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time-woods · 6 months
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EMOTIONAL WIN ! ! the bug lets his emotions make decisions for once !
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wanderingmausoleum · 3 months
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Quick Shadow of the Erdtree theory:
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I’m looking at the shape of the…thing this guy’s been impaled with, and you know what the asymmetrical, curved, pointy shape reminds me of? And the golden, shimmery, sparkling quality it has?
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And this makes me wonder: could this spiky golden thing impaled through this guy have once been an attempt to create some sort of anti-black knife, imbued with holy power, made with the purpose of either healing Those Who Live in Death/returning them to the Erdtree, or giving them a true death?
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gaydexvocaloid · 3 months
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i love yuu
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andiv3r-doctor-who · 9 days
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The more I watch this show, the more my internal hc that the Doctor is transmasc and the Master is transfem gets supplied with Evidence. Like wdym the Doctor was a girl when they were found and then after a couple regenerations became a guy and just never changed back (except that one time *cough*.. Jodie Whittaker ...*cough*) that is the most transmasc thing I've ever read, if I didn't know any better i would think i was hearing this about someone's OC who was intentionally written to be transmasc. A lot of my intentionally-written-to-be-transmasc OCs aren't even That Fucking Transmasc.
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python333 · 6 months
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have you heard about mw3..? if so, thoughts?
i have. i have also heard theories and I Am Upset. so i will be ignoring any character deaths that are so-called "canon" and will instead continue being blissfully ignorant of all of it!!!
and yes i did see a trailer for it, yes i did squeal like a stereotypical fangirl, yes i did immediately start daydreaming for a good hour about ghost being my dad instead of writing when i literally have a fic i still need to do research for :3
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mattodore · 1 year
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60 questions with Matthias | playlist, pinterest | ->
1. What’s the one thing they would save in a fire?
There's nothing he'd save. Or… if living creatures count, then he’s saving his cat, Odious.
2. What’s their biggest regret?
Hm… internally he’s very conflicted about this. He wouldn’t have been able to do anything about it, but he regrets his father’s declining health and eventual death — not because he’d want his father to live longer or even because he cared for the man, but because it doomed him to years of psychological torture and physical abuse before he became a legal adult.
3. How would they fare in a zombie apocalypse?
Matthias wouldn’t last long. He wouldn’t kill himself, per se… but I think he’d let himself be bitten. He’d welcome it, actually. Why prolong the inevitable? Actually, I don't even think he'd necessarily get bitten... I think there's a very high probability that another survivor would eagerly waste their ammo to get him to shut up for good...
4. Where do they see themselves in five years? Ten?
Matthias doesn’t plan ahead further than a few weeks. This man has zero long term goals.
5. What’s their most useless, weirdest, or least marketable skill?
What’s the use of having a slutty OC if not to give them the totally useless ability to tie a cherry stem with their tongue in mere seconds? He practiced this party trick together with Imani when they were teenagers.
6. What are they like in the bedroom — well-rounded lover or wooden plank?
Very well-rounded. An Olympic gold medalist grade lover. Unashamed of any act and willing to try anything. Very experienced thanks to all the debauchery. He’s at your service.
7. Have they committed a crime before? Which one(s)?
Yeah. For starters, Matthias allows Sehyuk to conduct criminal business at his parties, which... probably would land him in jail. He also partakes in illicit substances when he wishes to. Extortion. Assault. Attempted murder. He’s paid for sex, which is illegal where he lives. Also a ton of underage drinking when he was younger.
8. If they were an animal, which one would they be? Which one would they think they’d be?
Matthias is very wolfish to me, but, now that I'm thinking about it, I also think he resembles a cougar. I think he’d believe himself to be something more elegant, though… like the Akhal-Teke horse, perhaps. He’s absolutely wrong, though… I don’t think there’s any suitable answer to this question for Matthias that isn’t a predator of some kind.
9. Do they cheat to win or play by the rules?
He’s cheating to win, always. Fuck, he'd cheat to lose too. He likes playing games... so long as he's in control of the outcome, he's virtually a wildcard.
