#jump before we fall

[redwinterroses]

Oh gosh I already have Such Thoughts around Loremaster Pix and I haven't even checked the tag to see what other people are saying yet but hang on gotta braindump--

His whole intro was about the old gods and titans dying and creating this world, their blood and bones becoming the civilizations that followed, which in turn fell and left their ruins to be the foundations of empires to follow. (Story nerd bit: so that means, I think, we are at least in the "third age" of this world: the gods and titans, then the ancients, and now the empires.)

But how does he know these things, unless he was there?

What if Pix is, as he said he wants to be, less a character and more a... a force, if you will. He is the past. He's a forgotten titan, a diminished god, a spirit of time and memory. A lorekeeper, a storyteller, a secret-holder... More and yet less than an emperor, less and yet more than a player in the tale. Maybe he doesn't remember it all -- diminishing can be hard on an immortal. But he remembers enough, enough to tell the story of the world and lead the current inhabitants to uncover the histories of their own lands.

And if I maybe headcanon that the Ancients were Empires s1, and this keeper of ancient stories could be a certain lost and forgotten desert king who vanished when his diminished immortality came sparking to hesitant life... you can't stop me.

#empires s2 #empires smp #empires spoilers #pixlriffs #current headcanon until canon contradicts me: #the Copper King was so intrigued by the concepts of death and rebirth because he was a diminished immortal who didn't remember his own past #the encounters with Xornoth and Aeor and the rest triggered lost memories and he became overwhelmed by the knowledge #fleeing into the desert he's spent the last few centuries slowly coming to grips with his own immortality and the ragged scraps of memories #and now new empires have begun to rise and he looks at them with both the distant fascination of an immortal #someone who has seen these things rise and fall before and will again #and also with the eerie sense that he's seen these SPECIFIC empires #in another time and another guise #the familiarity amongst the strange has drawn him out of his solitude and he rejoins the world of mortals #this time quietly aware that he is Not One Of Them... and yet he might be when he allows himself to pretend #a way for me to keep my copper king and make the storyline one big cohesive thread? yes. shush. you can't take this from me #well. pix can but I'm a fangirl and we thrive on jumping the hoops of Making It Work lol #the empire of the past

[new-york-no-shoes]

Things that STILL haunt me: “this is a song about how terrible being famous is”

#taylor swift #the eras tour #eras tour #like holy shit I can’t stop thinking about it #I also can’t stop thinking about how she played jump then fall after the breakup but before we knew and we all were like awww she’s in love #love and then BAM turns out it was just a safe fun fearless bop that she was trying not to connect to #the lucky one #red #red taylor’s version #surprise songs

[fidgetspringer]

Today we learned not to trust ice bridges.

#he was looking at it before i came over so i figured he had it under control #nope #just fucken trotted right onto it #i rarely help him or intervene when we come upon new terrain #he always recovers well when he messes up and he learns best on his own in situations like these #the only thing i help him with are big steep drops #he knows to wait for me to grab the back of his harness to break his fall before he jumps off #but aside from from that i always just let him figure things out on his own #and because of that he's become a very clever and confident hiker even in difficult terrain #i just unclip him from my belt and let him use his brain unimpeded #and usually he handles himself really well

[query-quadrant]

I've had a pitch crush on someone for a while! I really hate them! >:)

But one of our hatefriends just told me they might be pale for me? >:O

If they are, what do I do??? How do I make them hate me properly? :(

I don't pity them! I don't even know why they pity me! Or if they even really do! :?

It's really confusing and I don't want to have to reject them and then have to try and ask them out! That's not gonna go well!!! >:(

yeah i dont know that sounds awful i think personally id just die

questionable advice: either try upping the annoyingness and going all out with pitch flirting or just sit them down and just actually ask them if they pity you or not maybe youll get lucky and they dont but either way at least youll know right so that sucks a little less than not knowing

bad advice: kill their lusus maybe thatll make them really mad at you

#pitch stuff #asks #this sounds like a mess idk good luck #this is not very thumbs up emoji #the friend who told you might definitely be fucking with you though anyway #if we go big conspiracy theorist style i have friends who would totally do that on purpose to embarrass me #and try and get the other guy to make fun of me for asking such a stupid question #to see if they can get pitch shit started between me and my crush #but maybe your friends are less insane #actually you should have mentioned that before sending this ask #whats the normalness level of your friends #on a scale from my friends to creepily normal #where do they fall #my little hoofbeast style or absolutely would play 10d chess for literally no reason #this is way too many tags lmfao no ones gonna read this #i just got into it i guess #plus no way am i gonna move this to the post itself now after this #i opened this can of sharks now i gotta jump it #hey if anyone would read all of these tags itd be grey actually right #hi grey <3< #whats up hows it going

