#just find that rlly sad

[boschlowtxt]

this could be a random, sudden and tad bit odd question. But what's your opinion about that one Amity and Boscha scene in episode 3 of season 3??? Alot of people have been calling it a one-sided crush relationship- and I kinda wanna hear what YOU think about it. I personally disagree with the whole- one-sided crush idea.

Thank you for the question! I also completely disagree for a few reasons:

The fandom places too much emphasis on romantic relationships (kinda ironic coming from me), and doesn't understand that friendships can be just as heartbreaking to lose as romantic relationships (if not more)

In one scene of Understanding Willow, we can see Boscha and Amity walking to class together. Boscha is seen talking to Amity very casually, as friends do, because she genuinely believes they are friends.

In the same scene (note that this is the scene right after Willow says no shenanigans no ruses etc.), Amity stops because she notices something in the photo room. Boscha immediately goes off with a bunch of questions which are. "Why does it look like you've seen a ghost? Is there a ghost in photo class? Are they cute?"

Not only does this show that Boscha would visibly show that she would be interested in someone else. She also did not hesitate to say "Ask if they have any friends!" She didn't care whether or not Amity was interested in someone else.

Aside from this, Boscha isn't actually a very jealous person. I don't think she has actually envied anyone in the show. Rather, she believes in structure and rules. This is shown in her saying "...we proved our social dominance. All is right in the hierarchy." in Wing It Like Witches.

Additionally, before For the Future, we often saw Boscha only teasing Willow when Amity was around. She would also frequently look at Amity (or anyone of her friends) for approval. She wants to know if what she was doing was right.

Eden Riegel (Boscha's VA), has said that Boscha believes being friends with others is ruling over them. It can also be assumed that this would also apply the other way around, but only in special cases.

In the scene before that, Boscha mentions how she cannot allow herself to be vulnerable, because everything will fall apart. "Everything" being her structure and being vulnerable being "ruled over."

Boscha does not see Amity as a romantic partner, but rather as an "equal" in the social hierarchy/structure she has in her head. (This is a common thing seen in narcissistic individuals.)

In the scene itself, when Boscha gets on one knee, it is not a love confession just because it looks like a 'proposal'. She is physically lowering herself. This is a visual representation of how she is asking Amity to tell her what to do.

She said it in the scene herself. "I already let you go." She did let her go. Back when everything was normal. But things changed, and she was left questioning every decision she has ever made up to that point. We saw how broken she was after she realized how much she messed up. This was her last effort to go back to "normal" before she realized that maybe she should try something else.

Lastly, aside from all the character analysis, I hope people would view the scene in context. Boscha has lost her friends, has lost all sense of structure in her world, is left with no adults to guide her except for the one deceiving her by constantly mentioning the mistake she made that cost her her friends. She is looking for any sense of structure to make sense of her world.

Boscha loves her friends to the moon and back, genuinely. So to have someone who she thought was her best friend? It was heartbreaking. I'd compare it to when Amity left Willow because she was "half-a-witch". If you can see a friendship breakup between two friends and realize it's one of the worst things you can experience as a kid, then you can also realize that Boscha is still processing being left behind

Also. Just in case people doubt that Boscha genuinely cares about her friends. Here's her graffiti.

AMELIA!!

CAT!

WHERE R U?? -:'(

#boschlowtxt #boschlow talks #ask #its kinda funny how this all happened in the same episode where willow realized #that she doesnt have to rely on others either #they really are each others foils #long post #sorry if this is rlly rambly #i just got home from singing karaoke with my friends #its why i rlly love boschlow #both of them just rlly love their friends #to somewhat unhealthy degrees LMAO #but sometimes i feel like the friendships get overlooked now bc of the romance in the show and i #just find that rlly sad #as someone who is on the arospec

[oceanwithouthermoon]

its crazy to me how people sometimes see kusuo and kusuo transformed as kuriko/kusuko as like.. different people but not ??

im not sure how to phrase it but like.. i once saw fanart of kuriko being shipped with one of the boys and then she transforms back into kusuo and the guy lets go of her and is like "ew.." LIKE BRO WHAT😭

what do u mean u ship kusuo as a girl with someone but not kusuo as a boy.. are YOU being homophobic or do you think the character is homophobic?? either way, what ???

