#its so dAMN SAD

[abnormallynice]

TWEWY Joshneku City of Angels AU lets gooooooooo when you just gotta admit "who am I kidding Im never coming back to this even though I reaaally want to asdfgh I'll just post what I have"

[Wall of text of lore below~]

TW// Suicidal ideation Angels wander the city of Shibiya to lead spirits to the afterlife. They cannot be seen, unless they want to be and have no personal want of emotions or free will. They cannot feel the way humans do. Physically or emotionally.

Angel Joshua arrives to lead away suicidal teen, Neku. But he wavers and Neku decides against his decision. Joshua becomes intrigued by Neku when the teenager goes out of their way to save the life of another, when Neku was so ready to give up on their own. It's a spark of fascination for Joshua that quickly fades, as time goes on and the depressed-teen-turned-hero-friend fades to memory.

Years later and Joshua is doing the rounds in a local hospital when he spies a familiar face. Neku, now in scrubs, doing his medical residency. During a young patient's last moments, Neku refuses to let the child die and his eyes meet with Joshua's. Neku doesn't see the angel of course, but a familiar spark lights up in Josh. He begins to follow Neku's daily comings and goings in the hospital, then outside of the hospital. Despite careful (but entertained) warning from his angelic colleges, Joshua makes himself known to Neku, and only Neku.

Apprehensive and disbelieving at first, Neku eventually begins to believe this angel and they become closer (or as close as one can get to a being with little comprehension about Emotions). Neku decided on a medical career since the day he helped save a (now) friend's life. He wanted to help people but realized that the job was a lot harder on one's emotional and mental well-being. Unfortunately, you lose as many lives as you save in his profession. In talks with Joshua, Neku remembers another thing he loved to do: sing. He never had time to indulge more in this hobby, thanks to his studies but after Joshua mentions how he's got a nice voice, he begins to experiment with the idea of writing music. We also see the two try to make sense of Joshua's sudden interest in human free will, and thanks to a friend(?) of Joshua's, they locate someone interesting: a fallen Angel. He explains that when an Angel falls from Grace and obtain free will, they become human and receive all the pros and cons that come with it. However, it's not an easy thing for an Angel to do; physically and morally. Also fun fact: fallen angels can see other angels, all the time.

Regardless, Neku starts catching feelings for Joshua and the Angel finds himself mentally struggling to make sense of human attraction. It's like an itch he can never reach, much less scratch. Frustrated and unable to get through Joshua's hard shell (or understand his motives), Neku leaves Shibuya without resolution with Josh.

Joshua is an Angel assigned to Shibuya, and thus unable to leave to look for Neku. The time apart does something to him, and he feels what he believes is loneliness. Or heartache? Whatever it is, the thought of never seeing Neku again is horrifying. He does the unthinkable and Falls. When he wakes up, everything hurts. Hurts. He bleeds, his stomach turns from hunger, his eyes ache and tears stream down his face. But he's...happy. He feels exuberant joy. Joshua travels across the boundaries of his world, exits Shibuya and follows Neku's trail.

Neku answers the door to a rain-soaked, ripped clothing, feet bleeding, wide grin now-human, Joshua. He has little time to process the scene before him, before Joshua word vomits all these new sensations he's been having and confesses his feelings for Neku. How else can Neku respond but with a kiss (now that they can physically touch each other) and they spend the night together.

Neku later explains that he needed some alone time to think, so he cashed in a favor. He left to take a break, but then took the opportunity to make lemonade, so to speak. Neku used a friend's recording studio outside the city to write a song and record it. Upon hearing it, Joshua was brought to tears. It was beautifully melancholic, but hopeful. It suited Neku.

A few days on and the couple is relishing this time together... but disaster inevitably arrives. Neku leaves on a bike to retrieve some groceries, leaving Joshua behind with a "Be right back." Only minutes later does Joshua feel anxiety grip him and he knows something bad has happened. He runs the road that Neku took, finding the young man in the street, having been in a traffic accident. Neku mumbles something about a beautiful light, then dies in Joshua's arms.

The days both drag on and fly by as Joshua tries to now live as a human without the person he wanted to be human with. Despite it all, Neku had met good people and they help Joshua through his turmoil. Eventually, Joshua decides to release Neku's song to the world and it grips anyone who hears it. His life is lost, but his voice will live on and fill his (and others) world with music.