10. What do they fantasize about?
Matthias doesn’t exactly have hopes. He has desires, sure, but they’re more so related to short term pleasures. The thing is, Matthias doesn’t really fantasize about things. If he wants something, he goes to get it. He’s a man of action with charm, money, and time at his disposal. The exception to this being, of course, Theo. Theo is the exception to every rule in Matthias's book. He’ll fantasize about waking up to Theo curled into his chest, watching Theo study and poke his tongue out from between his lips absently while trying to memorize what he’s reading, washing Theo’s hair for him (which I absolutely need to make an edit of... him rinsing Theo's hair and washing his body... yeah. Utter devotion)… Matthias imagines very domestic scenarios when he fantasizes about Theo… well, some of the time. Matthias is a rake and a hedonist, so you know what the rest is…
11. Who’s the most important person in their life?
Imani. Later, this shifts to Theo.
12. What’s their ideal vacation like?
Technically he’s always on vacation since he doesn’t have a job and does whatever he wants… but being on or by the sea, laying out under the sun, with a book and some good wine in hand is his favorite way to pass the time. When he fantasizes about sweeping Theo off his feet and taking him away from all of his responsibilities and pains, Theo joins him laying under the sun. Theo is beside him — or, better, Theo is laying on top of him — sleeping soundly, his skin blemish free, his brow unwrinkled, smelling of suntan lotion and sea salt.
13. What is/was/will be their college major?
Matthias didn’t go to college. He saw no need to — why look to professors less intelligent than himself for knowledge he already had? Matthias was a precocious child and at a young age held an intelligence that was startling and fostered a very cruel mind. He knew very little of emotion until he met Imani.
14. What’s their favorite book genre, if they enjoy reading at all?
Poetry and nonfiction. Matthias reads obsessively. He used to sit on the floor of his father’s library and just read book after book. The denser, the better. The more complicated the characters, the more interesting. He analyzed both the fictional characters as well as the historical figures in the books he read. Not necessarily for fun, as he was learning how he ought to behave since his interactions with people were so limited. Nevertheless this, uh... still didn't hold up well enough when it came time for him to actually interact with people that weren't just servants in his household. He also has a lot of strong opinions about literature... he's a snob.
15. How would they describe themselves?
Hm… I think he’d say he’s detestable. He wouldn’t mean it in a bad way, though. He’d say it while smiling.
16. How would others describe them?
Me, personally? I think Matthias is horrible. Love and light <3
Theo: Sturdy and strong. Silver-tongued. Exhausting. Resourceful. Infuriating. Duplicitous and buried in subterfuge. Safe.
Imani: Bitchy and fucked up. Calm, though, when it matters. Solid. A little unsettling to people who aren’t used to him. It’s not his fault he’s the way he is. Doesn’t know how to act right. Desperately needs to settle down. Unmoored.
Sehyuk: Mouthy.
17. What’s the most ridiculous thing they’ve ever spent money on?
God, I don’t know… he blows through money like it’s nothing (because, to him, it really is nothing). Oh, actually I have a good answer for this! It wasn’t expensive, but he bought a muzzle before. Sexual reasons, obviously, but I find it to be… exceptionally funny. He bought it personally.
18. What’s their dream job?
Nothing. He doesn’t dream of labor or contributing to society. He’s happy to be outside of everything. Additionally, he thinks society is fucked and is very nihilistic.
19. How’s their financial situation?
Matthias inherited his father’s oil company and fortune, then got out. He’s rich.
20. Who’s their go-to person for advice?
Imani. She’s his only real friend.
21. What’s one secret of theirs that could potentially ruin a relationship they have?
Matthias isn’t actually very secretive. I mean, unless you count the whole charming facade of his… which Theo sees through anyway. Hm. I guess Theo doesn’t understand the full scope of Matthias’s cruelty and just how far he’s willing to go for Theo… which I do think would scare Theo a little if he ever found out. Theo does distance himself for a while after witnessing a violent altercation between Matthias and someone else, so… Matthias’s violent side is something that strains their relationship, even when it’s never been aimed at Theo (and never would be).