#ive seen this in fics a couple of times but the fanart really got me cuz it was like rlly good art too #its like seeing a genderfluid person as a different person depending on how masc/fem they feel that day #like if u date them are u gonna say ur straight and then not be dating them on whatever days they dont feel like the opposite gender #im ngl not to be dramatic but the fanart made me really sad LMAO #like it feels like.. angsty.. for kusuo #OMG IT REMINDS ME OF MY WIP FIC #OF 'KURIKO' AND AREN WHERE KUSUO DOESNT TELL AREN ITS HIM #maybe thats why it feels sad to me but it just kinda is sad #like imagine being a gay guy but u look like a girl at some point and a guy likes u #but then finds out ur a boy and they're like 'yuck!' #thats so satousai core actually #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #meows post

[soldier-poet-king]

Suddenly hysterical (in a bad way????) Okay???

#solution to hysteria is always shower. always #i already made dinner so ill eat after #and maybe itll be ok..?? #is this bc i had a caramel macchiato this afternoon #i never buy fancy sugary coffee #its like. a rare treat for me #i usually just go for americano or flat white. im v boring ik #BUT I SAID. oh no a trear #but that was like FOUR HOURS AGO #why am i AHHHHHH now #(this week this week this week is sm im going back to my parents house. ew. might be finding out abt that job #my boss comes back from vacation. its just alot all at once and i rlly just wanna nap #AND i didnt end up going thrift shopping today bc i got sad again and embroidered for like 4 hrs instead #what i really want is to go to the el cheapo thrift shop that isnt bougie but like dirt cheap like a proper secondhand store #i cannot get there by transit its technically in mississauaga #so i would need to borrow my mother's car #which means she would want to come #which means i cannot shop in the men's section for fun patterned button downs #BLEGH BLEGH BLEGHHHHHHHH #do u undersrand how much i want fun patterned button downs and also an old man blazer #NOTHING IN THE WOMENS FITS MY SHOULDERS PROPERLY OK #the duality of fran #if i could wear mens pants with my hips i WOULD

[wakanai]

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#i feel so isolated #i can talk to people #but it's hard for me to find someone i can genuinely connect with #hard for me to converse in interesting conversation with people i find interesting #i was in a group setting a while ago #talking w “friends” (not close friends; but still 'friends') #it was ok #the thing is #i don't particularly like my friends #like im not that invested. it's hard for me to find people i connect with enough to be invested in and vice versa #it's most likely a 'me' thing #i think its because of a lack of communication skills that its hard for me to find connection/make friends that i rlly like and etc #ironically the friends i do like are always extroverts and i always feel like i care more about them than they do #because they have sm friends whom they're close to and genuinely connected with meanwhile i struggle with even making 1 connection that #doesn't drain me/makes me happy/keeps me stimulated #so when i do find that 1 person i become attached and want to be closer to them #and when that happens idk i remind myself that they dont care for me as much #and i try not to be too clingy so as not to annoy them #i want to be closer to them though. we have our own friend groups but still #school for me is overall quite lonely. my 2 close friends are in another school #there's only a few people in class that i enjoy talking to #the only one (the 'main' one) that's my friend is the extrovert i mentioned a while ago #and for some reason im getting flashbacks or trauma from my past friendship #because as of now we're just classroom friends #and in my past friendship. i was also invested in that homegirl. but..we drifted apart T-T #its quite sad #i feel lonely #i want to be better at bond making and connections because #its miserable #vent

[silenthillbunni]

📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

#only 30 tags lol i ran out... so furthermore #we only get one life. im gonna try as much as i can to enjoy the little moments. nd to not give up on myself nd my life #i will die one day anyway. why rush it. i'll enjoy as many books and as many walks and songs and tv shows as possible #if i get a loan nd have more money i wanna bleach my hair nd dye my hair green #and later this year i think i might change my name #it was the name i wanted to change to from the beginning. but i was in such a bad headspace i just picked eden at random #i do kinda like it now nd im attached to it but i more feel like this other name actually is me. my birth name nd my current name dont feel #really right. so maybe. i havent decided yet. like i rlly dont know. im also attached to this name for some other reason. like it's who i am #to a person i rlly like and if i change... will i be anything to them? i cant put it into words but that makes me hesitate #but it's unhealthy to stay attached to someone i cant truly have even if i want to. so i mean. idk im just weird abt it #but i do kinda wanna change my name (to embla. my mom wanted to give me that name but my dad was like nooo >.<) i am not 100% sure tho so #when i've been getting used to going to school nd working out at the gym. nd after my surgery nd i have more energy #i will try to face my avpd and try apps for making friends. there r two apps where u can find new girl friends!! maybe i can try that #also like i've never tried apps but i think maaaaaybe i can use bumble to try to find friends and women to date. potentially. idk..... #rn it's hard for me to think in those terms bc. i mean i am hung up on someone!!!! i cant evwn imagine dating or being intimate w anyone els #sometimes i feel like.. they're the only person i've ever felt like it'd even be possible. who i'd event want to do that w #not only physically but emotionally. so ig it's even harder to let go bc im so scared i will never feel like that w anyone else #but i rlly need to try to make the most of whatever life i have. the world will collapse soon anyway #that makes me even more sad that i cant be w who i wanna be w nd do what i wanna do but #all pain will all be completely descimated eventually. it's not forever bc life isnt forever #i've just never felt this before. like i want smth to be real so bad but if it happened once surely it can happen again? right? #i wont spend my life alone without intimacy and love and comfort nd support nd understanding right???? :o hope not #im still so sad nd exhausted rn. nothing in my life is working nd theres no repreive nd no help #it gets sooo hard to endure everything sometimes when everything just keeps piling up and gets so heavy it feels like im drowning #nd atm i dont feel like i have any anchor. nothing that keeps me grounded nd im just floating away nd im constantly being overwhelmed by my #feelings nd emotions. im like a stupid little kid who dont understand how to handle what im feeling. or make rational decisions #i feel so ... stupid and useless. i dont know what im doing. i have no idea. i have no compass. its so scary

[somethingoriginal127]

the treatment of a young justin bieber and in turn my inability to see him as the enemy:

keeping my trend of just talking and giving my 2 cents on trending topics, in the matter of rich, cis white men being exposed as a literal scum of the earth people i am never moved or surprised. (i also don’t usually care bc it’s normally someone i was not a fan of before they were exposed for heinous behavior)

however i have never been able to shake my sympathy, understanding, and hesitance to write off the musician that is justin bieber. i just always feel as though there’s so much he deals with behind the scenes that we’ll never know about. that’s true of anyone famous but the reason i say this is because of the amount of documentaries this man has where they barely skim the surface of what he endured in the industry. the stuff they choose to discuss doesn’t even scratch the surface of even things we saw happen on live television

(early sexualization of a child, SA, SH, etc.)

his entire brand since he was 15 was also to essentially be a “boyfriend” to all his fans and the minute he dropped the persona because he wasn’t feeling up to being touched/groped/kissed/screamed at for the day he was in turn CRUCIFIED in the media for being a heinous human. which has always been so odd to me? like the media/general public has some sort of claim or ownership of his body since he was a developing child. it’s gross and it’s been like that since his formative years. (that has to be ridiculously damaging)

