FINISHED THE ANIMATION AND EVERYTHING FOR THAT PROJECT AND SENT IT OFF! super excited!! #it looks really cute! i tried my best and im mostly satisfied of where i landed <33 #it's my little sibling's birthday today!! it's also the first official meeting of lgbt club!! (the other event was a fun lgbt mixer) #my backpack smells bad. like mildew or mold maybe? urgh its awful and gives me a headache. i might need a new one. i dont know. urghhh. #my programming homework is due today!! yike!! but other than that my personal projects with deadlines are all done! #INIQUITY NOW THAT YOU HAVE TIME ARE YOU FINALLY GONNA WORK ON YOUR SELF SHIP BLOG?? YES!! HOPEFULLY!! #truthfully i /have/ been working on it on the side. it looks decent but the colors;;; i have always been pretty sht at color picking? #i can adjust with filters but without that im like. a little not good yet lmao. gotta do some studies sometime perhaps #BUT YAY EXCITED!! ive got some rambles and doodles and a tag system and f/o info which is extremely cumbersome (affectionate)!! #also i have new fandom ocs for the latest dimension 20 campaign and im so delighted heho <33 this campaign is literally so fun. #im watching it with my sibling when its done!! OOH ALSO I FIGURED OUT HOW TO PNGTUBE AND i will likely never use it BUT COOL!! #i dont like. talk. lmao. my art streams are 1) silent 2) rare 3) only shared with my siblings. pngtuber is a little useless. but CUTE!! #i got boba tea yesterday!! sandy bought it :3 <3 and we're having pho and cheesecake later and i might plan out a little excursion today? #like i might get a treatsie. OR i'll just sit on campus as usual and get a mango smoothie and draw for a while (or work on homework.) #(lets be honest its likely the former. i might get a little back into traditional? ooh or maybe i'll practice my asl?) HEY THOUGH. #ive been thinking about making a henrey stickmn (ask)blog to practice asl? like. no plot. just henry teaching ellie and charles asl #really funny considering my Real concept of an askblog for THSC. not ace or eca; but a secret third thing (⛎) ;) #then again since when have i EVER followed through on an askblog lmao?? damb im all over the place today. we're already hitting tag limit #okay!! 3 AM!! if im going early tomorrow i gotta eep! goodnight everyone i love you!! see you tomorrow if i have the energy and time!!

[dredshirtroberts]

oh shit y'all.

i've done gotten invested in Gurren Lagann. we're like 19 episodes deep in this paint and i have been emotionally compromised by the silly mechs.

believe in the me.

#that believes in you #i was gonna say pray for me but that makes me actively uncomfortable so don't do that #but i figured the believe in me thing was fitting #gurren lagann #i don't know how deep this rabbit hole will go for me - but i have a drill so let's find out i GUESS #y'all i did not anticipate this being what happened to me in my 30s i thought i'd found all the anime i was going to be emotionally attache #to in my teens and HERE WE ARE I MISSED ONE I GUESS #i'm having a blast don't let my silly complaints fool you i like to be dramatically angry about things that delight me sometimes #the THEMES the MOTIFS the STORY IT'S TELLING #UGH #SO GOOD #i don't want to hear criticism about it because it's BEAUTIFUL and I LOVE IT #we're watching kill la kill when we get done with gurren lagann and i am SO EXCITED about that trigger knows my weaknesses #and it's goofy faces and tiddies while dealing with really deep subject matter in a ridiculous way #also apparently mechs? wasn't anticipating that one at all i am ambivalent about mechs in general #but BOY HOWDY DID I CRY WHEN DAI-GURREN HAD TO EXPLODE ITS SWORD OFF #anyway... where was i #oh yeah so anyway in case you haven't guessed yet this taking over my brain slowly but surely and i'm sure there will be at least one #attempt at fic in the future for me we'll see how it goes #in the meantime... #oh yeah fun fact #i fucking thought gurren lagann the mech was from gundam and so when i started recognizing it i went THAT'S WHERE IT'S FROM?? but in my hea #because i didn't actually watch gundam i was ambivalent about mechs as stated earlier but of the gundams that one was my favorite #AND IT'S NOT EVEN A GUNDAM I FEEL SLIGHTLY LIED TO BUT IN A GOOD WAY SOMEHOW??? #anyway we're having a super normal one over here don't mind me

[fruitsyrups]

ive crossed over into an alternate dimension where side profiles are somehow sometimes easier to draw than other angles. bodies in side profile however... nooo thank you...