22. Are they a dog person or a cat person — or something else?
He doesn’t care for pets, honestly. I can’t picture him with a dog, like, ever, but he does have a cat. Wasn’t an intentional thing, either. It just happened. He’s not very affectionate with it, but I do think he’s attached.
23. What’s one childhood memory they’ve never forgotten?
The feeling of breaking another boy’s hand for trying to take something of his. It was very easy… which fascinated him. I think it’s one of the first instances of violence he’d enacted on another person. It also set forth a chain of events that affected the rest of his life. I think as an adult he looks back on it and wishes he could reprimand the eleven-year-old version of himself who acted so hastily and honestly. He’s long since learned to ignore his violent impulses in favor of the social contract. He’s not ashamed of his inherently violent nature, but he is… restrained in that regard. Facades, you know.
24. Do they have any phobias?
I think he believes he can rationalize anything and logic his way out of a lot of potential fears… nevertheless, he has a fear of sleep. He has horrendous nightmares.
25. What’s one thing they’re utterly incapable of doing without the help of someone else?
Feeling real. It’s why he throws the parties he does and engages in acts meant to stimulate some kind of pleasure… he feels numb without it.
26. What’s one topic they could never get tired of researching or learning about?
Matthias enjoys history as a whole. He’s very analytical… I think he enjoys looking at history from sociological point of view. What made man act this way? What motivated this decision?
27. What’s their favorite genre of music?
Matthias doesn’t often listen to music, but when he does he’ll listen to jazz. If anything, he prefers to listen to birdsong.
28. Who, if anyone, do they dislike most?
His mother.
29. If they could change one thing about themselves, physical or otherwise, what would it be?
Nothing, really. Matthias has a huge ego. I think it clouds his judgment sometimes, because, really, he should be working on that personality of his… lmao.
30. What’s their political stance?
He considers himself to be outside of Society™ and doesn’t care about politics. He’s filthy rich… so. Y’know. Comes with the territory, generally speaking. He could pay his way into and out of anything. Detests conservatives, though.
31. Are they religious?
No. He thinks, vaguely, that his parents might’ve been religious, but he never paid too much attention to that. If they were religious, they didn’t care about him enough to even try to induct him.
32. What were they like in high school?
Matthias has always been haughty, but he was particularly disdainful as a teenager. He was argumentative with his teachers, who he considered inferior to himself, and would correct them or even insult them to their face. The boarding school he went to with Imani allowed corporal punishment, so he would often be met with a slap for his insolence. He was a heartthrob regardless. It wouldn’t be hyperbolic to say he had a string of admirers. I think he’s always been bolstered by his intelligence, looks, and money… so even when he was younger and less adept at charm, his confidence did a lot for him. Even despite his cruelty.
At the “therapeutic” boarding school he was sent to by his mother for “troubled teens” he kept up that argumentative streak of his for a while… but he did eventually break. The violence he faced there was much more extreme than at his previous boarding school and alongside the psychological torture… his pride was torn apart. He got quieter. He learned to conceal his reactions and thoughts and rein in his impulses.
33. What’s the worst injury they’ve ever had?
Broken ribs and a punctured lung.
34. Do they work to live or live to work?
Neither.
35. Do/did they want children?
Absolutely not. The bloodline dies with him and he toasts his glass to it.
36. What’s their favorite thing about themselves?
Hm… his mind or his looks.
37. What’s their favorite thing about their significant other, if they have one?
He loves how sharp and perceptive Theo is as well as how caustic he can be. He loves when Theo gives others a dressing-down, even and especially if he’s on the receiving end. Theo is very intelligent and interesting and Matthias loves to pick his brain. Physically, he loves how soft and pretty Theo’s cheeks are the most. I also think he really loves the beauty marks on Theo’s ears and the four on his chin and the two under his eye…
38. If they hear something go bump in the night, do they get out of bed to check it out or do they stay put?
He doesn’t bother getting out of bed, no. He doesn’t get much sleep, so if he hears something he’ll assume sleep deprivation is causing him to hallucinate.