*update* i’m reading this back to make sure i articulated my thoughts in the way i wanted and i’m now angrier about his treatment then when i first typed it. bc why isn’t his body allowed to be his and why is he a villain for setting boundaries? bc he’s a boy? that’s actually is so disturbing to me the longer i sit with it. (no seriously i want you to think abt how physically and mentally he lost like all body autonomy at 14. and he has never gotten it back in all honesty.)

also him having a drug problem in (2014?) i think and knocking on deaths door at (18/19? years old) visibly deteriorating and reacting to his lifestyle/trauma he was given too young, adult celebs took to twitter to call him names and attack him when he was clearly a child (yes child idc that he was 18) crying for help was also extremely odd to me. laughing at the traumatized kid having a downward spiral and evidently no reliable adults in his life left a bad taste in my mouth, even then.

maybe it’s the blind items i keep seeing about his alleged SA or the clips of it happening from grown women in talk shows, or because the open discussion about his sex life/sexual preferences/when he was only 15 and growing up watching the general public use him (A KID) as a punching bag/toy for their own enjoyment gives me so much sympathy and is why i’ve always given him grace. it’s also worth noting those who are respected in hollywood and are close to him speak extremely highly of him which also makes me pause to think he’s not nearly as heinous as the media has always liked to paint him.

not to mention that interview he did with zane lowe ?? where he talks about wanting to protect billie eilish from what he endured in the industry because “he wouldn’t wish that upon anybody” and then starts to sort of crumple in on himself when speaking about it like he can’t even recount what he’s been through without it having a visible effect is SO sad/scary to me. that whole interview was very strange and sort of haunting actually.

to this day small things he does/says are blown up to insane headlines to make him look like he’s on some tirade and then you watch the clips with these insane titles and it’s just the man asking to be left alone for a little while ? he just seems like a deeply traumatized/cut individual to me.

i hate long post w no pictures or gifs so this is what justin bieber looks like if you didn’t know !😃

(i think everyone who’s had the internet longer than a week could identify this man in a line up of white men but i digress😭)

but that could just be because i witnessed his growing up in my lifetime so it feels closer than most lmao idk. it’s very possible i wouldn’t be as sympathetic if i didn’t watch him get broken down in real time.

#but hey maybe i’m wrong and he’s just scum #who knows these days #justin bieber #pop culture #child stars #child stardom #pop music #the only cis white male you’ll catch me defending like this😭 #and i MEAN that lmao #watching him go from having fun being famous #to visibly hating life is sad to me idk #i find celeb culture interesting #and his upbringing specifically has had me curious from a very young age #also the rumor he’s getting britney treatment😬 #i almost wish scooter never plucked him up #but that’s not totally true bc he rlly is a phenomenal performer #last thing i’m gonna add i think lmao #he’s also been the target of SO many fake stories ?? #like at this point (ik he has done some shitty things i mean he’s been famous for over a decade #) i can’t even tell what he’s actually done and hasn’t #because they genuinely have been printing *proven* fake stories about him FOR YEARS #and he doesn’t even set anyone straight #he just minds his business usually

[niishi]

Sensory issues that make me not want my hair to touch my neck/ears

vs.

chronic migraine disorder that can be triggered by wearing my hair up for too long or wearing anything on my head at all

vs.

ppl telling me they like me more with long hair&making me feel insecure about having short hair

#im gonna kms #its an every day issue #i dont have this problem when i have short hair #but i HATE feeling judged i get so hyperfocused on it and it makes me so sad and i cant cope w it tbh #its something i work tirelessly to change by trying to be mindful and not give a fuck but #its HARD #so many ppl express how much they like my long hair better and I just wish they'd keep it to themselves #bc now im like rlly insecure about having short hair again #idk.... i remember back in the day when i was working at the smoke shop and had short hair #there were a bunch of girls who would express how good it looked and how theyve always wanted short hair but #their face was too fat or it wouldnt look good on them #and i would encourage them and tell them if its what you want and it would make you happy then it will always suit you and look good #no one in this world has a “face” for short hair #all of our faces suit whatever hair we want for ourselves #but pol have this opinion based off of society constructed beauty standards #and will just outright way or imply #that you look better following those standards #i think ppl should find happiness and self confidence more attractive than adherence to beauty standards #i successfully convinced one of my coworkers and an old and younger customer to cut their hair short #and they were so bright and excited to show me after they did it #and i hyped them up to hell and back like it made me emotional bc it takes courage to embrace your happiness #despite others judgements #im just #not as brave anymore #im rlly tired tbh #anyways srry im just emotional bc my head hurts and im overstimulated from my hair touching my neck jshfjekduriwj