Congrats on making it this far please enjoy this [your favorite donut]

#the art is old #but I still love the idea of this AU #its so dAMN SAD #but also bEAUTIFUL #so let me release this into the world #and maybe someday #someday maybe #I will have more time and reason to draw more for this #because damn I really want an excuse to draw the death scene #and also smoochy kisses #my art #twewy #neo twewy #twewy fanart #twewy AU #twewy City Of Angels AU #COA AU #twewy COA AU #neku sakuraba #joshua kiryu #sanae hanekoma #mr h #hazuki mikagi #joshneku #nekujosh #trans neku #angel #highkey ode to chester bennington rip #one more light #is a dope ass song and was the fuel this AU is running on

[reygunsandreynbows]

am I on my forth relisten of the finale in like 8 hours? maybe

#apparently i hate myself #its so damn sad #juno steel #penumbra podcast #tpp #peter nureyev #junoverse

[soft4gguk]

So three complete years including the time Soori was born till she left for good?

I'm sorry if these questions annoy you I really have a thing to know the details when I read.

And another question, was Koo planning to marry her anytime soon or he was aware of the change in their dynamics? because I remember him saying that he's not been himself for a long time and he's felt unloved and empty. I feel bad for him tho.

please, please, please don't apologise!! I love these type of questions, I can't even begin to explain how much. plus interacting with you guys is genuinely one of my favorite things ever, so ask away!!

to answer your question: yes, three years and a bit. it all unfolded in that amount of time basically. in chapter one, he walks into the living room and sees she'd even left her phone on the coffee table. when he turns it on, there's a picture they'd taken at the beginning stages of their relationship as her wallpaper. he mentions it being taken three years ago!!

jungkook was very much aware of everything that was going on, and he was trying to, well, fight for her and for their family. he became aware of it all since it started happening during the pregnancy, and things just got worse the moment Soo was born basically. he mentions trying, counselling and going on family trips to try and make her happy and back to her old self. he wanted them to bond as a family more than everything, but it wasn't enough. that's why he felt unloved and empty - it was really hard on him, too. being a first time dad and seeing how much he loved soori and how he had this instinctual need to love and protect her, yet she didn't. and of course, this also made her resent him, so they became distant too.

#dude this is so sad lol #I remember writing the first chapters of this story was heartbreaking to me like #its so damn sad #tbah #thank u for reading <3 #and for asking!!!! <33333

[sad-leon]

Transfem Leo go brrrrrrrrrrrr <3

A concept I've had in my head of transfem Leo for a while. She'd always felt a little more feminine than her brothers, but just embraced it. It wasn't like she was too upset about being their brother, but the label never settled right. Until Donnie decides that they need like- full DNA/Genetic evaluations just in case they have some underlying issues just waiting to jump out at them and surprise! Leo is biologically female!

Presenting this information to Leo, Donnie is prepared for a gender crisis, but instead he's greeted by Leo being incredibly excited and happy about this news. Leo tells Donnie that she's never really felt like their brother, but didn't think it was too big of an issue to bring up, but then Donnie gives her this information and she's ready to embrace the sister title with her entire being. Finally, it all makes sense! She's not their brother and she never was!

The gender identity crisis hits later when she has a moment of "I'm not trans, but I am and oh god I don't have a communty-", but for now she confides in her brother her true identity

For a while she decides to go by "Doe" because it's close enough to Leonardo, but when her brothers call her Leo she can tell they say the name with their "brother" in mind, so until they get used to her identity, she just sticks with Doe

I rotate her in my mind constantly alsdjflasdf

Tea made some wonderful art of her Here and Here!!!! I still treasure these very much!!