[zo1nkss]

I finished the episodes at a snail pace because I can't do anything at normal human speed and here are my brief thoughts post-binge:

ep1 > Honestly terrified me. I love seeing Ed in his evil era but I hated watching all my beloved crew suffer for it.

Will say I'm so fucking excited about Archie. Not sure I feed into the "TealOranges breakup" it honestly feels more like an open type thing. Like there aren't a lot of expectations idk. That's just my interpenetration of what we've got so far tho!

ep2 > Truly so much happened this episode that it's hard to condense my feelings into something digestible. Like I do feel bad for Izzy, but he's right in ep3 when he says he and Stede caused this and I think that's about where I stand on things. I do think he fucked around too close to the sun and now he's finding out how hot it can burn, but it still sucked to see Ed acting that way no matter who was getting the short end of the stick. I don't want to preemptively invent discourse that doesn't exist but I'm nervous about how yt ppl will react. Going to enjoy Ed getting to be a villain for five minutes tho because he rlly got his moment to be an absolute royal fucking bitch about a breakup. He got the rampage montage and that's awesome rock on man.

ep3 > what can I say? HANDS. MERMAID STEDE. Stede literally called Ed back from death. He literally led him back and Ed chose life because Stede was waiting for him. Stede wanted him around. I'm so not okay rn.

#Void Rambles #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2e1 #ofmd s2e2 #ofmd s2e3 #they're right that WAS the corniest reunion episode I've ever fucking seen #I hope it was scrumptions for that one rando reviewer who has 0 taste #we never get mainstream corny romcoms #also #the slapstick vibes were so intense #the way Stede jumped over board then flapped his arms in the air before falling #Ed's montage of killing Hornigold who turned out to be himself #Stede killing Izzy in his fantasy dream and then getting farted on #everything everything everything #lucius' uber dramatic survival story #becoming a human puppet (ugh poor Luci) #so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so many emotions #Jim x Archie true real #I'm rooting for polyamory my fingers are crossed so hard

[imminent-danger-came]

Crying and shaking knowing that an MK V Sun Wukong fight is in the cards for us

#mark my fucking words #it's going to happen #we have had 4 seasons of resentment and miscommunication building up I am fucking READY #MK is just going to SNAP. Wukong is going to go entirely on the defensive #Which won't be good because MK is fucking crazy strong rn #MK was ready to fight Monkey King in Shadow Play. And that was only s2 like #The truth of MK's origins are going to come out and it's going to fall apart from there #Then we'll get Samadhi fire Mei *jumps* TWO but with MK chewing Sun Wukong out #''Your whole legacy is about you being impulsive and dodging responsibility!'' haha interesting. #Like how he left sweet baby MK with pigsy. Alright. #Like he loves monkey king obviously and they'll work it out but not before you know. Shit goes DOWN. #not before MK snaps #''How could you not tell me about what I am?'' #And then Wukong is going to get through to MK like MK got through to Mei. Or honestly maybe Mei shows up and saves Wukong's ass #Ready for this fight to parallel the 1x07 and Revenge of the Spider Queen spars as well as Ink MK V MK in 4x07 #Like it's all set up for us guys it's going to be so bad #lmk #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #imp tag #lmk rant

[blizzardfluffykpop]

You sent me an ask so I shall return the favor! What is the most recent Kpop group you’ve gotten into and how did you find out about them? I always love hearing fan “origin stories” lol

Thank you for returning the favor~ That would be The Boyz 🥰💖 I love hearing fan "origin stories" too hehe (This is gonna get long I love them sm)

Anyways I've known about them since debut? I loved Bloom Bloom Pow with my whole heart when it came out and tried to fall for them then- It didn't work. The next time was when The Stealer (TS) came out~ I had watched them perform for Road to Kingdom- because ptg was on the show too- But I really loved TS cb- sm so that I bought the album about 6 mos later with my favorite members as inclusions at the time (Eric, Kevin and Hyunjae). But nothing came about of it even after watching the weekly idol episodes... Then came Whisper era and I ended up biasing Changmin (Q) and loving that song but again nothing came out of it.