39. What’s one skill they wish they had?
He wishes he could understand certain emotions better.
40. What do other people find annoying about them, if anything?
LMAO. There’s a lot to find annoying about Matthias when you really get to know him.
41. What do other people love most about them?
His money, his dick, his charm. In that order.
42. What’s the typical first impression after meeting this person?
He’s charming and very handsome, but something doesn’t feel right…
43. What do people notice first about them, as far as their appearance goes?
The size of him at first when seeing him from across the room. Then his eyes as he comes closer and the details of his face become clearer. His eyes are startlingly pale and his gaze is very intense.
44. Does this person try their best to be honest or are they not above lying to get their way?
He’ll do anything to get his way. He also just lies for fun.
45. What kind of movies do they like?
He’s very boring and snobby when it comes to the arts, so… I don’t think he watches movies very often. Nature documentaries, maybe.
46. Are they the life of the party or a wallflower?
Life of the party in every sense of the word.
47. Are they an early bird or a night owl?
Well, he’s an insomniac, so… lmao. I think he prefers the morning, though. He’s sitting outside or by an open window whenever the birds start to wake.
48. Are they a good kisser?
Exceptionally.
49. Do they think about what they wear or do they throw on whatever they find first?
He owns a lot of easily pairable clothes and doesn’t get too adventurous with his fashion… so he doesn’t necessarily need to think about what he’ll wear, but I think he does anyway. He knows what looks best on his body and what gains attention, so he gravitates towards those pieces. He has a personal stylist as well, though they’re more just on retainer for events.
50. Do they have any insecurities?
No.
51. What is their favorite thing about themselves?
This is a repeat question… it’s still gonna be his mind and his looks.
52. What’s their diet like?
Generally, I’d say he eats very healthy. He doesn’t limit himself or anything, though. He’s a hedonist at the end of the day. He loves decadent foods as well.
53. If they could only eat one thing for the rest of their life, what would it be?
Affogato al caffe.
54. What’s their body count, if they have one?
It’s very high. I really couldn’t tell you and I don’t think he could either.
55. Who do they look up to most?
No one. Now, if we change the wording a bit, though… Who does Matthias adore and revere? Theo.
56. What do they smell like?
I’ll just copy something I’ve already said here… Matthias wears strong cologne and is very recognizable by it. His signature is Francis Kurkdjian’s Oud Extrait de Parfum and on occasion he wears Oud Satin Mood. Meaning, there’s a rich scent about him that’s spicy with leathery undernotes. Warm and masculine without being obnoxious. Occasionally floral.
57. How do they feel about drugs?
Fun for a little bit, but that’s it. He isn’t addicted. The more time that he spends around Theo, the more he resents them.
58. If they could change one thing about their life, what would it be?
How he lived from ages 15-18.
59. What motivates them?
A desire for something he can’t name, something that makes him feel... an indescribable feeling. (It’s love. He wants love.)
60. What are some of their simple pleasures?
Aged wine. Good books. Depraved sex. A nice breeze. Satin sheets. Strong coffee. The sound of Imani’s nails tapping on her phone. Theo playing with his fingers.
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widowshill · 5 months
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r/v + loneliness.