[truegoist]

also sorry for being inactive I am literally dead

#Not rlly I just spend most of my time getting lost #Why did none of u told me cities were this big I’m literally the fucking small town boy stereotype wtf #but ye will do the ask game I promise just let me find which sad looking fadedass colon is mine

[junkdyke]

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#i know my period is coming so i am keeping that in mind #but im just feeling so fucking sad and defeated and frustrated #like why is it so fucking hard for me to get clients i dont know what im doing wrong #like are they just ugly #feels like im never gonna be able to afford to move out of my homophobic ass house at this rate #idk if i just need to find a new studio but like i dont want to leave #and one of my “”best friends“” isnt even talking to me anymore #lol like everything just feels shitty rn #only mild encouragement is so many people looked through my flash book and kept saying “oh look how cute!” #and picked my design from the free tempt tattoos we were giving out #but then like why is it so hard to get actual CLIENTS #just rlly defeating #personal

[batz]

im glad they cut the ford/lucy/bob love triangle bc i rlly dislike love triangle stories i was so worried it was gonna be bob and ford fighting over lucy (cliche) but it was actually going to be bob and lucy fighting over ford??? LMAO (i mean also cliche but also Not Expected. glad bob was always gay tho yayyy)

everyone wants tgat weird old man i guess

#psychic 7 all pining for each other call that a love heptagon #ITS JUST RLLY FUNNY IDK im glad they went with bob and helmut being gay married instead. just works tbh #frank.txt #i do not like love triangle stories i just find them like . super contrived. and boring ! esp when its sad gay man pining over straight man #bc its just been Done. im glad they instead gave bob a hapy gay relationship and Unburied the gays! Dug Up The Gays! #pn2 #< for blacklist !

[welcometoteyvat]

things they couldve demonstrated way better in hsr:

high cloud quintet lore

#there's wayyyyyy more but this is the only thing i really care about #somewhat because this was part of the reason i started playing LOL fandom osmosis was rlly selling the tragic friendgroup/polycule lore #xianzhou contender for worst plot in history like they literally said have an entire story of exposition #im rewatching the jingliu jing yuan and yanqing video and it's so sad girl. erosion 2.0 star rail style #like where was this storytelling quality in the actual main plotline lmfao #hsr #ramblings! #queued #i'll admit you only really find out about zls dead harem in event quests and artifacts too but at least they're in events in some form #theyre also in story quests and shit like the impact on the world is real #in star rail i feel like the 5 dead gays r literally just forgotten unless you have the characters who were connected to the quintet #and yet their story is way more compelling than everything that actually happened in the main arc lmfao

[driftwooddestiel]

todays the last day of holidays 😭

#i have to go back to school tomorrow… hell world… #and it turns out the like 10 pages of french booklet i did were only recommended hw… so i didnt need to do all that… 😔 #im pretty ok w going back to school cos like ill be glad to see my friends every day again but mainly im just not excited for sport #since i have to do tennis now… even tho ill be with tons of friends i just really hate tennis and find it hard 😭 and i really love softball #so im quite sad about not getting in 💔 since i understand im not the greatest at it and i need to sit down every 10 min during training #and all that but yk… i have the love of the game 😔 and i rlly liked the team and the coach a lot 💔 but hey theres always next year ig #maybe ill even join a team outside of school or smth so i can get better… perhaps #okay this just turned into me talking about softball not returning to school but still my point stands #SUMMER HOLIDAYS ARE OVER IN A DAY 💔

[emarli-the-doodler]

Ruin got me conflicted about him...