(A little backstory is that Changkyun (I.M) got me into Dominic Fike's music-) Thus, when tiktok showed me Juyeon, Changmin, and Sunwoo dancing to Babydoll earlier this year as a dance cover: I fell. And then I finally checked out Watch It~ But Hui had his solo and it distracted me completely from falling further. Then I had gotten sick and decided 'well, what if I watch their content?' And I did... I watched their hello82 interview and their reaction to fanart of them, and lastly their mafia dance. And I loved each sm that I decided to check out more.

It was the first time I had watched their content and wanted to see more. And now, I watch their content almost daily. It's kind of like they revived the joy of kpop for me? My (old) ult of ults has been on hiatus due to the military so it's been stagnant content lately for me. But then they came in like a breath of fresh air- and I simply can't get enough. This month will be 3 mos and I honestly hope I'll follow them for a long time. (I think they're my new ult of ults tbh)

And lastly now here I am as a Younghoon and Juyeon bias (with bias wrecker: Changmin... he's doing everything to be bias again). And with them having a comeback I loved with my whole heart this past month, I think it really solidified them with me. Honestly, I'm so happy with them.

#my 'fan origin story' hehe #lovely mutuals #asks #kate rambles from here #i even started a new kpop journal just dedicated to them and my thoughts- it's a 200 page journal and i have nearly 50 pages about them #and i started it in february ebhbha- #it's so funny because i saw one of my ults' concerts in theater the month before they should have became the ult of ults and here tbz comes #if the theory is true that you fall in love with certain people/groups/things at certain time then that means even when #i wanted to fall in love with them- that i had to wait until now to fall for them even if i wanted to fast forward it- i think now is a #perfect time- it's when i need them most i think- and fuck i could go on about them forever and why they mean sm to me in such little #time but oh how i love these guys- #no seriously everything i wish they could do- i find out they've done or will do- or for like pcs i like them a certain way and by golly #does yh do my favorite poses- and their music is just ?!?! i love it sm- ofc i've listened to them before a lot but ?? it's my speed rn #kate rambles #did i drag my close friend into them too? yes- yes I did- but she had full free will- she could have stayed on the happy mbb boat instead #of jumping into the water and swimming to lip gloss island with me- but alas she didn't so it's even more fun cause i get to be a new #deobi with her- and it's literally the best experiance i could have ever asked for- she prolly won't see these (i'm banking on it) and #honestly i'm so thankful for her- for joining me in this 'insanity' we've gotten ourselves into- i'm glad we were both stolen from our mbb #home together- it's sm fun to talk about tbz with her- because she's experiencing them new just like i am- i could go on here too #but i won't- so i'll stop here- i love these boyz sm tbh (every time i say it even if it's a lot- it doesn't feel enough)

[age-of-moonknight]

“Death and Birth: Part 2 of 5,” Moon Knight (Vol. 8/2016), #11.

Writer: Jeff Lemire; Penciler and Inker: Greg Smallwood; Colorist: Jordie Bellaire; Letterer: Cory Petit

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Moon Knight vol. 8 #Moon Knight 2016 #Moon Knight comics #Moon Knight #Marc Spector #Khonshu #I have…a LOT to say here (I apologize in advance) #first this is another marked departure from established canon that I don’t mind #with the degree of DID that Mr. Lemire is depicting here it would make sense that Marc would never reach sergeant and punch out an officer #(as that was a character background still very much driven by Marc moving on from a life marked by violence) #and I assume Marc never reached Marine SF (either MARSOC or probably DET One at this point in history) in this continuity #because a marine needs to be /at least/ a lance corporal before the corps starts sending you to diving school/jump school/ #investing that sort of money into you/etc. #ok now this is where I REALLY start extrapolating Too Much from what’s probably a throw away line #we can’t tell what division/MOS Marc’s in (I respect not getting confused by USMC patches by simply not drawing them haha) #But Fallujah in the fall??? you mean as in??? Fallujah in November 2004? The Second Battle of Fallujah/Operation Al-Fajr/Phantom Fury??? #The battle that where marked the shift from US personnel fighting Ba’athist loyalists to insurgents like AQI? under /al-Zarqawi/???!? #THE bloodiest urban combat conflict Marines had seen since the Vietnam War? #the conflict that of the handful of Operation Al-Fajr/Phantom Fury veterans I’ve spoken/worked with has left an indelible mark #of some of the most haunting crap I’ve heard? #and the region I’m pretty sure still suffers from the use of white phosphorus/depleted uranium/displaced persons #disclaimer: btw I’m just someone on the internet so please take whatever I say with a grain of salt; I’m just extrapolating from some of #the points of reference from my own life 😅 do what you will with this absolute wall of tags