#ok the back of the head is hard but the facial features proportions kind of feel easier to figure out . maybe. #weird #n e way im happy with the way i draw faces mostly maybe 50 percent of the time but im so not caught up on drawing bodies #like to the point it just looks bizarre #decent proportional face with like at least some understanding of structure/form even if it's not much #and then the stiffest clunkiest body you ever did see #or i can go the other way around and have an ok body. like decently fluid / proportional. but no face #theres some kind of disconnect. cant have both at once #thats only a sometimes thing though anyways. faces are generally easier #tried to do a teeny bit of gesture drawing yesterday but i was feeling sooo lazy and impatient so only 3 of them turned out ok ish #im pretty sure i post more often talking about art than i actually post art #i dont post most of the things i draw #i like to have my little secrets... #secrets in question are just literally anything that isnt adventure time art #actually looking through my art folder is crazy cause like if i saw this 3 years ago (i was really bad at drawing 3 years ago) i would. idk #drop dead or something #but now its like yeah same old same old. lots of problems. need to work on those. #but its nice to step back and be like woagh holy shit. massive improvement #earlier i was trying to dfraw a character and it wasn't coming out right but instead of getting frustrated and discouraged #it was more like i had this feeling of . idk. excitement to get better at drawing? #i dont know if this is just a temporary mood or maybe im turning over a new leaf. new optimistic mindset about art #<- watch that 'new mindset' totally disappear when i have a slightly more prolonged period of art struggle. lol

[velvetwyrme]

i love getting comments that make me want to tease future events because it means the commenter is either very right or oh-so-wonderfully wrong

#like oh no girl you are incorrect but in a way that hopefully will make you excited when you eventually find out youre wrong ksfhksjdfkj #or. OHHH YOU FIGURED IT OUT good job!! it'll take like.... 10 chapters for the reveal. im so so sorry i hope the satisfaction is worth it #theres one thing in particular thats been teased that ppl havent pointed out yet and im so so so curious if anyone has been like 👀? abt it #but also like. its Not Tagged. so ppl probably wont be looking for it >:P alas.

[aemiron-main]

going insane because the s5 mike death flags are aligning exactly with my gay mike analysis + his narrative as a character and what he represents and how we can use that to demonstrate whats going to happen to him in s5 and why gay mike is a core part of mike’s arc as a character and resolution of the narrative and metaphors of st +  then that’s also tying into my music analysis and oh my god i just need to finish this analysis but there’s So Much to say  its all coming together. though. the math is mathing. 

#stranger things #gay mike wheeler #i know i keep talking about this analysis but i am SO EXCITED ABOUT IT YOU GUYS #pouring my current gay pain tm into it #not in a 'im just projecting' way bc its all analysis rooted in the show rather than in my own hc/experiences #every day i become more of a gay mike truther simply bc of how its intertwined with mikes character but also w the st narrative and metaphor #as a whole #god i just have so much to say about this #seriously this is gonna be my best analysis yet #the vanishing of will byers one is gonna be good too but #w that one i dont quite have a firm 100% conclusion of exactly what happened bc i dont think well get that until s5 #bc im JUST barely missing some details to fill in some gaps and so i think theres new lore we'll get in s5 that fills those gaps #but when it comes to the gay mike analysis #i HAVE a conclusion that i am firm in #like not in a 'i can totlaly predict mikes actions in s5' way #but in a 'i am so sure that he has been written as gay since the beginning and that in order for st to be resolved narratively and- #-metaphorically then mike has to be gay' way #and in a 'im Pretty Sure we can figure out s5 mike but i cant be certain bc i cant see the future' way #but the gaps that are there in the will vanishes theory arent there in the gay mike theory like i dont need to wait for New Lore to fill in #gaps. its just that i cant be 100% sure of ANY predictions until s5 simply bc theres always gonna be that 1% chance that the writers do smth #random/pull a fast one on me #but anyways im rambling but #gay mike not only fits from an analysis perspective imo but also #personally has a lot of meaning to me and is special to me bc i relate to a lot of it #but again in removing my personal experiences and just doing an analysis based on what we see in the show #*im #like genuinely if i thought that mike was anything other than gay based on what we see in the show i would happily admit it bc i just want #him to be happy and be in love with will at the end of the day. but i dont think thats the case like im so sure hes been written as gay from #the start. anyway. much to think about im just #very excited abt this analysis

[kil9]

i luv doing what i call "passive breakfast" which is rather than having something that i have to eat in one sitting, finding smth that i can just snack on and pick at for the first 3-4 hours of me being awake