#sad•leonart #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rise leonardo #rottmnt leonardo #trans leo #trans leonardo #transfem leo #transfem leonardo #i have so many doodles of her here and there #leonardoe #that was her tag right?????? #i think so #doe beloved #had to scroll through discord to find this little comic thing and oh god have i made so many sad leo arts #i know i know its my whole brand but like- damn #i really am the self-proclaimed (and ell-proclaimed... kinda) ceo of sad leons #my whole brand :D *sparkle emoji* #queueing this for in the morning but damn i should really go to sleep aldjfaksjdfl

[bulkhummus]

What I think is particularly heart breaking about this episode, is that Esteban is immortalizing a memory that Cecil doesn’t get to experience. Esteban knows about his grandfather, because he has heard the story several times before according to Abby, in fact they all just heard it. Cecil is experiencing, second hand, remnants of a memory that slides off of him. It refuses to stick.

There is something so poetic to me about Cecil being a reporter, a journalist, an observer, and doing everything to piece together a story from literal scraps of his own life, only to find its already been written for him. The story has already been told. Cecil doesn’t listen to stories, he tells them. I can think of nothing more infuriating than a story being told and not having a satisfying ending, or an ending that makes sense. Nothing within the story justified the ending. And yet we have seen it before throughout the show.

I am reminded of the episode It Doesn’t Hold Up, where Cecil watches the last few minutes of his comfort film Cat Ballou, changed and different. He has seen the same movie over and over and over again, and now the ending is different. In the drawing Esteban drew in 245, there is a shovel stuck into the dirt, and there is a boy climbing into a tree. In the ending of Cat Ballou, there is a man digging into the base of the tree. Just like in the episode It Sticks With You, when Abby, Cecil and their mother journey into the woods, and Cecil climbs into a tree over and over and over again until he can no longer remember the outing with his husband and son. Just like in Cassettes, when a young Cecil’s story is cut short, in an ending that Cecil refuses to listen to, immortalized on tape.

Just like in Liminal Spaces, when Cecil enters a space that is neither here nor there and is haunted by someone who tells him that he wants Cecil to remember. The very face that Cecil saw in Cat Ballou in It Doesn’t Hold Up. In fact, he tells Cecil he has no choice, before once again, he is pulled from the story.

Cecil’s whole life is one long interrupted narrative. It’s as if he is an old cassette that isn’t rewound all the way before pulled out of the slot and put back on a shelf. The next person to listen to the tape, unknowing, doesn’t realize where they’re starting off is not the beginning. There are things missing. Cecil has gotten so good at forgetting (and justifiably so) — has forgotten how to stop. He’s recording over the same tape over and over again until the tape inside is no longer coherent. I’m thinking, of the sound of a cassette being rewound, and how it could sound very much like how Cecil is often describing owl sounds.

So, how disquieting, to have your own family stare back at you, privy to information about yourself that you do not get to have. Cecil is there, quite literally, to construct a story for his town, but who is there to construct a story for him? A man you used to hate? A sister you aren’t sure you even like? A husband who you have forgotten before? Children who see and hear more than you realize? The listener?

No. Instead he will sit until dawn comes, and be made a fool out of trying to create a story, maybe even a better one, out of scraps of memories.

#my baby girl is in denial okay and thats ok #i think its normal and healthy and good #im having so many thoughts my nbrain is moving a mile a minute #and like this was NOT coherent bc theres so much i want to talk anout but #damn how fucking sad this episode was im onsessed #i lvoe when cecils going through it #it doesnt hold up #Casette #It Sticks with You #Bedtime Story #cat ballou #liminal spaces #go to the mirror #wtnv #welcome to night vale #cecil palmer #wtnv spoilers

[ddeck]

cause of death: thought about commander cody a bit too hard

#urrgghghhhh #its just that everything about him is so damn sad in a very bittersweet kind of way #like look at this guy. look at him. he is so nice and compassionate and always ready to help and also dead from the very start #he is doomed not even because of order 66 but because he is a clone and he was made to die for the republic or with it #and everyone knows it. he knows it #he is standing right there and you know he is going to die #and then he does no matter canon or legends whatever that is left of him after order 66 is just a husk of a person he never even got to be #do you ever think about how every emotional scene including cody is just him grieving over someone #whatever :(

[m00ngbin]

ITS TFS TUESDAY. BITCH. sorry

Chapter 26!!!! The last chapter in act two!!!! (ARUAGJRRGAJEH)

Oh the original thing the 2nd image is from is the Tome (reigen) manga where ONE is advertising the mp100 stageplay btw

One of the top contenders for my favorite page and it's not even canon to the story or anything

#wednesday #its wednesday #ill be so honest with you i was going to wait until later/tomorrow bc i have been doing nothing but exam stuff all day #but ykw #i love tfs #this is not work #this is probably going to be the most fun i have all week #THATS NOT SAD I LOVE THE FORGOTTEN SON ITS ALWAYS THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY WEEK #AKRISGDKTJSKDJ tfs :3 #giggling and dying im so excited #those damn sons... #its just...... so sad..............