[deancoded-deangirl]

hello can nick and i get married yet just asking for a friend

#he's the weirdest dude but he's so fucking patient with me #i need someone patient and stable to ride the emotional waves with me until i get better at self regulating #so far i'm getting really good at telling him that i need a minute or i'm going to be mean and passive aggressive #so then he gives me a minute and i regroup and then can speak rationally #which is GREAT for me who was once so brutally cruel instinctively #anyway by patient and stable i didn't mean he's my punching bag #i just meant that he doesn't match my extreme emotions (he will match excitement and happiness) and thus provides a baseline #like he stays steady so when i'm upset or mad he'll ask why and i break it down and by the time it's broken down i'm like... okay #so there was no reason to be upset #and we talk about impact vs intent all the time like sometimes he a lil weird in talking so it comes off bad #but yeah he's just really stable and so it's easy to bring myself back if no one is hyping me up #and whenever i'm irritated with him i'll still call his ass and put myself on mute and fall asleep with him on the phone #he's very good at calling me out too (he's also great at taking accountability if he does something) #like one time he showed me a video and i only watched a sec before jumping down his throat #and he called me out and i apologized and redirected and all #one time he had an attitude (when I was upset) and i was like dude what's with the tone #he's also good at like... idk what to call it #but he told me during one of those times when i was upset that it wasn't fair to him to say no but then expect him to do it anyway #because how was he supposed to know when to listen to me and when to not? it was a no win for him and it wasn't fair #and you know what? he was so correct and true for it #i apologized for that too #anyway. when can i marry him. #nick

[lavenoon]

What are some activities Sun/Dawn and Y/N would do outside of work? Like would Sun bring Y/N to a random community event/festival because he thought it'd be fun? or are they more likely to just stick at home and do things?

Well, with Sun's creative hobby reignited, he would love to stroll through all sorts of street markets! Second-hand items, trinkets, yarn and wooden goods, and for his human company, of course food and drink! They're lively, but perfect to take at your own pace, and he loves the domesticity of looking at silly items together and buying either crafting material or homemade things by other people! (He's a haggling fiend, and covers it up with his charm). He also loves the thought of buying things for Y/N - the thought of providing for them makes him happy, especially if they are happy, too!

Y/N, in true thrill seeker fashion, may not invite Sun to parkour (at least not pre-reveal), but if he showed interest in doing something with them, they might just suggest something like a climbing park! Indoors or outdoors, depending on the season/ weather, but some place where they might just get to show off a little without being all too obvious about their talent that landed them their job! (They have to bite their tongue a bit about all the safety precautions, but they'll do what they have to do to keep their cover).

Pre-reveal, they're both a bit cagey about inviting the other into their place - they try to hide anything that would give away their identity upstairs, but the tension would be there anyways. Post-reveal, they might actually work on gadgets and projects together, sharing tips and tricks in the weirdest variation of domesticity, casual "Oh hey actually, if you do this, the flash grenade will be even brighter" or "Actually, I have buttons that look extremely similar to your button camera, if you want it to be less obvious" as they share tools and a workbench.

And yes, they might also go to festivals! Sun for the adjacent markets and the thought of getting to buy food for Y/N, Y/N for the adrenaline rush of the fast attractions (those pirate ships from hell are their favorite).