#99.txt #becoming an adult means getting excited about shit like this #i really dont get hungry in the morning tho so its nice to not make myself feel sick by trying to eat a whole meal. #but also i dont have to run on empty this way #i realised after moving in with maddi that i really dont eat a lot at all...... #just since im fat ive been convinced my whole life that i must be eating way too much.... #the way my metabolism works is it wants a lot of snacks throughout the day and one main meal #i am somehow losing weight tho. not that i care much its just interesting #i think because im in england now stuff is just overall more healthy.... #its hard to find real sugar soda & even when it is.. the ammt of sugar is less than america it seems like #america will add sugar to the damnedest things #maddi says i have to put it back on so i dont disappear 💀💀 #also yeah with metabolism. everyone thinks fast metabolism is like. the only way to be. and if u dont have that its bad.... #and i really disagree #i think its just apples and oranges. whichever way you work just figure out how to accommodate for it and then its fine

[eiirishi]

its so funny to me how much im enjoying a book i really don't like

#disco elysium #a sacred and terrible air #you know #i was pretty excited to read it #for all the scrapes of lore #and i have been fed #somewhat #but the style of writing and how people are described and ahh #a lot of things just irk me #only figured it out when a friend said he doesn't mind being spoiled #and what was meant to be a tidbit about revachol i found in the book #ended up being a fully fledged rant #.... that i repeated later to another friend #anyway #i haven't been so passionate (even if its hate(?)) for something in a while #and damn in enjoying it #blbl

[caffeinatedopossum]

I keep seeing tiktoks about how the owl house fandom is so annoying apparently and people can't seem to escape the endless fan content and passionate rants about it... like girl you know we're mostly desperate gays and traumatized autistics right. Please just let us have this ;-;

Anyway I absolutely should not have taken that personally but after *finally* starting to become a little more comfortable with having special interests and hyperfixations ... I did unfortunately take it personally 😔 like it seems like one very small thing to get upset about but I'm so tired of constantly worrying that my only form of happiness will only ever be annoying to people and then having that fear affirmed again and again.

#its okay to not like the same things as me. theres plenty of things that my favorite people like that i dont really #and i still love to see them happy about things #im not being subjected to some horrible torture just because someone likes something #it honestly makes me really happy that other people can find joy where i cant #because you know sometimes i cant find anything to be happy about and those excited faces and passionate rants #remind me that theres happiness even in places where i cant see it #this kinda derailed but yeah #basically im just really tired #hearing stuff like this makes me want to stop making things and never talk again #its the reason im so surprised when someone likes what i say or what i make #because i have been fully prepared for people to openly hate me or at least find me annoying #idk i know im too sensitive about things and i have a lot to work through #but thats what im trying to do you know #im trying to figure out why this is upsetting to me #actually no you know what this is a pretty big deal #i want people to stop acting like my mere existence is an inconvenience to them #you can look away! im not imposing myself on you im literally just here #i didnt choose to be here but i am and im gonna enjoy it if and when i can

[marblerose-rue]

OKOK for realsies im gonna draw but it wont be an immediate thing

#not art #meandering #i never got an answer on what to do + stardew BAHJBAHBFD #im also in the process of redesigning kaden (my sona/my pfp) *again* and its a bit of a process . i think im gonna make her a calico #its just a matter of going with what my gut is telling me to but i always get that weird pukey feeling in my chest when i make any changes #its the same feeling i get when i figure out i wanna use a set of pronouns so idk . probably an autism thing but i also dont know #kadens design hasnt had any major design changes over the years besides like * checks notes * the 2015 design #but thats not a design you guys have seen . unless you want to . regardless every other design change has been slow/gradual/hard to notice #unless youre me #anyway im doing another rendered piece but im gonna be leaving in a couple of hours to watch everything everywhere all at once with my dad #and its my sixth time watching the movie but my first time watching in theatres and im so very excited #so it'll probably be posted saturday or sunday maybe #or at least finished by then