[bl00doodle]

DOODELS

#my art #tryignt o do sm shit help i wanma draw and finish things so baddd #the brown sketches r me crying @ the phrase 'to be loved is to be changed' i wanna make a sad emo angsty comic abt shadows loss and pain an #still endong up with a happy life bc. 🧍‍♂️ fuck i want that for myself too #THE 2NDD... MY SKY PIRATE GRANDMA MARIA AU 🫶🫶🫶🫶 basically shes super inspired by dola from castle in thsky lol #shes putting makeup on shad bc hes going on his first date ever.... #in his 50yr immortal ish ageless life hes going on a date and maria will damn sure make sure hes gonna have a nice one #ehehehe guess whos hes going on a date w....👁👁(obvious) #uhhhh the cat is just older blaze leik burnin blaze inspired by her concept art #one of her hair styles is like fire and im like. thats fuckin cool!! #sHE GETS STRIPED AND GETS FWUFFY WHEN SHES OLDER bc i think its kyut 🫶 #makes her related to big the cat ehehehe alt dimension shit or smhtn idk im not thinking anymore #oh fuck i forgot to tag the charas #sonic the hedgehog #maria robotnik #eggman #shadow the hedgehog #blaze the cat #amy rose #sonic chao #uhhh it uink thqts it #sowowiwjekwo #sowwy its a mess

[triona-tribblescore]

Are you taking a break from AU: (Yo-ho-ho) A Ninjas me?

Can’t wait to get more of your art work 😁🐢🏴‍☠️

HELLO! :D

I kind of answered this one a while back here

but in short, im taking a little one from it atm, that and most of my rise stuff.

To be totally honest I've just really not liked how I've been drawing the boys for a while, it just looks a little ugly, and I wanted to try get better (that and I've being having brainrot in another fandom atm) but i FULLY intend on hopping back into my au's at the end of April when I'm finished college. I miss them sm and I have SOOOOOO MANY IDEASSS!! UGH!! ANLFM is gonna be so fun :D

Sorry for the sudden disappearance of it tho, not long left till more uvu <3

#UGHHH I JUST WANNA DRAW THEM SUPER COOL AND PRETTY LIKE OTHER PEOPLE #ik you should never compare but its so fukin hard when my moots are literally the most incredible artists out there #its been making me super inactive on tumblr cause of it #BUT I PROMISE. ILL HOP RIGHT BACK IN SOON #SADNESS BE DAMNED!! #sending hugs :'D #<333 #asks #anlfm #a ninjas life for me #tribbletalks

[wildstar25]

MiqoMarch Day 23 - Midnight

With their intended voyage into the void only a few days out, Arsay thought it the upmost importance that she steal her partner away to Kugane, that they might share one more fond memory together should things not turn out the way they plan in the thirteenth. It was as they crossed the very same bridge the miqo'te had once sat on together two years prior when Arsay gifted Y'shtola with a bracelet matching that of her own. A token of endearment which, Arsay confessed, she would have given to her fellow scion back then, had nerves not gotten the best of her. While their relationship has undoubtedly changed since the initial purchase of the jewellery, the sentiment remained the same. Y'shtola was someone who Arsay loved dearly and she will forever be grateful to have the seeker's life intertwined with her own. No matter where their free spirits took them, they would always hold each other in their hearts. A promise Y'shtola was more than willing to keep. She slipped the the string of beads around her wrist without a second thought. They were never to come off, not even when the two decided to delay their return to Radz-at-Han in favour of a private bath at the dead of night.