#answer let luce #anonymous #fnaf sb #fnaf sb au #fnaf sun #accidentally undercover #god I hope street market is the right term lmao #all of the words I know are some sort of 'we made up a term for our market so it's recognizable' or stuff like 'fall market' #you know the deal tho. little shops; it's there for a couple days to a week before packing up again; all sorts of stuff to find #Y/N continues to be a little freak (affectionate) #I love parkour in theory but cannot watch vids of people jumping around esp not in first person #terrifies me #thank you for your question! this was fun to think about hehe

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

oh my god everything makes sense now

#ive had so much troubke sleeping for the last like. 3 weeks. like i havent been getting more than 4 hrs of sleep most nights #and its SUCKED so bad and ive had the worst dreams ever like #its either mind empty blank 0 dreams whatsoever (<< which ive learned also sucks! feels bad and empty in the morning) #or like..trauma nightmares. like im back in high school type nightmares. and a few work stress dreams sprinked in for flavor #lkke this has been. An Issue. #I JUST FIGURED OUT WHY. AND I FEEL SO STUPID #ITS BECAUSE I DONT HAVE LOKI LIVING WITH ME ANYMORE. #im at my parents house for the weekend and . got here at like 8pm last night. #laid on the couch. loki jumped up on thr couch with me to cuddle #and ive always said hes so good at this bc hes warm and he lays on top of me so hes like a weighted blanket #and i cant move my arms to look at my phone or anything so its SO easy to fall asleep w loki cuddles #AT 9PM I FELL ASLEEP. i havent gone to sleep before midnight in like 2 months. #and when i had 2 get up to move to the guest bed he followed me. #and i just woke up from a nightmare and he was on the other side of the bed so i reached my hand out 2 pet him #and he laid his little chin on my hand and oh my god everything makes so much sense now. #ive always kind of half joked abt loki being an esa. because im like. he is. but not officially #hes never been trained for it and we dont have like. documentation for it bc ive never been officially diagnosed for anything (hell world) #so i feel bad calling him that bc it feels like im. disrespecting people that Actually Need esas #(<< coming from.a guy who Actually Needs An ESA Apparently.) what the fuck #head in hands. everything makes so much sense now #and normally id go all science brain on this like oh it was just one night iwas probably just too tired i need more evidence to be sure #but like. i have loterally not slept this well in a month and a half. #I have not gonento sleep before midnight in AT.LEAST the last two weeks. CONSISTENTLY . #head in habds.

[imblocking-you]

Watching Death's Game because I like suffering 👍

#death's game #netflix #// maple #ion wanna kin bro but i feel like im headed there #'do you travel to the afterlife on a plane?' BYE #SIWON? i forgot the cast is like stacked lmao #feels like a world hopping novel i like it #talk about karma T T also i didnt expect how graphic it was BYE #THIS FALLJNG GUY BYE LMFAO #and he reverts back to the teenage form when the stronger opponent arrives #GOD THE GUILT #yung bulgogi sa spoon :(( wala na iyak na ko guys talo mga may single parents talo mga walang nanay hahahahaha #after death told him that he's only thinking ab himself oh this life is purposeful UN HUH #but we know it's doomed to fail kasi nga second ep pa lang BUT MAN i hope something changes... #'everything is fine yee jae' it is it truly is the fact the mom was calling him before he jumped oh you just know she was ready to tell him #exactly that OH this breaks my heart #choking and holding back tears while eating FELT #NO NO *bunches up hair* I WONT FALL FOR IT THIS IS JUST A PLOY TO GET ME ATTACHED TO THE CHARACTER BEFORE YOU INEVITABLY KILL THEM #Lee Ju Hun HAHHAHAHAHA LARO #tinago niya 'yung pera para next life makukuha niya gagi pangmalakasang ungkatan ng past 'to LMAO #why does this one prisoner dude look like sohee #BYE WHAT IF IT'S JINSANG WEBTOONS TEND TO DO THAT #HELP I KNEW WE'RE TYING UP LOOSE ENDS HAHAHAHAHA #I just know taekang other son is tied up in all of this too #gagi part 1 pa lang pala yata 'yung drama na 'to mapapabasa ko ng wentoon ng 'di oras #jinsang you overgrown chuuni 😭 #i feel great for getting jinsang beat up but like we all taesang is dying so...i wouldnt be so comfy if i were u lol #OOH THAT NAME DROP FELT SO GOOD AVENGE HIM BROTHER THATS RIGHT #yall him being given the chance to print shit and he immediately goes to grimes core is obviously a sign that he's pretending to be a psych #NAURR the vendetta just ruins it

[theinfinitedivides]