102 / Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca, ch. 4 / 4 / 8 / Art Wallace, Shadows on the Wall / 603 / Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca, ch 4. / 473 / Richard Sherman, Demo: "Lovely, Lonely Man/Chitty Chitty Bang Bang Finale" / 2
#➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure,miss winters.#➤ edits & art. ┊ the evans cottage art gallery.#compilation tag#idk I have just been Thinking about this since that gifset lol.#‘I’ll blame it on you‚’ she says — because you are the one who has brought me here‚ she thinks#because she seems to anticipate even in their first meeting that she will play Eyre and he Rochester.#there had better be many more such tête-à-tête’s on the cliff side or she’ll be terribly disappointed !#[and not only cliffside proselytizing: barging into her room at all hours‚ chasing her around town‚ dragging her bodily into the drawing#room‚ and‚ occasionally on a good day‚ an actual genuine date or a meal sometime.]#Roger has –– in theory –– everything that she wants. a family‚ a home‚ a wife and child‚ history and ancestry! boy does he have that!#and yet he is terribly terribly alone in this well he has poisoned.#(from which‚ I might add‚ vicki drinks greedily.)#''What do you want out of life?'' when he's already achieved (or so it appears on the outside) the midcentury blazon of success:#a family‚ a well-to-do office position at which he really does nothing‚ a succession of american-made sports cars.#he may be separated from his wife but together‚ he and elizbeth and david and carolyn form a mimetic image of the nuclear family.#to which vicki is desperate to grasp onto‚ even in its most nightmarish form‚ whether or not she realizes that's why she stays.#but what does he want? he wants the same thing she wants. love and companionship. (that he hasn't yet ruined. that he can't stop ruining.)#she may not precisely understand his type of loneliness but she knows about loneliness among people. she's lived it.#and she knows too about ... a visceral loneliness pushing you to push people even further away (as in the childhood story she tells david).#so she sees through his fronts a lot of the time‚ whether they be a layer of charm‚ or terror. and boy does he hate that. being seen for#something real. where his actions matter and produce consequences. where feeling is real – good or bad.#the little governess and her capacity to find shadows to throw light on! whether they be locked chambers in the basement or the atria.
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dyke-in-crisis · 7 months
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moved yesterday and the most infuriating experience of my life was taking apart an entire bedframe manually & bruising my knuckles because I didn't have the right tool, taking apart fridges and shelves with an axe and being able to carry just the same amount of boxes and furniture as the guys my mom hired and still having people insist I carry the small things because I'm „such a tiny girl"
I cant put into words how invalidating it is to be physically strong enough and standing right next to someone yelling „I need a man down here to carry this" (I did it anyways)
I have carried everything for my family up to yesterday, worked with tools in a workshop for six months, lift weights & rebuilt our furniture and somehow ppl still treated me like a toddler simply because I am a woman.
That really hit me, no matter how much strength and effort you put into things, everyone is still somehow able to overlook it just because you were afab. I‘m very much tired of trying to prove myself despite gender.
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crying over the richard ayoade stuff for the second time today. it is so exhausting to be a trans person. I hate it. (not that this wouldn’t still suck if I was cis but it’s very different.) it feels so stupid to say this about a guy who’s mostly done weird dorky comedies but he’s literally been the person I’ve looked up to most for nearly half my life. I’ve been going through a lot lately and he’s part of like 90% of the things I turn to for comfort. like what the fuck do I even do now. what am I supposed to do with this
edit: changed this post to be unrebloggable because it’s quite personal and in the following rbs I get even more personal so. just felt weird. but I don’t mind that a couple people did rb it already!
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youngpettyqueen · 7 months
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Trick AND treat! 😁 You can do two separate ones or combine them. And let Hawkeye take care of and fuss over Charles.
I tried so hard to come up with something for trick but my brain is not braining today. to make up for it, I added 250 words to a very fluffy, very silly idea because this hit me IMMEDIATELY upon getting this ask and it took everything in me to not write this while I was at work. maybe at some point I can come back with an idea for trick?? but I didnt want this to sit in my inbox forgotten so I hope you can forgive me only doing treat, at least for now
The first snow of the year comes, perhaps luckily, when they have children visiting. 
Charles woke that morning to the delighted shrieks and giggles of children, unmistakable in pitch and volume. The sound was so sweet he couldn’t be irritated at being woken up early, not that he’d ever admit that. He made sure to grouse thoroughly about the hour to his tentmates, knowing they’d rib him to lighten up before moving on, but would never let him live a moment of softness down. 
He’s taking a moment, now, to watch. It’s after breakfast, he has a shift to get to, but he knows that post-OP is quiet and can afford for him to be a couple minutes late. The children are running around, bundled in their mismatched winter jackets and too-big boots, donated surplus hats rolled up extra to stay out of their eyes. Some of them are sporting distinctly fashionable scarves, while others form snowballs in distinctly homemade mittens. They make angels in the snow, they make snowballs and throw them at each other, a few of the older ones are demonstrating how to make snowmen. 