#miqomarch #miqomarch 2024 #ffxiv #y'shtola rhul #y'shtola x wol #wolshtola #Arsay Nun #WOL posting #arsay nun lore #arshtola #thanks to nhaneh for the body mod #i had to do some insane fov to get the moon and them in the same shot so sorry for the distortion #forcing arshtola lore into this prompt since idk when Ill ever get around to gposing the actual scene #this is between 6.1 and 6.2! #endwalker patch spoilers #i had the idea that arsay bought the Dai-ryumyaku bracelets from a vendor between 4.3 n 4.4 when shtola is off to the doman enclave #and arsay is like hey wait you should let me show you around kugane on the way over! #a fun friend date that ends with shtola finally accepting she has a crush on arsay and its terminal #and arsay having a single moment where she starts reflecting on feelings & thinks maybe she missed hanging out w/shtola more than she shoul #only to quickly butt that idea out of her head and continue being super normal #arsay notices these matching bracelets with red and purple string and shes like oh they are so cute and they look like #they belong in a pair it would be so sad if they were ever split up unexpectedly #i know ill buy them and give one to shtola wouldnt that be fun! #so she does that and then cant bring herself to give yshtola the damn thing because she starts second guessing herself #so arsay stashes the bracelets away and she started wearing hers later under her glove #fast forward to two years later and arsay finds the other one in one of her bags #and now shes dating yshtola and they are about to go somewhere super dangerous #what better time to tell your gf how much they have always meant to you #and what better way to do it than with a gift and some words spoken from the heart? #it was a little unconventional since arsay didnt really have marriage on the mind but it was a proposal in a sense

[bonetrousledbones]

i think. i want to focus on the idea of roaring knight papyrus where he knows exactly what the roaring entails

#trousled rambles #MAYBE spoiling my papyrus says fuck idea i havent decided if i have the spoons yet or not #but. maybe just maybe i deserve an antagonist papyrus who knows damn well what he's doing #maybe he wants to be pals with the roaring titans huh ever think of that #or maybe he just thinks dark worlds in general are Better and even if darkners all turn to stone in the roaring- #-the light world will then become its own dark world #and well . wouldnt that be nice for a social recluse like him? #he already lives in darkness in his house so it cant be that bad #OR hell maybe he's feelin bitter and he wants everyone else to be lonely and sad too #he didnt actually get a whole lot of genuine development in undertale ok i want him to SHOW why he thinks anyone can change so firmly #i want him to know from experience ok. alright

[wehearthewildernessandithearsus]

The way they closed Nat's arc though. Every time she's tried to save the people she loved she was too late. She felt every single one of those deaths on her. She was tired of people dying for her/because of her.

She was the Queen, their guide, the provider and she was never able to save them in time. Then there's Lisa, who she probably sees herself in about to be killed by one of the Yellowjackets. The cycle's about to repeat: someone's about to die for her once again. So Nat does what she was always supposed to do. She was meant to die that day but she hadn't. People kept dying in her stead. She had to stop it.

It was never about overcoming her pain, it was about accepting that death was always her destiny. It was about finally being able to save someone for a change.

#natalie scatorccio #yellowjackets spoilers #yellowjackets #yellowjackets showtime #this show damn it #it's so good #i am so sad she died #but it was perfect in its own way #i'm going to miss her so much #i wanted lottienat to happen #am I sad she died? absolutely. am I surprised? not at all #but fuuuuck

[ganondoodle]

im listening to some zelda music compilations again and i gotta say 2 things

damn does the hyrule warriors, aoc included, line have some bangers or what

and damn, if you ignore the absolut blast i was having fighting koga, does totks music on its own make me feel things the game never did, like i dont wanna sound like i keep hating on it but man the music is SO GOOD in ways the game didnt deliver on and when i hear it i just kinda drift off into what id imagine the game being like with music like this and then be sad about the real one like the trailer music alone is just GOD what it made me think theyd dare do with the story after turning what was largely considered THE zelda gameplay so on its head, now surely totks gonna be daring in terms of story, its the most logical progressio-

oh :(

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #music gets to me on a level that no picture can #like when i hear the music i tear up!!!! #and yet the only times i got teary eyed when playing the game was whenever i fought koga bc i was so ecstatic to have him back #and the cutscene were gan does THAT face bc i laughed so hard about it i half cried #sorry gan #the cutscene before didnt phase me bc the story didnt hook me at all and i knew sonia was the dead wife trope #but i didnt expect that face from him and im pretty sure i burst out laughing despite trying my best to stay silent during cutscenes #anyway the music makes me mad bc its so good #some themes even have a distinct joe hisaishi feel to it and that on top of the ghibli aesthetic they borrowed from #but none of the good storytelling makes me so god damn frustrated sad #i fear the next game ngl

[biteinsane]

Finally got done this redraw/painting of my favorite panel from Trigun!