I WAS F*CKING RIGHT

#tv: death's game #death's game #seo in guk #park so dam #kim ji hoon #lee do hyun #kdrama #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #THERE ARE SPOILERS IN THE TAGS. do not read the next few f*cking tags if you do not want to get spoiled #so. you're telling me Yi Jae jumped bc of you. you killed your younger brother for the CEO position. daredevil died bc you #promised him a f*ckton of money. the fixer you hired to f*ck with said younger brother's plane dies at his girlfriend's hands. #you killed a young girl with your drunk driving and made the MMA hopeful take the fall. you paid his prison buddy off to kill him after #he said he wouldn't take your money bc he'd had a change of heart. then you ran the model and his original girlfriend over #while most likely drunk again and THEN suffocated him to death #and the only reason we know this is 1. intuition and 2. Yi Jae getting flashbacks before 3. he dies as Geon Woo. #also Yi Jae didn't hit anyone when he died the bodies were from this 7th life that just ended. my God #him and that damned lighter. Ji Hoon i can smell you and your roles from a mile and a half away i knew it bitch!!!!!!!!

[witchwhaat]

gonna watch men sp, bc what the hell happened there🤨

#not the whole thing bc i'm falling asleep lol #BUT. some of them👀 takeru let's goooo #whoaaa what's that crazy camera work hello?? #okay slay! okay that was nice! and clean!! yooo i don't think i've seen him before? or maybe like once? but he's niceee!! congrats boy! #ummm okay selah is an interesting music choice. dude. #moving onnnn. NOT SOUND OF SILENCE RIGHT AFTER SELAH COME ON #we need to ban sound of silence i'm tired #i really need to make that let's ban songs from fs poll vol 2 💀 #BOYANG TIME!!!! LET'S GO BESTIE!!!! #keeping my fingers crossed as if i'm watching it live aldkhdjajd #HE WAS NEARLY CLEAN OMG YEEEES!!!💗 BOYANG I'M SO HAPPY #koshiro time!! oh god he's a week after injury ;-; oh he's not doing bad tho! i did not see that first jump not at all #WE LOVE A BALL OF SUNSHINE💛 10 BONUS POINTS FOR BEING A BALL OF SUNSHINE #i love seeing stephane's reactions btw alsjxjakxjd #okay now let's see wtf happened in the second group🤨 #Yuma!!! LET'S FUCKING GOOO HE'S SLAYING #oh was not expecting that believer remix i always forget they usually take remixes alsjdhsjdjdj EVERY SINGLE TIME #OH HE'S ON FIRE!!! YUMA THAT WAS SO GOOD HELL YEAH #ADAM TIME LET'S GO ADAM #HE'S SLAYING AS EXPECTED!! NOT ONLY CLEAN BUT SO GOOD TOO👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 #okay let's see ilia🙄 #ummm yeah that's fucking bullshit :))))) #looove to see how judges are definitely not biased towards him nooo not at all #naaaah are you fucking kidding me #that is way overscored fuck this #agnes talking #figure skating

[parameddic]

@hvndredstories

It - he - hadn't been right since he fell through the ice.

Maybe it was meant to be nice, or relaxing. Have a break, let his body recover from literally dying, give his ribs a chance to heal over the cracks and the bruises and regain some of the weight he'd lost in the freezing. The coma had been, well, close, and maybe not any closer than he'd ever really been before but it was the closest he'd ever felt to it. You know? This was supposed to be time to catch his breath, everyone else was catching their breath about what had happened, and he sort of... it was all ...

grey.

He wanted to be alive, he was grateful to be alive, but he felt a bit like a zombie walking. Fragile. The physical therapy was taking it out of him, and he was still weeks of work away from being cleared again for duty. He -

[Text] Nikolai -> TK: I thought you wanted to talk.

Would it be really, really shitty of him to ask Nikolai to hook up, when that was the last text he'd received, more than two weeks ago? That was over a month of waiting on TK to get back to him. To be fair, a lot of that time had been spent in a coma, intubated, torn between staying alive and freezing to death, but he still... he still had said he'd wanted to talk. And then effectively ghosted the guy.

He hadn't asked Nancy her opinion. It would have been tough to ask her about this guy without it throwing up red flags and that was its own thing and yes he did want to talk and he desperately, really, wanted to feel something.

[Text] TK -> Nikolai: I really do, but tonight I want to f--

no.