[justabunchofdragons]

o... .. .,,, ! !!! i am very happy with where i am in this moment

#listening to worst of you by maisie peters and its not even a super uplifting song .gjfkfjfk i just #remember listening to her a lot when i was playing loads of minecraft and working on my survival world #ah .2022 how i was excited for you #once again thinking of angel. my friend who. disappeared off tumblr never knew where she want #there's a screenshot of us saying 2021 will be our year if we get there. and i got there and i hope she did too #i hope she's still somewhere .safe and happy #ah. msuic <3 memories in them there is. love in them . so much #didn't keep a bullet journal this yr and i doubt i ever will again. ough so much effort. might do a minimalistic one #but making spreads n stuff is so. ough ! yikes. pretty but it takes LONG and i just don't have the time #trying to use notion (goin ok! not rly using it) trying to make a neocities (failing badly) trying to balance studies + life (not terrible) #trying trying trying. that is all. that is everything isn't it. its always that. one day i will be good! i will. #i never do new years resolutions and its silly to think abt them .a whole month before 2023 but i kinda wanna learn to crochet #and figure out the neocities thing #someone remind me to set up a wall of text. i promise not to abandon this account (i made a new one. haven't used it yet) #i promise to love everyone always (except the people beyond loving) and i promise to keep writing silly poetry #i do not promise to stop oversharing on tumblr. this is my second diary & u guys are my best friends <3 #hang on to love sin and your youth <3 it'll get easier & easier & easier #i can believe we made it #chaos.txt

[roaringheat]

ANOTHER THING is I am absolutely obsessed with the way the gang's relationships with each other evolve so naturally throughout the game whether for better or for worse. I've only just started chapter 4 but seeing them grow and have problems or resolve them over a long period of time is so impressive... literally no other game compares to that level of effort and writing

#vark posts #v live blogging #its actually insane how fleshed out these characters are im gonna SOB #i mentioned Karen and Susan already but i love seeing them get along #John seems like hes on track to actually be a father figure #Molly and Dutch got some beef now and even tho it hurts to see how theyve changed its crazy good that a game can make that hurt #Sadies whole character development is incredible i love her and am kissing her #It might just be special party lines but Charles being openly happy got to me #he'll probs revert to his old lines after this scene but im still counting it cause i like seeing everyone happy lmao #im holdin out for that major Charles development hes gotta have something he deserves it <33 #Javier is just perfect in general and i love how the gang flocks to him especially when he plays his guitar #he just has such amazing energy and i havent seen him have a negative interaction as far as i can remember #maybe bill says some shit but i honestly dont pay too much attention to him #I FORGOT KIEREN #hes like such a big example of my original point #going from the gangs captive to literally saying joining the gang was the best thing to happen to him ohhhh my god #i hope those kind of lines stick cause i need him to be happy so bad #im sorry im literally typing down like every thought im having lmao #can you tell i like this game #im so excited and a little scared to see how everyone develops throughout the rest of the game #idk how much there is left but seeing as I only just start chapter 4 i feel like theres a lot to go

[lesbeamofsunshine]

in a really fucked up way its absolutely fucking infuriating being like "whaa I have nothing to live for" while quite literally having something to live for

#literally my sister is getting married and im a bridesmaid and i have bridesmaid responsibilities and im actually looking forward to seeing #my extended family again but rn im also like!!!! fuck!!! im so fucking depressed i wanna fucking kill myself #!!!!! but actually i dont bc im excited for things but nobody cares about me except they do bc theyre also excited about what im doing!!!!! #but theres also other shit going on rn thats making everything else hella stressful and uncertain but if/when we figure it out itll be such #a fucking relief!!!!!!! but in the meantime it FUCKING SUCKS and whaaa no one cares about me or anything else but im trying so fucking hard #to GET them to care and if i dont who will!!!!!!!!!! nobodys gonna do it like me!!!! im trying so fucking hard and its fucking exhausting #but if i can do it itll be worth it. but also part of me wants to say fuck it and resort to murdering my f*ther bc then we'd never have to #deal with him again! what bliss!! but i would sooooo not get away with it and prison sounds like fucking hell so unfortunately if i did #resort to that i would have to kill myself as well so im NOT gonna do that but ohhhhh god do i want to. i wanna murder that man soooooo bad #you have no fucking idea. BUT thats also a terrible option so im not doing that even though the fact that i have literally never killed that #man is also fucking infuriating!!!!!!!!!! ugh anyway whatever idk what im doing with this. life sucks blah blah whatever #my post

[appledotcodotuk]

found my 2ds and started replaying fe: awakening with permadeath I keep having to restart every 2 seconds help why am I so bad at anime chess

#GOD idk what they put in the gameplay tho cause i can genuinely feel it pulling me in #like its so absorbing and exciting when a risky play goes well #or when you figure out a way to ensure everyone survives a round #ough its so fun #i am also once again crushing hard on mirel #she has no personality beyond... smart... girl?? but 13 y/o me had the biggest thing for her #miriel i mean whoopsie