Watercolor of trimax vol 1, chapter 1. Been my favorite since I was a kid and still is!

(Maybe we'll see it for a 3rd time in Stampede!)

#trigun maximum #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #trigun eriks #skecthes #fanart #I could go on a whole thing of why this was my fav as a kid and now #i think even then I knew this was the moment that vash knew could not be eriks anymore #and its so damn sad

[scopophobia-polaris]

Honestly could we throw out the idea that totk's story issue is that it isn't consistent with the lore of the older games but instead drops intresting world building from botw because it might have gotten actually dark

#seriously eveeyone keeps up bring up the triforce not being the same like the older games instead of HEY why DOES the royal family just..... #have it #like all of it #and was the sheikah tech from the last game that functions the same was as light arrows/the biden blast was uh #how do i put this #how did they weaponize lightmagic in robots and does this all tie in with the “banishment” thing #or idk dropped point from botw zelda's fucking chracter arc #i know it ended with LOOOK!!!! YOU FUCKED UP BY DOING WHAT YOU THOUGHT WAS RIGHT #But damn they could of just not done that shit in totk making her just the #what was jt #idk man they just keep taking away her agency #man and it sucks cuz the dragon is so cool but mf shes forced to do it what she gonna do stay in the past and DIE? #idk man it just all feels hasty. makes me sad #and it sucks cuz a lot of shit shit is really cool and intresting but man idk i may become a botw zelda deserved a better weiter for her #becuase girl she needs a break. not saying chracters cant go through hardship #but there is something so nasty about the framing of youll never be anything but eveey past princess zelda trope and nothing more #instead of a crystal she turns into a dragon like guys this is the same as skyward sword but idk man is it werd to say #when Hylia does it aginst a thing that wants to steal the god triangles and is also a god its like yeah you had no other choice #how the fuck did one fuckass stone make ganondorf into a god like being you would think that like #mannwhy are the stones THAT powerful and why werent the other bitches able to take them down what because #did #did rauru give sonia the equivalent of the one ring at their wedding hey wait a fuck #sorry for all my spelling mistakes but what the fuck man

[u5an5]

I know ultimate sacrifice is dying in fight for what matters the most and in 100% cases it was reversed by kissing headcanon is strong, but what if your existence was erased from the universe and only I remember about you now instead, huh?

#the fact that 100% cases is a one game is irrelevant #so far rule was simple: hedgehog has to be kissed to be deadn't #sonic the hedgehog #sonic prime season 3 #shadow the hedgehog #i know that making potentialy at least several episodes if not a whole season without titular character is unlikely but what if? #it seems to be year of Shadow so its more likely than ever #sonadow #the “i heart you too”/“you must hate having to admit you need me” callback potential is too good #its not even as much about shipping as hoping for it to be meanigful in any way #i just want it to be more than everyone being sad and constantly saying how amazing he was and how they miss him #& brooding shadow grudgingly working with nine/anyone else because they forced him to and them winning because of power of friendship #and shoving a chaos emerald up sonics ass and everything going back to how it was #i want character development for shadow too damn it! #i want him to make some sort of a sacrifice too #i want him to fight for it. i want him to struggle without sonic. i want him to regret. i want him to go trough 5 stages of grief. #i! want! him! to! FEEL!!! #and what i DEFINITELY dont want is '06v2 #which potentialy can be the case but with “everything is back to normal as if it never happened but i remember Everything” instead #(hopefuly cause if theyre gonna retcon themseves again i swear im gonna give birth of cacti out of my ass) #sonic prime #sonic prime s3 #sth #in this concept sonic goes away somewhere in the first episode/somewhere early in s3 btw #and other ppl will remember sonic in some way at some point or at least help shadow cause lets be honest he needs all the help he can get #but make it gradual and more like a snyder sized movie than a tvshow