[Text] TK -> Nikolai: I do. [Text] TK -> Nikolai: Can tonight just be a booty call?

It was exactly as promised. All else aside there was a certain predictability to their interactions, save for the advent of flooding emergencies or shelter-in-place orders or bleeding to death in dumpsters: they said what they wanted and then they took it, and gave it, and it was good and fair and the longer TK had spent with Nikolai the more he'd gotten to know about how this man's body worked, how to make him hum that low tone that tugged at something physical, low in TK's chest. It was good.

Nikolai saw TK, saw the lost weight, the paler-than-normal (and that was saying something) skin, the bruises still not fully healed on his chest, and he said nothing. One of the rules, no words, and even more so tonight because TK had in fact pressed him into the arch of the doorway before they were fully inside and kissed him and kissed him and kissed him and TK was not fragile or going to break or "you must be exhausted" by any of it, and -

he pulled away with a ragged breath inward, shaky and lost for a second because he did not know how he had lost his breath, and this was when he realised that if he did not stop now he was going to be crying, and that would be ridiculous.

"Sorry." He forced laughter, over the top of it. This was messy, and stupid, and not at all what either of them had signed up for. He pulled back and away and turned to conceal it, startled by the intensity of the emotion because he had not actually known he was holding onto it at all. He swallowed. Sniffed. When he swiped at his eyes they were dry, which he guessed was less pathetic than it could have been.

Their pants weren't even off yet.

He had asked him here. What TK had wanted out of that, what he'd... he shook his head, controlled his exhale. This suddenly felt very unhot. "I'm a mess."

#yeah here it is back again #it's the. we jump around points in his timeline for these two and time Does mean he shifts and it's also #v; tbt (carlos doesn't exist) #verse and so he doesn't have the steady of Carlos there but i am just #compressing this back into s1 and pretending it isn't s3/has only been about a year of these hookups #and tk is just having a really Sucky year re. being shot AND #falling through the ice AND whatever other trauma fits in there *packs it in* #and maybe he was a paramedic just before or just after he moved and it was always. cpt vega. #ic #hvndredstories #thank you for your patience we now return to our regularly scheduled programming #season 1 after a sucky year and already not really steady again after alex and then almost dying like this and he is not getting high #but he's not entirely thrilled about that. and i suspect he is about to up and leave he is very - #jumpy #but here's him like this for now #this verse / 10 best verse to make up on the fly i am enjoying it a lot

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opal was so well behaved (mostly because they had blankets scented with this drug that calms down cats we put it over her and she just became so eepy. it worked so well that a giant samoyed barking non-stop no breaks out of pure excitement for 5 minutes straight while bolting around in the same room as us didnt perturb her)

i pet her as she got her vaccination and she didnt even open her eyes when the needle was in. she let the. blanket cover her (she HATED being covered normally) because it made her feel so chilled. she only hissed when she got scooped. and the one time she did get agitated, when the vet was listening to her heartbeat, i started running my finger up her nose (have done so since she was a kitten 13/14 years ago) and the vet said her heart rate dropped immediately 🥺

#shes very healthy for a cat her age! #the only problems are; 1. shes lost muscle definition on her rught back leg. meaning she isnt putting weight on it #so it might be painful. we suspect arthritis. we are planning to out her on painkillers for a bit and then see the muscle development #2 weeks later #2. we have no idea how but she is missing teeth on her left side of her face. it was a quick look as she hates ppl looking in her mouth #but 2 teeth look broken off and theres inflamation so we will have to take a closer look in a dental #if the teeth are gone then she will be fine. will just get cream to soothe her gums #but if theyre broken we will need to put her under to take them out because the infection spreading to her jawbone would kill her #we're lucky we caught it so early #the only thing is we have no idea how this could have happened. it wasnt food or a cat fight. it would take a blunt force. #mum and my brother suspect she had a fall/messed up a jump and landed face first. shes done that before. #either way i look forward to alleviating as much pain as possible from her #also the prelim of the blood tests look great! no kidney disease!!!! i had suspected it cos she lost weight #but i think thats because the newish neighbiurs now know shes not a stray #and arent feeding her. shes a little nightmare #i love her tho shes baby #thought she would hold a grudge like she usually does but i found her by my heater an hour ago #and when she saw me she chirruped and showed me her belly so i know shes feeling good