They play. They laugh. They smile with missing teeth and genuine joy in their eyes. For a moment, just a moment, they’re children the way children should be. Charles is happy to sacrifice a quiet morning if it means-
A snowball hits the back of his head with a freezing, wet splat. 
Charles goes entirely rigid, snow sliding down the back of his coat and melting in his hair. A roar of laughter goes up from behind him, and he immediately knows just who that laugh belongs to. He whips around to fix Hawkeye with a glare, only to falter as his eyes skip right over where Hawkeye is doubled over wheezing and land on the young boy falling backwards into the snow, laughing and pointing. 
And, well. Who can blame him, if his irritation is snuffed out faster than a candle? Who could possibly be angry at the sight of a child laughing so hard he can’t stay on his feet?
Hawkeye straightens up, hands over his stomach, still laughing that goose honk laugh of his. And maybe, just maybe, somewhere deep down Charles can’t stay annoyed when he sees Hawkeye laughing right from his belly. Because that’s a rare sight these days, and maybe it makes the snow soaking into his shirt a bit less cold.
Of course, he can’t admit to that. Ever. So, he finishes his turn, schools his expression to raise a judgmental brow. “Ah, Pierce,” He greets, “I see you’ve found yourself a playmate. If only they’d take you with them when they leave. You’d blend right in.” He barbs, all huff and no bite. 
Hawkeye snickers, wiping at his eyes, “Sorry, Charles, but I couldn’t resist,” He offers as a weak apology as he hunkers down to help the boy back up to his feet, “Somebody’s gotta teach the kids the sacred way of the snowball fight, and somebody’s gotta be the target! Thank you for your service.” He grins, straightening himself back up.
The boy points at him again. “Gotcha good!” He declares, with a big smile that barely has front teeth.
Charles nods good-naturedly. “That you did, my fine young fellow,” He tells the boy. Looking back at Hawkeye, he suggests, “Perhaps your teachings might benefit from a second demonstration? Say, some return fire?” He stoops down to scoop up some snow in both hands, clapping it all together and starting to form a compact ball.
Hawkeye laughs incredulously at the sight. “Oh, he has some fight in him!” He crows, “What, did you have snowball fighting lessons? A private tutor in snowball form?” He jeers. 
Charles keeps his face carefully neutral as he forms the snowball in his hands. “Your confidence will be your doom,” He warns, straightening himself up, “Any last words?” 
Hawkeye settle into a smug grin, raising a challenging brow at him. “Bring it.” He dares. 
Charles allows himself a smile. He supposes it is fair for Hawkeye to assume he’s never so much as made a snowball, never mind participated in a snowball fight. It would be an activity most would likely assume he views as beneath him. 
They would be forgetting, however, that Charles is an older brother. And wealth and status mattered not, in matters where Honoria Winchester and her insatiable need to peg him in the head with a snowball were concerned. 
Hawkeye doesn’t see the snowball coming until it hits him square between the eyes and takes him off his feet. 
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kareenvorbarra · 1 year
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hmmmmm ketil anime backstory bad
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ilyuu · 5 months
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what if i write an apocalypse au what then?
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whumpshaped · 8 months
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copy pasted my drabbles again. were getting up there boys
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olliesneweyes · 11 days
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still thinking abt the wreck that is train!andrew's office once he falls asleep at the desk tbh because godd i love imagining messy workaholic offices
conductors also kind of do everything on the train, like they oversee the other train employees, take payments for boarding, check the tickets, make sure passengers are safe and comfortable, etc etc so he is. SO exhausted probably
i think bc to me this andrew is kind of. stoic and polite (he would still melt if you were nice to him i think) he doesn't have many signs other than getting slightly more unkempt and i think his hands shake REALLY bad w sleep deprivation, or he seems like he's focusing on not literally just crinkling to the ground and fifudhf anywaybi really like traindrew
i watched about 22 mins of the first murder on the nord express gameplay vid btw and i'm gonna cry both victor and andrew are so djfjfj
Exactly!!