#fnaf security breach #doodles #fnaf #wip #bc like for me when the accusations were thrown around about him was innocent until proven guilty right? no evidence rlly #during that time i had made my monty like him in a way with his silly quirks n stuff #JUST TO FIND OUT THAT HE PROBABLY- MOST LIKELY- KILLED BONNIE-?????? #im so sad #but also mad #my short king #will never be the same to me... #I GOT SO GOD DAMN ATTACHED TO HIM GOD DAMMIT- #i will try to forget it ill try so so so so SO hard #just so I can have my bby back....

[silenthillbunni]

🐇🩹🚪

#i hate myself real bad today.... like it's this constant gnawing feeling in my stomach nd chest #i am such a fucking burden. i am deadweight weighing everyone around me down. im such a fkn pathetic failure #our living situation is rlly bad nd unhealthy nd toxic. im the only one who can disconnect nd shove it all down nd wanna pretend like nothin #but my sister nd my mom are going insane like they cannot stand it anymore. nd they're also getting super depressed so im worried #my mom's been trying to apply for appartments bc she's been on waiting lists for several years so she can actually maybe get one #so they were thinking that my mom nd my sister can move nd me nd my sister can live here #she even found an apartment close by that she would actually get!! so they could move!! #however...... you're not allowed to put more ppl on this contract so if my mom moves me nd my sister can stay here :/// so she cant move.... #cant** stay here #she cant move at all unless my sister nd i have our own places... #my sister has a job nd is an actual responsible adult. so she wont be long until she fixes that #but me???? im 25yrs old... never had a job. cant even graduate highschool even if i try. i have no fkn idea how to survive on my own!!!!! #im just a fkn burden on my mom. i keep her down. i chain her down nd keep her feom being free #im such an awful daughter. im such a bad person. im so worthless. i hate myself for hurting her #i hate seeing her so sad nd depressed bc she wants to get out of this situation so bad #and *im* the one keeping her here. im the reason she cant feel better. bc im a pathetic fkn 25yr old who lives off of her mom like a parasit #ooof i ... i hate myself more deeply than i ever have. how can i do this to my own mom???? why am i so useless???? #idk what to do. idk how to move out!! where to?? how do u get a place to live??!? #atp i'd even take living with someone else. like renting a room or smth. just to free my mom of the curse that is me #but idk how to find anything like that bc im completely and utterly incapable nd useless #i feel so bad for my mom.... i know she doesnt want this but it makes me wanna kms even more #if im dead i cant weigh her down i cant ruin her life!!!! if im dead she'll be free of me. im nothing but a parasite she deserves to be free

[cetoddle]

i'm getting emotional just ignore me tbh

#i was rlly sad last night cause like #things are scary and i am so so scared #and i can't help but think how much easier it would be if i didn't have to keep doing everything alone #sure i have a couple friends online who can try and cheer me up and offer advice and support and stuff #but. u know. #no one's here #i don't have anyone to hold my hand or gently pat my head or take me out for ice cream when i'm so so sad and so so scared #no one to just sit with and talk with and enjoy their presence #i am always alone and it's eating me alive from the inside out #that's all #....... #but i also know that i can't stay here #there's nothing left for me here #and i don't know where the things i need are waiting #but staying here and wallowing won't help #and i have to keep being brave and even if that means doing scary things all by myself for a while longer #i just hope that i'm making the right decisions and that things will work out #and maybe eventually i'll find myself somewhere #where i don't feel quite as alone all the time.. #u know #universe please hold my hand when no one else will #i'm scared #:( #i know i sound so dramatic but. i can't help it ;-; #snow.txt