#he's like. pacing and stuff near the end#because if he stood still who knows what'd happen#(he'd fall asleep)#also I'm thinking maybe Andrew is suddenly without other staff on the train without rhyme or reason#to add more similarities to the actual oletus#so he's probably even MORE overworked because he's taking it on himself to do everything#and he says he's fine but you can start to see him sway a little when he stands#or disguise yawning by breathing heavily#or take a few seconds to register anything that's said to him#meanwhile Andrew just wants to go to the safety of bed but he doesn't have a bed on the train#and he doesn't think to use an employee one#until someone tells him to#he absolutely would melt if you were nice to him#and I think if he's pretty awake it's subtle (just smiling and being a bit affectionate and maybe a tear or two)#but if he's tired it's probably really obvious that it means so much to him (maybe... too much for such a simple gesture)#i think affection is probably the biggest difference because if you hugged him while he was fully alert#he'd just return it mutely but you'd be able to see the sadness when you let go because why do these things have to be so short?#and if he's tired he wouldn't accept affection unless he sat down first#which seems a bit weird but it's VERY clear why when you actually do because he just flops onto you like a limp noodle#he's not good at hiding how much he wants this at ALL#he's probably crying too out of joy#congrats bucko you're cuddling this man until he falls asleep otherwise he'll be extremely sad (it only takes like 2-5 minutes you're fine)#idv#godddddd Andrew Kreiss my beloved
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microfeelings · 8 months
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I just had a rant (with myself) about the character of Mama Jones in 2003 and how she was reduced to "haha, she babies her son and is basically looking for a babysitter for him lol" and how much I HATED that! She lost her husband to a very violent attack (implied), Casey was involved in this (also implied but for the life of me I cant get the timeline straight), the store her husband had got burned. This woman should have heeps of trauma that she most likely buried deep because SHE HAD TO RAISE CASEY ON HER OWN (I guess its implied theres an uncle or auntie bc of cousin sid, but theres no mention of them so I can only imagined they fucked right off), and she got reduced to that?? Come on 2003 you can do better. I KNOW you can do better
(Extra info on the notes bc its mostly ranting and it wouldnt make sense on the main post)
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etulf · 1 year
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Hooolllllyyyy shite… Anyways rant time!! Whats the topic???? Tonites Eclipse Federation stream!!
Uhhhhh where to begin. Zam was sooo against building a prison and just wanted to kill them instead, and I personally don’t get that.. Because as Vitalasy said about the prison there will be a certain amount of time that people will be imprisoned, and banning them off the server ENTIRELY?? It seems a little off to me but ya..
I was mostly on Vi’s stream so idk if Zam muted to talk to chat about anything so I would like to be informed on that if possible.. But yeah, I don’t think banning them off the server would be the right way to go about it.. Because at least with the prison they have a chance to correct themselves.
But in contrary to my last statement most of the time when someone does something evil they will stop at nothing to make sure that plan is executed.. They could say they will stop and it is a 50/50 that they are lying or telling the truth and you can never know until it is too late..
And once they enact that plan they will likely be wary considering they will KNOW what they did was evil and never want to show their face. OR if they have a bigger team they will likely just outnumber you.. But I don’t know.
All of this just seems so.. Iffy to me.. Risky if you will!!
Also, the people who were hoping that Zam rejoins leviathan/team awesome.. I just don’t see that as a possibility, cause I don’t think he can trust them anymore especially after what they did.. He might be trying to move past that but that doesn’t mean that he has to completely disregard what they did to him.
God I love lore streams because they make me think but the downside is,,, they make me think. It is a double edged sword and I don’t like it!!! Also I lovvveeee Eclipse Federation and it breaks my heart to see their relationship fray!! Like, please get couples therapy you silly guys!! You need it!! But I think that is it,, I would like to hear opinions and shit because I love discussing stuff and and and I like talking as you may be able to tell so ya!! *twirls the phone cord around my finger*
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